#glad i didn't need to be!

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[egophiliac]

lostinthebookwithstitch.jpg

this is all I can muster right now, too busy having my brain absolutely melted by the September schedule, what is happening

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #lost in the book with stitch #so if i understand this correctly the next episode 7 bit is dropping in like a WEEK?! #and this is just going to be happening during the extra stitch pickup?! #i thought it was weird that they were doing such a long post-event pickup I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS #and they just snuck that little announcement in there before the absolute madness of OH YEAH AND NON-NRC GUYS CAN HAVE CARDS TOO NOW #the POSSIBILITIES this opens up #i did not think i would be so glad not to get a new episode 7 card but i need these keys for my second chance at masquerade malleus #and this is before we even know anything about the new halloween event except for johnny honestman and gidenyan #or the details on the platinum birthday cards #twst please you CAN'T do this to me #by which i mean yes please keep doing this i am loving every second of it

[hiems-incaelo]

people saying that they enjoyed Nimona until the kissing scene, that it "made it gay" and that it "pushed the agenda" as if the movie wasn't queer from the START.

five minutes in, ambrosius told ballister he loved him. an hour in, he said it again! nearly every interaction they had was so blatantly romantic, I truly don't understand the people who think that the final kissing scene "made it canon", because to me, it was obvious in their very first scene.

ballister saying that nimona is his friend, and ambrosius responding "aren't I more than that?" ballister insisting throughout the movie that ambrosius will listen to him and be on his side, saying "you shouldn't NEED proof, you know i'm not a murderer." not to mention the fact that it's been canon since the comic came out.

I can't take anyone who says that final scene "made it gay" serious, because they obviously didn't watch the rest of the movie. and I find that quite sad, because they're missing out on a fantastic storyline.

#tbh i didn't even think we needed a kissing scene bc the rest of their arc stated everything so well. am glad we got one though #i've been having thoughts ever since seeing comments like i mentioned and i needed to get them out. hope this came across the way i intente #nimona #nimona netflix #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister boldheart #ballister x ambrosius #nd stevenson

[positivelyadhd]

reminder that making time for your friends, even when you're tried and socialising feels overwhelming is important to do every so often. it's especially important to do this actually.

time alone can be good, for a time, but humans are social creatures and we need to talk to people, there's nothing wrong with that!!

sometimes the more time you spend alone the more your brain will tell you to stay alone. that's not true, you're allowed to (and should!!) see people that are important to you. sometimes that alone can be surprisingly healing.

#hello again!! #ive been in a bit of a SLUMP and started isolating myself but i just visited a friend and saw a show they worked on #and then stopped at a cute little coffee shop on the way home and seeing people being kind to each other and my best friend #was exactly what i needed!! truth be told i secretly hoped this trip would get cancelled somehow but im so so glad it didn't! #feeling very much in love with the world again <333 #reminders #social anxiety #love letters to you

[royalarchivist]

It's been six months since Forever called Phil "Philza senpai" and got a (virtual) kiss.

#Philza #ForeverPlayerG #Forever Player #QSMP #Sugarduo #Forever #Phil #I'm not interested in sugarduo as a ship (one sided sugarduo is very funny to me though) #But their IRL and in-game friendship means the frickin WORLD to me dude #Forever was the first Brazilian streamer I got attached to and mannnn #it went from 0 to 100 in SECONDS #I'll be honest the first thing that got me was the day after the Brazilians arrived #when Phil was talking to Chat and telling us Forever messaged him after the event and asked him if he was ok with the flirting #since he didn't want to make Phil uncomfortable #and I was like ''Oh. Forever is a sweetheart.'' #And then the thing that REALLY got me was when Forever talked to Chayanne and Tallulah privately #and he asked them if they / Phil needed help with their Egg tasks #(At the time their schedules weren't matching up with Phil's stream schedule so it was hard to get all their tasks done during the week) #and then Chayanne threatened Forever saying he'd kill Forever if he ever did anything weird to their family #and Forever smiled in a very fond ''that's good; this is a good kid; I'm glad he's standing up for his family'' way #And I was like ''Oh he's REALLY a sweetheart'' #His reaction after Tallulah + Bobby's death was hook line and sinker for me too #I could go on and on about Forever. I care about him so much. Sweet guy who loves too much #Anyways #Q

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yet another little Treat for myself! do i have a problem? maybe!

#got two lil jars As You All Can See to transfer the hearts into #and then i caved and got myself some snowflakes because i need some stress relief tonight!!! #sprinkle hours sprinkle hours- #photos from the bog #soon i will have Four little sprinkle jars on my shelf! #ohhhh and letti has discovered their refilled scratching circle... #im so glad i was able to go into town and get her a new collar PLUS! scratchy wheel #UPDATE! SHE IS LAYING ON IT! THE QUEEN APPROVES! #actually allow me to gush about her she's such a polite little beast #i had to put her new collar on #and she 1) came when called 2) jumped onto the stool and sat when asked 3) stayed perfectly and Patiently! still as i put the collar on #AND adjusted it! #she didn't complain or squirm one bit! #she let it happen and when i let go she stayed put and politely waited for a treat (or two! we indulge here!) #she looks so fancy... #i still dont know what happened to her other collar! the pendant was so nice! #now she has a shitty fish one </3 #but her collar is a lovely blue with gold sun/moons on it #i thought it would compliment her lovely white & caramel fur! i was Correct!

[achillean-knight]

Summer of 87'

#I have two more drawings I want to do before I get back to doing comics GAH #now THIS TOOK ME LIKE 3 TO 4 DAYS #I'm pretty happy with it and kinda glad I didn't give up where I was originally going to bc otherwise it'd like look.... #20000 times worse LMAO #nevertheless yea loads of contemplation and kinda gave up on the background (wtf does utah look like) #but very decently happy :'> #my fnaf au art #my art #fnaf #fnaf au #five nights at freddy's au #five nights at freddy's #jeremy fitzgerald #michael afton #these two are living in my head rn i need to draw their refs to actually draw them more

[crystal-verse]

god i want. an au where it dosn't work. where it's just arr g'raha who's woken up, and he doesn't have all these memories and all these people keep looking at him like they're mourning someone. the world has changed and time has changed and all the people he knows have changed, but he hasn't changed, he was just sleeping, just sleeping, and the world nearly ended several times and apparently he helped prevent yet another end but he has no memory of this. they want him to join the scions. he does not know these people. (he barely knows the warrior of light, now, but did he ever truly know them in the first place?) his little sister is alive and well. she looks at him like a ghost. she's changed, and she's older than him now. he acts bratty and loud and brash to cover up the fact that he does not know anything it seems, and he is tired but he was sleeping for so long, so how could he be tired?

he doesn't know these people. they seem to know him. he wonders if he'd killed someone, when it was him and not that exarch who woke up. he wonders if it should have been him who was "killed" in that way, if it is him that lives and not that man who had known and become friends with all these figures from legend. he wonders if he'll always be fated to be a historian one step back from everything, because he simply cannot be a hero.

#bound with thread | original posts #letters in verse | talking #g'raha tia #crystal exarch #hello everyone i am being Incredibly Normal about g'raha tia at -checks time- 12:02 am #you ever think about the fact that arr g'raha is basically killed/replaced when the exarch wakes up in 5.3. because i do. a lot #hi i have brainworms over this man he's SO tragic and i need to hold him gently in my hands like how you cradle a small trembling kitten #genuinely happy about his character growth and progression and happy ending and all but arr g'raha was the one who grabbed my focus #and i do miss a lot of that character sometimes yknow? post-shb g'raha isn't the same person as arr g'raha and that's intentional‚ i think‚ #because he has gone through so much that we didn't see. so much trauma and pain because of the 8th umbral era and that loss he got hit with #and he's not the same person because he's *had* to change so much to keep himself and his people alive and i'm glad he's getting to #experience life to the fullest in endwalker onwards but just. i miss arr g'raha yknow #honestly the silliest thing about it is i miss his student of baldesion tattoo. was a fun little design element you know. #show us the tattoo again squeenix. give him back his red eyeshadow that he had. #give him his bow back i am begging #this has been: incomprehensible ramblings from simon at 12 at night

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

I'm obsessed with this deleted scene, I see people mischaracterizing Daryl as stupid all the time. Man's always been smart. They shoulda kept this scene in because some of y'all needed that spelled out 💀

#dude figured out Shane killed Otis before anybody else did without even talking to him #''came back with the dead guy's gun'' damn bitch. observant. #he book-learned sign language #also why was the 'get a dictionary' kinda zesty- #the walking dead #daryl dixon #twd #blood #I mean I am glad they didn't keep this scene though because aint no WAY Rick The Literal Police Officer would need that pointed out

[finncakes]

"I'd be up shit's creek by myself. I was by myself. It's not great."

"Yeah. No, it's not."

#critical role #orym of the air ashari #orym #ashton greymoore #cr spoilers #ashrym #biting and gnawing my leg off i WILL be thinking abt this for the next month #and YEs i do think ashton has some sorta something feelings going on for orym. no i will not elaborate i just know these things #it's my autism enhanced perception. i know what ashton is. #on a non-ashrym related note: SO glad someone FINALLY checked on orym #also glad i wasn't reading into things thinking ashton was noticing orym being off. he made some Faces that i hoped meant they noticed. #orym needed someone to say this to him. he needs someone to keep him grounded. #as much as i love fearne and orym and i DO think she's helped him for the better...fearne is not a very grounding person #but that's what's good about her #i think ashton could be a very good gronded person for orym. platonically or romantically. #as much as ashton likes to toot their horn abt being unstable and wild and chaotic... #they're probably the most level-headed and grounded after orym #they're more likely to pick the more chaotic choice but they do it in such a calm and chill way y'know? #i have a lot of ashton thoughts. i think he's so wrong to have raised his hand esp after fcg's freakout. #he didn't raise a hand against them #okAY I WILL. stfu now byeeeee

[khaopybara]

KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as PRETTY PRINCESS RAY

#only friends #ofts #ray pakorn #khaotung thanawat #i followed instructions and made images that move i'm so proud of myself #i'm sure someone might have gifed this before but i didn't have it my blog and i just needed it #pretty ray going down the stairs of his mansion has been living free in my brain since ep 10 #and it apparently works i'm glad #:: mygifs! #th: only friends

[macksarts]

Howdy, Houndy. Gonna get rowdy!

#fusehound #bloodhound apex legends #digital art #illustrations #fuse apex legends #fuse #walter fitzoy #macksarts #I made this for the 3rd Apex Anniversary Zine and you can download it free on my if you go to my carrd links. #it will bring you to the twitter post i think #anyway i loved making this and i'm so glad fusehound is cannon lol #it didn't need to be canon for me to enjoy the ship but i'm so happy for them #prints for these will be up on my inprnt and redbubble soon #apex legends #apex fanart #apex legends fanart

[wandavisionedits]

—Elizabeth Olsen and Pedro Pascal present at the 95th Academy Awards

#elizabeth olsen #pedro pascal #eolsenedit #elizabethdaily #pedropascaledit #wanda maximoff #the mandolarian #marvelcast #marvelcastedit #academy awards #oscars #this is the crossover #i never knew i needed #i'm so glad #she didn't have to present alone #my lil nervous queen #my edit #WVE edits

[clj-art-blog]

DFQC and XLH | Somewhere on the shore of Cangyan Sea

#We have never seen the shores of the Cangyan Sea (I needed to draw this) #I really love this outfit on her because she looks like a real orchid flower in it #I started this art a looooong time ago and I already wanted to give it up but I'm very glad that I didn't do this😚 #苍兰诀 #love between fairy and devil #cang lan jue #lbfad #dongfang qingcang #xiao lanhua #clj fan art #moon supreme #fan art #art #clj-art-blog #my 25th clj art

[satans-knitwear]

I need to pick out some outfits for the weekend but I don't even know where to start 🤔🎀

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

*adds cat ears* there. Done.

#I am probably going to need your help with this. I'll try posting some options in a bit. I managed to do my makeup tho!! #I feel so desperately alone and depressed so I am very glad I didn't cancel my weekend with the besties #We're meeting up in a cute historic city and just chilling for a night #I very much need that reminder that life is worth it rn #But at the same time I don't wanna go bc my fluffy baby still won't be waiting for me when I get back #I haven't left the house in weeks. It's gonna be rough #satans knitwear #alt pinup #bi girl #uk girl #wlw

[chubs-deuce]

I only recently found out about Dream's End Come True by @mothcpu and it left me emotionally raw like very few pieces of media have managed to do and have been direly wanting to make fanart since

#dect #dream's end come true #ultrakill #ultrakill mirage #mirage ultrakill #dect mirage #fanart #digital fanart #digital art #art #my art #no joke I really needed that comic bc the way v2 just died brutally hurt my soul in a way I didn't even know until reading dect #so so so glad that comic exists like holy fuck #really shifted the way I view both V2 and mirage as characters #in the best of ways #obviously listened to LASTBLINK on loop for the entire 3-ish hours I worked on this