#gift to myself

[07-induraj]

Countdown

So much to ask

And so much to answer

Millions of speeches given

But still wasn't ever clearly heard

So many truths

And so many lies

Thousands of echoes in mind

And still don't know whats wrong or right

I am somehow half alive

And I am somehow half dead

Hundreds of shattered fake smiles

I looked fine, and kept running undefined

Few days left to be faded

And few days to truly live this life

Ten seconds of that ecstasy, is what I want

To come back to life, which I left behind for a long time

Nothing to do

Or nothing to prove

Zero(th) is from where I began

Its where I am now so its my time to rise

Written by 07-induraj

#new years resolution #christmas #gift to myself #shout out to me #poems #female poets #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #twcpoetry #smittenbypoetry #poetry reruns #poeticstories #art #spilled ink #spilled thoughts

[littlebitoflexii]

Nipple piercing appointment tomorrow!!

Happy Mothers Day to myself ❤️

#long time coming #happy mother's day #gift to myself #pic4pic #big tiddy committee

[jjongslight]

Neeeeeew taaaaaaaatttttttt~

#will take a more appropriate pic when it's done healing #but ajdhajbfhahdhajs I am happyyyyy #tattoos #cancer #astrology #moon #now technically I am only cancer sun but the moon is for what it represents in general and for jjong cause #it also goes with my prev tattoo which is always be with you #sarajinkipersonal #july #2022 #gift to myself #peony cause they are my faves

[jenroses]

Remember back in 2016 when I wrote a Big Bang thing for Merlin and I got randomly paired with @procoffeinating and the art was 100% amazeballs?

Well, after spending a couple months writing 180k worth of story for Pocketful of Soul, a CQL-based, Mo Xuanyu-centric time travel story, I decided to reward myself by commissioning art. There are three pieces, this is the first.

This is from Chapter 3, and depicts Mo Xuanyu holding a hand out to Jiang Yanli's ghost, while Wen Qing looks on. They're surrounded by the spirits of the Wen Remnants. They are in a field near Nightless City and you can see the Fire Palace in the background.

Jiang Yanli has one hand full of pieces of Wei Wuxian's shattered, scattered soul.

I am absolutely enchanted by the depiction of Mo Xuanyu, wearing WWX's robe that is a little too big, a little baggy, a little tattered, his face softer, a little rounder in the cheeks and chin, but still closely resembling WWX. It was possibly the most challenging part of the assignment, to make him look different but not-too-different. This is forever what my mental image of him will be.

Anyway, Procoffeinating, as always, understood the assignment absolutely perfectly.

Because this work was for Fandom Trumps Hate, and I not only wanted Procoffeinating's specifically amazing art, but I wanted to use this to help directly support several artists related to causes dear to my heart, I'm asking that if you like this or other of Procoffeinating's work, and you are able, that you go offer some kofi love. If you do, let me know via DM here or on Twitter how much you gave, and I'll match that with some more art for the story. Even tiny donations will get something from me, I have a very long list of places small art could be added. (I did pay for this piece, more than asked, but it deserves more, and I'm willing to put my own effort toward that. Mostly I want to see lots of people tell J how amazing the art is.)

From J's Twitter:

j/queer/ broke fanartist and cat owner, https://ko-fi.com/procoffeinating

I hit an alt text limit, for those who are using screen readers, in addition to everything mentioned in the alt text, over this misty, moody image, on the left side, is a hazy lighter panel (it only covers someone in a dark robe seen from the waist down, it was a requested title space). And over that panel is the title, Pocketful of Soul in a font that seeps black curling tendrils like resentful energy, limned in red. Under it, in a less curly but still decorative font (think rapid brush strokes, almost cursive, kind of pointy, with long downward strokes but minimal ornamentation) in a drop-shadowed black, it says "by Jenrose, art by Procoffeinating."

I highly recommend trawling through @procoffeinating's Tumblr for amazing art in many fandoms. Just keep going, there's Merlin and Good Omens in there, among other things. Twitter has some newer stuff.

Please reblog, do not repost. Posted with permission. The graphic design elements are mine, the art is 100% Procoffeinating's.

The next image from Procoffeinating will be up in about a month, give or take, and will knock your goddamn socks off. It involves culturally accurate babywearing but also absolutely perfect character drawings. Y'all, I cried. (I have the final version in hand but it's for Part 5, and like, 20 chapters from what I've already posted.)

#mdzs fanart #cql fanart #PocketfulOfSoul #commissioned art for fanfic #pay artists #gift to myself #gift to the fandom #fandom trumps hate

[heedra]

unsung benefit i think a lot of ppl are sleeping on with using the public library is that i think its a great replacement for the dopamine hit some ppl get from online shopping. it kind of fills that niche of reserving something that you then get to anticipate the arrival of and enjoy when it arrives, but without like, the waste and the money.

#im not much of an online shopper myself but i do find that the feeling i get from browsing the library catalogue to place holds #is the same i get from figuring out how to spend a gift card

[mearyvet]

So...✨💕

There are 5 weeks and 6 days left before my final exam - the Unified State Qualification Exam. I will not hide ...

I'm in shock and terrified 😅)))

But I do my best, preparing both knowlegely and morally.

And today I finally received this lil package.))🤩😲

What's in it?)🤔

We will find out on 9.05 - after the exam. That's what I promised myself. Of course, I know what's in it - my personal symbolic gift to myself👀❤️

But I won't unpack it and show it to you and enjoy the contents😉 until the deadline.

So there you go;😶‍🌫️🍀

....

I might be posting sometimes with photos of this box so you'd know I'm not cheating🤓😘

#present #gift to myself #surprise gift #final exam #daily chat #nova poshta #time challenge #university #stay tooned

[swimmingupwardstowardsthesun]

So I've surely decided set myself a bit of a mission and blog it. I've been working on the workbook for "a course in miracles" for just over two months now. What this is, is a magnificent contemporary spiritual text generally considered channeled from Jesus through Helen Schucman, which incorporates elements of the Western spiritual tradition, the Eastern spiritual tradition, and potentially occult psychotherapy. Words are but symbols, and it is reputed to hold very significant positive transformational power. I have decided to blog about how this path with the course, which is meant to take 365 days, ultimately affects my journey and life with chronic severe alcohol addiction.

Today I was working and reflecting on Lesson 67, "Love created me like Itself." You are requested to reflect on all of the qualities of God and your liberated soul that are behind the barriers you have built against love. All the qualities you can envisage as beautiful and divine. It made me think back. I had a rare spiritual experience two years ago following meditation where I felt myself to embody love and freedom, as if experiencing myself as the embodiment of the essence of the most beautiful thing I had ever experienced.

I thought back to then, and the rare qualities of discipline and self-worth that radiated in me for past 7 weeks afterwards. (Straight after came some psychotic depression, but, hills and valleys.) I thought about how that felt, and about some of (unusual to me) mental attributes I had experienced around that time. I felt extremely empowered, like I had found true self-value. Everything I did felt like a gift to myself, and had a quality of effortlessness and willingness. I sought inside myself now for guidance for what gift I could bring to myself from that mindset today. The answer came as mindful walking along the front, outside in the sunshine, where I intentionally felt everything that came up and accepted myself as I was.

This is normally the opposite of what would occur to me as a "meaningful gift". I am typically really quite a shut-down and somewhat inactive person. But I gave myself that present, took in the sunshine with total acceptance for my experience and held off starting drinking until later in the day. The sense of intentionality and acceptance gave the walk purpose and focus. I did not feel bad at all and some insights flowed.

In addition to facing my own experience in meaningful bursts, I have also been trying to ask my HS for positive ways to view my experience. Today I received the frame that my life was a challenge, that I am a being that takes on challenges, however I may feel myself to be in uncontrolled waters. So much better feeling than the sense that my own will is somehow erased and that I am powerless and depleted.

I hope somebody somewhere can relate, taking perspective to view the shape of life objectively. 🙏🏻 Meanwhile the course in miracles has its ups and downs for the human experiencing, and we all have our perceptual struggles. Such is life. 🌞

#mindset #a course in miracles #acim #addiction #spiritual experience #elevation #empowerment #self worth #love created me #intentional #mindfulness #mindful walking #gift to myself #self care #reframe #higher self #beauty #freedom #challenge #mission #personal growth #revelation #personal development #recovery #hope #journey #development #swimmingupwardstowardsthesun #what stands in the way becomes the way #marcus aurelius

[quibbs]

i'm a little late for 4/13 but i still HAD to pay my yearly respect to my roots

#terezi pyrope #homestuck #my art #terezi #posting homestuck as a little birthday gift to myself today

[theelvishfiddler]

Here There Be: Chapter 1

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It's here! The beginning of the fancomic that I've been making for a few months now. I started planning this thing almost a year ago, and I am so excited to finally be sharing it. I'll make a proper dedicated side-blog for it later.

Next couple pages drop in a week :)

#♪ - [teenage mutant ninja turtles! *guitar riff*] #tmnt fancomic #comics #HTB - tmnt - fancomic #rottmnt #tmnt #i'm not going to tag the other series until they actually show up #happy birthday to me. posting this as a little gift to myself :)

[draftdodgeraziraphale]

okay i've just been really curious about this for a while so i wanted to make a poll about it

#i went to a babysitter's house until i was in middle school #so i can't count myself as a latchkey kid #but my middle school years being the only person in the house from the hours of 3-6 was such a gift to me. personally

[lovedeltaa]

also two 24 comms guhhh?

@fisheyezzz ; @vilegato

#splatoon #agent 24 #agent 3 #agent 8 #drawing my favorite yuri for money that's wild...... it's like a gift to myself #luc comms #luc arte

[peaceandlove26]

yet another redesign of my ponysona

#it��s my birthday! this is my birthday gift to myself #along with possibly a slight fursona design update later today #mlp #my little pony #ponysona #i wish i’d made her eyeshadow and ribbons pink. whatever theyll be pink next time

[sea-buns]

SO insane that Sam has seen AND liked this... I'm so cozy in my little tumblr corner that I forget my words can escape containment and be perceived beyond Aabria Iyengar

#aabria interacting with my posts are precious gifts that i hold close to my heart #but also she walks amongst us down here #i could not begin to fathom the depths of horrors that she has witnessed #but SAM. thats wild. #also hilarious given the post. man is stressing HARD lmao #every once in a while i scroll through the meme accs on insta cuz yall are what got me to get back on tumblr #so i like to see how things are going. its always a good time #criticalrolememes <3 #critical role #sam riegel #the sam riegal tag was made to make me doubt myself every goddamn time #sea rambles

[evisylvain]

#protect your energy #arbonne #tea #rainymood #rainy night #quiet #loneliest #read more #the subtle art of not giving a f*ck #alone #clove and honey #tired #selfcare #gift to myself #cozy #blanket

[pkaykim]

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #tav #astarion #im thinking about them all th etime.. drew this as a gift for myself #because i need to be working on my 1 week film.. lol... #they r both learning how to enjoy physical intimacy... comfort & safety... etc etc

[tierras]

The first compilation by Yearning - available on limited edition CD-R. 14 original tracks featuring each artist's sonic depiction of beauty.

Made with love in Chicago 2023.

Yearning eternally.

#gonna buy myself this as one of my bday gifts :)