#goddddd NEVER over this

[wistfulwatcher]

Blindspot | 5.08, "Ghost Train"

#blindspot #blindspotedit #wlwedit #femaledaily #tvedit #dailytvgifs #zapatterson #zapattersonedit #tasha zapata #tashazapataedit #william patterson #pattersonedit #mine #edit #* #otp: you gotta protect her #goddddd NEVER over this #or ashley's cute little smile #otp #scene*

[this-is-krikkit]

"someone once asked me if i had learned anything from it all, so let me tell you what i learned i learned... everyone dies alone. but if you meant something to someone, if you helped someone, or loved someone if even a single person remembers you, then maybe you never really die. and, maybe... this isn't the end at all."

#person of interest #literally never getting over that show #poi quote #because why wouldn't you rewatch such an angst fest rn?? #the machine #no i didn't choke like i always do at That Part #the ''the only thing left of me is the sound of MY voice'' #GODDDDD OF COURSE I DID #the fcking soundtrack also FFS #ramin u did it again with the goosebumps uggh

[imwritesometimes]

I feel like every review of the Barry series finale that's like 'it was just meh...' is intentionally missing the point cause if they actually had to confront 'hey we as a country venerate service members to an insane degree when, just like normal people cause that's what they are, some of them are bad people. we will jump through hoops to absolve any wrongs these people commit. the police do get it massively wrong sometimes. justice is not always dished out. and we will make a butchered spectacle out of a tragedy for ticket sales.' they wouldn't get many clicks.....

#the way law enforcement overall were portrayed through the series alone I have not seen really talked abt anywhere #but GODDDDD like Janice was ~one of their own~ and they're all still so incompetent and stupid they can't even get her case right #like this show is screaming at you that this dude is PEAK delusional at the end #that's not what god wants for me #Sally tells him. to his face. if he wants to be absolved. he must take responsibility for what he's done. #but he doesn't. and he's absolved anyway. cause they twist his story to fit the #brave marine doing the best he can narrative #when really he killed his friend who was *also* a marine. he killed a lot of ppl. and never took responsibility. #and let's not even touch on how Noho Hank and Christobal are ENTIRELY written out of and forgotten #in the new narrative the movie makes. like those pesky queers further ruin this sterling service member triumphs over evil tale #I'm *obsessed* at this point idk. I've had all night to ponder cause I was up sick all night 😞 #hbo barry #hbo barry spoilers

[dizzybevvie]

No Im fine why do you ask

#I LOOKED EVERYWHERE FOR YOU. GOD #im never gonna get over kh2 soriku reunion #“I looked EVERYWHERE for you!” UGHHHHHH #and Id seen that before playing the game but in context its even more #LIKE UEAH HE RLLY DID LOOK EVERYWHERE FOR HIM DIDNT HE. GODDDDD SORA #beverly says stuff #kingdom hearts #soriku

[hella1975]

im genuinely the dumbest person alive

#im so fucking angry with myself im SO stupid #like yes im only 20 ive never really handled my finances alone before #this is only my second year of paying rent EVER there was bound to be mistakes #and im lucky to have a family that can support me when those mistakes inevitably occur. but my fucking goddddd #basically i didnt plan ahead and turns out my TOTAL student loan for this year covers my TOTAL rent this year #but ofc the installments dont cooperate and the sums are different per semester etc #so instead of looking ahead and going 'oh shit my last loan won't be enough to cover my last rent installment' #and using that very easy to make observation to figure out that i need to be saving the leftover money from my loan throughout the year #i instead went 'omg i have leftover loan this term!' and fucking spent it #im short £600. im going to owe my parents £600 #and yes in the grand scheme it's not a huge amount of money like it could have been #but not only will i not be able to pay my parents back until july bc i CANT take out of my america savings #and i definitely cant start saving up £600 ON THE SIDE OF TRYING TO SAVE A GRAND FOR AMERICA #but on top of that being in debt to my mum is the worst thing in the entire world and now i have no choice but to be in debt for 3 months #before i can even start paying it back. like that's 3 entire months that she's going to use it as a stick to beat me with #like not only does she sometimes REFUSE to take money that i earn waitressing bc she insists on having the debt paid through actual labour #but she's also just a complete bitch about it and i know it's very spoilt to expect not only to be covered when i get into debt #but to also expect her to be nice about it but like. im not asking her to CODDLE me i get initially it makes sense for her to be angry #but she could at least acknowledge that i ALWAYS beat myself up over shit like this way more than anyone else will #like im so mad rn im trying not to cry just bc im so FRUSTRATED and the entire time she's fucking shouting in my face #about how she moved out at seventeen and had three jobs at uni and no one to support her etc etc #and just name-callling shit im already calling myself like it was an HONEST MISTAKE #she's acting like i purposely went behind her back and took £600 when i was very visibly horrified when i figured it out #and i immediately came clean to her regardless of how scared i was to admit it. im just so mad like i know i sound spoilt #and like im huffing and puffing over something that could have been SO MUCH WORSE if i didnt have my parents to cover me #but like. i can pay her back within 2 WEEKS of waitressing. ive never handled my rent before. i didn't do it on purpose #and im more annoyed with myself than she can ever be and she KNOWS that about me. so like. please dont shout at me lol #it's just i was SO proud of myself for saving for america and how hard ive worked and i should have known i was gonna fuck it up somehow #& now the £1500+ i'll total have saved for america that i worked so hard for is gonna be tainted bc i owe £600 all bc of my own stupidity #hella goes home

[pepprs]

ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do

#purrs #i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life #situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to #drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a #stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well. #i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i #am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone #and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good. #delete later #that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd #this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be #neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority #and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol. #24 year old dependent moment <3 #well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will #never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰 #side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester #starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like #this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it #would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or #anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol #well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3

[babydarkstar]

it’s not my job to clean up after my sister i swear to god my parents need to stop babying her and they need to make her clean up her shit

#i cannot catch a break but she gets unlimited free passes #shes a fucking slob but i’m the one they want to pin it on #it makes me so angry oh my goddddd #im convinced they think im stupid and incompetent like. im so over it dude #they treat her like shes god and always means well and is never malicious or ill intended

[scuopsie]

My god…. Have mercy😫💦

©️loopbebe

#monsta x #hyungwon #220611 #i swear im going back to simping for mg military husband when tour stuff is over😞 #im a faithful wife😞💔 #bUT UNTIL THEN #OH MY FUCKING GODDDDD HIS PROPORTIONS #I WILL NEVER SHUT UP ABT THE BELLY CHAIN AAAAAAAAAAA

[and-stir-the-stars]

I'm going to ignore the angst for a moment, and talk about the funny part, because Evan telling Mike he's "Too tall" to be his brother implies Michael used to be a small-fry. Just an angry British chihuahua of a child. Or, getting scooped somehow made him taller like those guys who got leg surgery in the pandemic just to mess with people. Like Mike went "Whelp, I have to fix my legs anyway, might as well be over 6'3 now. You know what? I'll treat myself. 6'5"

okay initially i was just referring to Mike having grown since Ev died and Ev expecting his big brother to still be the 14 year old kid who killed him, but that is SO FUNNY, i LOVE the idea of Michael being a short king so much. ESPECIALLY if Evan would have grown up to be taller than him,, the real reason the Bite happened was because Ev got all the Tall Genes and Mike refused to be the shorter older brother

#angry british chihuahua mike is my new favorite thing ever #mans grows up to be like. 5'3''. tops. #then promptly gives himself another foot and two inches of height after being scooped #at least it'll make him even more unrecognizable as Michael Afton. he should have NO problems #using fake names to get into Freddy's now :3 #also hold it. back up. people didn't actually get leg surgery like that during the pandemic?? #i have NEVER heard of that before? #angry british chihuahua mike oh my goddddd.... #evan and liz both towering over their 'little brother'

[gibbearish]

love how literally every other r/offmychest post is someone going "my partner just asked about opening up the relationship, what do i do?" and the comments are "the relationship is dead, this is a horrible betrayal of your trust, break up with them you don't deserve this abuse"

#that is not hyperbole btw literally the most recent one's top comment called it abuse #and its like. if ur not into it ur allowed to say no. thats the whole point of asking. #and if they try to pressure you after then yeah theyre in the wrong if its a dealbreaker for them they should end the relationship there #or if they just bypass asking and go straight to cheating and try to spin it as 'well actually im poly so you have to let me' obv #thats shitty too #however them just. thinking it is not . something you should judge their morality on #like in a healthy relationship it goes 'hey wanna do an open relationship' 'hmmm no i like it better as just us' #'no problem just thought id ask' and then everyone moves on with their day #and by FUCKING god is it not ABUSE all on its own just to ASK if it's a possibility #and theyre always like 'its over.... my life is ending ....... she never loved me.................' and its like #oh my goddddd shut up that is not what happened #'she said she still loves me just as much as she did at the start of our relationship but obviously she's lying because #if she actually loved me the thought would never have even crossed her mind' man fuck off #someone being capable of maintaining multiple relationships doesnt suddenly negate everything you have together #fucking grow up

[mars-ipan]

lmk if this is fucked up (hear me out) but i’ve been wanting an excuse to psychologically torment someone for years (HEAR ME OUT)

#OBVIOUSLY i don’t do it because i’m not fucking evil #but ohhh my god if someone ever did something horribke enough to warrant it??? #i would be sooooo fucking manipulative. like genuinely i have the power for it. #i’m very good at analyzing people and i’m very good at subtly suggesting things #i need to make this clear I DO NOT DO THIS. i simply fantasize about doing it to bad people #i’m not talking like making people hate themselves type of manipulation btw #i’m talking like making people go fucking insane type of stuff. psychological warfare #i would never do this irl. i’ve never met anyone who’s deserved something like that #but ohhhhh my god i want to BAD to haunt someone’s dreams. i want to be someone’s worst fucking nightmare #i know i sound like an edgy 13yo rn but like i’m being 100% genuine #i fully believe that i’m good enough at manipulation and reading people that i would be able to find and push all the right buttons #in someone’s head to make them fully lose their minds #and like i said i would NEVER actually do it. because it’s like evil to do that to people #but oh my goddddd part of me wants to soooo fucking bad #not sure how much of this desire is intrusive. obvi i don’t want to hurt people #but i do want to bring horrible people endless psychological distress #it’s just that there’s never a situation where doing that is even remotely okay #at least that i’ve been in #and i like don’t hold grudges so even if someone completely fucked me over i probably’d just get over it #but oooooouh. the primal desire to make someone completely question their reality. it is like visceral #‘mars i cannot see you willingly manipulating anyone’ and that’s why i’m fucking good at it. #i don’t do it bc i prefer being trusted to being an asshole. and also it’s an awful thing to do #but oh my GODDD it would be so cathartic. #idk if i’ve conveyed this thought exactly right. but know that i love fantasizing about striking dread into the hearts of cruel people #the amt of daydreams i’ve had where i psychologically torment billionaires is well into the double digits

[imwritesometimes]

I will not venture outside my own dashboard in order to maintain my optimal tumblr experience. I will not venture outside my own dashboard in order to maintain my optimal tumblr experience. I will not venture outside my own dashboard in order to maintain my optimal tumblr experience. I will not venture...

#*through gritted teeth* #I will not let stupid fuckin idiots ruin all of tumblr for me #I will not let idiotic political takes that are not even really takes just clearly meant to bait ppl into fighting #make me delete my account #I stg every week it's like. 🤏 this close #I've been here for eons man. over a decade. but my GOD. my GODDDDD. some ppl have never been told to shut the fuck up #or have had to be decent to ppl they don't exactly like like sorry to break it to you but that's part of life #that's part of being an actual adult in society #having cookies with the kitties now FCK #erin explains it all

[mrsmarlasinger]

My manager at the call center isn't gonna be here for the rest of the week. Nor is our office manager. I'm gonna throw up. Like I'm literally nauseous with dread

#it's JUST me and my one coworker because they fired coworker libby a few weeks ago #we're so fucked oh my god like #i ask my manager for shit ALL THE TIME oh my goddddd #i don't even have permission to use bonding slots for ortho emergencies omfg i'm gonna actually kill myself #and i took 53 calls on monday?? calls take like 5–10min usually & there's only 480 minutes in a work day?? and now we're down one person?? #i was literally physically ill with stress today having to constantly call people back and i only took 43 calls #(7 of which were 10–20min new patient calls which each require like a good 15+ min of follow-up as well. but i digress) #i also got a call that was just fifteen seconds of BLOODY MURDER SCREAMING until i got way too scared and hung tf up. jfc #(which i thought that was one of those scam calls where they just play audio of a woman screaming for her fucking life #but it came from a patient's parent's phone number?? so idk??????) #(sometimes i hear kids screaming in the background cuz it's a pediatric dentistry but this was something different. #no talking just horrific screaming for over ten seconds straight. oh my god) #anyway on the OFF chance we have ANY free time tomorrow taking 80+ calls on our own. we'll have to spend it CALLING BACK MISSED CALLS #AND I'LL NEVER GET MY FUCKING NEW PATIENTS IN. GOD #ONLY 56 HOURS OF THIS JOB LEFT. CHRIST A-FUCKING-LIVE. PARENTS ARE GONNA BE MAD AT ME AND ORTHO COORDINATOR CANDI WILL YELL AT ME #AND I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF. I HATE MY JOB AND I HATE THIS FUCKING DENTISTRY. GODDDDDD #personal #work shit #work blogging #work

[hella1975]

that™️ coworker: have I complimented you today?

me knowing he has twice already: no

him: well we can’t have that, you look lovely :)

#this fucking guy I’m gonna lose my street cred if he does one more sweet thing so HELP me #strawberries were involved again today it’s getting to be too much #and he’s leaving for uni soon and ISNT SURE IF HES COMING BACK? #and I was like ‘I should be the single reason you need to stay like why would you go anywhere when you get to work with ME’ #and he very softly smiled and went ‘that is a pretty good motivator’ #FUCK YOU #it’s like I knowwwww it’s just his personality and I’ve not seen him do it with the other girls #but I KNOW he must like it’s just one of them #BUT GODDDDD #do I even like him??? am I just so bowled over by genuinely sweet male attention with no ulterior motives??? help #yes this is the 27 year old idc anymore #I’m perpetuating a stereotype SUE ME #he’s possibly 26 btw like my memory is foggy #so hmmm check and mate he might only be seven years older than me #hella slaves to capitalism #also why have I got some radfem in my inbox referencing something I said weeks ago #have u been sitting on this one a while babe has it been stressing u out have u been thinking of me #I’m not answering the ask bc genuinely I do not care enough to indulge them #they either follow me in which case hiiii come off anon and we’ll discuss like adults #or they’re just starting fights randomly in which case I’m not fueling them by answering and they’ll never see this <3

[thedrunknextdoor]

all might is one of the best and most interesting characters and all might bashing is the dumbest shit ive ever seen and the people who bash him lack the ability to think critically in this essay ill-

#ill never stop being petty over the amount of all might bashing in this fucking fandom #LET ME READ DADMIGHT IN PEACE MY GODDDDD

[mirmidones]

my mum texted me completely out of the blue 'have you heard from [old friend] lately?' and i had a minor breakdown about it and then 3 hours later resurfaced to text back 'no' pointedly not asking 'why' bc i don't wanna know but now she's answered 'ok thanks' and now i'm mad what the fuck

#upset beyond reason but i was right not to ask and it's better that i dont know #this way i have a chance of getting over it anytime soon #but goddddd will it ever be over no it wont will i ever be ok with it being never over please i am begging you #selfishly wishing everyone involved in it was dead bc the dead can only haunt one's memory mind and dreams but not their present daily #tangible life. i wonder if i could have gotten over it by now had it stayed dead in the ground where it laid #on top of that i saw the psychiatrist and she was like why are you so angry with your father? and since my only defence mechanism is #forgetting i was like 'why AM i angry with my father?' and recalled it all and got angry all over again but oops the time was over so #lol just stay angry until you can forget about it again haha #and now this. hurt that my mum would do this to me again. i feel like im 13 again except im not it will continue to grow except in that #point. i don't know what id do if lucy wasn't here. abysmal day but like at least i had a cat on my lap for a part of it #sigh #delete later