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comfort [k.tj]

in which your boyfriend, Kamado Tanjiro, comforts you in a rough time

category: angst, fluff, hurt comfort

w.c: 1,537

warning(s): themes of depression and anxiety, mentions of meds

a/n: once again i am out of my cave to offer this. i know kny isn’t on my list of fandoms i write for, but it may be soon. this drabble is something that i very much need in my life n it’s extremely self indulgent. it’s both for those who need it and for myself. if you ever feel like this, reach out to someone. even if it’s literally just a friend, talk about it with someone. professional help is ultimately the end goal, but i know what it’s like to not search for it. take care of yourselves <3

you weren’t sure when the suffocation began. one moment you were moving out of your childhood home and in with a best friend, living your life happily, and the next everything felt out of control — new medications, a terrible financial status and the upcoming stresses of school. everything that once was okay was now crumbling beneath you, dragging you into a void of nothingness. your lungs are tired of gasping for air and your body can’t handle another all-nighter. you’re just so tired.

there’s a stockpile of dirty dishes in the sink that should be cleaned before your roommate returns, but you’re not quite leveled enough to do them. your laundry is weeks overdue and your bedding could benefit from a wash too. your skin feels dirty, your hair greasy, and how desperately you want to be clean, but getting in the shower takes too many steps.

a growl is emitting from your stomach and you’re once again reminded that you have yet to eat today. but maybe if you convince yourself that you’re not hungry, it’ll go away. only you know you need to eat, your medication is glaring at you from your desk.

your to-do list stretches like a rope before you, but all you do is roll over in bed and face the wall. right now, everything is a later problem. the therapy scheduling, the credit card issue, the changing of your major can all be done later. at this moment, all you want to do is lie in bed and sleep.

from somewhere amidst your tangled sheets, you hear your phone buzz. lazily, sluggishly, your hand feels around until the device brushes your fingertips. a sigh leaves your dry throat and slips past your chapped lips as the phone is raised to your face. you’re not in the mood for a reminder of your responsibilities, but maybe it’s just another social media notification.

with a tap on the screen, your phone lights up and there you see your newest notification, a text from Kamado Tanjiro, your boyfriend. although it’s the last thing you want to do, you go to ignore it until the words register in your brain — come open the door, love, i’m outside with a heart placed at the end.

suddenly, you feel nauseous. the thought of Tanjiro seeing you and your place like this terrifies you. as you open up your messaging app, ready to tell him something like now’s not a good time, you’re busy, you’re not home, he’s typing again. anticipation swirls in your empty stomach and before you know it, there’s tears falling in waves from your eyes — i just want to make sure you’re okay.

you feel like you haven’t gotten up in days and your legs are numb as you slowly climb out of bed. your body feels heavy as you make your way to your front door, and you purposefully avoid looking at your wall of mirrors in order to hide from your reflection.

hand on the doorhandle, you mentally prepare yourself from the disgust you’re sure Tanjiro will face you with. all that’s in your foggy mind is the understanding that you and the house are far from presentable. however, once the door has been opened, the soft look in Tanjiro’s eyes throws you for a loop. he’s looking at you so tenderly that the tears are back to falling. his gentle arms reach out to you as he steps inside, tucking you against his chest and cradling your body. the front door is gently shut with his foot and the two of you stand in your entryway, you sobbing and him whispering soft words of affirmations to you.

it takes you a while to stop crying, but Tanjiro doesn’t seem bothered at all from the way he continues to hold you even after the tears stop. only when you pull back to look at him does he relinquish some of his hold, calloused hands settling on your hips.

“what’s going on in that beautiful head of yours, love?” his nose brushes your forehead as he presses a kiss between your eyebrows. “i got worried when you said shut downs were occurring a lot lately.”

you stuff your face into the crook of his neck, swept up in the tidal wave of his affection. you always feel like a burden when a shut down happens and you avoid telling too many people. it’s usually either your close friend or your roommate that you speak to when they happen, meanwhile Tanjiro hears about them afterwards. however, his words are true, shut downs have been more frequent recently.

“i just”—you clear your parched throat, your voice showing clear signs that it’s been unused for a while—“everything feels so wrong, Tanji. i’m so tired all the time and nothing feels like it’s in my control anymore.” your breath hitches as you curl yourself deeper into your boyfriend’s hold. your nose is pressed against the meeting point of his neck and shoulder, his familiar scent filling your nostrils and giving you the sense of peace that you’d been missing for a while.

“i’m so sorry, my love,” another kiss, this time to your forehead. “i know i can’t say that i completely understand what you’re feeling, because your feelings are yours alone. but i can say that you’re not completely alone in that. if anything, everyone has those kinds of emotions, yours are just hitting you in a different way. that’s not a bad thing, either. but the only thing that matters right now is getting you feeling better. we can talk about everything and figure out what to do about it later, alright my love?”

your heart flutters with affection and you nod against his neck. he hums softly and peppers a few more kisses to your brow and forehead before gently disengaging himself from you. his large hands find yours, fingers intertwining before he’s leading you towards your bathroom. he starts the shower and makes sure the temperature won’t bother you, then gently helps you remove your pajamas that have been on you for days. once you’re in, he gives you a gentle peck to your lips and a smile before ducking out to leave you in peace.

relaxing under the hot water, you let yourself take your time in washing up. you only decide to get out once the water turns cold and you feel clean again. upon stepping out, you realize Tanjiro left a new fluffy towel and a fresh pair of clothes for you on the counter. the start of a genuine smile makes its way to your now-soft lips and you once again take your time in drying off and dressing. at the realization of the hoodie you’re now wearing being Tanjiro’s, the smile grows and heat floods through your body.

when you exit your bathroom, you hear the sound of the washer and dryer spinning away in your laundry room. your room looks tidier than it had throughout the past few weeks, and your bed is freshly made with a different set of sheets. the scent of food hits you next and your stomach grumbles in want. you make your way to the kitchen where you see Tanjiro focused on making your favorite food, so much so that he gives a tiny start when he feels your arms wrap around his middle.

“have a good shower my love?” Tanjiro asks as he turns to press a kiss to your lips. you hum in approval and rest your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat. “i’m glad. your old sheets are drying and i’ve got some of your clothes in the wash. the food should be done in about two or three minutes, so how about you go pick out a show or movie to watch while we eat, hm?”

“okay,” you murmur and pull away from his arms, accepting another kiss before you’re off to the living room to scroll through the apps on the TV to find something to watch. you ultimately decide on your comfort show, finishing the setup just as Tanjiro comes over with a tray topped with two dishes filled with your favorite food and something healthy to go with it.

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you don’t remember falling sleep, but you wake up in bed, snuggled into Tanjiro’s arms. it’s obvious he’s still awake from the way he’s rubbing your back and pressing soft kisses to your hairline. you let yourself relish in the feeling before you open your eyes fully and shuffle, tilting your head back to look at him.

“thank you, Tanji. i really needed this,” your eyes well up again, but this time it was from the amount of love you feel for the man in front of you.

“of course, love. i’m here for you whenever you need me,” he smiles at you and gives your lips one final kiss before tucking your head under his chin, hanafuda earrings brushing the top of your head.

“i love you,”

“i love you too, darling. now sleep, i’ll see you in the morning,”

and for the first night in a while, you fall asleep easily.

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