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artinandwritin · 25 days

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I dont think i ever mentioned it but ever since i started applying to art colleges I've been keeping up an art wall and since i just added some new illustrations to it, i thought it would be fun to explain some things on my wall and revisit some of my old favourites!

Going from left to right, we start with some more recent illustrations (featuring, ofc, gussiri, Niv, and a recent illustration of Cato from @otwdfanfic 's fic that i liked sm i just had to print and put up somewhere). Next to Cato, I put a gift i got from my dear friend @lt-catbolt of our bois Niv and Melatron and i cant remember if this was for my birthday or for fun, all i know is that i nearly cried when she gave it to me (go follow her now btw she's awesome and shes gonna become one of the most expressive storytellers of our generation i just know it)

Underneath Cato and Niv/Mel, we've got a huge pencil drawing I did 2 years ago to get accepted into an art college. It took me so. So long. I even begged my teachers from high school to let me follow classes online so i could continue working (they said yes lmao) and my mom even had to help. Worse, it wasnt the only assignment that particular art school had given me, no, they had given me a total of 6 assignments I had to complete. They all took a lot of time and didnt all turn out great haha. I didnt get accepted into that school (it was a fine arts study so im pretty sure i wouldnt have been happy there anyways) but that just makes me all the more happy i did get accepted into the one im currently attending

Anyway ive been too lazy to take it down so now itll be there until i find the willpower to take it down

The butterfly above it is a painting i did towards autumn of 2021 for my portfolio. I'm not the best painter (decent enough but its just not for me) but im still really happy with how this turned out. It was pretty fun!

Underneath that is an inkt print made from a stencil once again featuring Cato (i have. No idea why hes on my wall twice lmao i guess hes just a great muse). People who have been with me for long enough probably still remember this cuz i was superproud of how it turned out and plastered it all over my account (and my house. My mom wanted a copy as well)

Underneath the inkt print is a poster i got while visiting the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe stage play when I was in London in autumn of 2022 (take me back London take me back take me back). The play was absolutely stunning and the way everything was staged left me (as a life long narnia enthusiast) ecstatic and super excited. One of the best plays ive ever seen even if i had one of the worst seats in the theatre <3

Next to the poster is another little gussiri drawing i printed lmao. The little goobers show up so much

Above the poster is more of gussiri!! And above that is another painting i made, this time of some mushrooms. I made this during a party i threw for my 18th birthday, we all did some painting together and i remember my lovely lovely friend @allilcat painting with watercolours so well. That memory is just etched into my brain <333

Above that is a painting i made of the night sky! I used it for my portfolio and it was really cool to paint since i, not knowing basic painting techniques, could only really throw my own imagination into it which gave a really cool result. Still really love it!

Lastly, we've got a Siri illustration made by a classmate of mine for a secret santa we did last christmas! I was so happy with it and ofc it deserved a really good spot on my wall <333

Thats been a bit about my wall, if youve made it this far thanks for listening to me rambling <333

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aryxchse · 13 days

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okay but this has consuming my mind lately… Percy Jackson x daughter of Persephone?

red rose is for i love you! / percy jackson x daughter of persephone! reader.

a / n : my lovely daughters of persephone, rise up!!

warnings : cursing duh

- it all started with a dare

- and percy jackson is a dare king okay

- leo, who got his ass kicked by you, told that if percy would pick up a rose for him on the secret garden in the forest, he would do anything percy asked

- and percy, who loves challenges, said yes

- it's like beauty and best lmao

- so when he entered your garden to pick up your most precious, pretty, perfect rose, he got smacked by a vine

- "what do you think you're doing?" you asked, on top of some oak tree, making a flower crown for yourself

- percy froozed

- "i uh, i was picking up a rose?"

- yeah, way to save yourself boy, good job

- you effortlessly get down from the oak tree, giving percy death stare

- "move along before i hurt you, jackson."

- "yes ma'am."

- yeah he literally said that

- and left the rose

- this was the first time percy jackson backed down from a dare

- but he didn't backed down from you

- he had a new target now

- the pretties flower in the garden

- you

- okay that was cheesy wtf moving on

- next day, he had a clipboard

- "jackson."

- "hello pretty girl on top of the tree."

- you suspiciously got down again

- "why are you here?"

- "first of all, ouch. second of all, i'm here for good reasons!"

- he told you that he had to write essay about flowers and their meanings for his homework

- good lie buddy

- so you shrugged and helped him, having a chance to yap about your flowers

- and he visited you like this for a month

- "how long is this essay, really?"

- "good work comes with great hardworking.. skills.."

- "what are you even saying-"

- you tried to pay no mind, but you both were getting closer each day

- his evil plan working perfectly

- kidding he isnt evil hes just in love

- and he learned the flower meanings just for you

- he got the chance to learn your favorite flower too

- he hated winter

- because you went underworld to visit your mother

- my boy legit thought getting himself killed by a monster to enter underworld

- but the little reasonable side of him stopped

- because you would be sad then

- and he had school anyways, so he was going to see you on summers anyway

- hes just sad that his date plan got cancelled

- moving on

- it was the last day for his fake essay to finish, and you were kinda sad

- because percy was a fun guy, even though nico was a huge hater

- "percy? really?"

- "boy shut up at least i have a chance with him"

- ouch okay

- "okay so, did we really leave magnolia to last? wow what a shame of us, okay so the magnolia means-"

- "i love you"

- "no that's not-"

- "im talking about you. i love you"

- okay this was a bit sudden

- not saying he wasnt late already but

- like this was sudden

- moving on to you both dating

- your favorite flowers on your door in each special occasion

- but it's usually comes with the roots, with the help of demeter kids

- because he knows how much you hate when someone picks up flowers and just kills them

- you took him to the underworld

- no one was happy tbh but you were so no one didn't said anything

- the garden dates happens often because you usually need help

- and hes your wonderful slave boyfriend so

- kidding (no im not)

- long story short, you guys are the cutest okay??? the best couple fr fr

- and he definetly dreams about opening you your own garden in the mortal world once you both get old

- like you know, selling flowers with their meanings and stuff

- the dangerous flower girl with her slave fr

#this sucks but persephone does not!#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the heroes of olympus #percy jackson series #pjo hoo toa #percy jackson imagine #percy jackson headcanon #pjo show #perseus jackson x you #percy x you

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facelessvoicez · 4 months

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JASPER LORE WOOOOOOOO

Wanted to post this to show the people who were curious of Jasper's background.

NOTE: There are a lot of details left out on this, considering it's just a written idea of Jasper's Lore lol

It is not written well I KNOW LOL It's literally just a bunch of notes that i tried to cluster together and organize to make sense, lol

Dad was a druggie, mom moved onto another piece of shit dude, being his step dad named Brenden. His Stepfather was very abusive, to more specifically Jasper. Brenden and japser's mother had two kids together, though Brenden never layed a finger on them throughout the years, but for some reason always picked on Jasper. Jasper was an Autistic and vulnerable child, making him an easy target for Brenden. Jasper not being exactly 'normal' made it easy to get upset with jasper, Brended taking any 'irregular' behavior as an opportunity to get mean and/or violent. All it took was jasper to breathe off pattern to trigger that Brenden.

They boy struggled in school as well. Didn't exactly fit in with the other kids (cliche ik lmao) he got picked on a lot, kids could be bruital, often stalking him and pushing him around shouting insults. A common insult being the word 'retard' or 'retarded'. He didn't exactly have friends in this point, he liked keeping to himself anyways, and The bullying wasn't too bad considering he delt with worse at home.

Unfortunately his vulnerability and decaying mental state, he grasps the attention of the slenderman. He'd see him here and there but it wasnt often. Though he was often watching, causing him to always get these horrible headaches.

Time goes by he appears more and more, fucking with him more and more.

Over the years he made three friends. Tomii, Vicc, and Iris. He'd never felt so comfortable and safe with people EVER. He finally wasn't alone, he finally had a safe space. Tomii and Vic were both struggling in their own ways too, so it was nice to have people to relate to. Not only this but he eventually gained a special relationship with Iris, them eventually becoming a couple.

The abuse at home and school continues, the consistent traumatic events eventually pile up causing him to lose his shit, developing long lasting psychosis, the psychotic episodes, voices demanding him/convincing him to do things while being fuled by the years of pent up anger. This and The help of Mr No Face picking at him, all lead to that one breakdown causing him to murder his step father. Soon after, his mother came home from work, being just now exposed to the situation, she freaks out understandibly. Out of fear Jasper killed his mother too. Leaving his siblings alone in the small apartment.

soon after he runs away from the situation to his partners house. He's mid through a psychotic episode, the stressful situation only strengthened the episode more. Jasper was completely delusional and panicked at this time, convincing himself that everything and everyone was out to get him. All it took was that small look of panic in his partners face to convince Jasper that his partner was after him too. That look of panic wasn't meant to be threating but understandibly worried for his dear boyfriend, though Jasper wasn't aware of this, in his head he was convinced that his partner was now a threat. That look of panic was one way too close to the one his step father gave after getting uspet with Jasper, that look he'd make before beating him. Due to the help of whispers growling about how his partner was somehow a threat, This is what lead to him to kill his partner. This was an action he regretted the most later on.

Jasper again, runs off, having no idea where to go, he finds himself an isolated area after hours of traveling. The area being an old abandoned home in the middle of nowhere. He settled there for a while until being unwillingly taken away by 'The Harvester proxy' bringing him to Mr.No-Face's land, Wiping a majority of Jasper's memory and creating him as another one of his proxies, being forced to live in a cycle of killing.

Note: i included Tomii and Vic bc they will have their own stories eventually that involved Slenderman and Jasper lol.

If i do an actual well written story about this, they will be included a LOT more.

@Gaspproxy on isnta: Creator of The Harvester proxy

#creepypasta #original character #creepy #horror #horror art #jasper gut #slenderverse #horror story #slenderman #slender proxy #slenderman proxy #creepypasta story

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fcknstar · 1 year

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,, best friends girl "

- harryosborn x fem!reader x peterparker

a.n : omfg i have a habit of writing at night. i have tried to edit it to the best of my ability. i need friends who share the same interest in harry osborn. uhh this is a mix of peter and harry, but it was really actually for harry lmao. i think imma just use marlene monae as my oc / reader / (y/n) cause it's easier for me. kinda got carried away lmao

warnings : jealousy? , long back story , y/n or reader is known as marlene monae.

**lowercase intended**

changing schools in the middle of the semester has to be your most hated things that could ever happen to you. moving houses was normal for your family as your fathers a business man, who moves around. your dad was a family man, he never wanted to leave his family behind, so hed bring you and your mom around.

it may seem magical, being able to see the entire world due to having the money for it. however, the beauty of it can never mask your hatred having to make friends, and eventually leaving them. you hardly ever kept real friends due to long distance and time difference which made it hard for both parties to connect.

somehow, there was a few friends that you truly treasured. you were settled there for awhile. you met peter parker, harry osborn and gwen stacy. there were others but they were really something. peter was more towards the introvert dude who was always reserved, attractive guy. harry was the complete opposite of peters personality, he was more outgoing towards others, ladys boy. gwen stacy was with peter when you first entered, and you guys simply clicked, probably due to the love of science.

you have to admit that you found peter attractive, thank god your feelings have started to slowly fade into the background. however that happiness was outlived when you found out you had to move again. you begged your parents to settle here, but of course they refused. bummed out with your parents, you had to carry the burden and decided to not tell your friends about it. you just didnt want to suffer with long distance and that your meeting with them was merely meant to be during that timeline. knowing that itd be your last time ever being in queens, you confessed your feelings towards peter, probably weeks or months after gwen and peters breakup. you didnt want to regret not opening your heart out.

when you left without a single trace, the duo was upset. of course, who wouldn't be. you left without a letter, a goodbye. peter did tell the others about your confession. gwen wasnt mad, she was more delighted. harry left way earlier than you did, so he didn't know anything.

just like every friend and memory you had, you had forgotten them easily. you had to, it was driving you insane with how much you missed them. missed peter because you didnt know what his answer was. but who cares. aunt may probably forgot and didnt tell peter about it. you werent mad at aunt may, but she is old and had a lot to handle with her frail hands, and your message to peter only added the burden for her. but to your luck, she did pass down the message, but was too late as peter came back home later than usual.

it has been years and you are your own woman. you aged beautifully and your birthday was nearing. your parents had settled in france, feeling comfortable with their surroundings. you had basically forgotten the past, most of your friends and the activities you did with them. clearing up your messy room, you came across a dusty cardboard box. it looked beaten up. curiosity killed the cat and you opened to box only to find the stuff your friends had gifted you throughout your years of moving.

the box had felt like a time capsule, feeling like a teenager again was good. there was a particularly picture in the box that caught your eye. it was a pic of your friends in queens.

what were their names again? uhh grace? harold and peter? peter sounds familiar but too basic. he looks familiar too. it was hard for you to remember everyones names and faces due to the dozens of people youve met. attached to the picture was a thumbdrive. curious you slipped in the drive into your laptop. it was multiple folders of your time at queens? what was so special about this place, you thought. you scrolled through a couple of photos and videos, when everything hit you like a truck. you had fled that place without letting your friends know about you leaving. you had deeply missed that place that you made yourself forget about everything there. surprisingly, your heart still yearned for peter.

after talking with your parents, they have let you fly back there. while flying you didnt know what to expect or what to think. should i visit peter? or gwen?

what if they don't accept me? you panicked. maybe it wasn't a good idea to actually visit queens. upon reaching there, you found a hotel to stay at for the time being. you basically walked around queens trying to find a familiar apartment. after a few hours of searching, you landed infront of a old but homely apartment. you didnt know what to expect. maybe peter and aunt may moved? maybe they wont recognize you? taking a deep breath in, you advanced forward towards the entrance, knocking on the door. it didnt take long for the door to swing open revealing aunt may.

" hey aunt may, how are you? " you started. the awkward tension in the air filled you both quickly while you waited for her reply. it looked like she was trying to piece the imaginary puzzles together.

" uhm, its marlene? " you added, helping her remember you faster. it was as if you could see the light bulb above her head light up. you didnt expect a big warm hug from aunt may, well you had feared that she probably didnt accept you. lifting your hands slowly, you reciprocated the hug and took in her embrace. you did miss aunt may, her hugs, her cooking, and her smiles that she never failed to give you.

" darling! oh my its been so long, what happened? how are you? hows your parents? what brings you here? " aunt may spat out as she released you from her embrace. she always saw you as one of hers. she always carried a heavy heart wherever she went. she often thought that you left because of them despite you reassuring her that you werent.

" may, whats the commotion about? " peter came out from the side, chuckling. however it stopped when he saw you. you both did not say anything to each other, you felt your body heat up with guilt. the one where you knew you did something wrong. peter felt multiple emotions rush through him, was it really you?

" uh pete, this is marlene, i hope you didnt forget her? " nodded aunt may. aunt may saw how peter suffered, not knowing whether he felt that way because you left without saying goodbye or that he wasnt able to tell you that he felt the same way. the spiderman situation didnt help him either, no one knew that but gwen.

trying to suppress the heat and awkwardness, you merely nodded and smiled. aunt may welcomed you in and wanted to catch up. the house looked the same, it gave off homely vibes and you missed it. you sat on the dining table opposite of aunt may while peter just stood next to her.

you had to try to explain your absence and why you left without saying anything. you did a lot of things you regretted in the past, and leaving without an explanation was on the top of your list. aunt may seemed to understand, but she is always understanding. not sure if peter seemed the same way as his gaze was fixated on you ever since you were at their doorstep.

" alright, ill leave you two be yea " aunt may could sense the tension between the two young adults. all she wanted was them to reconcile, glancing at peter hoping he gets a hint.

" oh uh its fine, i was about to leave anyway. im sorry if i came without notice. bye aunt may! " you quickly gathered your stuff and practically ran out the house. slowing down your pace once you were out, you took out your phone with the intention to play some music while walking back to your hotel.

" so thats it? youre leaving without saying goodbye to me? again? " peter called out. stopping in your tracks, you slowly turned to him. you could see the disappointment that was clearly showing.

" look, im sorry i left okay? i just had a lot going on back then and i thought that was the easiest way out- "

" but it wasnt, isnt it? you left me knowing that we could be something.. " peter had whispered the last part, not wanting or ready for you to hear it. maybe you had moved on. his eyes trained on you.

you didnt know what to say. you heard what he whispered out. " i know youre mad at me and its reasonable. and i.. i. " you werent sure if he liked you, but what he said did indicate that he probably did have feelings.

" yea i am mad at you, you left without a letter? and you expected that the message you left me was enough? it was selfish of you to do so you know that right " he slowly advanced to you, not wanting his neighbors to listen to the conversation that went horribly wrong. you wanted to answer, but nothing came out of your mouth. peter felt that he was a little too harsh just by looking at your expression.

" im sorry if i was too harsh. i just. i really liked you, i still do, but leaving me. leaving gwen wasnt something we both saw coming. aunt may said you liked me. is it true? " it was pretty bold of peter, he knew that. but he really needed to know. he nearly missed your nods. that was enough for him to engulf you into a hug. peter had let his guard down and you had to. you realized that it was hard for him too.

it had been a few weeks ever since you stepped foot in new york. peter brought you to see gwen, who was thrilled to find you back. you guys reconnected instantly, catching up with one another. peter was glad that you are back, but he knew deep down that you had to leave again. gwen convinced you to stay with her as she needed a roommate. which made you convince your parents to let you stay in new york. somehow everything went according to plan, and you parents visited you often. you were living comfortably with gwen, you started dating peter. it sounds bad, dating your friends ex, but gwen was too open minded to care about what people thought. who cares about their friend dating their crush when they are in a committed relationship with someone new.

you and peter were at a cafe having a regular breakfast, when a mini television in the cafe announced harry osborns arrival back in new york. it was said that his father was terribly sick and had died from it. decided that you both wanted to visit harry.

the moment you stepped into the building, you both were told that harry was in a meeting for oscorp, and had to wait for the boy to come down. scanning the foyer you were in, it looked grand, but was dimly lit which made it more eerie than intended. you both didnt know what to expect except the awkwardness that will fill in between you three. while waiting for harry, you and peter were softly kicking each other to keep each other from getting bored.

the clacks of someones shoes broke the silence and both you and peter had turned to see harry. harry looked different, he grew into his looks, the ridiculous side part has yet to leave his personality.

" peter parker.. and marlene monae. its like seeing ghosts. " harry chuckled, staring at you both.

" hey harry. " peter greeted with a gentle tone, not wanting harry to push you both away.

you just forced a smile towards the boy who nodded. " uhm, what brings you both here? "

" we saw the news, heard about your dad and just wanted to see you and how you are doing. " it was now your turn to speak. you didnt want to offend harry, trying to sound as sincerely as you intended with the words that came out.

" im uh with some people, im in a meeting " harry voiced out, eyes flickering between you both.

" we didnt mean to intrude, really. i knew how it feels to lose a parent. " a sigh left peters lips. he truly wanted to be there for his friend. the conversation felt awkward and you didnt know what to do other than mess with your skin. glancing back at peter, you continued, " we just wanted to let you know that we are here for you if you need us "

harry nodded, whispering out a " thank you " .

it was silent for a moment and you seriously wanted to tension to stop. clasping your hands together, you look between peter and harry, " it was nice to see you again, harry " smiling towards the boy, you glance back at peter. peter got the hint and nodded. as you both turned to the door, harry spoke.

" i see that you have gotten your braces out, " you could tell that harry had let his guard down with the tone of his voice. you missed this harry that enjoyed messing around, " and you have better style now huh " harry eyed you up and down. he always teased about how plain you dress up in the past.

seeing peter smile at harrys words warmed you dearly. peter had both of his friends back into his life and peter couldnt be more happy.

" you still blow dry your hair every morning? " peter laughed. harry stepped down onto the stairs, chuckling.

" you know, one of my servants holds the hair dryer and i work the comb " harry cracked a smile, he was shocked at how quickly he let his old friends back into his life, but he wasnt mad at all.

when harry reached the bottom of the stairs, he opened up his arms wanting a hug. without hesitation peter ran to harry like a little child, engulfing harry into a bear hug. you have seen peter happy when hes around his friends, but peter has never been this happy to have a friend back into your life. ( you messed up, thats why he didnt seem to happy to see you, right marlene? )

after harry released peter from his grasp, he opened his arms slightly, offering you a hug that you gladly accepted. you and harry usually shared hugs with one another in the past. it was tradition, whenever you two see each other or needed one another, a hug was always shared, and jokes were passed around.

peter was happy seeing his friends reconcile, but his eyes didnt miss the way harrys hands held your waist. was it normal? he knew your relationship with harry in the past, but he didnt remember it to be this touchy. maybe it was because he was just jealous. the hug lasted longer than he anticipated, his ears didnt miss the light thumping of someones heart during the shared hug. it couldnt be yours, he was used to hearing your heart beat and didnt sound like yours. maybe harry was nervous. peter didnt know.

it wasnt long before the trio found themselves walking through a park which located in the middle of the town. harry and peter were conversing, letting you take in the atmosphere.

" what? you got yourself a lady? " harry joked while watching peter lean back onto the railing. that was what made you and peter lock eyes. harry caught that, a smile starting to appear on his lips.

" wait, you two? " harry questioned.

when you were about to answer harry, peter beat you to it. " you sound surprised, well we were just about to tell you " peter winked.

" well i am, i just didnt think a hot looking woman would end up with a nerd. " harry joked, " i mean dont get me wrong im happy for you both. " you were probably oblivious enough to not notice the tone in harrys voice, but peter clearly did.

" well thank you harry, but how bout you get yourself a woman before talking " you winked at harry, challenging harry.

" i have one in mind, but shes off limits. " harry sighed, eye flicking between you and peter.

" spill right now. " you cheered, its been a long time since you heard your best friend talk about his crushes.

" spill? its that like a slang-? " harry was cut off with a slap in the head. of course it was from you. peter didnt like the interaction one bit, he didnt expect you and harry click so fast after years of not meeting. it took you less than an hour to let your guard down with harry, but it took you a few weeks to fully get comfortable with peter. peter just couldn't understand.

harry however, was more delighted to have you talk to him. he had missed your eagerness whenever he shared about his dream girl which was practically you. he did feel upset when he found out that you and peter were an item. if you and peter werent together, hed for sure have started something with you. he knew peter saw the way he held your waist, the way he brought your hips closer to his, the way he buried his face in the crook of your neck. but who is he to break you two apart. you were his best friends girl. or are you really?

#harry osborn x reader #tasm!harry osborn #tasm!peter x reader #tasm!harry osborn x reader #peter parker x reader #dane dehaan #andrew garfield #andrew garfield x reader #andrew garfield x female reader #andrew garfield x you #valerianxreader #valerian and the city of a thousand planets #harry osborn #one shots #imagines #tasm!peter imagine #tasm fic #tasm!peter fluff

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monkie-brain · 8 months

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I wanted to maybe write a little thing for this because it hurt my feelings and i like that in a post, however it only just occured to me that i probably should have separately posted it lmao

The following is a oneshot based on the art and tweet above, can be interpreted platonicly or romantically, enjoy :)

Or not :p

Warnings: i dont proof read and my grammar sucks sometimes. Also character death mentions, and character death itself. And panick attack?? I think thats it

For context this starts off somewhere between red son being separated from his parents and mei fleeing into the middle of nowhere.

Red son had already been on his own by the time the fire had found its way to him. As he stood on the precipice of this uncontrollable, all consuming flame, he knew what had transpired. He knew from the moment that he came in contact with mei in the dining room, this was a possibility. But he believed if anyone could have tamed it, it was her. Now, seeing the fire burn away everything it touches, he couldnt help but feel responsible. He should have told her then.. now, judging by his surroundings, he was sure. Mei, that stupid noodle boy, their friends, they had to be dead. Burned up.. ashes. He could practically see the holes forming in reality itself.

In that moment, he wasnt sure what took hold of him. Fear. Hope. Something. But his body acted on its own, and he took a step into the fire. In mere seconds it engulfed him, beginning to burn away at the ends of his clothes. It didnt hurt him. It was just.. warmth. Like the sun on a warm day. His eyes opened, and he moved onward into the sea of crimson fire. The world was empty, the air filled with the crackle of flames as it ate away at the world.

Mei felt as though she had been alone for ages. The world around her was empty, her friends were dead, her familly was dead. She couldnt stop this. She could feel the flames tearing the world apart around her. Nothing to grab, technically nothing to stand on. The fire is the only thing left, and all she could do about it was cry and scream into the oblivion she created. Thinking, why couldnt the fire take her too? She was mortal, she could burn.. so why was she still here? She was certain that even the air itself had been burned away, because every breath she took burned in her lungs. She felt like she had hot lead in her veins, and the only thing she could hear was the roar of a hateful, destructive fire that she had failed to control. The more she cried, and screamed, the worse it got, but who wouldnt be crying and screaming when you're facing the end of the world by yourself?

Hours of aimless wandering in the flaming wasteland had left red son weary. He didnt know why he was out here. Maybe he thought he could stop this. But by now the world was probably up in flames. The fire was probably gnawing on the bones of the earth by now. But then he heard something. Something that wasnt the crackle of fire. His ears perked as he followed it, soon identifying it as screaming. Strangled cries of grief and anguish. He could see the source in the distance, a crumpled little silhouette. It was her, she survived it. He couldnt help but feel a stab of grief at the sight of her. She had to endure the death of her own world and she had barely lived long enough to see it. He found himself stumbling forward at a reckless pace, tears pricking his strained eyes as he came barreling toward her. "DRAGON GIRL!" He called, unsure if she would hear him. He didnt know what good it would do, he knew it was too late for everything and everyone else. But somehow, against the odds, she was here.

Mei had barely heard the familiar voice over the ringing in her ears and the pounding in her head. But she heard. She looked up immediately, terrified as she searched for the source. The second she spotted the form of someone running toward her, she knew who it was. The coat and the ponytail were unmistakable, she knew it was him. Even if she were blind she would have known it was him. She had barely even made it to her feet before she went charging forward to go to him.

She practically crashed into red son, though he managed to keep upright as mei ran straight into him, her arms wrapping tightly around him. He couldnt believe the state she was in. Disheveled and overheated, trembling, tears burning away as soon as they spill from her eyes. With the bright red of the firelight engulfing them, he couldnt even see their natural bright green. She went to say something as she looked up at him, her arms wrapped around his tense body. But her words died and gave away to more grievous choked sobs as she slumped against him. He finally wrapped his arms around her as he felt her sinking, pulling her into a supporting embrace as he sat down with her. He held her as she rested against him, continuing to cry.

"I cant stop.." she said, her breathing as ragged as her emotional state, "Red boy, make it stop.." she begged. Red son heard her, a few tears of his own threatening to spill. He could have helped if only he wasnt a coward.. it was too late. "I'm sorry." He said, after a long pause, "It's gone, mei. Everything is gone."

And there they remained. As the fire grew, and consumed, and tore everything they knew apart, they stayed. Red son's clothes were left partly destroyed, and his ponytail holder snapped, red curls falling over his shoulders. He didnt care. He looked just as much a mess as mei now. Mei calmed slowly as red son comforted her, the burning sensation tormenting her slowly began to cool down untill it felt warm. Then cool. They waited, and withing a few hours, the fire no longer crackled. All sound died away, and as mei rested in red son's hold, tuckered out, the fire finally dimmed and sputtered out. They were enveloped by numbing cold as they looked out into their vast, empty expanse, wondering how they were even still there. They finally spoke again, the only source of light being the dim glow of red son's hair going out like wet coals. It wouldnt be long now..

"I should have told you." Red son said, his voice quieter than it had ever been in her presence. Mei glanced up at him tiredly. "..there isnt much we could have done.. there wasnt an option where i survived anyway. I was meant to die here." She said. She knew that red son knew about this the moment she recieved the power. But she understood why he didnt want to tell him. But.. wukong did all this knowingly. Everything payed the price for it.. "..Well then. If we're meant to die like this, I'll be here untill it happens. Rest well." He said quietly. He watched as mei relaxed in his hold. Knowing that the last thing he would ever do was bring her comfort.. he was ok with that. Mei rested in his hold, listening to his heart beat as he finally burned out. And there they rested in the ashes, he world around them dark, cold, and silent. But not lonely. Never lonely..

Hope you enjoyed! And thank you so much @dr-chalk for introducing this concept, i know we were all thinking it but the way you put it into light inspired me :D

#lmk dragonfruit #lmk mei #lmk red son #dragonfruit lmk #loosing my mind over this concept #lmk oneshot #lmk angst

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Sooo there is this guy I am talking to and he is really sweet and kind. We started talking last December and it has been good. I think we are kinda dating?? He makes me feel very special and so bubbly inside. He is funny, very attentive to my words. He never made any comment or did anyrhing that made me uncomfortable being alone with him. He means well. I met his uncle which made me super nervous but it went super easily. He makes me very shy (flustered might be better). he thinks I am “innocent” (i bet he doesnt think i call myself Taehyung’s number one whore). II am very okay with him being my long term boyfriend. However, he can get a bit possesive. I try my best not to ignore his very strong tendency to pick up a fight but his friends says he wasnt like this before. He literally a moment away from punching a guy because he hold the huge door at our deparment builng, you know huge old European doors that could smash you. I dont want to judge him solely on his because I know that he has some issus with sharing. And he didnt do anything bad other than this weird incident. Also I dont want to be blind because I have to be careful as a woman. So this is out the way, i want to share another incident.

So the thing is… I am small. I am around 155cm and I weigh around 50kg, maybe 52 with my thick sweaters and winter shoes. And this lovely boy borders 198cm. I dont need to say We look ridiculous together with the height difference. Sometimes i cant hear him because he is so up there.

The reason i told all of these is that we had a moment together that shifted so many things. Despite being bery good friends, we didnt do anything physical than just holding hands very briefly (i look like his kid whe he holds my hand even though i am a year older). So a few days ago, he was sitting on some bench at the corridor at our faculty. He was waiting for me and he was kinda sad. Family problems. I met him where he was sitting and before he could stand up, I hugged him. I know that only a hug could make difference. Please note that this boy is twice the size of me and had never seen me in summer clothes. So when we hugged his face went straight to my boobs. He literally dive into my boobs. And oh boy, he DID NOT expect me to have 90C titties. He held me so close that I felt my breast squeeze and mold against his face and he stayed there for a good minute without saying a word. When he looked up, he was a CHANGED man. He didn’t comment but he went for a second hug, which was waayyy closer to my left nipple but he doesnt have to know that.

I felt very nice. I think i was relieved that he enjoyed it this much. Since then he does try to be closer but our bodies dont work together. (I am all for give me a big boy vibes but this boy is too big. I accidentially hit my head to his elbow. I literally jump off my seat when he sneezes.)

So what do you say? I am scared he has some issues with possiveness but. I really do like him. Should I make him my big baby toy?? 😂

Honestly him acting like that because of someone merely holding a door open (no matter how heavy or light) screams "do not engage romantically" to me. Maybe I'm overreacting but he's first of all, not your partner and second of all, even if he was your partner this is a toxic reaction to have and should not be seen as the norm. Also, third of all, given how you are just friends this makes it even weirder. Never in my life would any of my male friends react to someone holding a door open like that. The only time they would wanna punch someone else is if that person harassed me and even then they would resort to violence as the last help.

And in your case. It's a door. Someone literally just held a door open for another person (and given how you said European door I assume you’re in Europe which means holding doors open for people is just something common that people do lmao).

The thing you should do right now is tell him that his behaviour was toxic af and set boundaries (if you feel safer do it in public where lots lf people are around. Which btw, you shouldn’t ever be so scared to set boundaries with a person that you need to be with other people. Keep that in mind too). If he sees his errors and proceeds to respect your boundaries, maybe all he needed was a wake up call and he IS willing to better himself and he didn’t even realise how utterly DUMB his behaviour was. If he doesn’t or he gets even weirder with you or worse scary, you dodged a bullet and please make sure you are safe.

In my opinion, you should set boundaries about how he acts first before you do anything else. (Even with friends you can have boundaries btw this doesn’t have to be an exklusive romantic thing)

If anyone wants to say their own thoughts to that topic please leave a comment. I personally wouldn’t engage with someone like that romantically.

Edit: Also ask yourself does he make you feel safe or do you simply enjoy that one act of allowing a guy to rest on your tiddies? Because if the answer is "I just like it when guys rest on me" it's a general feeling you have about yourself and not about the guy. And if your answer is any kind of way "I don’t feel safe with him" then you know what NOT to do (aka start something romantically with him).

#anon #asks #tw: abuse

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Hi I'm just. curious where you got kieran's age from. Cause the only source I can find for that is a fanon wiki, as in non-canon. I promise there's no shade in this just a genuine question

hiii no worries, thanks for asking! i love talking.

short answer: I think i probably got the impression he was 36 from googling it and seeing the fanon wiki, and only realizing later that it wasnt canon so the idea stuck with me. its also just sort of funny since kieran gets picked on by sean, whose abt. 19, even though kierans visibly older than him.

long rambling answer that u dont need to read unless youre insane: I don't imagine him as 36 anymore because someone pointed out to me that him hitting on marybeth and being like 16 years older than her would be weird, but it made sense to me before that because 1) his design just changes age so often somehow, like in his official fullbody hes got grey hairs and a decent amount of wrinkles, but in game he looks much younger, so it's possible to imagine him as pretty much any age and 2) he has this one single line in a camp interaction with karen where he says something like, "some of the boys here, they treat me alright". Its probably just a throwaway line but I love this game and it stood out to me so I'll treat it like it means something anyways; kierbo calling the men in camp "boys" (to me) made it feel like hes around the average age for their group, or at least older than sean and lenny. Ofc it could also just be that that was what was normal for the time period, or that kier was used to calling gang members "boys" (ie. dutch's boys, colm's boys), but we really aren't given a lot of hints for his age so I'll take what I can get. and 3) in playing a social call, kieran steals an odriscolls gun and uses it to save arthurs life. based on how kieran shot the odriscoll as soon as he came out the door, he was already close to arthur, all the way down the hill from where the gang left him. since R* actually took the time to have sean make mistakes in his missions to show his age and inexperience, it doesn't feel like they'd have kieran make the decisions to steal a gun and go to where arthur was if they wanted him to appear young, especially since he has so few missions/chances for characterization.

And these are just some of my thoughts on his age based on what little information we have: according to...... familysearch dot org...... lmao..... the avg ages of soldiers in the spanish american war (1898) and the philippine american war (1899-1902) were 16-60, so kieran was probably at least 16 when he joined the military. Based on his conversation with sean, he joined his first gang AFTER leaving the military, but he doesn't describe them apart from them being killed by odriscolls. I think based on what he says about life later, "folks all seem to die", he was probably with that gang long enough to consider them his family (given that he was young and lacking one) or at least enough time for their deaths to make a lasting impression on his worldview, which I'm inferring was about a year at least. Hes also able to describe colm and how he manipulates his men concisely and, by 1899 ILLITERATE outlaw standards, what is pretty flowery language like sean just asked him what was up with colom and OFF THE CUFF kieran goes "like the devil is upon you", jesus. So he was probably with the odriscolls for a pretty long time too, or at least a year I'm guessing. So if he was 16 in the military + spent 1 year in an unknown gang + spent 1 year w/ the odriscolls he was,,,,,, at least 18 at the start of red dead. shocker.

I got carried away and said pretty much every thought I've ever had abt kieran's age (sorry) but hopefully the first part answers your question !!! :o)

#cleo.txt

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thvnderdraws · 1 year

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question, how would nightmare feel after the fight that chan comes back to him, and heals them both up with her shadow magic. she pats killer and nightmares head and is silent the whole time, course she starts chit chat and just said she was protecting the balance.

she also allows them to rest on her booba cuddling up with one at a time or all of them while they cuddle into her blanket cape inside of it resting on her warm body while they heal up because chans shadow magic heals really quick and also talks to the other bad sanses as well, and after she gives them tiny kisses on the forehead before waving goodbye.

and then for cross and dream, after the fight chan went to cross when he passes out and helped him out carrying him bridal style and taking him to the omega timeline, same with dream.

she left a little note to cross saying "sorry i had to leave so quick, i have some duties to attend too, i hope you feel better soon ^^! signed, .cs ~" and she leaves her signature with a kiss on the note *black lipstick*

she also gave a little kiss on crosses forehead when he passed out and gave dream one too *he wasnt passed out* ^^ and when cross wakes up he sees some shadows erupting from his wounds healing it up quickly.

how would they feel or act when chan does this? seperate pls ^^ *headcanons + cross, dream, nightmare, killer, horror, and dust*

zamn this is long- i feel like i ranted--

its okay!

cross !

he doesn’t remember chan giving him a little kiss, but when he wakes up and realize he got a kiss, he’s very happy! and even better, the kiss made the pain go away. He’s very thankful

also he’s keeping the little note very close to his heart <3

dream !

oh, the boy is flustered, he was expecting getting a kiss too, before she could go he told her he’s glad he helped them, while giving a tiny kiss on her hand <3

killer !

oh, he instantly forgets about all that, as long as he gets a lot of booba cuddles he’s happy lmao

nightmare !

he won’t forgive very quickly, but he appreciates the cuddles, at least he is getting healed up faster than he would have alone

horror !

horror doesn’t really know what actually happy but is very happy that he got a kissy too lol

before she could go he gave her a muffin he made to heal his boss and killer, he hopes she likes it!

dust !

he was using healing magic when she gave him a little kiss, so it startled him and the magic zapped killer

his soul is beating very strongly in his chest, oh boy what could that even mean 🤔

he gets distracted with paps yelling that he wants a kiss too !

#thunder says #thunder’s headcanons #undertale au #cross sans #killer sans #dream sans #nightmare sans #dust sans #horror sans #3nergy-spirit

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the-woild-is-y-erster · 8 months

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ok since @watch-me-stand-watch-me-run was the one who asked this is mostly for you but like

gather round the campfire, children

cw/tw violence, abuse, child abuse, might add more after

this is gonna be really really long lol hold on to your butts, brochachos

ok so his given name was micheal sauveterre, his family wasnt nobility, but they werent poor either. he was born in 1883, and is sixteen when the strike starts.

no word of a lie, i cannot for the life of me decide if i want him in the livesies or 92sies-verse, so i kind of just go back and forth in my head lol

so he grew up in a pretty well off family, but his parents were severly abusive. they would beat him and his brother, telling them they deserved it for being ungrateful. his older brother spencer was the favorite child, always got the special privileges. they both did well in school, until micheal was 12. his brother went off to a fancy college in virginia, and he was left alone with his parents. his dad tried to make nice by teaching micheal self defense and giving him a switchblade with his initials on it. one night, micheal snapped, finally having enough with his parents abuse, and ran away. he lived on the streets for a year, joined a circus that was in town as a acrobat and knife thrower, but didn't go with the circus when they left.

shortly after the circus, micheal was left starving on the streets again, and had to steal food to survive. snyder caught him, but micheal slipped away. in the chase, snyder grabbed him and gave him the scar on his face, taking him to the refuge for a few months after.

a manhattan newsie (havent decided who, maybe skittery or blink) saw him on the streets and offered him a job. manhattan was too close to where micheals parents lived, so he asked if there was anywhere else he could get a job.

the newsie told him about all the distribution gates for all the papers, and all the different boroughs. the leader of queens at the time (i didnt know who it actually was in the show so hes an oc ig too) Crush, was an ass and treated his boys like dirt, so micheal made his way over to queens.

crush refused to let micheal sleep in the lodging house at first, so he just hung around, watching. after a week or two of being there, he and the newsie who acted as queens' medic, Jade, came up with a plan to overthrow crush. long story short, crush found out, tried to shoot micheal in an alley, hit his side, and micheal walked out with a brand new pistol, not to mention title.

he hated his old name, so he changed it to Ezekiel, Eel for short. crowning himself the King of Queens, and a new era of ruling came along.

sketch break lmao (i love this one sm)

ok so he became really close friends with manhattan newsies, despite being on the other side of the bridge from them. might have had a teeny tiny crush on spot, but once he saw race did too he immediately started trying to get sprace together lol

jack takes him to see medda, and she takes one look at him and goes "hmm, this boy needs a mother figure" and takes him under her wing. once she learns abt his time at the circus, she offers to let him be in some of her shows for some extra money.

he only wears the tutu outfit sometimes, mostly to make the guys laugh, but he likes the makeup and he really enjoys the stage, but would never leave queens fully, so medda's is mostly just for fun and when he needs to de-stress.

his second is named Shoe (another oc lmao) Shoe's real name is Harvey, but he only lets Eel call him that, and thats mostly only when hes in trouble lol

i dont have any sketches of shoe yet but i will i prommy<3

eel and shoe are dating<3 and the flushing lodging house's owner has basically adopted them. her name is Eden, shes italian, and she taught eel italian along with his french from his family, but they only speak it in private because people werent really accepting of 'foreign' things

anyway if i remember anything else ill put it later

yeah! thats eel/zeke, i love him dearly<3

#newsies #92sies #livesies #newsies oc #i have a few more sketches of him lol #ezekiel 'eel' 'zeke'#woof i need to update this lmfao

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spectre-does-stuff · 10 months

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I started a new sdv save

so of course, I have a new oc! His name is Rian (ree-anne), and I'm planning to romance Elliott, Alex, Sam, and my boy Seb. Also, I'll probably get Harvey and Shane just for shits and giggles, and because I wanna watch the "dating all the bachelors" cutscene, then break up with them cuz like i ain't marrying them, I just wanna see the cutscene. I'll have some art of him and Milo and Toby (my other OCs, their very own posts coming soon!). I also have a lesbian character named Lydia, who I haven't played much since i realized I was trans, but I'll probably resume playing with her soon.

Anyway!! Lore!

Rian spent his last 2 years before aduIthood in Stardew Valley with his grandparents. It wasn't that his parents WEREN'T alive. It was that they disowned him. He had come out as lesbian, put through conversion ccamp, and by the age of 16, had come as nonbinary (stepping stones). He knew he would face rejection and a lack of acceptance, but he wasnt expecting to be told he was meant to sleep outside. Now, in stardew valley, that might be safe, but in Zuzu? Absolutely not.

He left, took a Suber (in universe Uber name lmao) to Stardew Valley, somewhere he hadnt been in years. He met some friends his age, Sam and Alex, as well as had his first really intense crush---Harvey, the only doctor in town, who was about a decade older than him at the time. What could he say, the hot doctor energy was too strong.

When his grandmother passed, it shook his life. He had to undergo 2 years of therapy to cope with her loss, as well as all the trauma he'd undergone with his parents. By that time he was in college out of country, something he'd always dreamed of doing. He came out as trans to his friends, and began the long route to transition. He was lucky. He got his first T injection in under two years, at this time 22, a sophomore in college. His celebration was cut short when he was called in to his grandfathers hospital bedside, and eventually had to take care of him for all of winter break, as well as the first fewlectures to plan his funeral when he finally passed away.

Surpressisng all of his grief, he moved through college, pushing away his friends and boyfriend for his studies and finally, it all paid off when he got the position at Joja Co. That he had always dreamed of.

The joy wore off quick, and by 25, he was done. He was on the verge of just staying home until he lost his job and starved to death, when he remembered the old envelope his grandpa had given him on his death bed.

The old farm he loved so much as a teen... Was his?

This was great news! This was the spark he needed to keep living.

He quit his job and packed up quick, getting the soonest bus to Stardew Valley.

When he finally arrived, it seemed the town had lost its life. There was, however, a very attractive writer who had just moved in.

He walked up to Alex, about to say something he would've said back in the day, when he was hit with, "so you must be the new farmer guy."

No one recognised him.

And he didn't particularly wish to tell them.

This was his fresh start. He would make the most of this.

so yep thats Rian! Hope you're interested because I want to do... something with him.

#sdv farmer #sdv elliott #sdv sam #sdv sebastian #sdv alex #everyone is gay #including farmer #they just homosexual yk???#nothing wrong with kissin boys #farmer #stardew Valley #new file!!!#oc

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nxdxxh3 · 1 year

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Hello.

I have not posted or reblog or whatever these things are called nowadays. Anyways, I bet no one reads this cus i just wanna give a life update to myself lmao.

I stopped visiting tumblr probably more than 5 years ago?? So around 2018 probably. Oh wow. Okay imma make a timeline then.

2018: I was with my ex boyfriend. Lets just call him A. Things started great then went downhill and i ignored all the red flags yadda yadda yadda typical young girl thats so positive im gonna end up with this guy. Well no. If i could turn back time, i would slap myself in the face and tell her to run. I actually cant remember much back then as im trying to forget everything 2020 and below. But what i did remember is how manipulative he is and a liar. But, i was in "love". I started my diploma this year and graduated already in 2019. We'll get to that year in a second. Anyways, he practically talked me into being with him rather than this really great dude i was dating before him and mind you he had a gf. In my defense, i didnt know as i said earlier, hes manipulative and a liar. The dude before him is from singapore and i was young and thought LDR wont work on me(boy i was wrong.) I needed the physical attention cus well, i was young.. But im glad i did met him physically cus we planned to meet in Johor and it was sweet. okay that got sidetracked but 2018 is like the 2nd year i was with A. During this year, it really went downhill. I started to fall into deep depression and my mental health was bad bad. Thats when i felt i wanted to unalive myself and hurt myself. and i did. the latter i mean. anyways he started working somewhere and i actually was sus about this bitch working there as well. Lets call her S for slut.

2019: Fast forward to 2019. This is the year i got a cyst on my left ovary. Due to reasons i rather not say but i will answer if by any chance someone read this and are curious so go ahead inbox me i guess. But definitely A was contributing to it. Whether directly or indirectly. So yeah, during that time it was bad. I lost my left ovary and i only have 1 now. How i found out you ask? (no one asked but) I had really unbearable pain on my abdominal area. The uterus area like non stop. I thought its the period cramps but i wasnt on my period that time at all. I found out a bit late so the cyst grew until 12cm and i saw it after the removal. Its the size of a baby's head! im not even exaggerating. Its really big. Anyways after the surgery, my family has been there for me. They're really the main reason why im still alive and well mentally and physically. That was in July. and i cant remember anything before that. so lets move on. Towards the end of the year, i found out that A was cheating on me. Not 1, but with 2 different girls. 1 is S and 1 is F. These random ass letters will get me confused but nvm. F is the ex gf. and the funny thing is, F was friends, best friends with S. LMAO. When i found out, the first thing i did was exposing him on my instagram sksk. I cant do anything and im not gonna stay quiet about it. so i just did that. and a lot of people came forward exposing more about him and S. So hes really active with S. Hes been going out, fucking her and F behind my back. and they both dont know about each other's situation btw until F saw my insta story and contacted me to meet up. and we did and i told her everything. all this time A was badmouthing me to his side pieces saying how much of a psycho i am, how i always beg him to stay (fuck no ew i always ask for break ups but he always have a way for words and actions). Like i said, hes manipulative and a liar. the fact he had the audacity to ask me to not stay mad for long as if im still gonna be part of this shitty hole. fuck no. i did confront S at that time and bro i really felt like i wanted to slap her face and drag her across the road but hey hes not that fucking worth it for me to do that. I complete left the whole fiasco and stayed friends with F lmao. shes cool. but sometimes dumb bcs she still stayed with him after everything. although that time A already went public with S he can still manipulated F somehow. A ended up marrying S tho. and side note, i gave A a fossil watch and it was fucking expensive. and he told F he bought it himself lmao. fucker. oh and he often take advantage on me asking me to pay for shit. he did pay sometimes but restaurants that are expensive, i paid. he paid for mamak, hawker stalls and what not lmao. So that ended. And i ended up celebrating new years alone and i fucking glad i did.

2020 -2021 July: So uuh covid came. And i met this dude on May 2020. How? me and my discord friends that i met during covid were planning to meet up and hes one of them who tags along. He just broke up with his ex gf 2-3 days ago that time. How he approached me, he kissed me creepily and suddenly while me and him was alone in a house i rented before covid during my degree. Now that i think back, it was creepy. He said "what if i attacked you right now". LIKE WTF? WHO SAYS THAT. Then he suddenly kissed me. i did not know how to de-escalated the situation. so i just let it slide. we just met for 2 hours btw. and he keeps on asking for a kiss afterwards too. on the way back from the outing, i have to send him back and he did not have a license btw. All the way back, he keeps on asking wanting to kiss me again (of course i said no) and hold my hand (this one i was ok with it although i was so uncomfortable). It was so creepy dude. I dont know if those things counts as assault or not cus i kinda just went along with it but i was uncomfy. Anyways, hes unhygienic, kinda narcissistic also have anger issues. Everytime we played games together, i cant enjoy shit bcs he keeps on tilting and screaming at randoms. (sometimes he tilts on me) I also have to pick him up and send him back after all of our dates. it was a mess. I learned the hard way after agreeing to date him. but during my relationship with him, im the fucked up one. i owned up to my mistakes and im not gonna leave this part out from this timeline. i cheated on him with some random dude. and i wont justify my actions. cheating is still cheating. he did gave me a second chance and i swear to god i did try my best to be better. i don't blame him for acting more suspicious of me and blaming me for everything. but it gets worse and i got tired. i honestly thought i should've just left instead of asking for a second chance. i realized the reason why i asked for a second chance is just to make up for it. bcs i felt bad. and that's not something i should've done. i should've just left and let him healed. trust me that came up a lot of times but seems like he doesn't want us to end either. so the unhappy and most depressing phase of our relationship got dragged until august 2021.

2021 August: I finally had the courage to end things with him for good. Bcs we both tried to move on from the incident but hes not doing well on his end. He still accused me of things that i didn't do. Question everything i did and yes i got tired. again i don't blame him but Its getting unhealthy and toxic for both of us. He keeps on saying he trusts me and i have become better but still act like we're back to square one. I called quits and he doesn't want to in the beginning. But then i had to lie telling him i have another person in my life. and that was his last straw. He screamed and yelled at me and just ended there like that. I felt bad but i cant stay again bcs i felt bad. Its not right.

2021 September - Present: These timelines are getting me confused ngl cus i really cant remember the exact time. anyways before i broke up with my previous bf, i was in another different circle of friends. I spent most of my time there while trying to escape him. i thought maybe if i distant myself its a lot more easier for me to leave and him to forget me. but yea during that time we actually fought a lot bcs of that. so after the break up i spent all of my time there. and i met this random singaporean dude. we spent all night talking and exchanging songs that we like and watching sitcoms. i remember our first show was The Good Place. Our discord server name is The Good Place where we hang a lot. (ldr things) and yes he knows about my past from A to Z. Basically everything i have wrote so far. We played valorant a lot tgt. I know i know, very short amount of time meeting someone new. but bro he hits different. its definitely the rush, the chasing, the butterflies. i haven't felt like that for a while and well, its bcs of my own fault too. i admit everything happens so fast like very fast. so we start really getting to know each other after dating which is weird and can lead to an easy break up especially we're doing long distance. but im not losing this dude. so i said, fuck it. he did say that he scared long distance would be hard but hes willing to try. i did it before and i want to be better. especially for a guy like him. 2 years has passed and today, 13th April 2023, we're still together and getting engage hopefully end of this year. Life has been great since i met him. Everything is different. he accepts me for who i am, we finish each other's dark humors/jokes. We facetime everyday and never get tired of seeing each other. He met my family and i met his. Although we ldr, we make it work. There's ups and down of course and mostly bcs of me lmao cus i self sabotage a lot liddat. but im working on it. and also, i suck at communicating. mostly bcs i usually keep things to myself during my past relationships. but that's what im working on right now and i hope im doing well. besides that, i am finally content and happy. Not a day goes by i never thought of him. I truly love him and i cant wait for what the future holds for us.

Thanks for reading guys. (im probably talking alone rn)

#life #mental health #relationship

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pixiebunnii · 1 year

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Casey (Ninjago) V2

(IK its closer to like version 15 at this point, but this is only the 2nd time ive posted ab his full info [ninjago ver] here so <3)

Fair warning for scars, mentions of mental illness and disorders, and the like <3 And oc x canon??? if ur fussy ab that??? idk

Casey first, bc he's my little man, my favourite scrunk.

Basic info includes: Casey Abel Tinniel 17 years old (averagely, does change w/lore and how i draw him) He/Him pronouns (feel free to use candy themed neos for him tho, kinda experimenting w/that) Trans-Masc, FTM. Half Oni, Half Human Canonically he has ADHD and BPD. (Feel free to hc him as autistic aswell idm, no other hcs tho pls lmAO, feel free to ask if he does XYZ in my askbox, but do not hc.) British/Japanese. He is 6'3 (tall man, love him, towers over so many), loves candy (any, even that chalky valentines candy stuff), he's left handed, constantly carries chapstick, and kinda needs glasses but rarely wears them (bc hes an arse). He has a dog!!! Leonberger/Great Pyrenees X called Mochi!!!! She's big and fluffyyy!!

He is an EM (Elemental Master), but like his element b kinda stupid but i love messing around with it. (Hes a fandom oc he wasnt made for realism nor to be canon SMH) And a ninja ofc bc what cringe baby's first ninjago oc (he wasnt my first im lying) isnt a ninja!!! Pink ninja go!!!

His element. is. Technology. and I do have basic mechanics written down for it, which i will paste from my notes rn: (Please ignore mentions of "Roni" i will get into that in another post if yall like him enough)

Not me actually thinking and noting down stuff ab Casey's element.

his machines don't need power (batteries, a plug, etc) he can power them himself with his element, but that's draining so he would still add another source of power, and because he already rarely uses his element he can only power small devices.

he's able to cut off power or turn off security systems. (Like just by touching control panels & stuff)

if he knows how to build smth (mechanical) he can just build it instantly, not needing to touch the materials (idk how to explain it? like he can float electronics but he cant hold them mid-air THEY HAVE to be added to Smth mechanical/technological)

is able to hack certain things without touching them, but mostly just does that to annoy Zane when he's younger (Lloyds command/prank) and rarely does it at all later on, leading him to barely be able to do it at alllll when it's needed (most of the time it isn't because of Jay, Nya and Zane having tech knowledge and jay being master of lighting).

Mostly he can just barely use it at all other than to control small devices/andriods because he's never needed to use it. (Up until Roni, which I'll not down stuff for later, might make it so that he's forced to make a few different Oni soldiers and then have his father mass produce them? Idk) probably will change a lot of stuff but these r just notes based on the few ways I thought of him using his element

Elemental notes over (i cant be bothered to edit them)

i was gonna make him a new reference sheet for this post, but instead u can have these: (older art i might've posted but forgor)

(yk that second to last one/the one in the bottom left? yeah ill go into that in another post <3)

i draw him happy to contrast his lore <3333 and the scars tbh, hes so covered in them that drawing him happy and ignoring them is kinda comforting?? idk haha The stories behind his scars r long af so like ill just put them down as "ninja accidents" and move on. His horns and tail r optional, as he's an oni obv smh (shapeshifty boy) I think thats all for him as a character?? He's just a happy silly boy (golden retriever to Lloyds golden cat fr i mean whaTT!!!???) Yeah. Biotech. Aka Lloyd Garmadon, himself, X Casey Abel Tinniel. They r my scrunks, my blorbs, and maybe even, my little guys. I dont have any updated art of them atm, but i promise u i will make some at some point ong!!!! They like to eat candies and stuff together & watch disney movies fr!!!! Casey likes to cook so he makes homemade mochis and stuff a lot n like ong<33333 way to lloyds heart is through candy and i will NOT hear otherwise!!!! Youngest ninja members gotta look out for each other (even if that means kissing sometimes SMH) Thats all for now i think yoooo!!!

#ninjago oc #pixbun casey tinniel #ninjago #oc x canon #pixiebunnz art

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rosemary-bells · 2 years

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okay so i. um. coughs. i f. i finall y read the luke anny ssr card story. voice acting and all. and. i. h. hoo boy.

i'm just gonna go in and start screaming for a few paragraphs maybe possibly. im not one to review things at all but whatever i have like a hundred years worth of things to say. i was gonna go n post abt this as i read but then i was like na h ill just make a bunch of memes and cry later

like first part(s) of the story i was already screaming and crying over that flashback where hes arguing w aaron. highkey i was like bro is this rly the time to tell luke to make this romantic. rly. then later on it was nothing but sadness and heartache and crying and i was like yknow what maybe he was right about this

first meme! i saw peanut and i was like oh m y god. my little boy. my baby. hes back. highkey i miss the kid. he's not present enough in luke stories lmao. the fact that luke styled the lil handle on peanut was. hooo. i was like man i cant believe this is the perfect man maybe? (im kidding. hes far from perfect but he is baby.)

also highkey during his classical music lore session i was like "lmao shouldve made it fur elise" and then i was like Hm. i also highkey love the fact that they changed the music for the music box bits. that was cute. love that they used the main theme on the default card screen too. very nice

every time he mentioned larping schumann or brahms i was like man is this rly the time lmao. altho i am happy it brought him resolution

meme two i dont have that many memes again most of this is just me ranting for a bit. the voice acting was literally peak though. every time he yelled, or even every time he was quiet, you could really get all that hesitation and heartbreak, all at once. it was amazing. it was heartaching. loved it. i cant speak for the other dubs since i use jpn but like. i bet they were. immaculate.

also highkey im still so miffed that they didnt give rosa voice acting. i could rant abt this for hours but to keep it short, like. mhy is always at its strongest when its not making a self-insert, yknow? in some cases, self-insert characters work, but when your choices don't matter too much, in an otome game, which are mostly character driven, trying to make her too basic is just kind of eh ig. she does get a pretty solid character from what we have, though. like, shes got a strong personality. very passionate abt justice to the point of embarrassment. very honest. is generally driven a bit more by her heart than her brain. like seafood. that sort of thing. she's already her own character, so i just wish they gave her a va. its gotten to the point in which ive literally started imagining a va for her. she kind of sounds like shirayuki (jpn) in my mind...

also man fr he really did think that romantic partners were the only way to receive proper emotional support. she has friends, man. she's a strong kid who you left for like, 8 years. have some faith in her, yknow? also god, that line where he was like "As long as he can make you happy." god. that just stung, man. im thinking abt him in other routes and like, 3/4 times he really just gave up, didn't he?

on that note i also thought the towel that he was using to dry her hair was just. on top of her head the entire time, so thinking abt all these dramatic scenes w her just doing that was funny. ik thats not how it worked but like still. also did she rly run to her parent's house in that outfit? in the storm? ik she wasnt thinking but oof dude shes gonna catch the worst cold after all this blows over

that kiss scene though. man. the orchestra music playing. i always love that theme, even if it does feel mis-timed at moments. it just feels so refreshing. rly does make it feel like a "kiss of fervor" (also how he just caresses her arm during the kiss. how gentle. what a sweet guy. he rly just wants to comfort her.) he even used 大好き instead of just 好き like man. ... man.

and then that bit where they called each other their greatest treasure... and then, how he said "I swear, I will do everything I can to live, so that I can be with you." man. it was cheesy but it rly did feel like the rainbow after the storm. it rly is all abt learning to love yourself because of how loved you are. like wow. man. it rly is abt loving someone so much that you want to live for them. live w them. man.

all in all, super cheesy card. it was a short-ish storyline, but i highkey loved it. it was cute. it was precious. i nearly cried. (more or less did when i found out his badge was called "Luke's Vow" like hooo. oh my god) i Enjoy. looking forward to the 2nd anny's cards....

the final meme. its another version of the last one but hey accurate lmao i was shaking crying screaming sobbing throwing up the entire time but by god was my heart full

#buzz #tears of themis #tears of themis spoilers #highkey this is just a rant lmao dont mind me #i havent read the other card stories (didnt wanna summon for em. im dedicated and need to save s-chips) but ill probably google em later an #i bet they are so much lighter comapred to this. surely theres gonna be drama yeah but nothing thats gonna make me like want to lie down fo #r a hundred years. man. luke stans suffer but he is too good a boy not to suffer for #i have a final today but its okay. i earned this.#sorry for the long post have a good day #or night. idk lmao #im gonna go catch up on genshin soon.#highkey i cant even look @ the tag on tumblr rn because of the second anny. i dont wanna spoil it for myself lmao. pain #anyways byeeeee

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azusaluvclub · 2 years

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my all out!! ships ... the masterpost you didnt ask for

im gonna keep this short and sweet and say that i have 0 explanation or defense for any of these , but goddAMN did i grasp at straws to make em make sense . having ao!! as my hyperfixation for half a year has had some harrowing results tbh

if im not alone in these pls let me know or smth :D otherwise enjoy (or dont)

goshozome + hirota ;;;

⋆ .. all of these are rarepairs tbh

⋆ gosho notices hirota first, whenever they go to watch jinkou play against tenjiku ! rlly admires his strength on the field and finds himself wanting to get to know him lol

⋆ is the one to initiate their first convo after a practice game together and hirota thinks hes an absolute pest- reminds him too much of the flashy, pretty boy types in dramas, but waaayyyy more charismatic (and actually nice lbr)

⋆ gosho probably gets hirotas number from kamo afterwards (thx kamo ...) and messages him that night w some goofy lil "hello ! (^０^)ノ" and hirota is just left wondering .. “who tf ..."

⋆ once he figures out its goshozome, he decides that hes even MORE of a pest- still replies to him tho ?? he rolls his eyes about it but he cant help but find him amusing ; its not long before hes looking forward to their chats :D

⋆ over time they start to talk more and while they dont have the most in common personality-wise, they find that they have similar likes and hobbies (aside from rugby ofc) that they can talk about for hours- even their differences and separate interests make for good conversations !

⋆ the first time they get together is probably to do smth a bit more fun as per goshos suggestion, like bowling (naturally, seeing as hirota is a bowling god), mini golf, or even ice skating- smth that gets em out, but where they can still chill and talk afterwards !

⋆ also, most places like that provide snacks + appetizers 2 share soooo ;))) while its not exactly a "date", its definitely a place to start

⋆ in all of this though, hirota ends up learning a lot more about gosho and that, in spite of whatever misconceptions he had about him, he really just wanted to be friends- and honestly ? this makes hirota feel rlly fuzzy deep down :( not that he admits it, coward

⋆ them actually getting together though is definitely a gradual thing . i feel like goshozome wouldve realized early on that he didnt want just a friendship with hirota, but it took hirota much longer to figure out that his own feelings werent totally platonic lol- its not until wellll into their college years that they decide to give dating a try :))

⋆ their friends were not surprised when they started dating ; probably more surprised w how long it took . esp kamo, who def caught the pair making goo-goo eyes at each other like a bajillion times before they made it official- hirota may have thought he was being lowkey about it, but gosho wasnt even trying tbh-

⋆ overall they have a really sweet relationship :(( i see gosho as the type of boyfriend who can be a lil overbearing in his affection (though it comes from the heart ofc, he just doesnt like being discreet about the person he loves imo), so hes always reminding hirota of the million and one reasons he loves him, gifting him things, taking him places, etc, and while hirota doesnt mind be flattered like that, he never really gets used to it either lmao- gosho calms down about it when theyve been together longer and the newness wears off a bit lmao

⋆ hirota, on the other hand, is a bit more subtle about that sort of thing :)) its the little things that goshozome loves tho ! hirota cooking him his favorite meal (goshos canon type is good cooks so I MEANNNN...), giving him something that reminded him of gosho, or simply saying “i love you” is enough to make him melt- knowing that hes appreciated and thought of like that will never fail to make him absolutely weak smh

⋆ but yeah, theyre just really happy together :((

⋆ to add some more fun lil things ,, hirota has a fascination w goshozomes hair tbh . loves running his fingers thru it when theyre cuddling and such (seriously wants to know what product he uses to get it so ... soft..)

⋆ whenever they get into petty arguments , hirota will 9/10 times threaten to turn goshos bird into stew ,, or fried parakeet ,,

⋆ in spite of this he actually does find pete (???? i think thats its name but dont ask me ..,) super cute :( 100% supportive if/whenever gosho wants expand the family lol, once theyve settled down

⋆ once they get older and have the funds for it, i think itd be cute if they opened their own lil restaurant together ! its mainly hirotas since it was probably his dream from the start, but gosho helps out a lot with it — be it helping in the kitchen, w the decorating and such, or the actual hosting/waitering part, hes in it with hirota 100% :))

⋆ i see them as both being pretty family-oriented ppl, so they definitely keep close with each others families + they all get along p well ! i like to think that, w them both being older brothers, their lil bros are relatively around the same age and so they hang out a lot during family get-togethers and such- whether they actually get along or not ? wellll u can decide lmao

adachigahara + takebe .

⋆ chaos x chaos enabler .

⋆ likely started talking during a post-match function, probably after rugby nationals and shit- takebes bffs w marodo + i like to think noka + sumi are a lil friend group w them, and i feel like theyre the cluster of personalities that adachi would fit right in with (would he want to tho ...), so it made sense for them to start mingling lol

⋆ how the two started talking outside of rugby stuff ?? BEYOND me . for the sake of this it doesnt matter, but i dont think it was long into them talking + developing interest before they decided to go on a date lol

⋆ their first date is probably at an amusement park ! maybe a lil cliche but i think theyre both fun-loving people so it seemed like a good idea lol

⋆ try going on a few of the rides, but adachi gets queasy every . single . time . so by the fourth ride they agree to just play the different games instead (which is fine, bc adachi was looking foward to that part anyways-)

⋆ adachi keeps trying to win the stuffed animal prizes to add to his collection but loses p much every time- takebe offers to try his luck, and gets it in one go :D (and gets stuck carrying their loot the rest of the day lol) ends up winning some big, light blue cat plushie that permanently resides in adachis bed :)))

⋆ venture into a haunted house attraction and take turns screaming + clinging to each other when they get scared- adachigahara tried playing it off like he wasnt scared at first but ,, neither of them would be that good with spooky stuff lbr :’)

⋆ end off the date by sharing a giant ass sundae at one of the food stalls <3

⋆ after a few months of flirting around and going out, they actually put a label on things :D nobody was expecting it other than the people closest to them, mainly because they are so ... different, per se ? but theyre happy together so their friends are happy for them ofc

⋆ takebe was definitely drawn to adachi for his personality :)) but can you really blame him ? hed be fun as hell to be around ; even if they arent doing anything in particular, takebe will still find himself entertained by whatever ramble adachi decides to go on about- (at this point takebe knows 90% of the sagami gossip lol)

⋆ (also, not that it matters buttttt ... takebes type is literally “black hair in a bob” and like . how else would u describe adachigaharas hair ? lmao do what this info what you will)

⋆ for adachi, i think hed really like the more passionate/ambitious + bolder sides of takebe, once he gets a chance to see them lol :,) esp since he seems p simple on the surface- (tho i feel like theyre both passionate people, just about different things- takebe mostly about his goals and such, while adachi is just passionate about everything smh) adachi is takebes #1 supporter tho :D

⋆ definitely the type of couple to be matchy-matchy w things ! matching keychains, mugs, accessories, blah blah blahhhh

⋆ because he knows goshozome, adachi has gotten a ton of hair tips and products to pass onto takebe :D probably the only cure to his insane bedhead atp

⋆ spend a lot of their bonding time just doing silly shit, but its some of their favorite moments shared :( be it watching some ridiculous show on tv, doing shitty karaoke in their living room or tripping over each other playing just dance, or indulging in some self-care, they have a lot of fun together </3

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to summarize , these are the only two ships i really had a lot to say about :D but if u want me to be real i have like . a shit ton more that linger in my brain as cute concepts (kokuto + marodo,,,, for example,,,) but idk how to make them work logically LMAOOOO so yeah . one day perhaps .... i will speak em into existence ..........

but !!! if anyone reads this pls let me knwo about your own rarepairs or ao!! ships in general ! or any general headcanons ,, idc honestly , im just open to any convo about ao!! atp lmaoooooo soooo :D hmu bitches

#all out!!#ao!!#ao!! headcanons #this is the rawest realest most honest i will ever fucking be on this app #goshozome yoichi #hirota eiichi #adachigahara shota #takebe tomomichi

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