#focusing on this so i don't have to focus on the rest of the emo stuff

[justanamesstuff]

Tell Me When You're Ready - Matty Healy x f!reader

Based on 'When You're Ready' by Shawn Mendes

A/N: HELLO, THIS IS PURE PAIN IM SORRY! It's my first angsty fic so please tell me what you think :)) I'd say happy reading but...

Warning: ANGST, unrequited feelings, crying, fainting, slight mention of death. maybe typos, i checked but who know

Word count: 3.2 K

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Mhm, mhm

Maybe I had too many drinks

But that's just what I needed

I hope that you don't think that what I'm saying sounds conceited

When I look across the room, and you're staring right back at me

Like somebody told a joke and we're the only ones laughin'

The corner of the room was the only place secured enough to be at the moment. She couldn’t tear her eyes away, or her mind couldn’t stop thinking about them, about him. Her head clouded by his presence like never before. Missed him didn’t even scratch the surface of what she felt during those months. Hell, during those years he had been touring the world. Without her. 

A big gulp of the drink she nursed for the last few minutes, one of the countless glasses she held during the night. The self-pity bubbling on the back of her stomach. ‘He doesn’t care about you, he’s busy…with her’, she thought. 

Loving without reciprocation. What a cliché she was. If he knew, he would probably laugh about it. 

The glass empty, presented in front of her body, took the attention of her mind. A short break from a panoramic view of the party around the couple. It was like a film when the camera focus only on the protagonists and the rest of the room disappears. ‘Cliché again’, she mumbled. The awareness of being drunk didn’t stop her wants to keep going, to keep drinking until she blacked out. Cliché? Maybe a little emo from her. 

She forced her eyes up again. Something inside her wanted to watch the pair, to feel the pang on her heart knowing the girl standing beside him deserved his love. Well, a lie. She wasn’t his lover, but he loved her. She was part of his closest circle, although he had never thought about kissing her. Her want felt like a sin. Like a betrayal to their friendship. 

In a sudden movement, his eyes fell on her standing across the room, long meters away. She swore under her breath, watching his smile growing wider when the information reached his brain. He whispered on the woman’s ear. What does one feel when he does that? A tingling? A shivering around your limbs? She would kill to know. Yes, he had kissed her cheek. She stood a bit taller thinking about it, even when her feet were threatening to fail her. She knew the feeling of his lips on her cheeks, the texture of his hands holding her face closer to then left a sweet kiss on her forehead. But No, it wasn’t enough, she wanted the rest. All of it. All of him.

When Matty was in the middle of his path towards the other side of the room, she focused on the floor. The design on the marvel spiralling. She titled her head, looking at it. Her eyes refused to focus. She got so distracted by it, to the point of forgetting him walking closer to find her. 

“Hey, there you’re!” he was happy. Not drunk happy, just happy. Her heart fluttered, hearing his pitched voice closer. 

“Hi.”  she straightened her head up and back, meeting his eyes. 

“How long have you been hiding here?” 

“Not- Not hiding.” she hiccuped, Matty laughed. The sweet sound surrounding her like a warm hug during a cold night. 

Matty grabbed her by her arms, “Wow.” she didn’t recall moving. “I’d say hours and a good amount of alcohol.” he chuckled, although she couldn’t laugh. 

She felt the urge to leave, be far from him like never before.

“Sweetheart?” he asked, concerned. 

‘Sweetheart’. She wanted to slap him. He had his ‘sweetheart’ at the other side of the room, being perfect. If the woman was drunk, no one really noticed, no one could tell. On the other hand, she was a mess. Even with her mind gone, she could acknowledge it.

“Huh.” 

“Are you alright?”

“Perfect.” Fat lie.

“You don’t look…perfect.” she knew what he was trying to say, but her mind when to dark places first. 

She detached her arms from his calloused hands. “I’m alright, Matty.” the words harsher than intended. “How are you? Congratulations.”

Matty hesitated to answer, “I’m okay.” the answer unsure, his eyes following every one of her movements.

She felt her tongue moving, trying desperately, muttering words without sounds when the room started to move abruptly. Her body leaned forward closer to Matty’s. It was as if in any giving moment, her soul wanted to follow his. 

She heard Matty called her name before everything went black. 

Don't know why I tried

'Cause ain't nobody like you

Familiar disappointment every single time I do

Every single night my arms are not around you

My mind's still wrapped around you

The front of Matty’s door slammed, making him jump on his spot on the living’s room couch, thinking it was Denise ready to kick his ass for smoking inside or just smoking. His heart calmed down when his friend’s form appeared in front of his eyes. 

“Shit, dude! For a second, I th-” but his words died in his throat. Her face pale, wet and clearly upset, threw a dagger directly to his chest. “What’s wrong?”

Her eyes everywhere except looking at his. She tried to dry the tears streaming down, but they kept coming down like a waterfall. Her name on his lips, pleading for her to let him in. 

“He doesn’t love me.” Matty’s friend didn’t have to say the name, he knew. Oh man, he hated the twat more than doing what his mother told him. She deserved so much better.

“Sweetheart.” the half smoked cig left on the ashtray, walking as fast as possible closer to her shrunken body. “Come here.” his closed accent comforting her more than she ever imagined. She let her hands grab his clothes hiding Matty’s back, hanging from there as if her life depended on that. He was there, pushed against her front. They fit, they were perfect…at least for her. 

Matty held his friend. One hand on the back of her head, scratching her soft hair; and his other, palming softly, rhythmically her back. “I’m here, I’m here.” he was, and it was everything she needed. 

Baby, tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin'

Baby, any time you're ready

I'm waitin'

Even ten years from now

If you haven't found somebody

I promise, I'll be around

Tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin'

“Do you ever think about marriage?” she blurbed out without thinking. 

Matty laughed out loud at her question. The rest of the guys left hours before, she was crushing at his for the night, so they chose to spend a few more hours drinking and sharing a joint. The boy took the burning stick from her hands, trying to figure out if she was being serious. She was.

“What do you mean?”

Her eyes fell on his face behind the cloud of smoke he exuded. “Do think you would marry…in the future?”

“Not really.”

“Why?”

“‘Cause the band is my priority.”

“Yes, I know but-”

“I’m not thinking that far ahead.”

“Right.”

“I’d make you my best man, though.” Matty tried to joke, not being able to notice or sense her heart swell with the idea.

“I think smoking weed is making you blind.” she said, dry. “I’m a girl.”

“Yeah, I noticed…” Matty let his eyes wandered around her body lying down beside his. She should’ve felt heat under his gaze, but her skin was frozen. He was glancing at her like a piece of meat. She didn’t want that, she wanted more.

“Shut up.”

His eyes snapped back to life after a moment of being lost. He caught her eyes saying, “You’re my girl, you’re my man. You’re my everything. I love the guys but this…” his hand flying around their bodies. “This is different. I’m not sure if I can live without you.” she agreed in the same and such a different way.

“I’m not going anywhere…you are, rock star.”

“Oh, sweetheart, you’re coming with us. With me.” Matty let his hand extend to take hers, pushing it over his clothed heart. 

What if my dad is right

When he says that you're the one

No, I can't even argue

I won't even fight him on it

Call you when it's late

And I know that you're in bed

'Cause I'm three hours back

Seems like you're always six ahead

“Sweets.” his deep voice from across the room. 

“Yes, pops?” she walked closer, kneeling in front of his rocking chair. His face pale, losing all the colours life painted on his skin during the years. She wanted to cry, she didn’t let herself. 

His wrinkled hand finding the apple of her right cheek. “What’s wrong?” 

“Nothin’ is, old man.”

“Your eyes are sad.” the affirmation took her aback hard. “What’s wrong?”

“I promise nothing is.” she took his hand between her owns. “I’m fine, you’re fine. We’re fine.” she laughed at her words nervously. 

“Where is the Elvis fan?”

She tried to keep her smile on her face when she asked, “Matty?”

“That one.” 

“He’s in Asia. Y’know, shows, tour, and everything a rock star does.” she said, standing up feeling his eyes on her face trying to read her. He was the only one with x-ray eyes. 

“He’s a good kid.” 

Matty would be stoked hearing her grandfather’s words. They were each other's fans. 

“Do you think he’s the one, sweets?” 

Her eyes shoot directly to his. The blue colour in them disappeared a little day by day, doctors said he was loosing his sight. Hard to believe when it was stronger than ever staring into her soul.

“What are you talkin’ about?” 

“He’s the one, isn’t he?”

“It’s- No, it’s- It’s not like that between us, okay?” she walked from side to side, trying to avoid the topic. The older man was wiser. 

“You want that. You love him.”

She chose to ignore him, giving him a simple explanation about starting lunch. The lingering sound of his knowing laugh following her around. 

*** 

Reading when your mind is full of feelings and worries is a difficult task to complete. She closed the book on her lap with a big huff. Her grandad was taking a nap, reason why she had enough time to let her thoughts invade her head. 

Her phone looking back at her a few meters away. She looked at it, resting her head on her palm. Her body pulled up from the porch’s stairs, walking anxiously around. ‘The old man is crazy’, she reasoned. ‘The sickness reached his brain’. 

Quickly as she stood up, the woman went to grab the device, tapping away until she was calling him. ‘He’ll see I’m not…Matty’s my friend.’, the repeated thought until Matty picked up with a sleepy voice.

“Missin’ me, sweetheart?” he said, making her heart explode. Shit.

“Not much as you.”

“How did you know?” Matty loved to teased her. Not expecting a real answer, he continued talking, “How’s he?” 

“Fuckin’ mental.” she pressed her foot hard into the grass like an angry kid. 

Don't know why I tried

'Cause ain't nobody like you

Familiar disappointment every single time I do

Every single night my arms are not around you

My mind's still wrapped around you

His concrete bunker hugging her. The house was quiet since she was the only one taking care of the place while he was away. She missed him, living inside his house for a few days wasn’t enough. 

Matty: Just landed. I’ll see you soon, sweetheart x 

She groaned at the screen. 

Baby, tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin'

Baby, any time you're ready

I'm waitin'

Even ten years from now

If you haven't found somebody

I promise, I'll be around

Tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin', yeah

“I asked her.”

He said just after she plopped down beside him on his fancy couch. 

“Ask who what?” she took a few chips from the pot. 

“I asked her…” he stressed the word more than she expected. “To marry me.”

Her heart skipped a few beets, her eyes wide. The chips got stucked on her throat, so she started coughing. Her body and soul drowning. 

Once she calmed down, after drinking half of her pint of beer, she exclaimed, “You did what?”

Matty laughed at her, thinking she was only surprised. He was surprised even. 

“I asked her to marry me. I'm finally going to make you my best man.” 

His words crushing her heart like it was nothing. 

“I- I- I don’t know what to say.” she looked at his eyes. He was happy and she wanted to die.

“Congratulations maybe?”

“Did she say yes?”

Matty scoffed, “Of course she said yes! It’s me!”

“Of course she said yes…” she repeated like a crazy woman. 

“Oh, c’mon! Be happy for me!” he urged her.

“I…” what could she do in a moment like that? Just lie. “I’m happy, Matty!” 

“Hug me!” 

“Is she really sure to marry a needy boy like you?” the only way out was a joke. 

“You think you’re so witty and funny.” Matty’s voice dripping sarcasm. “Close your mouth and hug me.”

And she did.

“I can’t believe it.” she whispered into his shoulder. The mix of cigarettes and his cologne taking over her senses. 

“Hey,” he moved back. “This…” Matty flew his hand between them. “This is not going away because I’m marrying her, okay?”

‘I’m sure everything is going to change’, she thought.

“I know, Matty.”

He brought her back into his chest, where she just wanted to stay forever. 

And if I have to, I'll wait forever (yeah)

Say the word and I'll change my plans

Yeah, you know that we fit together

I know your heart like the back of my hand

“Here you are.” she exclaimed after turning around the last corner of the fancy hotel. 

Matty didn’t move a muscle, smoking his cigarette, being unaware of his family and friends looking for the groom. 

“Here I am.” he hit a small stone with his shoe. 

She let all the anger left her body when she noticed his struggle. 

“Everything alright?” her voice cut the short silence that fell between them. 

“Yes. No. I don’t even know, sweetheart.” 

Her body moving closer, she couldn’t help it. “Matt-” 

“What if this is a mistake?”

“Matty.”

“What if marrying her tomorrow…it’s the biggest mistake of my life, and y’know I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I can’t-” she watched him brush his hair back anxiously.

“Matthew.”

“Is this a mistake?” he looked at her. 

She had the answer ready at the tip of her tongue, she wanted to beg for him not to say ‘I do’. Selfishness wasn’t part of her list of characteristics. 

“Matty.” his hands were cold, the night air brought goosebumps to her skin. “Look at me.” she stood in front of him. “This is not a mistake. You love her, and she- she loves you.” the singer smile for the first time. “Even if this is a mistake, only time will tell. Do you want to marry her?” she dared to ask.

“Yes.” he muttered.

“Then that’s all that matters, Matty.”

“What would I do without you?” the lights outside reflecting on his beautiful eyes. They showed so much care for her. It warmed and crushed her beating heart.

“Survive. Now you’ll have a wife for all this.”

“No. This-” Matty went to move his hand, but she stopped him.

“Stop with that.”

“I’m serious.”

“I know you’re…it’s not real, Matty.” her eyes look softly into his. 

He wanted to ask her, to protest even, although someone ran closer to them.

“Fuck me!” George swore behind them. “He’s here!” he shouted back to someone. 

So baby, tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin'

Baby, any time you're ready

I'm waitin', yeah

“Matthew, do you take…” the old man between the couple started to say. “To be your lawfully wedded wife? Do promise to love and cherish her, in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, for richer for poorer, for better for worse, and forsaking all others, keep yourself only unto her, for so long as you both shall live?”

“I do.” he said, the whole church erupted into applauses as if they were one of the band’s crowd at a show. 

She didn’t feel like it was real. It was done. He was officially married to someone else, and she was going to witness his love from the side. Realization hit her.

Even ten years from now

If you haven't found somebody

I promise, I'll be around

Tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin', yeah

Baby, tell me when you're ready

I'm waitin', yeah

Baby, any time you're ready

I'm waitin', oh

Even ten years from now

If you haven't found somebody

I promise, I'll be around

Tell me when you're ready

She opened her eyes, staring at the white ceiling above her. The light was too bright, and her mouth felt like she swallowed a big chunk of ashes. 

Someone said her name, the sound silenced by her disoriented mind. Her head turned slowly, looking at Matty sitting on the floor. 

Her name on his lips once more. His lips moving, although the sound didn’t reach her ears. He pushed her hair to the side, furrowing his eyes…worried. 

“I’m fine.” she said. “What happened?” she tried to blink away the sickness taking over her body.

“You fainted, sweetheart.” 

Her eyes closed tight, cringing visibly, “Fuck.” 

“You almost gave me a heart attack, too.”

“Drama queen.”

“You fainted at my wedding, sweets.”

The nickname functioning as a calling for her eyes to return to Matty’s. He called her so many times ‘sweetheart’ she was used to it. On the other hand, no one except pops called her ‘sweets’. Her hearth swelling painfully, she lost every important man of her life. 

“Hey, hey…” Matty noticed the change on her factions. “It’s fine. We only care about you, nothing else.”

‘We, as him and her’, she reminded herself.

“I’m fine.” she tried to push her body up but the room was moving quicker, she had to lay down once more. Her eyes shielded from the outside world by her arm.

“No so fast.” Matty helped her. 

She supposed they were somewhere around the hotel. The party, his party. The weeding, Matty’s wedding at the other side of the closed door. 

“You should go, Matty.” he started protesting, even though she shushed him. “I’ll be fine. I promise I won’t move from here. I’ll call you if I need you, okay?”

“Are you sure?”

“I’m sure.” she was far from that. She wanted to keep him inside the room with her. “I’ll live. This is just another drunk story. Don’t worry.” the lies dropping faster than she could stop her mouth.

“I’ll come to check on you.”

“Fine.” she agreed, not really believing his words.

“See you in a bit, sweetheart.”

“Mhm.”

A tear rolled from her eyes after the door closed. She focused on it travelling down the side of her head, trying not to think or feel any more.

I'm waitin', I'm waitin' 

*********

#matty healy #matty healy fic #the 1975 fic #matty healy x reader #matty healy fanfiction #matty healy angst #matty healy x you #matty healy x f!reader #matty healy x female!reader #angst

[shouldntbeaskingmyselfwhy]

okay full thoughts on the taylor cover band:

they sort of did eras but some of the choices were weird (like speak now had love story, ybwm and forever and always thrown in there, no separate fearless era?? forever and always was an interesting choice i think me and my friend were the only ones going feral for it.)

the lead singer was incredibly talented, and she did a lot of taylor's little mannerisms and dance moves without making it feel like an impersonation, if that makes sense. clearly a fan who cares a lot

the times i've seen taylor live, i'm always so focused on her and being in her presence, and when i'm able to focus more on the instrumentation/arrangement/rest of the performers, it's usually through a laggy livestream. this was a cool experience in that it just kept hitting me that her whole discography is just wall-to-wall really solid songs, even divorced from taylor's magnetism as a singer and performer. in some ways it was like hearing them all for the first time again

there were a lot of kids there, i'd say maybe 8-11 year olds were the biggest demo, and it filled my heart sooooo much. to see these little girls in their costumes and jumping around with their friends, trading friendship bracelets, idk it made me very emo. taylor, her music, and this community have been such an anchor for me over the past 15 years, and it was very touching to me to think that these little girls will get to have that, too

they closed the show with 22, which i initially thought was a really weird choice because rep was the last era they did (this girl did THAT NOTE in don't blame me it was sooooo good). but when i realized they were paying homage to eras 22, complete with a kick line and giving away the hat, it made total sense. so much joy in that room.

[thedawningofthehour]

Since Shredder and the Krang Invasion don't happen in your story, have you though about incorporating some version of those fight scenes in the fanfic, like Draxum or Galois/Donnie facing off against the Hamatos while using the Shredder/Krang Prime's dialogues? I can imagine the absolute horror/inner turmoil Leo would face if Galois was attacking him and the rest of their family while saying the Krang leader's words if they succeed in offing Draxum. It could even be a fanfic.

I kind of already did that? In the last chapter, (I could barf, it's still the last chapter, Leo's still on top of that freaking roof) some of Draxum's dialogue is lifted directly from Krang Prime. Maybe it was more obvious in the drafts? I basically reversed the entire conversation at one point and cut a lot of Draxum's name-calling, so the allusions might have gotten lost. Him calling Leo 'little pest' is a direct reference to Krang Prime after Leo locked them in the Prison Dimension together, and his whole thing about Galois being better off with him than as Donnie is supposed to be reminiscent of Prime's 'I am a gift' speech.

Does the Shredder even talk much during their big fight? I know he talked to the Foot husbands and Draxum, but during the big flashy fight sequence? I'd have to rewatch the finale. And I generally don't rewatch finales much because it makes me sad lol. (especially when it was cut before its time like Rise was) Incorporating elements of the fight itself, that would be very difficult for a few reasons. One is just the change in media-animation and print are very different mediums and what's entertaining to watch is not necessarily going to be entertaining to read a play-by-play of, and vice versa. A second is that Rise depends heavily on a lot of fantastical elements, and the characters do a lot of shit that should not be physically possible to do. So far, I've been mostly portraying fantastical elements as realistic as possible. I mean, I can certainly try to incorporate some of that in the fic, but that leads into my third reason-I'm not that good at writing fight scenes. I intentionally focus more on the dialogue and emotional aspects to draw attention away from the fact that I suck at it.

In general, I try not to repeat canon dialogue too much and that's something that turns me off when reading other people's fanfics. If I wanted to watch the show, I'd watch the show-I want to see how your fic differs from the canon material. There are exceptions, of course-in my Dishonored fic I had to reuse in-game dialogue very often, because so much of Dishonored is creeping around watching people talk and do stuff, and that familiar dialogue gave readers an anchor in where we were while the protagonist is busy being emo and piling whale meat into his mouth. But even then, I tried to change up the dialogue whenever I could to reflect the differences in the AU from canon. Like, for instance, there's a scene in the vanilla game where a guard and a prostitute are talking about how the city has gone to shit since the empress died, and it kind of trails off into small talk because neither had much more than a passing fondness for the empress. In my AU, the empress was a former street kid who was revealed to be the bastard daughter of the emperor and she focused her rule on reducing poverty and improving the lives of even the poorest of her citizens. It devolves into an argument with another guard insulting her origins and the original guard and prostitute defending her because she was viewed as almost a saint among the commoners.

Oh, but...I'm not going to spoil it, but the main climax of the story-I think you guys are gonna go feral. It's not canon dialogue but you guys will definitely recognize it.

#doth asks

[mothbaaalls]

a while ago in another blog i made a post of all the songs i wanted in pjsk and it's interesting to see what songs we wound up getting... but now i want to do one specifically of covers that i want to see >:3 (evil)

it's hidden under here bc i talk a lot :3

if any of these songs actually has a cover in jpsekai please don't tell me about it i'd like to find out organically (backflipping over and over again when i find it in the game)

yasuhiro - wailing vampire - a rui-focused wxs cover would be SO GOOD just look at the lyrics... (if it has to have a virtual singer then probably len)

wowaka - rolling girl - mizuki and ena focused nightcord cover (im feral for nightcord yeah yeah yeah i got assigned them in the quiz at the start of the game and tbh? the quiz was correct.) (i'm already thinking of lyric divisions for this one as well) (girl help)

wowaka - world's end dancehall - kanade and mafuyu :) (evil) (i'm already thinking of how the lyrics would be divided) (might post it later)

rerulili - donor song - kanade-focused nightcord cover (maybe with a secondary focus on mafuyu) (i just really love kanamafu but again. LOOK AT THE LYRICS. LOOK AT TH)

orangestar - spinning sky rabbit - emu-focused wxs cover :) /evil (i cant remember who the original singer of this is it's probably either miku or ia but if it's ia then i think rin would be good)

orangestar - earphones and a chorus of cicadas - (i lvoe this song i cany shut up about it and i put it in my last post abt songs i want in pjsk as well) (put leoneed on it with rin :3)

niki - wave - ruikasa ?? (i think the line about skyping with aliens is sooo rui coded and it would work good with their voices methinks... also kaito on it would be fun)

niki - jitter doll - NENE. okay maybe it doesn't work so well for wxs but thwyre the theater troupe. nene can play a tragic android it's fiiine just give her the song let her belt her heart out... if it absolutely has to have a virtual singer then probably luka

neru - tokyo teddy bear - listen listen listen listen. i know covers shared between units aren't too common. BUT. SAKI + MIZUKI? LISTEN. you maybe think "why saki" but also YOU GET IT RIGHT??

nayutalien - wakusei loop - saki :) /evil (it's about her pining for the rest of leoneed. /evil. make shiho sing cosmology of nyannyan also)

kz livetune - last night good night - it's got nightcord vibes yes but also. WXS? PUT WXS ON IT. emunene. either emunene or kanaena

jin - outer science - mafuyu and ena... i have lyric divisions saved to my computer if anybody wants to see

iroha(sasaki) - meltdown - i kind of feel like mmj could do this one?? "but mmj isn't dark and emo" but shoujorei tho. "but it doesn't have shoujorei vibes" but it kind of DOES THOUGH? if shoujorei feels like a railroad on a summer day (oh no), then meltdown feels like the dark and cool underpass underneath the railroad where it crosses a river. SO! MMJ! PUT HARUKA ON IT! PUT SHIZUKU ON IT!

hachi - matryoshka - i'm gonna be honest i don't really know but it kind of has emunene vibes :3 or all of wxs. i'm just glad we got it in ensekai since the last time i made one of these posts but idk if the fact that there's no sekai version yet means therell Never be a sekai version

hachi - donut hole - again covers between units really aren't common but i neeeeeed tsukasa and mafuyu to do this one. NEEED IT. evn if they have to do it separately pleaaase... nightcord rin also

goboumen - a realistic, logical ideologist - mizuena vibes kinda... or just all of nightcord... having luka or meiko as the virtual singer would be fun

9mm parabellum bullet - setsuna drive - this is another one that im obsessed with but im the nomber ONE ia rocks fan. if ia rocks has no more fans then im no longer in this world. anyway PUT LEONEED ON IT and probably meiko or miku as the virtual singer

#nonsense radio #vocaloid #pjsk #sorry if any of the producer names are wrong im stupdi #the trifecta of wailing vampire + earphones and a chorus of cicadas + setsuna drive is probably enough to positively identify me #edit to add: i just found this in my drafts nd im gonna post it but none of you judge me for my deranged ramblings ok >:(

[mar64ds]

JEVIL

where do i begin with my funny little friend... jevil is a character that i have always thought was really fun: a secret difficult boss fight, a mysterious connection to gaster and overall i think he has a really funny personality, i've always really liked him! he wasn't my favorite character and i don't think i was as invested in this character as everyone else was in 2018, back when he was the most mysterious character that we had met so far, but when chapter 2 came out i kind of started to appreciate jevil more? Since we were all so focused on new content that made me remember how much i liked chapter 1 and my love for jevil grew more

I have always really liked his relationship with Seam even if we never see them actually interacting, I have mentioned before that they just seem to me like they would have a very Sam&Max dynamic asdfghjkl and i always like duos like that they are funny and endearing. And adding all that tragedy to their relationship makes it even stronger, I just really like these two and I don't care how their relationship is interpreted they are companions and i like them and if they don't talk to each other in the game again i will break my computer

I focus on him and Seam the most but Jevil is a character that is really fun to make interact with anyone, some based on canon material and others just fun concepts

I think the idea of him and Susie becoming friends (perhaps even family) is so sweet to me, these two have so many parallels and I love the way they interact, Susie is very blunt with him and that doesn't bother Jevil at all, they are two sharks prepared to fight!!

I personally like to think him and Gaster were genuine friends, that Gaster didn't mean for Jevil to end up the way he did, that they both just wanted a friend...

Him and Spamton are really funny, wacky cartoon characters in one room together what could go wrong, funny exes. I know I don't focus a lot on them but I like them and some very talented artists make such cool content of them that it makes appreciate them more, keep up the good work everyone

Jevil mentions Queen once but I really like to believe they got along really well, that maybe all the other kings were stuck-ups but she was always the one who found him funny the most..... 🥹 I think they are friends :)

Now for relationships that are completely made-up by me? Jevil and Toriel, they are friends to me, they are such close friends. Heartache used to be Jevil's theme!!!! They both like jokes!!!! They both have horns!!!!! They both feel trapped and lonely!!!!! They could be best of friends. I also think him and Papyrus could have really interesting interactions, they are both positive people, just two different kinds of positivity

Jevil is a secret boss that doesn't get much screen time and we barely know ANYTHING about him, so a lot of my headcanons are just based on what I believe he COULD have been like or could be like at the moment, it's all pure speculation and having fun with a character i like and that i think has a lot of potential, he's slowly just becoming an OC at this point lol. I like to believe he was a little prankster as a kid and the funny kid on school but he didn't have many friends, when he was a teen he goes through his 'emo phase' and tries to pretend he doesn't care about being a funny little jester anymore and focuses more on his 'grim reaper' style (and the reason why he does this it's not just because it's a funny idea it's because he's tired of being rejected for being so 'different', he's masking pretty much), when he's a young adult he goes back to trying to be a funny jester and he ends up becoming the court jester!! The rest is history and I think he meets Seam after he has been the court jester for a little while

I see Jevil as trans, ace and aroflux! Autistic as well! Jesters and rubber ducks are two of his biggest special interests, he stims with his hat, tail and hands and has a a chew stim toy in the shape of a spade! He of course also vocally stims all the time! He repeats words often and likes to imitate sounds. And I also really like the idea that he has a lisp!

This might sound silly but Jevil has helped me a lot with my confidence towards my autism this last year? Papyrus too, they both have helped SO much. I don't know, i'm a very insecure person and sometimes i think i'm extremely childish (not as in... a mean childish attitude, i mean having childish interests and things like that) or sometimes i can just feel very different from everyone around me, and thinking about Jevil i don't know makes me happy? Like i get it he's the court jester but he's a guy that likes playing games like roundabout and things like that, and he vocally stims all the time and it's established that he was very lonely but the people that cared about him? They cared, they cared a lot, he was someone that was missed. And uh... wow that means a lot i'm going to explode and cry

Anyway, i like jevil, worst character ever

#YOU UNLEASHED THE JEVIL INFODUMP WHAT HAVE YOU DONE #(thanks anon) #deltaruneundertale

[xiaojuun]

oh nooo i hope you're feeling better now, even if you're still not 100% over it :( covid sucks 😔 but only one exam left!!!! that's great ☺️💓✨ good luck 💘 i'm sure you'll do great 😌 plus you get a break afterwards so that will be nice!! please take care and relax a bit by then 😩

i'm managing the schedule well, just annoyed at the fact that i have such a badly organised one 🥲 but i'm doing well at most of my subjects so that's what i'm focusing on lol

omg i loved the txt mv and i love the route that they're taking with the concepts, but i haven't listened to the full album yet 👀 what did you think??? plus we're at least getting a darari perf video... idk what goes on at whygee but i hope more content is on the way... either that or let my boys rest 😩😩😩

definitely feeling better than how i started out with it, but i have a feeling it's going to take a while before i'm back at 100% this thing is really no joke 🥲 not that i ever thought it was but . you know . i am definitely looking forward to all the upcoming time to relax & focus on just doings things i enjoy + seeing some friends and traveling a bit ! it is tough when you're at the mercy of when things are scheduled ... but it will change every term, right? so you just have to get through this chunk and then hopefully it will improve. that's how i try to think about it haha. i have to take clinical on mondays next semester and i'm not looking forward to it but i just think, it's only for a few months. the album i think gets better with each listen ! i love opening sequence. the title is not my favorite of theirs but it's tough when they have so many strong ones. i don't really love this concept personally, but i think that's 90% because i'm burnt out on the darker/edgier stuff these days, i want bright and fun summer concepts already ! or like if you're gonna do emo . do it like wood/z akjdgbjhdsgb but that said, i'm not upset with the cb by any means. it's just not my fave of theirs and that's okay ! we can't all be blue hour ! lol tbt to when we were supposed to have darari stages and an mv... never should have let them let me believe it without the proof. give us tmap s3 and i'll forgive u though whygee 🙄

#i'm excited for the astro cb because their song/concept is what i've been waiting for #i'm excited for oneus and yeppis too but not as enthusiastic abt their concepts #who is gonna give me the next count 1 2 that's literally all i am asking for ... ksjBFJHABD #erimail #mail from: mimu! 🍯 #long post

[softdavidrose]

david rose in s06e13 + food

#schittscreekedit #schitt's creek #schittscreek #bbelcher #humorgifs #david rose #♥mine #i love him so much #focusing on this so i don't have to focus on the rest of the emo stuff #about me #food / #i am iole and i am david and we are the same person

[syubub]

JUNGKOOK SOULMATE READING

Disclaimer: tarot is speculative and to be taken with a grain of salt.

Let's begin. The long awaited Koo reading.

To start, koos energy is a really rich, solid purple that is kinda pearlescent? It hard to explain but it kinda looks like this

So thats pretty neat. Most of the time the way I see energy it isn't ever really opaque so that was new for me. Another thing that was new for me was when I went to, essentially, connect to koos energy there was this like glass door looking thing and, it sounds nuts I know, but I left an offering of energy at the glass thing? Kinda like leaving flowers outside the door and then he removed the glass thing and connected his energy with me.

Now its even weirder because his soulmates energy was already with him so I didn't even need to connect with his energy in order to connect with the soulmate. His soulmates energy was just this white sparkly blob standing by him (I tend to see the boys when connecting with the energy because I already know what they look like) and immediately his soulmate was "chatting" with me. I was surprised so I was like, "do you have any messages that you want to say?"

SOULMATE DELIVERED.

The messages I got were

You'll see

Open your arms to love

Carry the burdens as a badge

Afraid to lose you

Cool cool cool. I think his soulmate is aware of all the upheaval that he's been doing on a soul level recently. I talked some about it in this reading x and kinda this one x I think his soulmate is being very encouraging. (Also, I think his whole upheaval really had to do with him not feeling like a person? Idk thats just the vibe in getting. Its like he needed to learn how to feel again and learn that he can have true and authentic love)

Now the open your arms to love thing is cute because I also wrote down, "He's suffered enough" and "Love is hard for him" (I swear to God I heard a tiny little "hey!" From jk in the background lol)

His soulmate is very aware of the struggles he's been through and is going through and is very understanding that he needs patience. So cute.

Keep in mind the reading hasn't even started yet. We still hanging on his little energy platform chatting and his Soulmate is like, "I don't know him" ... I didn’t even ask that yet but oki. So they don't know eachother. And again, out of nowhere his soulmate wanted me to know that their hair is blonde. Awesome. This could mean that their hair is blonde when they meet or that's just the natural color.

I was like, dude, I haven't pulled cards yet. And his soulmate was like, "no shit"... soulbae has jokes. I was like, "You're funny" and they were like, "You can write that one down too"

His soulmate and him definitely have witty banter and they tease eachother a lot.

Now, some freaky shit. I was like cool I'm gonna do the reading now, its awesome that you're connecting with me personally and it'd be great if you could just continue to help me through the reading. And they were like, "yeah no prob" and then dissolved into my energy? Idk. Wtf. His soulmate was like cool I'll help out for sure and gave me a massive direct link. That hasn't happened before. Neat.

On to the actual cards finally! So, for the cards that represent Soulbae are, kid you the fuck not, The Lovers and knight of wands rev. So. This person is very passionate and driven. A little scattered and impulsive but with the lovers card they are very sure of the choices they make. Very honest and open in communication. Also the fucking lovers card. Soulmate shit.

Now. For personality I drew 2 of swords rev. Death, hermit and knight of pentacles rev. Now. I think this person is elusive. A wrote down "no one quite knows" so I think this is the type of person that has never ending depth. They are ever changing yet always the same? They are kinda blocked off and hard to get to know. You have to earn their trust for sure. Also definitely a perfectionist. Can get bored easily too. I also got slave, knight rev and bully. This person is very strong willed and might have some past trauma that they've yet to let go of. Has probably been in some shit relationships because they tend to have "delusions" about romance (more so i get the feeling that they had high expectations that would never be able to be fulfilled? Like they have a tendency to plan everything out in their head and if it doesn't go exactly to plan then its not good enough.) This person might also be stuck, not moving forward because they have too much faith that everything is just gonna magically work out. Probably spiritual.

Onto the relationship now. We have THE LOVERS AGAIN, 9 of cups, wheel of fortune and king of wands. So much contentment. Its fucking destiny. Its the most beautiful, strong, loving and influential relationship. It is what you dream of as a kid. Theres so much honest and open communication in this relationship. UGH its so fucking good. They are in love and its fucking destiny thats divinely guided. Thank you for coming to my tedtalk.

We have the pillar of light, sisterhood of the rose and the age of light. They are going to accidently make eachother fucking woke im cackling. They help eachother become more intune with ~spiritual shit~

Now for this person's sign. Air sign with some fire. I think there might be gemini in there somewhere.

Now for career. I'm confused as fuck. Maybe a life coach? Could also be a personal trainer? This person is really successful and does whatever they feel called to do? I'm not really sure?

Now for where they're from. Oki oki oki. This person has probably moved a lot as a kid and probably enjoys travel a lot. They value the knowledge that the wold has to offer!

Message from his soulmate to him: simplify your life, you think someone is lying (they are) and time to let go. Theres something that he is holding onto (some fake friends perhaps?) That he needs to let go of. Theres also a message of slowing down and resting. Life has been busy for him and he needs to... simplify...

Now we have, balance masculine and feminine energies. Koo needs balance in his life. Him and his soulmate balance pretty well in terms of energy!

For the little homemade cards we have, serendipity and focus. This is his soulmate saying, "hey, focus on the now. Keep doing what you're doing and we'll meet when the time is right" I also made a note that they could possibly meet at a concert (I don’t think it would be a bts concert.)

For descriptors we have: older, masculine, outgoing, long hair, light hair (remember when I said blonde earlier), outgoing again. So this person has masculine features. I also made a note of dark eyes that are like, dark brown grey? And a fit and built body. Also dresses like Koo but a bit more professional or classy. Like classy emo.

Now I also pulled a fortune from my bowl of fortunes and got, "you don't get in life what you want; you get in life what you are." He needs to focus on bettering himself.

Cool cool cool. Now we have Defend to the end , the worth while. This card talks about seeing things for what they really are. Not being swayed by gilded things. Its about learning to love and choose love. Not being afraid of fear. Living your truth. To fight for love and honor and ditch the shit that isn't genuine or doesn't come from a place of love. Its about standing your ground even when its hard. Not compromising yourself.

Overall koo and his soulmate have such a cute and loving relationship. Koo has worked really hard on a soul level and physical level. He's betting himself and he's learning about genuine love. His soulmate couldn't give less shits about whether or not he's famous. His soulmate sees him for who he is, who he really truly is at his core. He doesn't need to protect or keep his walls up. He's open and honest with his soulmate and they are both focused on growing and becoming better people.

TLDR: KOO GETS ALL THE LOVE HE DESERVES

#bts tarot #bts #bts reactions #jungkook #bts rm #taehyung #seokjin #bts imagines #yoongi #bts jhope #hoseok #bts suga #bts v #park jimin #jk #kookie

[heyboke]

SWIPED RIGHT! | Kageyama Tobio x Reader SMAU

0:10 — Pinky Promise and...

NOTE: I understand if some of my readers only prefer the SMAU part, so I made this update flexible so you can still get what’s happening without reading the writing part! Keep in mind that you still have to click on ‘Keep Reading’ to access the following photos!

But, some of the parts can’t be translated through social media screenshots so reading the writing part will really help you understand the characters and what’s happening to the story on a deeper level! ☻

Word Count: 3344 words

YOUR POV

After concluding Bokuto-senpai's non-stop blabbering about the movie he watched last night to procrastinate from studying, the boys were finally able to go to their locker room to freshen up for their long-awaited BBQ Friday.

I decided to wait for them on the bench just outside the gym. Their four hour training went by so fast that when I looked up at the sky, the stars were already twinkling. The cool breeze I only get to enjoy at night hugged my skin as the winds started to lightly gust against my bare sleeves. Ugh, I forgot to bring a hoodie with me tonight.

My thoughts were interrupted as I received Tobio-kun's very random text. It was a very pleasant surprise that unconsciously plastered a huge smile on my face. I was too busy texting him that I didn't even notice the whole team standing in front of me, all ready to go.

"What's that on your phone that's making you grin like the Grinch?" Akaashi asked, trying to subtly take a peek on my phone screen. I immediately locked the device and put it inside the pocket of my sweatpants.

"No need to peek, Akaashi! Let's not waste anymore time... let's go!" I said, jumping out of the bench as the whole team started to walk, carrying on with their small talks.

The gray haired captain stood out since he was ahead of everyone, hopping like a kangaroo while shrieking about how he's been craving for Barbecue for so long now and that he can't believe he finally got the blue check on Twitter.

I was walking alongside Akaashi at the far end side of the group, watching everyone ahead of us with a comfortable silence lingering between us.

"Do you need help with your bag? I can carry it for you." He asked, breaking the silence.

"It's fine, it's fine! I can carry it on my own. Besides, you've already had such a long training. I don't want to burden you with such a small thing." I said, smiling at him to assure him that it's fine.

"Oh, speaking of my bag... hold up," I muttered, stopping on my tracks as I opened my bag to get something.

"What's up?" Akaashi uttered his third question since I saw him outside of the gym. I shuffled through my things until I finally found what I was looking for.

"Aha! Here. I got it while y’all were doing your spiking drills." I said, handing him a slightly chilled bottle of Vanilla protein shake.

"Oh. Thanks, Y/N. It's been a while since you gave me something as boujee as a protein shake. Hmm, someone's loaded today." Akaashi teased, a small smile smothering his gorgeous face. It is an unsaid arrangement between the both of us that I can only give something a little fancy to him, or to anyone, when I have extra savings with me.

"Shut up! I've been saving up for tomorrow for quite some time now. Just... shut up and be grateful for that, Keiji." I said, chuckling as I playfully hit his arm.

"Why? What's so special about tomorrow?" he asked, eyebrows scrunching up together in curiosity.

"Didn't I tell you? To—"

"WE'RE FINALLY HERE!! YAAAY!!!" Bokuto hollered, cutting me off from telling Akaashi about my plans with Tobio-kun, Hinata-kun and my bestfriends for tomorrow. The familiar aroma of savory and mouthwatering meat being grilled, instantly filled my nostrils. I just realized that I've been distracting myself from how hungry I actually am all this time.

"God, I'm so hungry. Y'all were taking so long. If I wasn't on such a good mood, I would've been so hangry by now!" I said, eyes locked on the grilling area on the side of the restaurant where the Barbecue we've been dying to eat is being prepped.

Good thing, Bokuto-senpai already reserved a table for us ahead of time. The short list of things that the simple-minded captain would not procrastinate on would certainly include Volleyball and his favorite food, Barbecue.

Everyone decided to sit down on their desired seat. I felt comfortable sitting at the very far end of the booth’s couch. Since Akaashi and I were already walking side by side, it made sense that he just sat beside me on the couch too.

The rest of the team, and most likely even me, were practically drooling at the sight of barbecue being served to the tables around us. Yukie-san, one of the current managers of the team, is known for her great love for food. She decided to take matters in to her own hands and stood up for everyone. She simply asked one of the servers to follow up our orders.

Some of the third years, Konoha-san, Komi-san and Sarukui-san, were struggling to deal with an impatient Bokuto that was on the verge of going on emo mode.

“Where’s Akaashi? Didn’t he...“ the captain mumbled, pouting as he searched for the setter that was seated beside me.

“Oh, no. Bokuto-san’s Weakness #42. He becomes impractically impatient when people make him wait for his food, most especially when he’s hungry after training.” I hear Akaashi mutter beside me. I looked at him and he seems like Doctor Strange, looking at and calculating the different possibilities of what can happen if the captain won’t be able to get his food anytime soon.

Thankfully, Yukie-san came back to our table with at least two servers holding stacks of Barbecue on their trays, gently placing them on the table in front of all of us. Bokuto-senpai’s eyes lit up, even his hair seemed to perk up in excitement as he saw the Barbecue he’s been dying to eat being served in front of him.

“ALRIGHT, Let’s dig in!! This is in honor of me getting the blue check and a reward for all of us after such a hard training!! WOOHOOO!! Enjoy, everyone!!” the captain cheered, taking at least five chunks of meat in his chopsticks and munching the all down in one go.

No matter how hungry I am, I took the time to look at the team in front of me. The mere sight of them enjoying their food is endearing me. Am I really going to be a part of this wonderful team by next week? Do I really belong here?

I snapped out of my thoughts when I saw green vegetables being plopped down on my plate. I looked up and saw Akaashi putting one last piece of greens on my plate.

“Hey, why are you putting all that? I came here for Barbecue and not vegetables, Keiji.” I mocked him, poking the vegetables he just placed on my plate with my own chopsticks.

“Shush, you have to eat those. Even just a couple. They make you healthier. Plus, if you’re going to be our manager, you can’t be getting sick and frail.” he said, not even sparing a glance at me as he started to eat his own food.

Now this... this is one of his gestures that made me grow really fond of him. Some people might think otherwise but for me, Akaashi is not shy at all. Others often mistake his silence as shyness. When in reality, he only speaks up when he thinks it’s necessary — when he thinks it’s worth it. In fact, he is very frank with his words. He’s the type of person that would call you out when you’re doing something wrong, but he’d also compliment you when you’re doing something right. If one tends to focus more on his expressions, they can be convinced that he’s bland because his face really is usually blank. He only ever shows what he feels through his expressions at very rare occasions. Thus, he shows his feelings most of the time through his gestures; be it a small one or a big one.

“Hmph, fine. I’ll just eat more barbecue with it, so I don’t taste it that much.” I said, wrapping the greens with a chunk of meat. Bokuto-senpai, who’s instantly uplifted by now, overheard what I said.

“That’s what I do too when I need to eat vegetables!!! You’re doing the right thing, Y/N!!” he laughed, as he stuffed more barbecue inside of his mouth. The other third years that were worked up on not letting him slip in to his emo mode earlier, were now having the time of their life beside Bokuto-senpai, laughing at each other as they throw jokes at one another from time to time.

“Y/N?” said someone from in front of me. I looked up and saw that the voice belongs to none other than, Kaori-san, the other current manager of the team. She’s so pretty, oh my gosh.

“H-Hello, Kaori-san. Is there anything I could help you with?” I asked, getting a little conscious about the fact that I’m basically eating like a pig in front of someone so gorgeous.

“Oh, nothing! I just wanted to talk to you, even just for a little bit.” She smiled, eating gracefully like a princess. I could never, lol.

“I’m always down for a talk with you, Kaori-san!!” I gushed. Oh my god, do I sound a little too excited? What if she thinks I’m a crazy fangirl? Oh no.

“You’re so cute! Hahaha, anyway, I’d love to hear your thoughts right now about the team manager position because I’d be really be at ease knowing that the team is in good hands after Yukie-san and I graduate.” She said, a hint of sadness was evident after she mentioned the fact that they’re graduating this year.

“Oh, of course... Hm, before I even officially become the manager of this team, I can say that I already have a pretty good bond with them... thanks to this one person,” I nudged Akaashi who was peacefully eating beside me and secretly listening to Kaori-san and I’s conversation. Akaashi-kun, you’re not so slick. I might’ve only known you for a little over three months now, but I can feel it when your ears are trying to listen, despite having your eyes focused on something else.

I continued, “I just know that they have something really special about them. At times, I even get intimidated by their bond because not all teams can easily earn it. It takes a lot of time and everyone’s cooperation as well. With that being said, I just want to make sure that I won’t get in their way or anything. I really am taking things seriously and I’ve also been thinking about it a lot lately. I don’t want to make a hasty decision just because I got blinded with such a big opportunity. It’s a commitment that we’re talking about, not just to myself, but to the rest of the team as well.”

I didn’t even realize that I’ve been blabbering like a little kid in front of Kaori-san.

“The fact that you’re thinking about it this much already says a lot, Y/N. Hell, I didn’t even know it’s possible for me to want you to take this position even more!” she chuckled.

“Your words mean a lot to me, Kaori-san! I’ll make sure to keep it in mind once I make my final decision.” I smiled, stuffing my mouth with one of the green vegetables on my plate and Barbecue.

The warmth and liveliness around the table never died down all through out the meal. We even found the gray-haired captain standing up and doing an imitation of this one funny video he watched as a kid. The trays and plates on the table were now empty, while our stomachs were full and satisfied.

“HEY, HEY, HEY!!! Let’s go to arcade now!! Yoohoo!!” Bokuto-senpai started to hop around while flailing his arms in the air, ready to go to this arcade nearby this restaurant. He was so close to leaving the doorway when one of the servers came up to our table.

“Uhm, ma’am and sir, I double checked it on the system but... you haven’t paid for your meals yet,” the server was sheepish on approaching us. She was having a hard time looking at us in the eyes. She’s probably new here.

Everyone stood there in shock and embarrassment, except for Konoha-san and Komi-san who dragged Bokuto-san back inside to pay for our meals.

“OH... I’m so sorry!! I forgot, I didn’t mean to not pay!!” the captain sincerely apologized, quickly paying for everything we ate.

Upon entering the arcade, I couldn’t help but feel giddy and excited. The air inside the arcade just makes me feel alive and want to play games there all day. People around our age and some kids filled the place. Some of them are on dates, while most of them were just hanging out with each other.

The team scattered into groups as they went to the games that best fit their liking. The captain can be seen inside a Zombie-killing booth. His hands are already holding the fake gun inside, ready to unleash his inner warrior because according to him, he always trained himself for an apocalypse that can happen in the future. Some of the third years, like Yukie-san and Kaori-san along with some of the spikers, can be seen on the bowling area.

I rushed to the counter in the middle to get myself tokens and cards to play the games. The air hockey table caught my attention the moment we stepped in the arcade. I was about to swipe my card to play, when I realized I didn’t have anyone to play it with. How much dumber can I get? I obviously can’t play this by myself.

“Go for it. I’ll play with you,” a voice I know too well spoke behind me. I didn’t realize that I kind of ditched him as soon as I got too caught up in excitement with the arcade.

“Okay. Bring it on, Keiji! Don’t you dare go easy on me!” I exclaimed, swiping the card and grabbing the air hockey paddle on the table. My competitive side was showing as I poured my energy in each stride at the puck and attempts to block it from shooting inside my side of the goal.

After a few rounds of air hockey and a little bit of Basketball, where I took a hard L because I was against a well-trained and balanced athlete that shot the ball like it was nothing, I decided to go for a game where I thought I had a bigger shot at winning. I scanned through the games again and my eyes landed on this one game that I knew I’d win against someone like Akaashi.

“Dance Dance Revolution? I never played this game all my life and now you’re asking me to play it with you right now?” he whined, uneasiness showing as he spoke. I felt a little sad, but I didn’t want him to force him on doing something he doesn’t want to do.

“Hey, it’s okay if you don’t want to do it. I just really thought it’d be nice to play this with somebody.” I looked down, speaking softly. I hear him take a deep breathe.

“Fine... just one round.” he said. I was so thrilled. I bounced around and swiped my card on the machine. We stepped on the dancing area with the arrows under our feet and got ready to play the game. I chose a dance that was moderately difficult, keeping in mind that by doing so, I’ll increase my chances of winning. It was going really well at first. By looking at Keiji on my peripheral vision, he wasn’t even that bad. I guess the footwork training they do on Volleyball also helps him. Ugh, is there something he can actually suck at?

The most complex part of the dance started and I was slowly panicking. My score was higher, but only by a little. I was getting lost in the game that I didn’t even notice that I stepped at a faulty angle and twisted my ankle.

I winced in pain as I lost my balance and held on the metal bar behind me for support. Akaashi was alarmed as soon as he saw my current state.

“Hey, I’m fine, really. What’s that look on your face, Akaashi?” My poor attempt to chuckle was horrible. I tried to stand up, but the pain I felt on my ankles were stronger than my will to prove Akaashi that I was fine. He rapidly moved away from the game and found himself beside me, checking my, most likely, sprained ankle.

“Okay, it doesn’t look that bad but you can’t work yourself up for a while. I’ll take you home. No more ifs and buts. I’ll just text Bokuto-san and the rest of the team about what happened and that we had to leave sooner than expected.” he sternly said.

The next thing I knew, he was walking me to my house. I found myself on his back, arms wrapped around his chest and legs clung on his waist as he held the side of my thighs for extra support.

The same stars that greeted me while I was waiting for them outside the gym earlier were present as I looked up again at the sky. With that, the same cold breeze of the night blew against my skin. I tried not to shiver, but it was useless since Akaashi felt that I was getting chilly because I was shaking a little.

He stopped on his tracks as he gently put me down on the sidewalk. I was feeling confused until I saw him taking his jacket off and offered me to take it.

“I noticed you were starting to get a little chilly, so here. Take it.” he said. I didn’t even hesitate anymore as I wore his jacket. I felt so much better and we started walking again while he gave me a piggyback ride.

I let out a yawn as I started to feel my eyelids getting heavier and my breathing going slower. I didn’t even know when it happened, but I just know that along the way, I fell asleep on his shoulders.

AKAASHI’S POV

I found myself in front of your house and I knocked on the door. It wasn’t the first time I’ve been here, so your mom let me in as soon as she saw me. I told her about what happened and gave her some tips that will help you recover faster. Given that I was not new to these injuries, I knew exactly what to do.

I opened the door to your room and I softly put you down on your bed. I got some pillows that will help on elevating your sprained ankle and tucked you to bed.

You looked so peaceful. You looked so beautiful.

I’ve always been blunt about what I see and feel about everything. So, why is it that I can’t tell you about these feelings that I feel solely for you?

I wish I can tell you that all your little gifts and efforts for me never go unappreciated.

I know that you’ve recently been growing closer to somebody else. I’m not oblivious about it. I know you, Y/N.

I just hope that it’s not too late by the time I finally build up the courage to tell you about these feelings.

I gave your forehead a soft kiss, before I finally got up and left your room.

YOUR POV

I woke up in the middle of the night and realized that I was already in the comfort of my own room. I checked my phone and saw that it was 2AM. I looked down on my feet and saw that my ankle was really sprained and that I wasn’t just dreaming about it.

I let out a sigh as I remember that Tobio-kun, Hinata-kun, Best Boy Yams and Saltyshima were coming over here later.

Why the fuck did I have to sprain my ankles on the worst day possible?

☆ PARTS ☆

A/N: Here goes my first actual write up in this blog! I would really love to hear your thoughts about it! Stay safe and healthy, lovelies! ♡

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[katandabbieslife]

December 1st, Abbies 22nd! Part 2.

The pile of clothes started at the doorway, where I had completely stripped after shutting and locking the front door when the last of the girls who WEREN'T staying the night had left. I immediately and quickly removed every stitch of clothing I was wearing as Abbie, Madi, and Heather looked on. After a short pause, I said, "Well? Are we gonna fuck or what?!" All three of the others followed my lead and began to strip. I was already naked, so I went up to Abbie and smiled as I started to help her undress. In no time, I had a finger in her pussy as we stood face to face and shared a kiss. At that moment, a now nude Madi and Heather kissed each other for the first time. They were on the couch, and I was still finger fucking Abbie as we stood near them, although I now had 2 fingers inside her. I finally released my kiss and slid my fingers out from her cunt and into her mouth. As Abbie sucked her own pussy juice from my fingers, I whispered to her, "Happy birthday, Baby Girl. I love you." I then led her the few steps to the couch where Heather and Madi were passionately sucking each other's tongues as they touched each other. I said to both Madi and Heather, in a sing-song innocent voice, "Will you both please eat our pussies now?" With that, we were heading to the bedroom, with Heather grabbing Abbie's hand and me holding Madi's. It was time for an all-girl birthday orgy. ************** Abbie and I share a fairly small apartment, which of course means our bedroom isn't exactly huge. But our bed is, lol. It takes up most of our bedroom. Since Abbie and I have been known to have sleepover guests (the kind who sleep with us!), it stands to reason we should have a big bed! Therefore, we have a California King. More than enough room for 4 girls, especially since 2 of them (Abbie and Madi) are tiny 😂😂! So we went into our tiny bedroom with the giant bed. Abbie and me and our sleepover guests, although there would be nobody sleeping on this night. ************** As we got to the bed, Abbie and Heather began passionately kissing each other and Madi and I followed suit. If I have a flaw when it comes to group sex, it's that I sometimes lose focus on the one I'm with because I have such a strong desire to watch Abbie. I love her head to toes, heart and soul. But I have an unexplainable need to watch her kiss, touch, and fuck other people. I love watching her give and receive sexual pleasure. She does both better than anyone I've ever known. So I'm not going to lie, there have been at least a few awkward times where I forget to pleasure my partner of the moment and lose focus and watch my girlfriend instead. Never said I'm the best at group sex 😂😂!! But that wasn't going to be an issue this night. Madison is my best friend not named Abbie. And Madi knows I love to watch Abbie fuck. It isn't like I was going to completely ignore Madi either! But I knew if I just kind of occasionally focused my attention on Abbie and Heather, and off of Madi, she would understand. And right off the bat it was already happening. Madi and I had already gotten on the bed, and our tongues were already in each other's mouths, before the other two girls got to the bed. As I looked up, I saw my cute-as-fuck little emo Abbie passionately kissing the tall, beautiful Heather. I watched wide-eyed as I slid myself back on the bed until my back rested against the headboard. My gaze didn't leave Abbie and Heather, even as Madi spread my legs apart and immediately proceeded to bury her tongue inside my now soaked pussy. I wrapped my legs around her head and moaned as she fingered my clit and continued tongue fucking my pussy. Not once did my eyes leave my naked girlfriend and the naked girl with her who would soon be making her cum. As Madi spread me wider and transferred her tongue from my pussy to my asshole, Abbie came down to the bed and crawled up beside me, both of us sitting with our backs to the headboard. I've mentioned before (I think) that often when Abbie and I kiss we don't  close our eyes. We just love the feeling of our eyes looking into the other's eyes, even when they are so close that it just creates a blur. So it was as she sat next to me and we began kissing. I took my left leg off Madi and interlocked it with Abbie's right leg. My eyes diverted down Abbie's body, where Heather was now eating my girlfriend's (my fiancée’s!) pussy.  I wanted to cum in synch with Abbie, but I jumped the gun. Couldn't help it. Madi had returned her tongue to my pussy and was now sucking my clit, but it wasn't just Madi's glorious mouth that made me orgasm sooner than I wanted: it was seeing Heather fucking Abbie's pussy with her tongue, and Abbie moaning into my mouth because of it as we kissed. Heather began sucking Abbie's clit and Abbie broke our kiss long enough to say, "Ohh fuck yes," and I immediately came in Madison's mouth. At some point, Abbie and I had slid down on the bed some to the point we were basically laying down. Heather was still sucking Abbie's pussy when Madi scooted up next to me. We shared a deep kiss and I loved tasting my own pussy on her tongue. She turned and kissed Abbie, who was beginning to moan louder. Then Madi stood up on the bed and stepped one foot over Abbie's head and slowly sat on Abbie's pretty little face. I fucked myself as Madi's pussy fucked my girlfriend's face and Heather ate my girlfriend's pussy. As Abbie began kicking her legs and pointing her toes, I knew she was about to cum. I fucked myself harder and this time it was me saying "fuck yes" as we both came, this time together, she with the help of our two friends, me with the help of two fingers as I watched the other three. ************** The next several hours consisted of a lot of kissing and touching and licking and sucking and tribbing and fucking. There were breaks, obviously. They all three drank some more (I wasn't even pretending to drink anymore lol. I was NOT gonna pass out that night!). We all four got high. We played truth or dare like we were 8th graders 😂😂! (Of course it was, my idea lol). Heather and I are the only regular cigarette smokers out of us four, although Abbie occasionally takes a puff or two of mine. We smoke weed in our apartment but I never smoke cigarettes inside. If you've smoked both pot and cigs inside before (or been around someone who has), you know why. So Heather and I went out onto our freezing ass, snow covered, and blustery balcony for a cig. And said, "Fuck this." (Not sure if we actually said that, but I'm sure we both thought it!) I begged Abbie and successfully got the "no smoking cigarettes inside" rule lifted for the night 😂😂! I can't tell you how much better it is to smoke a cigarette while naked in a warm bed than it is to smoke one in the middle of a fuckin Idaho blizzard. Heather and I climbed on the bed and each lit a cigarette. Madi and Abbie joined us on the bed, sitting across from us. Suddenly Madi spread her legs wide open and Abbie dove her mouth right into her inviting pussy. I reached over and started masturbating Heather and she immediately did the same to me. I love smoking, but not as much as I love sex, and I wanted both hands touching Heather all of a sudden. I put out my smoke and rolled towards her and played with her nice big tits as I slid my tongue in her mouth. So yes, at times even the breaks became sexual lol. ************** At one point when Heather and Madi were playing with each other, Abbie and I slipped off to the bathroom together. Whenever we have sex with other people, this is our thing. We will always find time and a place to be alone together, even if it's only for a short time. We closed the bathroom door and I told her I loved her more than I ever had and I meant it. I love these brief moments that only contain the two of us in the middle of group sex. Sometimes we just talk and kiss. Sometimes more. I asked if it was a good birthday and I didn't need to hear her answer. Her eyes and smile told me the answer. We kissed, and suddenly I knew that this was a moment in which I needed my girl all to myself. There are those moments, you know. Where we just need each other. Many more than we talk about. Even in times like these where we have sought the company of others, we sometimes need moments like this one in the bathroom. After we fucked each other in the bathroom, it was time for one-on-one fun of another kind. I was ready to watch Abbie fuck Heather, and I was ready to fuck Madi while I did. So I started making out with Madi. Heather and Abbie did the same. We kissed more and after hearing Heather moan, I looked over and saw Abbie finger fucking Heather. Madi kind of grabbed my head and held it where I was looking at the other two. She played with my hair as I watched my girl and Heather. "Watch Abbie fuck," Madi kept whispering as I fucked myself. Madi knows I need this as much as I want it. To watch my baby get fucked. To see her receive pleasure. To watch her cum. To know that this makes her happy, and to know that Abbie's happiness = my happiness. ************** At some point two strap ons were placed on the bed by Heather. Never saw her do it. Heather then got on her knees on the bed and, well, strapped it on. Abbie got on her knees facing Heather and began tongue kissing her as she took Heather's "cock" into her hand, slow stroking it as if it were real. I tried to sit up, unsure what I was even doing. Madi held me down. (Yes I'm bigger and stronger than Madi, but that wasn't the point!) I got the hint. And this time as Madi again whispered "Watch Abbie fuck," Madi's fingers made it into my pussy before my own. I had had so many orgasms on this night and it felt so good to surrender my body. Madi wouldn't let me move and Madi was masturbating me, slowly but perfectly. Abbie made eye contact with me as she lay back on the bed, and we blew small kisses at each other and smiled as Abbie's legs spread and Heather slowly entered her pussy. I was so fucking turned on by the sight of the faux penis sliding in and out of my girl. It's incredibly hot to be man-fucked by a girl, and as it turns out, also to just watch it. Abbie's moans filled the room as Heather fucked her harder, and Madi fingered me with more intensity as that happened. I tried to move and Madi wouldn't let me, and when Abbie told Heather, "Fuck me, fuck me harder," it was me who was brought to orgasm, with Abbie not far behind.  ************** The first slivers of light peeked through the bedroom curtain. It was quite literally the dawn of a new day. Abbie lay in my arms and she would tell me days later that she had never felt safer than she did in that moment as I held her tight and gave little kisses to the top of her head. Perhaps. All I know is I had never felt happier. And although technically the night was over, the night wasn't over. That became evident when Madi grabbed some lubricant from the bedside. She squirted quite a bit on Heather's strap on cock, and Madi then leaned back and simulated a foot job as she wrapped her bare feet around the fake penis and stroked it, rubbing the lube as she did so. Madi put her index finger in front of Abbie and did the little "come here" finger motion. Abs didn't hesitate, and crawled past me on the bed towards Madi. Madi motioned to "keep going" towards Heather, and as Abbie was crawling by, Madi put quite a bit of the  lubricant on her fingers. As Abbie was halfway past Madi, on all fours, I had the perfect view to see Madi's lubed fingers head right to Abbie's sweet little asshole. Madi rubbed the lube around it, then on it, then in it as she slid her middle finger into Abbie's ass. Heather, sitting up directly across from me on the bed, took gentle (but complete) control of Abbie. She picked Abbie kind of up and turned her around. Abbie made it easier by standing up and backing up, slowly lowering herself onto the cock, the tip finally touching Abbie's asshole. Abbie is the anal queen, lol. So although she took it slow at first, it wasn't long at all and she was riding it hard, taking it all up her ass. Abbie was bouncing on the cock with her legs open right in front of me. I got on my hands and knees and stuck my tongue out to get some pussy licks in as she rode Heather. At some point Madi had put on the other strap on and she was suddenly fucking my fuckin cunt from behind. After a while doing this, and for the second time that night, Abbie and I came at the exact same time. Morning had completely broken as Heather and Madi, still with their cocks strapped on, stood on the bed. I knelt in front of Heather and sucked the cock she had used to fuck Abbie up the ass. Abbie knelt before Madi and sucked all my pussy juice from Madi's dick. Madi then kissed Abbie as Heather kissed me. Heather and I lit a cigarette and no words were spoken as exhaustion set in. We all lay in silence as the smoke enveloped the room. I held my cigarette between Abbie's lips as she took a long drag from it. After stubbing it out, I crawled over and gave Madi one last kiss with lots of tongue. I mouthed "thank you" for her help in making Abbie's night so special. Abbie kissed Heather goodnight. They had already insisted on sleeping in the living room. So they took sleeping bags, pillows, and blankets and soon the bedroom door was shut and it was just my lil emo and me - my smiling, beautiful emo girl. My whole fucking world. Abbie hugged me so hard, and then, with the sweetest smile, she just looked in my eyes and said "Thank you." I cried because of course I did, because I'm a fuckin pussy who always cries 😂😂. But they were happy tears. ************** As Boise was slowly beginning to wake up to a winter wonderland, it was time for us to finally sleep. Abbie and I, alone now, kissed little nibbles and Eskimo kisses and butterfly kisses. Then a little tongue, then a lot, then sleep was completely forgotten as Abbie got up and turned around to lay on me opposite, her pussy coming right to my tongue, and her mouth finding my wetness. We tongue fucked each other in the 69. A short time later, we BOTH ended up with a strap on attached to us. We've alternated, but never once during one on one sex had we BOTH worn one. Soon we were back in a 69, this time sucking each other's "cocks." It was incredibly hot. Enjoying our strange new role play of both Abbie and I having cocks, we kept them on and took turns fucking each other in the ass. At some point, we finally passed out. We had made plans to go to lunch with Madi and Heather, but that never happened. Madi told us that she came into our room around 12:30 to see if we were still going. She said Abbie was curled up in my arms tightly and that we looked so happy and peaceful that there was no way she was going to wake us up. So she closed our door and after she and Heather fucked each other once more in the living room, they went on their way. After finally waking up and showering together, Abbie and I never left the apartment that day. In fact, I'm not even positive we ever got dressed that day. I just know that we followed up an incredible birthday night with some high quality alone time together. In the end, it turned out to be the perfect weekend. The best ever, in fact.

Peace & Love,

-Katalina

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[ulibeanz]

hey Ellie I have a bpd question, which you can feel free to ignore I just don't know who to ask as my therapist doesn't even completely understand bpd lmao but do you suffer the whole having no sense of self thing that comes with bpd? if you do, how do you cope with it? how do I stop feeling so shallow and empty is there something I can do? again you can ignore this I'm just a bit desperate thank you

hi!! hell the fuck yes i suffer from this. for years and years my identity was just a question mark or completely unstable in a way that really hindered my ability to enjoy my life/function in society!! it’s like, how could i build and sustain bonds w/ others and hone passions if i was a constantly oscillating, often contradictory presence?????!!! impossible my first steps to coping with this as a teen were: honestly just picking a stable constant and holding onto that while letting the rest naturally fluctuate. for example, i started wearing tons of pink and held onto the idea that i am an artist. honestly? i love both of these from the bottom of my heart, but they were kind of arbitrary decisions i made just to make a decision, because i love MANY things from the bottom of my heart, u know? i think thats part of bpd. like i also loved making music and acting and writing and math and science, and as far as fashion went i loved goth and emo and cute and minimalist and decadent and blah blah blah u get it. i could see myself in an infinite number of futures, pursuing entirely different dreams and existing entirely different personas. it came to a point that i just needed to focus on honing in on something so i wasnt so scattered and stretched thin and i just on a whim was like “im pink now” and “im switching to art” and that helped so much. i dont at all regret making that decision even if i missed out on other experiences in this lifetime. i still dabble in everything else but having these two constants allow me to experiment without losing my entire sense of self and voice  

that was when i was still a teen though!!! as an adult, that came to feel a bit constricting and inorganic. now that i have a solid crafted persona, lately i’ve been focused on living rather than presenting if that makes sense. i cook and garden and clean and make art and spend time with loved ones. just this month i learned how to bake bread and sew! looking to start reading and exercising consistently again! these small gestures make me feel fulfilled, alive, and participant in this world in a way that really soothes the feeling of not having a sense of self cuz it makes me realize that my “self” is a deep, unending well filled with a series of actions and experiences. we “do” the self, and as long as i’m doing something worthwhile then my person is whole, and only grows more and more as i, say, learn new recipes, grow new plants, make more friends. sorry about your therapist and sending love!!!

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[kristianhrabkolma32]

Rehearsal process

Opening Scene

- Veronica moves from left to right, opening the reading from her diary.

Beautifu, the name of the opening song introduces 'Baxter hill high' which is the school where majority of scenes take place. Veronica is still reading from her diary which reveals rest of the cast throughout the whole song.

At the very start of this song my mind always tells to count, counting beats in time and rhythm of a song is very fundamental skill to have in any practitioner repertoire.

My role at this point is a moody teenager, who always wanted to be with the popular kids but secretly hated them which lead him to express wearing dark clothes and really going into emo culture yet he's still a geek at heart.

Going into a bit more technical side of this, ensemble has 3x8 to un-freeze from each of their position. So the song consists of beats knowing the mean of beats is commonly used amongst musicians, musical theatre performers or just performers overall.

On the second count of 8s in the music, curtain is lifting and allows me to be ready in time so my professionalism is shown right from the start. There are 3x8 counts leading into 4th where ensemble joins in on the first count of 8 count sequences. Progressing each 8th count into the song the ensemble starts on different count for three times.

For exanple:

FREAK!SLUT! BUNOUT! BOGEYE! - we start on the first count of 8.

Moving into next section,

FREAK! SLUT! LUSER! SHORTBUS! - this time ensemble starts on the second count, which leads to third change and this time it begins on third count.

Knowing how to count enables me to be on time in my place positioned, which shows commitment to knowing & understanding my material.

This link contains footage of our rehearsal process , I wasn't able to insert actual video here so I'm taking a different approach. In the first 18 seconds of the video, you can see techniques of progressive counting as previously mentioned in the sections above.

As Veronica takes us through the song she reveals the rest of the cast thus showing her emotions and setting the scene which is reflected in the technical aspects in choreography. The choreography is strategically placed along with music to create what the director envisioned . Near the midway of Beautiful Heathers are being introduced, there is change in music to more minor, this is an expression used to describe mood of songs or melodies. As Heather's enter through the archway created by us the non-populars , this is a strategically placed choreographed exert to showcase class diversity within the school society.

This footage is only to support my analysis and to help demonstrate points mentioned above, it is not our final rehearsal footage therefore it serves as a teaching tool.

Dramaclasses (2020) "Verfremdungseffekt, or the ‘estrangement effect,’ was used to distance the audience from the play and is sometimes called the alienation effect. Brecht did not want the audience to have any emotional attachment to his characters, so he did various things to break it."

Thus confirming that Bertol Brecht technique uses several techniques to alienate audience, however it can be used in different situations such as in this instance. 

Following, the music comes off into a scene that takes place two weeks late, it is stated by Veronica as a clue for audience. Brecht technique is used to tell the audience there is time change or that something has changed.  Brecht technique consists of literally tell the audience actors mood, intentions or it can be simple character change , this is shown through either literal representation of the change or simply writing the representation and displaying it.

Candy Store

Leading into 'Candy Store' , the scene is showing use of power within school society by Heather's. They are telling Veronica that it is their "job" to keep losers like 'Martha Dumstock' in their place. Martha is Veronica's best friend,  although she thought. Veronica gets blinded by the limelight as she enters the world of Heathers, the Heathers want to invite Martha to Rams party as a joke but Veronica quickly realizes what is about to happen and try to stop them. This is when Heather starts Candy Store with the infamous " are we gonna have a problem…." line to tell Veronica you're either with us or against us. 

At this point ensemble wise I'm in the scene witnessing how this unfolds, obviously feeling scared by Heathers, I'm showing this through my timid positions and acting style as they burst through the crowd of students. 

I'm not singing in this scene as our director want to show female empowerment thus giving this song stronger meaning using the lyrics in quite literal sense as Heather C. Talks about school being her candy store. The viewer can see this as a very sexual innuendo situations as we are in school environment and these are three young adolescents students in mini skirts talking about how they 'own' everyone.  

Here is a footage of our Candy Store rehearsal, this is only to demonstrate and support points made above. This footage is not a final piece it is only a rehearsal at its beginning stage.

For our final show I thought it would improve my performance, stamina and focus if I make a timetable to be in that mindset constantly.

Here's an example of my timetable:

I've tried my best to keep in sync with it , from our last performance I understood that it is vital for an musical theatre practitioner to have some type of regime even if they are not performing.

This gave me some room for improvement and allowed me to see how simple regimes can implement massive changes in a short time.

This semester I have improved on my overall stamina/ strength which I'm more than pleased with , however it gave me more than that. I am able to understand and apply my skills where are needed.

Fight for Me

Moving forward we have another school scene just after Candy Store, this time we are in groups that we stay with for the majority of time. We are watching how things will unveil with Veronica's new status as she meets Jason Dean or J.D. for short.

We're in semi-circle of students now, watching a fight with J.D., Ram And Kurt who are other characters known as Jocks.

Going into three different positions at the beginning of this song called 'Fight For Me/Holly Shit', just like previous we have 3x8s of call and response from the female/male ensemble leading into 4th eight where we freeze frame as Veronica confesses her interest in J.D. as he fights those two Jocks, she finds this very arousing. Our role is to be interactive students just like in a normal school environment when you see fights. This highlights the overall relationship within society and how it molds pupils into bigots from a young age.

Kurt: " Hey, sweetheart. What did your boyfriend say when you told him you were moving to Sherwood, Ohio?"

Ram: "My buddy asked you a question."

Kurt: "Hey Ram, doesn't this cafeteria have a 'no fags allowed' rules?"

J.D. : "They're seem to have an open-door policy for assholes though. "

Kurt: "Hold his arms".

As its shown above in the exert from our script on the page 33, this leads into the begging of Fight for Me. J.D. gets into an alteration, this insinuate the societal mindset structure how pupils are raised up in this environment which they bring into their adulthood thus continue the cycle of abuse.

In Big Fun we have a scene with Ram and Kurt, following rest of the students arriving at Rams party.

The scene revolves around Heathers, Veronica, Jocks and Martha's relationship, it is shown throughout in a party environment of underage drinking takes place. As an ensemble member I'm one of the guests at this party having good time, nothing unusual for a teenager that age he's no stranger to alcohol or even pretends that they don't know what they're doing.

In the next footage you're about to see there is proof of rehearsal progress, from the instructions given by tutor I now know that at the time I was incorrect in the technical intention of the movement.

For example: in the footage you can see my counts and movement itself are correct however the speed of my delivery isn't. We have been given 3x8 of step,step,step drag behind, drag behind, drag behind. It is put in as a dynamic change to show off that we are affected by alcohol or whatever substances these teenagers consume.

You can see this from 2:20 minutes into the video, notice me in my green cap and buckle belt as I do those steps accurately yet incorrect.

I was able to correct this once I understood the intention behind this movement and what it was representing.

Which brings us to Blue , this is the last scene that I was a part of before this world wide pandemic occurred.

There is a scene leading into this song , including Heathers and Veronica as she is called into the woods for help yet instead is misled and offered up for a daterape.

This I a kind of thing people do to one another on daily basis, 'rather you than me' type of situation.

The song itself talks about teenage boys testosterone levels rising out of control, (this is the nicest way I can put it) boys from early teen hood develop testosterone levels high enough so they are ready to mate. In this instance it is forced upon Veronica by Heathers, knowing that parental views and opinions impact their children and how they treat on another, proves why Ram and Kurt thinks it is okay to treat women with such disrespect. Maccoby (2020) states, "There is clear evidence that parents can and do influence children."

You can see this throughout the footage , it is solely focused on how the boy needs help and would do anything for you once you help them.