#friendship is still alive

[ruporas]

soft (and some bittersweet)

#trigun stampede #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #i think they both spent majority of their lives in solitude and ofc vash went town to town and made friendships promises and etc along the w #way + he had his home and whatnot in the long years he's been alive but he still just seemed so lonely. #in prior versions of trimax he had friends at home at least and maybe he mightv made some but luida and brad are basically just his #guardians in this adaption. like brad used to be a homie.... vash watched that little dude grow up.... and jessica too.... but he doesn't #have that in this adaption. nor a town like july where he had grown close to the townspeople and shaped that tragedy to be closer to his #heart. and wolfwood spent years fighting under the eom and doing shit under their jurisdiction when we saw him so adamantly try to reject #and fight back against that fate. i dont think he had a second at all to get familiar with townspeople or even care to #so its just these two lonely ass souls and vash immediately seeing the good in ww and points it out #ww who is under orders again to be involved in vash's business but he's also SO touchy about it bc vash is so careless and lack that self #regard and also just is not seeing the world that ww is seeing. but then vash helps him and saves him by sharing a piece of what /he/ sees #and it fucking. rescrambled ww's brain for a sec. HE GAVE HIM HOPE!!! he gave him hope!!!! and in turn ww gave vash hope too and its #all done in like 3-4 eps. there's so much fervent attachment in what they managed to give each other in such a short time #but theyre limited to the contract to the inevitable confrontation with knives - so while theyd want to give into that chance to love this #person who managed to give them smth special they just can't at all #ruporas art

[faygelehh]

Made a ponysona. He is the most epic prince(ss) of sparklecringe 4ever and ever <3

#im still bed ridden and mlp is the only thing keeping me alive rn #faygelehh #digital art #ponysona #mlp fim #mlp g4 #mlp oc pony #mlp fandom #mlp fan art #mlp friendship is magic #scenemo #scenecore #sparklefur #eyestrain #ask to tag?

[comradekatara]

full offense but if ozai didn’t kill ursa then what was zuko even doing in the southern raiders. like what was the point of him being there. what makes the relationship between katara and zuko important is mostly due to parallelism, the symbolic ties that bind their characters. we really only get a few scenes of them being friends, joking around. the significance of their dynamic is primarily a narrative one. and well. if zuko’s mother wasn’t murdered due to her sacrificing herself for him, then i’m not really sure what the point of him going to face yon rha with katara is. at that point it would make more sense for sokka to go with katara, since yon rha killed his mother. what makes zuko more important than sokka as the secondary player in katara’s story here is this very specific parallel. if zuko finds his mother alive a year later and they repair their relationship and live a long and happy life together then the entire foundation of his relationship to katara is retroactively rendered meaningless. obviously there’s also the question of why would ozai not kill ursa, like he knows she’s capable of treason so killing her would just be the most logical solution, it simply doesn’t make sense for him not to have killed her. but that’s honestly secondary to the fact that symbolically speaking, she needs to be dead. one of the defining relationships in zuko’s entire character arc relies on him having a mother who let herself die to protect him. the entire narrative depends on her being dead.

#hot takes #just. ugh #whenever I am reminded that the comics were like ‘actually she’s been alive this whole time!! lol’ #I would physically fight g.y. if I could #ursa #her entire thematic significance rests upon her being dead . bruh #zuko #katara&zuko #comics crit #like don’t get me wrong they’d still have chemistry but this parallel is the CATALYST for their friendship #narrative! choices! have! meaning!!!!!!

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

“Adrien made Kagami realize she’s a lesbian because she was not attracted to him” is boring and overdone.

Kagami made Adrien realize she’s a lesbian because she called him her “boyfriend” and he flinched and she was like “oh shoot what’s wrong” and he was like “i dont know, boyfriend is a really weird word for some reason” And because she’s Kagami, instead of being like “oh he clearly doesn’t want me” she just sat him down immediately and started googling Other Words and trying All of Them, and then she tried “do you want to be my girlfriend?” on a whim and he was like “holy shit this has awoken something in me.” And then kagami was like “oh huh i may be a lesbian.”

#adrigami #adrimi #im alive sorry for not posting for like a year #time to go back into hibernation love u all #kagami tsurugi #miraculous ladybug #i am still here with my very specific interpretations of adrimi #they are so important to me #i love them so much #love their season 5 dynamic love that theyre still friends #projecting sooo much onto them #its about being allowed to still be friends with someone even after the messy breakup #but also being allowed to be mad #and being allowed to Wish for something Else with them but to still be okay #i am probably not making any sense im jusy #i love them too too much theyre my emotional support undefined mess of a relationship #and also theyre gay #idek in what way but in Some Way #the ‘secret hidden queer romance’ to ‘secret hidden queer friendship because the romance didnt work for them #but they are both now super commited to helping each other with their secret queer little relationship endeavors #this is why kagami is trying to help adrinette happen #because gay rights #hope this helps #and they can be queer so many different ways i just #clutches heart #incare about tthem #theyre sooooooo not normal in some kind of way #both when they are dating and when they are not

[widevibratobitch]

ive been neck deep in fitzconte the last few days and it's amazing the things people can do with a character who has 4 minutes of screentime, says like three lines in total and also never actually directly interacts with the character the fandom decided is their bestie their pal their sweet cheese their good-time boy. and lover.

the cheetah is a homoerotic allegory yes yes we know.

#but the fics ive read. holy shit. there are so many incredible writers in this fandom. obsessed. #anyway. friendship ended with fitzier. now fitzconte is my best friend. #(<- a joke obv im a fitzier girlie forever and ever. but when you CONNECT the two... my goddd. now i feel im alive) #also its so funny how the fitzconte fics seem so much more like rpf than say fitzier etc cause like. #since we got next to nothing of these two in the show - the fic writers' obvious next step is to turn to their actual life history #since they were buddies irl and all. the clio shenanigans are just a well that keeps on giving. #where would we be without that cheetah fitzconte nation huh #the terror #fitzconte #i used to occasionally dab my fingers into this ship but now that ive read some fics where they're oh so delightfully toxic... im in love <3 #i still only like it in a very very specific way tho

[inamagicalhallucination]

team urameshi is my personal blueprint for found family

#no one talks about kurama and yusuke but theyre lowkey my favorite dynamic #tho i love them all #hiei and yusuke too #kuwabara and yusuke is a well known dynamic #kuwabara's friendships with the others r fun too #we needed keiko interacting with hiei and kurama more #i have so many thoughts about them but idk if the yyh fandom is still alive and kicking #yyh #yu yu hakusho #team urameshi

[casiavium]

Love Ghirahim(& or /)Zelda(& or/)Link where Link sees Zelda as just Zelda, just his friend who did nothing wrong ever, but he still blames Hylia for putting them through hell and manipulating his friend opposite Ghirahim who only sees Hylia, who cannot forgive her, who knows he was wrong but thinks Hylia is worse and places all the blame on the girl that is now Zelda.

But a lot of fanon forgets the part where they're both right and wrong. It needs Zelda who is both and neither, who is "still your Zelda" but now has memories that aren't her own and has magic she doesn't know how to use outside of throwing a harp across a pit and sealing herself in a crystal. Who feels guilty that she used Link and maybe? towards how Ghirahim ended up depending on his backstory, but also she's Zelda and she didn't do anything he says she did, and she was innocent too and doesn't deserve to die like he wants her to.

So much ghiralink hinges on the two of their opinions and emotions surrounding Zelda/Hylia, who becomes nothing more than an idea or symbol. Her personhood is taken away and she gets no say in the narrative she's supposedly pulling the strings for. And I'm not saying it's always a bad thing in fic, but I wish more fan content incorporated her into the story. But then a lot could be solved if they would just talk to her

#unfortunately I am the only person writing them like this afaik 😔 #at least the only one doing it ghirazelink as a poly ship and not gen #to be alive beneath cherry blossoms isn't ghirazelink but it's ghiralink with zelda&link friendship and Ghirahim & Zelda and I think it gets #them so well. zelda is so human but still pulls the 'im the goddess so shut up and listen to me' card. Ghirahim is angry that Hylia #is now claiming she's innocent but slowly realizes she's not hylia anymore. not exactly #and there's a part about him refusing to call her Zelda when she asks him and later he accidentally calls her Zelda? and has to #correct himself but the damage is already done. they're friends now there's no going back #I'm. always thinking about that and going insane

[faerociousbeast]

pesterquest karkats route is fucking insane by the way. i got the bad ending first and THEN the so called good ending was so fucking undwrwhelming after that i just had to sit there

#your best friend confessed his feelings for you to get you to stay #but you refuse to endanger him and let him help and now he doesnt even know if youre ALIVE #not to mention you didnt even fuckign acknowledge his confession of the feelings you both have been dancing around #your entire friendship #so you just left him like that #vs #oh boy lets send karkat to a different planet to the house that specifically has one of the worst guardians so we can play video games #like #😭 #im sorry but qhat #even with the davekat BRO STILL EXISTS THAT IS STILL A CONCERN #what about i dont know john with his awesome dad the only solid parental figure in the group #or I DONT KNOW jADE who literally JUST HAD HER ROUTE and it was all about being lonely #even rose like mom is hardly there at least rose would ve able to find somewhere to hide him #dave?????? his tiny ass room constantly recording cameras everyqhere AND BRO

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

reading scorbus angst is a special type of pain 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ theyre just so precious, either of them being sad in anyway is flat out torture

#scorpius crying? im dead #albus's obvious depression and low self esteem being explored? screaming crying on the floor #them having problems within their friendship/relationship?!?!?! i would happily be burnt alive if it could solve it #i do it to myself but still #im out here on ao3 knowing its just gonna take me out #scorbus #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #the cursed child

[babbletheawkward]

grieving over the subtle death of a friendship

#im hurtin #girlhood #friendship #lost friends #poetry #grief for someone still alive

[mad-hunts]

i'm currently thinking about how one of barton's happiest memories was with a guy named yves, who was just a quote unquote ' normal ' person like a lot of the people in gotham, but who he loved romantically ( though yves would never learn this ) with SUCH a fervor that barton literally learned how to figure skate in hopes that it would impress him — and this was due to the fact that yves himself liked to compete in figure skating competitions / wanted to eventually maybe go to the big leagues ... so, one day, barton invited him to the ice rink and he was literally beaming with happiness because he could not wait to show yves everything that he's learned over the past three or four months and that was quite honestly the most effort he'd ever put into ice-shaking before that he was just as nervous as he was excited. so, everything was going well for a while, but then his nerves finally got to him. and he nearly fell all the way to the ice while trying to do a one-handed biellmann spin ( the move in ice-skating where the skater holds one of their legs above them, holds the edge of their ice skates, and spins in this very tight circle ), though yves caught him just in time and just gave him this smile that said ' i am so proud of you right now. '

and thus, barton didn't agonize over it like he was originally planning to. his heart almost felt like it was melting in his chest, in fact, by how dizzy with love the gesture made him feel. but thing's only got better from there because yves wanted to skate with him even though barton had no idea how to skate with a partner yet... which, resulted in him almost falling quite a bit, but yves didn't seem to mind. it was just the two of them in that moment with nothing but love on both of their sides, even though yves love for him was only platonic, and barton still has dreams about that moment sometimes because of this ( as cheesy as that might sound ). he never did get to tell him a real goodbye before he died, but thinking about it does somewhat make him feel better about it and has given him some much-needed closure.

#ANGER'S HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons. #YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study. #barton's love for yves is right up there with his love for marcy if i'm being honest. #both of his relationships with them were a close second apart in regards to how much he was willing to do for them. #if it was possible he likely would've moved a mountain for yves but he didn't want to ruin their friendship. #and so barton never told him how he felt about him. especially since yves had a girlfriend at the time. #but like i said he still thinks fondly about him sometimes.

[pretty-ichor]

i feel like i should be over it by now but im not

#ive been learning so much about other autistic peoples experiences with burnout #im always angry that my pain wasnt unavoidable #if i got my needed accommodations it wouldn't have been this bad #and it was all for nothing anyway #bc now i just can barely function #im exhausted all the time #i dont have the energy to keep friendships alive #im STILL unemployed #i cant handle ANYTHING

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[lena-oleanderson]

Still Looking or on knowing there's a way out because you've been here before. you've been in bigger and scarier places before, and even they had a way out, and a friend on the other side waiting. and if the journey is too much for you, get up and eat. even if the bread needs to be baked for you, even if you need to be told, even if you need to be fed, just let someone tell you to get up and eat, let someone feed you, and get up and eat, and find a way out. (and like the mary ellen carter, rise again)

#poetry #poem #lena's bad poetry archives #grief #writerblr #on friendship #actually mentally ill #mental health #on love #on promises #there are so many reasons to stay alive. but on my shittest of days that promise alone is enough #i've written about what it's like to experience grief with someone before - losing the same person #and this is one facet of that for me #by the time that loss happened i'd already shaken the major urge. the big I Intent. but i was still pulling that #'i'm in a mood. i'm not going to wear my seatbelt.' thing a lot #which in retrospect is insane. a lot of that recklessness actually could've gotten me killed #since then - i've felt more awful than ever before because that's grief. but the only way i'll leave this world is kicking and screaming #because i wouldn't do that to my best friend. i wouldn't do that to any of them. not even half-willingly. #i'd rather do the most mortifying thing to me and ask for help #lena's poetry archives

[forcedhesitation]

I finished act 2 again, but properly this time. and I cannot even begin to put into words how satisfying and beautiful all of that was. I loved act 2 the first time I played, but figuring out how to save the last light this time, properly completing halsin's quest, storming moonrise towers with jaheira and her harpers, seeing aylin reunite with isobel...all of it. I love it even more. and the beginning of act 3 feels all the more rewarding, having fixed my past errors.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #thoughts about media #that was. incredible. I can't believe I missed so much the first time I played. #but at least having messed up the first time gives me a greater appreciation for the full story. #I did the “lift the shadowcurse” quest SO assbackwards last time I missed like. 90% of halsin's act 2 dialogue. #he IS cute. I am just STUPID. and learned nothing from dunking on gale before- when that was ALSO my own colossal mistake. #jaheira also gets such a badass moment of glory if her harpers as still alive. if you lose last light like I did before... #...god the assault on moonrise feels so...depressing. I felt so fucking bad for her the first time I played. #but I thought that you couldn't save isobel! and that's just what was supposed to happen! fool was I! #oh and if your tav fails the perception check on mizora when she first sends wyll to rescue zariel's asset- HE renegotiates his contract! #which I like better? I like when the companions get to choose their own fate! I like wyll taking a stand for himself! it was awesome! #and well. if corydalis used his outrageous charisma stat to push mizora into giving wyll a funky new sword? that's just friendship <3 #the relationship between aylin and isobel is beautiful. I'm so happy that I replayed to save isobel. I much prefer seeing aylin happy :) #barcus. barcus. barcus. I want to criticise you but I'm in love with astarion so. can I really talk??? #well maybe /I/ can't. but corydalis is Aware and playing mental manipulation chess with astarion. out of pure intent. but still. #join our polycule barcus. please. we will treat you better. I promise <3333 #anyways. not ready for the buggiest part of the game again. but at least I know what's going on this time.

[shaykai]

What if. Hear me out. It’s not likely. But what if all the scrying eyes in Moonrise belong to Gortash, including the one sent with Balthazar

#look listen I’m cooking #like man is a terrible ally you get into act 3 (spoilers btw) #and immediately have to go deal with the newspapers bad mouthing you because he told them to #and at his coronation he immediately steps between you and your companions (as a Durge. Tav doesn’t have to deal with him outting them) #and he doesn’t tell you about a bunch of shit like the iron throne and the fire works- and while they aren’t necessary I still want to hear #about them >:( #but. and hear me out. it’s heavily implied that the scrying eyes (at least in act 1. cannot speak for act 2) are Gortash’s #man found out his dead partner is alive actually and just conviently kept that to himself (assuming that Durge got caught by an eye) #(also side note this all also goes for a Tav just without the background friendship stuff) #but listen- him keeping the knowledge that durge is alive to himself to keep Orin and Ketheric off of them because they’re weak rn #and then conviently the scrying eye that went with Ketherics right hand man- who is on a mission to secure his immortality btw- just so #happens to die in the Shadowfell #and listen. that could’ve happened legitimately #but also I like to think he let it happen because he is- in a round about kind of a way- looking out for Durge #or trying to help a Tav because he recognizes Ketheric and Orin for the sinking ship that they are #(so were Durge and Ketheric to be clear Orin just sped up the self destruction by a lot) #anyways could be a stretch- (though I’d like to think it does that fun thing where it helps him and the protag so it never really gets #clarified as being straight up helpful for them #I just want him to be a half decent ally to Durge lololol #this was a random thought I had and my brain immediately decided it liked it #bg3 spoilers #Enver Gortash