Cw: human and pet death
On Thursday my uncle passed away. I wasn’t particularly close with him, but seeing him in his last day was still traumatic. And it was very stressful not knowing how my mother and aunt would react to it.
And now our cat is clearly dying. And I feel like a horrible person shedding more tears over this than my human uncle, but it’s hard to see him progressing day to day. And he’s clearly distressed, and has been for a while. I can’t bear to see him struggling but I also can’t imagine losing him. He’s only a year younger than I am and has been with us our whole lives. And my sister has loved him immensely her entire life and is taking care of him. She’s not unfamiliar with death but I don’t want her to have to go through this only a week after losing our uncle.
I’m not equipt for this. Not on top of the stress of school and my gender problems and a pandemic. I think I might just shut down for a while.
“hiding my true feelings” he’s definitely for sure talking about how he’s depressed and/or experiencing ptsd and that’s VERY important and I’m so fucking happy for him that he’s learning to open up!!! when that turns out to be all it is I will not be even a little disappointed bc this arc is so important for him and I’m so fucking hype!!!! but also my clown shoes are STRAPPED THE FUCK ON!!!!!!!!!!
when one thing good happens and you brain just decides to be like “but what if this happens” or “they don’t actually like you they are just being nice” and it’s just making up so many fucking scenarios that are so unlikely but you just sit there like but what if and now you are left feeling empty and overwhelmed again.
NOT TO BE THAT PERSON OR ANYTHING BUT “I think I hide my true feelings from others” DID YOU SAY BUDDIE????????
hhnhnhnnnhnn today’s diet: coffee
Nostalgia can be one of the best drugs but also one of the worst.
thinking of rue and jules again do not talk do not text
I’M SO FUCKING MAD. THERE WAS THIS CROODS 2 ARTBOOK ON EBAY UP FOR BIDDING. NO ONE HAD BID ON IT EVER. I BID $150, 5 MINUTES BEFORE IT ENDED AND WATCHED THE COUNTDOWN UNTIL THERE WERE 5 SECONDS LEFT. SOME ASSHOLE USED A BOT AND BID 2 DOLLARS MORE THAN ME IN THE LITERAL LAST 5 SECONDS. THIS LISTING DIDNT EVEN SHOW UP WHEN YOU SEARCHED FOR THE BOOK AND THERE WERE 0 PEOPLE WATCHING IT BESIDES ME. IM SO ANGRY FUCK THIS ANONYMOUS ASSHOLE
my head is BLONDE WHAG THE FUCK i hate it here
If everything could stop being shitty that would be great
We all came to Xavier’s to learn. I learned what my friends smell like as they burn.
They should have had thirty, forty years ahead of them, still, to kiss and embrace and touch in the ways that families and lovers do. Instead they have nine days. It isn’t fair. It’s almost as if they are trying, subconsciously, to squeeze those stolen years into the space that’s left to them, and not a one of them is questioning it.
hot take: I want to be on the side of the creators, the mushrooms, the musicians, the scientists, the people who don’t give a fuck what others think and are unabashedly themselves, the blacksmiths, the blm protesters, and the wørms on a strińg