#fuck catholic school

[urlatibule]

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i touched a dead pigeon once

it was laying dead

pushed to the far side of the courtyard

left to rot on burning asphalt floor

and god i was so so lonely

that i pushed through the crowd where everyone was leering

at its limp body

and my heart yearned to gather its

broken wings and broken neck and

broken heart

into my tiny hands

and i

crouched down,

letting my knees thump

on rough asphalt,

its heat biting at me

and with my small soft hands

i tried to cover its marred face,

hoping that the watchful eyes and glaring sun

would lose interest

in its suffering

and i remember

as my tiny sweaty palms

were yanked away,

a towering figure of shadow

with clawed feet,

kicking the mangled body of that

sweet pigeon—

a sickening crack

and what could i do,

for my hands were so small,

so soft,

so weak,

and what could i do,

as i watched the festering wound now uncovered,

crawling with yellow maggots that reeked of the sour scent of death,

and she was eaten alive,

bones and guts and feathers and blood

as i watched

and that shadow

it was screaming a chorus of whispers

“salvationsalvationsalvation”

as it grabbed my asphalt-imprinted hands

and poured pure light

burning writhing clawing screaming

light,

cleansing me

of kindness

to be vulnerable

is to be torn apart by maggots

there is no salvation for the vulnerable

salvation is for those who

forget how to be

kind

cleanse yourself

#based on a real experience #fuck catholic school #it messed me up

[atthecostofmysoul]

True martyrdom.

I know that this is probably horrible to say, but I desperately need to get out this anger.

Sometimes I just look at these Christians and how they just keep making the world worse and worse and I just get so fucking angry I find myself wanting to maul something. Not even jus something, it’s them. Plain and simple, I want to maul them.

I want to take these whiny little babies who have never known a single day of oppression and remind them what true martyrdom is. I want them to come face to face with how cushy they have it and beg for mercy like we must over and over and over from them. I want them to never receive that mercy too. I want them to hurt like we do at their hands.

I know how edgy atheist™️ this whole thing sounds, and I’m sorry. I think I’m beginning to realize that I’ve been running on anger ever since I left the church and it’s gotten me nowhere. It helped me survive catholic school though, and I don’t know what to do without it. Do y’all have any advice on how to deal with this? I feel really lost.

#ex catholic #atheism #atheist #anger #Agnostic #ex christian #Fuck catholic school

[sandarchy]

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to run into my fifth grade teacher from Catholic school somewhere and be like “hey remember me, the kid you’re tortured for not paying attention enough in class while you suddenly lost your own attention span whenever I was getting bullied by the other kids? Guess what, I’m queer now”

#musings #my thoughts #daily musings #fuck catholic school #bullying #daily #dailyjournal #diary #my diary #tumblr diary

[gayforbagels]

Pouring one out for Afghanistan and Anguilla and Antigua and Aoteoroa and Barbuda and Australia and the Bahamas and Bahrain and Bangladesh and Barbados and Belize and Bermuda and Botswana and Brazil and Brunei and Canada and the Cayman Islands and Cornwall and Cyprus and Dominica and Egypt and the Islas Malvinas and Fiji and Gambia and Georgia (the country) and Ghana and Gibraltar and Grenada and Guyana and Hong Kong and India and Iraq and Ireland and Jamaica and Jordan and Kenya and Kiribati and Kuwait and Lesotho and Malawi and Malaysia and Maldives and Malta and Mauritius and Montserrat and Myanmar and Nauru and Nigeria and Pakistan and Palestine and the Pitcairn Islands and Qatar and St Lucia and Saint Kitts and Nevis and Saint Helena and Ascension and Tristan da Cunha and St Vincent and Grenadina and Scotland and Seychelles and Sierra Leone and Singapore and the Solomon islands and Somaliland and South Africa and Sri Lanka and Sudan and Swaziland and Tanzania and Tonga and Trinidad and Tobago and Turks and Caicos and Tuvalu and Uganda and United Arab Emirates and United States and Vanuatu and Wales and Yemen and Zambia and Zimbabwe tonight

#text #op #dancing crabs #and many more #sorry if I missed you trust me when I say I am still popping the FATTEST bottle for u TONIGHT #edit: guys I copy pasted a shit ton of countries from fucking Wikipedia for a shitpost it’s not that deep #edit: the amount of y’all that are tagging this as ‘except us and Canada’ are missing the fucking point #it isn’t cute lol #EDIT: WHATS UP GUYS IT’S ME YA BOY COMING LIVE FROM. GLASS ONE OF WINE #I CHANGED MY MIND FUCK IT IM ADDING EVERYONE I MISSED INTO THE OP #AND ANOTHER THING #SOME OF YALL HAVE TO REMEMBER THERE ARE INDIGENOUS PEOPLE IN CANADA AND THE USA TOO #SAYING THE USA AND CANADA DOESNT DESERVE TO POP BOTTLES IS DISMISSIVE OF EVERY INDIGENOUS LIFE DAMAGED BY THE BRITISH EMPIRE #AUSTRALIA TOO #THE MONARCHY HAD A VERY PROMINENT ROLE ALONGSIDE THE CATHOLIC CHURCH IN RESIDENTIAL SCHOOLS AND COLONIAL VIOLENCE #IN SETTLER HISTORY #ALSO TO ANY OF MY BRITISH HOMOES I AM SO SORRY YALL HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT PROPAGANDA MACHINE RN #GFGFGFFGGG I’m not changing that

[soda-pop-kandy-krush]

just made a crazy discovery on their Spotify profile. pictures of the century.

#mikey looks like lesbian geography major named jenny #ray is so tall and awkward. god bless you baby #frank playing for his fucking catholic school talent show #gee holding a basketball posing for myspace #my posts #mcr #my chem #my chemical romance #gerard way #ray toro #frank iero #mikey way

[wilcze-kudly]

Mai, Ty Lee and Azula having gone to an all girls school together actually explains so much about who they are both as individual people and a group.

#Catholic all girls school veteran here. it fucks u up #azula #mai #ty lee #atla #avatar #avatar: the last airbender #the last airbender #avatar the last airbender

[ef-1]

A day after Daniel fucks over Yuki, you post a photo of yourself wearing enchante,, you're not slick

Skinny white girl like Ricciardo? Ground breaking lol

it's so tragic how you're just gonna have to die mad about it 💋

#it did give me the giggles though bc HOW DARE I WEAR MY OWN CLOTHES!!! SHOCK AND HORROR!!!! #sometimes tumblr gives me askfm scandal of catholic boarding school fame 😍 like there was this girl that used to live INSIDE my ass #she'd offer me gum and food and ask to plait my hair then we had a massive askfm bullying scandal where the school banned askfm #long story short she was saying the most HORRIFIC things about me bc psycho ig #anyway i have no doubt that you're ugly and a loser and your life is going nowhere fast and also if this was irl youd be meek as fuck #and never look me in the eye #log off and find some friend or a purpose or something. God speed!!!

[andthebeanstalk]

PENIS PENIS PENIS PENIS PENIS

PUSSY.

BIG FLAPPY WET JESUS PUSSY.

JESUS' SOPPING WET PUSS-PUSS

[Edited months after posting to discourage catholics from replying to this post after finding that both the nice and much funnier not-nice responses to this were equally bad for my mental health. I didn't wanna delete it bc I was quite proud of some of my responses and it helps to have a visual reminder of why I left an abusive organization. Also, this means that any catholic who has reblogged this in an attempt to convert me, has now reblogged a post that, if clicked, links back to this. Use MY post for propaganda, will you!]

Thinking about how it was never made clear to me in Catholic school exactly WHY Jesus died for our sins. I just remembered that I was literally never clear on who the dying helped??

I've heard theories as an adult, but basically what I'm saying is pointless martyrdom seems a little pointless, and also with enough propaganda the big logical gaps in a belief system get really hard to see. Especially if questioning anything is blasphemy.

I would have gotten in so much trouble for insisting the teacher explain how Jesus helped us by being tortured to death by Romans even when God could have prevented it! God sent his only Son, they would have said! Be grateful, they'd say! Be guilty! Stop asking why he did that!!!

#original #religious trauma #<- what's up guys why did he do that??? for real i was raised catholic and it is FUCKING UNCLEAR but also the basis of a huge chunk of #my childhood?? like WHY though? my friend madeleine said it was related to animal sacrifices with the lamb of god stuff and all #this was NEVER mentioned in my school. i thought he was the lamb bc he followed god but maybe not #no wonder my impulse as a person is to constantly sacrifice myself unnecessarily #i think martyrdom is a bad gift. but i guess torture your son to death or whatever dude. but it's weird to do that and say it was for me #like...... thanks?? you're literally omnipotent but this is like the worst possible version of a cat leaving a dead mouse on my bed #Christianity #thank goodness i was too much of a fag to stay. i was so unhappy there. #the good place actually addresses a lot of my issues with Christianity as a whole while also not being all about Christianity #like what does it mean to condemn a person capable of change to eternal hell?M #*hell?? #the good place #god pays the devil's rent y'all. like in that post that made my long beautiful essay about this irrelevant by #summing it up with 'girl they are in cahoots.' i think about that post all the fukn time nothing i can write longform is as punchy as that

[bartonbones]

not enough ppl talking about the arsonist genes in the berzatto family....mikey wanting to burn down the beef for insurance money, carmy letting a grease fire get out of hand, setting his apartment on fire....there's no way donna hasn't (purposefully or not) started a fire or two herself so i guess what i'm asking is when does/did sugar get to light shit ablaze cause i refuse to believe it skipped her just because she's a girl

#the bear #to ME she's a burn stuff on purpose kind of person #a bad break up in high school and the giant six flags teddy bear is slowly melting in the brick firepit in the backyard #but anyway mostly just love the idea that all the berzattos are just a little bit pyro <3 #the fuck it all gene paired with just a little bit of italian catholic drama #burnt at the stake type beat the lot of them

[vraiment-amoureux]

ok ok.. disgusting t4t sex below the stained glass window of a church. at the altar even. i am thinking. accepting the body and blood of christ is so erotic if you really think about it

#t4t nsft #ftm nsft #queer nsft #ftm switch #corruption kink #blasphemy #blasphemy kink #ngh #catholic school fucked me up #so bad

[rainydayforme]

Shitty school IDs for a possible expansion on my preexisting hh/hb school au

Hopefully the quality doesn't go down too much

#if anyone can figure out the sheer number of puns in this #or why certain people have certain surnames #that would be hilarious #Hellman's House is a shit name for a catholic school #but I love it #hazbin hotel #helluva boss #carmilla carmine #hazbin hotel lute #stolas goetia #striker helluva boss #alastor #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel rosie #hazbin mimzy #fuck mimzy #she's probably a chav

[sincerely-nines]

oh yeah if you want to make me happy the obvious choice is show me team rancher pics. there's another surefire way to make me happy. it's by sending me images of amongus guys and jesus christ.

#i am so serious #my special little guys are the bean astronauts and jesus fucking christ #catholic school broke me in a way that's very strange

[kraviolis]

Belos: I’m going to raise Luz as my daughter and ensure that she remains pure and loyal to me.

Also Belos: I’m going to let the 7-years-old clone of my brother take care of her I’m sure he’ll be able to do that.

you joke but thats LITERALLY his entire thought process at first. he's so isolated and arrogant that he couldnt possibly comprehend the idea that luz wouldnt see him as her father despite the fact he literally told hunter he was going to be her older brother and never once encouraged hunter to see him as anything but an uncle.

i attribute this to the fact that philip is an orphan who only ever knew his blood brother as his only caretaker, so he sorta took having a brother for granted and didn't realize that was something you could want rather than something that just Is.

(also caleb was the only person philip ever truly knew + loved and even well into his 300s he never once picked up a child psychology book and realized that Perhaps His Worldview Was Skewed Because Of That.)

he literally like. could not comprehend the idea that you could even choose your own family outside of like. being adopted by someone. thats the other thing with him being so annoyingly christian in this AU, he was taught that your blood family (esp yr parents) is always the most important thing in your life & you should always be grateful to them no matter what.

(this is another factor into why he keeps making grimwalkers. in his own twisted viewpoint, it's him giving caleb another chance. and another. and another-- at least in this specific characterization of him.)

philip thought that him adopting luz would mean she would immediately be eternally grateful to him and call him father and the whole nine yards. but he forget to actually express that expectation until it was too late (aka until he heard her call him uncle for the first time)

honestly, hes not MAD about it. he's just sorta :( about it bcus hes not actually insane and can still logically think like "she did say she had just lost her real father to an illness its perfectly reasonable for her to not want to replace him" (he doesnt think it outloud but he also enjoys living thru her vicariously

but also later on as she gets older it gets to a point where he's like "ok its been years now why isnt she trying to replace him yet" bcus he thinks its a normal + healthy part of the grieving process to replace the person you lost (figuratively or, in his case, Literally)

#qna #anonymous #little lamb au #toh #also luz is sort of catholic in this AU bcus she was raised like that #as in camila + manny would take her to church on sundays and she did sunday school sometimes and they'd encourage her to pray #but they never like. enforced it on her. it was more of a cultural thing for all three of them than a spiritual thing. #but belos is DELIGHTED when he hears baby luz praying out loud before bed on her first night in the castle #he tries to casually ask her about it like 'what is this God can you explain it to him' #but then as he listens to her little five year old explanation of God and Jesus she drops enough hints to make him realize #'Oh Good Lord She's Fucking CATHOLIC?' #'god truly is testing me by guiding this lamb into my care but no matter. no child is beyond redemption' #cue belos trying to push her more towards protestantism by attempting to have religious debates with a fucking. five year old #who has no concept of religion beyond 'jesus died for my sins which means i shouldnt lie to my abuela about taking an extra empanada' #sorry i love belos forgetting that religion exists up until luz arrives in the demon realm #and then he realizes Oh Fuck Thats Right. Im Doing This For God & Jesus Not Just For Fun #and then suddenly remembers everything his pastor from 400 years ago ever said to him

[silvermoon424]

I just watched John Oliver's video on abortion rights and it was nice to see that my favorite game of "let's see how long it takes for 'pro-life' people to admit they hate women" is still relevant.

It only took a couple of comments for anti-choicers to devolve into "women need to keep their legs shut." Absolutely no blame directed towards men who impregnate women because as we all know pregnancy only requires one person. Also, it was awesome seeing people defend the fact that anti-choicers don't support social welfare policies because "why should we have to pay for the consequences of you opening your legs?"

#every day I thank the universe that I snapped out of being pro-life #I was HEAVILY indoctrinated in Catholic school and it took me YEARS to stop being so stubborn about it #what got me out of it was becoming more leftist and feeling disgusted at how most 'pro-life' people do not support policies #that provide social safety nets for families and single mothers #nor do they actually seem to give a shit about children once they're born #NOR do they support contraception and sex ed #so as someone who DOES want to limit abortions by doing all those things I was like 'wow fuck you people' #'I'm going to go hang out with the pro-choicers who actually DO support those policies' #pro choice #bodily autonomy #abortion rights #reproductive rights

[radykalny-feminizm]

I love this hellsite. You can say whatever the fuck you want here. Meanwhile I got banned on reddit for saying that all-women school is for females lol

#reddit #reddit sucks #fuck reddit #radfem #radical feminism #radfem safe #radblr #radfems do interact #feminism #radfems do touch #adult human female #Catholic school #female school #women's school #female spaces #femaly only

[kitkatabasis]

If BG3 was a game played by a real DnD group Shadowheart’s player would be ex-Catholic and Lae’zel’s player would be ex-Protestant. I know this in my heart.

#Bg3 #specifically shadowheart’s player would have gone to one of those all girls catholic schools where the teachers are all fucking terrifying #nuns that give everyone trauma #Also they would both be queer but that’s a given #D’s notes #Lae’zel of k’liir #Shadowheart hallowleaf