#god..... i need to stop... im making too many memes

[mewtwo24]

I just started reading the svsss volumes (and re-read them again because A LOT IS GOING ON) but like. This shit is so hysterically funny I don't even know where to begin.

Was no one????? Going to tell me that one of the cornerstone jokes in the damn series is that lbh's adoration for his one and only 'tism person who literally cannot express his emotions to save his life is basically genetic?????????

Was no one???? No one AT ALL going to tell me that Mobei-Jun straight up yeets Airplane at the problem in one of the scenes?????? And that in the most hilarious twist of fate Airplane then unyeets Mobei-Jun not twenty minutes later?????

It's one thing to see people joke about sqq and lbh being unable to communicate but it's on a league of its own when you have to read HUNDREDS OF PAGES of sqq's inner monologue be like 'that's my darling boy. my baby. my sugar plum pumpy umpkin you're my sweetie pie' but on the outside he says "get lost binghe" and somehow deems that an effective expression of his affection that lbh will surely understand. 'Why is lbh whining and crying and tugging at my sleeve like a plaintive wife, why is he so angry?' Sqq asks, the entire circus, as lbh is about to fling himself off a cliff for attention--

In short, MXTX is the queer comedian of our generation and nobody appreciates her enough

#svsss #bingqiu #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #mxtx what must it be like to carry the gays on your shoulders like this #she ran so that the rest of us could walk oh my actual god #i just can't get over how much of the novels are sqq panicking because he needs to 'do right' by lbh #aka make lbh the absolute lunatic from the original #so its just this uproarious back and forth between a guy trying to make a bbg desperate for his love into a human weapon #AND make himself disappear before that weapon is turned on him (also probably the self-hatred talking) #amazing showstopping spectacular **slaps sqq's back** you can fit so many repressed internalizations of toxic masculinity in this mf #legit as i read these volumes i just kept thinking of that meme like 'congrats sqq buddy that's the worst anyone's ever done it' (joke) #not that lbh is any better but in fairness the lad is going through a lot too so i spare him too harsh a judgement #also sincerely i dont think i was prepared for just how stupid how crazy lbh goes for sqq. it was. MAGNIFICENT #I was like 'surely he isn't that dramatic' and then by god everyone. by god I started reading and went #'jesus christ that's a nuclear missile shaped little meow meow and that's HILARIOUS' #i also just can't get over sqq insisting 'IM NOT GAY. I DONT GAY. IM THE STRAIGHTEST STRAIGHT!!!!' #while. literally. saying full stop to lbh of like 'wym i smile more genuinely at everyone else they're just scarecrows around me' #sqq--the man who couldn't bear to see lbh suffering as a young boy. #who was so affected he was crying in his sleep and calling out lbh's name over and over #ON WHAT LEVEL IS THAT HETEROSEXUAL SQQ. THE JIG IS UP #literally EVERYONE around sqq being like 'congrats on being the last to know' about his love for lbh #and can we talk about sqq being like 'we used to communicate so seamlessly that we had no need for words. there was no greater joy for me.' #and highlighting that though gongyi xiao was a similar and talented young lad he fell decidedly short because he did not have above quality #and then sqq still being in denial; i swear i LOVE the little hints mxtx drops i feel like the happiest mouse scampering around for crumbs #additionally a question: how does anyone take liu qingge seriously #when he's displeased he just yells 'HEY' and does nothing about it (most times) #that is the most boomer dad energy i think i've ever seen #also :(((((((( all the jokes about tianlang-jun (though accurate) were so deceptive my heart was broken at the end of vol.3

[lesserofme]

hi beautiful humans on edblr, im taking a small break from this blog. i think my relapse has made my body dysmorphia even worse, it doesn’t help that i obsess over other peoples bodies on here whilst constantly wishing i can somehow morph into them.

i am still going to be fasting and working out, but just not posting on here for a while (not sure how long as of yet)

i also kinda want to retreat into my spirituality and spend some time connecting to God and praying, i feel like i’m on this app for too many hours and overall it’s pretty unhealthy on my part. i’ve always wanted to do a spiritual fast but could never do one because my ed steps in and makes it about wl and idk, i think that’s mighty disrespectful (albeit out of my control)

earlier today i really saw something massive in my reflection, but after my walk i looked in the mirror and i truly did not look bad, still fat, but not like what i first saw. i remember when i was 12 the same thing would happen, i would see this obese person but i was actually considered chubby at worst (not to mention had lost a shit ton of weight then as well)

idk sis, this shit has been ongoing for so long, im sure u all can relate. i need to work on my mental health. i still need to lose weight, so i can’t just stop that and “recover”, but i do want to make some steps to build a better mindset about myself and my body.

thank u sooo much if u read all of this, 💖i really have love in my heart for every person suffering on here. i know we make jokes and memes and whatnot, but we are all in pain and sufferers of a mental disorder. wish i could hug all of u.

be back when i’m feeling a bit better (and closer to skinniiii lmao)⭐️✨💕

[the-girl-with-the-glass-heart]

Man im so pumped for when like a year or two from now when they remake tarzan and jane is black or some shit and conservatives get really pissed and make a bunch of racist memes and people keep clapping back with the same explanations and reasons they did for the little mermaid. the whole discourse becomes the new hot button topic that gets its own trending tumblr tag and it's all right wing youtube channels talk about. Then Disney makes a million dollars without actually caring about minorities, ya just race bend a white character then sit back and watch as your movie gets a trending tag and unconditional supporters and hate watchers and millions of trailer views. Then for years on black people will love this movie just as much as the og because they have so little representation they will defend it and it will become their definitive version of tarzan. Even the anti capitalist disney haters will see it just to support the actress and make racists cry. Hell, some people don't even want others to criticize the movie because so many racists have used critique to disguise their bigitry. As long as you can use black peoples anger and community to get people talking about your movie with out actually caring about minorities it's ok. Then the movie comes out and it's mediocre at best but the manipulation game works and it makes a shit ton of money. Then you prepare to do it all over again with the live action brave next year.

It will all start again.

Same arguments.

Same videos.

Same clap backs.

It makes me wanna rip my fuckin hair out, time is a flat circle.

For the record it is totally okay to defend halle, i want the best for her too and she needs to be defended, i'm not angry about that. I'm angry that this is a total lose lose scenario that isn't going to affect fucking anything and will all be repeated.

I just wish racists would get a grip already and realize the worlds not gonna be all that different in 30 years cause you complained about scientific accuracy of a mermaids skin. Like the ghost busters remake, everyone argued about that NON STOP and what happened?! NOTHING. World peace hasn't been acheived, the wage gap is still around, all it did was make people talk about the movie! we're all pawns in a terrible insufferable capitalist scheme using black peoples want for representation and outrage to add another dollar to the disney vault, and there's nothing we can do to stop it unless we just let fuckheads like the not my ariel crowd win.

I am so god damn tired.

#live action the little mermaid #the little mermaid #the little mermaid 2023 #live action little mermaid #little mermaid 2023 #halle bailey #capitalism #anti disney #live action disney

[florenceisfalling]

gripping [redacted irl person] by the shoulders.

it does not matter how many r/egg_irl astolfo memes you pull up quite literally asking for random people (including cishets you just met???) to figure out your gender for you. the other queers are not going to feel safe around you when you spend your entire time on campus harassing people, misgendering transmascs in romantically/sexually charged ways, and getting a trans woman (who you Also misgender!) kicked out of her fucking housing. using "i wanna be a girl but im still cis though 👉👈" doesn't come across as endearing anymore when you tell younger transmascs that you wanna make them your gf and have kids with them, or when you used to tell everyone you were a cishet dude and literally fucking ran to physically chase down lesbians you'd never spoken to walking alone at night, or when you. I REITERATE. got a fucking trans woman kicked out of her dorm while calling her a man!! force her to switch to different housing by calling the fucking campus police on her because youre sad!!! and then lie saying she called them on you!!!! the only reason i felt bad for you and was nice to you was bc i thought you were just a sad maybe-autistic maybe-ace person who needed friends (and then maybe-trans maybe-woman maybe-lesbian) but your college experience seems dedicated to making life as hard as possible for every autie, trans person, woman, ace person, lesbian, and various mixes of the above you encounter - and then fucking lying and threatening everyone you consider your "friends" to get what you want after they repeatedly ask you to stop. i had enough of this when my exfriend fucking molested a girl and then said "i think i might be a transbian" as a poor attempt at an excuse (as if tgirls get away with that shit? as if they arent horribly scrutinized??) until all his cis guy friends forgot abt the girl's trauma and then went back to "nvm im a cishet guy :)" once everyone was chill with him again. i am fucking beyond tired of it now that its someone pulling the "i think i might be a transbian too" after fucking up so bad you couldve made a tgirl homeless and openly misgendering and mistreating other tgirls and sexually harassing other queers and refusing to spend any time around trans people (except for those you perceive as cis women - of course, including trans people who don't pass to your liking). stop asking me to decide whether your egg needs cracked or not and start treating trans women (and everyone else, too, what the fuck is wrong with you??) with respect and maybe you'll get some satisfying advice (since you didnt take mine) but at this point everyone is either scared of you or fucking hates you and theres not a single trans person ive met on this campus who has anything to say about you other than "oh yeah, that person stalked me/my friends". like sorry if im a little hesitant to validate you (AS IF YOU DESERVE IT AFTER CALLING SECURITY ON A TGIRL TO KICK HER OUTTT MY GOD I HATE YOU) but you also said "oh dont worry im ace :)" after sending weird sexual shit to someone (after they asked you to fucking QUIT) so youre not new to using your identity as a shield and now turning around and talking abt how you MAYBE are HYPOTHETICALLY a tgirl teehee but you cant decideeeee doesnt change the fact that your actions suck ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXPLODE

#serious transphobia/sa/harassment mention sorry

[lordoftablecloths]

vent post i guess i dont know i just wanted to write stuff down instead of just go ing to bed and crying over it you can just scroll past it

im fine im sane im noramal im so unbleiveably cringe ,, the only person i have irl- fuck, or even online for that matter- to show the dumbass things i write is my silly little dumbass younger brother who doesn;t understand what im trying to get at and i guess its not his fault, i seriously doubt he's spent unhealthy amounts of time making various short scenerios in his head about charcters he came up with and eventually trying to give them a story and write little things about them in google docs because where else am i supposed to put this and its just ,, he doesnt know wht im trying to do and i dont know how to explain it to him because the "history" i gess behind it is so fucking complicated by now that these characters arent even the same characters as they were when i originally created them, other than some physical attributes and their names and he just knows them as the random cringe shit i made up in middle school but so many years have passed by now that these stupid fuckers whose only purpose to serve is to make me stop remembering that i exist and ive gotten too attatched to them because who else was i supposed to get attatched to when i was going through an identity crisis at the time- and, quite frankly, still fucking am- and it was so much easier to pretend i dont exist and just project my flaws and insecurities and underlying subconcsious thoughts into these charactes that no one knows about except me and oh god im just created a long ass vent post on tumblr that no one's going to read and no one understands the story behind fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck whatever ill go ahead and post this unfinished thing because no one's going to get it either way ill probably delete it later if it doesnt get buried under reblogs

dont think too much about this i just got sad because my brother was giving me a bunch of criticism on an outline of a story i was working on- which is fair, i need to take criticism- but he only knows the characters in it as their semi-formed cringe versions so i chickened out half way and now i feel bad because i was really proud of this thing for the whopping span of like one day before i decided to show it to another human person instead of letting it rot away inside of me like i usually do and now i feel bad about my writing skills

im trying so hard to just take his words with a grain of salt because this kid does not have nearly as much experience with writing as i do, but i feel like im copying too many of my inspirations (DnD, generic fantasy story about defeating evil creature, silly tropes, etc,,) which sucks because that was just like the first two pages of the outline and theres nine fucking pages and like the second half of it was what i put the most effort into and i felt like the ideas were really origianl but i could make myself let him naturally get to that part of the outline because i was starting to feel really bad and wieerd and oh god he is looking at ideas i havent ever expressed to another human person even though i am very familaiar with because i came up with them and they havebeen in my head for at least a year or two by now and have been haunting me ever since so instead of skipping ahead to the parts that were really good in my opinion but would have made no sense without context i just told him to piss off i gues s

i dont know. i feel dumb. i feel stupid. ive put so much effort into this stuff and the concept that ive been wasting my time feels like too heavy of a weight to handle. god none of this porbobably nmakes any sense ,,,,,,,,, i guess this is why i feel miserable when the fanart and shitpost memes i post get a comically larger audience and attention than the art relating to my silly goofy ocs, because these stupid fucking characters are all thats keeping me going . call me cringe, but is it still cringe if the concept that maybe i too can be around people that love me and instead of having to like me in spite of my faults love me for them keeps me from fucking killing myself is it still cringe?

if a tree falls in a forest and no one's around, does its fall even make a sound? (shit piss fuck sorry i dont remember the original quote and all i can remember is tha t one line from that one musical i dont remember what it was)

if an autistic moron that cant even talk to a cashier without having a panic attack makes a universe full of fictional characters of his own cfreation then an alternate universe, then several alternate universes, then a spin off from that original universe and etc etc but its all just on google fucking docs and no where else except deleted excerpts from a dead wattpad account, did he ever even create anything at all?

its pointless. its all so fucking pointless. its a waste of time. why do i do this at all. its so fucking pointless. it makes no fucking sense. you cant just make a story with characters in it, then make a fucking fantasy au of that universe with the same characters but with different designs and wildly different personalities and then make a whole fucking complicated lore-filled story about the fantasy au version while the original universe's story is still left mostly unfinished like forget about a first draft of the text i havent even finished the first ddraft of the outline yet buckarooooooo

okay fuck you guys thats all i want to tell you im going to go pretend to myself to try to go to sleep and then cry now

#vent #i guess #sorry for saying fuck you guys yall are the only keeping me together and making me feel like i have any importance at all #long post

[dni-archive-official]

Sincerely, what is the point of this? A lot of these are going to be super recognizable anyway and still supports people being weird about just screenshotting other people (Usually teens to be honest) as content. Not everything needs to be archived, especially when minors can grow out of stuff and opinions/beliefs change over time. Kids don't need archives haunting them forever.

the point is that DNIs are a unique look into the internet culture as a whole. i, the owner of this blog, find purity culture morbidly fascinating. people, both minors AND adults, have gotten increasingly comfortable with

sharing their boundaries. definitely a good thing!

being assholes to other people based on in/out-groups, specifically through the veil of anonymity

and i find it interesting to document the place where this is the most obvious, the DNI / BYF page.

dni-archive is an asshole. dni-archive knowingly uses their blog to bring attention to people they dont like. they do not remove derogatory comments.

i, hopefully, am not an asshole most of the time. i can be kind of rude, blunt, terse, and sarcastic, but i do not tolerate bullying of any kind. dni-archive bullies people.

there have been submissions sent to me which included commentary shaming the OOP of the dni for its contents. i delete any and all personal commentary which shows an obvious bias. generally if you want to submit something with commentary, keep it informative and clinical and keep your voice out of it.

look, anon, i get your concern. i have it too. thats why i run this blog the way i do, and its why ive stopped copying dni-archive's posts as i cant look through every single one of them and there are SO MANY and undoubtedly they dont hold themself to the same standards that i do. a few of the posts i did take had to be edited to take out personal information.

these arent entertainment. they arent memes or jokes (though some of them have jokes in them) or anything like that. i get the apprehension, seeing someone post a bunch of DNIs in the same place can make you think "oh god, theyre mocking people for their boundaries!" but no. anon, if you see anyone mocking any of these posts, TELL ME! show me specifically so i can snuff it out, i promise i will!

finally, i just have one last point. i do not archive identifying information as best as i can (and im willing to take corrections on that!). tell me. if someone sees a DNI on this blog that has no names, blog names, urls, links, how will they find the person who made that DNI? if someone recognizes it, then they already knew who made it. most DNI's are screenshots taken with the snipping tool because they cant be copy-pasted like images. how could you reverse image search a colorful screenshot of text? if the original OP came back as an adult and saw a DNI they made when they were, say, 14, they could either politely ask me to remove it (as anyone can, at any time), or just not tell anyone that it was them, and nobody would know. anon, this criticism seems unfounded to me.

#anon #ask

[abyssal-cryptid]

Still thoughts about Tears of the Kingdom (SPOILERS)

The Great Fairies look like they want to eat the small man when they first emerge

Zonai Zelda is so cute

The memories bro the memories

THERE IS A SECOND GIANT HORSE

Why cant I put flowers in their mane

Please let me marry Zonai Zelda

Rauru is like lmao Zelda I wont die *dies*

Rauru dont give Zelda more trauma she has been through so much already

Rauru is like "we will put this all on Link"

HE'S BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH

I will write angry fanfic about this

Gleeoks are so terrifying what the fuck

You can upgrade your horses

What did they do to my beautiful dessert

They let me in as a man??? Noooo I was waiting to enjoy the complicated feelings of Link's gender again

Riju looks so good in this new look

Its so hot everywhere

Nooo my coins my coins!!!

Again doing shrines because I need hearts and stamina

I am a well enthusiast

I caught the golden horsie

Trying to find a perfect colored 5* speed horse is hard

Why are there gleeoks everywhere

IVE BEEN COLLECTING HORSE GEAR

Outfits my one true love

My horses are so cute

Let me customize the big horses pleaseee

I need to murder more deer for coins

Need to go deal with the Lurelin Village Pirates

DID I FREAK OUT ABOUT GIBDOS YET

I HATE THEM

Sorry I write these while Im not playing so I dont always remember to go in order

Im also writing fanfic because of course I am look at me

YOU CAN MAKE PICKAXES FROM THE MOBLIN HORNS

Im having so much fun

Shrines are becoming less awful

MY GOD I HATE GANONDORF

NOT SONIA

NOOOO

Wait how is Zelda the descendant of Sonia and Rauru if Sonia died without children

I saved this man's goats

Satori mountain is said to have endura carrots. I need them please

THE STICKY ARMOR LOOKS SO COOL

Im pro-all armors that show off Link's cool arm

I looked up how to get to Hestu and

I know what I need to do but I dont have the strength to do it

No joke theyre evil for this

How do I get gloom resistant armor

Playing the Zora main questline

The sky island has moon gravity!!

Where is Kass

The new dragon is a Light Dragon

Finally some good fucking food (All the apples on satori mountain)

Me: oh shit blood moon should be soon

Literally the next night: blood moon

Im a psychic

You are correct Roman there is so many apples here you do deserve some here you go baby boy

The checkmark you get for caves is if you killed the Bubbulfrog in there

I need to kill more

I want the full mystic armor

I have one friend who isnt into LOZ and I could tell all this to her but its no fun if she knows nothing about it

She does send me Zelda memes tho. 10/10 friend

Finally endura carrots

WAIT HOLD ON YIGA CLOTHES

OMG FINALLY

I love Malanya so much

Best god

I love Sidon but my god is he just in the way during the Water Temple

On the way, making me waste my bubbles, why do I have to be next to him to get the bubble

GET OUT OF THE WAY LET ME HIT THE CROCODILE

Useless

Hearing Zelda being referred to as the Sage of Time >>>>

Also I will not shut up about how pretty Zelda is

I have to draw her

Im a simple lesbian

My switch camera is full of screenshots of her

Every cutscene has her be so pretty

Sidon made me my own copy of him

And this man isnt marrying me

KING DOREPHAN DIDNT DIE

YAY

I dont think I could have handled that

WAIT SIDON'S BECOMING KING???

My camera roll is also full of screenshots of Sidon

NOO YONA BECAME QUEEN

DONT CALL HER BELOVED SIDON

SIDON STOP CALLING HER ENDEARING NAMES

SIDON

Yona is actually really sweet Im just having a moment

A sad day for Sidon lovers everywhere

King Sidon is handsome

He literally got on his knees to swear a vow to me and gave me a ring and married Yona

Yona is cute and I love her

Like her voice too

She's adorable

Maybe we can do a triad

Political(ish) marriage + one crackhead who attracts all the trouble

No because I still actively avoid spots where there used to be guardians

I was at a stable and went "no cant go that way there's guardians"

Nightmares wont give up ever apparently

ALSO HAVE YALL SEEN THE TIKTOKS OF LIKE

PEOPLE ABUSING THE BACKBAG KOROKS

There has been so many crucifications. The Korok Space Program. Fire is involved

I've also seen people build bombers and mechs

I love it

It seems so wild to me because I dont build in this game

If I can avoid it

I do use the dispensers but thats because its gambling

But all the material spots just get ignored

Nope

Dont care

Im going on Roman (my horsie)

But I love everyone is vibing

But still. I need easy mode

These posts are how I process the game btw. Been surprised that people have liked them. I will keep going because I have to process what I feel about things (doctor's orders)

#tears of the kingdom #legend of zelda #spoilers

[gunslinginnhogtyin]

GET TO KNOW THE ADMIN

NAME: I just go by Dee online!

PRONOUNS: they/them, professional thembo all the way

PREFERRED COMMS: tumblr IM & discord are the best places to reach out to me! 8)

NAME OF MUSE: Butch

EXPERIENCE IN RP: I’ve been role playing since I was 16, I am 27 now… that’s alot of years! Let me do the math…. Mmmmm that’s 12 years! 12+ considering my birthday is in a couple of months!

BEST EXPERIENCES: man, I’ve been on tumblr since 2012,,, I’ve had so many muses and so many good experiences, I can’t really think of any atm but I’ve always had fun being here! This is actually my first time rping an OC of mine as I was far too self conscious back then to even attempt it.

PET PEEVES/DEAL BREAKERS: pestering for replies, getting angry at me due to the time it takes to reply/spamming. I’ve got a life outside of the rpc, I love being around, writing, and the fact that people enjoy writing with me but my interest dwindles and my activity tends to be sporadic based off of how I’m feeling. God modding is also annoying af, I’ve had my fair share of run in’s with people who do that. Also vaguing and starting drama about other people in the rpc, like I’m here to have fun. If someone wants drama, take it to your own day to day life, not here

MUSE PREFERENCE (FLUFF, ANGST, SMUT): ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!!! I usually prefer chemistry between our muses first before doing anything smut/fluff related ofc but everything else, I’m all for! No need for a go ahead but feel free to reach out if it makes you more comfortable!

PLOT OR MEMES: BOTH. ANY. ALL. Any means of interacting, I just go with the flow. I’m not really uptight about interactions, you can reply to anything, drop an ask in my ask box, comment on art or posts, ic or ooc, I will not be bothered in the slightest! Same goes for continuing interactions. I never ever mind!

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: Either or! I’m a slut for writing long replies, though I never expect anyone to match my length. I like making it make sense for ME… and if for some reason something doesn’t make sense to you, please reach out to me for clarification!

BEST TIME TO WRITE: anytime! I write at work and I write at home! I write while I’m out with friends, idgaf. If I’m struck with inspiration, I am most certainly writing or at the very least working on drafts or doing art.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE?: Well we’re both short, annoying, and never stop talking lmao more alike than I thought we would be anyway. Take that for what you will.

TAGGING: YOU!!

#ooc #about the mun #call me dee z….DEEZ NUTS HA H

[faggotmox]

I'm cheating at the enemies to lovers prompts: i want mox bridging the gap between Eddie and Bryan (or Claudio) where both Eddie and Bryan are pissed but Moxy just wants his boys all together: of course you do

meme i lost || @philosophyofhedonism

this is the closest thing to a madmox break up i will ever write. feel like this is set up a bit to make eddie the bad guy but i wanna be clear that’s def not what im trying to imply. this would be after many conversations, & shit. like this is the result of eddie continuing to hurt mox by being a bitch about bryan & claudio even though he pretty much knows he’s doing it. but eddie’s insecure & needed it pointed out. this ones got a little lost in the sauce & im not happy with the ending. here ya go lmao. this leads to the bridge being built.

#. Of course you do. [Mox/Eddie, Mox/Bryan/Claudio]

warnings: angst, so much angst, kind of a breakup fic, cursing, two people struggling lol

"I gotta problem with them! You know that!" Eddie growled, loud and over infused with anger. As always with this fight.

"Of course you do!" Mox was ready to rip his hair out, his hand anxiously running through his hair. "Of fucking course you do!"

"You know damn well anyone else wouldn'--"

"Shut the fuck up, Eddie!" Mox snapped. Finally fucking snapped. "Of fucking course you gotta problem with Bryan. He's a dick. He judges people. So do fuckin' you. You're a huge asshole, you judge everyone you see. And what happened with you and Claudio is so fuckin' old I don't even know if I was an adult when y'all had your falling out! He's changed. He's grown the fuck up and he regrets leaving you like that, man, but he can't fucking do shit about it because you're a fucking asshole. Of course you have a problem. Of course you do. You're made of god damn problems, Eddie! I love you. I love you more than I love anything else, Eddie, I swear to god. I swear on my mother, Eddie. But this bullshit...I can't keep doing it."

Eddie watched Mox pop off. Normally he would interject, stop Mox when he called him a dick or something. But there was a look on Mox's face that said if Eddie interrupted then it could be a heavier straw than either thought. Instead Eddie watched Mox frantically get the words out, like he couldn't breathe with them still in his chest. Like this was a long time coming and Eddie should have known, should have seen that he was suffocating Mox.

"You said--" Mox threw his hands up. "You said, Eddie. You agreed to this. When we got back together you were cool with me dating other people, having more relationships. But the second I'm with someone you have a distaste for I'm left-- I'm left--" Mox shakes his head, trying to get himself on track. "I love Bryan, man. I love the way he wrestles, the way he cooks dinner like he's building a fucking bomb, the way he holds me from behind and sticks his head under my arm. He fucking figured out some soap that doesn't give me dry skin. He listens to me when I can't put things into words. Eddie, I love him like I love you and that's why you fucking hate him." Mox finally stopped moving and was looking at Eddie with hard eyes. It wasn't normal for them to call each other on the deep bullshit. They had their walls and guards up for reasons. Mox understood that but he couldn't keep it up anymore. His walls came down and he had to break some of Eddie's too. "And you know how easy it is to fall for Claudio, huh? Don’t ya? So you're mad that I'm gonna love him too."

"Mox, look, I'm sorry I--" Eddie started to step forward but Mox stepped back quicker.

"Nah, man. You're scared, and you're being a bitch about it. You could just tell me, talk to me! You're insecure and you think I'm gonna leave you because Bryan and Claudio are something you're not." Mox growled. "I can't do it. If you don't want me dating them then we have to have to a serious fucking conversation about our boundaries, and I fucking hate you for making me have to talk like some fucking asshole. Boundaries." Mox scoffed at himself. "We've always been straight up with each other, man. That's what I expect from you. You just hide behind your fucking quips, and make snide remarks about a dude I love. That ain't fair to me, Eddie. You lied when you told me you were cool with this."

"...You're right."  Eddie nodded, his eyes on his boots as he stood with the weight of it on his shoulders. He fucked up. "You're fuckin' right."

"Hey." Mox was suddenly very close, his hand on Eddie's shoulder then sliding to rest on the back of Eddie's neck. "Need you to look at me, Bear." Mox whispered, his private nickname for Eddie never sounded so sad.

"Don't call me that right now, Moxie." Eddie looked up, meeting eyes with his partner to the harsh reality he knew was coming his way. "Not right now. Fuck."

"You know I love you right, Bear? I need to know that you know." Mox had water obscuring his blue eyes, threatening to become tears. "I love you."

"You love me, Jon. Of course you do." Eddie nodded. Their foreheads met and Eddie just knew the next words out of Mox's mouth would destroy his entire world and he would just have to accept it.

"I need a break from this, Bear." Mox finally said it and Eddie felt like he'd shatter. No one had that power over him but Mox. "I need a break from you."

"Of course you do..." Eddie nodded, and slowly started to untangle himself from Mox.

Mox tried to hold on but Eddie pushed until they parted. It stung more knowing Mox didn't want to let go. They both learned a long time ago about take care of themselves first, setting boundaries and walking away from the people that fucked them up the most. Eddie could still remember watching Mox chase after Rollins, the unhealthy obsession that Mox couldn't stop. Rollins was when Mox learned to step away, to pull himself back and make himself off limits to another person. Eddie had learned the same lesson from Claudio, but under different circumstances.

It all hit home when Mox's phone went off and Eddie could see the text from Bryan asking if Mox was okay. Why did Eddie hate Bryan so much? Why did he still hate Claudio? That was something he had to figure out because Mox couldn't take being the center of a war that wasn't even about him.  Eddie couldn't be an island anymore. It wasn't fair to Mox, and slowly as he gathered his bags he realized it wasn't fair to himself either. This had him twisted up, torturing himself like this wasn't it.

"We ain't breaking up." Mox's voice didn't sound as steady as he wanted it to sound. "I'd sooner lose everything else then lose you again, Bear."

"I know, sweetheart. We ain't breaking up." Eddie wanted to reassure Mox. "I'm not that easy to get rid of." Eddie winked and pretended he didn't feel a tear slip out.

"Of course you're not." Mox laughed harshly, shaking his head a little as Eddie was heading towards the door. There was something on Mox’s face, a fleeting look on his face that made Eddie smile a little.

“What?” Eddie stopped to watch Mox come a little closer. 

“Want a kiss before you go, Bear.” Mox admitted as they stepped a little closer to each other.

“Of course you do.” Eddie laughed a little as they got close enough.

They shared a soft kiss before Eddie had to peel himself away again. This time he got himself out before he could look at Mox again. It wasn’t their end, it couldn’t be, but Eddie was sore. He was hurt for the first time in a way that didn’t let him scorch the earth, even if it was his fault or not. Not only was this his own making but he had every tool to fix it. No drinking it away, no sleeping with whoever to get over Mox, no bullshit. Eddie had to figure his own shit out.

#we dont proof #i dont even know what i wrote tbh #jon moxley #Eddie Kingston #jon moxley x eddie kingston #jon moxley x bryan danielson #claudio castagnoli x jon moxley #wrestling fanfiction #fanfiction #fanfic #angst

[zee-has-commitment-issues]

Ok not young royals in the slightest so if that’s all you’re here for, move on.

As many of you know, my best friend Dani @the-navistar-carol is obsessed with top gun. So I watched top gun maverick today and she asked me to live react. Here is that:

Top gun maverick:

- “Despite your best efforts, you can’t die” OMG

- He really spent 30 years there and can’t get a promotion

- OMG ICEMAN

- “Wasn’t a compliment” yes it was. You wanna fuck him.

- Did he just call Maverick an “old relic?” Omg

- Once again going to say that I adore iceman

- ICEMAN

- Iceman and maverick had a torrid love affair and are still in love and no one can convince me otherwise

- Can't believe after 40 years they’re still trying to convince me he’s straight

- I ADORE BOB OMG

- Hangman and Rooster are also gay

- He looks just like goose omg

- I’m crying

- NO I WANT ROOSTER AND MAVERICK TO HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP

- STOP OMG IM GONNA CRY AGAIN

- “What is with these two?” Trauma, hangman. It's trauma.

- They need to fuck right off and let maverick teach Jesus Christ

- Why is the boat sideways?

- Rooster and maverick show down oof

- HANGMAN FUCK OFF

- I want maverick to punch hangman in the face

- “I need to see you” UM SORRY WOW THAT'S GAY

- IM SORRY ICEMAN IS DYING?! NOPE. NO NO NO.

- Oh ok. Beach scene. I get it now.

- 40 years and they still never figured out how to wear a helmet

- Horrid sex scenes in these movies. Always.

- Someone tell rooster the truth please

- All that effort to still get caught

- This is like exactly what happened to goose omg someone better not have fucking died

- FUCK OFF WHY DID ICEMAN HAVE TO DIE

- OK FUCK OFF AGAIN BECAUSE MAVERICK IS THE ONLY PERSON CAPABLE OF TEACHING THIS TEAM AND YOU CANNOT SO GROUNDING HIM IS NOT THE MOVE

- Ok maverick, show them up. I see you

- Why does this man hate him so much?

- “Talk to me goose” will always be the biggest “I love you” in this franchise

- A GREAT CHOICE FOR TEAMS. LEAVE HANGMAN OUT TO DRY. YES.

- I kinda want maverick to die even though I know it would make me sad

- Wait so rooster doesn’t have a back passenger either? Why is this not consistent? Shouldn’t they all have one?

- Come on rooster

- Come on rooster

- Come on rooster

- “Talk to me dad” OMFG

- Sad music suggests one of them isn’t coming out of this

- OMG IT WAS MAVERICK

- HIS LAST FATHER FIGURE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!

- NO NO NO NO NO

- NOT ROOSTER

- NOT ROOSTER

- OMG NO

- NO

- NO

- NO

- NO

- NO

- NO

- OMG HES ALIVE JESUS CHRIST OMG

- a truly meme worthy reunion and I love it

- Rooster literally being goose is amazing

- That was too close. Never thought I’d say thank god for hangman but thank god for hangman

- I want another top gun movie about just rooster

#top gun #top gun maverick

[ciitrinitas]

G I Z M O (for the ask meme i'm not just randomly yelling that)

i mean, i wouldn't judge you if you did just want to randomly yell your cat's name at me in all caps. i'd welcome it. i love gizmo. i want to go to bizmo school.

but! for this meme!

G - Do you remember your first OTP, if so who was in it.

this is really tricky because i can think of a few candidates...which honestly tracks given how prone i am to having like a dozen active otps at a time because no one can stop me. i think i was really into miroku/sango from inuyasha, and then for awhile, axel/roxas from kingdom hearts made my brain buzz. the latter was my first slash ship i can recall having, and hysterically, i only like it now as very one sided from axel's end. i don't think i'd be as warm to miroku/sango these days, as well, lmao.

sakura/syaoran from tsubasa was also very big in my middle-schooler heart! that being my entry point for clamp is still a choice i made! i wrote a not-very-good inuyasha fic that ripped off tsubasa's plot.

main ff couples from the ps1 and ps2 era are also possible contenders! squall/rinoa, zidane/garnet, and tidus/yuna are all very cute still.

I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why.

not for ones i already liked, but it has soured me on fandoms i didn't have much interest in already. if i can be more specific to fandoms around ships, then weird anti behavior knocked me out of komahina for awhile (just...weird discourse about whether it would be ableist to have komaeda like bdsm or something??? it was dumb enough that i cartwheeled away), and i fell out of love with tododeku because so many of its shippers ragged on bakudeku which i had grown to like. (99% of my interest in bnha these days is bkdk lmao.)

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (prompts optional but encouraged).

HOD/YESOD MAKES SENSE, I SWEAR. YOU JUST NEED TO OPEN YOUR HEART. SHE CAN MAKE HIM WORSE. SHE CAN GASLIGHT GATEKEEP GIRLBOSS WITH THE BEST OF THEM. okay, not really...since like...hod, but she can make him worse, i swear to you. i normally don't end up shipping anything too cracky since it can take initial interaction and themes and whatever to get me invested in a ship, but god...sometimes i talk myself into bullshit... someone please give me energy and motivation to write so i can convince the world that hod/yesod is real... i will vibrate out of my skin if either of them mentions each other... i don't care about the context. just hod saying his name or him saying her name...amore...

M - Say something genuinely nice about a ship that you don’t ship (or its shippers, or anything related to you).

thancred/urianger is Okay because it removes thancred from being around women and infecting them with bad writing. urianger is taking one for the team. i know this isn't really nice i'm sorry i thought of it and then the salt just came pouring out yes im still fucking livid about ryne's writing

O - Choose a song at random, which ship or character does it remind you of.

setting my library to shuffle aaaand...after glow by foals. a bamchel song tbh. <3 i mean, everything is a bamchel song if i try hard enough, but this is an easy bamchel song.

#era.txt

[fkyumerica]

she made all of her kids nude porn stars then too, at birth "yea film it"-her mom anne marie/lady gaga/whoever jens mom is

then kills dogss

then goes back to her then back to her and its inbreeding again, the video shit

and they dont stop going at you too

and they are everywhere

then horse back riding, masks, and a logo

and all again

maybe a morning sunset on th ebeach

or a filipino beach guy to give you a infant while you live up in the trees

and maybe drugs if you want

dazed and confused

black hair

white guitar girl

tan guy

then she goes wild for a boy doing a wheelie on a motor bike

then sees footprints in the sand

she is mary anne, aunt rose's daugter who brest fed beth

so kids name was brett

to come back to it

rips shirt off

then shes deezy

i need a drink

give me a nose ring

then beard her

aunt rose i gotta live with her

then ex post about it

weird calm down meme feeling. mom posted the picture of a conversation.

there were only so many face books

i will write down the names later

john wayne gacy is kevin

filipino

then it just goes on again to their big gay life

school dances

my cell phone dick photo in the mirror

she wanted a dress like mine

shoot her in the fucking head

mollys relative, we killed her kind of right, thoughts of me were there

right

make it sluttier

https://www.facebook.com/friends/suggestions/?profile_id=100000085233472 and your neice next shannon

halloween 4? drugs and that life they all have to.. go and live it!

to sit her big asss on you

phase of life

omg friends drugs she told me it i dont care

hahahha

grandmother willow right

no

the dumpster guy in the movie

noroi

dragging the infants

no you need one too

says it to them

anne marie looking ones just left it on the ground

and shannon would be fucking it then walk up to him fucking it aand try and get them all fucking while doing that

and annemarie made shannon her drug ffriend

there is alix the next generation after

constantly has to fuck him

a don

shannon is a mom first

and anne marie just goes to sleep

aunt rose and beth are anne maries

chris is a alix needs to fuck

leaves fast

or what im young again to find her with a dog

and leave it to

and this is alix too, wayneradio tv what i cant put on a mask and fool them all, and leave, and make them again, in your area, with them, and their party, what they want, in the woods, and here, i might get her, and i get her, and i get her

and leave

we had to do the same thing the other one did

related

we are alike

whoa not related

hate it

we know you and hate you too

half of it is tit pics

the rest is i dunno

for sex with wwho

all of them are tht

and the i dunno you ones

i dunno go fuck

why arent you

now im turned on by you

aand hey me and mom do it easy

dope me do me mom then i fuck it up and die in 8 years now i live in the woods at raves and fuck and do whatever

im gay

mom lives ina house in a river

now plan it out

houses where

they all get to live

throw it in

abortion

then it gets a name

his dad and him

garbage guy

and john wayne gacy

twilight

mask

and werewolf

and abortion

skeleton with hat

he would put one on it

they brought a pile over again

and tried to fuck me with it

he was sting too, john wayne gacyy

and youre in the back right

right?

orange

i know them all now

and dialet

i will shit in her food today

and the kids he mates with, i wont be afraid to get this fucking spot doing it with him, their wives were the same he said

they wanted to go on it

when

they saw

who

fuckign noises

owl calls for one

old wild

that is aunt rose and fred

again? greg?

his son in front of him would

they would jump and fuck and fuck one of them there

grouped outside

the jump landing was it

face lift to her huh

then carriage accident

full fake head

does this guy try and live in mym house

he is godzilla

guess who

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

at anyone

at him

my dad?

mated 8 times

who who

said it

oh my god

i dont care

who

it is

sexy shit

they thought giants would walk them around

epkot

epcot

their world logo

for take over

their train shows it

they keep cumming in a numbilical cord then after liquid laundry detergent it turns it black and they inject it

to turn black

or purple or what blue

violet was him

mission

family

he knew everyones family the scare crow

of central t owest spain

and is gay

golfer

lion

and his wife

dur dur dur im the gay chienese animator

made it all

shes getting a bath

i dont want that from ya

hot

or that

cold

warm

and please squeeze it, like it again

Thu 6:14 PM

charles lee ray is the garbage guy

marrried agnes and chris

and aunt jemima wwas his inbred with the gone with the wind black btich, married that black woman too

kept the money for herself

she next on ekept checks

then after

free bank ask for it in the back

meghan

it was her in the movie too

mexico

and is penny's mom

lady gaga

apacolypto film me from up

was 8 then next yearr peggy sue 16 right

barbra ann

her mom

and next one

her mom

cinndy

then her mom

chris

then her mom

agnes

then her mom

gone with the wind black bitch

they edited her white

right

no is amanda

or meghan

which one

shoot both

take off her voice piece she is the one with the headset under her skin

to keep licking

wwhat you wwant on you

was suppossed to get shot

and shut up

too

[thelovelybitten]

vera’s first watch of south park — season four (part 5?)

I really need to not write so much but I need to for science

EPISODE 14:

is this another Christmas special

?????

PIP !!!

he’s so BABIE

AYO THAT THROW WAS PERSONAL

tbh not gonna pay too much attention to this one Imma be real

PIP DOING A JIG PLEASE

OH ESTELLA

pip receives dice cool ??

the set for london is rad

I wish my attention span cared abt this episode but I can’t be bothered it’s BORING

oh the cheating

I was reading other things SORZ

final act woo

oh there’s monkeys and men hanging to their death

and bunnies

oh bunnies are dead

old lady burned to a crisp and Estella loving each other alright the end

okay pog

EPISODE 15:

THIS INTRO JUST DOESNT MISS I AM TWERKING EVERYTIME

oh miss choksondik is back

BOT MANATEES

Wendy speaking facts

OH MY GOD NOT THE MANATEE SLAUGHTER

cartman getting away w anything is not surprising

but YO VITE BACK TO MANATEE TIME

EW CARTMAN THAT IS STRAIGHT BUTTER THAT IS DISGUSTING

CARTMAN GOING TO FAT CAMP AS THEY SHOULD

Mr.Garrison real for that

OH MY GOD THERE IS GUTS EVERYWHERE

I’m gonna vomit

GUYS DONT GET KENNY TO EAT IT

oh he’s gonna die from that isn’t he

THEY SLAUGHTERED SO MANY MANATEES IM UPSET

okay cartman let’s go 2 fat camp

EW

OF COURSE KENNY IS SICK THE FUCK

KYLE STOP KENNY DO NOT EAT THAT

NO GROSS KENNY NO

y’all are so weird for this

Cartman feral fr

LMAO such a good scheme

WHAT

no fucking way

CARTMAN THAT IS NOT YOU

I know it’s not him I FEEL IT IN MY BONES

NO KENNY DO NOT EAT THAT DOG SHIT

THAT IS SO VILE

KENNY IS GONNA DIE OH MY GOD IM GONNA THROW UP STOP

KENNY IS NOT A PROSTITUTE

pop off chef

WHAT THE HELL LMAOOOOOO I’m crying

principal Victoria is NOT HAVING IT

I FUCKING KNEW IT

CARTMAN IS SO MANIPULATIVE

STOP MY BABY KENNY IS GETTING SO BEAT UP

KENNY IM SO SORRY BABY BOY IM SO UPSET

KENNY YOU CANNOT BE FOR REAL

EXCUSE ME WHAT THE FUCK KENNY DO NOT CLIMB INTO SOMEONES UTERUS ?’vbv THIS IS NOT POSSIBLE

and KENNY DO NOT GET ORAL SEX YOU ARE 8

OFC KENNY IS IN JAIL WHAT DID YALL EXPECT

KENNY’S PARENTS ENCOURAGING THIS IS SO FUCKED

oh they made fake cartman go into the uterus instead so slay

YO WHAT THE FUCK

fake cartman died big L

ANOTHER KID ?!?!

EPISODE 16:

IKE AND KYLE PLAYING BALL OMG

RAGING PUSSIES LMAOOOO

Kyle is doing the most to go to this concert

HIS DRAWINGS IM SO 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 HES really so cute okay

SHEILA AND GERALD ARE TOO STUNNED TO SPEAK

KENNY PLAYING WITH A FIRE TRUCK 🥹🥹🥹🥹 MY BABY

no CARTMAN DONT TELL KYLE TO CALL THE POPO WITH A FAKE MOLESTATION CLAIM

THIS IS SO BAD

OH MY GOD NO

OH SHITTTTTT

KYLE FUCKING SLAYING THE HOUSE DOWN CMON UNDERWEAR SHADES

THE KIDS BEING KIDS POP AWF

OLD TOWN ROCK N ROLL A BANGER

IKE NOT THE TOASTER

KYLES PARTY BE LIT AS FUCK

hc: kyles parties are always THE FUCKING BOMB next to the rest of the core four and Clyde

Clyde just knows HOW TO THROW A PARTYYY

Stan would get Shelly to boot for him

heck, Randy would do it too

Liane would for cartman

Kyle has a loophole w Stan as super best friends do

Kenny is the life of the party but can’t host shit bc of his family life FUCK

anyways back to the ep

NOT STAN GETTING SHELLY ARRESTED TOO

this is where this Stan dancing meme came from I see

LIANE HAVING A THREESOME LMAOOAOA

damn they really gettin everyone

GHOST TOWN

smiley town so real

BUTTERS <33

CRAIG IN HIS SPACE SUIT OH MY GOD IM CRYING HES SO CUTE

ITS SOACEMAN CRAIG

him making the noises as he walks away has me in shambles

KINDERGARTENER HOBGOBLINS

of COURSE CARTMAN IS MAYOR

Oh MY GOD KENNY IS DEAD

Pretends to be shocked

STAN AND KYLE SLAY

oh my god this is SO FUNNY

BUTTERS BROKE THE CAR

of course Wendy is on team stan she’s so real

Bebe on team cartman not cool

STOP IM CRINGING

ANYWAYS THIS EP WAS FUNNY

EPISODE 17:

LAST EP OF THE SEASON

and it’s a Christmas one. great

KYLE MANIFESTING MR HANKEY STOP

but him and Ike are so precious I can’t

STOP THEM SLEEPING ON EACH OTHER

perfect fucking siblings ON THE ENTIRE SHOW

parents putting them to bed 🥹

STAN IS ASLEEP KYLE PLEASE

KENNY HAS NO PANTS

the boys are disheveled I DONT BLAME THEM

I hate mr HANKEY with every fibre of my body

THE KIDS !!! cartman as Santa and the rest of the boys AS REINDEER 🥹🥹

Kenny as Rudolph 😭😭😭

snoopy cameo

BUTTERS MAKING THE CUTOUTS

OH HE ATE THESE

SO SLAY

BUTTERS ROBBED HE SLAYED THAT ARTS N CRAFTS

I cant be BOTHERED WITH THIS MUSIC NUMBER UGH

okay lion king ref

THE BOYS ARE SO CUTE

DREIDEL SONG SLAYED AGAIN

KYLE AND CARTMAN FIGHTING THIS ONE WAS ICONIC

wait they are demonstrating how the creators animate these shows !! THATS SO COOL

god I did not know this was stop action ?!?! FUCKING COOL

THEY MADE A WENDY CUTOUT THATS MY GIRRRRLLLL

okay KYLE W THE VOCALS

STAN’S CARTMAN IMPRESSION ATE

NO NOT KENNY

Style directors and writers as they should

OH NO

NOT THE FILM BURNING

WAIT THEY FIXED IT EPIC

WENDYYYYYY I LOVE HER

LMAO CHRISTMAS IS ABT PRESENTS REAL

END OF SEASON I MADE IT WOOOOO

gonna watch season 5 RIGHT AFTER DANCE

#faves: south park #viv watches #no bc kenny went thru too much in ep 15 #ALL THE KIDS GET AN L BC THEY KNOW KENNY WILL DO ANYTHING FOR MONEY— DUDE IS POOR ASF #also the fucking episode where the parents are run outta town was so fun omg #ICONIC ME THINKS #anyways i gave season 4 a 7/10 ONLY BC OF THAT FUCKING WENDY AND CARTMAN EP #would have been an 8.5 but no. ruined it for me

[milo-is-rambling]

I think part of the reason I over exaggerate my place in other peoples lives is because i see everyone around me as a specific aesthetic/vibe and I start to make subconscious assumptions about the way you "should" act based on the clues I have put together from what I've been told about you and where I've filled in the gaps of things you probably do but that causes me to mix up the real things like feelings and attraction because I either end up loving this idea I've created of who you are with all these added fake pros and cons or I end up becoming obsessed with you because im trying so hard to keep things clear as to what is real or not and then you end up being weirded out anyways. It's so hard to form real relationships with people because in the beginning of a friendship I can usually make you a Pinterest board and a playlist and concoct a bunch of things that equal you in my brain so I know what to send you memes of or see things that remind me of you constantly and that's so fun when you're first talking to me and either we grow close enough that me doing that actively keeps us in contact bc we always have something to talk about or our friendship falls apart and I'm left with all these pictures songs and subjects that remind me of you and hurt every time I see them and it's such a shitty feelings because all of my friendships end becuase i care too much and can't give people space to breathe. I just hate hate hate hate hate being uncertain of my place in peoples lives it's absolutely soul crushing to me I'd rather have someone have the balls to tell their real thoughts and feelings about me even if it hurts than have someone ghost me and play pretend and slowly creep away from me like they're afraid of me when I try so fucking hard to make a full safe environment for someone but that loops back to my crazy finding your specific aesthetic thing cause that can be overwhelming and scary but I usually ask first and I definitely offer to show someone their Pinterest board or playlist and every person I've shown has been excited to see their aesthetic and see how accurate it is and it's been positive but then people end up leaving anyways and it just fucks with my brain and I know I have so many issues but like fuck man I have so much fucking admiration for everyone I've ever been friends with even if I'm fucking bitter about how things ended and that they couldn't just be straight up with me (and bitter that my last few friendships ended with me saying "look man are we friends or not I need a straight answer cause I'm not gonna keep putting effort into being your friend if you don't want me to be your friend anymore") I still admire them so much but do I admire them as a person (who was shitty to me in real life) or do I admire them as this idealized person I created in my brain (even the idealized person has flaws tho. Like even in my brain they appear human and normal and flawed and I still love them and want them regardless and it's almost like I prepare myself to be hurt in certain ways and then they always find new ways to hurt me I haven't thought of yet) it's almost like I'm willing to look past the shitty ways you treated me in real life because at least I have this fake version and it's cool to talk to someone the fake version was made for and then it's like I'd rather keep this perfect version in my brain where everything's predictable and people dont randomly change their mind or act nice and then change and act horrible and like feelings dont get hurt in my brain that only ever happens in real life and I dont like it I'm very tired of it I just want everyone to do what I think constantly like I'm playing Barbie's as a child. Everyone should behave the way people should and stop being mean to everyone else always and if you are mean you should do it in a good way that only my brain decided was the good way.

oh I am mentally ill god damn I wrote a lot more than I meant to I'm sorry man I'm high and brain rambly doing self therapy. I think playing the sims so much has made me crave being a sim more than anything ever cause I just fucking want hygiene and hunger and sleep bars so so so bad tell me when I have to shower and eat and sleep I cannot keep track of these things my brain does not have these alarms on it's own I have to remember to do all the things it's the worst. But I also want the plus and minus people bars over my head. Show up and tell me if I'm succeeding or failing this human Interaction and let me find the button I have to press to do the thing to make you like me. Tell joke about vampires? Will that make you like me? How many times can I press it before we become good friends or best friends? Can I click the tell funny story button until you like me? Please please please please please someone find me worthy of being a person I'm so tired of fighting the neurotypical world I just want to sleep and play the sims and smoke and play the sims and eat and smoke and sleep and play the sims and listen to music and have magic levitating +/- people points over every conversation I have ever

#I've never written so much that it made me make a new paragraph #sorry to anyone who reads this I didn't even reread it and I'm not going to it is purely brain vom

[dartwright]

flip, 21, any prns.

18+, independent, headcanon-heavy blaine dartwright from layton brothers: mystery room.

single verse.

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II. basic roleplay etiquette. no god-modding, powerplaying, or metagaming. cut your threads - if you can't, let me know. i'll do it for you. i don't care about your formatting if it's readable.

III. eighteen and over. that said, threads & content on my blog will contain dark & mature themes concerning drugs, violence, organized crime, and other stuff i don't condone outside of fiction. there's also a smut blog linked in my description, which is accessible only through the fact i'm an r18+ roleplayer. turn back if you're underaged.

IV. multifandom & crossovers. i'm into multiple fandoms, in fact, i'm playing an unused character from a relatively obscure mobile game. crossover friendly? fuck yes. i'll roleplay with anything and anyone, as long as you're not rpf or a celebrity roleplayer. if there's anything you recommend i blacklist, do let me know. i'm not exactly aware of everything in live action pop culture & i'm best described as an animation-leaning guy. though, nothing's going to stop me from playing a video game character in a thread with the guy from morbius.

V. original characters. make sure you have an about / bio page set, so that i'm able to read up on your character and who they are. what's going on with them, y'anno? i always love hearing about other peoples' characters and i'm willing to follow back if there's information on them.

VI. mutually exclusive. i'll only write and interact with people i follow and those who follow back. mutuals automatically can do whatever the fuck they want with blaine and i! crack threads? please. ask memes? thank you. headcanons with our characters? sure thing! this is mostly so that i'm able to keep track of things happening on my dashboard, too, and as for dashboard commentaries - i don't mind if non-mutuals interact with me in that way. it's fun!

VII. formatting. i use little-to-no formatting with small text and a few icons. there are times where i'm entirely iconless, as blaine's more or less a fanon-accepted character in mystery room. i will change urls to character names, but not the hyperlinks.

VIII. magic anons. they're always open! i've missed magic anons so much, in the past few years of discord, i haven't been able to mess around with these prompts. please have a set time for them when they're submitted. if i love your spell so much, i may as well have it as a permanent feature!

IX. plotting. i tend to wing my plots, but i don't drop my threads if they don't happen to "go my way" as the youth says. if you want a pre-established relationship with blaine, let me know through ims and i'll respond to you asap. if you want to do a plot-related thread where we progress our characters' stories, fuck yes. just know that i kinda suck at plotting, but i do wanna get better…

X. threads. rapid-fire replies on tumblr are my favorite thing to do, they'll only be slow if i'm sick or fatigued as i do have seasonal depression. we can drop as many threads as we like, move onto new ones, finish old ones, have live threads… like the old days! i just want to be loose and free in this community.

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[yuriwarrior]

#god..... i need to stop... im making too many memes #oliver queen #ollie queen #green arrow #dc #dcu #dc universe #dc comics #arrowfam #arrowfam memes #meme #memes #comic meme #comicedit #dcedit #image. #void's stuff #this one is def one of my weirder memes #a beard as in an actual beard or as in slang? its up to you