#for all I am loud and opinionated and absolutely not a people pleaser? I am THE MOST team player in d&d

[0junemeatcleaver0]

Anonsense: A Deconstruction of a Bad Faith Argument

I honestly don't know why I'm even posting this. Will it be helpful for people who don't know how to immediately clock a bad faith argument? The people pleasers who might feel compelled to answer every anon no matter what? I hope so.

Do I have a bit of a bee in my bonnet after being woken up at 4am because I forgot to silence my phone only to see this bullshit after living through the most stressful week of my fucking life?? Also yes.

Whatever. At best this is a learning moment, at worst it's an opportunity to point and laugh at someone who thinks they deserve a Nobel Peace Prize for failing at being real pussy cunt-cunt in a stranger's inbox.

I am confused. You haven't watched the show but you hate the show...? Correct! You can, in fact, hate a thing you've only gotten a taste of. I saw the trailer (you know, the thing networks release to get you interested in a show?) and didn't care for what they were doing. That opinion was only cemented when I saw the ridiculous clip of Louis chasing a fucking goat around.

Something fans of colour especially black fans talk of so enthusiastically and fondly? You're right, VC fans of color are all a monolith and all enjoy the show. And the fact that I--a rando white person--hate the show is mortally wounding to them all. This is in no way infantalizing to fans of color, to imply that I somehow have enough power as some random person to ruin their good time by making posts about how silly I think this show is--posts I don't tag so that fans of the show don't have to see them.

And these fans aren't always show onlies. I know. I've talked to a few of them. They seem nice.

Idk if this ask is going to come off as bait Yes you do. You absolutely know that. And if you didn't know that, that was your clue to go back to the drawing board re: how to phrase what you meant in a good faith way.

-think of it as you will How kind of you. Thanks for the permission.

but this...you realize this comes off as some type of way, don't you? Only to the people who are actively looking to be upset, yes. And I don't care about those people. They are not of my concern.

You have had an ask that you published where the anon says they don't care that "certain demographics" of people are loving AMC. That's very very sus. 'Very very sus'. Am I suddenly on Twitter? Anyway. You do realize that book-only fans are constantly accused of belittling all show fans no matter what we say, right? That it's much more likely that anon said "certain demographics" meaning "the fraction loud, obnoxious fans who will accuse you of being immoral for not liking the show" and "people who never read the books and have nothing to compare it to" and not as some dogwhistle to mean "fans of the global majority", right? Also, my memory is shit. I may have used that phrase and if so, see the above reasoning for why I used it but also if I didn't: Why am I being held accountable for a random person's choice of wording?? I'm not anon's mom.

I don't particularly care if you answer or not. I'm sure. That's why you wrote an essay in my inbox. To not get a response.

If you block. I did. Fuck outta here.

I just had to put it there. Did you? What was the goal in this? Do you even know?

Maybe this is rude as per tumblr etiquettes. It's pretty rude regardless, but hey what do I know. I'm no Emily Post.

But this was just so odd as I am new to both the book and show fandom and while going through blogs I found yours So what I'm hearing is you're missing a lot of context for what's been going on around here and you've not realized that, is what I'm hearing. And you're either purposefully ignoring of didn't wait to find the many, many posts I've made detailing why I personally think the show is bad, why I think the white cishet frat bro turned wanna be auteur showrunner is doing a bad job of including characters of color in the text, the reblogs of fans of color who have brought up similar points, etc?

Stretch before you reach this hard, anon.

#talk hard #anonsense

[maybeimamuppet]

rahhh hi again! I loved reading your response to my movie review, you made a lot of good points! first of all im so sorry your poor 7-year-old self had to suffer through the 1996 movie :(( I dont have adhd but I can imagine how you must have not liked it AND MISS HONEYS DRESS HAD HOT AIR BALLOONS?? I did not notice that, how cute!! I'm in love love her cottagecore/pastel style, it fits her personlity so well i think. and ooh the red beret girl is called hortensia? cool, thanks! I read her name in your fics and I wasnt quite sure who she was so thank you 😭 and it was interesting to hear your view on the songs!! And I'm gonna be honest here, I've listened to Naughty, Revolting Children, and This Is My House at least once a day since I watched the movie 😭 THEY'RE SO FUN :D i also love This Is My House so much, it's such a sweet and deep songgggg uhggshdhsd 😭i think one of the reasons I wasn't a fan of how many songs there are is beacuse I've watched maybe 2 musicals in my life so far, and I'm more of a slow-burn dialog girl. But thats awesome you love them!! and I'd like to take back what I said about Matilda being timid in the 1996 movie. The way you described her as being bristly, clever and conniving was perfect. I think I said that because I'm just not used to her being so loud and bold with her clever whit and sense of justice 😭 (also ignore how many of the crying emojis im using lolll its a habit) so it stood out to me more than it would if I had watched the musical before 1996. i absolutely agree with what you said about miss honey. She's the soft and sweet people-pleaser type. She'll sacrfice herself to help others I think, and hates conflict. However like you said, I think that she has bravery inside her. And if it came down to protecting Matilda or something like that, she could absolutly stand up for herself. I think that her escapologist father and acrobat mother are lying right beneath her skin, just waiting to be let out. (not them literally ofc, but their daring, bold, and powerful spirit that has been passed down to jenny)

thanks for sharing your thoughts!! -🐸

hello again!!

it is absolutely fine i was just a coward lol. i’ve. obviously watched it since and it has a special place in my heart i’m over all the second grade nonsense lmao

EVERYONES CLOTHES IN 2022 ARE WILD. the set and the costumes have so much detail it’s bonkers and i still notice new things every time i watch it and go !!!!!!

that’s absolutely valid musicals absolutely have a kind of learning curve to them lol. matilda was the first one that i got really into on my own accord after being raised on annie and being friends with theater kids who talked about others. but matilda was the first one where i was like 👀👀👀👀👀 hello. and that kickstarted my whole musicals thing and now i am here

i find it so interesting that you look at it a different way now!! i thought all your points in the first ask were incredibly valid but i’m glad (not the word i’m looking for but whatever) that i kinda got to shift your perspective a little! also we love the crying emoji never apologize

you are absolutely right abt everything here and i’m hopeful you learn to love musicals (or at least not be thrown off by the number of songs lmao)

thank you for sharing yours!! it was really fun getting to see a different opinion/pov so thank you for sharing :)

#frog anon

[utilitycaster]

What are your top picks for magical secrets? Say for a Lore bard and a Valor bard to give some idea what their roles would be. Maybe also what you chose for your Eloquence bard.

So here's the thing, and this is going to turn in to a long treatise below: you can't pick magical secrets in a vacuum. More generally, you can talk about mechanics in a vacuum, particularly when you're talking strength of spells or subclasses, since you can compare them to other spells, but when you're talking about the best spells to take as a bard, or as the anon last night asked, as a druid about to go into wildshape? It depends! It depends on your party, and it depends on your campaign, and I think a lot of people do not realize that and I think that's why basically any mechanics opinion I've had that was moderately unpopular (rogues are the weakest class, bladesingers aren't very good, the undying warlock is pretty good) was, well unpopular: I tend to value utility and support, because no matter what, those will always help your party (oriented around support) and always be good in combat (utility=you can do multiple things and not just pure damage). A lot of people, when faced with the vacuum, pick "what does the most damage" and frankly that is boring and assumes your only goal is to do damage. And even then...what happens if you pick fireball if you're playing through Descent into Avernus and many of your foes are going to be resistant to fire?

To give an example: I play my bard in a campaign with no cleric and no other arcane casters, but we do have a paladin and druid, and because I'm the primary healer (the druid joined late in the game) we are using an optional rule where I can swap out one spell for another bard spell of equal level when I take a long rest (ie, can't swap out magical secrets for other magical secrets). So: I picked counterspell, since no one else can take it, and I picked scorching ray, which is a very effective targeted damage spell, which is good because most bard spells are area of effect and we have two melee characters plus a druid who's often in melee. I didn't take revivify because the paladin has it and I can if necessary take Raise Dead after a long rest. We're playing in a pretty typical D&D setting with a variety of foes, so a fire damage spell is usually fine. I chose a damage spell because of our party composition and because damage was a weak point for me.

So: to make a good choice here? I considered my subclass, but I also considered my party composition, and the setting. If I were a lore bard I'd get more magical secrets and at a lower level, so perhaps I'd have taken revivify so that we didn't spend levels 6 through 8 without any resurrection spells...but I wouldn't do so if we had a cleric/wildfire druid/divine soul sorcerer, since they'd have revivify at level 5. If I were a valor bard I might not have taken scorching ray because I'd have much better damage output as is, and might have instead decided to take haste to buff our monk/barbarian or our paladin (or myself). If there were another arcane caster in the party I might not have bothered with counterspell. If we were mostly fighting evil cultists or demons or something as a running theme of the campaign, I might have taken a spell that deals radiant damage instead, and so on, and that's not even considering RP reasons - my bard character is very much someone who sees magic as a tool and, barring creating zombies or something, will do what it takes, so that wasn't a big consideration here; but my wizard character works in libraries and specifically does not have fire spells as a result (not that wizards get magical secrets; I'm just illustrating here that backstory/RP is yet another factor in spell choice).

There's no best answer here without the whole picture, essentially; see what gaps there are in your party and what needs there are in the campaign, and that goes for everything from spell choice to picking a class in session zero.

#for all I am loud and opinionated and absolutely not a people pleaser? I am THE MOST team player in d&d #if there is a gap in the party? I am playing that and I WANT to play that. #part of why i want to play in more one shots is i want to basically be told here's our party and figure out what they need #and then play that #it's like a cool puzzle #d&d #d&d mechanics

[hungry-skeleton]

I headcanon pinkie pie as having ADHD, but not for the reason you probably think. I've noticed that neurotipicals tend to headcanon her with ADHD because of her hyperactive behavior (which is a little yikes if you ask me because that just shows you only associate ADHD with being hyper and loud). But as someone with ADHD I noticed a particular part of her behavior that seems all too familiar

Pinkie Pie has RSD

Now before I begin my rant I want to preface this with the fact that I am in no way a doctor or an expert and I will be basing this analysis on my own experience with RSD. Keep in mind that everyone's experiences with both ADHD and RSD are different.

If you don't know what RSD is the oversimplified version is this: RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria) is the overwhelming and irrational fear of being rejected, judged, criticized, disliked, abandoned, or overshadowed. This can lead to mood swings, distrust, social anxiety, irrational jealousy, and approval seeking behavior.

I've always related to Pinkie Pie, which is part of the reason she's my favorite character. When I noticed that she exhibited RSD symptoms I lost it. RSD basically controls my life, I can't go a day without it ruining my mood or causing me to think awful things. Allow me to give some examples of Pinkies RSD symptoms:

Note: being a children's show, some of these examples are exaggerated for comedic effect, but I believe they are still worth mentioning.

1. Extreme reaction to perceived rejection

In my favorite episode, Pinkie Pride, Pinkie feels overshadowed by Cheese Sandwich and feels rejected by her friends when they praise him for his party planning skills and ignore her. This causes Pinkie to believe that her friends don't need or want her anymore, and she sees herself as inferior to Cheese. She begins to give up party planning all together, after seeing one person she perceived as being better then her at her talent she decided to never invest in her talent ever again.

2. Approval/praise seeking behavior

In the same episode Pinkie goes out of her way to try and regain her friend's approval by trying to out-do Cheese. Doing increasingly extreme things in the process that eventually lead to Rainbow dash not having a very good time. There's probably a few other examples of this but none come to mind at the moment

3. Irrational distrust and perceiving negative emotions from peers when there is none

Literally everything about Party Of One

4. Distress when one fails to meet personal or others expectations

In many Pinkie centric episodes it is displayed how she expects her parties (or other plans) to be absolutely perfect or she will feel like a failure. Pretty much every Maude episode displays this behavior like in Maude Pie where she is devastated to learn that Maude and her friends aren't getting along as she had hoped. Then in The Gift Of Maude Pie she becomes distressed at the idea of not getting the perfect gift for Maude in fear of disappointing her (despite the act of gift giving not being a competition). Lastly, pretty much everything about the episode Rock Solid Friendship.

5. Being a "people pleaser"

The episodes A Friend Indeed and Too Many Pinkie Pies display this symptom the best. In A Friend Indeed, she tries way too hard to make a complete stranger happy and is saddened at the idea of said stranger disliking her. In Too Many Pinkie Pies she literally clones herself so she can hang out with all of her friends at once. It's not uncommon for Pinkie to try and please other people despite her not being very happy herself. Wanting everyone around you to be pleased with you no matter who it is is a common behavior amongst people with RSD

Now some people can chock up this behavior to simple abandonment issues but this feels more closely related to RSD, at least from my experiences and observations. There's probably more examples then I remembered to mention here. I will admit though, I am a bit biased with Pinkie being my favorite character that I already relate and project onto but can I really be blamed for that? RSD is already such an overlooked trait of ADHD and seeing its symptoms exhibited in a character I already relate to is just asking for it.

Now this is all my own opinion/headcanon but I hope I could let you see something from a new perspective. Please feel free to tell me your own thoughts.

I will close this off with a quote from the iconic video, What I Learned Today: "your friend's can be happy for reasons that don't involve you, gotta work on those abandonment issues girl"

#Wow why did i do this #Rant #long post #very long post #adhd rsd #ADHD #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rejection sensitivity #Rsd #Mlp #mlp:fim #mlp fim #mlp pinkie pie #pinkie pie #pinkie pie my little pony #my little pony

[niceandspicehotel]

Kyra Ocs!

            ❝Oh! Hello there, would you like some flowers?❞

                                             『Basic Info』

↬ Name: Lily

↬ Age:23

↬ Sexuality: Pansexual

↬ Likes: Baking, flowers, painting, her friends

↬ Dislikes: Rude people, burnt food, when people won’t leave her alone even when she tells them to, people who think their opinion is the only one.

↬ Pronouns: She/Her

                                        『Get to know her!』

↬ An absolute sweetheart with big mother energy. Never fails to see the good in people. 

↬ Lily is a social butterfly who loves getting to know people no matter who they are. She believes that no one is truly evil therefore people think of her as naive and carefree.

↬ She will always make sure you’re alright and will do anything to cheer you up if you’re ever feeling down. The last thing she ever wants is for her friends to feel sad.

                                           『Random facts』

↬ She grew up in a foster home and loves her family.

↬ A people pleaser and perfectionist, she has a need to be perfect around everyone in her life, therefore, developing atychiphobia (fear of failure).

↬ She tries to avoid smoking and drinking but will do so when highly stressed.

↬ She loves drawing flowers especially carnation as it is her favourite flower.

↬ Food fanatic, will go to a completely different state and maybe country just to try the food there.

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      Tw: Mention of abuse, guns, hurting people and gangsters. Please skip Rose’s character section if you feel uncomfortable with these topics ^^

❝Hm? Oh, you wanna talk? Didn’t think I was an approachable person, have a seat. ❞

                                           『Basic Info』

↬ Name: Rose

↬ Age: 22

↬ Sexuality: Bisexual

↬ Likes: Action movies, fantasy books, coffee

↬ Dislikes: Assholes, people who insult/hurt her friends, bugs, messy places, hookers

↬ Pronouns: Doesn’t care

                                                『Get to know them!』

↬ Had a neglectful father and her mother left when she was young so she only saw her brother, Cane, as her actual family.

↬ She spent a lot of her young years with gangsters around her area making her well known among the community.

↬ Despite it all, she’s loyal and can be sweet if you’re nice. Once close to her, she will protect you and hurt anyone who does anything remotely bad. The person better hopes they didn’t piss her off until she can put them in a hospital for a long time.

                                        『Random facts』

↬ She wears red colour contacts because she likes them for an aesthetic purpose.

↬ She developed a scar around her neck when she got into a fight with one of the gang members who wrapped a rope around it. Luckily, she defeated them quickly.

↬ She’s a gun enthusiast, always studies guns and practice it (in safe places ofc) whenever she had the chance.

↬ Has an extremely short temper, she will try to control herself but if she doesn’t and gets angry at a friend, she will feel bad and apologies multiple times alongside buying them something nice.

↬ Dislikes hookers because she found out her mom was one and it was the very reason why her mom left her family.

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                 ❝Were you staring? Don’t be afraid, I don’t bite.❞

                                        『Basic Info』

↬ Name: Cane

↬ Age: 27

↬ Sexuality: Homoromantic Asexual

↬ Likes: Making music, clubbing, fashion

↬ Dislikes: People taking advantage, shallow people, beer 

↬ Pronouns: He/Him

                                     『Get to know him!』

↬ Unlike his sister, Rose, he spent his time making music with whatever he had at that moment, whether it’s a couple of beer bottles or just the table.

↬ Extremely laid back and chill, he just tries to enjoy as much life as he gets. He does still take care of his health though.

↬ Will take you to the lots of hidden gems in the city as he likes enjoying things with someone else. Does his best to make sure you have the best night of your life by taking you to all kinds of places.

                                        『Random facts』

↬ He dyed his hair magenta as a dare but ended up liking it and keeping it that colour ever since.

↬ He refuses to have any kind of beer as it just reminds him of back home so he tries to avoid bars if he can.

↬ Has a soft spot for animals plushies, has a bed full of them. If someone gets him one, he will forever love them.

↬ Sucks at remembering things so don’t ask him to do you a favour that involves trying to remember to turn off the stove or something as that person might have their house burned down or worse.

↬ A hardcore party person since he often does gigs at clubs and will get his friends to drink as much as him causing them to possibly vomit or faint. Will take responsibility but might tease them the next day.

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    ❝Oh hey! Name’s Jasmine, hope you’re awesome- Wait no I don’t mean it like that, I bet you’re already awesome- Imma just stop talking❞

                                              『Basic Info』

↬ Name: Jasmine

↬ Age: 24

↬ Sexuality: Omnisexual

↬ Likes: Cafe, writing, jogging

↬ Dislikes: Loud places, discrimination, dogs

↬ Pronouns: She/Her

                                        『Get to know her!』

↬ Clumsy af, most people make sure to steer her away from dangerous objects so she doesn’t hurt her or anyone in the place. She truly doesn’t mean it she swears! She just has no idea how she can trip while walking normally.

↬She’s extremely cheery and optimistic, no matter how much shit life throws at her, she’s somehow standing up great as ever. People look up at her due to that.

↬Major crackhead energy, she is the type of person who will make you laugh if you’re down whether intentionally or not. She likes seeing her friends smile so she doesn’t mind a bit of humiliation every once in a while.

                                         『Random facts』

↬She doesn’t like dogs cause she thinks dogs will bite her the moment she puts out her hand. Plus she pissed a dog off once by accident when she was small and the rest is story.

↬ Actually doesn’t like her freckles and tries to cover them up with makeup sometimes.

↬ She enjoys going to the park especially after it rained as it is cold and the aftermath rain smell is wonderful to her.

↬ She can’t cook or bake which is why she often spends her time in cafes. Lily has been trying to teach her to bake and still hasn’t given up ever since despite the bad attempts.

↬ Noises distract her a lot therefore she avoids a lot of noisy places.

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         ❝Sorry? Oh! Hi. I...am not sure what to say...nice to meet you..?❞

                                                  『Basic Info』

↬ Name: Iris

↬ Age: 25

↬ Sexuality: Lesbian

↬ Likes: Relaxing, watching romance films, staying in bed

↬ Dislikes: Large crowds, people overtalking her, confrontation, small conversations

↬ Pronouns: She/They

                                           『Get to know them!』

↬ With Iris introvert and shy personality, they find it hard to make friends and often stick to people they already know.

↬ She spent most of her life away from people as she often experiences social anxiety if things get too overwhelming.

↬ At first, they will be quiet and not say much but the closer you are to her, the more she will speak and tell you about her interest. They are great at listening and will always be there to listen to your rants or problems.

                                              『Random facts』

↬ She is actually very curious and is willing to learn new things every day.

↬ Watching the sunset/sunrise is one of their favourite activities. Bonus if someone they is comfortable with watches with them and they both have chocolate drinks on the table.

↬ When people compliment her, she gets extremely flustered and will try to change the topic.

↬ Found out she likes girls when she was dared to kiss one guy and one girl and ended up liking the girl kiss.

↬ Scatterbrain, always somehow loses their stuff and finds it at the most obvious spot after an hour of searching.

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I will add more characters in the future when I can <3

#my ocs are my babies #ocs #writing #original character #lgbtqplus #lgbtqia #lesbian #gay #omnisexual #pansexual #nonbinary #bisexual #homosexual #asexual #story character

[jazzstudied]

5 Study Album Recommendations

     The term “album” is used loosely here as I have included EP’s as well! I have been listening to full length albums and EP’s during study sessions for as long as I could remember so I decided to share some of that with you! 

     This post may be the first of many seeing as I was in a great amount of pain of only choosing five. You may have stumbled upon these albums before (and for that, I commend your music taste) or have not (to which I hope to be the bringer of enlightenment to you) and regardless of taste, I hope you give these wonderful albums a listen. 

     There is no particular order of favoritism but I did rank them according to amount of focus. For example, number 5 is recommended for tasks that require less brain activity due to ultimate ‘jamming beats’ (making flashcards or re-writing notes) compared to the number 1 album which has more of a calm demeanor so can be used during focused activities (typing up research, brainstorming, reviewing notes). 

5. Don’t Forget Me, Demos - Dominic Fike (2018) (8 Songs, 17 min.)

Lo-fi, gentle, low key banging hip hop vibes.

I can feel my stress literally melt away when I listen to this EP. An easy listen, and ultimately very enjoyable. 

The reason why it’s on number 5 is because it is too much of a banger and I get distracted. Honestly though, that is a me problem. I usually listen to this album during my break (sends good vibes my way for 17 minutes) or when I am doing a repetitive/ less focused task such as making flashcards or re-writing notes.

Around 17 minutes, which is ample time for most tasks that don’t require that much focus.

3 Nights and Babydoll are my absolute favorites in this EP. 

Looking at the stars while listening to this album is magical. I used it a lot for pulling all-nighters. 

4. Super Clean Vol. I and Super Clean Vol. II - The Marias (2017) (14 Songs, 38 min.)

Yes, I have included both Vol. I and Vol. II at number 4, technically two very separate EPs, and no, there is nothing you can do about it!

Overall, a mellow flirt of an album. 

It’s groovy but not a distracting type of groovy. It’s a just right amount of chair wiggling for a study session. 

Perfect for a 30 minute study session and an 8 minute dance break. 

I can imagine strolling through fields in a cute little dress but at the same time write in my journal during a hot afternoon haze with both of these EPs and I love it.

Basta Ya, Ruthless, and I Don’t Know You are my recs concerning these EPs! 

But all songs are good! Just listen to all of it! 

3. The Slow Rush - Tame Impala (2020) (12 Songs, 57 min.) 

Hypnotic album with electronic beats. Makes me feel like I belong in the future and the future is now. 

I felt conflicted putting it at number 3 or number 5 because some people might not like it? But I like this album a lot. 

It has a certain grooviness to it and I’m sure some people might find it distracting during study sessions. However, I find this album quite balanced with real bops and real study flow inducers!

It is less distracting that the videos titled “Brain Waves for Brain Power” videos on Youtube, in my own personal opinion. I hope I didn’t offend anyone on Tumblr belonging to that niche. I too, still have a back-up playlist of Brain Waves to induce my brain cells in ceremonial dances exclusively for midterms and finals. 

This album helped me a lot in getting into the flow of things. I hope it does the same for you!

Lost in Yesterday and Posthumous Forgiveness are the tracks I repeat over and over again from this album.

2. Relaxer - Alt-J (2017) (8 Songs, 39 min.)

Again, another well-balanced album

This album is an abomination of grunge, post rock, and alternative music. Somehow, it works even though most people stick to lo-fi when studying.

The tracks Adeline and Pleaser honestly makes me lose track of time as both songs are about 6 min. long each. 

Hit Me LIke That Snare and Deadcrush are bops that have that expected signature “Alt-J” sound. Probably too loud for some people, ok for a loud person like me.  It has similarities to the An Awesome Wave album, which is, by the way, needs a listen if you have never heard of this band before. 

1. Carrie and Lowell - Sufjan Stevens (2015) (11 Songs, 43 min.)

Now this! This album! Throughout my high school years, this album has helped me a lot! From getting up at 5:30 a.m, stressing about school, up until I am wide awake at night worrying about my grades- this indie, cottage-core, guitar plucking album has helped me through it all. 

The vocals of Sufjan Stevens are so soft, vulnerable in this album. 

Despite being so catchy- I can sing Death with Dignity in my sleep- it still serves as the superior study album. 

For those in light and dark academia, cottage-core, vintage-core or of any other similar aesthetic (actually anybody can still thoroughly enjoy this album) this is such a worth while listen. 

It makes me feel like I’m at the countryside tending to my plants and my humble home or writing letters to my friends who live in the city. Perfect for a productive ambiance. 

Drawn to the Blood, Blue Bucket of Gold, and Fourth of July are my personal favorites.

Compared to the other albums listed today, even though I said I wouldn’t rank by favoritism, I rank this as my favorite. Good for all types of tasks and can last 40 minutes for your work!

#study #study motivation #studyblr #studying #studyspo #study session #study sesh #music #music recommendation #music recs #med school #vet student #vet med #university #uniblr #light academia #light acadamia aesthetic #dark acadamia #dark acadamia aesthetic #grunge #alt rock #album rec

[jaybirdsrobin]

~Leorio Paladiknight NSFW HCs~

A few people said they wanted some horny Leorio content, and like the massive simp and people pleaser I am, I will obviously provide it. I've also got some HCs floating around in my brain for Yandere Adultrio, so I'll probably do those after this.

~*~

In my opinion, Leorio is extremely versatile in the bedroom in terms of what pace and intensity the sex turns out. His ultimate goal is to please his partner in the bedroom, so if what you're looking for is a light-hearted, quick fuck? He'll provide. Long, intense, romantic session full of deep kisses and heavy panting? He can definitely do that.

That being said, he isn't the most experienced person out there, so if you're looking for a dom/sub relationship with him, he's going to need guided for the first handful of times. Whether it be with you as the Submissive and him as the Dominant, or vice versa.

Once he's gotten the hang of it however, he'll fill the roles like he was made for them. If he's fulfilling the role of a dominant, he'd definitely be a soft dom that praises you a lot during the act. A lot of, "you're taking me so well, babe" or, "you feel so fucking good, so tight," or, "good girl/boy/baby," etc etc.

As a Submissive, he's very loud. He definitely pants a lot, and strikes me as the type to maybe even get choked up and teary if you edge him. Definitely will beg, has no shame about that whatsoever. It wont take much to get him to that point either, Leorio definitely has a very low threshold for what he can take in that regard.

We all knew this already, but if you're a lady, he definitely wants you on top riding him. Having a nice pair of tits in his face, no matter how big or small, when he's getting laid is like heaven to him and he's definitely gonna be lavishing them with attention. You're gonna walk away with a lot of hickeys on your chest.

Beyond his praising nature when he's being more dominant for his partner, he's definitely a rambler during sex. Especially when he's getting close to cumming, there's just gonna be a non-stop torrent of, "you're so good baby, fuck, o-oh my god, yes, like that-"

I hate that every fandom that has a doctor character constantly HCs them as good at oral because of their anatomy knowledge, but come on. Its Leorio. He's definitely studied genitalia before, convinced himself it was to properly understand male and female bodies, but he definitely wanted the knowledge bookmarked for future references.

He's sensitive on his thighs. Extremely sensitive and I'm obsessed with this idea, like, stroke his thighs lightly or sit on his lap, kiss them, whatever, and he's gonna react somehow. Maybe a little stifled gasp, maybe a twitch, a red face, it doesn't matter, he'll react somehow.

He's a kisser 🥺. Will be hitting it hard and fast and get so into it, he just kisses you deeply and groans and pants against your mouth.

Pull his hair. Not hard, don't yank it, but slide your fingers through and tug, and he'll melt.

Into lingerie 100%. Boy/girl/enby partner, it doesn't matter, if you walk in wearing stockings and garters, cute underwear, cat ears, hes gonna be ready to go in seconds. And he absolutely will not take any of it off of you, those panties are just getting shoved to the side so he can admire everything while he does his thing.

So good at aftercare! Will cuddle you and cover your face in kisses after all is said and done, and once you both have gotten your breath back, he'll get a warm towel to clean any mess off of you, and get any kind of snack or drink you need. If you just wanna keep cuddling hes so down, but he will not fall asleep until all your needs have been met ♥️

#leorio paladiknight #leorio #hxh #hcs #hunter x hunter

[kanohivolitakk]

Akaku, Mahiki, Creation

Akaku: Are you a very perceptive person? Why do you think so/not?

I like seeing myself as a perceptive person. I am someone who often likes observing and analyzing the things I observe, and forming deep and interesting observations based on what I notice. I like forming my opinions on topics, but also like learning about others perspectives,even those who are opposite to my own. I wholeheartedly believe that learning and understanding others views is a way to make world a better place, as I believe a lot of conflict and strife comes from lack of understanding others and seeing ones perspective as the absolute truth, instead of just one vision of world. This is why I strive to understand others perspectives the best I can, as I believe it will help me to understand the world better and fight ignorance and narrowmindness. Of course some perspectives are narrow and harmful, but I do believe understanding why someone would believe harmful ideologies is important in combating them rather than going to a black-white tribalistic thinking (which I am not immune of, I am a human and a rather intense feeling one at that, but I try my best to combat my own narrow thoughts).

That being said, I'm someone who is more perceptive when it comes to people or larger concepts. I'm not really someone who is perceptive of my surroundings due to being rather a head in the clouds type of person often time. (That and a lot of surroundings I visit tend to be the same so there isn't really much to observe)

Mahiki: Do you change your demeanour/personality for others, or stay much the same no matter who you are with? Why?

This is actually a fascinating question.

To an extent I believe myself to be a chameleon of sorts, and change my demenaor based on what type of people are around. I understand that there's time and place for things, and that sometimes it’s best to try to be something else.

I am also somewhat of a people pleaser. I want people to like me and moreoften than not I feel for that I need to have the same opinions as them. This means sometimes I’m willing to change my own opinions if it means I think others will like me more.

That being said, there are aspects of me that. I tend to be a relatively opionated person, so even if I wanted, it’s very hard for me to CHANGE my opinion just so it aligns with someone elses. In additon....I’m kinda that kind of person whohas hard time changing their behavior. I’m  loud, a bit weird, and more often than not a lot of aspects of my core personality are there even if I didn’t want them to. I just need to adjust myself.

Creation: Are you creative? What do you create?

I would say I am creative. I love to create things, and consider my creativity and imagination being one of my greatest assets, even if Im not the best at it, admittely

Regarding what I create, I consider myself a Jack of All Trades of sorts, as I both love and am good at lot of things. I write (both fiction and nonfiction), draw, play piano, sing, voice act (for fun). You name it, there’s a chance I have tried it at some point. Heck I even dream of doing something ambitous, like making a game, or an audiodrama. There’s so much to do, and so little time and energy it makes me bad.

#asks #replies #bionicle #kanohi askgame #generalbioniclefriend

[monicugh]

i just feel some of the closest people in my life are taking my happiness personally and i’ve been crying about it a lot lately

for once i feel like i finally met some huge fucking goals that i’ve set for myself and or have wanted to reach for a very long time. in a lot of ways, i’m the happiest i’ve ever been, and it’s really shitty that some important people in my life just can’t be genuinely happy for me. i’ve been a people pleaser to the extreme for most of my life, and it made everything a living hell. i wasn’t putting my wants and needs first. I was suffering and i thought that, should i start going the other route, that would be selfish and bad. i mean how could i deal with the crushing guilt of making myself a priority?? 

well now my mental health (knock on wood) is better than it’s been in a looooong time. my therapist is amazing. with her help, i’ve been trying to set boundaries with family members that i never would have set before. she’s trying to help me be more assertive and stand up for myself (something i’ve always had a very hard time doing and still do tbh) in all aspects of my life. i’m just not going to let anyone let me feel bad about it. i honestly and truly do not think i’m doing anything wrong. despite massive push back from some people, i’m standing my ground on this, because i’m realizing that i need to be the most important person in my life and not feel guilty about it. that doesn’t mean i can’t still sacrifice things for other people. that doesn’t mean i can’t be kind or understanding. that doesn’t mean i can’t have deep, meaningful relationships, it just means that when push comes to shove, i refuse to throw myself under the bus anymore

for example, i understand it makes my sister uncomfortable when she can hear my bf and i have sex. i DEFINITELY don’t want her to be able to hear, and i don’t want her to feel uncomfortable. i only get to see him once a week. we have sex as quietly as possible. noises are kept to an extreme minimum on purpose. like if a position is making a more audible skin on skin slapping noise, we stop and change it. everything that’s said is said in a whisper or quiet as possible voice. the one thing i can’t do much to help is the sound of my bed, and even then i’ve been trying to do things that make the bed quieter. we are both making an extremely conscious effort to not let anyone know what’s happening. is this ideal? absolutely not, but i understand that i don’t live by myself, and i can’t be screaming or anything. do my bf and i both much prefer feeling uninhibited and does he massively prefer when i’m vocal af? totally, but we save that stuff and other activities that make noise for hotel nights that are few and far between. am i making sacrifices? yes. do i think i’m making them for very valid reasons? yes!! i’m not complaining, i get it. there are boundaries. it’s incredibly valid and reasonable that you don’t want to hear someone else having sex. but in turn, if i’m doing all of that and someone still hears a bit of it? honestly? too bad. put on some headphones, listen to some music? idk but i refuse to feel ashamed about it.

I can’t wait until everyone’s asleep, bc my sister stays up all night. i can’t go downstairs to the guest room bc apparently now squirting is a part of my sex life (and not something i can really control at this point) and i’m not gonna risk fucking up the guest room bedding and having to secretly wash it all every week. ofc i can’t tell her that, she’d freak out even more. frankly, it’s none of her business why i can’t really go down there. that, and i fucking hate the basement. my room is my comfort zone. and sex is spontaneous, it’s not like we turn toward each other and are like “would you like to? okay we will start now.” and i realize that is my flimsiest reason of the bunch, but still. i know she doesn’t hear it every time. i know she doesn’t. she said she hears it around once a night every time he stays over but we’re doing like 4 times every time he’s here, so point blank, she’s just not hearing it all. and i feel like she specifically listens for it too which makes me feel uncomfortable. it costs exactly $0.00 to mind your own business.

this is my first boyfriend and we’re still in the honeymoon phase as far as i’m concerned so ofc sex is going to be happening often. i wish we could go to his house instead. i wish i had my own place (and hopefully this summer i will), but until then, this is me trying my best to fully enjoy my relationship and keep the peace at home. this is my compromise. i had roommates. i lived in a dorm and an apartment. sometimes you start hearing certain noises, and you just think hmmph they’re fucking rn aren’t they? guess i’ll listen to some loud music or something and move on with your life. sex isn’t gross or shameful. it’s a part of life and if i’m trying to have silent as possible sex and you still hear it, we’re gonna have to meet halfway somehow. 

i end up anxiously waiting for a string of demeaning texts from my sister every time after we finish. i check her blog the next day to see if she wrote a mean post about it. when she doesn’t, i breathe a huge sigh of relief and am happy that i didn’t disturb her that sunday. i feel like she’s been so hostile towards me for the past few months that i’m scared to talk to her bc i assume she’ll start throwing insults and i feel like she has a very hard time with seeing things from someone else’s point of view, especially one v different than hers, and constantly having to justify my thoughts/actions/opinions is exhausting. she’s not willing to have a conversation. so many times she just attacks me instead, and then i feel like i’m on the defensive which is not a constructive way to resolve any issue. 

and then there’s the passive aggressively attacking my relationship. “i don’t understand why people want to have sex all the time. that’s not the only part of being in a relationship. it’s like have an actual real conversation sometimes wow.” as if i don’t talk to my bf every single day about so many things other than sex!!! that is not what our relationship is built on! it’s about emotional support, closeness, companionship, shared interests, emotional intimacy and vulnerability, etc. but i shouldn’t have to justify that to anyone ever. 

this new thing, having a boyfriend, is not the only thing i care about in my life right now. i still deeply care about my friends and family. i still have hobbies and interests outside of it that i’m still 100% fully invested in. it’s not the only thing i think about. i have to censor myself so i don’t talk about how happy i am too much. i try not to bring him up, but i want to bc it’s a very exciting thing in my life right now. and when i do bring him up, i worry that i’m doing it too often or annoying the people around me. that’s so fucked up. i shouldn’t feel like i have to keep my happiness to myself as to not “hurt the feelings” of the people around me. i wish they could share my joy instead of pushing against it. i’m changing and growing a lot as a person, and i feel like some people want me to stay stuck where they are instead