miss every1 <3 caught laryngitis also fell into a deep depression but I wanna try to be more active
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???, 1894
Emmeline
My life has devolved into a series of sitting-downs and standing-ups. This is not a place of dank decay as the ones many delight in telling stories about, though that hardly makes any sort of difference to me: the most luxurious prison remains a prison just the same. I do not desire to listen to jaunty tunes in the perpetually mocking, sneering music room, and Heaven knows I haven’t a use for the chapel.
Perhaps this would be something of a holiday if they allowed me the companionship of my typewriter, but they only give me paper and ink for letters. I do not know how many a time I have to state that I have nothing to say to Kenneth before they begin to take me seriously. I wrote to my boys, though I doubt they sent the letters. How much have we perverted our values as a society when honesty has become a sin and not a virtue?
I would say I desire my release, but I cannot bear to go home. I put all of myself into my work, and I was destroyed along with it; I hoped my love would be there for me in my time of need, but my Kenneth pawned me off to unintelligent doctors like an unloved child to their grandparents.
All my life, I have been a faulty stroke on a master’s canvas, no matter what style I try to conform to. It seems as if there is no place in the world for me — like I have not only been born in the wrong place or the wrong time, but the wrong universe. Am I the only one who must maintain a mask? Does every other woman naturally possess the qualities society demands of them? Or are they just far better at maintaining their masks than I?
I should think the only place fit for me may be the Isles of Avalon.
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(credit to @dancemachinetrait for the estate and @antiquatedplumbobs for the chapel! such talented builders with fantastic — and much better tbh — historical stories of their own; i cannot thank them enough🤩)
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Genuinely can’t tell if I’m being a bit delusional with my dreams or if not 😅 I soooooo badly want to quit my job before the summer but I feel like I need to have everything Ready and be Making Money before I justify quitting - I’m just so worried I will pour all this time and effort and energy in and have it flop 🥲
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i will have this fucking tennessee williams essay finished before rosh hashanah this is my promise to you
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I'm still alive
iiiiiiiif anyone cares, I'm still alive. I've just been working a shitload of hours- 12 hour shifts suck
Anyway yeah if I'm still relevant or w/e just letting y'all know I live
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I DONT WANNA LIVE IN THE REAL WORLD!!!! I WANNA LIVE IN MY LITTLE IMAGINATION WITH MY HOT IMAGINARY BOYFRIEND!!!!! fuck this shit
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im posting skz fake texts tomorrow to make up for the lack of updates. and if work isn’t busy (i have no meetings and my assignments should be easy) ill work on the chapter update for seven dates 😀👍🏼 I apologize for the lack of updates ive been Stupidly busy and too tired to write :/
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fellow ds9 weirdos can anyone tell me if our guy Andrew Robinson is doing any upcoming conventions or if he like even does those these days. I've never like actively wanted to meet an actor before so idk how you find these things out. if he does do cons I will literally pay you money if you can tell me which ones. yes I am willing to pay actual dollars for this googleable info I'm not joking I have OCD and it prevents me from doing simple tasks sometimes can somebody please help me
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man i hope iwtv cast knows how much we love and appreciate them on here. i need them to know we're all in awe of their performances and we're all sending mental flowers to the casting crew for selling their souls for everyone to become possessed by their characters the second cameras start rolling. but also if Jacob Anderson or Sam Reid ever get on tumblr I'm going into witness protection
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they invented grad school to make sure you get sick of being a student, thereby prepping you for being part of the workforce for the rest of your life
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