#god the way i live for this man

[canisalbus]

Is that canon!?! Was Machete just really naive/didn't really understand the implications of his relationship to Vasco? Did his mentor ever find out about them or discuss such things with him? I assume bc he didn't have parents, he kinda didn't get educated on sex or anything. Was it a big shock to realize he was "sinning"?

.

#eh I was just exaggerating it for comedy because the page was so unintentionally funny and fitting #he might've been a little bit naive but was painfully aware he was in a relationship with a man and that it was forbidden #his mentor was all about asceticism and mortification and extreme self-denial #and had drilled it into his head that practically all romantic feelings let alone sex were foolish and sinful and should be shunned #so his feelings about the whole thing were complicated but in the end Vasco was more important #not to sound corny #but there was a hole in his heart that he had desperately tried to fill with god that never seemed to care about him #and once he got some of that love he had been aching for #from another living person #he had to do what it takes to make room for that in his belief system #how could such a tender fulfilling and healing thing be wrong #answered #anonymous #his mentor did eventually find out about them and wasn't very happy about it #to put it mildly #but by that point Machete had managed to mostly inch his way out from under his heel #he was graduating and getting ordained and wouldn't be going back to Naples #if it were up to him he'd never want to see him again

[hyperfixationtimego]

I love you fucked up tv shows I love you gorey movies I love you traumatized characters who perpetuate the cyclical nature of abuse while still managing to remain sympathetic I love you intentionally morally ambiguous media that exists specifically to pose questions about psychology, ethics, and human nature I love you unflinching examinations of what it means to dance the line between acceptable and unacceptable behaviors I love you I love you I love you

#I’m having a moment. happy sugar life was GOOD man #I’m just gonna. tag this with my favorite psychologically scarring media because MAN. #ode to them and the way they make me feel about life and living and the people around me fr <3 #happy sugar life #danganronpa #squid game #lolita #demon slayer #goddamnit there’s probably so many more that I’m forgetting #six feet under #<- currently watching that one with my mom and I truly cannot recommend it ENOUGH #future diary #<- MY FUCKING BELOVED. GOD IT’S SO FUCKING GOOD #sweet home #(except i’m ignoring the ending because i personally think it sucked and undermined the whole message of the comic) #feel free to add your own here too btw!! I need some good recommendations teehee :3 #your turn to die #FORGOT THAT ONE WHOOPS #saw franchise #corpse party

[hyperfixation-symposium]

I don't feel like q!bad gets enough praise for being such a good dad.

Like, he's encouraging of Dapper's special interests even if they're dangerous and often end up with him at least slightly hurt. He's incredibly respectful of Dapper's independence while also being a caring and attentive father. If they're going to be out and about together, he almost always takes Dapper's input on where they go and what they do.

He knows Dapper is talented player, who knows more than he does sometimes, while still recognizing when Dapper forgets his own limits. He's still a kid, and a fragile one. But that doesn't mean putting him away in a box, like Phil has done with Chayanne. That means finding ways to be safe, having extra backup plans, extra people you trust by your side. They're on together almost every night, even past or before streaming times.

Bad is the egg babysitter, he goes out of his way to do things for them because he genuinely is such a compassionate person. He's also dedicated to solving the lore, to pranking his friends, to building Skeppy statues, and everything else.

Dapper is the mechanic, a collector who isn't ashamed to help others and leave them a gift or a silly prank along the way. He's a kid, who fights with his dad and keeps a journal of how all his machines work, just in case.

A lot of times, when people want to thank Bad for his help, they wonder, "what do you give someone who has everything?" And truth be told I have no idea what I'd do. It never feels like Bad has everything, but rather, it feels like he has everything he really wants. Bad has Dapper, and together, they're able to accomplish almost anything. That's what I think makes them so compelling.

I occasionally scroll through Twitter and see people talking about how they want the egg event to end. I can respect that to a degree, I think it's ended up with some streamers quite stressed, tired, or receiving harassment. However, I feel like Bad and Dapper are the perfect example of why you can't just tear the eggs from their parents - Dapper is as much a character as Bad is. They're a duo, they compliment one another in their skills, their personalities, ect.

It's Bad and Dapper against the world.

And I really hope they find a way to allow them to stay that way.

#qsmp #qsmp dapper #qsmp badboyhalo #q!bad #qsmp eggs #god I love them so much okay #I was so tempted to be sad in post but Ill do it in the tags #When Bad was showing Forever his farm #he asked if Bad lived out here all alone #to which Bad responded it was him and Dapper. #If Dapper truly does go away #Can you imaine Bad being out there. so far from everyone else so disconnected #all alone? without his link to the world. without his pranking partner and the one who understands how all the machines work #Most of the server doesn't have his waypoint saved! #Who's going to support him through the fall? Who's going to be there to pick him up in the way that the rest have each other? #Gosh man. these eggs.

[taikanyohou]

“You deserve a lot of credit.” Huang You Ming As Ye Bai Yi + Li Dai Kun As Xie Wang. WORD OF HONOR (2021) - Episode 32.

#word of honor #wohedit #wohdaily #asiandramasource #cdramasource #cdramaedit #cdramanet #yexie #* #faiza gifs #ive never actually ever giffed this scene in its entire form BUT !!!!!!!!!!! GOD. #ZJ SHUT UR DAMN MOUTH FGS PLEASE. #ANNNYWAAAAAAY MY SWEETEST BABES! #ive waxed LYRICAL and POETICALLY about them but GOD. the WAY xie wang's ENTIRE ... demeanour just. CHANGES. when ye baiyi just #doles out the praise. GOD. #yby will give the EXACT amount of praise that he thinks someone is worthy of having from him and so i LOVE how zj just has .... #like. SO little awareness man. #like bro READ the room man. #anyway i LIVE in the last few gif where yby turns and gives xw that SMIRK #his TRADEMARK smirk ....oh oh ohhhh man.

[yavin42]

just finished the second season of black sails and i gotta say i understand why it makes queers go feral

#i’m frothing at the mouth #black sails #i watched the first season yesterday and didn’t really enjoy it much #the pacing is really weird the characterisation was shallow at best and the whole thing stank of game of thrones levels of forced edgyness #but man the second season slapped so hard full 180 turnaround #the flashbacks were expertly crafted all major characters have relatable motives and they pull through ruthlessly #their fatal flaws are right there and like a greek tradgedy it all happens exactly how it must #in revealing it’s nature as a character study of flint and of what broke him so utterly the pacing actually becomes so poignant and perfect #with each new bit of information we’re given we understand his urgency his ruthlessness his unwavering calm hatred #he’s turned himself into a proper fucking monster and it’s tragic because it could only have ever gone this way #there’s no way out and the show being a prequel we know he lives we know he can’t win #actually doomed by the narrative in the worst/best way #but by god i just want his to set the world aflame

[prince-liest]

oh my god. your wording in one of ur latest anon answers. does…. is val the only one who does the dumping? does vox never dump val??? i always like… idk i assumed that they both broke it off in a never ending downward spiral, mutually. but oh my GOD? you’re saying val is the only one doing the breaking up? i….. this is shifting my entire perspective on vox. HOLD ON. HOLD ON. not to beat a dead dove here (that was a brilliant pun yes i’m stealing it), but……… this is sliding right into my vault where i keep my Vox and Domestic Violence Thoughts. he just seems so…. helpless. he’s helpless all the time and in complete denial about it. at first it was clear he’s pretty helpless around alastor -in both canon and your fic. alastor is stronger, and also, in the beginning had the Extreme emotional upper hand. i knew this, yet, like in canon, i assumed more or less alastor was the chink in his armor. vox DOES run the vee’s competently, he handles val, and he’s arguably the fourth most powerful sinner in hell (behind zestial, carmilla, and alastor). those 3 things are true, AND YET. let’s look behind the wizards curtain. how does vox live his Personal life. not his job or position of power. how does his close relationships define him. let’s see now. the initial intense obsession with alastor, which had ONLY left him rejected and humiliated. helpless. and now val. i Assume vox enacts some physical violence on val, too, but something in his wording in the last installment. vox made the point to compare alastors straight up murder attempts to how val acts. i do not think vox does that with val, at least not in a trivial and common manner (he has said the vee’s have all killed e/o before). and when i said “sure he can act disgruntled and upset in the moment” in another ask, i MEANT that vox could break up with val for a couple days before crawling right back like nothing happened. but NO. NOT EVEN THAT. vox endures, and he ultimately does Nothing. NOTHING. and not even that, he is subjected to val breaking it off in a cyclic manner, for superficial or nonexistent issues. and then after a week val will call and vox will come crawling back like nothing happened, and the timer for 4 months begins again. through everything, EVERYTHING, vox really just seems… passive in the grand scheme of things. it’s paradoxical, because he’s also outrageously ambitious. i think that’s one of his core character traits, a constant greed and pursuit of it. that’s unequivocally true about him. but then we look at his love life, and what do we see? he lets the two men he loves basically do whatever they want with him. and he does it because he loves them, as well as being unable to admit he’s suffering. i will say, from now on it’s clear that his relationship with alastor is veering off this direction, but i want to STRESS that it was actually ALASTOR that cemented that. vox, in a spurt of emotion, let it slip out his history of domestic violence. then, promptly brushed it off to appease alastor. he set the terms of the deal, but he did it as a silly pinky promise. he, again, never allows himself to take it SERIOUSLY. because IF HE DOES!!!! then he needs to set boundaries AND ABIDE BY THEM!!!!!!!! AND WHAT THEN. WHAT THEN. THEN THE NEXT TIME VAL OR ALASTOR CROSS A LINE, HE NEEDS TO END IT. LEAVE. DO ANYTHING. AND HE IS NEVER GONNA DO THAT!!!!!!!! and here’s the real fucking kicker…… he expects them to. to keep hurting him. that’s the root of it. it’s not a real boundary, because it’s an inevitability. valentino and alastor will always want to hurt him, so a relationship without that violence is nonexistent. (that’s what he believes btw. hopefully not the truth). and so, vox has made his choice. he’s a businessman, and he has weighed the pros and cons. the violence and crossed boundaries he faces is outweighed by his love for them, and ultimately, that means they can do whatever they want to him. he is helpless.

(this was an entire rant, dear god. and of course the disclaimer that this is all my personal delusions, and not necessarily your take on vox in your series. i swear, i never know how these asks get so long. i promise i start of with a simple idea, then it all implodes into an essay. so sorry. love you.) -🌓

I have good news and bad news for you, anon!

The bad news is that I have misled you slightly: My actual full perspective of the Valentino and Vox on-and-off dating situation is that Vox dumps Valentino when he feels a sufficiently angry flavor of upset that Valentino refuses to listen to him on some things (usually not, actually, the violence, unless Val breaks something for Vox to be angry about); and Valentino dumps Vox when he wants Vox to annoyedly pretend not to moon after him for a week. In both situations, sometimes Vox ends up giving up the ghost and functionally crawling his way back to Val, but more commonly Valentino decides that he's had enough and rather handily seduces Vox into a round of what Vox promises himself is hate sex and not makeup sex but is inevitably always very sappy makeup sex with a side of lovebombing.

This is. Arguably not that different of a flavor from what you're describing, haha, especially since a lot of Vox managing to be the one to break things off at any given point in time hinges on him being able to frame his rationale as "anger" rather than "upset," the latter of which just gets brushed under the carpet of Emotions That Are Not Taken Seriously. He can act on a great many things if he justifies them as something he is right to be objective and angry over, including outright killing Valentino at least once at some point in the past, but anything that makes him feel vulnerable or, ah, let's deliberately and pointedly use the word hysterical, is a pre-existing internal struggle that Valentino knows how to manipulate to his advantage.

The good news is that this lovely analysis inspired me to almost completely rewrite a section of the next 666 fic that I'd been dissatisfied with. I initially wrote Vox as annoyed; what he needed to be was Very Stressed And Upset in a way that distinctly refused to dare stray into anger because the fundamental concern was about what Alastor wanted - just as you described, Vox fumbling his own distress with his learned helplessness when it comes to intimate relationships. Anyway, now I'm WAY happier with it! So thank you very much for that!

#ask #personal #half moon anon #666 live on air #my writing #long post #posting a snippet in a sec before I head to bed as a thank u <3 #god I do love staticmoth tho #they're All That Horrible Mess and they're fucking adorable and in very fucky love on top of it #val has supported vox in ways nobody else ever has and is in fact genuinely very very fond of vox #he's just also a manipulative narcissist with severe anger issues! oops! #get you a man that can do both! #(don't. please for the love of god don't.) #cw abuse #cw domestic violence #staticmoth

[spearxwind]

Something I've been thinking a lot recently after becoming a lot more social and going out is like. How different people really LOOK in general. Or rather, I've always seen it but I've been noticing it more. Different body types, different faces, different features.... etc. Everyone is so different looking.

There isn't a way you could possibly gauge how "beautiful" someone is because everyone is so different, and everyone's perception and preferences are different. Someone who you could consider extremely handsome could have deep seated self image issues, and someone who looks unremarkable to you might be someone's ideal.

I feel like being online and constantly exposed to the same types of faces, especially the type of people who become popular online due to the appearance, they always have the same set of features, same set of body types. It's not inherently bad, people do gravitate towards them because there's beauty standards that certain people fit. But in general exposure to people who look all similar rots the brain. It rots your self image. It distances you from your own community as well.

It bleeds into how people handle their relationships, it brings prejudice to people just based on their appearance, and it sucks so much to actually like, fully consciously REALIZE. Everyone is worthy of love, no matter how they look like (this includes you btw!! Yeah you!!! <3) no matter what the media says. It sounds like something sooo obvious but it really is something that grows roots in your brain given the chance and is hard to pull out.

Feeling like you're in an arms race against your peers to "score" someone who you could pass for an instagram model, instead of finding someone who you truly connect with. Having to deeply justify your partners and friendships to your family as being worth it, when they don't look like celebrities on TV and just look like regular people. (This has been my personal experience for a long time, but I feel like theres probably more people who have gone through the same)

"What will other people think? What will my family think?" is something constantly on my mind whenever I make any friends, and im only recently realizing that it really does not matter what they do think what matters is one's own happiness.

Not sure where I am going with this post I just wanted to write it out for a few days now and I finally did it <3 have a swag day

#thunderclap #words #i just think people should live without the constant pressure of appearances both your own and your peers. its literally brainrot #everyone everywhere is so different there are a thousand faces a thousand bodies a thousand features theres eight billion people on earth #its so terrible that we are always focused on the same ones and call them beautiful when theres so much to people in general #does this make any fucking sense? god im so tired but im feeling this a lot recently. man.......... #my own appearance has been both praised and degraded for years years years and its fucked up my way of perceiving people for my whole life #idk... theres so much nuance to this whole conversation ofc i cant fit it all into one (1) post #like... recently realizing my mom is to blame for like 90% of my body image issues has had me reeling. like hello. #dont get me wrong i love her but damn that family can self project their flaws needlessly on the next generation huh

[millimononym]

My favorite part of Fear Of Victory is that when Scarecrow escaped the asylum, no one, not a SINGLE other rogue ratted him out, despite the fact that a lot of them probably don't even like him. They ALL kept their mouths shut for however long Scarecrow was gone (this also implies horrible care of the inmates in Arkham cuz no one noticed he was gone, but we could already guess that much). The ENTIRE asylum. RESPECT

#I love btas scarecrow he's such a funny stinky old man #That moment in Harleys Holiday where he's SCREAMING at batman and robin with his superiority complex at full display #And just stops midway to say hello to Harley in a nice way and then continues to rant about how he's a god #It lives in my head rent free #He may not have depth but he has my heart. And enough respect from the other rogues to not rat him out apparently #Btas #batman: the animated series #batman the animated series #btas scarecrow #jonathan crane #I Needed more moments with the rogues having relationships and interactions with each other istg

[yardsards]

also. amber gris as a character is really important to me as an appalachian.

not just her accent or the specific type of person justin based her off of but like

the feeling of losing someone to addiction/overdose while the government does nothing to help, just criminalizes and stigmatizes and makes things worse. which obviously happens in more places than just around here, but we have one of the highest rates of overdose death in the whole country and that whole set of scenes felt like they were really informed by growing up around that

#eliot posts #taz #taz ethersea #the adventure zone #amber gris #drugs cw #death mention #i've made posts like this and deleted them cuz i never feel like i'm wording it just right but just. god. #i'm lucky enough to have never been addicted or to have a best friend or immediate family member die from it #but i've lost or nearly lost extended family to it #and it's like. #my own accent isn't that thick and neither is my immediate family's or best friends' #but i've known ppl who talked like her. #specifically a man named larry who lived with us when we were real young #for some reason especially the way amber says ''come on'' just always reminds me so strongly of larry's voice. he said that phrase a lot #he was the one who taught me to tie my shoes even after my parents lost patience with me for being 'too old' to not understand #he drank excessively like my dad did but he never got mean with us kids #he came and went a few times over the years. the final time he left was when i was in late elementary #he died of an overdose when i was in high school. i didn't feel much of anything at the time. #it had been so long since i'd seen him but also i was at a point in my life where i'd've been numb to big emotions like that anyway #so my parents got drunk about it and i did nothing. just went to school and shit as usual. #i did not expect those feelings to get dredged up by a goddamned comedy dnd podcast #but they did it well i think #even though i had to pause it to take a breather multiple times. i enjoyed it overall. cathartic i guess?

[koifsssh]

LISTEN. LISTEN TO ME. I WATCHED THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS AND I HAD A VISION.

npc rainy...

he is supposed to be friend shaped, acts as a sort of friendly face to make the place less empty and lonely! someone you can talk to whenever you want!

of course such ai has to come from somewhere! let's just say he's "recycled"!

err... don't let him learn that though!

#i feel insane #did you know you can break him if he learns about the truth of his existence #he thinks he works at the circus #which is true but not in the way he thinks #imagine not being real... #or realizing you used to be real but the funny teeth man recycled you after you abstracted #god bless. #and now you are suspectable to breaking and going off script #and you dont want to be reset or “fixed” because living in the lie and living in ignorance might drive you more insane than the truth will #and on top of that you changed twice #because you were brought to the circus as a person stuck there and now you're reduced to a piece of code #but that code was from you so you're technically still yourself in a sense #so every time you break you start to gain memories #or very small snippets because the funny teeth man did recycle you #so therefore the funny machine npc thing you are now is made up of whatever was left of your brain to make the code #or... digital brain... #motherboard??? #YOU GET THE POINT #npcs doing npc things #haha identity crisis #i am so very tired... #rainy dewdrop #tadc oc

[aesthetic-uni]

I know I’m late to the party but Oh My God™️

#uni talks about the universe #hbomberguy #james somerton #I’ve been watching the video in increments #so everytime I pause and think ‘it can’t get worse’ #guess what the fuck happens when I come back #I’ve never watch James somerton but I have seen his videos floating around #but now thank god I haven’t #by the way-no hate to anyone who was fooled by them #how the fuck were you suppose to know that their entire life was a life #anyway I cannot wait for how these people try to clamber their way back #don’t even talk about Blair to me cause holy shit that woman has a lot of skeleton in her closet #I’m pretty sure they all do but I’m mentioning Blair specifically because I was keeping up on the story for her ngl #I do think internet historian is going to come out unscathed #mostly because his fans just doesn’t care #but the rest? not so easy I think #and obviously it’s fucking over for James Somerton #that man is dead. we witness a live execution. and then liked and subscribed

[feelingtheaster99]

Damn I was not expecting Poseidon to have that accent

#get it Sally #I actually thought I would like tv Poseidon way less than book Poseidon #but this episode has got me thinking it might actually be the other way around #this mans definitely seems better than the smuck in the chalice of the gods #Percy Jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson episode 7 #percy jackson spoilers #percy jackson tv show #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #pjo tv spoilers #pjo ep 7 #pjo tv show #pjotv #pjo tv #we find out the truth sort of spoilers #we find out the truth sort of #live reaction #pjo poseidon #sally jackson

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Theodorus: Sit down.

Mozart: Nobody tells me what to do!

MC: Please sit down.

Mozart: *immediately sits down*

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp theo #ikevamp mozart #ikevamp theodorus #ikevamp mc #ikevamp incorrect quotes #i love when theo and mozart are. THE cattiest bitches #ill be in my grave before i forget them roasting each other within an inch of their lives #literally the only thing that made it better was isaac going 'for the love of god shut it' out of nowhere #man the way i can imagine sebas in the background like keeping a tally of each banger line for each member of the mansion #you know like in the anastasia movie??? the statistics may surprise you #mozart isaac and theo are in the lead #I call them the Sweet and Salty crew and I think the name is self-explanatory #why ask for salt when you can just tap mozart on the shoulder-- #the second gang is Comte Sebas and Napoleon and I call them Glamorous Petty and Better Than You #will throw down verbally at any point but are not usually the initiators #will say that Comte may seem like a surprising one but like. in my defense #a good 70% of his interactions with people is him just. lowkey roasting under the radar #just because I need a magnifying glass don't mean it don't happen-- #the third group is Leo Dazai and Jeanne--tempted to call them Tall Dark and Spicy #and I feel like they don't have much of an impulse to choose violence so their insults are few and far in between #however. when they hit they hit HELLA and it's amazing #arthur i'm torn because like #he's usually the one shaking his ass to be roasted???? so im not really sure he'd have much of a tally (charles is basically the same) #faust is in Sweet and Salty and I will not be taking any constructive criticism. man is the definition of hot and cold and i love it for him #vlad and shakespeare i will say are in the Glamorous gang #don't bother asking me about vincent because I would never insult the mansion's angel that way. the number is microscopic #he has his own category because he only ever zings Theo or on the very rare occasion he gets pissed #i feel vincent's power level cannot be conveyed by the limits of the mere mortal mind...

[stiffyck]

Guys I am so insane over ll!scar- he’s so unhinged but so lonely he just wants friends and the only thing going for him is the enchanter and- 

god i just want more ll’scar. he’s the ultimate character for me. He’s the babygirl. I wanna study him. I wanna wrap him up in a blanket. I wanna throw him into lava again. I want to hold him gently and give him a cup of tea. 

#guys you dont understand #i am so obssessed #this man- his loser ways captivate me #i could go on and on about him #god hes so good #and all the ANGST for this man? oh #OH #you guys have no idea how much i think about him actually #hes my reason to live #god #ll!scar is my favorite and i cannot believe i dont draw him more #gtws #im sorry #i just needed to ramble about him #stiff talk #goodtimeswithscar #Trafficblr #ll!scar

[ragnarssons]

happy ten years to the show that brought me so much misery and pain (sometimes in a good way), only to end in the most nonsensical, underwhelming, stupid way

#the 100 #the 100 wank #bellarke #i sure hope jroth remains unemployed 🤷‍♀️ #yes im petty that way #in memorian of his stupid spin off that never happened lol #it was once a tv show about humanity coming back to earth and learning to live together #it ended with them joining an alien mindcontrolling thing-god and just.... dying..... 🤦‍♀️ #and humanity isn't saved at all and they never learn from all of this #don't get me started on the 38284737 time jumps #man this show was A MESS #memoriam* btw

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i've gotten several asks as to how i'm doing after the update, and uh.

well refer to This Image for your answer-

#im ILL im ILL #in a good way! but oh my god #im gonna need a few days yall- #there was so much and it was all perfect and im So Overwhelmed with new information!!!! #i need to get my brain back in working order! #theres just. i dont even know where to start... #i think i'll start with editing the livestream vid so i can post it #i won't be doing anything fancy i just want to cut out long pauses #and maybe add a clown emoji overlay when i'm being a fuckin idiot lmaooooo #absolutely unprompted #oh man after the stream i had to go sit down in the dark living room #im so happy we're finally diving into the meat of it and its KILLING ME <3 #welcome home continues to make me simultaneously better AND worse! #except x10 bc holy shit. hooollllyyyyyyy shit. whoa <3 #when the horror project has horror in it (cheering&crying.jpeg)