#forgetting you

[escapingthelabryinth]

Stealing glances across a crowded room because speaking to you is like having the air knocked out of me— it’s hard to breathe.

#open diary #writing page #dark academia #academia aesthetic #bookish #poetry #love poetry #deep quotes #love quotes #relationships #missing you #forgetting you #regretting you #letting go #excerpts #love excerpts #romance #romance quotes #romantic

[yoongimain]

Beneath the Rock Elm

I had grown here, with a roof over my head, and riches beyond comparison. 

No warmth, or place to be called mine.

A future as bright as the stars we’ve gazed upon, haunted by loneliness.

I had fear.

The day had come, masked in the fragrance of roses and baby's breath.

I sacrificed my place in your heart. 

Bitter is the feeling beyond there.

Memories frequent me often.

I longed for that feeling of our hands interlocked under the sunset. 

The fullness of your laughter that vibrates beneath my cheek. 

The hues of orange and purple that colored our mid-summer skies. 

The essence of the green leaves brushing over our resting form.

The warmth that filled my heart from your auburn eyes. 

Years may pass, but the sound of your heart could never fade away. 

Perhaps, I lived as a shell. 

An empty vessel with no movement. 

The lights were dim when he set me free, but the fire in my heart had never burned brighter. 

Beneath the Rock Elm is where I was to find you.

When the time had come to be, you were already gone. 

Only then have I come to realize it.

You have also forfeit the place in my heart. 

#my poem #poetry #poem #poetscommunity #3am poetry #missingbts #writing #creative writing #amature poetry #amature writer #right person wrong time #arranged marriage #letting go #forfeit #angst #amature poet #the one that got away #i'm in love with someone else #goodbye #forgetting you

[theycallmemomo]

I think I’ll just stop eating. I’ll sleep more, I’ll sleep as many hours away as possible. I’ll keep my mind preoccupied by work and silly conversations with friends. I’ll pass the time doing chores or running errands. I won’t be on my phone as much or look at my notifications hopelessly waiting for a response. I’ll just quietly give up. I won’t reach out or say a word. I won’t pay any mind to you or the things you do. It’ll be like I never knew you and we never met. It’ll be a fresh start from such horrendous memories and so much precious time wasted. I’ll silently give up as you wished. I’ll silently dwindle and fade away. And if there’s a day you ever try returning just know that it may be too late.

#journal #diary #love #life #personal #sad #depressed #alone #lonely #suffering #agony #pain #destroyed #broken #heart broken #numb #forget #forgetting you #i give up #giving up #giving up on you #giving up on life

[shadowyred]

The Truth

Slowly but surely forgetting you

#free association #for the best #the truth #truest of truths #hurt/comfort #my blog #blog post #tumblog #poetry #forgetting you #think about you #thinking of her #thinking of him #until then #i miss you

[modern-wilde]

When Lord Huron said, "I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you. Take me back to the night we met." And when Henry Dumas said, "I caught you forgetting me." I still had you in my mind.

#thoughts #forgetting you #i hate to admit it but you made me feel #and now i feel numb

[arianaromer0j]

I like it better when I can’t remember you.

It’s like you don’t exist and I no longer have to worry about whether or not you’re safe.

Whether or not you’re thinking of me too.

So I like to drown it out with as much noise as possible.

Because as soon as the silence hits, my thoughts are back to you.

I wish I didn’t have to rely on forgetting you for it to not hurt as much as it does.

But I love you too much to ever be okay with this.

I want my dad back.

But who you are now is not him.

So I’ll forget you until things change.

And I’ll love you forever.

A.R.J. 22

#poetry #spilled thoughts #poetry on tumblr #young poets #sad thoughts #parents #writers on tumblr #letters #father #i miss my dad #dad #addiction #forgetting you #daddy issues

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[bisclavaret]

a day late to my 6 years on t anniversary ✨🏳️‍⚧️ a short comic about looking back

#trans pride #transmasc #comics #autobio comics #transgender #this reads a little more melancholy than I meant it to! #I think I forget how far I’ve come #like oh yeah this rules actually my body’s changed so much #also I grew my hair out and I’m less blond now #anyway I love being on testosterone :) #life saving magic potion that makes you hot and happy #my art #Magnus post art at a reasonable hour challenge (impossible)

[pokimoko]

I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.

#animation #animated film #animated movies #across the spiderverse #across the spider-verse #spiderverse #puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish #puss in boots 2 #nimona #nimona film #yes i'm posting this specifically because i just watched nimona and am feeling all kinds of things but really these are all PEAK TIER #the fact they have ALL been released within 7 months of each other...like...woah we are thriving right now #stylised animation with its own unique style reflecting the movie i love you forever kissing you on the mouth #films that make me ferally rip up any and all art blocks to shreds #and that's just the animation side of things #i won't get started on the plots. they also make me want to bounce off of walls #hugging all these close to my chest #as well as all the other great animated movies that exist because animation wins all catergories for me always #(let's not forget anime movies either; y'all are beautiful too! keeping 2d animation alive and i'm so here for it)

[rankuros]

thinking so soooo much about green day playing dookie and american idiot in their entirety on tour this year. here are all of my thoughts about it that i can think of right now because i don't want to annoy my friends

guaranteed to hear She again, which i think i have only heard live once and which is really really high on my list of favorite green day songs

lots of songs i've never heard live that i am going to fucking die when i hear. i have always considered Whatsername my favorite green day song and i've never heard it live. and i'm going to cry for the rest of my life after i do. nothing will ever mean as much to me as Whatsername live. i am going to be changed afterwards

also Give Me Novacaine. are you fucking kidding me. live? one of BJA's tenderest love songs? (say what you want but BJA knows how to write a love song, it is one of my favorite things about him)

Chump leading into Longview will be so fun, Longview is already fun live because they let Mike go crazy so it will be the Mike show for even longer, i'm a big fan of the Mike show ❤️

Having a Blast? i am excited to hear it but it will be unsettling in a crowd. i was one year old when the album came out so i don't know what the reception of that song was but i am pretty sure it would not be well received now. it is very dear to me regardless. who among us has not wanted to lead a long trail of destruction at some point

SEEEVENTEEN AND STRUNG OUT ON CONFUSION

it's going to be the queerest green day tour ever (or at least since before i was old enough to see them lmao) because they'll have to play bobby sox, and coming clean will be there, and i can't imagine king for a day is OFF the setlist. i don't know what they'll cut to make room for cumulatively more than Dookie's entire runtime so that's a little alarming if i think about it too much

is Tre going to sing All By Myself

are Mike and Tre going to sing on Homecoming!!!! AUUUGUGGH Rock and Roll Girlfriend is going to be so much fun

oh man the last 2 mins of Homecoming will be so good to just scream in a stadium full of people, i love that part even though it's repetitive, it's the perfect amount of punchy

i literally just want to hear Whatsername so fucking bad i feel like i'm going to cry just thinking about it. imm listening to it rn. music is just noises so how can it do this to me

#AND IN THE DARKEST NIGHT #IF MY MEMORY SERVES ME RIGHT #I'LL NEVER TURN BACK TIME #FORGETTING YOU #BUT NOT THE TIME

[lungthief]

listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.

like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been

#like you get why all the fics about those two are insane right. the narrative is just so goddamn compelling #and thats not even getting into the whole thing abt the serum curing steve of every ailment except his love for bucky #which makes him realize it was never an ailment to begin with (despite the commonly held beliefs about homosexuality in the 1940s) #and bucky being *electroshocked* again and again into forgetting steve #like howd you make your gay ass movie that gay and not realize it. its kinda impressive #sorry for the ridiculous stucky retrospective its 4am and i rewatched the winter soldier recently #its not that deep. its not its not its not . but if it was anything other than what it is it could have been. and thats the worst part #shut up riley #marvel #stucky

[mysimplethought]

i think i’ve gotten to the point when i can go days without thinking about you, soon enough months will go by, and then years and one day you’ll just be some person that I knew in passing a lifetime ago

#mysimplethought #feelings #thoughts #memory #faded #forgetting you #goodbye to your memory

[thisiswhereikeepmyseratonin]

People keep saying that the TARDIS shouldn’t have malfunctioned just from a cup of coffee but I have two theories

• The TARDIS heard that her darling newly regenerated little time Lord wasn’t going to get a cool adventure with his bestie and engineered an excuse so that he could

• The TARDIS having newly refurbished herself had coffee thrown at her nice new circuits and decided to throw a bitch fit

Look the TARDIS is the longest running female character in doctor who, has proven to be sentient, and regularly takes the Doctor to places she thinks he’d like without warning. It had to be her right?

#the doctor is the tardis’s poor little meow meow #people forget she’s alive and a petty bitch #you think she would’ve put in a coffee maker if she didn’t know what was gonna happen #she can see the future she knew what was up #doctor who #fourteenth doctor #tenth doctor #donna noble #dw spoilers #the tardis

[slink-a-dink]

#unity #slink speaks #man. #added alt text; apologies for forgetting to add it initially! #thank you to those who added descs in the rbs <3

[captainkirkk]

I know time loop stories are often about characters going on an emotional journey and/or learning a lesson but if I was stuck in a time loop I would very quickly stop caring about consequences

Who cares if I spend all my money if the purchase wouldn't have even happened the next day? Who cares if I finally flip someone at work off? If I got angry and wanted to throw my phone at the wall, I could without needing to buy a new one.

Coming out of a time loop must be incredibly difficult. You'd have to relearn small petty consequences the way an astronaut relearns gravity after returning to earth. You have to relearn how to live like the next day actually matters.

#you'd forget that when you spoke to someone they would REMEMBER the conversation #i would be SO weird post-time loop and not just in a trauma way #(although i suppose all of it is technically traumatic) #time loop #my posts #au ideas

[aesthetic-uni]

Oh. God.

#uni talks about the universe #april 13 #april 13th #homestuck #neil banging out the tunes #it’s arguably a double whammy #I keep forgetting tumblr holidays #I need a calendar for tumblr holidays #TUMBLR SHOP IF YOU ARE READING THIS #I HAVE COPYRIGHTED THAT IDEA SO YOU CANT MAKE ONE #FUCK OFF #I don’t like tumblr shop if you can’t tell