#god i want a hluse

[sadblogging]

Hhhhhhhhhh I feel like imma be sick lmaoooo

#my cousin is taking me to her hluse today because she wants me to do senior stuff that I never got to do with my class last year #i honestly really kinda dont want to. i feel like i dont deserve that stuff after i failed my own senior year #and for the idea of having my senior stuff in a yearbook with a class of people idk instead of the class ive been with since preschool just #makes me sad lmao #but i cant jusg say no to my cousin yaknow? she just wants me to expirience the senior stuff i never got too and to spend some tjme with me #i never talk to her or rly any of my irl friends nowadays and i feel bad but i just dont have the energy to socialize #me and my two irl class buds would always talk about how we'd always stay in touch even after we graduated #but I literally have not heard from either of them lmaooo #i miss them. i rly do. #maybe if I had actually graduated with them things would be different. but they arent because i didnt #god i hope i can get my shit together before my cousin comes to pick me up #It doesnt matter how i feel about it. im going to spend some fucking time with her and were gonna have some fucking fun #sadposting #vent #school mention #social anxiety #maybe??? #lmk if i should tag anything else

[ri-a-rose]

Sad news dad vetoed both houses said they were too big for just me

#also laughed at me bc they were both 85000 range #he said i should be looking in the 40 to 60 range so eugh #theres one house thats small 2 bdrm 1 br its got a 2 car garage #kitchen looks nice too #bad thing is its at 78000 so uh a little high #ri talks #also evidently dad has been thinking about me buying a house #there are 2 options in life: pay rent or pay for your house #hed prefer i pay for a house #god i want a hluse