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#gender identity crisis
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Guys, I just had my third gender identity crisis 😭😭😭 I hate having them so bad!!! The first time I had one i was questioning my femininity and identified as demigender and started using she/they
After a while I started to feel more masculine and had lots of thoughts about being trans (and embarrassingly I had a “persona” of what I think I would be like if I was trans 😳🫡)
I used to stay up crying at night because these thoughts would burden me and I just hated the person I was
I still hate my gender now. My case now is that I would want to be trans because I would much rather have a man’s body than a woman’s body.
What I mean by this is that I just hate being stuck inside a woman’s body. I just hate having to menstruate every month for one week until I’m in my 40s 😵‍💫 and also the thought of pregnancy terrifies me
See, I’m a huge emetophobic and I would hate to have to throw up. I have a panic attack every time my stomach hurts. And also I don’t want to painfully carry a baby around in my uterus for 9 months just to painfully push it out of my woman hole
I also really hate when I lay on my chest and then my boobs start hurting so I cant comfortably lay on my stomach
So I’d kill to have a man’s body
But in my heart and my soul I feel both male and female. So as of rn, I’m bigender and use he/she/they
Does this make any sense or am I just spitballing here??? 😭
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watt-in-the-world · 2 years
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it’s 2:30 am and i made a gender envy collage. funnest part being that i’ve identified as a cis girl my whole life and i only get gender envy from men or traditionally masc presenting non-binary people. gender identity crisis moment
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p0is0n-is-th3-cur3 · 3 months
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autism creature
me rn fr
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ymdslf · 8 months
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nonbinary steve who reads about being trans in a random zine in a tiny queer bookshop robin dragged him into and now he's having a full on gender identity crisis, because he's a boy, right? obviously he is. he's not a girl. when he asks robin how she knows she's a girl she just shrugs and tells him "i dunno dude, i just do" which really isn't helping, so now he's just reading every. single. thing he can about the topic.
and when he takes robin to a gay club, to get her a girl already because he can't take one more day of her lesbian yearning, he loves her but one more "her eyes were like the moon, steve. like the moon!", he will jump out of a moving car. and there, nursing a beer at bar, he meets someone; this super hot dude. or girl? a very attractive person. and they ask him his pronouns, and he tells them "just the regular boy ones" and they laugh and tell him theirs, and that's the first genderqueer person he conciously meets. and they're talking, and drinking, and then steve is slightly tipsy and then he's asking "how'd y'know?" and then the person has that same soft look, the same soft spoken "oh" that he had when robin came out to him. and they tell him, and now steve's crying and this stranger is holding them, because wow. there it is. this something that just feels right.
and a week later, they just breaks down on a bathroom floor, in the cubicle next to robin. and they're sobbing, and in tears they tells her, because they can't not tell her, but also they're terrified of her rejecting them. but she crawls over the wall separating the two of them, falling down and somehow managing to land on her feet. and she hugs them, and tells them that it's alright. she'll always be there for them. she'll punch everyone who's an asshole about it. she asks if steve still wants to be called he and they tell her they have no idea, but maybe she could say they instead? and she says that she'll absolutely do that, and now they're both crying and hugging, sitting on a dirty bathroom floor.
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daniii-ii · 2 years
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me: i’m nonbinary, no gender
also me: i’m a girl and am comfortable in my femininity
also me: *sees a ftm trans person* but i want that
also me: no i’m a girl, i would regret losing my femininity and being a guy
also me: but no gender?
also me: but man?
also me: no, girl
also me: WHAT THE FUCK
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wulanvansunshine · 8 days
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I’ve always been comfortable in my gender until the last month or so and suddenly I’m having a full on gender crisis every day and idk how I feel? Is this normal? Im so confused? Am I overreacting? WHATS HAPPENING????
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awkwardtortilla · 2 years
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Hcs for when cami gets sad??? Xoxo
Awe hell yea
Sad!Camilo hcs
This was a lot less angsty than I had in mind but I still love it and loved writing it
warnings: sickeningly sweet; kinda heartbreaking; gender identity crisis; Camilo being a sad puppy; not proofread
It’s really obvious when Camilo’s upset
He mopes
It’s so goddam pitiful you can’t help but want to hold him
I mean you were gonna do it anyways but his sad puppy eyes and droopy head just make it more compelling
He’ll keep up an act for the crowds and the kids, smiling and playing
But as soon as he waves goodbye the grin fades and his shoulders slump and he crosses his arms across his chest
Yes Ik it’s very angsty teen
But it’s also very Camilo
He’s not gonna try to hide his feelings if he doesn’t feel like he needs to bc it seems stupid
Why would someone bottle up their feelings?
Why hide them?
That just creates more problems
And not the fun kind
So when you approach him and ask if everything’s alright he doesn’t try for a smile and nod his head
Camilo looks right at you and shakes his head with the saddest look it makes your heart ache
So you offer him your hand and lead him somewhere secluded
You sit down on a bench or the ground and either A) gently pull him onto your lap or B) let him sit next to you
It depends on the temperature and your moods
It doesn’t matter which position tho he’s still gonna curl up there and flop his head onto your shoulder which prolly hurts you both a lil but you don’t really mind as he nuzzles into you and breathes deep
You wrap your arm(s) around him, rest your chin on the top of his head, and trace the tips of your fingers up and down his arm(s)
Or you might do that to his back
Or you might rub his back
Or a combination of the above
But anyways
As Camilo heaves a sigh you quietly ask if he wants to talk about it
Welp I was gonna say that toward the beginning of your relationship he wouldn’t but I honestly don’t think it would matter
If he doesn’t need to get it out or if he doesn’t have the energy to talk about it then he shakes his head
So you’ll just chill there with him, comforting him wordlessly, pressing tender, loving kisses anywhere and everywhere
Neck, forehead, temple, hair, hands, arms, shoulders, everywhere
If he’s on your lap with his chest to yours you’ll slowly comb your hands thru his hair and twirl the ends around your fingers
Ayyyy mierda [shit]
Camilo loves every bit of it
He’s so goddam grateful for you and your endless affection
He loves that you aren’t pressing him for answers and instead just provide this silent but strong wall of comfort that he can lean on
Then again
Camilo will definitely talk to you
He trusts and loves you with all that he is and will have no issues with opening up
I’m sure you’ve heard this a million times in all the other hcs and imagines and fanfics but a main cause of Camilo’s upset-ness is that ppl in town are always asking for him to be other ppl
No one asks for just Camilo
So he’s often left feeling unwanted and used
So you’re there to remind him that you and the other Madrigals love Camilo for Camilo
He’s more than his gift
Then another huge source of mopey behavior is an identity crisis
With his gift it’s easy for all the appearances and genders and changing to go to his head
Camilo is also, without a doubt, a he/they
I don’t know a single he/they or she/they (including myself) that has not had multiple gender identity crisis’
And even after they come out and have it “figured out” there are still lots of times when they question it
So when Camilo has his he’s very confused and feeling vulnerable and probably second guessing everything every time someone calls him “he” or “they”
There’s honestly not much you can do for this
No solid advice you can give
No definite or clear solution
But you can offer support
You can promise that you’ll be there no matter what
It doesn’t matter if Camilo is a guy, gal or nonbinary pal
You’ll always love him/them for him/them
And Camilo is infinitely grateful for it
You have no idea
Camilo’s heart swells- no- bursts with love and gratitude and adoration
He holds you a little closer
Squeezes you a little tighter
Falls whole stories deeper in love with you (if that was even possible)
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lonleydweller · 2 months
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I need some opinions from the queer community
Im kinda questioning my gender identity, in real life, I'm okay being called she/her, don't care too much if I am or am not referred to it by it, but online i can't read fics nor write with female pronouns otherwise I feel weird, is this weird or nah?
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auzzyash · 1 year
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Guess who has two thumbs and is going to speedrun watching months of SAMS after months of ignoring the piling content due to stress, school, and a gender identity crisis? THIS GUY!
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itsheckinwes · 4 months
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Warning, rambles of the existential gender is a fuck and IDK how to explain mine variety below the cut.
Briefly contemplated if I was faking being nonbinary because of an aversion to the term cis, but no, cis isn't the concept that bothers me (like those weirdos who think it's slur) it's the "man". It's less that it bothers me though and less of an aversion than it is I don't particularly vibe with it? I don't vibe particularly against it necessarily either.
But also I kinda vibe towards woman sometimes, rather that less so and more so "girl"? And honestly less that and more "femme"
Fukken gender, man. And language. Language is failing my gender, you know what I mean?
Oh! And it's not necessarily the concept of traditional (toxic specifically) masculinity that bothers me either (rather in the sense of being called it or associated with it solely from being a man)
Like, maybe I wanna be masculine sometimes? In a soft way? And maybe I wanna look cute while doing it!
A strong sense of justice is often associated with masculinity, looking at characters like cap america, and I am VERY stubborn with my justice (namely I want those that deserve it to face consequences, and I want the rules and laws to be just themselves). I'm told that's just autistic though.
I also want to help! And to be relied on! And to be ABLE to fill that need coming from reliance!
But not necessarily be a breadwinner, or someone who does all the heavy lifting (though I like that second one too!)
IDK man, gender is just a fuck.
Ugh. Ofc I'd be contemplating this is the shower, this is why my gender didn't survive lockdown
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frienderbee · 1 year
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Why did Mr Mackey asking for my gender and sexuality just send me into a fucking crisis
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agenderantica · 8 months
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Reasons I think I’m agender
-really happy when being seen as androgynous or without gender
-don’t care about gender roles
-think of my gender as nebulous and malleable
-think of my gender as null
-prefer they/them pronouns
-prefer masculine leaning androgyny
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maxiezone · 11 months
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Guys I don’t think I’m cis. I identify with the word girl but not words like woman or lady. I don’t want to be guy but I am amused by the idea of having a penis and I wanna be Dude like in a cringe fail loser way. I adore “feminine” things like dresses and pink and I like being a girl but also I feel non-binary too. Also I literally had a nightmare last night where my hair was long again (I recently got it cut shorter) and I was so fucking distressed by that dream. I don’t think cis people dream like that if I’m gonna be honest. Tumblr I need your gender diagnosis because I have no idea what is going on here man.
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itburnslikeafire · 2 years
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Hey there peeps, idk if anybody will read this, but if there is someone out there who uses she/they pronouns or identifies as paragirl (or demigirl, or just paragender or demigender), then I could really use ur help
So my whole life I've felt like a girl (a cisgender girl). It's my assigned gender at birth, but I've never felt it was wrong or anything. Never felt i was a guy. I'm 100% sure I'm not a guy. I've always felt comfortable being a girl and using she/her pronouns and i still do!
But lately I've sort of started questioning my gender identity. I've discovered the label paragirl and i think it might be me.
I recognize that ever since I was around 14-15 (?) I've started dressing in a more androgynous, or even kinda masculine way, and still dressing femenine sometimes. It would vary according the day and how I felt. Now, i know that how you dress does not determine ur gender identity, but the fact that it always felt right to me when someone "mistakens" me as a boy or anything else and not a girl, even though I do feel and identify as one. I found myself being comfortable and feeling it right to not necessarily be perceived as a girl strictly.
Maybe I'm just a cis girl who is just gender noncomforting when it comes to fashion and that's it. But idk.... The thought of being around 95-98% a girl and 2-5% something else (maybe nonbinary) kinda feels right to me... Like, I'm a girl but there's something beyond of it. A tiny thingy that keeps me away from being 100% a girl.
And i don't mind they/them pronouns, I'm actually starting to use them and see how they feel to me. But a few times I've been referred as they/them in the past and it kinda felt comfortable i believe ?
Maybe I'm just overthinking and I'm 100% a cis girl, who unconsciously her ego makes her want to be "different and special", although i doubt it's the case tbh
Any thoughts?
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scourgeofshadows · 2 years
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Pride Month...what a perfect time for a gender identity crisis. I wish a flag for that exists.
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video-game-luvr · 1 year
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I can't tell if I wanna be a cute mischievous alt twink, or a pretty prim proper princess, or that cool tomboy that has moms in the neighborhood gushing and cooing, like dang.... Identity crisis smh.
If someone pats my head and calls me a good boy or good girl, hell even a good baked bean, I will evaporate in happiness....
I don't even care what gender people think I am at this rate, I don't even know myself.
Uhhhhh uhhhh uhhhh..... Urethra!
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