#for quite a while

[violetsandshrikes]

A lot of people on the Borax post are also shocked to learn that people are taking Colloidal silver as a preventative health treatment as well.

Colloidal silver is really big in the wellness industry for two reasons: one, because we USED to use it OTC and therefore people assume it was removed because of corruption-trying-to-keep-us-ill-reasons and two, because it is often touted as an alternative to antibiotics, and useful to stave off flus and viral illnesses (so topical).

Research currently doesn’t support any medicinal use for colloidal silver, and it’s not considered safe to take orally. Silver deposits in your skin and organ seem rather useless to me.

#katie rambles #this one was less shocking to me because I’ve seen people do this irl #for quite a while

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

I feel like a lot of people really dislike the idea of Ghostbur being or seeming “childish”—which I honestly get! Especially when a vast number in the fandom see Ghostbur as nothing more than a silly guy who doesn’t understand things and isn’t mature in the slightest.

That’s frustrating. It really hekkin is. It’s frustrating to see people reduce Ghostbur to that.

And so I think a lot of people who feel hurt or protective over this misconception become very defensive, to the point where they… kinda seem to disregard every childish thing that Ghostbur did. Which… is also frustrating. Not in the same way as people who infantilize him, but frustrating nonetheless.

Because in reality, Ghostbur was childish. He spoke in simple terms, said things like “buh-bye”, very quickly lost interest in a conversation if it was veering in a direction he didn’t like, and pretty much refused to acknowledge anything “bad” or scary or sad—often to the point of hurting others, albeit not meaning to. Those are all fairly childish things.

But Ghostbur also was a very well-developed, very unique, very beautiful character who felt things, who wanted to help people, who loved his friends and his family and his sheep more than anything in the world, who thought deeply and thoughtfully, who understood that not everyone in this world means well or is a nice person, and that some people do hurt and lie, and he also understood that people can change, and that everyone should have a second chance.

Ghostbur was well aware of the way people perceived him—most of the people on DSMP saw Ghostbur as something delicate, something that couldn’t handle the real truth, something that needed to be protected and shielded from anything “too complicated”. Philza, in particular, did that a lot.

Ghostbur was aware that people saw him that way, and he was aware that sometimes people lied to him, and he was aware that every single person on the entire server saw him as Wilbur’s ghost, as Wilbur, as an echo, as nothing more than a clone or a replica. Ghostbur knew that. He freaking knew that. And that hurt him.

Ghostbur felt things far too heavy to bear; he felt the weight, ramifications, and heartbreak that Wilbur’s choices brought down. He felt the continual rejection, the continual casting aside, the continual anger and fear and confusion that everyone always expressed at the sight of him. Of Wilbur’s ghost. Of Wilbur.

Ghostbur felt all these things and more—he watched Friend die, he watched his homes blow up, he saw Logstedshire blow up, he saw L’manburg blow up, he watched Tommy go through hell, he watched Technoblade get executed, he watched Phil forced into house arrest, he watched Phil betray him, he heard Phil’s words on Doomsday, he watched people grapple with greif and anger and sadness and pain, Ghostbur struggled with grief and anger and sadness and pain, Ghostbur struggled with memories that slipped and moments that became muddled, Ghostbur died trying to do the one thing that Tommy wanted the most, and Ghostbur died, but he lived, in a way, and he had to live with the fact that—in his mind—he failed Tommy. He let Tommy down.

And Ghostbur’s stuck with that. He’s stuck with that.

But it wasn’t all painful! It wasn’t all sorrow! There were so many good things too!! Things like Ghostbur finding Friend, and loving Tommy, and loving Phil and loving Techno, and building a house in Exile, and reading books, and learning about Wilbur and realizing that he wasn’t evil—he was just a hero that hadn’t been convinced—and forgiving Eret, and having a library, and taking Friend on walks, and making Tommy smile, and giving clingy duo the compasses, and handing out Blue, and trying to help anyone and everyone in any way he possibly could.

All that happened too. It wasn’t all bad. Ghostbur had some darn good moments on this server. He loved things and he cared about things and he helped people. He tried to help people. He wanted more than anything to help people.

What I’m getting at is this: Ghostbur was an incredible character—still is! He was beautiful, and poignant, and interesting and relatable and completely unique and wonderful… and he was also childish. Or, I should say, had some childlike qualities. I don’t think describing his entire personality as childish is right at all.

Because Ghostbur was more than that, man. He was so much more than that. He was so much more than what the fandom reduced him to. He’s so much more than what most people give him credit for.

And Ghostbur can be both. He was just as developed as any other character, just as human (despite being a ghost) and just as emotional and just as capable of feeling things and experiencing things as anyone else. And he also did some childish things, and went about certain things in childish ways—and that’s okay! That’s okay! I honestly see that as kinda neat, because most characters I come across aren’t nearly as whimsical or odd as Ghostbur is :) So it’s fun to find someone like that.

I think it can become a problem when people either A) don’t see Ghostbur as anything but childish and completely disregard all other aspects about him, or B) refuse to acknowledge any childish aspect about Ghostbur, even when it’s an important part of his character.

I think a balance can be had between the two.

#hello I wrote all this out at 2am some weeks ago #I’ve been having Thoughts #for quite a while #I freaking love Ghostbur and people have such strange ideas about him #I hope all this made sense?? #gosh I’d be curious to hear you guys’ thoughts #I love Ghostbur so much #my post #my DSMP thoughts #ghostposting #ghostbur #c!ghostbur #DSMP ghostbur #ghostbur dsmp

[oh-katsuki]

i just wanna word vomit for a second about chainsaw man chapter 79. major spoilers ahead.

but denji’s final battle with aki really really makes me sick to think about. its the type of thing i read where im not sobbing or crying like i feel like i should be but instead feeling this overwhelming sense of dread. 

aki as the gun fiend implies that his body is dead. that being said, he truly dies during the gun devil’s initial attack on makima, as it actually says his name within the death toll. knowing that within itself is already upsetting enough (as he couldn’t have done anything to save himself and seeing his name included on a list of unfamiliar names like that is beyond devastating. the unceremonious aspect of it really makes me upset), but what i think happened with aki is that he was caught somewhere between life and death. 

so he’s almost in the place inbetween like and death and is imagining this snow ball fight with denji which serves to fill in for the way his physical body is acting beyond his control. and he’s fighting denji but doesn’t quite understand the urgency denji has in this snow ball fight and it builds up this increasing sense of dread. we see this as life or death, but aki even states that for the first time in his life, he’s having fun because of denji. he’s having fun because of this imaginary scenario he has created as a result of having his body taken over.

then, as aki is about to die and after realizing that denji is crying, he remembers that what he had originally come out to do was play catch with his younger brother. after denji kills the fiend and aki’s body, aki is then allowed to cross over into what is his idea of heaven. aki’s idea of heaven is continuing his childhood from the day the gun devil first appeared and making it as if his family didn’t die. 

any traces of denji are erased from that place and he is left playing catch with his little brother as if his “true life” were taken off of pause. i interpret this as aki’s idea of heaven being getting to live a normal life with the people he loves. his entire death sequence kind of emphasizes that his desire has always been to reclaim the part of his life he lost the day his family died. it has, in a way, always been about finding that again for aki. i think its very tied to the injustices in his life and the casual cruelties he committed and witnessed. i think aki’s general belief is that this snow ball scenario (which is entirely made up) is his “true life” or at least the one he should have been owed, while the real world in which his family is dead and he dies a horrible death despite not deserving it, is the “fake world”. 

in the final panel of the chapter, aki is seen smiling and playing catch with his little brother and it’s like his life is taken off pause despite the fact that it has ended. solace in death and living the life he was owed. it’s devastating.  

#man it makes me beyond sad #idk ill probably have more thoughts on this later #but these are my initial reread thoughts #like i think i could analyze the use of snowball fight symbolism to talk about the concept of aki's 'true life' and his 'false life' #and how interchangeable they feel when deep reading the series #for quite a while #bc there is a lot to unpack there #but for now... here are my jumbled thoughts #csm spoilers #csm manga spoilers #csm chapter 79 spoilers #chainsaw man spoilers #chainsaw man manga spoilers #chainsaw man reread

[pleuvoire]

am accepting that reiwa rider will never be my thing because it is just to clogged up with Plot these days and something always has to be Happening and the amount of plot per number of episodes that seems to be the standard these days tends to lead to everything feeling muddled and confusing and hard to follow. like to make a story that feels smooth and coherent, to me, under the current pacing standards takes a level of writerly skill we have not seen yet. this doesn't mean i'm swearing off reiwa rider and i still want to keep up with what's going on (unless the show in question is straight-up bad like revice) and i can still be like fuck yes i like this character/plotline and i can still feel like a show is good relative to the standards of reiwa rider. but i have made my peace with the overcrowded and messy plots issue and and the fact that it is #not4me and stopped wishing/hoping for anything different. i'll just be over here chilling with my homies the heisei and showa riders and occasionally checking in on what's going on in reiwaland

#this is why regardless of its other flaws 01 stands out among reiwa riders to me because it had regular old civilian-of-the-week plots #for quite a while #we need that... i miss that... but oh well it is what it is

[riskbvsiness]

// HEY SO you'll never guess who's back

#it's me i'm back #similarly to how kirk died and came back from the dead #or spock #or even jesus #i know i never got to know many people here but my brain says you all deserve an apology and an explanation #the apology is: sorry for vanishing into a hiatus and never coming back #the explanation is: back when i made this blog i was in contact with some toxic people who sadly made my love for st extremely bitter #for quite a while #but now i'm detoxed (from the people not from my love for star trek) #i'll be re-following some of the people who may have softblocked me for inactivity #do feel free to softblock me again if you don't want to follow anymore! #i'm just doing that to. you know. call people's attention. #i'll make a promo in a while probably. after i get the cap's voice back #also look at that i still wear my pride icon. very nice. #ooc

[gaphic]

the thing about euphoria is that it's so unbelievably intense, overwrought, theatrical, stylized, glittering, and strange, that arguing about whether it's 'realistic,' 'sensitive,' or 'good representation' would be fucking stupid even if the writers weren't pathologically obsessed with minors getting sexual validation from adults

i genuinely think that's the shows greatest flaw, tbh. like, it's trying to be a gritty, grounded character study and a dreamy arthouse music video at the same time

#i've been trying to figure out why i'm so disdainful of the show #and the effort to analyze the show #for quite a while #and yeah this is it

[mack-anthology-mp3]

This is one that I ask myself a lot. Of these two post punk bands, which band do you prefer, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, or Einsturzende Neubauten? And why?

oh gosh hard question!!! hehe

buuuuuuut think i like Einstürzende Neubauten better. they just have that *something* to them, and i've liked almost all of their stuff that i've heard so far. all their stuff is just so different from anything else i listen to, and the range of it, from industrial to like, string section and backing vocals, and songs with a bit of both, it's just ahhhhhh it's so good! they have super heavy ominous ones and absolute bangers and beautiful quite ones and arty poetry ones and and and so much of it is really good!

i love how they can use so many languages in one song, and have really strange sounds that also fit the piece perfectly. i love how a lot of the songs, the music is actually quite simple, but also really complex in that yeah, it might only have one chord, but all those sounds are very specific things and you can't just play it, like you can't just google chords for it cos most of the song is played with percussion and feedback with a bass occasionally hitting a note. the general vibe is just so good. and of course our much beloved Blixa is a really cool person who is also a nice person! there are so few musicians who actually seem like people i'd want to know and Blixa is one of them. and he's pretty cool looking as well. and his lyrics are so good ahhh so may of them are so cool and/or so beautiful. and english is his second language and he can write in it better than a lot of people who speak as a first language like that's next level talent. and the amount of talent it takes to be able to make music so good out of such strange sounds! like anyone could write a chord progression on guitar but to write a song where most of the instruments are hitting metal things like that's just wild. and his unique voice and style and scream and the way he says things are just so gooodd.

the bad seeds are great as well of course! but some of their stuff, i just feel like nick's mediocre songs are just. mediocre. and of course the so many brilliant bad seeds songs with Blixa playing key parts of the song <3

#thank you so much for the ask!!! #i could probably go on about this one #for quite a while #i have Thoughts about these bands hehe #though tbh i have Thoughts about a lot of bands #einsturzende neubauten #nick cave and the bad seeds #blixa and nick #blixa bargeld

[majormeilani]

someone on my subcon poll mentioned refrigerators and how vanessa has one in her manor but also it's kinda funny because she probably could hypothetically leave things out on the counter and they would stay cold but her having a fridge anyway is really funny

#i don't know if her having a fridge changes much though because it could be a recent purchase but it also seems like something that's always #been there #i'm not saying it's not a point to consider though because it did make me think? but also to me it seems like something that has been there #for quite a while #🎩⏳

[selescope]

haven’t fully registered it’s summer yet because i just recently started what i would consider a new chapter of my life and this doesn’t really feel like starting a new section?

#like i don’t have to go to school tomorrow #or the next day #or the day after that #for quite a while

[stonelions]

he thinks he's being so smooth with his little face on my leg. i SEE you, villain

#comics #benny dog tag #to his credit he did #wait quite a while before glancing at the sandwich

[badolmen]

WARNING 18+

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#ra speaks #it’s a silly joke/pun dw #we stay silly :3 #edit: #woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/ #10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water. #15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :] #20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then #25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today #30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3

[hansoeii]

one day they might be brave enough

#I made this quite a while ago and hated how it turned out back then #turns out I was just in a bad mood cos this is actually quite cute #so I thought it would be a good time to post #good omens #good omens fanart #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 fanart #ineffable idiots #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziracrow fanart #crowley #aziraphale #michael sheen #david tennant #my art #digital art

[wreckedhoney]

twists open a bottle of blorbo juice. yes. yes, it's directly from the gutter.

#yeah my head was at it #for quite a while

[itsaboutnothing]

brought film to the camera store. should be getting prints back sometime soon :thumbs_up:

#me #tho I will say this hobby is getting quite expensive #50 dolar today to get two rolls deveoped and get another 3 pack of film... better make these ones last I think I may not buy more film... #for quite a while

[watchingwisteria]

listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded psychopath happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know #im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie #or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them #snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow! #but then shes gone…. for a while…… #and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book #that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss #the hunger games #coriolanus snow #tbosas #lucy gray baird #not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration #but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause #like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not. #snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time #he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets #and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets #he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved #but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall #he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires

[mxcrayon]

losing my actual mind rn

i had this interaction in the dropout discord (i am the first and third person). short. simple. i only got the first year bc of a discount + a gift card i had, so i was planning on using this person's suggestion.

then, i got this.

oh my god!! how nice!! how sweet!!! how thoughtful!! i gave them my email and they sent over a subscription, i thanked them profusely. i was very grateful, very touched.

hours and hours later i was still thinking about it and i recalled how, in the email id gotten about it, it said "tao yang sent you a subscription" and id seen that and thought "oh haha like the tao yang" and then moved on

but now, thinking back, i was like.... theres no way, so i googled tao yang.

......

TAO YANG BOUGHT ME A FUCKING ANNUAL DROPOUT SUBSCRIPTION

#tao yang #dropout #dropout.tv #dimension 20 #AAAAAAAAAAA #losing my literal actual mind #i think hes so funny #i was already rly grateful and touched and now im just like flustered and starstruck #this is quite literally the most celebrity interaction ive ever had in my life #and i didnt even realize while it was happening #now i want to message him again but i feel like thatd be weird #sam responded to my question once and i still think about it now months latwr #bc THAT had been the most direct celebrity intersection id had #and this was like six levels above that #crazy world we live in #anyway. i have dropout again!!!! yippee!!!!