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blood--king · 6 months

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— Good morning, Master. I've been reading some books at the mansion's library in my free time, and while learning about humans, I learned they celebrate their birth days... I'm not certain if these kind of things are done by our species, but today it's the best day to try, I think...

The blue-haired girl hands Hell a singular gray rose, reminiscent of her most favorite color lately, as well as she perks up at him and smiles softly.

— It is said that gifts are given to the celebrated person, so I've brought this rose.. I must admit it's not the best present I could think of, but.. It's also celebrated with dessert, so I've prepared a cake too, hoping that the taste is of your liking.

— My apologies, this all sounds a little childish, but... I think it's... Nice, to cherish Master's life o this specific day. It is a yearly tradition, so.. If you like it, then I would gladly remember this date everytime it comes around... —She spoke with a gentle blush as her gaze inevitably shifted away from the tall man.

— ... Happy birthday, Master.

(Admin: OKAY I'M NOT LATE RIGHT? 🏃 I'M SORRY I WANTED TO DRAW SMTH BUT MY SCHEDULE IS FULL WRAAAH ANYWAYS HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR KING!! ❤️)

—Good morning Tomoky. —The king was reading some documents while drinking wine as usual, he raised his gaze to see his servant, paying attention to her words. He smiled at first, as he was happy for her, knowing she read books from his library without asking for permission gave him joy. However, as soon as he heard the word "birthday", his expression turned confused, even more when she gave him the rose. —Birthday...?

The king grabbed the flower and looked at it carefully. "So, it is today, huh?" He thought. His smile had faded away, but he was receiving Tomoky's presents thankfully. The king rose from his chair and walked slowly towards the windows, reflective, the vampire was looking at the sky in silence.

—Thank you for the presents. Actually, our traditions are a bit different, the dessert thing is not something we do, although it is something that was brought by vampires who were humans before. There's only one detail... I am not used to celebrate my birthday, it is a day to be celebrated with family and I don't have any. Besides, I am incredibly old, thousands of years old, I remember my birthday once every hundred of years, sometimes I forget my birthday for a thousand years. What is the different between being 11 567 years old and being 11 600 years old? —The man turned to see his servant, he approached her and put a hand on her head. —But thank you, I appreciate this. —said with a gentle voice and a sweet smile.

#ask #◢【🌌】 nɪx #hell bloodborne #happy birthday hell 2023 #interaction #oc #nix #blood king #mortician filia #◢【“the king's servant”】#((it's not late at all!))#((we'll be doing this for the rest of the week so cheer him up!))#((please cheer him up don't let him be sad))#((forbbid it to him if necessary))

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queenfredegund · 2 months

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What made Chlodechildis I influence so threateneing that her son took actions to avoid his consorts from having a similar influence to that his mother had?

We don't know it for sure. It's important to remember that, for the posterity, Chlodechildis has been depicted in sources as a pious and humble spouse, a devoted mother and grandmother, and more importantly, as a saintly figure. Which implies that she was also a retired woman, far from the madding crowd, and engaged in prayers and foundations. Neither Gregory of Tours or the unnamed author of her vita give us real explanations about her political life, and when they're alluding to it, they often rely upon her sons, implying that they put her on a thight-spot.

This is mostly because chronicles from that period are not really an everyday record, but more an essay about power and the dynastic transmission of it: what interested chroniclers was not really the actions of their contemporaries or their predecessors, but the way the power of their kings kept maintained and get expanded. Therefore why Chlodechildis is just presented as the christian spouse of a king and the burgundian mother of others, because this is just what chroniclers want us to remind about her: that she promoted Christian faith under the Frankish ruling, and that she is the main reason why her sons engaged in a war against their Burgundian neighbors. That's all.

Now, for her real influence, we certainly can imagine it and draw conclusions from the silences. First of all, she was the widow of an important sovereign and had been associated to his power through their marriage, which is seen in their common foundation of the Church of the Holy Apostles (now the Abbey of Sainte-Geneviève de Paris, and the site where Chlodovech was buried). Which implies that she certainly enjoyed throuhgout her married life a great network of allies and subordinates who respected her. This is visible for example when, as a retired queen, she exerced a significant amount of authority to influence bishops' nomination in her favor (at leat for three of them). She was also the titular head of the family, as the elder woman of it, and the sources doesn't provide any informations over possible co-wives or particular concubines from Chlodovech's entourage, letting us to believe that she was probably the only consort of him to enjoy influence and power of her own.

And, you see, that's probably that which frigthened her sons: that she wasn't a woman among others, she wasn't a consort among others, but she was THE consort, she was the only widow of Chlodovech that mattered politically and religiously.

It is difficult to understand what was the final straw between them, because Gregory of Tours is mostly building a story when he says that Childebert and Chlothacar grew jealous towards their mother and nephews, but I personally think they could have been suspicious regarding the amount of supports their mother could gained for their nephews, and how she could, possibly, exist as a sovereign by herself. She had too much of respectability and authority to be left whithout male supervision, at leat this is what we can imagine.

Now, to the question of determining if Chlodovech's sons really tried to forbidde any specific authority for their wives, this is quite tricky, because the situation was different in many ways. To begin with, let's remember that Chlodechildis was a young widow, and that she outlived Chlodovech for at least 30 years! This is a long time living without a husband, when some of other consorts died before theirs or shortly after. Others didn't have sons, and so were naturally displaced, lacking important connections with the new king. So, all in all, this is rather a question of: what worked for Chlodechildis that didn't worked for the others?

In fact, Merovingian kings didn't expresselly forbbide their wives and mothers to play a role in politics, there is not law stating of that, but morality and social conventions actually worked in that way, and perhaps Brunehilde and Chlodechildis were actually challenging a social position in a time where this was impossible...

#ask #anon #women in history #merovingian queens #6th century

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musicgarden7x · 1 year

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HoYoverse: Please, do your own Emulator for Tears Of Themis...

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FIRST OF ALL, ENGLISH ISN’T MY MOTHER LANGUAGE, SO, ANY MISTAKE IN THIS POST... PLEASE, FORGIVE ME, I’M TRYING MY BEST!

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When HoYoverse released Tears Of Themis globally, I was... like, kinda stupid (Artem, Vyn and Marius have the fault), this means, that in that time, I was asking to the Support to please, please, please... release this game for PC, but then, let's say... 5 months later? 7 months later? I realized, that I was asking for an impossible thing, so, thanks to a random video that I saw in YouTube (about playing any mobile games in the computer, yes, this means: How to use an Emulator), I though: Well... at least I’d can play Tears Of Themis in the PC by using an emulator, but then, right before of looking in Google for a best Emulator... I felt like... it was kinda illegal, so, I asked to the Support, if they knew any Emulator that they tried in a personal way, and their response was: No, I don't want you to play Tears Of Themis in any Emulator, since we forbbide this...

So... I want to HoYoverse to do its own Emulator, like, a special Emulator, only for Tears Of Themis...

Why am I asking this? Well... I'll be honest, it's kinda uncomfortable to play this game in the mobile, and then... my disability, yes, I've hearing problems since birth (NO, I’M NOT DEAF, AND NO, IT’S NOT THE SAME THING), and the mobile... let's say that it's not helping me to enjoy the game, since thanks to YouTube, I know that Tears Of Themis have a very, very, very good BGM...

Thank you so much for taking some minutes to read it. Have a good Sunday!

#HoYoverse #Tears Of Themis #TearsOfThemis #Artem Wing #ArtemWing #Vyn Richter #VynRichter #Marius Von Hagen #MariusVonHagen #Luke Pearce #LukePearce #2023

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thyme-in-a-bubble · 6 months

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MY CAT ALSO DOES THE BATHROOM THING!!!

I have two cats and the younger one always when she notice that I went to the bathroom must be there with me, she either sits near me or she suddenly desperately needs to cuddle and I have to pick her up and pet and cuddle her while I'm on the toilet lol and god forbbid I close the door and she can't come in its a dissaster and she will be yelling until the doors open... and she only does that to me, she doesn't care when someone else is in the bathroom

the older one doesn't care at all, actually he is kinda scared to come to the bathroom idk why

i’m not 100% sure it’s the same with cats, but i know that with dogs it derives from the wild, something they do for others in the pack, look out and protect when one is relieving themselves and therefore being vulnerable. so when they do that to you it means that they care about you, that you are part of their family and they wanna protect you when you are vulnerable ♡

my cat does it with everyone, but she's also just very social, very doglike.

#also while I was typing this she came and crawled up on my knee like a mountain goat <333 #lea answers #• hedvig •

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skepticalarrie · 2 years

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Hi Allie. Do you think in the interviews of DWD can Harry's team can forbbid the press to ask questions about his relationship with Olivia and all the drama with Shia? I just hope his team has a good strategy for him.

Sure, they can blacklist whatever they want from the interviews. Either way, I’m not expecting it to go that route. Harry never addresses drama or “personal” questions, so I don’t think that’s going to change regardless of all of the drama going on. Going on stunt walks and getting big headlines is one thing, but directly addressing the subject is something completely different and that’s where I personally think Harry draws the line. He did quite well on that Stern interview.

So as though I don’t think the promo and interviews are going to be as bad as people are thinking, I’m still not completely sure of what to expect from it. I’m hoping and praying his team is going to act in his best interest… but oof, there’s so much shit going on with Olivia, it’s impossible to understand what the fuck they were thinking with this stunt.

#ask #dwd promo

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hello-nichya-here · 2 years

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I didn't fully realize how bad the censorship issue could get until I saw a video on YouTube where parts of classical art were blacked out.

And with classical I mean as in 17th century paintings of scenes from the Bible or Greek Mythology.

These people would burn down churches for displaying "problematic" pieces if they could, wouldn't they?

Yup.

I remember the parents of some of my classmates being horrified that the school was showing us "pornograpy" - aka the drawing of a little boy and a little girl showing us that, indeed, we are different down there, as well as explaining the differences between the reproductives systems and all the horrible, terrible deseases that can kill you. Not exactly hentai material.

They also complained, of course, of the uncensored pictures of the paintings and statues we all in the history books. Like, we were reading about every attrocity humans were responsible for, but God forbbid we see a nipple!

People get really weird the second anything even remotely connected to sex it's treated as a normal part of life that doesn't have to be taboo.

#asks #purity culture #purity police

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jams-sims · 1 year

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHARE THERES ONE BEDROOM IM SHARING WITH A CAT, A HALF WORKING BATHROOM AND GHOSTS- THE FUCK YOU MEAN!!

We gotta lose sleep and have people trample all over our home because god forbbided another dorm does it!

CROWLEY ITS ON SIGHT!

#twst spoilers #twst #twisted wonderland

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static-shocked · 2 years

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It really baffles me how you guys can enjoy these types of propaganda movies, as someone whose nation and continent has been a victim of us imperialism for decades, I simply cannot stomach a movie where the same people who wouldn't think twice in killing me or my family are the protagonists, I hope to never set a foot in such a country or meet such people; some of y'all are quick to boycott anything russian because of ukraine, but god forbbid us, actual victims of the us military, call out usamericans, I don't care about "the few good ones", the damage y'all done to us by just existing and making these kinds of movies is very much real

I’m gonna start by saying this: Yeah. You’re right.

And I want to state for the record that I don’t give a fuck about the few good ones either. I don’t think you can reform this shit. The amount of damage that the US military/state has done my family and that imperialism continues to do my culture has walked me past that. But here’s the thing: That’s kind of the *point*. If I, someone who gets sick when I hear that someone I know if even considering joining the armed forces because I know that it means furnishing maintenance to a system that kills and maims innocent people in other counties, can go into a movie like that with a vehement stance against anything and everything US related and come out weighing the things I enjoyed on an artistic level against the gut wrenching dread of knowing the function of this film then that means something.

It means a couple things: that the propaganda worked, that I wasn’t immune to it, even for how much of the enjoyment was taken out for me knowing that this is going to be something that slaughters and colonizes someone else. that’s the goal. To get your walls down and make it palatable, even if just a little. That’s how they get you.

It doesn’t matter that I don’t support the military or the government. I live here, I have access to privileges that people who are being actively occupied by the US do not have, for however many atrocious things i have to deal with as a person of color. Now, did I make the wrong call going to the theater? Probably, I don’t think these kinds of movies should occupy the largely uncontested public sphere with big box office gains to spread their influence. But it’s done, I went whether I wanted to see it or not (and I didn’t, I was more of a tagalong)

The point I’m trying to make is not that I support the movie or its intentions, or that it somehow redeems the state, that the “few good ones” disqualify the evil things that the US does in maintaining its interest. It does not, it cannot, and it’s purposes are furthered by the things people overlook entirely. Yes, you’re entirely correct. But I want to clarify that it’s kind of complicated, engaging with content within the constant, unending influence of a state that makes victims of its own people as well. I just think it’s important to say that propaganda exists, and that it’s kind of important to strip away the how and why of it, understand that just because it’s entertaining doesn’t disqualify what it is at it’s core, and conversely that it’s never “just propaganda”. It rarely ever is. That’s the whole function of it, wouldn’t be very effective otherwise.

If you read this and say “good for you. Fuck y’all anyway.”? That’s fine! I won’t begrudge you, it’d be fucked up of me to do that. You don’t owe me sympathy or empathy. No amount of “I’m sorry for what this country has done to you” will wipe away the irreparable damage that US imperialism does. I guess the point of responding was to clear some things up and not totally brush you off.

#Anonymous #turning anon off until the post dies down because this is the last I’ll say of it for now #not because it’s not a conversation worth having. I’ll probably revisit this at some point #but bc I don’t feel like there’s much more I can say right now #As for the Russia stuff: I’m not educated enough on the topic so I didn’t address it.#*much more I can say that would be communicated effectively

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012mashi · 2 years

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The pjsekai fandom is starting to feel like the fucking LG alliance 2.0. God forbbid you say anyone is bi/pan and not 100% lesbian/gay. Bi/pan wlw exist! Bi/pan mlm exist!

#pjsekai #fandom problems #queer characters #let us bi/pan people have headcannons too #no one is deleting your headcannoned rep #not me getting tagged in a video of how ankoha are in a relationship and I am wrong when all I said was they could be bi #yes it was tiktok again I am dumb for even trying

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divinefollyart · 4 years

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sayuricorner · 2 years

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I know this crossover is mainly about TWST and Ever After High, but here's what I'm thinking for a while now: since Cupid transferred to NRC, do you think that some aspects of the school remind her of Monster High? (cause I do tbh). If so, do you think that she would tell her classmates about MH? From what I remembered, she didn't talked about her time there to the others when she was at EAH. I was thinking Headmaster Grim had something to do with it tbh. What are your thoughts on it?

Mmmm... What you say is interesting!

TBH I always found strange that Cupid never told anything about her friends from MH and not even made a reference to MH in the EAH canon.

So for the AU I came up with this idea:

After her transfer to EAH Cupid had a meeting with Milton Grimm after the "True Hearts Day" events, somehow Grimm had found out about the secret dance having happened but told Cupid that he is ready to let this slide on a few conditions:

-Since Cupid from a school of Monsters and Milton Grimm forbbid anything related to horror in the school, she will not speak of MH whatsoever to anyone.

-She will not either speak anything about her old world, Milton Grimm don't want the students getting ideas because of that.

-Cupid is absolutely forbbiden to had any kind of contact with her friends from MH, he will even use ways to keep an eye on her to make sure she don't contact them.

-Cupid will forget MH, anything and anyone related to it, to her MH will no longer exist and she will act as such.

When Cupid tried to protest, Milton give her an ultimatum: she accept those conditions and comply or he expel her from EAH and send her back to her home.

As much Cupid wanted to refuse, she didn't wanted to be expelled, send back home and decieved her dad for having failed her assignment, so she sadly aggreed to the conditions.

During her scholarity at EAH, Cupid didn't talked once about MH nor contacted her friend from her old school and put a mask and an act to make others beleive that she was happy when in fact she was not.

When she transferred to NRC, Cupid was invided by feelings of nostalgia and sadness 'cause NRC and it atmosphere remind her a lot of MH.

Normally, since she transferred she is no longer under the control of Milton's blackmail but Cupid was now scared of contacting her friends from MH feeling extremely guilty for not having contacted them for a long time and was scared that her friends would be angry at her for having "ghost" them.

She tried to keep her "happy act" on but her guilt, sadness and nostalgia became worst on Halloween especially with some of the students costumes reminding her of her ghoul friends.

Two outcomes could result from that situation:

-Either the guilt and sadness will become unbearable and Cupid will overblot, her overblot form would be an horrific version of Cupid's Monster High form.

-The others would notice Cupid's distress on times and had a talk with her.

Either way, at the end Cupid's friends will talk with her to know what's going on and will encourage her to contact again her friends from MH and when Cupid will finally find the courage to do it, unlike what she feared, her ghoul friends weren't angry at all against her but were instead relieved that Cupid contacted them and give them news 'cause Cupid suddenly going no contact worried them sick.

Ever since the conversation, Cupid would keep contact with them, talk often about MH to her friends from NRC and she even had session with a counsellor to help with her mental heatlh.

Cupid also end up contacting her father to talk to him about Milton Grimm's blackmail and the consequences of said blackmail and Cupid's father was furious about how Milton Grimm treated his daughter.

Remember how in greek mythology there's two versions of Eros with one just being was a god of love and the other being the most powerfull god excisting who could even give Zeus a run for his money? Well in this AU he is a mix of both version and let me tell you one thing: Milton will in the future had to deal with a furious very powerfull god for what he had done to cupid.

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#ever after high #twisted wonderland #ever after high au #crossover #ca cupid #milton grimm #monster high #ask #au idea

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spotsupstuff · 2 years

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“I love you so much, it’s stupid. You’re stupid.” He tended to say with a wide grin, eyes shut tight and brows furrowed as he laughed about it.

And he’d receive a half-hearted punch right into his arm, an offended gasp from brother and maybe sister’s hand right into face, roughly pushing until he fell on his back.

He would answer all of that only with more laughter. Siblings would try to silence him, but they’d always fail. Falling apart into giggles right along, wrestling him down the hill into tall green grass.

It was better than Heaven and all he wanted was to stop the time. So he could never lose this.

Then war and lust came. And then capture with great blazes to send the King off away from them. Almost like some kind of sadistic celebration. And then femine and desperation and nobody knew what to do and his family started to die out because the mountain couldn’t support them properly anymore and when he finally found their King, he...

Trapped beneath a mountain range of Fingers impossibly tall, with a message from the speaker of the universe prohibiting anyone to lift the curse. The King would smile and weep- he would laugh concerns off while incurable fears would fester his insides. And his Marshal understood that. He understood the empty promises, obvious lies and his own burnt hands by the forbbidance were enough of an evidence of futility of any further attempts.

Feeling his flesh sizzle as he reached for the scroll the first time scared him badly enough that he almost tumbled down. But he saw how brother was treated- with copper and iron to shut his stomach up. The Marshal would be damned if he would be deterred so easily. He tried right again, but broke half way to the paper. Angry with himself, he retried.

And he succeeded in touching the surface and the letters, but the moment he did the light of the text started eating away at the shadows that make him up. The Marshal was forced to hastily retreat with a shriek, with two stubs left for arms.

It was lucky that all he needed to restore himself was a dive into a nearest shade and pulling the darkness into himself.

So he opted to sit with brother instead. Not saying a word of what was really happening back home or what occurred to him at the peak of the mountain. They’d cook up what-if plans, brother would praise him for taking care of their home with sister and he would give the other the news of a royal newborn in their family, of the Bull Demon King’s kingdom, at some point, too.

Whispering and laughing, they swore to each other the moment the King was released, they’d sneak their way to big brother’s empire with gifts and songs and wisdom for the little one.

They swore a promise after another, poking childish inapproriate fun at each other. And in what felt like a blink of an eye later, they swore curses and sharp words at each other.

All because of the gathered fear. Claim upon the other’s person and not even full yet freedom. “I have the right to have you there! That is where you belong- with us and only us.”

“Come home,” he demanded. “Into the tall grass, into our arms. With rejoicing voices, a palace behind a clear waterfall- with Fènghuángs and Lóngs soaring amidst the clouds.”

“Come home.” The Warrior ordered the Hero, swinging his guāndāo down, aiming for the head.

#lmk #six eared macaque #mk macaque #fruit twins au #my writing #shpootlin-doodlin #hmmm.... Thoughts.#about boyos motivation in The AU #because im tired of the bad communication/misunderstanding trope quite a bitsy #-holds up six ear- what if he was just. yknow... Shitty In A Slightly Complicated Way #si môj si môj mám na teba právo a bez teba trpím tak ti rozkazujem aby si sa vrátil či chceš alebo nie Hmmm

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iwhishtomeetinournextlife · 3 years

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An anonymous lover (Part 5)

Summary : Y/N sees Sirius Black running away after a particularly rough letter from his mother. She wants to cheer him up and decide to send him a letter, anymously, she knows how much he hates her house.

Warnings : Slytherin!Reader, female!reader, angst, arguing, not proof read

Word count : 2.2k

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - You're here - Part 6 - Part 7

English is not my first language, sorry if there is any mistakes

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It is not possible. It is a mistake. He has dream of that moment so much, he is just imagining things now.

Sirius was in his dorm, laying down, looking at the stars on the canopy of his bed. He has stuck all the enveloppe he had receive decored with stars there, so he could see the sky before falling asleep, this had helped him to sleep better for the past few weeks.

But even the soothing looks of the stars could not help him calm his mind, he simply could not believe the person he was exchanging letters with, for now soon to be two months, was a slytherin. He knows her house shouldn’t be important, that no matter what she had helped him in so many ways, but he had developped such a hated for this house, he could simply not accept it.

He didn’t dare to compare the handwriting, fearing it would be indeed true, but after a few minutes he finally decided to look, he had to be sure, he couldn’t stay in the mystery like that for much longer.

He took the notes Y/N gave to him and the latest letter, the one he got today, it was a warming letter, she was talking about how she used to climb trees with her brother when she was a kid but never dared to go high, and how all the assignment was stressing her out and that writing to him helps her feeling better. Sirius felt like shit reading the lines.

He finally compare the two handwriting and threw his head back when they were the same. All the memories of the letter who were a source of joyed turned into a taste of disgust in the back of his tongue. What was before a blessing to be able to read those impossible lines became a curse. He hated it.

He hated how much of an impact her being a slytherin had on him, he didn’t want to deal with the emotion and decided to burry it deep inside of him. He didn’t copy the notes Y/N gave him and used Remus’ instead, he didn’t go to supper that evening, he didn’t respond to the letter like usual, and he didn’t sleep that night.

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Y/N was a bit surprise to not have any letters from Sirius that night, she had not see him in the Great Hall either, that got her a bit worried. She tried to reassure herself, he did say he had difficulties with that specific potion so he was probably studying.

She laughed at that idea, she had never seen him study before, clever and smart Sirius. Always finding ways out of situation, always the right answer in class if he bothered participating. The two month were over soon she realised and he had still to find her. She felt a bit of dispointment but also a satisfaction of winning the bet. She blushed when she remembered Sirius had promised a date if he find her before. Would he still wants to ask her if the bet was over ?

She thought for a moment, she hoped he would, she was still a bit scared to reveal herself, but she was confident everything would go alright if she did. After all, they had spend so much time sharing their hearts, it couldn’t desappear that easily, right ?

The next day she searched for him in the crowd and she felt her stomach flip, he looked livid, her first thought went to his mother, has she send another letter ? She felt so bad for him, she just wanted to hold him in her arms and tells him everything would be alright because he was capable of anything.

When their eyes met, Sirius quickly looked away, he didn’t want to see her, didn’t want to think of all the things happening in his head and she was only making things worse. Y/N didn’t know what to think of that, she decided to let him his space, he could always write to her if he needed her help.

But Y/N’s concern only got worse, it was Remus who gave her back her notes, and when she asked if Sirius was ok, he just nodded and said he will be alright. He completly ignore her in class, and wierdly enough he seemed to look at her way more often than before but always looked away when she noticed him.

She send a little message, a very short one, “Are you ok ? I’m worried”, all she was able to write down, she felt a weight in her stomach getting heavier every day and sharp glass in her throat forbbiding her to talk.

Those feeling only got worse when Sirius only responded with “I know who you are. Astronomy tower, 11PM, tomorrow” Y/N has never sweat that much in her entire life.

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The walk from the dungeon to the astronomy tower was a long walk, and she was very careful to not get caught by anyone patrolling the corridors, she was trembling like a leaf in the wind. Each step getting heavier. But when she finally arrived, he was there, looking at the window, he turned to her when he heard someone enter.

For a solid second they just stand there, looking at eachother, not daring to say a word, but after a few moment it Y/N who spoke. “So... You know who I am”

“Yeah..”, his eyes looked in the void, he didn’t know what to do, he felt completly paralized. “Well.. What now ?” she didn’t dare to look a him either. “I don’t know”

Y/N froze for a moment, he didn’t know ? He is the one who asked her to come here ! After all they shared to one another, all the words exchanged, all those freaking kisses and hugs that’s all he had to say ? What for ? “Is it because I’m a slytherin ?”

Sirius didn’t answer for a moment but that spoke for itself, Y/N scoffed, tears running down her cheeks. “Of course” Sirius frowned “What do you mean by that ?”

“Of FUCKING course the great Sirius Black can’t deal with the fact he befriended a slytherin, how could have i been this stupid to think he could get over his own prejudice on a house he knows nothing about” Sirius stood from the window seat and walked to her visibly pissed “I know enough ‘bout yer stupid house to know t’s just a bunch a soon to be death eaters !”

Y/N open her mouth, completly shocked “Death eater ? Death. Eaters ? What do you even know about it ? Have you even try to talk to-” “Actually, yes, I did ! And mind ya all those I have talked to are nothing but monsters, so I prefer keep you and your kind away from me as much as possible”

Heavy tears were falling, how could he say that ? Her voice were cracking “Me and my kind ?! Do I look like a monster to you ?” Sirius opened and closed his mouth a few times “Maybe, yeah ! I know nothing about you !”

“NOTHING ?! I OPEN MY HEART TO YOU AND SERVED IT ON A GOLDEN PLATE !”

“WELL I DON’T WANT IT ! YOUR PEOPLE ARE NOTHING BUT A SHAME TO THESE SCHOOL, I DON’T EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW YOU ARE LET STUDYING HERE ! NOTHING BUT ABOMINATIONS ! YOU WILL JU-”

“MAY I KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING HERE ?!”

Y/N and Sirius froze, Professor McGonagall and prefect were standing at the door, arms crossed, a severe look on her face. “So ? I’m waiting”. Both the students were heads down, ashamed of being caught like four years old. It is Sirius who answered “Nothing Professor", she frowned when she saw the tears Y/N was quickly swipping away and her puffy eyes. “Well I am sure you will gladly do nothing at your detention tomorow after class”

“Yes Professor” have they replied in union, “Now, I believe you both know the way back to your dorm ? Go Miss Y/L/N, accompagny her Mister Collins, and it better not happen again” Y/N nod, unable to say another word and got out, following Collins. “Follow me Mister Black”, Sirius followed without a word.

After a few minutes, when they were starting to climb the moving stairs back to the Gryffindor commun room, she spoke, “I will not hide to you that I am quite desappointed Mister Black”, he frowned but before he could they anything, McGonagall added “I heard enough of your conversation to know what was happening, Mister Black” He felt his blood running out his face, probably leaving whiter than snow. “Professor I-”

“I don’t need your explainations, what you have said to Miss Y/L/N is simply intolarable, I thought better of you” Sirius was now red of shame, he didn’t know what to say, actually, he already regretted every words, he regretted them the second they have left his lips. “I can understand your disfavour toward the slytherin, I know your difficult relationship with your family and the fact they were all from this house, but I need you to understand that not all slytherin are bad people, the same way not all people who were from gryffindor turned out to be good people. Do you understand ?” Sirius nodded “I want you to think about it, goodnight Mister Black”

Sirius said goodbye and enter the common room before going to his shared dorm, he was not surprise to see that none of the marauders were sleeping. Sirius put the map he had used to sneek out in James drawer, his friend spoke “Where were you ?”

He didn’t answered at first, letting himself flopped on his bed, face first and groaning into his pillow. His friends looked at each other, worried, “Were you with a girl ?”, that only made him groaned louder. “C’mon, talk t’ us” said Remus, who stood up to sat beside his friend.

Sirius didn’t said anything for a moment, he was gnaw with guilt, he wanted all he said back, when he remember you crying his chest tighten, it was his fault if those tears were rolling down your cheek, if you were screaming at him, he had said such horrible thing to you but you didn’t said anything bad, you just observe a hard truth : this idiot could not go past his jugmental ass.

“The anonymous lover is Y/N”, all the marauders gasped together and hurried beside on his bed. “So ? What happenned ? You should be through the roof !” Sirius turned around, “I knew it for ‘ few days now”, James widen his eyes “ ‘nd you did tell us ?!”

Sirius grimaced “I know ! ‘m sorry ! ‘t just...” Remus frowned, something bad happened. “Pads, what have y’ done ?”, he simply put a pillow on his face, groaning and speaking intelligible words. “Wha’ ?”

“I TOLD HER SLYTHERIN WERE ABOMINATIONS !” they all sat there for a moment. James finally took the pillow from Sirius and hit him as hard as he possibly could with it “You. Are. An. I. DI. OT.”

“OUCH ! Yeah, YEAH ! I know, stop hitting me !” but he didn’t stop before a few more hit. He stop and catched back his breath. “I wouldn’t like to be you” said Peter, “Yeah, no shit Worm-” -another hit from James- “What do I do now ?!”

“Wha’ ? ‘cause you want her now ?” questionned Remus, he did not approve of his friend behavior, but he assumed that since he basicly called her a monster, he must not want to be with her. He observed his friend for a moment “C’mon, tell us everythin’ “

Sirius told them everything, from how he foud out, to what McGonagall had told him, passing by the horrible things he said to Y/N and him hiding his feelings away, getting interrupt occasionly by hit from James. But then he stopped, realising something horrible. “Oh no. Oh no no no no, I’M BECOMMING MY MOM !” He put his face in his hands. “I said such horrible things to her, she didn’t deserved any of it ! How do I make her feel better ?” He sounded desperate.

James put a hand on his friend’s shoulder “You gotta show her you really regret wha’ you said”

“Maybe some gifts ?” suggested Peter.

“Nah, first you have to deal with yer slytherin hate” said Remus.

Sirius frowned “What do you mean ?”

“If you want to date a slytherin, you have to deal with your irrational hate towards all of ‘hem”

“It’s not irrational ! I have perfectly good reas-” but he stopped mid-sentence, it was the argument with Y/N all over again, he sighed, he did need to deal with that.

“Let’s sleep, it’ll be better tomorow” said James who went to his own bed, the rest nodded and did the same.

Sirius put on some pyjamas and laid there for long minutes, thinking about why he hated slytherin so much, about his family, about Y/N. About the tears he caused, he wanted to punch himself for that, he swore that night that he will do anything to put a smile on her face and never see her cry again. He knew it will be hard but he will do anythign to deserve her fogiveness.

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