#god the guilt

[imblocking-you]

Watching Death's Game because I like suffering 👍

#death's game #netflix #// maple #ion wanna kin bro but i feel like im headed there #'do you travel to the afterlife on a plane?' BYE #SIWON? i forgot the cast is like stacked lmao #feels like a world hopping novel i like it #talk about karma T T also i didnt expect how graphic it was BYE #THIS FALLJNG GUY BYE LMFAO #and he reverts back to the teenage form when the stronger opponent arrives #GOD THE GUILT #yung bulgogi sa spoon :(( wala na iyak na ko guys talo mga may single parents talo mga walang nanay hahahahaha #after death told him that he's only thinking ab himself oh this life is purposeful UN HUH #but we know it's doomed to fail kasi nga second ep pa lang BUT MAN i hope something changes... #'everything is fine yee jae' it is it truly is the fact the mom was calling him before he jumped oh you just know she was ready to tell him #exactly that OH this breaks my heart #choking and holding back tears while eating FELT #NO NO *bunches up hair* I WONT FALL FOR IT THIS IS JUST A PLOY TO GET ME ATTACHED TO THE CHARACTER BEFORE YOU INEVITABLY KILL THEM #Lee Ju Hun HAHHAHAHAHA LARO #tinago niya 'yung pera para next life makukuha niya gagi pangmalakasang ungkatan ng past 'to LMAO #why does this one prisoner dude look like sohee #BYE WHAT IF IT'S JINSANG WEBTOONS TEND TO DO THAT #HELP I KNEW WE'RE TYING UP LOOSE ENDS HAHAHAHAHA #I just know taekang other son is tied up in all of this too #gagi part 1 pa lang pala yata 'yung drama na 'to mapapabasa ko ng wentoon ng 'di oras #jinsang you overgrown chuuni 😭 #i feel great for getting jinsang beat up but like we all taesang is dying so...i wouldnt be so comfy if i were u lol #OOH THAT NAME DROP FELT SO GOOD AVENGE HIM BROTHER THATS RIGHT #yall him being given the chance to print shit and he immediately goes to grimes core is obviously a sign that he's pretending to be a psych #NAURR the vendetta just ruins it

[blueszai]

another insane miranda moment where she goes crazy over jonathan sims and the amazing portrayal of how guilt can absolutely consume a person to the point they become their darkest desires. john’s guilt throughout the podcast is the strongest motivator and also his biggest deterrent because originally it stops him from going all out, from following in gertrude’s footsteps, from truly giving into his calling. one death from when he was 8 years old rippled onto every single decision from the rest of his life, marked him deeper than any other atrocity he saw, and motivated him to pursue his humanity. but at some point (i think around after the coma but im not sure) the guilt turned into a motivator to BE the bad guy. obviously this is the most prominent in s5 when he is slowly slipping further and further into his guilt, reinforcing every one of his actions with the thought that he can’t save anyone, that he brought destruction and havoc towards the world and he deserves to die! he deserves to be the only one who suffers and pays back the extreme, crushing guilt that settled in his stomach, crawling up beneath his ribs, filled up the hollowness inside him and transformed him into fully considering godhood! and he’s selfish, and he betrays those he loves, but he is selfish out of a sense of guilt and deep inadequacy with himself—a man who couldn’t even feel an attachment to his own flesh when forced out of him— he knows he doesn’t deserve anything bestowed to him and he hates it, he hates the relief that washes over his bones whenever he gets to indulge in whatever pleasure the eye doles out for him that day. his self hatred completely turned his weird “i didn’t do this i don’t want this i want to be human im a monster i want people i want connection i don’t want to be a mystery i want to be free im a monster im a monster im a monster im a monster” sentiment into “the impending guilt and terror don’t haunt me, they are me. i am incapable of being merciful and i deserve—no, desire—nothing more but to take on the punishment, regardless of the consequences” and they are both!!! selfish!!! guilt riddled and utterly incorrect but he is so stuck in his own misery he can never truly connect with the misery around him. basking in his own horrors and separating them from the suffering of everyone else, further isolating himself and sealing off any avenue of salvation through those he cares about oh it’s so good

#tma #the way nobody gaf #i just be throwing out whatever insanity i come up with at the moment #It’s extremely late but there’s NO way i can say it on my Twitter so i say this on my little corner and hope nobody notices #god the guilt #THE GUILT!!!! #jonathan sims #i love him sm did you know that #my little eldritch terror i would never let anything happen to him

[pinkcowzz]

dick had bruce as a partner. there was a mentorship there yes, but at the end of the day dick & bruce were a team.

jason had bruce as a father. bruce took him and made the extra effort. he actually adopted jay and stayed home when jason was sick.

tim had bruce as a liability.

tim went to bruce- bruce never found him. i just really love the idea that because of the difference in dynamic, tim is one of the few people who can shame bruce into compliance so easily.

dick and bruce will get into shouting matches that neither one of them walk away from being satisfied, bruce is an unmovable object and dick is an unstoppable force. when they meet, its not pretty and there is almost always collateral damage.

jason and bruce are like setting off two firecrackers next to each other when they fight. it's loud, it's bright, but it burns off fast. the anger and righteous fury is there one moment but then gone the next.

tim and bruce fight differently, because a lot of the time, tim understands where bruce is coming from. he saw bruce start on his path to self destruction and managed to get him to switch tracks. bruce was never the same after jason's death (what parent is after seeing their child die) but batman was able to correct himself. after stepping into the role of robin, tim understood. he too lost so many people he cared about because of the weight of the cape he wore.

and i think the first time that damian and bruce go head to head, dick may be the one who comforts damian and assures him of his place in the family, but tim is the one who goes to bruce. it's the first time bruce has ever seen tim this angry. tim is seething with a fury that would put the devil himself to shame. he is so angry that he is shaking and bruce can the restraint that tim is using to keep the discussion from becoming physical. tim tells bruce, or rather lectures him, in all the ways that he has fucked up with dick ('kicking him out, never officially adopting him, forcing him to go through with the spyral mission- you treat him as your partner when its convenient but the moment it's not he is your soldier again. its unfair bruce. he's more of a man, more of a father than you have ever been'), with jason ('do i even need to say it? actually, let me address it. you cannot see the forest past the trees. jason isn't who he was before he died. he never will be. same as you. he lost a lot more than his life when the joker blew him up. he lost his innocence, he lost his faith in you. i'm starting to think he may have been right') and with himself ('i love you bruce. i have always cared so deeply about you and your mission. it's why i came to dick in the first place. but this isn't about me.').

and bruce remembers why his relationship with tim is so different. tim trained overseas, tim got to patrol on his own as robin so much sooner than his other boys did. tim was largely unsupervised during his run with the young justice. tim had made up an entire fake uncle to keep his indepence. tim would never argue with bruce about himself in this way, but he would argue about- ('this is about damian. and i swear to god bruce. if you can't pull that stick out of your ass and find a way to apologize to damian that leaves him feeling properly taken care of. superman himself wouldn't be enough to save you from my wrath.')

and it's only later, after bruce does apologize to damian in a way that leaves dick speechless. when barbra happened upon the cave's security footage that she shares with dick who shares with steph who shares with jason that his family figures out just how fitting of a last name that drake is for tim.

#guilt tripper tim drake #tim drake #dick grayson #bruce wayne #jason todd #batfamily #batman #dc comics #robin #red robin #damian wayne #damian is tims little brother #as god as my witness he would do anything for that boy #manipulative tim drake #angry tim drake

[crimeschild]

the barbie (2023) experience as an afab non binary person is just [reconnecting with your femininity and love for pink bc you couldnt when u were younger bc being too girly will get u made fun of] [feeling guilt bc u dont identify with being a girl but girlhood is so inherently beautiful and magical and no experience is truly like it] [healing the inner child in you by allowing yourself to enjoy dolls and pink and maximalism] [unapologetically letting yourself wear pink and be stereotypically girly in a society where being non binary means you have to be presenting androgynous 24/7] [getting your grown-up heart shattered and then put back together again by your inner child using sparkly glue over and over in the span of two hours] [realizing that no matter what you do you have somewhat experienced girlhood and it shaped you to be the person you are today and you will never get to erase that experience or truly disconnect yourself from it] [appreciating and understanding your mother in a way that you thought wasnt possible without experiecing motherhood]

#my brain has permanently been altered by the barbie movie #ALSO THE MOMMY ISSUES IN THE MOVIE GOD FUCKING DAMN #when barbie said that the old woman is beautiful it makes me not fear getting old anymore #it's just all this time i feel so guilty like nothing but guilt when i present myself as femme and act all feminine but then identify with #being enby #and when i vocally advocate for feminism and all that but theres a little voice in my head going #but youre not a part of that club anymore you left them #BUT I KNOW ITS NOT WITHIN MY CONTROL BC I DONT HAVE CONTROL OF MY GENDER AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT #barbie #barbie movie #barbie 2023 #ken #margot robbie #ryan gosling #mine #queer #woah 1k????? #1k #2k

[cere-racha]

The existence of Nanami Kento has permanently altered my taste in men

#I don’t know where to go from here but I know it’ll have something to do with incorporating a ponytail into my daily style #fr though I’m sure there’s a deeper psychological thing happening here but god. I feel reborn. I feel at peace with myself #jjk #nanami kento #kento nanami #jujutsu kaisen #he’s a no guilt crush fr

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

WAKE UP!

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #I tried *so* hard to draw deflated wwx (per the reference to the garfield comic) but I could not get figure it out. #Yes lwj is straddling wwx. He's been shaking him this whole time. #LWJ has also been shaking. Like a nervous little dog. #What else is he to do when the love of his life collapses in front of him? #I also like to imagine that going through the nightmarish empathy showed on wwx's real body too. As in - he was thrashing about. #I am fond of my headcanon that wwx kicks and yells in his sleep and lwj is just getting a preview of it. #And oh my god. Am I ever a fan of accidental bonks (in fiction. I feel immense guilt for them in reality) #I'm really excited for several comics coming up. One in particular I have been building up to for *months*. #Sorry I've been mysteriously absent for a lot of November...I will do my best to be more consistent this December! #Thank you all for your support. Take care and stay healthy <3

[dangoulains-devotion]

you mustn't blame yourself

#FF7 #FFVII #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy vii #advent children #aerith gainsborough #tifa lockhart #aerti #my art #<- i am moonlight elegy on twt #driving myself insane walking in circles thinking about how much guilt tifa must feel #i've already rambled about the weight of grief and other things that threatened to crush tifa so i wont do it again but man. MAN #girls who carry the world on their shoulders #also if anything in this looks fucky just close your eyes. take ur issues up with god. i dont wanna hear it LMAO #i had to cling to the phrase “trust the process” the entire time and buddy my trust was constantly wavering #but this is the best i can do with the idea #i went with tifa's AC fit specifically so that aerith would be holding the ribbon heehehehehe (crying sobbing throwing up)

[humming-fly]

Theatre Kid (Derogatory)

#I had some fun on my most recent plane flight and figured I'd give it some color #the great thing about the king in yellow is i can and will draw him completely different every time #and that is 100% in character #if you draw an eldrich madness god the same way twice it's missing the point let chaos reign #was originally just gonna be the lefthand sketch colored in #but the colors alone actually looked pretty nice so you can enjoy those too #malevolent #malevolent podcast #the king in yellow #my art #doodles #I actually wasn't planning on making the bug mandible crown going into this it just sort of happened which I enjoy #lot of centipede/earwig vibes going on with the guy #something something crawls in your ear and drives you mad #anyways here's my one nice art post of this character now I can move on to shitposts guilt-free #i guess there's one other thing I wanna draw that isn't quite shitposty but it sort of is jury's out #we'll see if i get to it lol

[haunted-xander]

Sometimes I think about Urianger's role in and feelings on the Thancred-Ryne dynamic and I think watching it kills him a bit inside. For several reasons.

Like, to begin with there's the guilt he's been carrying with him since he ushered Minfilia to the first, how he effectively killed the person Thancred cared about the most in the world and who's "death" ended up causing Ryne's entire Situation. He looks at what's happening between them and can only think "I caused this" even though that's not really true. No one person is responsible for this outcome, it's a culmination of several circumstances and the consequences of them. Logically, Urianger knows this. But it doesn't matter, because his guilt is overpowering his logic.

And also, like. What Thancred is doing here, the way he's knowingly letting Ryne be and stay hurt because he literally cannot bring himself to tell her his feelings, is the exact same mistake Urianger made with Moenbryda. Of course, the circumstances are vastly different, and the potential consequences to Thancred telling Ryne the wrong things or her misinterperating it is far greater (being a matter of literal life or death), it's still the same sort of paralysis they are trapped in.

And he knows it. He sees it. But he can't say or do anything about it, he doesn't have the right to. He acknowledges the mistake, but he hasn't really improved upon it yet. He still doesn't voice his thoughts and feelings as he should. He's also non-confrontational by nature, he doesn't argue or try to change peoples minds, he probably doesn't think he has any place to.

So, he tries to help in what little ways he can. Because he doesn't want it to become Monebryda again, he doesn't want to know he stole not one but two people from Thancred. So he does what he can. He tells Ryne little tidbits about Thancred, things that help her understand him but are safe to share. Nothing too deep, nothing too personal. Just small things, things that are purely factual, because he can't afford to give her a false image of who Thancred is. He teacher her fun and interesting things, because Thancred isn't in the mindset to provide her with non-essential skills.

I like to think Urianger has brought it up with Thancred at least once, during one of his stays. But nothing would've come of it. Not really. Unlike Y'shtola, Urianger isn't pushy, he'll bring it up once or twice and when he sees this won't go anywhere, he gives up. He wants to help, but he knows that persistance only does do much, and he is not the person who has the resiliance needed to push and push until Thancred finally budges (because he won't budge, it won't help anything but to sour things further by adding aditional stress to an already strained dynamic).

And like. Urianger gets it. He gets it because he's been the same way- not saying what he should to someone he loves more than anything else because she was meant to figure her life out herself, and 'steering' her in any direction by telling her his feelings (regardless of if the 'steering' is intention or not) will go against that. He gets it. He gets it and it's all the more painful for it. He knows it can't just be fixed by acknowledging it or with encouragement, something needs to happen to break the stasis.

I think this is probably why he stayed behind while they went off to Nabaath Areng. This is the very last chance they have to say what they want to, and he can't afford to be the anchor anymore. This is about them, not him, he can't let their resolution be buffed by his presence, so he stays behind. Which was probably for the best. Ryne got nervous when Urianger said he's staying behind, probably not too excited about being alone with Thancred (well, not alone, but WoL doesn't count) so soon after she had ran away crying. But she needs to be nervous. For anything positive to come out of this Thancred and Ryne both can't afford to be too relaxed. As sad as it is, the stress is necessary for anything to happen. He knows it. Does he like it? Absolutely not, but nor does he like his other plots. At least no one dies this time if it goes right.

#urianger had an integral part in the thancred-ryne situation and i think its very important to remember that #like i think he served as a very important buffer that prevented the dynamic from becoming even more strained than it already was #but also like. ryne NEEDED to have at least someone she can be comfortable around without the stress of her circumstances souring it #urianger is uniquely suited to play that role. even with his guilt regarding minfilia he never showed anything but genuine kindness for her #it helps that she didnt know about his hand in the situation existing to begin with (as shes surprised when he tells her in ahm areang) #THATS ALSO IMPORTANT BTW. like this man had a DIRECT hand in making this happen (even if it isnt fully his fault. minfilia made her choice) #AND LIKE. the parallels between uri-moen and thancred-ryne. they both love these girls so so much but cant bring themselves to say anything #urianger has been through the pain before. he knows. but he hasnt improved much himself. what right does he have to scold thancred? #silent support is all he can give. pushing thancred would make him a hypocrite and risk making it worse. hes not suited for confrontation #y'shtola and uriangers approaches to helping both have their merits but it needs a balance #too much pushing and the dynamic just gets worse but too forgiving and nothing will ever change #and yes i know im just repeating myself but ITS IMPORTANT OK #GOD #urianger augurelt #thancred waters #ryne waters #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #xander being insane about ryne #urianger actually this time but. its related to ryne so. it gets the tag

[gophergal]

a meme specific to my interpretations

#gopher rambles #tf2 medic #shitpost #team fortress 2 #tf2 memes #emesis blue #my interpretation of blu team is just as clones with falsified memories that have altered their personalities #all of them are less volatile than their red counterparts but are a less effective team #this is especially noticable with Blu Medic (Friedrich) who is basically just emesis blue medic because I think it's funny #so basically this is Catholic Guilt Medic vs Agnostic God Hater Medic. Red Medic (Ludwig) believes that if god is real they're mutual hater

[otaku553]

Have you seen this man???

Now you have

#one piece #sabo #revolutionary sabo #my god I am obsessed #what a jolly little guy with guilt complexes to the moon and back and a healthy amount of murderous intent #I need to draw him more #I also desperately need more content of him #sorely disappointed in how many sabo-centric fics I’ve found #(very few) #I saw one au of sabo as a celestial dragon / world noble and I really really love that one #it’s an excellent deconstruction of sabo as a character and his view on freedom and equality coming from a place of privilege

[canisalbus]

Imagine if Machete was Muslim instead of Catholic. His name would be something like Saif سيف, and Vasco would probably be something like Dhahabi ذَهَبِيّ

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#I don't know Arabic so I can't weigh in that much but if you say so! #it seems like these mean “sword” and “golden” respectively that's neat #Machete wouldn't be able to cling to his Catholic guilt in that case #I don't think Islam has the same concept of original sin that Christianity does #I'm simplifying but it's a belief that humans are born with an innate tendency for evil sinning is part of our nature #and staying on the positive and in God's good graces requires a lot of repentance which can lead to excess guilt and shame #I could be wrong but I'm under the impression that this idea of a manufacturing error is a very Christian thing #sorry I know you didn't sign up to hear me try to talk about big theology things and I don't want to make it weird #but I find this stuff really interesting I unironically like to read and think about how religions work #and how they shape things they come in contact with #in Machete's case in particular his troubled relationship with God and his career choice are big parts of his character #and why he turned the way he did and thinks the way he does you know #answered #kachavashka #Dhahabi is such a regal sounding name #I'd steal that in a heartbeat if I didn't already have one extremely gold-coded character

[wolfythewitch]

What is the difference between Chirstian/Evangelical and Catholicism?

The windows

#wolfy tedtalks #anon #god i wish i had their windows #also catholics have more guilt than me i can say this with confidence

[mad-girlslove-song]

ethel cain literally suffered more than jesus christ

#strangers ethel cain #ethelcain #ethel cain #hayden silas anhedönia #hayden anhedönia #religious trauma #religious guilt #preachers daughter #sun bleached flies #western nights #american teenager #a house in nebraska #ptolemaea #televangelism #mother cain #god loves you but not enough to save you

[aeirithgainsborough]

Jackie Taylor & Shauna Shipman YELLOWJACKETS: 202. Edible Complex

#completely fascinated by how mean shauna makes her ghost jackie #that's guilt baby!!!!!!! easier 2 live with herself if jackie was cunty and deserved it #yellowjackets #yellowjacketsedit #jackie taylor #jackietayloredit #shaunashipmanedit #shauna shipman #96yellowjackets #tvedit #jackieshauna #** #never not obsessing abt them god. just wanna gif all their moments jakdsna

[snowangeldotmp3]

stranger things: the game

max and lucas gameplay

nancy and barb gameplay here

#stranger things #lumax #lucas sinclair #max mayfield #video game concepts #this one didn't take as long but i did start crying a little bit #DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT LUCAS AND THEN START CRYING #god i don’t even WANT to think about the guilt that might follow him next season