#god i need to reread this again

[zarla-s]

More holiday requests! Some Ace Attorney ones this year which are fun, I haven't drawn PW stuff in ages, haha. Some of these are from an Ace Attorney/Frozen crossover that i finished writing years ago and still haven't POSTED IT'S DONE WHY AM I LIKE THIS i just need to sit down and finish editing it one of these days

The last one is from a very disturbing Matt/Juan (well, more like the doomed love square of 2-4 with Adrian/Matt/Juan/Celeste) psychological horrorshow I wrote a long time ago during a pretty dark time in my life, as you can probably guess from the shot, haha. Definitely not for children or the faint of heart.

[patreon]

#ace attorney #pokemon #brain's froze #z art #athena cykes #apollo justice #klavier gavin #kristoph gavin #toxtricity #matt engarde #juan corrida #shoe #i really need to reread the frozen fic and try and get back into that headspace again #it's just been sitting there mocking me for ages #god it's 90k+ i didn't even notice until just now #i was possessed by a demon

[beaulesbian]

i didn't realize he created those glasses out of thin air / his fluffy hair / cloud powers? ✨ it's really cute

*click!!* ✨️✨️

#one piece ch. 1070 #just rereading some chapters again and i noticed this first time but didnt think much about it until now #his mind and creativity!! #luffy #monkey d. luffy #one piece #one piece spoilers #i love him so much #sun god nika #mine #gif:op manga #monkey d luffy #gear 5 #egghead spoilers #egghead arc #im still not over the fact that its luffy who got this power.. and knows no bounds. no limit. bc he can do just what he thinks about #still within some capacity possibly - thats his peak as he knows it - like the energy he needs for it #but the freedom of his mind.. limitless #gum gum dawn rocket - also love how he started naming his new attacks with sun related things! #even without knowing or ever hearing about the nika and sun god stuff

[captaindamianos]

Hi! Can you recommend some good Captive Prince fics? I just finished the series and I loved Laurent so much

Hi anon!! Welcome to the fandom 🤗

I've considered doing a fic rec post for a long time so this is a perfect opportunity for me. Please forgive me for the delay. It was Eurovision week when you sent this and it was (and still is) incredibly distracting for me.

Here are some of my favorites, I'm going to offer a variety of things, because I absolutely love AUs, all variations of them, but I know that's not everyone's cup of tea and immediately after finishing the series people tend to like canon and canon-divergent the most, so I'll try to focus on those:

Canon Divergence:

Ransomed Prince by Turtletotem

I started reading this fic back when I still was in the fandom and I absolutely loved it. When I rejoined in 2021, the last few chapters got posted and I've reread it like 10 times already. Please heed the warnings but I just really enjoy the development of their relationship in this fanfic.

Winged Cupid Painted Blind by Kittendiamore

A lot of scheming from Laurent, which is always a good time in my book. It's been a bit since I've read it, but I always enjoyed it.

No Rush by blacktofade

One of my favorite things are Auguste lives AUs were they meet under different circumstances. This is one of my absolute favorites of those and I've read it again and again.

When the sun is on again by thickenmyblood

I've read this story once and it absolutely destroyed me. I was not okay for a few days haha. It's still one of the most amazing things I've ever read. So I would still recommend it, but be careful.

An Arranged Marriage by Josselin

The slow build of this one, I absolutely love rereading it every few months.

Bright as lightning by blacktofade

Another arranged marriage AU haha. Please trust me on this, this is such a good story.

sanguinary poultice, love charm by Lapin

God this is so good, nothing really to say besides do yourself a favor and read it.

How To Not Court A Veretian Prince by Entity_Sylvir

It's been a while with this one as well but I know it was one of my favorites.

Canon Compliant:

The Consummation by Josselin

I have to admit it's been a while since I've read this one. But I know that I really enjoyed it, and it's a very real depiction on how this could go and how the unification will likely have its hurdles.

Wicked Game by onekingdomonce

An anmesia fic, that I've read at least twice. It's painful, but it's worth it. I can recommend everything by that author that is Damen/Laurent. I've not really read any of the other pairings, because i don't multiship Damen and Laurent.

Alternative Universe:

four sevens and a ten by fahye

I know people tend to recommend Fahye's everything (their ´Lines On Palms' series and their tumblr ficlets (link 1 link 2) in particular). But I've grown up absolutely adoring the Swan princess movie, so this one sticks out to me personally. It's a lot darker than the movie, and it has it's very own narrative and development. But god do I love and recommend it.

The Veretian Flytrap by Just_Another_Day

Technically this feels very very canon divergent to me, but since the whole story is Omegaverse I'm putting it here. I know a lot of people don't enjoy Omegaverse fanfics, which is totally valid. But this fanfiction is one of my favorites in this fandom of all time. The world building, the character development, the culmination of it all. I adore it, I reread it every few months and I can't recommend it enough.

A Touch of Heavenly Light by forthelongesttime

I would recommend reading everything by this author. I am absolutely in love with their writing. I like how realistic they write and how they don't shy away from facing ugly things as well. This story in particular is dark and I urge you to check the warnings. It's not for everyone, which is why I recommend checking out their entire list of fics. But if the warnings don't scare you, please check it out!

Alternative Universe - Modern:

between the motion and the act by fahye

And to be contrary once more, I'm also recommending another one of fahye's AUs haha. I really liked this show, and I think it's an amazing fit for a modern AU for Damen & Laurent. Fahye just has an absolute talent for putting them into alternate universes and make them believable to me.

Fear not the thorns by relenafanel

Back then written by one of my favorite Stucky writers, I still absolutely adored it when I reread it in 2021. I definetely recommend checking it out if modern AUs are your thing.

A few authors I'd like to recommend in general:

idratherhaveyou (lots of different AUs, all of them a pleasure to read)

PenguinMerchant (again a lot of different AUs and settings. The worldbuilding is immaculate and always leaves me in awe. All of those AUs also fit them so well.)

Holly_Golightly (one of my favorite unfinished wips in this fandom, I'm still holding out hope haha but everything else they've written was absolutely amazing as well. Very spicey usually. Can't recommend them enough.)

elesary (Can you tell I love AUs yet?? Some are canon compliant or canon divergent, but I especially adore their modern AUs.)

ahdriking (another one of my favorite wips - hardest of hearts - and also just a lot of really spicey stuff, but god, so good.)

#captive prince #fic recs #good god i failed so hard at recommending canon compliant or canon divergence #i will try again but i think i need to reread a lot #this doesn't even cover the tiniest bit #i think i need to do more and put them into categories #i tried to focus on longer fics for this

[mamawasatesttube]

<- experiencing shrimp emotions (listening to the return of the king ost: battle of the pelennor fields)

#rimi talks #the violin solo does things to me man... #you ever think abt that one throwaway line in yj98 that confirms kon's into lotr #they did that for me specifically. #i know in my heart that while he's primarily in wendy fandom... #kon has definitely written star wars. star trek. and silmarillion fanfic #he's one of those guys making scifi aus about the silm. girdle of melian as a cloaking device. thangorodrim black hole something something. #god fuck i want to watch/read lotr again. and the silm. and home. aakjshguarhgh #wheres my copy of the lays of beleriand i NEED to reread... #<- i experience this literally every time i listen to the lotr ost #lord the horn section before the violin solo. WAILS into my hands

[writingtot]

i think one of the reasons i enjoy the percy series so much is because it’s an adaptation of the novels and not word for word the same.

at first i was a little upset by all the changes, but after rereading the books, i actually like the series even more now. as much as we all adore the books, i think we can agree that they’re not perfect. sometimes there’s plot holes, inconsistencies, or just bad writing in general. this gives rick a chance to fix those things, and that’s OKAY.

the series isn’t perfect either, don’t get me wrong, but it is nice to see the characters going on the same adventures even with some variation to the original story. i think this will allow the characters to be fleshed out more.

we have to remember that a tv show and a book is not the same medium, so the way these things are presented cannot be identical. otherwise the characters in the show would probably seem pretty flat since the books are only from percy’s perspective. the series allows us to learn more about the motives and personalities of other characters, be it annabeth, grover, or luke (personally, i’m really excited to see how his character’s story goes).

anyway, all of this is to say that the percy series is great for what it is (an adaptation of a book series). yes it could be better (cough longer and more episodes cough), but i personally really enjoy it so far.

#like let’s be honest there’s definitely some things from the books that need to be fixed #namely the weird family-but-also-love-interest dynamic between luke and annabeth #luke should not like annabeth romantically At All #i’m really hoping rick fixes that in the show #which i think they have so far… #i think they have more of solely the found family dynamic in the show #i’m really excited to see luke’s character arc #i hated him in the books so hopefully this will change my mind #i think charlie is doing a really good job of portraying him #(god this cast is so perfect tho let’s talk about that) #like that’s the other main reason i love this show #the casting was just so perfect and i can’t imagine anyone else playing these characters now #when i reread the books i literally pictured them as walker and leah and aryan like- #anyway sorry for the rambling i just have fallen in love with this universe all over again #i’m 20 but feel like i’m back in middle school 😭 #pjo #percy jackson #percy series #percy jackson and the olympians #annabeth chase #grover underwood #luke castellan #rick riordan #walker scobell #leah sava jeffries #aryan simhadri

[sciderman]

so spotify wrapped came in and candyman is my most listened to song of the year and it's solely because of the spideycablepool fic (i listened to it en loope while writing it)

#song of the day #the candy man can................ #tunes #i swear there were consecutive days where this was the Only Song I listened to. i listened to it at the office and. #my headphones are very loud. so my coworkers knew i was just listening to candyman. all day. #without stop. #i'm like this in december. wham's last christmas is the only song i'm legally allowed to listen to in december. #the only reason wham's last christmas is not my most listened song is because it is not december yet. #wham's last christmas is my most listened song on spotify in general. #i'm listening to candyman en loope again. it's so good. serotonin. #deserved. deserved. #god. i love the spideycablepool playlist. it's so sugary sweet. #you know what. i need to reread that fic and listen to the playlist. draw some more art. that fic was my high point of the year. #i mean other than the wonderful american roadtrip... and coney island... and dollywood.... and my frieiieeendnnsnsnsnss.... #this year was a really good year actually. like a really really good year. i feel low right now but this year was a really good year. #a lot of things changed for me. a lot of things. some good some bad. but a lot of change. #i feel like i'm a little bit closer to being a fully developed human. a little bit. #baby steps. baby steps. #i'm a lot more intelligent about my brain. i've figured out a lot this year. #proud of you sci. #kissing me on the forehead. #Youtube

[mookybear12404]

I started reading King of Attolia and I just completely blacked out and woke up a different person

#Didn't even have time to react I was TRANSFIXED #THE TEN GOLD CUPS #KISSING IN FRONT OF THE COURT #GEN IN HIS BED WITH THE AURA OF A GOD #LITERALLY THIS BOOK HAS ME ASCENDING #I NEED TO REREAD IT AGAIN I CONSUMED IT TOO FAST #queens thief

[francy-sketches]

me if saying 'like' every 5 words was like. illegal

#I wasn't always like this...I was normal once... #I really need to stop doing it bc I annoy myself with it lol #I'll reread my own posts like. oh my god stop saying like #naurr I just did it again :(

[chasingfictions]

will anyone for the love of god please talk about Sam and Frodo. Frodo and Sam. They’re from the shire and they’re in love . Thank you <3

#Lotr #god do I need to reread lotr again…. #I don’t have the time…. #Should I do a speedrun of just the samfrodo parts…

[nemo-of-house-hamartia]

Not me rereading the last chapter I wrote and finding so many mistakes, it just makes me want to bury myself.

#nemo babbles #gods #I seriously was dying of second hand embarassment #i know I need a beta reader #but I cannot and will not ask anyone a favour this big #I will reread it again now and try to adjust it #gods my mental state is a mess #chaos everywhere #and not the good kind #*bumps head against desk* #it's moments like this that I just feel like quitting writing and just focusing on drawing

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

Ford pines for headcanons?

YES FUCKCING YES GIRL!!!!!!!! LETS A GO !

A (Realisitic): lovessssss doodling on paper. has an affinity for eyes (;]), swirlies, scribbles, and creatures. whatever he can get his damned hands on he will doodle on it and he will do it happily. my boy's an artist ❤️❤️

B (Not Realistic But Funny): honestly in canon ford's probably into music too much but i can see him being an period music fan. abba, queen (teehee), freetwood mac, david bowie, etc. that's just his VIBE to me, not in the crowley way but in his own strong inks and cigarette smoke way. i associate thoss things with him as well as anythinf existing before 1982 with him alot if u didnt know. i still see something and go "ford missed this 😔" or "ford didn't miss this! 😁" in a sad or happy tone at least once a day /srs. oh i love this guy

C (Heart-Crushing): this kinda collides with D but im keeping it in that category. soul crushing? ford never knowing what to hope for in regards to stan on the other side. whenever he has time to think about it, he isnt sure whether to imagine him in his house or dead in a ditch, and the mystyer honestly scares him more than he'd like to admit. ford kinda treats it like schrodinger's cat in a way--as long as he never confirms, it could really be anything, and that absolves him of any potential guilt. so. (also: that he celebrates holidays out in the multiverse too, when possible. makeshift menoras, pastries in substitute of bday cakes, lighting sticks during new years. just for the sense of grounding. ALSO alsohe's spent at least 3 birthdays in a prison cell or very hurt. so. yeah)

D (Unrealistic but FUCK CANON): has always stuggled with addiction, especially with antidepressants or alcohol. thus sort of snowballs into a whole "if this makes me feel good i cannot have for more than needed" but still ends upgrappling with it anyway. he suffered MAJORRRR withdrawlel when portal stranded and since then swore off it bc he drank the most under bill's influence. it's very important to me and i need more fics about it sooooooo bad, bc while i HAVE written my own, i think someone else is needed to do it justice. now that im remembering this i HAVE read some with this hc and they were beautiful and i need to reread them again and i need to REWATCH THIS DAMN SHOW SO I CAN READ AND WRITE SOME FIC AGAI .... also there IS some evidence as extracted by @/callipraxia (need to find that meta again) but i DOUBT that would ever be canon bc of the kid show rating. (watch the book of bill canonize this seven fucking months from now. i swear to god..../j)

TY FOR THE ASK!!!!!! 💖💖

#this mightbe unprompted but i just wanna preface this saying #just becauss you see gomens on ur dash almost exclusively now doesnt mean im just a gomens blog #like i still love gravity falls SOOO MUCHHHH like ur never gonna get rid of that that was my FIRST fandom #thats the one where i found all my friends!!! thats what we bonded over and still talk about!!!! i am still the ford person #(if you'd like me to be!) #and im likely never gonna let that go regardless of how far it may slink in the background #i still have a whole shelf dedicated to my merch for it for FUCK'S SAKE #i just reallyyyyyyy need to rewatch it. but im scared of rewatching things especially since theyre so long lmao #i also.need.to continue my fic! and get stanuary up and running GOD DAMN IT! #wait FICS. its TWO gf wips i have AURGHHHHHHHH #i need to revive my love. i can feel it on the precipise but im not yet in touch. i'l get back there i PROMISE !!! none of u are safe >:))) #ask game #the guys (with a z!) #sorry for the long text jacky i was just unloaded djbdndndddjs #god man now that im thinkinf about it again there some damn fics i need to read/reread. I NEED TO REWATCH GRABITY FALLS #I WILL. STARTING TOMORROW. I NEED TO DO IT TO REFRESH ON MABEL AND STAN FOR STANUARY AND THE FIC PASS THING ANYWAY. IMA DO IT.... PROMMY

[magickkart]

“Howl, what have you got there?“ “A smoothie?“ -- The best scenes in Howl’s Moving Castle all happen off-screen. That’s why I’m on my third re-read of HMC and still obsessed with every single part of it. I’ve revised my designs since the last time I drew them two years ago. I’m still firm on my “I’m not like the other Howl artists“ stance and I try my hardest to make him look as stupid as possible. Ergo - mustache.

#howls moving castle #HMC #hmc book #Howl Pendragon #howl jenkins pendragon #michael fisher #calcifer #hate reading this book bc then im reading into its themes and messages and shit #and that always turns my brain into a merrygoround of #oh my god and what people need to live for is love and other people #and oh my god life is so good if you work on making it so #etc etc etc #positively disgusting #i held off on rereading this book for a year bc a person commented on my first post some shit like #read it again youll like it better :) #in a completely neutral tone #but i dont like people telling me what to do so i obstinately ignored it #they were right #i did like it better >:(

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

#woof #and all of the asks were nice!!! thank you!!! #im sorry i gotta turn anon back off :( #i didnt get any bad messages or anything but im just cautious #dw i wont keep anons off forever. some of u were asking me to keep it on #i just dont want to read something negative or see any reminders of my abuser #bc then when im at my concert i will be more prone to having flashbacks instead of enjoying charlie puth bangin out the tunes #but ill turn them back on uhhh when im feeling a little better i guess #i just got some ppl trying to talk to me abt my abuser last week like 'ooh shes posting abt u!' #'shes spreading rumors about u. thought u should know' well i DONT want to know! thank u! #anyone who brings her up telling me what she's 'posting about me' is automatically blocked at this point #if she wants to spread rumors that is her problem. and i dont wanna know about it #bc shes dead to me and im keeping it that way ❤ #anyway. to all the ppl who wrote 50 nice messages!!! thank u! i needed them #i will reread them the next couple of days while im feeling rly sad and missing my starlight #god i cant wait to get the hyperfixation back. i cant wait to feel safe w/ them again. #one fucking day

[crehador]

#crab reads #well rereads #tokyo ghoul #honestly feel like most csm memes would also work as tg memes lol #oh god speaking of which i need to catch up on csm again #crab.png

[alsoyooraiyah]

i cant believe we have jeremiah lore, madi you have manifested this somehow

#i need to reread everything again #my GOD i wanna write #i need to cope with needing 57 more pulls before i can hit hard pity…

[fightaers]

sometimes i think abt how sakura's become so widely-spread and misinformed in that mass-production that she's almost become this caricature of the third female member in a trio who is a 'girl-boss who is so cool and is so sexy or so confident etc' when, in fact, she's actually a character with believable flaws and unique characteristic pertaining specifically to the experiences she's endured, and she's beyond someone everyone mass-ships or mass-hates, and in this essay i will—

#thinking about how many people mary sue'd her #including myself unfortunately before i reread part 2 #and like.......... god. #the way she has compassion and genuine goals and has her unique insecurity and flaws #and she has her strengths and her own determination #and the way the fandom either..... simplifies her or reduces her just. #it grinds on my nerves! #the other day i read fanfics where s.akura supposedly is just endlessly irritated by i.no bc shes ''suffering'' so much #[to get the attention of a guy and i.no's being 'unreasonable'] #and im like??????? #WHAT DO U MEAN #im not even gonna go to that rabbit hole because i have like. RECEIPTS on how much i.no means to her #i 100% believe i.no quite literally is probs the first to SAVE HER when team 7 was .... not around #and this is beyond mentorship. she has genuine PEERS bc of i.no! #AGAIN. i could go on and on about that #on how much guilt and gratitude she probs feels abt the rest of konoha 11 who /did/ take her in #on how much PART of why she worked so hard — catching up to nrt and ssk aside — is BECAUSE she wants to save k11 when they NEED her #ok imma quit now before i go full on rambling #i love her soooo much. and team 7 is messy yes but i love their messy dynamic too! #but i simply detest how she's either an accessory. an obstacle. or this dramatic over-the-top heroine that can do-all #funny how her main narrative is always abt her wanting to be an equal to her teammates #and even outside of the narrative she's almost never that. #gen: out of character.