#god i am L IVING

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Comte Election Story, 6th Anniversary Event (JPN 2023)

I managed to get Comte's collection story during the 6th year anniversary event in the JPN version of the game. As usual, my translation skills are rudimentary at best, so this is just a rough/general sense of the contents. Rest of the translation is below the cut:

Sweet and lovely, our everyday life is irreplaceable. After becoming a vampire, I’ve lived with him forever like this. I seek out more and more of the man I love than anyone else--

Comte: Good morning, MC. You’re up very early today.

I went down to the dining room a few hours before dawn--only to find Comte nursing a teacup gracefully at one end of the table.

MC: Good morning. I managed to wake up somehow…how about you?

Comte: Actually, I just got back.

When I asked, he told me that the host of the party started talking to him all night, and they didn’t part ways until after midnight.

Comte: I was going to finish this cup of tea to unwind, and then try to rest til noon.

He runs a hand through his freshly washed hair and brings the cup to his mouth in a series of elegant gestures that makes me fall in love with him all over again. I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve been up all night, but my heart readily starts beating faster.

Even Comte seems to notice my reaction…

Comte: …looking at me like that, are you seducing me?

Comte's eyes narrowed mischievously and he left his cup behind to approach me. A beautiful beast gazed at me as if to take aim at his prey, and he drew me in with supple hands.

MC: I didn’t intend it that way but…it’s true that I'm captivated. Your damp hair and lovely gestures are so sexy that I’m at a loss…

Comte: Saying such a thing…you’re a naughty woman, MC. Even though I tried to quell my ardor with a cold shower and hot tea...I’m glad to hear it, even though I’m far from calm.

When I raised my head--having looked down in bashful embarrassment--I can see burgeoning in Comte’s eyes an indisputable, feverish desire…

MC: Ah, mm…

His soft lips playfully brushed against the nape of my neck.

Comte: No one else would be awake at this hour…though we could be interrupted any moment. Make sure to keep your voice down.

He chuckled a little before a hot sigh caressed my skin, dropping kisses one after another. He circled around the usual place he’d sink his fangs into me, and every brush of his lips made heat gather low in my body…

MC: So impatient…Abel…

Comte: …I’ve been waiting for you to give it to me

The corners of his lips lifted a little, before he buried his fangs into my neck.

MC: Mn, ah…aaaahh…

Comte: I love you so much...and whenever we aren't together, I’m starved of you. We were miles apart all night yesterday. I’ll show you just how much I missed you.

His voice--half-intoxicated with the ecstasy of my blood--was sweet and husky with his desire.

Comte: Before you, I’m always a love-starved beast.

As I gaze into those eyes burning with emotion, an electric sensation tingles down my spine. 

(Ah, I’m just the same. It’s not only my heart, my body is always seeking you out too.)

MC: Me too…all day and night, I’m always thinking about you…

Comte: --Come here. Take as much of me as you want

At his encouragement and incitement, I sink my fangs into him.

MC: ah, ha…

Pleasure washes over me in an endless cascade, every sensation in my body heightened and sharp. I clenched my hands tighter through his wet hair, and dug my fangs into him greedily to devour that wellspring of ecstasy. 

Comte: I'm happy to be able to share love with you like this, as a vampire.

Like drops of water moistening desiccated earth, every crimson drop fills us to the brim--

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp comte #ikevamp mc #comte propaganda #if you can't already tell from the contents of this one--i straight up died after reading it #THE IMPLICATIONS. FOAMING AT THE MOUTH. #the way they're both dancing around it. MC trying to be strong and endure properly (girl same) and. comte. #THE WAY COMTE BASICALLY STARTS SHAKING HIS ASS LIKE ONE OF THOSE BIRDS OF PARADISE. I AM UNWELL (AND ECSTATIC). #THE WAY HE WANTS HER TO WANT HIM AS INTENSELY/DESPERATELY AS HE DOES HER. THE WAY HE RELISHES HER BITING HIM HARD. #IM NEVER GONNA RECOVER FROM THIS ONE #ive legit just been that ace attorney meme with phoenix holding his head in his hands for DAYS #dare i even mention 'make sure to keep your voice down.' SIR. SIR ARE YOU SRS RN #man the way in purple moon event he was like 'oh nooooo haha no hank pank in public where we might get caught that's too inappropriate~ owo #I SEE YOU ABEL. I SEE YOU MONSIEUR LE COMTE DE SAINT GERMAIN. #I SEE THAT U SIT UPON A THRONE OF L I E S #i hope whoever writes comte as unhinged as possible over at jpn cybird gets a god damn raise #i have never in my life been so directly catered to in one chara i swear #'loved-starved beast' ILL DO YOU ONE BETTER COMTE JUST LET ME IN. LET ME IIIIIIIIN!!!!!! #straight up ive said it before and ill say it again #that's my emotional support softcore yan meow meow golden retriever #every event im like 'hope this doesn't awaken anything inside me.' and then immediately its just 'failed step one.' #although all jokes aside i do find it endlessly fascinating about the purebloods how like #while they don't experience as much bloodlust there is this acute sense of biting as a vital expression of romantic interest and/or claim #i dont think its a throwaway line that comte says at the end--id actually argue a lot of his desire for intimacy when she's human (cont.)-> #is because he feels a level of insecurity in his connection to her caused by the lack of shared/reciprocated biting #you know now that has me wondering if that's part of why other purebloods frown so heavily upon the idea of a pureblood/human couple #basically because they can't fulfill the most basic tenet of what it means to be coupled in that community's perception #yeesh ikevamp really went 'welcome to normative vampire politics' and im like 'I Am So Normal About This. (lie + analyzes)'

[hersweetrevenge]

🔪 blood, blood, gallons of the stuff 🫀 [X]

#rohan campbell #corey cunningham #he's so pretty all covered in blood 🫀🫀🫀 #i am literally gnashing my teeth and foaming at the mouth rn #LOOK AT HIM #ive said it once but ill say it again: he is literally the most beautiful handsome heaven sent person ive ever seen in my whole life #and im just meant to go on like nothing has happened !?!?!?!?! #genuinely gods gift to humanity idk what else to tell you 🤷‍♀️ #the fucking look in his eye !?!?!? please im begging you i cannot take much more of this l #this angle will be the death of me. aerial view of his beautiful face ??

[callilouv]

guys how do u hide it when u like somebody cuz i might jsutbe one of th emost unsubtle people ever

#ive been TRYING to play it cool #c c cc cuz theyre always the one making moves but ooHHH MY GOD #I CANT DO THIS ANY LONGER IM ACTUALLY GOING INSANE #I THINK O F THEM AND I S M I L E THIS IS NOT OK #mention his name? i smile. u say smthn that reminds me of them? i grin like a fukcing MANIAC. #what has he done to me this is not who i am im supposed to be rizzless and swagless why why WHY ME

[sl1nkie]

just finished s1 of hannibal and

what the Fuck,, how am i supposed to be NORMAL after this. how am i supposed to move ON ??

what the actual fuck, 😭

#oh look original content #hannibal #also are s2 and 3 just gonna be wil(l)'s prison arc ?? /rh #(do Not tell me anything abt this show btw i am doing a 100% glitchless (spoilerless) run of hannibal 😌) #also i knew that hannigram would be gay ive Seen Gifsets but Oh My God they are capital g Gay huh

[carcarrot]

i did tell you people i met a they might be giant right.

#I DONT THINK I DIDDDDDD like an insane person i left out one of the most bonkers moments of my california vacation #saying it now makes it seem like im making this up and the following story will seem made up but dude just trust me. #im fucking. ok sunday morning the morning of Thee Concert and i (used to waking up at 4-5 am) have been awake on and off since like 6 am #my friend? asleep. #now i enjoy waking up and falling back asleep for a couple of hours however by like 9:30 im starving i need BREAKFAST #like the very nice friend that i am i dont wake my friend up i let him sleep and leave him a message on my open laptop screen #because the fucking hotel room doesnt have a pad of paper?? so i leave my modern post it note of a message #saying that im going out for croissants and coffee #because im an idiot i severely misjudge how hot it's already gotten in los angeles in july #ive chosen to wear jeans (bad idea) and a long sleeve flowy black shirt (worse idea) #i also dont look my Greatest because my friend had been telling me dont wash ur hair before we curl it for the concert!!! #so this is my hair after flying in and everything the day before (It Needs To Be Washed) #im following google maps to the coffee place as i brave the streets of los angeles on a sunday morning #hollywood boulevard around the chinese theatre is insane btw. insane. but being from new york i am unfazed (well. a little fazed) #i am Sweating. its already gotta be 80 degrees. im also reaching critical hunger levels. but i continue on my journey #google maps leads me down a sidestreet and tells me to turn down some alley and im like well thats not right. #so i turn to go back the way i was headed and find another way to get to the coffee place #as i turn and head back up theres a guy going down this same block heading in my direction #i look at him and im like hey that guy kinda looks like oh my god it actually is him. mr john l of tmbg fame #and so i have a split second decision of like do i sayyyyyy something do i just ignore him while geeking out #somehow i decide to be bold and im just like gdjgmm hi excuse me i recognize you uh do you mind if i could get a photo #he was very nice and suggested we move into the shade and i took the photo trying to turn off google maps before i did #and i was like aa im seeing you in concert 2nite love your music thank u! and we went on our way. #i think i kinda like. stopped for a moment before i went on to the cafe and was like. that just happened??????? insane. but it gets better #i do finally get the coffees n croissants btw and get back to the hotel after melting in the heat #and my friend who likes tmbg better was losing his mind once i finally told him #so the following morning after our spars concert insanity we have breakfast at a diner and then head back to our hotel #and he's wearing a tmbg shirt he got and im in a spars shirt and as we're walking back a car horn honks near us #AND ITS BOTH THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS IN A CAR and they say hi and are like we like your shirts! #and my friend and i are like losing it but trying to be cool and like oh thabk you we loved your show hi! so theres my insane story

[lalalychee]

tried something new with this painting! i hope y'all like it!!

#god please like it #my art has been flopping so hard lately l o l #my art #fanart #ghost #ghost bc #the band ghost #papa emeritus #papa emeritus iv #cardinal copia #popia #tobias forge #idk sometimes i think my art flops so bad bc people don't know what i am doing? #it's not photos or photo manipulation or traced y'all #i completely paint my work from scratch :') #you can check out my art process tag if you want to see my time lapses #to see that i just start out with a blankass canvas #idk

[fluxydrawings]

wahoooo 3rd life podfic real. its a  very  pretty  grian  oneshot  by  the  lovely  @cacowhistle go  check  it  out  (or  just  go  read  the  actual  fic  its  my  like  favourite  3rd  life  ever  trust  me  its  good)

#my art #grian #3rd life #3rd life smp #3lsmp #god u dont understnad i had the worst time i nmy fuckin LIFE formatting that text #i could Not for the life of me find a font i thought worked and even now im like. shifty eyes-ing it #akjwerkjw whatever im happy w/ it now LMAO #my refusal ta use more than 5 colours in coverart prevails #ill be entirely transpart a good chunk of the lineart is traced from this one painting (pallas athena by rembrandt) cause im goin more for l #ike Vibes for this one than like. tryna challenge my technical skills akjwerkjw #i Did add the axe/wings n changed the owl on the helmet ta a parrot :) #i dunno man i think it came out cool kawekrkjw #like i said in the post this fic genuinely is like. my top fav 3rd life fic its so good man... pretty prose hits Different yall #also funfact! i am now one of the Two (2) posts in the 3rd life podfic tag kajewkrkjwkj #will i make more? probably! ive got a spreadsheet for my planned fics n theyre all in wildly different fandoms but ill prob circle back roun #d ta this shit eventually #FUNFACT i recorded/editted/posted this Entire podfic last night which is The quickest ive ever made a podfic kudos ta cacowhistle for havin #lanket permission akjwerkjkjew #im on that podfic GRIND #anyway im goin campin tmrrw gotta shleep Enjoy Podfic

[dolls-self-ships]

thinking abt how fast and hard I've fallen for hook is making me kinda emotional ngl

#its just #ive always liked him as a character and thought he was cute but it never really croased my mind to ship with him #but when it did its like something just clicked idk ;-; dont make fun of me i am being vunerable #my whole relationship with him feels like a really slow burn mutual pining fic that when we eventually get together its like #'oh my god!!!! it was you the whole time!!!!' for both of us #bees self ships #fuck off I love him 😭 #self shipping #self ship #f/o gush #captain hook #sometimes I feel kinda guilty tho bc like i have all these other f/os that I hardly pay attention to anymore #ik they arent real but still #I still love all of them! its just weird bc I havent thought abt a fictional character this much since cedric #and i thought abt him a l o t #like #like I had a problem #and now I have another one

[danielnelsen]

whyyyyy is spider ichor considered a valuable rather than a crafting material, i always end up selling it when i need it for requisitions

#dai #da #personal #in other news. after 22 hours i am FINALLY OUT OF THE HINTERLANDS #literally 22 hours. the only places i went outside of the hinterlands were for main quests #F I N A L L Y im out of there. like. it's nice. but god im sick of it #but i did Every Single Quest (except for anything in the dragon area bc i need to do that at level 16 for a trial) #(and the one where you need felandaris because i have no way of getting that yet) #god. time to recruit bull #the issue there is that ive done so much of the main part of the game and companion stuff that im well into dorian's romance #i havent done the amulet quest yet but even so idk if the game will let me romance bull now? #like can i still sleep with dorian and then romance bull? bc that's what i can see hawke (my inq in this playthrough) doing hmmm

[pepprs]

also (this is it i promise) this is why i am so INSANELY excited to have my own room soon. like omg. it is definitely not perfect bc it’s at home and there’s a breaker box in it and you can hear footsteps really loud through the ceiling and also again *it’s at home* when i really need to not be living at home. but the quality of life improvement i am about to have is actually INSANE. i will be able to have a space far away from everyone else where i can sing without bothering anyone and play piano and decorate it (mostly) to my liking and have a desk and draw and paint and do whatever. finally!!!!!!!! that is going to fix me!!!!!

#purrs #i just wish it was permanent or that i had more years to spend in it. like i actually just want to find the place where i will live forever #and just stay there bc oh my GOD am i tired of living in places temporarily. i have so many issues w that bc so many spaces that were #formative for me have been destroyed (e.g. the van 😍😍😍😍 and my grandparents house 😍😍😍😍 and my favorite hs teachers classroom 😍😍😍😍) or are #going to be destroyed (e.g. the office where i work rn 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍) or ive had to leave them and move out bc they’re inherently temporary (e.g. #my on campus room 😍😍😍😍 and my room in brighton 😍😍😍😍😍😍). and ive had attachment issues w space / location : whatever my whole life like i wou #would have huge meltdowns whenever we were transitioning from like elementary school to middle school middle school to high school etc etc.. #so i really just um. would like permanence and stability please. im 24. im done w school for now and maybe forever. i want to find a place w #where i can just like.. stay. so if im paying rent like something that would allow me to renew it indefinitely and not fear bei ng kicked #out randomly or at the end of a determined period. i just want a home lol i want a homeeeee and i want to decorate it with all my things and #never be afraid that i will lose it and get to stay there forever and ever or at least as long as i want. bc my parents already have plans f #for my new room after i move out and i won’t get to decorate it as much as i want bc my mom doesn’t want me to damage the paint. but like if #i have a place of my own then i get to decide a little ding in the paint is worth it to put up my lanterns. you know? idk. the mortifying #ordeal of experiencing freedom like thisfor the first time in my mid-late twenties probably 😍😍😍😍😍😍 but still its gonna be good and i hope it #happens soon and i have to MAKE that happen. so yeah. #wishlist #delete later #ok now im done for real THJS time lol. my mom is gonna be so pissed at me ive barely lifted a finger here. but im enjoying the quiet what ca #can i say!!!!!!!! like OMG ok last thi ng…. like she’s always saying i have to love myself first before i get into a relationship and it’s l #like.. maybe my living conditions do not predispose me to be able to spend time w myself in ways that allow me to love myself!!!!!! #maybe always being on the defense and needing to find quiet spaces all the time and being shamed for that is not a very good way to experien #experience myself in the place im supposed to feel most grounded and comfortable!!! so yeah. #like maybe i stopped doing all the things i loved bc you got alexa and loud speakers and started blasting music all the time and dominating #space and becoming more and more high maintenance… 😳 (and obviously i changed as a person / played a role in it too but again my point / re #realization is… maybe it was in RESPONSE to stimuli that were not good for me and not just bc i suck as a person / am losing myself / etc.) #like theeeee sonic warfare of it all. also my brother is a key player in it too bc he raps and sings at the top of his lungs and it’s like 🤨

[fearforthestorm]

"our lonely blue pebble is to become more lonely still; the universe in which we reside is expanding, and accelerating in its expansion. how lucky we are to be able to observe the billions of other galaxies, to be able to drink in a night sky lit up by billions of stars. the lonely observer that looks out from their lonely pebble a few trillion years from now will see nothing but a blank slate. every other galaxy will have accelerated far away, too far to find even a trace. they will deduce that they are totally alone in the universe. a lost sheep, a solitary cat up a tree, the last biscuit in the tin."

#.lyr #I AM HAVING. SUCH A NORMAL ONE OVER THIS. GOD #this makes the WHOLE SONG hit SO MUCH HARDER #for a moment just contemplate if when looking up you only saw a blank slate. it appears that heaven's been abandoned #GOD. GOD #im fine im normal im fine i am sooooooo so normal rn #idk why this one is getting me NOW ive listened to it for so many hours already #idk. just. god. #the whole story being told in the narration of l@ap is so fucking good #enter shikari #so this is what the volume knob's for

[tiredqueertranarchist]

So my abusive roommates are getting worse

#im loliving in straight up fight or flight like the anxiety shits ive had this morning just seeing them #and i only seen them today bc i had a support worker over otherqise id play dead for 16 hours in a dark room like yesterday #i feel like throwing up constantly and my trwmors are back #my friend is coming over in the evening to be a witness because the roommates #called me to have a mandatory talk which always goes bad for me and i refuse to do it on their terms and vehind l #closed doors again. i am afraid what will happen if i let them do that #i am trying to just get out of here now asap but god is it destroyng me like physically spirutualky emotionally etc.

[applecherry108]

I am CHEWING on the new tears of the kingdom trailer! But at the same time—

Hahahahha yeah that’s a redead. I am crying sobbing in terror already. 🥲

#someone said a bit ago that Zelda sequels are always darker and scarier and my gUY— #I AM 32 AND IVE *STILL* NEVER GOTTEN FARTHER THAN THE FIRST DUNGEON IN MAJORA 🥲🥲🥲 #did I miss puzzle dungeons? yes! did I miss bosses? NO!!!! #IM A WIMP!!! I DONT WANNA FIGHT THAT 3 HEADED DRAGON!!! #I JUST WANT TO EXPLORE SOME CAVES!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also I am L A U G H I N G god I H O P E all the caves are just #under the bogs. pull the plug out of a bog. boom. cave. 😂😂😂😂😂😂 #on the plus side. I’m super excited that he appears to riding epona! I hope she’s obtainable in the base game this time!! #I mean. I have lol the amiibo cards so I can get her anyway but I really hope she’s also in the base game!! #apple talks #to the tune of spam #I was just thinking earlier today that I wanna play botw again but I should wait until March—it won’t take me 3 months to do everything agai #even if I go after every korok lmaoooo #I really wanna know what if any data will carry over from botw to totk

[mythicalartisttm]

ok so. Lost to Legend.

I know i said “unless God wants me to do a big-scale thing with it, I won’t” and that’s still true.

But what I was scared to say was “God doesn’t want me to do anything with it, at least not on that blog.” Maybe He doesn’t even want me do to something with it all. But I cannot keep Lost to Legend alive.

What’s going on is a couple of things. The first one is that, if I were to go back to posting on that little corner of the net, I would become obsessed with what people would have to say about the Links and other characters, and I would become distracted from God in a lot of different ways. Which is not something I want.

The other thing is that it running that blog may (read: will) attract a lot of unwanted attention and create a separate identity from God. I want to first be known as a child of God and anything else can come second. People will come to see “TM, creator of Lost to Legend” before they even hear of “TM, disciple of Jesus Christ,” (if they bother to see the other at all) so it will be better to not stay separate, but instead be both. But “child of God” will come before “artist,” “writer,” “Z/elda a/u crafter,” or anything else.

With all of that being said: Kishin, Isle, Adam, Clam, Div, Light, Brass, and any other faces or concepts that were a part of their adventures have been laid at the foot of the cross.

#and if I may ask for prayer as to what to do with my creative journey - l/oz or otherwise - then I ask for it #losttolegend #when i creates these guys over three years ago now i dove in headfirst without asking God about what He might want #and to be clear. im still a terrible listener #but i want to be better #do I still want to do things with the lads? yes #but ive spiritually matured to the point where i find no happiness in this project as it is now bc it was not God ordained #wait that last part was phrased poorly hang on #God can take even stuff that was not made for Him to turn it into things for Him #He's done it with another one of my projects #but I don't know (or think) that will be the case for any of my l/inks #and as i am now i do not want to take a single step towards ltl's future without Him #so as things stand now... seven men young and old have taken their leave to God's throne #and whether or not He will give them to me again is entirely up to Him #(that was a dramatic towards the end but using grandoise imagery like that does help me with things like this) #tm speaks

[chisatowo]

I just realised that I have 4 stars of every sekai character now.... Poggers

#rat rambles #sekai posting #ena was the last one I needed and I got her so. guess time to pray for more variety with my vocaloid 4 stars since my luck with them sucks #this is abt miku and luka I only have unitless versions of them 😔 #wait I lied I have a l/n luka sorry luka #what I rly need is a 25ji vocaloid specifically 25ji lens initial 4 star its so good best card from that event by a landslide #but ibstead I got mafuyu 😔 real reason why shes the worst character /j #I also need wxs and mmj vocaloids but Im not as desperate for em #I just want sekai to stop giving me vbs vocaloids I have 4 of them at this point I think and 2 of them are meiko #WAIT THIS POST IS A LIE I AM MISSING SOMEONE #FUCKING AN. IM STILL MISSING AN. FUCK YOU AN /j #Im beconing homophobic I hope she dies /j #the fact that shes the one Ive been wanting most since I first started sekai. this is an actual hate crime #god fucking damnit post canceled

[pantestudines]

If a class asks me to write a 20 page paper on a scientific subject, especially one in my field of natural history, it’ll suck and take time, but fuck I can just DO that. Just start writing. All the info’s right there! Find some papers on google scholar, look at some cladograms, cite some dudes from the early 2000s and just restate what they said. All the sources are plain, mostly without bias, and at least pretend like they represent something “objective”. Does x animal have y anatomical feature? Which of these rocks is highest in silica content? Has any correlation been found between these things?

If a class asks me to find ten sources on political issues I care about and how they can be fixed, through the machinations of congress, I think Id rather tear my own jaw off my skull. This is excruciating. 

#writing this instead of writing a paper obviously #100 level american government class has the worst god damn essays ive ever seen #10 sources? sources that say what? #I dont know what i care about... or at least. the things i do care about probably arent going to be fixed by US SENATORS of all people. #let ALONE how to fix that shit #where the fuck am i suppose to get sources on this shit?? random internet articles? i dont know who to trust there #if it was ONE sure. fine. ill figure it out #but FIVE issues?? Man! I just want to grill! #obviously i can think of 5 things that suck ass... but idk if actual politicians care about them or if i agree with their #solutions?? i ont fucking know #i dont like any of these people an i consider all of their solutions to be at least partially bullshit. can i go home #the workings of the american political machine when it comes to 'problems' and 'solutions' is beyond me. #boutta just take the L an loose 10% of my grade man. i dont care #maybe im just stupid idk but id take reading *shudders* morphometrics papers over this shit