#for once in my damn life

[i-have-lived-one-thousand-lives]

Do you ever become really conscious of your breathing so try to focus on something else until you're not so conscious because you can't exactly not breathe until the consciousness passes because then you'd be kinda dead? Just me? Okay

#i'm trying to focus on my music #but every time i breathe in my brain focuses on that again #am I breathing on beat? #should I be? #should I NOT be? #am I breathing quick enough to cause a panic attack? #I'm just trying to SLEEP #for once in my damn life #for fucks sake

[amalasdraws]

"How did you win again?"

#Tao is enjoying this :D #Aran is not really frustrated but damn if he could just win once!! #aran and tao #my drawings #original art #slice of life #comic art #fear of falling

[stil-lindigo]

emily carroll has once again permanently changed my brain chemistry

#i got my hands on her newest book recently and god. GOD #i finished that book and just lay down on the floor for an hour because i had to just absorb it all #it felt like coming out of the theater after watching ATSV for the first time #i was so full of adrenaline and the sheer impact of everything i read was hitting all at once #so perfectly paced so intuitively panelled #it feels so reductive to call myself a comic artist when emily caroll does too #shes so. she's just in an entirely different league #it feels like there should be a different word for her #im so far away from creating anything half as lifechanging as that book was #its so motivating and inspiring but its also like #fuck #FUCK #my work feels so damn juvenile in comparison #emily carroll i owe you my life #i need to rip this book apart (not literally) #i have so much to learn about writing and art #everyone read “a guest in the house” by emily carroll #i hope she gets all the accolades she could ever want or need #god #i need a tattoo of this book #expeditiously

[tmos-time]

"hey buddy what have you been doing lately" well ive been thinking about how hazbin would be easier for me to consume if it looked different at bare minimum

#tmos has art #hazbin hotel #not gonna put this in alastors tag proper but itll probably show up in the search from name dropping him. oh well #yeah im having a 'i could do this differently' moment about this show. let me in ill start rerouting the wires #anyways god theres nothing like watching a show just to roast it over an open flame with a mutual. time of my damn life i swear lol #now if you'll excuse me ill be thinking about my pokemon gijinka who i accidentally started emulating in the hair while making this LMAO #also. just realizing how obvious it is once you look at it how much i gave up on the hand LMAO. simply what happens using the first take <3

[stuckinapril]

i think i officially set my sights on a therapist and i'll be contacting her very soon?? therapy was legitimately not on my 2024 bingo card (or in the cards for me at all) but here we are????

#this blog always had a focus on social science and detangling feelings and experiences. like it's basically been serving as my diary #bc this blog has always been my main outlet for it. i hate talking feelings to anyone irl. it's a bad habit but i hate it #so it was a game changer and helped me grow up sooo much. esp supplemented w other people's experiences. #being raised by a stoic engineer mother who's very much warm but also not very good at feelings at times has caused me to suppress SO much #compounded w being the eldest daughter. like that is a damning sentence in and of itself #tumblr just gave me an outlet for stuff like this. and every social media is essentially a highlight reel of ppl's best moments. #tumblr is the opposite. i've always loved that too whether it was in the form of humor or more earnest posts #could i work through my own issues by myself? yes probably #and my blog will always have that facet even if i get a therapist #but a therapist's input. just a professional's input. will expedite a lot of improvement for me i think #this has been a critical time period for me anyway bc i'm budgeting my whole schedule for once vs being handheld by uni deadlines #and it's just gonna keep getting more and more intense from here bc i'm truly pushing my comfort zone more than ever before #it just feels like the right call even tho i'm lowkey nervous ab it bc i HATE talking feelings in person. #this therapist will not fall for my trying to deflect by asking her about her life. which. usually works on my friends <3 #we will see. a therapy arc is coming very soon basically #p

[pitske]

ROTZBACKE! HAKENZAHN! OI! OI! OI!

#I know some people will disagree with me here and that is totally okay : #I grew up watching httyd and I absolutely prefer the german version over the og (which doesn't happen often) #I think it is so undeniably better in my opinion because it 1) is what I am used to #and 2) because I'm a northern german and the way they talk seems so close to home its just nice- #um's auf gut deutsch zu sagen: die hamburgern so schön /lh #of course in my family we mostly speak like that for emphasis or whatever but I JUST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I LOVE IT SO MUCH #I can speak along with the movie in its entirety in german I just-only piece of media that had more of an impact on my life than Undertale #I will say I am sadly not a third movie enjoyer. I'm sorry I just didn't like it very much but I respect the people who do #I also have only watched it once while I've watched rtte like... idk 3 times? #also finally getting to the drawing- I LOVE SNOTLOUT AND HOOKFANG SO MUCCH #also Rotzbacke's Synchronsprecher is just so damn funny- #oh btw Planzin and Tectco watched me go through the five stages of grief when I realized the reason why angel dust sounded so familiar #in the german dub was because the voice actor is the same guy who voice acts fishlegs in german #pitske’s art #pitskederdoenerhaendler #so much shit going down guys I need to draw the entire dragon rider crew #httyd fanart #httyd #snotlout #snotlout jorgenson #hookfang #how to train your dragon

[calamitys-child]

Obsessed with the audiobook choice to make the borogravians all northern except mal who is Dracula. I love them so much you have no idea how much I adore these little genderfuck desperate losers with swords. Monstrous regiment u r everything to me forever

#ive reread this (or listened to it) every year since I was 13 and it gave me the first glimmer of hope in my gender and my life #and in my righteous fury about all the horrors in the world. the bigotry and closed mindedness and war and prejudice. #the abuse and exploitation of the poor and disabled and queer. the way the military industrial complex chews people up #spits them into the dirt #ten years now and every year i get a little more secure and kick back a little harder. pterry as always i owe you a homemade sandwich and #a damn good book to read if ever we meet once my own hourglass runs dry #gnu terry pratchett

[kaissauce]

i thought about susie and the mage sisters post-HIAD and it snowballed from there. will i ever make a concrete story from this? i have no idea.

#three mage sisters #kirby gijinka #hyness #susie haltmann #sauceart #i was like 'wow they have similarities. I Have To Draw Something About it' #flam and fran are balling post HIAD mainly because they're much younger than zan and wasn't nearly as dedicated to Void Termina as her #they were really only in it to give hyness their gratitude for helping them. which they no longer had once he got more and more obsessed #meanwhile zan and hyness are like 'DAMN. ok all those decades worshipping this dude and it turns out it's nothing like the tomes said.' #now they're both like #'what do i do with my life now?'

[baltharino]

#merlin #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #gaius #merthur #live action #gif #gifset #THIS WAS SEASON 1 EPISODE 4. .howw is my boy down that bad that fast #arthur knew merlin for all of 3 episodes and was ready to risk his life for him #like yeah at this point merlin had saved arthur twice + camelot once but still. damn #s01ep04 #merlinedit

[bioshook-wynand]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIOSHOCK!!!!!

Have a boyo contemplating :)

#bioshock #bioshock 1 #my art #cohens collection #jack wynand #atlantis.txt #my son. my boy #he looks older than how i usually draw him oops #pov: you use a reference #for once #jack bioshock #jack ryan #bioshock anniversary #bioshock giving me a love for drawing backgrounds #but also taking 5 years off my life every time I have to draw rapture #ough #DAMN he thicc #hbd bioshock

[wrinkleintime]

enterprise text posts: featuring trip (and friends) in Situations

#*meme voice* its because they're always in those damn situations #star trek enterprise #star trek #enterprise text posts #trip tucker #doctor phlox #t'pol #travis mayweather #malcolm reed #hoshi sato #jonathan archer #this was originally *just* trip focused but i kept finding ones that fit other people in proximity to him so now we're here. #with a trip (and friends) theme. just- roll with it please. #anyway. he's not like other girls!!!!! he doesn't die when he's killed!!!!!!! #i quote the bug in the tent scene at least once a week. i see a weird bug in my house i say ARE WE ALLOWED TO STUN ALIEN LIFE FORMS?? #the poor little meow meow one...... forgive me. #injury tw #blood tw

[moot-ramsey]

Shelter in the Stormy Unknown

This is a scene from my adventure time OC x Canon fanfic, Bullseye, which is still in progress!

Feel free to read it HERE! (18+ Only!)

#I was gripped with inspiration and obsession that I could not shake until I finished this #For once in my damned life I actually drew a background #AND finished and colored an art #ALL AT ONCE #Rare Ramsey moment #ramfics #art #myart #fanart #oc #ocs #adventure time #adventure time fionna and cake #at fanart #at fionna and cake #finn mertens #finn the human #farmworld finn #original character #fanfiction #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #oc x canon #blood #injury #stitches #bruises #bruising

[millenniummmbop]

@icouldbesleepingpowder I’m going to go ahead and use this ask as an excuse to bring up my ultimate favorite number one self-indulgent headcanon which is that both kaiba and yugi have almost basically the EXACT same taste in music and kaiba gets REALLY FUCKING PISSED every time he’s reminded of this lmfao

#asks #icouldbesleepingpowder #made this a separate post bc otherwise tumblr would force me to format the images vertically -q- #seto kaiba #yugi mutou #sketchbook #like i think kaiba was never allowed to enjoy anything modern or age appropriate for YEARS bc of gozaburo's iron hold on his life #but once he beefs it kaiba's finally free to be the ULTIMATE SELF-INDULGENT EDGELORD he was born to be #like he walks into a hot topic or a spencer's gifts for the first time at like 15 and he just ASCENDS #he hears numb by linkin park blaring from the store speakers and he's like 'oh my god he's literally me' #but also he strikes me as the type of pretentious asshole to believe he's cooler and more special than everyone bc of his #R E F I N E D TASTE IN MUSIC #but also he'd be EXTREMELY TERRITORIAL ABOUT IT LMFAO #like he'll be waxing poetic about some philosophy bullshit and end his argument with muse lyrics or something only for yugi to be like #'oh LOL yeah dude I love that song!!!' #and kaiba would be like #'NO U DON'T U DON'T KNO THIS SONG U DON'T KNO ANYTHING SHUT UP I HATE U YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO LIKE THIS' #kaiba voice: nobody understands pain except for me and the guy from three days grace #lisn u gotta write what u kno and unfortunately i know TOO DAMN MUCH about being an edgy edgelord teenager #who would just sit in their room listening to linkin park all day long LMFAO #this is an INCREDIBLY stupid headcanon like yes i'm aware #but it's also the nearest and dearest to my heart 😭😭😭 #if my otp can't enjoy early 2000s angsty rock tracks together i can't legally call them my otp 😭😭😭 #like cringe culture be damned it's just good fucking music #i have 'I hate everything about you' on my rival mix i don't care anymore slkjflsdjflsdfj #sorry for the long tags i could literally go on about this forever sldkfjslkfjslkf #blorbofest 2k22

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i swear i have the body of a 50 yr old. i did something mildly active for less than an hour today and my back Aches. who authorized this

#my back: oughhhh im so weak you need to lay down and be still for ten hours #honey i do not have the patience nor the time for that #i am chugging this soup and then im Really Fuckin Crunching The Packing & Cleaning #my mother gets here at like 2 am and i want to get shit done before she arrives #so that i can be told i did a good job for once in my damn life #sorry that was pathetic! #i actually am just a spiteful creature that wants to prove that Hey. maybe i can be relied upon this one time #bet she expects to get here to see an absolute mess w/ not nearly enough packed #JOKES ON YOU FUCKER IM DOIN IT ALL ON MY OWN #i got shit done Without you. ha! #also i want to go whale watching tomorrow #i need to be on the water... i need it.... big aminal please... #rambles from the bog #i feel so. Independent. and tired #took the cats to the vet all on my own. got them a prescription. rode in two ubers and made casual conversation both times #completely fumbled a brief interaction with a really cute girl who was definitely outta my league #me: wants to talk to cute girl. if she offers to get the door for you say Yes #brain: look at the floor. ignore her. say 'no ive got it' when she offers to get the door for you #sobbing and wailing. totally won otherwise lmao #my cats were so good!!! they were so sweet and they Listened! #they stayed on the weighing plate & let their claws be clipped #they were so friendly and nice and WELL BEHAVED WHAT WAS THAT #when i try to clip their claws i get squirmy mc wormie and little miss war crimes #i walk away with new scars and nothin to show for it #but noooo. vets do it and not a peep. not a single wriggle. no hisses or meows. just hangin out #man. at least my cats are comfy enough with me to be up front w their desires #fuckin fakers... beautiful sweet well behaved fakers.... #the vets absolutely loved them btw. all three people that were in the room loved how sweet my little critters were <3 #i am Proud tbh

[daincrediblegg]

I know we've all been going insane about hari murder comeback of the century in envy of the entire wwe league but like. CAN WE FUCKING TALK ABOUT HARI "THE FUTURE IS WRITTEN EVERY SECOND! WRITE A BETTER ONE" ?!?!??!? CAN WE???? PLEASE????

#seriously. that shit brought me damn near to tears last night #it might well still I'm legitimately losing my mind about it #you've never seen a man with more conviction and tenderness and sympathy in his fucking voice in your life and you know it #the way. THE WAY. Hari is the empowering supporter of all the misunderstood and oppressed individuals like he is #first with gaal. then the fucking move with hober appealing to the spacers. NOW DEMERZEL #WILLING TO KILL FOR AN OUTLIER???!?!?!?!? #LIKE COME ON #I'm in love with him an inhuman amount. like seriously #jared is seriously doing his literal line deliveries of ALL TIME AND HOW ARE WE NOT TALKING ABOUT IT?!?!?!? #wow yeah I'm going to cry about this actually #HE IS THE HOPE HE IS THE MOMENT!!!!! YO!!!!!! #I really need to get fuckin working on my fic for him fr #man has my heart for all of it #AND LIKE I THOUGHT VAULT HARI WAS GONNA BE CULTY!!!! MANS PROVED ME WRONG ONCE AGAIN!!!! #hari seldon #foundation

[queenshroorn]

someone on tiktok made an edit of vash and knives to decode by paramore and I have not been the fucking same since I saw it. how have we never looked at the lyrics and connected the dots. helloooooo.

help me I’ve fallen and I can’t get up-

#shroom.txt #trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #millions knives #SEE I TOLD YOU THE TWILIGHT SOUNDTRACK CHANGED THE TRAGECTORY OF MY WHOLE LIFE #I cannot hear decode without thinking of how god damn tragic these two are #marred by the same trauma and taking entirely different route dealing with it #or not dealing with it if you’re vash #and how the refusal to yield to the other has destroyed the relationship they once had together #I THINK ABOUT THEM ALL THE TIME #EPISODE 12 OF TRISTAMP AND THE LAST PART OF THEIR FIGHT RUINED ME #TRIMAX RUINED ME #alright so anyway