#god they truly make me so insane

[lonesome-dreamsss]

his handprint may be burned into your skin but it's still the gentlest touch you've ever received.

#smth smth destiel #cas was always so gentle with dean #he knew of dean's pain and wanted to ease it!! #he wanted to be a good thing in dean's life!! #when he pulled him from hell it wasn't truly pulling #he cradled dean like he was the most precious thing in the world #and honestly he probably WAS the most precious thing in the world to cas #even as early as then #to quote 'when castiel first laid a hand on you in hell he was lost' #god they make me insane #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #supernatural #does this count as fanfic even if it's one sentence #a poem perhaps #idk it's something that i wrote so i'll take it

[gordonsicedcoffee]

mandy and the birth of venus print she has taped up on her wall...........literally SO special to me OML

something something venus, goddess of love and beauty and victory, born from seafoam.

daughter of the god of the sky—your existence the result of time cutting him down. blood in water, flesh bobbing to the surface. and then there you were. you surely never had a past. you simply appeared one day fully formed, exactly as you are now. or at least you wish you had. and sometimes you feel like you can almost believe that.

thinking about a nook tucked away into a corner of the world, the parted maw of a seashell. about the word venus having ties to the word vanus in sanskrit. about the fact that it roughly translates into "to desire".

about how languages are adopted and morphed and hobbled together into something new. about a newness that is made by necessity, by force.

something something a life of longing and wanting. keeping a doll on your bed because you're always carrying around the ghost of who you were as a child. she's always there, even when you don't want her to be. hedging all your belief on a creator that was irrevocably severed from you from the very start. looking for beauty in all that blood. something something

#sorry for the wall of weird prose. I'm just. Thinking About This A Lot today #truly. ever since I rewatched this movie. I've just. been SO fixated on this fckn detail about her lil nook #it makes me criminally insane #god. anyways #saw iii #amanda young #sawposting #mine

[youremyonlyhope]

It is so crazy to me that in the year of our Duck Lord 2024, there are still StarKid fans who are only just now learning that Curt Mega was on Glee.

#starkid #team starkid #curt mega #you could also say the year of our Wizard God or Dead God or Lords in Black or in the year of our AJ Holmes (iykyk) #but as we all know. duck is lord. so i went with that. #this is because of a reply on one of Curt's recent tweets. and i see tweets of people realizing it every few months. #Curt and Tessa didn't sing 'I Wanna Be A StarKid Actor' for people to forget why Curt wanted to be one but wasn't one yet #those of us who were StarGleeks back in the day went actually INSANE when Curt was announced in the cast of Black Friday. #i know because i was one of them. i lost my mind. (and finding out Kim was joining too was another shock to my system) #watching the evolution from LeakyCon to him being in JMOMS then Tin Can Bros then StarKid was a JOURNEY. #it's times like these that i am reminded i truly am a starkid fandom elder... and it makes me feel ancient #(no shade to these fans. but this is like an INTEGRAL part of starkid lore because Curt and Kim are so involved now.)

[hephaestuscrew]

I think every Wolf 359 fan should look at the timeline of the show every once in while and find something to go insane about.

Like the fact that the whole podcast happens over the course of just over two years, and Eiffel spent 193 days of that time entirely alone on Lovelace's shuttle... Or the fact that they were already 448 days into the mission by the time of the first episode and Eiffel still hadn't taken the DSSPPM out of its plastic wrapping... Or the fact that it took 607 days of living together before Minkowski mentioned her husband to Eiffel and Hera... Or the fact that Lovelace had been on the station for only 14 days when Eiffel nearly died from Decima and only 21 days when Eiffel got stranded in deep space... Or the fact that it was Day 666 when he got stranded... Or the fact that there were 81 days between Minkowski finding out about Eiffel's jail sentence and her telling him that she knew... Or the fact that Minkowski, Eiffel and Jacobi spent 15 days under Pryce's mind control... Or the fact that the second Hephaestus mission was 1223 days long when it was only meant to be 730... Or the fact that there were nearly 7 years between Isabel Lovelace arriving on the Hephaestus for the first time and her finally leaving it behind for good...

#If there are errors in this it's cos I'm bad at maths #God bless whoever put together that timeline on the wiki #Feel free to scream about the parts of the timeline that make you go insane #I've posted about the time of Minkowski not talking to Eiffel about his jail sentence before #but it is always worth being emotional about again #I have a bad sense of the passage of time both in my own life and in fiction #so I have to look at the timeline to fully appreciate the truly batshit rollercoaster ride that was the second Hephaestus mission #Some things that you might assume happened over a period of time actually happened very close together #and some things that you might assume weren't going on for that long actually took ages #I do think the initial antagonism between Lovelace and Minkowski & Co. makes more sense #when you remember that it's all happening over a relatively brief period of time #It is funny to me that Eiffel and Minkowski were at loggerheads for so long when you include pre-canon #and I think the time period of them coming to care an awful lot about each other is actually relatively short by comparison #w359 #Wolf 359 #the empty man posteth #w359 spoilers #Wolf 359 spoilers

[usermoreid]

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#the doctor and jack actually make me so insane #like. i am going to live for a very long time and i have nobody that truly understands what its like to die and be reborn #and i latch onto people who will die and leave me and i will never get to experience genuinely spending my life with somebody #and you are immortal and you love me and you waited so long for me but i cannot bear even being in the same room as you #the very sight of you hurts. #i met you when you were chasing your past and i was running from mine #and now you chase me as i run from you. #you're too permanent. i don't know what permanent feels like anymore. #like my fucking god i have so much more to say but i am so tired and in so much pain😭 i just love them so much #this is specifically ab ten and jack btw if u couldnt tell #i just think theyre tragic and wonderful and i love them and despise them. u get it. #sorry these r all tags bc my thoughts r not coherent enough to actually post this. so im whispering. #tenjack

[definitelynotshouting]

Hey guys who wants a hunger au scene?? :]

My friend @corvidaearts was so cool and kind enough to draw a comic for the hunger au fic, so i thought i would post the actual scene in question to provide a little context for it. Thank you so much, Crow, i am truly bananas over the comic you did for this holy shit, PLEASE go check it out on their account, and i hope you guys enjoy this little nugget of the fic!!!

cws for: suicidal ideation, past suicide attempt, starvation, themes of disordered eating. Be safe!!

"I think," Grian says, slowly, wearily, "you've made a mistake."

Xisuma winces; the motion is sharp and jarring without his helmet as a barrier between them. "I know," he says, and there's a layer of shame and heavy regret running over the words. "I… I hear that. I wasn't thinking with my head when we– when I kicked you. It was all–" he makes a nebulous gesture in the air between them, before letting his arm fall again– "such a big mess, it got away from me." His lips tilt up in a wry smile. "Like it always tends to."

"No, no– not that." Grian sighs, does his best to ignore the band cinching tight around his chest. His eyes flutter shut, just for a moment; the echoes of Mumbo's urgent voice still plead with him to keep them open. "You made a– kicking me was for the best." He lifts tired lashes again, staring Xisuma down with as much conviction as he can muster. "But you should've just killed me when you had the chance. I was trying to help you."

The words drop from his mouth like beads of glass, shattering as they hit the floor. For a single, frozen eternity, Xisuma stares at him with uncomprehending eyes.

Then the world begins to spin again, and Xisuma physically recoils.

"Grian," he breathes, "You can't actually mean that. And– help us? What does that even mean?"

"It means I'm dangerous when I'm like this." Bitterness drips from Grian's voice before he can stop it– thick and viscous, painting the air in broad strokes. "Every time I pulled people into those games, it was because I was hungry. And people– people got hurt for it. People died over it, and they were tricked into thinking it'd be permanent–" he breaks off; his breath is beginning to come fast, chest expanding and contracting in a rapid cycle. "I did that," he finishes, and it's a punch to the gut, a breathless admission that shrouds the air over them. "I shouldn't be– I can't let myself ever do that again, X. I can't be trusted."

#grian #watcher!grian #watchers #evo watchers #xisumavoid #xisuma #hermitcraft #3rd life #traffic series #hermitblr #trafficblr #hunger au #cw: suicidal ideation #cw: starvation #shouting speaks #this is truly like. maximum self indulgence for me so dont look at me crazy for this #gods. rip grian i am making him go through it SO hard rn #<- said as if i do not do this every single day #anyway holy shit guys go check out the comic cause i feel insane #my snippets #txt

[running-in-the-dark]

had one very short interaction with my mother-in-law and once again I think I won't get through living here until the end of March :)

#she drives me insane #she asked something. I answered. she goes 'okAaaAayyyy?' in the most irritating tone ever. #like what is wrong with you. what. #she's so fucking irritating. truly the most joyless serious bitter person I have ever met (and I have met my mother so...... that's saying #something) #it's just. man social interaction is already so difficult but she just. makes EVERYTHING weird. #literally dude all I said was that yes everything's great with me and the cats 👍 how ELSE was I supposed to respond to that?? #I know I'm overthinking it and being a horrible ungrateful little bitch but god I just can't stand her #I don't CARE what they do for us I still just don't like them 😭 yes I know I'm the worst 😭 #my husband had to promise me that I won't have to see them more than twice a year once we move. I just. they drain every last bit of life #and joy and happiness out of everything #drives me insane #anyway I'm done being an asshole for now #been trying to take a tumblr break but where else would I complain about this. #personal

[skitskatdacat63]

Traje de luces are seriously peak design, they will literally never get old for me. Every once in a while I'll go on a hunt for more matador pics, and I feel like my art isn't even brushing the surface. Just the amount of poses, colors, situations I could draw is so endless WAUGH

Sometimes they're truly the only thing I want to draw :,) I want to live in a parallel universe where all our f1 boys are bullfighters instead

#my AUs are actually just me wanting to draw different clothes WHO KNEW #i mean yeah i write lore but 🥱 #though its funny bcs i do really love racesuits but god i really have no interest in drawing them #on the other hand: 18th century fashion. traje de luces. hussars. IM EATING THEM !!!!!!!!!! #im looking at pics of this one famous matador and like. hes not that attractive objectively but god he looks so hot as a matador #and hes an older guy but im looking at these pics like MAN MY ART WILL NEVER BE THIS GOOD #like I feel like nothing i draw will ever be enough nothing will ever fufill the urge in me ig #and i make up my own poses a lot but then i look at actual matador pics and god theyre just so fucking good its insane #and i keep seeing new traje de luces like new colors and designs and man truly the best costume ever designed #just the fact that they can wear a beautiful peachy pink color and it still looks so good even soaked in blood #yeah idk i think i feel this way w all my AUs #no matter how muvh i draw i still never feel satisifed or fufilled #I NEED TO EAT THEM. #maybe ill reblog w some pics i downloaded lol they make me insane #lol just saying this cause theres other things i reslly should be working on #but im constantly like matador go brrrrrrrrr #especially since my last one got a lot of notes 🤭🤭 #catie.rambling.txt

[duncanor]

I love horror as a genre but I've never felt frighten or genuinely horrified by it. I just really love the strange concepts and the haunting narratives.

Trigun Stampede episode 11 tho? I legit feel ill and horrified the more I think about it.

Can't believe they would violate my boy this way.

I'm just-

#trigun #trigun stampede #Vash #vash the stampede #Im coping rn #Like that's insane #Im feeling so sad about this ep #And I don't mean this in a bad xay #Im really impressed with studio orange work #I love it really #But jesus christ this is destroying me in a way I was not ready for #Like #That's horrible man #He better have some good moment to make up for this level of horror next season bc my god #This is horrifying #Truly #trigun stampede spoilers

[palukoo]

rip to every queer woman in old hollywood who tried to shoot their shot with Bette Davis…….. there but for the grace of god go I

#this is literally copy pasted from my texts to my sisters but like. I think this one was good and true #and I’m committing to the bit of posting my silly things sometimes #oh also to clarify this is not just like ohhhh Bette so hot although like dear god absolutely!! #it’s that so many things about bette radiate such a powerful dyke energy that i would simply ASSUME that she was gay #like sooo many things. my ultimate thesis is like of course we will never know and definitions of sexuality are variable and etc etc #but also bette’s dykey energy + insane levels of repression + explicitly stated unhappiness in relationships with men… are just interesting #truly makes me want to do actual in depth research about her. bc I think she’s neat!! #bette davis #old hollywood #my post #tagged

[ihatebnha]

I can't believe Bakugo canonically hates rain now that's so sad

No because… he looks outside and is happy it’s sunny. He thinks things like “the weather is so nice” and “it’s a beautiful day.” He likes the way sunshine feels on his shoulders, and being in patches of light that warm his whole body up.

And when it rains he gets all grumpy and antsy and just wants to hole up inside. He wishes that the sun were out. I’m gonna kill myself.

#bakugo #I said this exact thing on my side blog so just ignore this if you saw that LOL #but… he’s the real sunshine boy #god… makes me insane to think about. truly insane #and if he lives he’ll hate the rain even more #I just want to hug him and make cookies with him when it’s stormy out #and when it’s sunny go for a hike and have a picnic #and I always think deep in my heart that Bakugo has at least a few freckles #from being out in the sun #on his nose and shoulders and arms and back of his neck #from his tank top #BECAUSE HE LIKES THE SUN I HOPE I DIE!!!!!!! #ask #anon #caitie chats #bnha spoilers

[orcelito]

I think one of the best things about writing Vash the Stampede is I can just do whatever the fuck I want. There are very few limits to his physical capability. He's got superhuman strength, weird as fuck flexibility, impossibly precise dexterity, and the Devil's Own Luck

Add in the incredibly variable & minimally defined plant powers and there is just... so fucking much I can do

Many times now I've ended up being like "would this even work??" Or "how would I explain this happening??" & it's just like. Fuck It. "Because Plants"

Because Plants is my favorite excuse. I enjoy this creative sandbox very much.

#speculation nation #trigun #itnl shit #<- relevant bc that's where this is most applied. happens in Sentido too but not as much #ive pulled some bonkers shit in itnl so far and we havent even gotten to the Truly bonkers shit yet #like him just casually jumping from the 3rd floor like it's nothing. several times. #him with his insane balance holding a struggling kid still as he balances a cup of water on his knee #climbing 100 feet up a giant structure with minimal handholds IN THE DARK??? #getting blasted with a Lethal amount of electricity & walking off 4th degree burns like 'Meh. it hurts i guess. no big deal tho' #AND the fucking. fly test around the 500 ft tall butte where hes just fucking jumping and soaring #& then clips his wing 50 ft in the air so he goes for a Tumble (50 ft in the air) and he grinds thru the sand for like hundreds of feet #bc he was flying FAST. creating a fucking gouge in the land from his tumble. giant cloud of sand kicked up in the air. #he comes to a stop on his back. his wings fucking Hurt. but him himself? oh he is Just Fine. #CRAZY! BONKERS I TELL YOU! and it's perfectly within the bounds of canon!!!!!! #i love playing in this sandbox soooo fucking much i swear lmao #vash is also so goofy and lovable and makes scenes so entertaining to write #until it comes time to Hurt Him and then that's fun to write too heheh #idk man like i love his personality Of Course. but the creative liberties this universe has allowed me to take is SOOO fun #im over here pulling stunt after stunt and i have plans for even more #OH GOD THIS ISNT EVEN MENTIONING THE ANGEL CENTIPEDE THING!!!!!!!!!! hfsjhfkshfjdbdjshdj #oh vash the stampede my beloved. how i enjoy writing you so...

[callingcxrd]

Ohhh I must find someone who Makes Outfits. If I want Earl's entire outfit I need someone who can actually make that. and I need someone in mind so I remember to save my money for it. Does anyone know anybody who Makes Outfits

#I keep spending some of every paycheck on SOME new Earl thing like. a comm or a charm or whatever I end up thinking of that week Every Week #I get paid weekly and keep doing this. every week #It's worth it. I would spend any amount of money for Earl. But also I must save money to buy the greatest Earl things of all... #Such a dilemma truly. #I plan on covering my entire room in him also. Everyone needs to know just how autistic I am #You see I am not quirky silly cutesy Sanitised TikTok Brand Autistic I'm genuinely insane about this guy in the eyes of any NT #I want to commission a tattoo design with one of his quotes and get it on my shoulder. I'm not even a tattoo kind of person otherwise #Genuinely I love this guy so much. I always want to do more stuff to show how much but I'm literally running out of ideas #I've thought about making a webpage collection of stuff for him that's all neatly designed and everything. Maybe I could have his trial -- #theme play on the page? Not sure #It could be like. a comprehensive resource on ALL of my Earl stuff. how he became important to me. All that #GOD. There is so much I must do I can never rest I am going to dedicate my life to this little pastry guy. #Fortunately this is exactly what I want to do and I am incredibly happy with doing so <3 Teehee! Autism and mental illness win #Bleu.txt

[fourteenthz]

CRYING. SCREAMING. THROWING UP.

#kelly watches cr #OH THAT WAS NICE. THAT WAS SO NICE. I ADORE how this came from a conversation of forgiveness and healing. GOD. #they are not fixing each other they are fixing themselves to be a better version and enjoy one another #they are ALWAYS on the same page it's so insane to me like when percy starts to talk about it and vex gets excited #because it was exactly what she was trying to say #and she's not the one good with words so it gets so fun watching her get more and more excited with the conversation #once percy duels more into it and then she's all giggles taking off her bow and showing him her cravings #also GOD BLESS TRAVIS. he was SO EXCITED FROM THE FUCKING START #SAME I was hiding giggling twirling my hair they make me SOOO NORMAL. #it seems to me that some of them talked about it before because matt seemed to encourage tal with the kiss #its SOOO CUTE how they can make sure things go well while improvising all the rest... the way percy ends with a commentary about vax #and vex laughs it off and the conversation gets a lot more light-hearted so it doesn't feel too out there that he kissed her #it's so funny seeing this kiss vs vaxleth “you know I'm im love with you right?” THEY ARE TRULY OPPOSITES #percahlia cautiously walking around each other for so long. vax having to talk some sense into his sister. #and just omg im not over how they found middle ground there in the forest. #vex calling him to talk just because she wanted to and it escalating to them understanding each other more than themselves could #its so cute seeing laura's and tal's reaction to it you can picture percahlia doi g the exact same expressions #and getting overwhelmed with the thought of the other having the exact same thought #it stuns me they really have nothing alike one another but they just are perfect for each other solely for the fact that they get it #they truly seem to react differently to most stuff but still being there on the same page. #idk how to describe it but the way percy always interacts with vex makes me think that's exactly what she deserves #and the same goes for the other way around. like they don't need each other but they deserve what they have in each other #ITS SO. I CARE THEM SO MUCH YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. #going insane over these guys i need fanart why am I so late im scared to search for fanart and see spoilers BUT OH MAN DO I NEED IT #screaming you with the dark curls song while staring at the ceiling and thinking about percahlia for unhealthy amounts of hours #i had forgot to post about her kiss before so i just did it NOT REALLY KNOWING WE WOULD HAVE ANOTHER ONE THIS EPISODE #thinking about the fact that percy doesn't know that vex said she was giving him her heart and that she kissed him #and how that means he had to gather so much courage to kiss her in the woods.... running away right after... how vex didn't told him abt it #.... cowards in love. my favorite trope. I swear these two are just a pair of friends that are so into each other its so simple and healthy #i just.. i love love. i love complex characters having simple beautiful things.. they deserve the entire world actually but I'll take this.

[shopcat]

i genuinely do take it so personally when people are against st/eddie Only because it's popular but will like every other god awful crackship rarepair bullshittery or just. every other couple possible basically like they would rather ship eddie and tommy h or soemthing IT DRIVES ME CRAZYYYYYYYYYY YOU ARE NOT COOL OR INDIVIDUAL U HAVE A COLD BLACK HEART like literally get over it i'm SORRY. they're so nothing they're literally so nonoffensive like i Get it i Get it but on the principle alone no i don't get it your soul is full of evil + happiness evades you

#🐾 #it also usually means they have some weird thing against steve for the same reason but then will be obsessed w eddie as if eddie isn't just #the current white boy of the month... steve is the white boy of the YEAR you are insane they are the SAME #also i can't even be truly mad bc i get it i hate 99% of fanon bullshit too i hate most st/eddie fans other than my own mutuals BUT MY GOD #does it matter xo #they're always jonathan stans too ohhhh i am not unaware of the rituals happening here BELIEVE ME -_- #sts #like no i don't hate the jonathan girls but they hate ME what am i supposed to do here ... This is war <- joking and being silly xo #no but actually i also see other stuff like ohhh my god ppl who r obsessed w jar/gyle but hate st/eddie like you know Why #and they think they're so locked in and based like can you please get a tremendous grip #also is entirely silly bc i love those two in fact with argyle is one of the only ways i can tolerate jonathan these days he makes him the #best version of his character. to me. Of what s4 murdered of him. am i speaking english #anywya

[ectonurites]

aughghghghh... tiny detail i just noticed on rewatching SDT again... Meghan & Allison's matching yin/yang necklaces...

#feeling insane again sorry. i wasn't rewatching the WHOLE movie but. scenes while making gifs. anyways. #meghan plays such a small role in the movie like out of the named characters but she compels me so. her dead girl charm #like truly she just wanted to vibe. hosting her bestie's birthday party. offering up a page from the bible to roll a joint. made her own #sound effects while playing around with the sword & called it 'fucking rad'. she was JUST trying to have a good time #but also something something zach & josh's friendship deteriorating because of actions that while accidental still were Of Their Own Doing #but allison & meghan's friendship—and meghan's life—being casualties. collateral damage in that fallout. something something the way that #guilt and grief can extend so far beyond the people initially impacted if left unchecked/improperly addressed #grandpa max is god? i go to church now