#god. so ashamed

[that-sweet-jester]

It's Her.

#I haven't posted for like 3 months now my god I'm so ashamed #But I never had such strong art block before #fan art #mcyt #dsmp #my art #dsmp fanart #dream smp #dream smp fanart #philza fanart #philza minecraft #dmsp philza #mumza #kristin #dsmp kristin #goddess of death #kristin fanart #dsmp art #the only finale that matters. #dream smp art #dream smp finale

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Bruh emotional support ghost kid? Well thats what they are calling him

Suicide cases in gothem are about to fucking plummet boiz cause this one weird blue eyes, black haired boy is now heading to your location.

How does he know where to be? Having a bad day and are all alone? No the fuck your not cause don’t turn around now but theres some shiny blue eyes coming at you from that dark ally. Oh shit hes here to drop some information about you and your lost loved ones that he should know. Oh god the closure. How could you have been afraid on this sweet, creepy, boy who just helped you find your way.

Meanwhile Danny is chillin in Gothem cause the GIW hate it there (none of they equipment actually functions in Gothem so it’s either super haunted or actually not haunted at all). Then all of a sudden he gets approached by a random ghost begging for his help because their sweet baby girl is about to do something horrible. Oops now all the ghosts are following their most loved ones around just to make sure they are there to rush to Danny for help when all else fails. Now hes getting to fulfil his protection obsession double time because one hes helping protect people from themselves and two hes protecting everyone in Gothem by stopping people from becoming villains for revenge. Plus he gets to see first hand how hes making a difference because all those people he saved are sending him some good vibes from all across Gothem.

Thank god he followed Jazz around so much to slightly absorb some of her phycology knowledge over the years. Plus it was actually pretty interesting so she gave him her old text books. Shes also helping him deal with the rare events where he can’t save someone. Just a moment too late or he stops them but they later succeeded in the hospital. Neither are his fault. Now only if he could convince his core of that.

Anyway why Gothem you ask? Amity Park would have been just as good tbh but imagine Batmans face when he finally gets to be face to face with the emotional support ghost boy. Why is he here? Bruce is fine. Batman is fine. Hes not gonna do anything crazy. It’s just a hard time of year. Around their death always gives him grief. But hes an adult and can manage it.

“You know they are so proud of you.” The boy states. As if it’s clear as day, even though it’s Gothem and never a clear day. Batman blinks at him, stunned for a moment. “What?” This boy can’t possibly know that. No one will ever know that, Bruce can only hope. “They see their home, full of such life. That big house that felt so empty, so cold, to them as well for years. Then you filled it with Family and Love like they had always wanted for you. They are so proud of what you have turned it into. Somewhere full of life and warmth.” A small smile graces his face as finally “you have made your parents so proud” and its all he can do to contain himself. Emotions are running high and sue him because he really did need to hear that ok. The boy suddenly looks to Bruces right with a confused face “aren’t all basements like that though?” Before Bruce can even get a word in hes gone. Just vanished before his eyes.

#danny phantom #danny fenton #dpxdc #dp x dc #batman #I just wanted to write danny walking up to the buggest toughest batman and make him cry tears of relief #danny is helping his subjects find closure while always feeding his protection obsession #let him be interested in his sisters word #also god imagine bruce just having a bad time of it cause is the anniversary of his parents death #than the ghost kid just walks up and tells him exactly what he needed to heat #yes they are proud of the word batman does #he knows he has saved lives #but what about him as a father #would his father be ashamed of his parenting skills #would his mother be discusted at how he treats his children #he always remembers his parents as good parents so he wants to do right by them by also being a good parent #anyone can risk their life for another but few can be a good father #actually it’s easy just love your kids and sont walk out and leave them with an insane bitch of a mother #dad im lookin at you #and dknt marry your fucking step sister dad #isnt our family tree circle enough. why must u follow in grandmothers footsteps #at least with him is marrage related aye? #oops im rabling about my daddy issues teehee

[asafeplaceforus112]

I currently just feel so overwhelmed by cleaning

Does anyone have any ADHD cleaning tips?

Rant below

I have no clue on how to fix this but I'm sick of having no space and being treated by my parents like I'm a slob

You know even though they never bothered to teach me how to clean, how they clean is based on their dopamine "time to do this task now" and how I've never lived in a clean house my whole

I just feel so frustrated

Currently my brain thinks that if I get storage (because I do not, and it resulted in me just having shit everywhere)

I just feel so frustrated and it's keeping me awake and I just want to sleep and not think about this

#adhd #adhd cleaning #neurodivergent #neurodivergent cleaning #cleaning #frustrated #room cleaning #adhd room #adhd room cleaning #cleaning tips #tips #please god #rant #vent #negative rant #negative vent #im just so fucking frustrated #why is cleaning so hard #why do others know how to clean right #like i just other people have rooms that their parents arent so ashamed of that they wont let you bring your friends intl your room #UUUUUUUUGGHHHHHH #I feel like screaming #i thlught this would help me go to sleep but it just made this deeling worse ):< #so annoyed #so frustrated #someone please give me a good tip

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

thinking about when keating asks the purpose of language and neil says “to communicate” and keating goes “no! to woo women!” like?? did you expect neil perry of all people to guess/resonate with that?? you know just as well as i do that mf is a homosexual.

#neil is like “??? why would i wanna woo women?? i just wanna woo todd??” #anderperry #dps #dead poets society #neil perry #john keating #todd anderson #neil x todd #dead poets honor #god i remember when the dps fandom was so small that i became a relatively big dps blog #now look at me #a no good phannie account #i am in fact a multifandom account i have never been a dps account or a phannie account #but being a big name in the dps fandom was way more admirable than the phandom #no offence phannies i love you with all of my heart #but you’re all as ashamed as i am to be in this boat <3 #i need yall to know that at the end of the day #other than lotr #my loyalty lies with dps #my username on letterboxd and ao3 are both from dps #and dps got me writing again #ok i can’t turn this into a dps retrospective i literally wrote a ten page paper on my relationship with dps like 8 years ago #also dps/anderperry was a big part of my sexuality journey OK IM DONE #yeet my deet

[tubbytarchia]

Sorry I'm still feeling dread about maid Jimmy. Poorly made comic thing under cut

Sorry this is gonna take up space but I really wanted it to be viewed as intended and such... I put it under read-more though so no one can complain!!

My art block is as strong as ever and killing me but I'm feeling so emotional and dreadful about that last SOS episode still, I forced my way through it lol. Joel wasn't there when it went down (I'm so fucking glad), which made me think of this instead and uh yeah I'm. Fuck man I dont even care about SOS that much!!!! This has ruined me

The way Pix (didn't really do anything wrong btw) made Jimmy dig a hole because he owed him for saving his life, and then Sausage comes in "aha!!!" and obligates Jimmy to do something for him too, quickly disregarding any uncertainty on Jimmy's half and shifting it onto Jimmy with "You actually reminded me that you owe me" (paraphrasing) grrrrr. And tbf he did talk about dancing at that point, but later Jimmy was clearly made to believe that he'd only be serving drinks and then Sausage goes "you're serving YOURSELF!" GRRRRRRR sorry this is just minecraft I know I know. I'm reading to deep into it yaada yaada. But no fuck that I want Jimmy to be happy and not to be made feel like he owes people things even if they saved him, I don't want Jimmy to talk like he's about to cry, I don't want him to be talked down to, I don't want him to feel like he has no room to object and has to just listen to others or expect to be treated a certain way hardwired into his brain, I don't want his abrasiveness to be more of a sought reaction to bullying/teasing/etc rather than a sign of the confidence he used to have, he's been through enough!!!! I hate this why can't I just awooga at maid Jimmy. That'd make things so much easier. Alas the horrors

#fuck it main tag fuck this!! I put a read-more so I'm alleviated of everything totally #I'm ashamed but. I see what other type of content gets maintagged anyway and that makes me feel better about my own #jimmy solidarity #Im so emotional Im SO emotional about him stop me please #This is just FH again for me my god Jimmy's been through enough!! #tubby art #Joel IS here but I hope to god no one complains about this as if it were shipping just because he's standing opposite of maid Jimmy #I do fucking love them as a duo a lot though (bad boy Grain erasure oops). Need to draw them more... for the betterment of the soul

[elgrandebonemeal]

made a whole new sideblog just because i dont think people draw this guy fucked up enough

versions without text and also with/without glasses n fuzzy glitches whoop

#slimecicle #charlie slimecicle #qsmp #qsmp slimecicle #qsmp slime #qsmp charlie #qsmp charlie slimecicle #hello slimecicle qsmp watchers. can we please for the love of god agree on a single tag #anyway yea ik he Technically lost the glitches in the prison whatever but i am choosing to ignore that #which is quite easy when he is the only pov i watch #i feel slightly ashamed for making him so twinkish but when his diet consists entirely of avocado toast and rotten flesh i have to bear it #that little bump on his bicep was an act of generosity on my part. at least the grey hairs can slightly make up for it </3 #anyway how many times does he have to explode before yall start drawing him pathetic enough #put that harrowed face with the complexion of a fresh corpse in the playboy outfit. cowards

[lameow-l]

GAMING IS MY SON AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM IM GONNA KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM AND THEN MYSELF!!

LOOK AT HIM HES SO CUTE

i still have hope in getting the other boys too

its ok they can be a band or smth.. at least then gaming wouldn’t have to be so disappointed in people not hiring him bc he’s just having fun with his boys…

#it took me soooo long to realize his name can also be 'gaming' and idk if i should be ashamed or proud lol #his hashtag is gonna get real funny real quick #is it actually an intentional business decision made by hyv #no way this was accidental #anyway im disappointed in his hair design but i stopped feeling much since all genshin charas always have the ugliest hairstyles #also him being another bennett just not as unlucky #he works so hard and still tries to achieve his artistic dream at the same time #but people just smile and ignore him…PAY THE DUDE!!! #ALSO ALSO.. chiaki 2.0 and they better add all other ryuseitai next #i just can get over how energetic and cool genshin concept designs are when the game keeps slapping us with a downgraded version every time #not to say current designs aren’t energetic or cool.. just not as much lol (still salty about red xiao and those flying nahidas) #now i know why they still not doing an art book yet.. they’re ashamed to admit of the amounts of good designs they never use #AND I LOVE GENSHIN DESIGNS honest (otherwise why would i keep doing fanart of this game and this game only for 3 years) #sorry i dont post all of them.... i have issues #but i cant help but feel robbed when i see these designs knowing what they could’ve been #and it’s in no way hyv’s fault *glance at leakers* and the new designs are getting crazier and cooler but #please for the love of god hyv stop with the mullets PLEASE!!! #gaming #ga-ming #gaming genshin #genshin impact

[im-getting-help]

OMG Oliver, why did you lie? why did you tell me that your parents were addicts and dealers? that you didn't have siblings? why would you say that your father died? you came to my door crying and telling me a story about how your dad died in an awful way. Why?

Oliver, being completely honest:

#this line always gets me #LIKE WDYM #the worst part is that he's being completely 100% sincere and it KILLS me #IT IS INSANE #like #“i just felt like it was going to be more entertaining if i pretended to be a real charity case” #“and i wanted to be entertaining” #“cause i don't think there's anything else i can give you that has any value to you” #“and all i really want is to be in your presence as long as i can” #“cause what else can i ask from you?” #OLIVER MY GOD #and he's so ashamed too #he's not ashamed of the lies #he's ashamed of confronting how pathetic the truth sounds #like he wants so bady to believe he's not a boy acting out of desperation and love #but he isssss #you're just a boy in limerence #you have NO control #you have NO power #only raw emotion #saltburn #oliver quick #cattonquick #felix catton #oliver x felix #crazy boy ily

[oranjeleeuw]

My boyfriend is so real for this, they're ridiculous. You know you can meet and talk outside of work too, right???

#Swear to god you guys should just move in together in Monaco or idk 😭 #Lewis pulling his phone out is so real he knows he can't get involved in that so he might as well check his socials #Lestappen. Should be ashamed of themselves. But do they care?? #Két hülye beszélget as my bf says that is this ship #lestappen #max verstappen #Charles Leclerc #f1 #mexico gp 2023

[vroomian]

YRZ: Takes care of Charlie and Lucifer during the most tumultuous period of their lives. (Tis is nothing.) Luci: Sees YRZ teaching Charlie to make soup for him and take care of laundry while giving a should to cry on for the both of them. And continues doing so for the next three years. All while knowing YRZ hates dealing with EMOTIONS and RESPONSIBILTY. (. . . I am doomed.)

Well. In the future, yes. But at the moment? Reed is persona non grata in Lucifer’s eyes.

The main problem is when you feel debilitating depression like that it lies to you. It lies to you so much. Everything is harder. You don’t want to do shit like get out of bed, or parent, or eat.

But Reed has out stubborned heaven, and he is both merciless and paicent when it comes to his self appointed tasks. So: Lucifer doesn’t have a choice. He gets up, or Reed gets him up. He eats, or Reed force feeds him. He spends time with Charlie, or Reed forces him to tell her why himself. Lucifer is dragged by the hair into being functional again. Reed is not kind about it, honestly.

The only way Reed makes it through the whole three years alive, is because Lucifer does love Charlie more than anything. Even in his depression he can’t bring himself to make her cry, and she loves her Uncle Reed. So Reed remains unsmited and willing to take full advantage of it.

When Reed judges that Lucifer isn’t in danger of a relapse, he accepts permanent banishment from the Morningstar castle without complaints or remorse. He doesn’t feel bad and he would do it again. It takes them a couple years to become friends again.

#you've got questions we've got answers #the problem with Yrz is that he’s loyal. sometimes that means forcing your loved ones into better paths. #he’s like you can hate me all you want pal but you will be better so help me god #Lucifer is angry and ashamed for a long time after lol #better towns au

[desperatehoney]

Really loving my character development from ‘repressed and won’t even admit he has sexual desire’ to ‘internet slut who constantly talks about how bad he needs to get fucked’

#trans nsft #t4t nsft #mlm nsft #trans guy nsft #ftm nsft #t4t ns/fw #nsft trans #nsft bottom #ftm mlm #ftm bottom #ftm ns/fw #ftm t4t #how crazy is it that I used to be the first one #like y’all wouldn’t believe it but I was sooooo ashamed of everything even nonsexually #I’ve been working so much on my shame I still have ways to go but oh my god the progress #Theeee glow up of all time

[sevendutchies]

People in this fandom will really look at The Fool, Patience, Lacey, Carson, Sedric, Hest, Davvie, Lecter, Kennit, Ash/Spark, and yes, even Fitz himself, and still have the gall to call it queer bait.

These characters are explicitly queer, their actions impact the narrative, they are well written, and their identities are treated with respect. That is the best possible queer representation you could ask for in any story.

I've seen people on tumblr basing the likelihood of if they read this series on whether or not it's "actually gay" and I'm here to tell you that it is. There are queer characters. There are queer protagonists. And no matter what you see people in the fandom say, Robin Hobb wrote some amazing queer representation in a genre that rarely sees it at all.

EDIT: and I think it's pertinent to note that, no, characters who are questioning or struggling with their feelings about sexuality instead of knowing 100% does not make something queer bait or "less gay"

TLDR;

Queer bait = disrespectful marketing ploy that exploits queer audiences

Queer bait ≠ "my two favorite characters never have sex"

#Fitzchivalry ''i wondered if I lied so that I need not be ashamed of myself'' farseer thank you everyone #quite frankly the disrespect to Robin Hobb in this fandom is in EXTREMELY poor taste #the interview from 2008 before half the series was written where she explains why Fitz would not suddenly be head over heels for a person h #perceives as a man because all of his life he has only had heterosexual experiences apparently means that no queer characters exist #whatsoever in the whole series and Robin Hobb is an irredeemable backwards old lady who can't get with the times. right. #Fitzchivalry ''what were we? Beloved'' farseer #this is actually not supposed to be a debate over whether Fitz is canonically queer or not. he is. ope. #also...I do read Kennit as queer. just cause he is traumatized and his queerness comes out in predatory ways doesn't mean he's not queer. #that's called writing a compelling villain baybee #Hest!?!? thank you Robin Hobb for the evil gays god bless <3 #modern reader: the author didn't describe these characters dicks touching in detail therefore she is homophobic #rote #realm of the elderlings #fitzchivalry farseer #the fool #I really had to get this out of my system guys. thanks <3 #as if Robin Hobb didn't give us the FOOL. nonbinary/gender fluid character OF ALL TIME.

[thebirdandhersong]

pray for me please

#I HATE THIS #SAME accursed sin constantly and an astonishing inability to fight it successfully it WONT leave me alone #please pray for me this has been so frustrating and humiliating and horrible for months and years #and half the time i feel too ashamed to talk to God about it because i do such a bad job at learning from the past

[elizakai]

ehe <3

…..

i want you to grasp. i have spent the last 45 minutes a complete mess. my face is still burning. i have, quite literally, never been so flustered in my life.

I wish I was being dramatic.

…..there is no worthy response.

…I-

99999999999999999999/10

#Asks #tuxibirdie #IM #IM STILL FLUSTERED #MY FACE IS BURNING I #Oh god #i wasn’t expecting. This. I was expecting shitty pick up lines and haha funny #Amazing art #Save me. #this has never happened before #I am ashamed #Tuxi babe #…well played. #I don’t think I’ll ever recover #I’ve never been so red in the face #Sona #Im #burrowing away forever

[euryvices]

"oh they changed this" "oh they changed that" CAN EVERYONE JUST STOP HATING ON REMAKES? like i get you're so cool for liking this thing that was super awesome before the "big media" took it over, but it's still part of the same franchise, has the same characters AND IS BRINGING JOY TO NEW WATCHERS and you somehow feel immense hate? can you chill? there are people who HAVEN'T seen this thing before and they LIKE it and all art is DIFFERENT stop acting like a toddler throwing a tantrum JUST BECAUSE YOUR VERSION IS DIFFERENT!!!!

#very targeted post to the one anon in my inbox who told me that they hate the remakes so much like shut the crack up #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #avatar netflix #avatar the last airbender #appa atla #EVEN DISNEY LIVE ACTIONS FOR THE MATTER!!!! #you are NOT in a closed off space or ur dms ur posting ur thoughts or the world to see and some ppl will START TO FEEL ASHAMED OF LIKING #THE REMAKES IF YOU KEEP BEING A LITTLE HATER!!!! #STOP SPREADING HATE #SPREAD LOVE MFS #OR I WILL FIND YOU #I AM NOT SCARED OF GOD OR DEATH I AM TERRIFIED OF HUMANITY BEING LOST TO CLUTCHES OF LITTLE HATING BITCHES #BE NICE ABOUT MEDIA DONT GO TO PPLS INBOXES AND BE LIKE “yea ur super wrong and im super right fuck u slut” LIKE STOP #I AM NOT AFRAID TO PICK A FIGHT. #FIGHT ME IF YOU CAN ABOUT THIS I FEEL NO REMORSE

[viiinz]

everyday I think about him (Ippolit Terentyev)

#idk why of all characters he's the one that has left such an impression on me but oh boy #it's been over a year since I've read his 'explanation' and everything that followed and it hasn't left my mind since #ippolit terentyev #the idiot #god all he wanted was some sympathy and recognition #and they just make fun of him #literally all this boy wants is to be taken seriously and no one does #they either laugh at him or beg him to shut up #because his vulnerability and the fact that he's dying makes them so uncomfortable #and he's so ashamed as well over his own vulnerbility #that even when people aren't laughing at him he'll imagine they are #and people blame him for being self absorbed?? like of course he is!! #he's EIGHTEEN and DYING #this is a teenager who's just come to the realisation that he has no agency over his life whatsoever #and that all that awaits him are the cruel laws of nature #he has a right to be upset about that #he's literally the man condemned to death that myshkin talked about #and yes he's ridiculous and awkward and not always right and incoherent and all that #and he can really be insufferable and contemptuous and unfeeling towards others #and even the state he's in doesn't really serve as an excuse for that #yet i feel bad for him #and he's such a teenager too he's so insecure and just wants to impress the people around him #and yes he's doing it for attention #of course he wants attention #can you blame him?? #all he wants is to be heard #to feel like his life mattered #but instead everyone's just begging him to shut up #like they're just waiting for him to kick the bucket so the uncomfortable ordeal can be over with #sorry i just have a lot of thoughts about Ippolit and I'm being very incoherent because i didn't plan on typing all this lol