#get me sobbing every damn time

[r7inyz]

kinda made my own alec + hazel from lonely freddy!!! designs loosely based on the book descriptions (or the ones in the wiki idk) I LOVE THIS STORY HELP

silly doodles I did last night

this story man,,,,

#fazbear frights #i actually really enjoyed reading this story its definitely near the top of my ranking HSHSHDGDKJ #lonely freddy #fnaf #r7inyz scribbles #my art #theres sooo many good faz frights stories #I've actually read lonely freddy twice i love love this story and the damn ending gets me every time #all the stories in Fetch were just CHEFS KISS #in the book it said Hazel has ringlets...but i have zero clue how to draw them 💔💔💔 i can't draw shoes either SOBS #fanart #alec fnaf #hazel fnaf #fazbear frights fanart #fan designs #infinite painter #art #five nights at freddys #digital art #fnaf fanart #fnaf books

[strigital]

Mornings After 🚬☕

#after what tho? #kinky sex? fighting? impossible gig? night on the town? #idk they won't tell #bitches be like: can't stand her fake ass #then 10 mins later they in bed cuddlin': me and bestie 🥰 #just don't ask if they're dating cause I'm pretty sure both are in the late stages of severe denial of the obvious mutual pining #one day... imma be rich enough to buy good alcohol markers like copics or ohuhus #but rn? it's cheap bastards for me only... oh well #i just #i need to get silverv outta my system #every time i think about them i wanna sob #poles u damn bastards let them be happy for like 5 mins plEASE #*holds my blorbos gently* #my art #sketch #gel pen art #marker art #traditional art #cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #cdpr #cd projekt red #johnny silverhand #keeanu reeves #female v #v #jaxine motoko bryce #johnny silverhand's favorite mestsuit #otp #silverv

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[astrxealis]

hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

[frecklystars]

I noticed an error in the Barbie Movie

When Barbie is consoling Ken, we see her hand over his knee while she's talking to him

But in the next frame, it shows her hand on his chest instead. it didn't show her moving her hand, it was just... there suddenly

#before anyone asks YES i was shifting through this scene pausing every second. have you met me. #hurts me when i think about how many takes they must have done. and we only get to see one #im in shambles. greta pls. show me every single take of ken sobbing uncontrollably #love notes #barbie movie #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́- #💕♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡ #i was actually using this scene to answer an ask so i needed to study it #at first. but then i got distracted. replaying this scene 50 times. not studying anymore just enjoying #i will watch the barbie movie and only watch ken's scenes. and somehow it will last 5 hours #the first time i saw this in theaters i thought to myself. when this scene came up. #i thought 'oh. i can't wait for this to stream so i can pause every damn minute of it' #im not me if i dont enjoy a beautiful man crying his eyes out #woof

[hecksupremechips]

The best feeling in the world is when there’s a piece of media you know you love and you’ve hyped it up as your favorite thing for so long but you haven’t revisited it in a while so you start to worry if it’s really as good as you make it out to be and so you go back and revisit it and it’s like. Oh this is even better than I remembered this shit rules

#the klock keeps ticking #i always get this feeling when i play 999 but tonight i got it with the letter #cuz ive uh finally decided to bite the bullet and play the evil meanie route where everyone dies 😟 #a route ive put off for so long cuz its just too damn sad to think about akjdksk god it hurts #and ive played like for the most part every route of this game EXCEPT this one but i know the ending is really dark and i need to see it #plus i will at least get my beloved torture scene in so thats nice #i didnt kill off isabella though its a coma route which i hope still allows me to get the ending i want cuz i mean shell still be out of #commission in the final scene so hopefully it works out #but yeah no i started off tonight on the marianne chapter and while i did skip around through it cuz ive played it many times and i just #wanna get to the important stuff already alskj i also just replayed some of the best parts #aka the shit where lorraine appears and the gay shit alksks and god like hnnnghh not only does this chapter still ruin me emotionally #i also just remembered why i love this character so much and remembered just how good the character writing in this game is #and i also played into the rebecca chapter and didnt skip as much cuz i actually am not as familiar with the coma route #cuz it makes me sad and i never revisited it lol and i havent gotten to The Scene that makes me sob yet #its so coming though dont worry but idk i guess its just been cuz ive been thinking about p3 so much lately #and in particular shinji both the death route and coma route but in particular the coma cuz thats what im writing #and damn lol the letter just writes the grief and nuanced relationships and death stuff so much better lol god #like marianne loses her childhood best friend whom she has a gay ass relationship with to suicide and like its just better #she blames herself and still isnt even kinda okay with it after 13 years #like it just fucking ruined her and the only thing keeping her from losing it is her repression and drinking problem and unattached sex #and then with coma route well fucking first off isabellas friends actually like. visit her frequently damn #and they just all have such unique ways of coping like Zach is being optimistic so no one gets too upset #rebecca is sorta in charge of making sure everything goes smoothly she has to contact the family and make big decisions #and shes also just taking the most stress and shes got so many complicated feelings around isabella going on but she genuinely cannot stand #that isabella is hurt shes fucking destroyed she loves isabella and then ashton AAAAA god yeah i also just remembered that hes SUCH a good #character hes like being a genuine asshole right like Rebecca calls to tell him that isabella is comatose now and he literally doesnt let #her say anything he literally says ‘i dont have time for other things rn’ like the wellness of his friend is just ‘other things’ #but you just know thats not it not at all hes burying himself in work to the point of destruction so he can figure out who did this and make #everything okay and he refuses to show even an ounce of vulnerability cuz THE SECOND HE DOES IT ALL COMES OUT AND HE CANT GET OUT OF BED #ANYMORE CUZ HOW IS HE SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY WHEN THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE IS DYING

[this-doesnt-endd]

I still find it kinda wild that after 1 psych eval they immediently put me on antipsychotics

#i mean it was in the right direction but not the right answer #we good now tho we on the two in one epilepsy mood stabalizers ayye #i will say tho i got put on keppra for my seizures and i cant imagine being on that long term #if i stayed on it any longer than i did i prolly woulda been in the er simply cause i couldnt eat and was near passing out at every moment #but if i didnt have that i woulda been in jail #i was so fucking mad and angry all the time i thankfully was able to keep it in but oh my god #never in my life had i wanted to throw chairs at people SO bad #my mom would ask if i had found a pair of socks and it took all that was in me to not scream and throw my socks across the room #and then i got so so sad oh my god #cause i ended up taking two tweeks off work to get off it and get on a new one and i went up to see my dad #so i was on the train sobbbing my eyes out for no reason #or like a day or two after i got there we drove up into maryland to go to costco it was prolly hour 30 hour 45 #and my dad turned to look at me and my brain decided he did it wrong #i sobbed the entire way home and we had to stop at harbor freight and i cried even more #and he felt so bad and was like we can get dinner u want pizza we'll get pizza if u want and we almost couldnt find the dominos #and it almost made me worse i cried for like a solid 2 hrs and half of it was cause i was so upset abd angry that i was crying #when i didnt want to which made me cry more #god keppra is fucking evil #if it helps you of course ya got the good part but damn id never felt like that on any other med

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[zack-faired]

Im an adult now I can handle Kingdom Hearts 2 prologue

"Looks like my summer Vacation is over"

#Just sobbing on my floor dont mind me #still fucking gets me every damn time #kingdom hearts

[queerbrujas]

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#sobbing about a water bottle we’re doing GREAT tonight folks #silv.txt #it’s not the water bottle. it’s just. the same old bullshit #the same old bullshit that I *had* a cute water bottle with peaches all over it and I just had to leave it behind #like I’ve had to leave behind everything I’ve ever owned #because the moment I start getting comfortable and think maybe I can have some things that are mine #it’s the same fucking bullshit again and I’m so tired so damn tired #so tired of feeling like I have to keep restarting every few years #so tired of feeling like I might be building something and then like a failure because it doesn’t last #I miss all the cute little things I bought for my last apartment #because like an idiot I thought I would be able to keep them #it’s been over two years and im still not over it #I was so happy #I was so damn happy at the start of 2020 #I just want to live somewhere I don’t have to leave. #I want my life to be bigger than what can fit in a suitcase #praying to all the gods that the good news I’m hoping for actually come y through #bc I really don’t think I can make myself go through it again #it feels like there is less and less left of me every time

[foxgirlmoth]

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#Hiw am I supposed to tell someobe that I love in the future that asking what I'm eating will make mw not eat fir a day #Because every time I'm asked that here Ibfeel like a burden #How about if I flinch to being touched unexpectedly? Even though I *crave* to be touched and loved #How do I get to feel loved when So Many Barbs have been implanted in my skin #Just so I can walk in this house with less pain #How can I sleep next to someone when my head is only calmed by a double dose of sleeping medicine or complete exhaustion #How can I be out and in the world when I can't even get past a semester of college without a breakdown #When can I stop climbing this 90° cliff. When does it stop #I can't hardly take care of myself #Who the hell wants that with me? #It's mostly just these damn. Mental blocks. Mental holdbacks #Yeah I can do work. Upkeep a house or whatever. #Care for pets and cook and take csre of myself thst way #But making a living?? In this economy? Fucking can't #Can't do it without my mental health tanking and it taking all my strength to not let it get too low #What am I even doing. Game Design? Art? I won't get mobey that way hahaha #I've heard that so many times from family so it MUST be true #I wanna stop crying. This never feels like me #Not this numb body. Tears stinging my eyes. Head hurts from sobbing depressed lump #I hate capitalism and the fucked up lives we gotta live in jts hellscape #I still so desperately need sleep. Please #ed mention #in the notes. Jic #Ranting again I'm sorry mutuals and friends #I don't thibj I'm okay rn #I just want a year I can sleep eat and play no worries #yknow?

[mushroom-winners-proof]

In light of that ask, someone should make a cowboy/samurai love story

AND THEY WERE LOVERS

#not kh #snap chats #first person to write this i offer to draw every single last goddamn page and i'm not exaggerating in the slightest #ok listen i know offering art aint the best but YALL.... #i love my cowboys and samurais im sobbing #im so gobsmacked every time im reminded there really doesnt exist cowboy x samurai matieral #LIKE. HUH #HOW HAVE WE NOT CAPITALIZED ON SUCH TWO POPULAR CULTURAL ICONS #this is the one time im begging for capitalism to do its thing #cowboy x samurai love story is such a primo concept like...... #i can see it in my minds eye as we speak #no you see i can think of cowboy x samurai love plots all day now this is awful #red sun was the blueprint ok i need a cowboy and a samurai to go on a government mission together #and they hate each other at first but along the way the cowboy realizes the samurai's a super respectable kind of guy #and what starts as admiration for his honor and code and dedication turns into something more #i should just rewatch that movie jesus christ its just this except they dont get together in the end #and tragedy strikes instead and i cry #GOD NO THE ENDING HAD ME SO. GOD I'M SO LAME LMAO #it shouldnt have hit me as hard as it did but damn it sure did... #anyway sorry we HAVE to stop talking about cowboys and samurai and cowboys x samurais #because if we don't i'm ACTUALLY going to combust here and now

[pxrxmoore]

(T_T)

#i just sobbed so hard watching lone star i have a fucking headache #and idk if it just was That sad and im a fuckin sap #which i definitely am so checks out #or if i just needed a really good cry but god damn did i get one #i literally sobbed for 40 mins straight bro #and like the main plot point wasn’t even a surprise bc ive seen how basically every ep plays out on tumblr already lmfaooo #so idek what is up w that but here we are 😌 #anyway #i am so so in love with tarlos they’re everything to me thank u for ur time 😌 #they weren’t even In that episode shxjxksoro #it jsut rly got me so bad idk #i mean it was tarlos Heavy and i mean heavy the ep before and That got me all kinds of fucked up #and ive watched all of season 2 over three nights so like #yeah i prob did need a good cry after all that 😌 #bp

[heliumcake]

HOPPER AND EL AR E SOOO ADORABLE HOLY SHIT THEIR BOND IS BREAKING ME THEY DESERVE THW WORLD

#not me sobbing at 3 am #this damn show gets me every single time #no matter how many times i watch it

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

this brain really is just nonstop goin between the way he'd kiss me, cradling my face in his hands n it's sloppy n messy cause that's how he likes things but it's so damn easy to just forget it doesn't mean a fucking thing

& addict trash like you never changes, I'll see you soon baby

#constant emotional fucking whiplash #i don't. i don't understand. i can't wrap my head around the way i'm supposed to feel about him even though i know which parts are fake #but i don't understand how he can fake it so well #how can he be so sweet n gentle sometimes just to.....get under my skin so he can hurt me even worse #n i my brain just won't connect em as the same person so when i miss him i can't remember what he's really like #i just. i just want him to hold me. to tell me everythin's gonna be ok n he's gonna take care of me now. #i just wanna go home. #every goddamn cell in my body is screaming to go back where i'm supposed to be where i belong #even when i know the price would be. too damn high. #i feel like emotionally i'm already sittin behind his door clawing to be let back in sobbing n apologizing #i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry #i'm sorry i left i'm sorry i thought i didn't need you anymore #it's not worth it it's never worth it but. it's so fucking hard to resist #i'm so scared he's gonna contact me cause if he tells me to come back i. i won't be able to resist. #i won't even have the time to think of disobeying before i'm already there sat at his feet like a well trained puppy #i really really don't know if i can do this #spdrvent