A very young Bella Vista toad [Rhinella fernandezae] scales a handler’s thumb in Buenos Aires, Argentina. These toads can be found in Argentina, Brazil Paraguay, and Uruguay. They’re often found in forests and grassland, and take advantage of seasonally flooded agricultural land in order to breed. Images by Mauro Bernini.
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35 - ramble about any fic related thing
OKAY SO urghhhh i hate how self conscious writing fanfic makes me — essays? love them. i think my essays absolutely bang. had a teacher take ten points off my essay once because “it was very well written but you wrote four pages more than i asked for.” for my creative writing class i had a little portfolio of ten autobiographical short stories that i OBSESSED over and i still reread sometimes. same class, i had a poetry portfolio that i adored.
long story short, i love writing and i think i’m good at it.
but fanfiction is so... different. i can hardly bring myself to reread my published stuff—genuinely cannot remember what happens in half my fics bc i just don’t ever reread them. it’s hard to write more than 5k words for a single prompt, even if i love it—even though i’m usually really long-winded.
i think a lot of it comes from the fact that i’m writing not for myself and not for a grade, but for a community. a community made up of some really fantastic people. and the talent of these people is intimidating, as well as the sheer number of fics out there, alongside the fear that your fandom friends won’t like what you’ve written, so it starts becoming almost ........ paralyzing ...... it’s hard to write well when you’re terrified.
with school it’s different, because teachers give you a time limit and a page count and everyone does roughly the same amount of writing in roughly the same amount of time, and you’re all the same age and in the same level class so your writing is roughly around the same level of expertise. but with fanfiction everyone is completely different ages, has totally different lives, jobs, educations, etc etc etc, which means quality also has a humongous variety. it’s hard not to compare yourself to 40 year old fic writers who have creative writing degrees, even though i’m not even done with high school yet.
idk, this was rambly, but i guess i am trying to say that if you’re ever going to compare yourself to ANYONE in terms of writing, do NOT do it with fanfiction. you shouldn’t compare yourself at all, it just results in a headache, but if you’re going to write fanfiction you NEED to set boundaries with yourself and with how you consume work. maybe i should take my own advice lol
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