#fuck john walker tho jeez

[baeyungmin]

Falcon & Winter Soldier e3 Thoughts

- Sam & James more buddy roadtrip goof -1 oof god “hypothetical” please I’m- like i get it, TV show, plots gotta move faster but I dont feel the flagsmasher, stop the serum spread desperation, Sam’s right blew up UN, murdered TChaka, like what. no leads? seriously? not even the gov & CIA, FBI?

- Zemo prison break. It’s aight. still dont like his accent tho. i like the actor tho. a fellow ratman. 

- US Agent John Walker “do you know who I am?” B

- Baron butler sorry dude, i rlly couldn’t tell what you were saying, i like the evil rich guy trope tho

- Madripoor. Indonesian pirate sanctuary. *as an asian man, immediately expects southasian lookin ass ppl* enter looks like ex-pat bar. *no asian ppl* *sorely disappointed* also, black man jokes from Zemo, head writer Malcom Spellman a black man for context IM CALLING YOU OUT AGAIN DENIS, YOU GUYS WANNA USE NEO-ORIENTALISM YOU GOTTA BRING THEM ALIEN-LOOKING ASIAN PEOPLE GODDAMNIT FUCK

- Can’t suspend belief that ppl know a known international criminal been in jail for who knows how long and his disappeared assassin reappear in bar. -1

- chipper british bosslady exchanging serum info hmmm... it’s aight

- sam phone call. almost. same eh humor, but im enjoying this.

- phone txtmsg bounty Wick-style +1

- enter sharon. ex-gov operative abandoned offgrid after accomplice to superheroes? i dunno, you livin p large Sharon. jeez. an art seller and party hoster? jeez i dont know... -1

- party scene. tonal whiplash. where are the damn asian people. -1

- what the hell happened to the damn txtmsg bounty -1

- enter Dr. Nagel. evil gay trope. i mean cool for the nostalgia, sad its what you gotta use to ID the bad guy. sick Sharon fight scene tho, Borne-style, thanks Kari

- 20 vials. *begins death to shown calcs, eyeing the counter* why did Zemo shoot him tho. 

- firefight buddy roadtrip humor. geaugh. -1 bad. also, Bucky scene command really lacking here. 

- Zemo fightender. cool vision of comic book villain action. im doing my best to believe. 

- Karli friend death & bomber terrorism shoulda been weaved closer together imo. she seems nice, sells the robin hood, but feels out of character to actually justify with words firebombing. 

- US Agent/ Battlestar prison convo: I’m honestly really loving Wyatt Russell’s treatment, delivery, writing, direction. He backs arguments with sound reasons instead of quippy excuses. a man of thought and action. no humor. good, humor would have rubbed away at a mentionable character. government lackey, not quite reacting against Flag-Smashers, but a simple man on a mission. +1

- Wakandan +1

it’s an honest effort, but i have tonal whiplash and i am and you are allowed to feel sad abt so-so content. augh. 

#tfatws

[joecial-distancing]

2019 in review in review:

A few years ago I started tracking yearly goals, books read, movies watched etc in a year, along with overview blurbs, in private posts. End of 2019/beginning of 2020 I was really frazzled/burned out about a lot of stuff and just never finished up making the thing. 8 months later, got the urge to read back what I’d got done, then figured I’d maybe go ahead and see about finishing. 

Media tracking below the break. thoughts/blurbs written in 2020 italicized, 2019 not.

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Didn’t do so hot on explicit personal goals, but had a lot of stuff go ok around them this year.

School’s been fine/better than fine.

Job’s probably the biggest failing. Still with same job, haven’t made the firm moves to jump off, dragging my feet too much on exploring stuff w/ Columbia/NASA GISS.

Did not get better with covid, lol

Dating life still non-existent, but I’ve registered on apps, gotten more comfortable with selfies, improved general social life dramatically, been flirted with, updated my wardrobe, and generally started to get comfortable accepting that I’m a hot person.

Somehow got extremely better during covid.

Books

Grant (finished)

We stan a taurus legend

Guy was good at exactly one job, and was fortunate enough to have been in the right place/right time to get to do it.

Mort (discworld)

Definitely best discworld I’ve gotten to so far.

Don Quixote p. II

Really entertaining in a way that part 1 wasn’t; I was shocked how much the meta element landed for me.

Consider the Lobster (DFW collection)

had zero context on who DFW is/was when I read, and still don’t exactly tbh. Wanted to wait for a pause in The Discourse before diving into more of him, but dunno if I’m ever going to get that.

Crime and Punishment (revisited)

Weirdly didn’t get much more out of this than I did the first time I’d read it

Better Than Sex (HST Gonzo papers)

Xerox/widespread fax accessibility opening citizen access to mass media in a manner really reminiscent of what social media would go on to do at a much larger scale. Has a much more deliberate narrative arc than the other gonzo papers collections, also has that excellent HST richard nixon eulogy

The Brothers Karamazov

SPQR

Slouching Towards Bethlehem (Didion collection)

Pet Sematary

Not my favorite King, but not bad

Sourcery (discworld)

still funny/charming, but Mort really made clear/reminded me how much the hapless sadsack Rincewind mold of protagonist wears on me after a while.

The Devil's Teeth

My Year of Rest and Relaxation

Liked it a lot more once I realized it was doing a Fear and Loathing thing.

Homage to Catalonia

This should be the Orwell that gets taught in schools. Make it a followup to All Quiet on the Western Front or something, jeez.

Lyndon Johnson I

Having now finished all of them, this one’s probably the least-interesting but sets up a bunch of important context that the others still then feel the need to retread.

The Razor's Edge

Recommended to me as a “white guy discovers eastern mysticism” book, but also is more interesting in its treatment of that than I’d expected (helps it was written in the 40s). 

Cat's Cradle

There’s a part in this where Vonnegut’s making fun of people who try to bond with strangers over being Hoosiers, and my dumbass immediate thought was “ooh, Vonnegut’s a hoosier? Me too!”

Lyndon Johnson II

Robert Caro felt compelled to apologize for spending so much words lionizing Coke Stevens, segregationist opponent to Johnson’s senate run. His goal was pretty clearly to show lbj’s lack of campaign charisma by contrast, definitely definitely overcommitted in his own narrativising.

Libra

I want to go back to this after reading some more De Lillo.

Gravity's Rainbow

This book absolutely kicked my ass

Overstuffed and referential in a specific way that really keeps me hooked in instead of put off. When I learn about some piece of cultural context that I retroactively recognize as being referenced in this, I want to go back and reread the entire thing.

From Caligari to Hitler

Kind of fails both as film criticism and cultural analysis, but absolutely made me want to run for the hills when considering current relationship between mainstream movies and demands of pop culture.

I took a class on Weimar cinema in undergrad that I now realize was probably biting pretty heavily from this and never once referenced it.

Movies

Venom

Movie itself is not as fun as the Tom Hardy hype coverage. PG13 was the absolute worst space to aim for, PG- or R- versions of this could have been a blast.

Harryhauser Argonauts

Was tripping when I put this on, and it was all kinds of fun.

2001: a Space Oddyssey

First time seeing this, all-time classic for a reason!

A Good American (the NSA doc)

Dr. Strangelove

Mel Brooks History of the World p. I

Not my favorite Brooks, best joke was at the beginning.

In Bruges

Had been a while since I saw a proper dark comedy.

Spiderverse

Fukkin awesome!

Visually great, and extremely better than usual superhero stuff for being aimed at PG instead of PG-13.

You Only Live Twice

Highlander (Revisited)

I watched The Old Guard on netflix recently and it mostly just made me wish I was watching Highlander instead, because at least Highlander knows exactly how goofy it is

Moonraker

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Much like The Shining, I though this would have been 100% spoiled for me by cultural osmosis, but turns out it wasn’t, and even the scenes I had seen *totally landed* in-context still.

Kung Fu Hustle

Ichi the Killer

Really gross, really fun

Matrix Reloaded (watched thru highway scene) (Revisited)

The highway scene was not nearly as cool as I remembered it being.

John Wick 3*

Probably dumbest plot of all of them, best choreography. I like how every single fight had its own distinct flavor. “Knife museum fight” “horse fight” “halle berry dogs fight” 

Akira

A classic

Pet Sematary * (ugh, bad)

Why can’t john lithgow be in good movies anymore

The Revenant

MCU Spiderman

Fuck this was awful.

MCU Spiderman 2*

Really weird, complete Rorschach Test of a movie: it’d be totally valid to read into this that global warming is Fake News, for instance.

Lmao this was completely awful

Rites

Dredd (non-stallone)

oh hey Lena Headey’s in this

For All Mankind!

Watched in honor of moon landing anniversary

Lion King *

Watched it way too stoned, was like dark side of the moon + wizard of oz except instead it’s a lion king script reading + nature footage edited for lip syncing.

Once Upon a Time in Hollywood *

Many scenes of very long setups for really stupid shaggy dog jokes, which sometimes worked and sometimes didn’t. I do kinda want to rewatch now knowing more about manson, which I knew pretty much nothing about beforehand

Blowout

A good john lithgow movie

also I think I like travolta in things.

Lord of War

A Good cage movie

I like when Eamon Walker shows up in stuff.

Taxi Driver

A classic

Snowpiercer

Watched in a bar with only one speaker working, which is the correct way to watch. Weirder and funnier than I thought it was going to be, which still doesn’t make it good, but,

dbz big green dub

Exorcist III

Brad Dourif just tearing it apart

Deep Red (argento)

Suspiria (1977)

Watched the remake in 2020, which was ok, but nothing tops the Goblin score.

Elf Bowling

Thanks, Gnome

Parasite *

Interesting to me that this one seems poised to hang around people’s good esteem for a while

TV

FMA: B

Rick & Morty

Saw some episodes, generally pretty funny, some misanthropy that’s probably appealing to a certain type of teen al a something like House, but ultimately I don’t totally Get the intensity of discourse about it.

Leterkenny

Mob Psycho 100

One Punch Man

Deadwood

Watchmen

Only watched like half of it. Was playing around with a lot of hefty imagery/thematics, but didn’t really seem ready to rise above playing (tho also I feel like it’s weird on some level to *expect* them to rise above that in the first place)

Music

New Avantasia

HEALTH/ show

lol remember concerts

King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard/ show

Just learned about King Gizz in 2019 and got completely obsessed with them. I don’t tend to expand my music selection very readily, and a lot of what I currently *do* know is old/inactive stuff, so it was/is incredibly exciting to have an active group with good momentum just immediately win me over like that.

Mistimed the edibles and ended up with a really good finale and a really long subway ride home.

New Yeasayer

Sad they split up

Steve Wilson Tull remixes

Aqualung’s a good album and the sound mixing’s kinda bad, so I liked this project.

Stonefield

Opened for Gizzard. Really good as studying music

Video Games

Civ VI: Gathering Storm

Hades

Turns out Supergiant’s design proclivities all work *extremely well* on a roguelike

Baba is You

Untitled Goose Game

Cute, if maybe a bit overhyped

finally fucking finished Pillars of Eternity

Had fun with it, but too long, and really dour for how long it is.

Pillars II

Kinda drifted off it eventually, but I do genuinely like that the flavor of the fantasy is colonial era rather than medieval.

There’s a Balancing Bastard Factions element where it’s like the writers are just being smartasses after a while. Having to go extremely out of their way to make siding with colonizers seem like a competitive option.

Pokemon shield

Cuphead

pisses me off, which was a nice outlet when I was stranded by flight cancellations during thanksgiving

Celeste

Also very difficult, but really easy to stay patient with, which is nice.

Disco Elysium

None of the discourse made me want to play this, but people talking about the mechanical stuff it did got me extremely interested. Mostly Delivered IMO.

Breath of the Wild

You can approach the nodes of the main quest in the order you choose, and the second one I chose made ninjas start fucking spawning everywhere when I’m just trying to explore, and there’s no way to make it stop. May go back to it one day.

Podcasts

Relentless Picnic Patreon feed

The treats really helped me start distinguishing individual personalities, compared to the regular eps.

Picnic Discord!

<3

FatT Counterweight

Fun, but also I think Mechs are not my shit.

FatT Spring in Hieron/ end of that particular world

8 months since I’ve last tuned into FatT. ah well.

Law School

He’s in everythiiiing!

You Must Remember This: Manson family

*There’s* the context

Misc.

Kindle train guy

Times Square sleeping guy + kids taking selfies w/ him

toddler singing along after Psycho killer (a, ya, ya ya, ya)

drunk and dragged to a drag show

Central park football family

Soft Steel Drum Subway Busker

Weird old lady going to grand central for oysters

2018 in review (cards):

MySelf (CC)

Self: Tower

Blocked: 10 Cups

Ethereal/subconscious: 8 Swords

Material: 3 Swords

Past: Justice

Future: Page Wands

Attitude: Sun

External: King Swords

Hopes/Fears: 5 Coins

Trajectory: High Priestess

Also Self:

Hierophant

7 Cups

7 Coins

Blind Spot:

(self & others): 5 cups    ||    (others not self): High Priestess

(self not others): Moon   ||    (nobody): 3 Cups

[samredding]

TFATWS episode 4 spoilers below.

My reactions/thoughts while watching the newest episode.

- Dang, you think Seb had to put on a wig for the flashback scenes.

- Why is she pourposly telling him his words (I forgot the name of it, it’s late) help.

- The flashbacks are really cool though. And seb’s acting is great.

- Buckyyyy

- “You are free”

- He’s lowkey smiling, and lowkey crying, I’m happy for him.

- Calling him white wolf>>>

- I appreciate sam in that grey? Green ish? Shirt

- “Your tee tee”

- Yo, zemo, why are you giving out candies, I know why but jeez?

- “The hell is he doing?” That’s right.

- Please tell me that your joking with the (sam and Bucky) “are bad man stuff Zeno.” Please tell them. Dont keep secrets

- Oh thank god he’s not keeping secrets.

- Yay Bucky throwing stuff

- “Your partner”

- 5 men walk up to a little girl-

- “What the hell?” For once I agree with John Walker.

- Never mind. John Walker, you’re getting on my nerves now, give Sam some goddamn time

- I appreciate that Karli can at least sit down and talk to Sam. They’re having a good conversation but I know it’s not gonna last.

- John Walker I swear to fucking god, I knew he was gonna ruin it. I don’t think someone has infuriated me more than he has.

- ReEALLY ZEMO???

- If JOHN TAKES a SWRUM I SWEAR.

- Yup, John is gonna keep some serum for himself.

- Oh is this the black shirt scene-

- Hell yeah sam, give John sass.

- HA, hell yeah, kick his ass Dora Milaje.

- bucky’s face when his arm fell off, I died.

- Sam’s ‘fight’ felt clean to me, Idk why.

- Sarah?.......

- Nooooo Karli knows the names of her kids.

- “I’m coming with you”

- I’m gonna pretend Bucky kicking that guy through the wall didn’t turn me on.

- Did hE DIE?

- nooooooooooooooooooooo

- Oh John’s pissed- I would be too

- John no-

- Captain American never killed people, or at least not that brutally.

- THE FUCK IS THIS

- eyes are always watching.

- There’s blood on the shield holy shit

- NOW I GOTTA WAIT A WHOLE WEEK- that was good tho.

#I’m an idiot