#getting nothing done

[brokenmusicboxwolfe]

Ok, I really am bad at this “do nothing physical” thing. I’m also, it turns out, horrible at “getting my brain to focus” thing.

Look, I used to be great at this. I went to school and spent hours sitting without fidgeting…HOURS! I’d focus on things so intently I’d lose time. I’d happily sit around reading books in a day. Just thinking was actually my favorite thing in the world.

Not all the time, of course. Yeah I’d be up and about helping Pop in the shop, playing outside, or whatever. I’d spend some of my time mentally rapidly shifting gears and using muscles as the family brute force…

Now I get antsy in five minutes. I read a page in a book and feel done. I can’t stand sitting half an hour. I can’t focus on even things I need to. Needing to research something gets soooo hard when brain just oozes off sideways every time I try. I get twitchy. I can’t stand stillness or silence.

My brain is permanently adrift, unable to think or daydream at it darts about like a hyperactive hummingbird.

Worst of all, if I REALLY try to work on research, planning, computer maintenance, paperwork, etc I find that even when succeed I end up feeling all guilty, lazy, and dissatisfied. I can’t think “good job” because it feels like I did nothing!

Gah, no wonder my ankle is wrecked. I actually DO have a ton of indoor, sedentary tasks needing doing that would have given the wound a break, but outdoor, physical tasks call to me like a siren song. So off I kept going, shoving through the agony, to answer the call.

I’m idiot! I just don’t know how I got to be this kind of idiot….

#my day #busy #activity #lazy #doing things #unfocused #I feel so damn guilty #getting nothing done

[jeddara-of-jasoom]

Also I see the lost ones, the ones who weren't able to make it, the kids who are never rescued from slavery, the animals who were abused and never escaped....

Perhaps that's why I gravitate toward the people in Ukraine who went thru filtration camps, from the beginning I was trying to find them in the far east of russia, I thought they were in concentration camps but it turned out they were "just" trapped in the enemy land, they were found... but there were other people lost completely, who didn't pass filtration, in even worse state, so I turned my attention to them, trying to find them, I look on vk and telegram, I'm too sensitive for some of those pics, I don't find out much, they are disappeared and russians won't post much about them anyway, even if I were experienced in searching i couldn't find them, but I'm still trying to look (getting diverted but just other things about the war, related things of the subject) , I also look at political prisoners in Crimea and russia, I don't want them to be forgotten, I don't forget them, I don't forget the ones who are totally lost and perhaps tortured, perhaps killed... may never come back.

I don't want to forget them, at least we should know, but really what's the point in knowing if you can't do anything?

If I could actually find some new info that might help... at least for ppl to know them, not totally lost so no one knows where they are, perhaps some way to exchange, put pressure-- if we see what's happening in the worst places, and don't look away! Maybe something can be done .... start with outrage--

I think that many care, in a way, but they want to live their lives, nothing too unpleasant, I just wish that sometimes they would allow themselves to see the lost ones. Maybe something could be done if more band together in outrage. At least to see and remember-- then the lost ones are not totally lost and disappeared.

#lost ones #but someone lost cant find anyone #someone who cant even be a person in regular circumstances.... #of course i cant make anything better #crying all day #getting nothing done #cant even help myself!!!!! #if i had money i could do more! #incaoable #so i should just forget #live the less than mediocre life i detest while wanting to be in something MORE than normal #but i wont forget... #idk if i can now #wha t do i do

[bookshelfdreams]

yk when you see someone share a finished handmade item that they clearly spent a lot of time and money on and it's just. The absolute tackiest thing you have seen in your life. And then you ask yourself why someone would waste all those resources on such an eyesore.

(no, of course you can't relate to that because you're a much nicer person than me)

In any case.

BEHOLD!

A wool coat!

The top fabric is handwoven and handspun, the whole thing is sewn by hand, too.

Leftovers. Barely anything, all things considered, which is very satisfying.

This thing took me well over 3 years to make, on and off. And now I'm done.

Thank you for your attention.

#carry on XD #i hope y'all realize that when I say tacky it's with nothing but love in my heart #yes it's ugly. that's the whole point. #everyone should have an item in their wardrobe that will get Looks and raised eyebrows #it's good for you #anyway can't believe I'm done! this is a huge boost to my crafting hubris I CAN DO ANYTHING #wizard bathrobe adventures #handweaving #handspinning #hand sewing #look what i made #crafts #overall I'm happy with it even though there's. things that aren't ideal #the pockets are set a bit too low #and i should have made it a tiny bit longer not much but maybe like 5cm #anyway #overall it's a nice coat i think #Now That's What I Call Slow Fashion

[zillychu]

me? redrawing my old shit?? its more likely than u think

#danny phantom #he deserves to get hurt by more non-ecto related weapons I think (lovingly) #and dole out punishment on non-ecto related bad guys #who chose the one singular wrong high schooler in the entire world to shoot #maybe reveals his identity in order to save his classmates who have done nothing but bully him for years. yknow #I just think it would be neat :) #a silly goofy fun time :) #zilly art

[dudethatsmyundeaduncle]

Had this Headcannon that when Multi-Lingual Dick and Jason get drunk they start singing Ballads in Spanish. Yeah some classical shit like Vicente Fernandez but also the most wild Selena you've ever heard.

#is this a post about Latinx Jason todd? Bitch it might be #Don't ask me about it tho cuz I'll deny it to my core #I imagine jason drunk off his ass belting No Me Queda Mas like he fuckin wrote the song #Dick's got Como la Flor Energy but he has ugly Sobbed NMQS too #they are so infamous for their drunk spanish ballads that they actually rub off on TIm #imagine young justice suprise when the whitest kid you've ever seen wasted on 7/11 liquor is hiccuping his way through a selena song #worst accent you've ever heard sounds like a dog from New Jersey learning to bark and yet the emotion is kinda on point #TIm denies it #refuses to believe he has ever done it #Dick and Jason get a copy of the video and someone edits a mash up of all three of them warble singing that banger #anyway this was a nothing post of nothing I made for myself #fr just for me #DC #Batman #Batfam #Jason todd #Tim drake #Dick Grayson

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bare skin, bare feelings.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #blood #Imagine coming off as homophobic to your crush so bad he weaponizes a strip tease against you. #LWJ is just having a storm of bad emotions. His tummy hurt real bad and he was just trying to be brave about it! #WWX is just trying to be a good bro and heal his friendcrush. It worked but not for the reasons he thinks it did. #LWJ's shyness is also hilarious here considering they have bathed together before. Literally nothing there he hasn't seen before. #Granted it was a few years back and before he was left to stew in his feelings. #LWJ is more focused on his pride than being responsible and reasonable (getting is wounds treated). #His arc really is about accepting that he can't be perfect. That there is importance in being honest and vulnerable. #The tragedy is that he realizes this way too late. #Pride is the worst sin because it destroys your ability to protect anything other than the smallest crown in the world. #When everyone is gone and you are left alone - was it worth it to feel safe and protected from showing your flaws? #Control over oneself is in conflict with connection to others. You cannot pick both. #Hanguang-jun appears to us as a 'perfect guy' but the truth is that he is the version of LWJ who is done with *needing* that validation. #And this time - He can properly reach out to those he wants to be close with.

[cozylittleartblog]

cringe is dead because rouxls is carrying the weight of it all madoka style

#deltarune #rouxls kaard #swatch #queen #kris #ralsei #art #doodles #comic #i had to scribble something silly or i would lose my mind #''have u ever drawn pirate rouxls'' there u go now i have ur welcome #was going to draw him on the duck but it did not fit in frame #i can fit a lot of serious headcanons and angst into a character that has LITERALLY done nothing but make a complete ASS of himself- #-every time he's on screen. idk how he can possibly get worse but i can't wait to find out #i wanna throw him into walls like a sticky hand repeatedly #anyway did u guys know its hedy lamarr's birthday today??? happy birthday girlboss xoxo #EDIT HAHA SORRY THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO POST AT 11AM BUT I SCHEDULED IT FOR 11PM #WHOOPS

[normalbirb]

Having adhd is like being stuck in rooms with no exits and then told by neurotypicals i should have just done like them and walked through a door

#im just a bit frustrated today #there were things i wanted to get done today but instead ive just been sitting in my chair waiting for my brain to allow me to do SOMETHING #like literally ive just been sitting #nothing else #stuck in my head trying to at least do smth i enjoy #like i wanna draw #but nooooooo my brain had to load for 2hours before i could do even that #adhd #neurodivergent

[abyssalcryptid]

Why Rolan isn't recruitable

#nothing gets done at camp bc theyre both yapping #this is may be the silliest thing ive ever made #it came to me in a vision #i had no choice but to make it but im choosing to subject other people to this #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #rolan #bg3 rolan #abyssalcryptidart #i dont even know if theres a ship name or if i even ship them dont look at me

[toxiccaves]

I think what a lot of tumblr-only people are missing about twitter failing, is that it was always a better website when it came to small businesses, instant world event news, fact checking, having users from all over the world, being a source for disaster relief information or warnings, and anything else to keep people up to date with going ons.

Sure, tumblr has many users from all over, but the website is still largely english biased and not nearly as widespread as twitter. I know a lot of news and knowledge comes in on here too. I've learned a lot and see a lot of donation posts in regards to world events, but its nothing like twitter unless you know who to follow. Not to mention, half the news I got here, was days later and from twitter to begin with.

Seeing that being taken away in favor of hate speech and enabling abusers (with the recent potential of getting rid of the block feature over there) and pushing blue user comments to the top (aka elon's weird fans), drowning out anyone else on popular posts, sucks! It sucks for the world and small businesses. because there's really no alternative to it right now.

The site's running rampant with spam and scammers and its becoming more and more unusable by the day. And some people think it's silly to be upset over it or "you shouldn't have all your eggs in one basket" well there only is one basket! This is literally people's livelihoods people seem to be making fun of anytime a change happens that breaks the site and people post all their socials.

And everyone from every country is talking about different websites they're considering, and its splitting up our connection to the world. And surely he knew who this was hurting with every decision.

#idk i see some people being weird about EW TWITTER PEOPLE like well for one they were surely already here too #but you need to understand how small of a community is over here vs twitter essentially being like. world internet hub #people are constantly reminding u of their other socials over there because where are we gonna make our money when its done #starting from scratch sucks. tumblr has been helpful but nothing gets much traction anymore #idk sorry for long post rant but it feels kinda crummy when ppl are downplaying it like this isnt disconnecting friends or communities #or ppls best sources of income

[isjasz]

[Day 25]

Boop >:D (yes s8 bc I miss it too)

I've been doing all these doodles on phone too much send helpf

#desert duo #grian #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft #hermitblr #dddaily4sherin #isdoodles #If I do it earlier I can escape phone... But if I do it earlier I spend 10x more time on the doodles and get nothing done OFJOAJFODJFKNDFM

[ezioauditore-s]

ok but the real tragedy of assassin's creed will always be the spiralling domino effect that underlies the series and that every protagonist is fundamentally just a pawn in a bigger game they'll never see and that they'll never be able to change because they are just a single piece of a puzzle which also means that every single tragedy that had happened to them doesn't matter to the predetermind bigger picture because it always had to happen the trauma was just collateral you can't escape it. altair watched his family die just so he could pass on a key. ezio's watched his family die so he could deliver one message that wasn't even meant for him. kassandra watched centuries rise and pass and empires crumble because she was only needed to pass on the staff to someone else.

#assassin's creed #i get back into assassin's creed #i start having a existential crisis #nothing messed me up more than the entirety of assassin's creed 2 happening because the alien gid people had one short message for desmond #and then they were done with ezio the universe was done with him he wasn't needed anymore he just decided to stick around anyway #or eivor going to that cave in America but refusing to go any further because she KNOWS deep down its just for somebody else

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thank you. I'm sorry.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin guangyao #lan wangij #jin ling #LWJ shifting into fight mode was so damn cool. He is always ready to start throwing hands. #It's in a way that befits someone with a bit more bloodlust that his calm demeanor lets on - but nearly always in defense of someone. #What a great synergy with his personal philosophies! see that he is a Genuinely Noble Guy time and time again! #Is is also way more hilarious and unhinged than most people give him credit for? Also yes. #Nothing and no one ever said he did not or would not rip off JGY's hat mid-fight. I think LWJ needs to snatch more wigs LITERALLY. #Yes I'm delaying the part where I have to address the emotional turmoil of Jin Ling stabbing wwx. It gutted me terribly. #What is worse that realizing that someone you respected has done horrible things #than discovering someone who did horrible things being a kind and trustworthy person? #What is more horrifying that realizing other people are extremely complex and cannot be categorized into black and white? #When people hurt us or our loved ones we very much want to make them out to be irredeemable monsters. But they are not. #It is not actually such a terrible fate to just be a person. To be forgiven and forgive is possible. To change is possible. #This lesson is hard. It is something you have to actively challenge yourself to do. Black and white is the innate path to go down. #And its *why* I love Jin Ling so much. He is the character who fights the longest and hardest to challenge social and personal beliefs #He gets a pass for stabbing wwx for being so deliciously conflicted and tormented by it. #And with wrists THAT limp I can't imagine the wound was particularly deep

[bisexual-cyborg]

eddie munson at the beginning of the school year: oh yeah im gonna corrupt these teens with d&d and rock & roll

Eddie munson by school break: ooOHH FUCK THE CHILDREN ARE CORRUPTING ME I REPEAT THE CHILDREN ARE CORRUPTING ME

#nothing funnier than this guy who’s like 20 cause he got held back 2 years #thinking he’s super metal and gonna turn these kids into rebels #only for them to turn up months later in the middle of a crisis #absolutely chill as fuck #with like 2 of the most popular prissy students in high school #and all of them are like ‘yeah we regularly fight monsters and the government get a grip’ #Eddie just realising that all the stuff he put in his campaigns is nothing compared to what these random kids he took under his wing #have done regularly #still waiting for someone to bring up the fact that Dustin electrocuted that Russian torture doc to death a while ago #eddie munson #stranger things #hellfire club #stranger things 4 #dustin henderson #Mike wheeler #lucas sinclair #max mayfield #bee talks

[critter-of-habit]

She has done nothing wrong, ever, in her life.

#she has done nothing wrong in her life ever #Sylvie #sylvie laufeydottir #Loki #mine #art #MCU Art #this took me like 2 weeks because I couldn't get her face right #still not QUITE there but this is the best of like 6 stubborn attempts #and that is why I couldn't handle colouring properly lol