#for you are not beside but within me

[musubiki]

how was playing hsr? was there anything that you liked in the game and the story?

ITS BEEN AMAZING AS EXPECTED!!!!!!!!! i actually havent played genshin in a while since starting it, i have no motivation to do the filler event while a perfectly good star rail is sitting there waiting to be played :')

but for mechanics, i love they have auto battle so you dont have to nessecarily sit there and invest in every little battle you gotta do....and i love that the resin (resin??) system is a lot more forgiving with a higher cap, lower cost, and allow for overflow...thats nice...i also love that the mc and starter units are very useful. im so emotionally attatched to the star rail crew so im glad they never have to leave my team !!!!

storywise im LOVING IT SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started playing it at the beginning of spring break 2 weeks ago and im almost all caught up!!! i went through belabog and penacony and now im just doing those leftover intermission main quests which im only now realizing i shouldve done before going to penacony LMAO

and of course.....danmarch....im so soft for them......and also i love sampo i cant wait to see what they do with him

#besides the star rail crew and sampo im not too attatched to anyone else #im very much a (what would happen in canon) type of player so the only units i REALLY want are himeko welt and imbibitor lunae #(and sampo) #everyone else i can go without #so this game is probably gonna be a lot better for my wallet #overall it just like it better than genshin minus the open world part #i like the story and characters...i like that you can play as bad guys while theyre still bad guys???? like blade and kafka??? #cuz in genshin you always gotta redeem them somehow first before theyre playable #not here hueheuhe #also i love that they actually kill off playable characters #(spoilers from here on out) #i know were supposed to be all sad for fireflys death but honestly.......i didnt care about her too much LMAO #i was actually a little annoyed for the secret base part because her base was SO FUCKING DEEP IN ENEMY TERRITORY #i was like (damn bitch how far away is this shit??!) #that by the time we got to the emotional part i was just mad #i never liked characters where the game tries to like....force you to care about them #and its implied you have some super close relationship ESPECIALLY when you havent known them long #now if march died that would be a whole different story #but firefly??? i mean rip but i didnt really know her #im loving the penacony quest so far though #any setting where its like a place of mind tricks and gambling and spending money and sin is always so scary to me #especially the dream within a dream within a dream shit #the mind fuck aspect is always a good plot that i enjoy #i also love that theyre not afraid to upgrade units #like we have dan heng and the dragon dan heng #so characters arnt stagnent forever #everyday i hope we one day get to see a 5-star secret power march #cuz that girl has some shit going on i swear #i just did her luofu memory quest #and those fuckers in the garden of recollection............

[benbamboozled]

“Shipping Batcest is harmful for real-life adopted families”

First of all, no, no it’s not. “Fictional people fans think should kiss” could not be more abstracted from real life. Get some fuckin perspective, mate.

Second of all, let’s be real here. You just don’t like it. It’s okay to just not like things, or to even be squicked by them. You don’t have to make up reasons why it’s actually bAaAaAaD. You can just go “it squicks me. Next!”

Thirdly, if your issue really is “I believe the very concept to be disrespectful to adopted families” there’s an easy fix for this.

The obvious solution?

Make them all blood related.

Boom. No more issues with “adopted vs. blood related family” anymore!

You’re welcome.

#clearly the only currently ethical Batcest ship is BruDami *nods sagely* #i don’t *need* people to ship Batcest. #it’s totally okay to NOT ship things! #i would just prefer it if people dropped the morality façade and were just open with the fact that they don’t like that people like things. #‘I think the way you play with your paper dolls on your own time is harmful in some vague way with literally no supportive evidence’ #fucking LISTEN TO YOURSELVES. #you could be sparking joy for others! #this also conveniently ignores that canon is CONSTANTLY bouncing around #what the batkids think of each other/how Bruce categorized them in his life. #like the entire EXISTENCE of Damian is based on the idea that a blood son is ‘more real’— #AND THAT IS CANON ITSELF. #so…do you renounce all Batcanon? cut ties to it entirely? if not—why not? #oh…so it turns out that it’s only ‘terrible and bad and disrespectful’ and blah blah if it’s done— #—​within a sphere wherein you believe yourself to have some amount of power! #you can’t ‘fiction = reality’ fandom while finding a million and one excuses for why ‘fiction != reality’ for motherfuckin CANON. #CANON—which has SO MUCH MORE reach and impact than goddamn…the niche hobby space that is fandom! #i will probably delete this because I try not to get this salty on main… #…unless it’s about Jim Starlin lol. #BUT THIS KINDA SHIT GETS MY BACK UP? #don’t pretend like having a squick is some moral stance with actual meaning besides ‘it ew to me.’

[wereh0gz]

I'm definitely not the only queer person who's kinda wary of Christian ppl they encounter online right?

Like I see a profile that clearly states they're Christian and they post like Bible verses and shit and I'm just. Hoping they're not queerphobic. Or saying some dumbass shit like "hate the sin love the sinner" or whatever while pretending that's not queerphobic

If they're interacting with me first it's pretty safe to assume they're not gonna be like that bc I'm very obviously queer (🏳️‍🌈 + pronouns in bio) but if it's someone who hasn't interacted with me at all I kind of instinctively avoid interacting with them out of fear of them being that way. Y'know

#ramblings #i think it's bc even tho i've never been religious and my family isn't like a super uptight christian family #i have encountered a preacher who was homophobic and transphobic before #he's puerto rican too which just makes me disappointed in my people tbh #i grew up surrounded by a lot of accepting ppl both within and outside of the family #as well as a couple gay/trans ppl #i was always taught that that's just the way some ppl are and that we should respect that #even if we didn't fully understand everything and weren't up to date with the latest most accepted terminology and stuff #ppl were just respectful and let others be themselves #so it's extremely hard for me to understand why other ppl would be queerphobic #i mean. i kinda get it. it what they were taught growing up. just how i was taught to be accepting and respectful #but why ppl would continue to teach that to their kids and perpetuate queerphobia is really what i don't get #like. accepting that ppl different from you exist and that's ok isn't going to kill you #maybe learn abt the world from other sources besides the bible and try to see different perspectives #instead of shutting yourself off to just one way of thinking and hurting ppl in the process #anyways. i think it's also bc i've seen too many really religious ppl on the internet who are also queerphobic #and they have these big platforms of ppl who support them and share their views #and like. i shouldn't generalize. but they paint an ugly image of christians in general #also like. christians throughout history don't have the cleanest track record #but i know a lot of christians nowadays aren't like that. in fact i'm willing to say most aren't #but still it's like. better be safe than sorry y'know #idk man

[kyouka-supremacy]

( •_• )

#Aight I'm no marketing strategist but like. It doesn't take a genius to see on my dash everyone going #“If there's not going to be new bsd content soon I'm just gonna drop it” #I really don't get why they went for this route. Oh well. *Goes make the bsd reread announcement post I've been procrastinating on making* #random rambles #Tbh I too have found myself a little tired with bsd but also. #Idk I like the fandom. #Even if I'm not as excited about it as I used to be right now it's still something that makes me happy to interact with every day. #I like the format. To an extent I also like not getting new content because it gives myself the illusion- #I will be able to focus on studying more (lol) #Or at least dedicate myself to other projects I've been wanting to complete #And one of the main appeals of bsd to me stays how the content is widely accessible. #Like I love p/p and I definitelly love it a thosuand times more than I do b/sd. I truly love that franchise. #But besides from watching the anime it's impossible to get your hands on the extra content (manga‚ novels‚ dramas‚ stage plays‚ fanbooks) #Which left me - archivist obsessed - just frustrated #With bsd aside from very niche things (I love you pricey fanbooks... ) #Most of the main content is within reach. Man I was able to compile a magazines archive. I could have never done it with p/p #So yeah it's just. A space that fits my very specific kind of autism #Why am I even discussing this again?

[aoitakumi8148]

[Improving some of my gifs/gifsets these days] 1/1, 2023.

“Death is certain, life is not.”

#Aoi Takumi #blog #my gifs #special gifset #TEW #The Evil Within 2 #2017 #game #license version #v.2.1 #PC #Stefano Valentini #// #a few promising posts deleted x will be improved as time passes #~ Castellanos draws a parallel between the artist and Hitler #an inadmissible 1 / if you ask me #when he says the damn Core is safe with him... I believe him #besides... #don't you worry / mass culture doesn't zero children on camera #~~ #with the eye/scar or not - the creature is a breath taker #~~~ #humans flock to mediocrity like flies on waste #...and devaluate everything else #~~~~ #chapter 8's finale puts an end to 2's meaning #maybe not during the 1st walkthrough but surely later #...you're aware of every dirt spot on the canvas of TEW x #every rat chewing it x the life recently taken...

[sashimiyas]

good morning! sukuna has a tongue piercing!! and he likes the taste of iron so bite his tongue just enough to make it bleed please

#reinas.inretrograde #that’s what on my mind right now while i twirl in my kitchen :) #and panic bc my cousin wants me to figure out the venue and food that needs to be served at her bridal shower in may #panic bc ME??! in charge of someone else’s fun????!!! that’s not within my personality #I have never and do not plan on ever being on the fun patrol #i am big sister reins. i am the pull up a seat beside me have a cup of bevvie and let’s talk about what’s inside you #type of friend. i am the OPPOSITE of fun and i am so scared #anyways! what we do for love right?

[oranges-are-rad]

Second political post of the day: remember when Biden was elected and all these random eurotrash and Canadian people were like “yay, welcome back, America, we can somewhat respect you again” only now our country is astronomically shittier than it was when the Orange guy was president? Hmmmm. Perhaps we shouldn’t care about what other countries think about us, yes, including our “allies”, because they do not have our best interests in mind. They just use us for our military so they can have free healthcare and free college education, only to shit on us constantly like the assholes they are

#the uk has had like 100 prime ministers within the last five years all of which have been shit so I don’t care about their opinions #the French are never happy with anyone they elect so maybe we shouldn’t listen to their bad judgement #Canada is literally a fucking joke of a country. how can a country with fewer people than California that’s near the same size as the USA #have a housing crisis? build more houses you dumbasses you literally have so much empty space it’s unbelievable #and they continuously vote in Trudeau’s party; so again they don’t have good judgement #and I didn’t mention any other countries in Europe besides the uk and France because the rest are all just background people to me tbh #except Germany but those idiots closed all their nuclear plants and now burn more coal for power but bitch at everyone about climate change

[suncaptor]

I already feel like I have so many btvs opinions that no one would want.

#examples: 1.) fixated on Xander. my little guy with his little outfits and hes been through so much 2.) hate buffy/angel with the so much #energy and therefore can't stand angel too. besides getting into how it is a realistic portrayal of an older man preying on a teenager #it also is just literally illegal. anyways 3.) after watching the scene where faith sexually assaults & tries to kill xander and everything #else she does following i like. do NOT know if I will succeed at feeling much other than rage at her #she seems compelling and like a character i could like but the problem is the narrative cares more about her spiralling than xander so 😬😬 #also I find willow boring so far which isnt an indictment against her but that anti lust spell she was going to cast #on xander without his knowledge 😬😬 also idk if ill ever forgive giles for drugging Buffy #also buffy is a sweetheart but it frustrates me nearly always her emotions are the only ones that get weight #also i think that spn .uh may jabe had it right with make every monster a guy #ALSO the bigotry within the show and fundamental flaws are very similar to spn levels (though I know someone who agrees there ckskkz) #also i do think this show would hit different if you watched it as a teenager. THEN id be an angel guy THROUGH AND THROUGH #tortured poor little meow meow AND an IRISH vampire? #and faith was made for young me. for id have been obsessed. #but now i just look at them like ☠️☠️ stop please #incoherents #btvs #buffy #s.a

[ranvwoop]

school sucks i have to sit there for 5 hours between classes and I am already ehhhh on the pizza (Only edible food campus adjacent) so like. guess I'll just die

#vwoop.noises #There's a grocery store somewhere within walking distance but its a bit chilly to get exploring #Me when I am wandering aimlessly in -15° weather. No thanks #There is unfortunately no edible food I can pack #Me and my beautiful disorders that don't let me eat a packed lunch #Like surely there's SOMETHING but I haven't found it yet. My diet is pretty sad. On account of the disorders etc #When the food intake is avoidant and restrictive... Sad! #So truly I shouldn't be so picky and should be grateful my beloved safefood pizza chain is right beside my school but Um. Er . #Well I'm just not a huge pizza guy Like aside from the horrors... #I can put it in my mouth. I can eat it. It's not bad. But is it worth the hassle?? To eat biweekly??? #To sit in a frightening university hall... etc etc... #ftr im not um. advertising arfid or whatever This is Sarcasm. I'm always frightened. On the internet #It's just such a funny situation to me . The non-issue ever. This guy's afraid of soup #Like at some point you have to just take some things that ail you as a little silley.

[ericslingbysexy]

gift exchange idea for the 200th chapter celebration was thrown out :anguish:

#that was the easiest one you fools #someone says: draw/write/etc [insert what i want] and then you do it and it is so so easy #the other options dont make sense to me im ngl #besides the addon thing but again thats not feasible within the timeframe we have #alan.txt

[narratorstragedy]

the worst but also the best part about learning languages is when you reach the point where you are constantly aware that the people you talk to and the media you consume are all making cultural references that you simply do not get so all of a sudden you’re like goddamn it i need to read every piece of classic italian literature ever now

#one of the profs was telling me how her translation class decided that leopardi was 'emo' and i was like wow this would be so funny if i #knew literally anything about giacomo leopardi besides the fact that he supposedly ate a kilo and a half of confetti before dying #(thank you that one tumblr post) #but also the part of my brain that's like 'you need to consume those works In Italian' makes this difficult because i simply cannot do that #yet #arugujhakshjdhajahjfasjhfewkrjht #she speaks.l #this happened w spanish too but like. As i was taking a spanish literature class? so i already started to read stuff that's regularly #references & then just kind of continued to read stuff naturally #except sometimes i read literature from a specific country and i'm like sooooo i need to read all of your canonical writers now #reading mariana enriquez like oh so i need to read piglia reading piglia like oh so i need to read borges and arlt reading arlt like oh so #i need to read macedonio fernández #etc etc etc etc #well really reading borges --> fernández. whatever #aaaaaaaa. girls when the wealth of knowledge and literature within the world is overwhelming and wonderful but they will never get to know #it all :( #also this is like. the fact that there's so much just within spanish language literature. can u imagine the depth of also arabic literature #etc etc #i mean like i am sure you can. that was weird phrasing. #BECAUSE ALSO THEN IT'S LIKE. there is so much that is wonderful outside of the 'canon' of well known writers BUT I CAN'T READ IT ALL SO....

[arytha]

at this point i want to scrap what i have built for era and lorne bc figuring out details with the bits i have randomly set up now is fucking annoying me

#i love them dont get me wrong. i kind of want to change how things work with them tho #also epoch has really solidified as a concept now too so i need to make it match that #at this point era wont get his own story besides being a mysterious main camp leader in Mimi's story #which is post- their death ofc bc they have to be dead to show up there #you get cryptic backstory hints from the charismatic guy era with his scary husband lorne #maybe make era's stuff into a scenario within mimi's stuff... to simplify things. and keep me from having to write a 300 chapter novel #Era #Lorne #hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm essential dungeon scenario in Mimi's infinite flow....... #mara's shit

[mae-i-scribble]

Okay so orv has some fairly confusing concepts just thrown at you in the final bits of the novel, and i’m here to throw my 2 cents in on how the dimensional stuff works. Or at least how I understood it after reading and thinking on it for a hot minute. Obviously major spoilers so keep that in mind.

The most ancient dream is the lifeblood of this universe, a world where ways of survival has come to life because 15 year old Dokja’s longing was so strong and so powerful it manifested into reality. Every worldline that exists (sort of) is based in ways of survival. So how is it that 28year old dokja’s world was drawn along? Based on how most ancient dream works, he literally cannot look at worlds that don’t involve ways of survival, because that’s not the story he wants to see. However, it was inevitable that 28yr kdj would eventually become “seen” by the oldest dream, because 28yr kdj unknowingly brought the 1863rd yjh into his timeline.

Okay so. We know kdj is transported to the 1863rd round of ways of survival by secretive plotter, whether in the “original” story or one of the many other timelines isn’t really important, just that it was the 1863rd round for one such yjh. When kdj brings back yjh’s hope, that desire to live, he inspires 1863rd yjh not only to regress, but to find the world where kdj is, because kdj is the one who promised him that he could have a happy life. So yjh not only regresses, he travels across worldlines to find kdj, a fact backed up by secretive plotter who followed 1863rd yjh as yjh was going to “a world he didn’t know.” The moment 1863rd yjh regressed into kdj’s world, that is when the most ancient dream began to look at 28yr old kdj’s world. It wasn’t a world that could exist within the most ancient dream until it became entangled with ways of survival, and it is only because ways of survival started playing out in that timeline that kdj was able to travel to the 1863rd round at all. It follows the same paradox that the other major time paradoxes follow; in a world dictated by novel logic, the past can write itself alongside or after the future, and the future can exist before the past.

It also explains why 28yr kdj is both a character and a candidate for the most ancient dream. They ultimately are one in the same, but 28yr kdj comes from a world most ancient dream never could have imagined, because forget only focusing on ways of survival, 15yr kdj never even imagined himself capable of growing up. Of course 28yr kdj is going to be a “character,” because how else is the most ancient dream supposed to rationalize it in his mind?

Off topic, but it is somewhat funny in that in trying to bring about his own demise/trying to prove a point to kdj secretive plotter actually is responsible for creating ways of survival and bringing about the entire plot of the novel by letting kdj inspire hope in 1863rd yjh. Like wow. Fucked up big time didn’t ya buddy. Good thing you found your absolution bc if not that would have fuckin sucked.

#orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv theory #fan theories #idk if this is confirmed or not by authorial intent #i dont follow what the authors had to say about orv after the fact #feel free to contradict me i want discussions #also like i could just be forgetting the novels justification for it #i did kinda binge it in a fever dream #but this is just the most logical way to think about it to me #well besides for the time paradoxes #but thats just kinda something you have to shrug and go 'yeah thats how that works' #which is fine by me #bc the justification of it operating as one would write it in a book #just makes sense considering yknow #orv is a story about stories #sure fuck around with logic thats within your realm of themes

[galwithalibrarycard]

Personally I think that ‘good queer representation’ does not have to mean the character in question has a romantic relationship during the story, and in fact characters who are single yet happily queer, or single and still in the process of coming out to themselves and their loved ones, are still valid and important.

#st tags are annoying me #Robin existing as a single lesbian who is openly and happily attracted to women and talks about that freely w a friend she trusts #is GOOD and refreshing content #as a perpetually single queer gal especially #and I’m still internally crying happy tears at jonathan telling will there’s nothing in the world that will make him stop loving him #and just picturing Joyce saying the same thing when will tells her #and her saying ‘baby I’m so sorry this world is so unkind to you but I will be beside you every step of your journey’ #and the very concept of Joyce marching with PFLAG at pride events in future with a PROUD OF MY GAY SON sign #I’m blubbering will byers has an accepting loving family in the 1980s that’s so good #coming out stories don’t always involve dating #sometimes you figure it out within yourself alone and that’s valid #not saying it’s a perfect show just saying there’s more than one kind of queer story #and that includes queer singledom #I’m not telling anyone their personal feelings about the show are invalid though don’t come at me

[pencilofawesomeness]

Just read death in the family and i am flabbergasted and appalled. how could you do this you absolute traitor. You had better eventually fix this

Idk if you are genuinely upset or not, but you look like it, so have a cookie and chill, fam. It's okay. It's just a story.

But sorry fam, this one stays sad. Nothing against Elfman, but this lets me tell the story I want to tell. Yelling at me isn't going to change that. If you don't like the fic, then this is where we part ways.

#ask #anon #look man lisanna was supposed to die for real in canon #and they reversed it for the funsies #I just wanted to keep the tragedy real #to tell the story I wanna tell #for all that juicy character development #and mira and lisanna were more appealing targets for that #nothing against elfman fr #but his death appeased the beast within me #I'm just writing what I wanna write and yall along for the ride #idk what to tell you #or what you expected #besides uhhhh #family in the face of loss is pretty much a major theme here #anyway I don't mean to be rude but I can't tell if you're joking or not anon #so I just want to make sure we all are on the same page here #:)

[unproduciblesmackdown]

already thinking "and by 'religious' really i mean 'christian'" re: how the term "religion" is not really useful when it's largely like, from a christian perspective, what is considered "equivalent" of christianity, see: perhaps a "rival"/obstacle to some person or group being considered christian....and even if not thinking about converting anyone, resulting in some at best misinterpretation / misrepresentation based on framing it through/as [element of christianity] and limiting of any more accurate language

like how tumblr recommends me a post about someone thinking about "religion" in general and concluding that it's Weird and perhaps Wrong for anyone who is a "true believer" in their religion(tm) to Not be proselytizing / trying to Convert everyone. like yeah why isn't everyone being an evangelical christian, they ought to be, benevolently informing all those around them that they're going to hell, otherwise. don't see any problem with this conclusion, or that someone's getting antisemitic in the notes already in agreement, or that That's Not How This Works and you don't just know how All "Religion" works based on considering it to be an alternate version of christianity (which in itself doesn't All work like that either)

#and even when it comes to having a Critical View of any belief system / way of living / spirituality it's like...people are on that already #without having to see it from a christian perspective or understand the only possible framework for it as [critiques of christianity].... #a dogmatic approach / doctrine of Salvation....not how it all works out there re: ways anyone can be anything besides christian #So Bizarre why everybody's not all trying to ''convert'' everyone else in the world....is it. #what; like; ''you'd think everyone would be launching an inquisition'' like would you. #even if you know fuckall abt non christian beliefs / perspectives / traditions/practices / identities / ways of life etc.... #we could maybe go ahead and question this conclusion. or perhaps go ''but also i know fuckall about all that so why am i theorizing'' like. #and again there are non ''western'' christian traditions....and of course individuals and philosophies within christianity who would also #not think you can only Truly be christian by going ''and i'd better be trying to convert everyone. or i'm being a jerk'' too #not actually the case that everyone thinks everyone else who doesn't share some ''religious'' factor is Damned To Hell or an equivalent.... #anyways telling tumblr actually this particular post? isn't for me. and i don't thank you #another tiresome factor of [mass at the benedictine monastery] like the homilies/sermons were especially exhausting #they always were but like ''what are you even talking about'' as one priest goes on about how it's silly for people to say they're #Spiritual but not Religious b/c the only way to be spiritual is to be christian lite & if you're Genuinely even christian lite then you #ought to realize you should go full throttle christian. like a) No b) why are we preaching to the choir here. we're all at Sunday Mass??? #not like any sermons ever feel that thoughtful when like too much analysis is like uh oh? a bit heretical are we??? which is not universal. #gee thanks for this [are we just supposed to all sit here feeling validated in our superiority; or...?] experience #wisdom you couldn't totally get from someone going on some self-assured monologue abt heathens these days over dinner or sm shit #really makes you think. and then someone will be really thinking & going ''shouldn't everyone w/a Religion be an Evangelist'' hmm: No. #and they aren't ''wrong'' about their own beliefs approaches perspectives identities traditions etc for it either. Done #anyways changed ''religious parent'' to ''christian parent'' for its own enhanced accuracy & precision alike....