↳ Index [Chapter 08 - Yuja]
Warnings: Smut, they are going down sweet memory lane together :(, switch!Yoongi, switch!Reader, mutual masturbation, handjobs, fingering, so much kissing, body worshipping, she’s a lil shy and he is so reassuring, slight overstimulation at the end, many cuddles :(, Yoongi once again being the only one
Wordcount: 12k
a/n: i will break into pieces 😔 i wanna keep living in this world forever :( gosh, this yoongi did it to me so well. he is such a cutie patootie :( thank you to everyone who went on this journey with me, i love you 💜
“What are you doing here?”
You turn.
Yoongi is in a fluffy onesie and with his hair ruffled from sleep. His eyes are puffy, barely staying open.
“I’m just a dream you’re asleep”, you say, feeling your heart begin to race.
“I know I’m not”, he says, holding back a laugh.
“Crap”, you murmur. Okay here we go. You came here to talk, so let’s talk. You take a deep breath before finally making the first move, “I came here to talk.”
Yoongi studies your face, gnawing on his lower lip.
“What I did early today was such a mess and now I’m panicking because I don’t want you to think I was telling you off or something. I’m just a mess and nervous and panicking and a mess. In conclusion I’m a mess.”
Yoongi scoffs in amusement.
“Do you want to come inside? It’s so cold”, he offers.
“Oh yeah, thank god you offered. I was freezing my butt off outside.”
“Yeah sorry, I was kinda asleep when you rang my doorbell, so it took me a while to get up.”
“I figured. Crap, sorry Yoongi. I should have waited until tomorrow or something.”
“No, it’s fine. It wasn’t a good sleep either way.”
You follow him through his cottage to his living room. It was warmer than the rest of the house. There was a pillow and blanket on the couch and in the fireplace coal was still glowing. Yoongi begins cleaning off the sofa from his sleep stuff, carrying it to a chair instead.
“Sorry, I’m sleeping by the fireplace for now because the heaters upstairs broke last night and my bedroom is literal Antarctica”, he explains, turning around. He has his arms wrapped around his own torso, shivering even in the warm room. Not even those fluffy socks he is wearing seem to keep him warm.
“You’re still cold aren’t you?”
He nods his head, “my body needs too long to feel warm after waking up”, he explains with his teeth clattering, “do you mind if I wrap myself up in my blanket?”
“No sure, go ahead. I’ll just sit down here”, you say and blop down on his comfortable sofa. It is still warm from his body, the sensation is seeping through your pyjama pants.
Yoongi claims the spot next to you, making sure to keep at least one pillow of distance between you and him. He has his legs pulled up to his chest and the blanket all the way to his ears.
“So uhm, you wanted to talk to me?” he begins, staring at you with nervous eyes.
“Yes uhm”, you nod your head, “why did we break up?”
He blinks quickly before letting out a breathy laugh.
“You said no easy entrance into this conversation for me.”
“Yeah I know…but I don’t know, it’s the thing which is driving me crazy the most.”
Yoongi stays silent for a while, gnawing on his lower lip with knitted brows. He gives in with a sigh.
“I wasn’t a good husband to you.”
“Huh?”
“I spent too much time in the studio, ignored your texts asking me if I would come home for dinner just so I can finish this one song and then when we did spend time together all I could think about was my work and how I needed to finish this or that.”
“You serious?”
“Of course I am. You think I’m going to lie to you and make myself look bad on purpose?”
“Yeah okay, that does sound like a dumb move. Sorry uhm”, you turn to him, “so we broke up because you were a workaholic basically?”
“Yeah well basically”, he lowers his eyes, “except that I was literally addicted to work. It became so bad that I couldn’t even get hard in the bedroom, which made you feel really ugly and as if I didn’t want you anymore, which wasn’t true at all. In reality, my mind was running on nothing but work, it took up all of me. I didn’t care about anything other than my clients and my music and one day you just had enough.”
Your eyes meet.
“You left me, packed all your things and left. And the worst part? All I thought of at that moment was that I can’t wait to work this heartbreak into a song.”
“Okay damn, I didn’t expect that.”
He laughs painfully.
“That was four years ago. I looked for help after I literally passed out and woke up in a hospital bed after my burnout. I got therapy for my addiction and slowly gained back control over my own life.”
He stops talking to look at you with glassy eyes.
“I’m so sorry ___. That’s all I wanted to tell you for the past four years. I��m so fucking sorry for being such a shitty husband to you. I was so awful and selfish and I will always regret it. I-“, he forces down a sob, clearing his throat and squeezing his eyes shut, “I never got the chance to tell you because before I could get to you and talk to you, you were in the car accident.”
You feel a cold shiver runs down your spine just at the mention it.
“Did you try to visit me in the hospital?” you ask, waiting for his answer with bated breath.
“Of course I did. I spent every single visiting hour with you. I talked to you a lot, watched your favourite cartoons with you and made sure you were always looking your best because that was always important to you.”
You laugh with tears in your voice.
“It was you? You were the one who put on my cartoons?”
He nods his head, looking at his knees.
“Yoongi, I-“, you stop talking to inhale shakily. You scoot closer, “Yoongi, I don’t know what to say. You made the loneliness easier. Holy cow, do you even know how important you were?”
Yoongi shakes his head and lowers his eyes even more.
“I was looking for you everywhere. You were the only thing keeping me from giving up because you gave me comfort. Yoongi I”, you force down a sob, “thank you so much.”
He looks into your eyes and smiles painfully.
"Seriously thank you so much, I owe you my life", you say in a shaky voice.
He sniffles, rubbing at his button nose and squeezing his eyes shut.
“You know", he begins with his voice slightly pitched in emotion, "I was really hoping that you would wake up soon and that I could talk to you and make everything right but then-“, his voice becomes quieter as he speaks the next words, “-the doctors called me, told me that you woke up, but that you can’t remember a thing.”
You sit back on your heels, feeling your heart fall in heaviness. He wipes at his eyes.
“I visited you one last time, thinking that seven years together must be enough memories to trigger something. It wasn’t enough, you looked at me as if I was a stranger and the worst part was the fact that I truly was a stranger to you. I was gone, erased, like I never existed. So I stayed a stranger for your sake. I didn’t want to rip open old wounds by telling you how shitty I was to you.”
You feel your stomach sink.
“And you never tried again? To see me, I mean.”
“Once after that. A few months into your rehab I visited the hospital. Not because of you, no I was there to get my shoulder checked out because I was having pain in it for a decade at that point.”
“Oh no.”
“Yeah, a truck hit me when I was a teenager. When we were married you always rubbed pain medicine on it on my bad days”, he says and gives you a smile.
You retort it.
“But the point is, I visited the hospital to get my shoulder checked out for my surgery and then I saw you sitting on a bench and I gave in to my own selfishness and walked up to you. Maybe something has changed now that you are better again. So I thought.”
“But it didn’t.”
“No it didn’t”, he lowers his eyes, “you looked at me in confusion and asked me if you know me. I told you that you didn’t and that I had mistaken you for someone else. I went home crying that day because I had all the proof I needed to know that I was actually gone from your mind.”
He sniffles, burying his nose in his blanket to wipe away his tears sneakily.
“I’m sorry, I don’t want to cry. I didn’t, didn’t tell anyone a-about this ever. It’s so much.”
“No it’s fine”, you assure him with a painful lump in your throat, “I’m sorry that I didn’t recognize you. That must have been the most painful thing you ever had to feel.”
“Yeah, it was”, he whispers squeakily, forcing his eyes shut to gain back his control.
You reach out and wipe his tears away. Yoongi is frozen, forgetting to cry for your touch had left him too shocked.
"I'm really sorry Yoongi", you whisper and Yoongi watches a single tear roll down your cheek.
"It's not your fault", he breathes, reaching for your wrist to touch it softly, "please don’t blame yourself."
"I just feel so awful. All those years I thought that nobody cared enough for me to visit, while in reality I always had you by my side and, and I couldn’t even thank you for it."
"I'm sorry, I told the doctors and nurses not to tell you of my visits. I just…didn’t want you to be scared of a stranger sitting by your bed claiming to be your ex husband. I didn’t want to creep you out. They agreed, said that it was in your best interest not to overwhelm you with too much information."
"I understand, I just…I'm so sad that I couldn’t thank you sooner", you say and intertwine your fingers with him, "thank you, Yoongi. Thank you for being there for me."
Yoongi squeezes your hand, caressing your knuckles with this thumb. It is slightly calloused from renovations, but the touch is gentle nonetheless.
"I'm just happy that I could help. That’s all I wanted. To be there for you."
One gaze at his lips, one second of the unbearable desire to kiss him and you already put distance between you and him again in nervousness.
“So uhm, what changed your mind? Why did you decide to become my neighbour?” you ask.
“I didn’t”, he says, “I really didn’t. I decided to move to the countryside because life in the city suffocated me. You know, I had too many failed relationships after you, work felt like it was trying to gain back control again and honestly, my apartment sucked too. So I looked for a new place, something with as few stress factors as possible.”
“And the Old House was the best purchase for that?” you ask with slight confusion in your voice.
“Yes. Building something with my hands is the best kind of therapy I can give myself.”
You smile. That sounds so much like Yoongi. Always busy with fixing something. Of course he would find relaxation in it.
“So why my village? Did you know I was living here?”
He shakes his head, “I had no idea. I was so surprised when I saw you on my doorstep that night you caused the short.”
“Urgh don’t remind me.”
He chuckles shyly.
“Sorry, do continue. So you didn’t know I was living here, but you decided to seek my contact?”
“I must admit that yes I did. When I realised that you still didn’t recognize me, I felt sad at first, but then I got the brilliant idea that maybe this could be my chance at a second try. You didn’t know me, you didn’t know how shitty of a husband I was in the past. I could try again, show you the real Min Yoongi without work clouding his mind.”
“Mhm I understand your point. It must have felt like the universe was giving you a chance to make everything right again.”
“It did, it really did. And I’m sorry for the way I handled it. I thought it would be better if I gained your trust first before I tell you that I was your husband in your past life. You must believe me, I never would have let it come to the point of us becoming physical with each other. I don’t know if this makes it any better, but really I never wanted to take advantage of you. I just- fuck.”
He scoots closer to you.
“I’ve fallen in love with you again. The new life you, the real you. Not the bank manager, city girl you of our past, which by the way, still a great catch.”
You laugh.
“But I fell in love with the tea shop owner you of the now. You are just so lovely and sweet and made me feel so welcome when I was a shy mess with everyone and you see so much wonder in the small things and I just- “, he exhales shakily, ”-fell in love with you. And the stronger my feelings for you became, the more I doubted my own promise of telling you about our past. I thought that I didn’t really have to tell you about our past because we were so happy and you didn’t know my past me, you didn’t know about us, you were just a sweet tea shop owner falling in love with a weird city guy.”
“So when I tried to kiss you that night.”
“I knew that it was then or never. I knew that it would be really freaking weird if I pulled back again, especially after the nice evening we had and me basically telling you that I feel the same for you. I knew I couldn’t excuse all that pulling away with my nervousness anymore. Shit ___, I wanted to kiss you so bad that night, but the voice in my head told me to stop being selfish and instead be honest with you. So I was and told you everything and I’m sorry for not being honest with you from the beginning. I really am.”
He finishes by exhaling loudly, sinking in on himself as if finally speaking all those words out loud lifted a million pounds from his shoulders.
“Well damn, that was a hell lot of stuff to take in”, you say and exhale loudly.
“I’m sorry.”
“I know just…give me a quick moment to digest all of this.”
“Yes of course, sure. Take your time.”
He waits for you in silence, fumbling with his own thumbs under the blanket and sneaking glances at you every so often. He is literally dizzy in nervousness. He is so scared of how you might react, already picturing the worst scenarios in his worried, little head.
“So we were married for seven years?” you begin.
“No five, we dated for two before that.”
“And I broke up with you because work was more important to you than our relationship?”
“Yes and I’m sorry that it was.”
“And you visited me when I was in a coma and tried to make me remember you?”
“Yes, I’m sorry if that was creepy.”
“And then you decided to give up the city life and move to the countryside instead, but you didn’t know that you would meet me there?”
“Yes.”
“That’s some fate shit isn’t it?”
“…yes?” he murmurs shyly and with his eyes focused on his floor. It’s cute, it makes you smile.
“And then you decided to build a healthier relationship with me and to do us over?”
“Basically, yes. I know I should have been honest from the beginning and I’m sorry.”
“No honestly? I did some thinking and maybe I’ll sound like a completely crazy person, but I’m kind of glad that you didn’t tell me.”
“Really?” he sounds surprised.
“Yes, again I’m basically crazy at this point, but I think I would have straight up called the police on you if you rang my doorbell and pressed the wedding invitation into my face to tell me that we were married. I definitely would not have wanted to hang out with you, that much is sure.”
“So…me being a coward actually…helped?”
You laugh.
“I think so?” you say, tilting your head to the side.
“Okay…uhm…damn?”
You look at each other. You are the first one to laugh to get rid of the nervous tension. Yoongi joins in a second later to get rid of the pressure on his chest.
Your laughter only lasts a second and then you grow silent, gazing at each other with nervousness in your eyes.
“So what is going to happen to us now? I completely understand if you don’t want to see me anymore”, Yoongi says.
“I don’t know, urgh”, you groan, throwing your head back, “I’m literally so weird because I kind of want to keep seeing you”, you say and groan, “does this make me a total idiot?”
Yoongi smiles and shakes his head.
“Okay good”, you pause to scratch the back of your neck, “do you – uhm – do you have more pictures of us? And can you tell me something about my past? I honestly wanted someone to tell me about my life before the accident for years.”
“Of course I’ll tell you, holy shit ___. I have a photo album, I-I’ll just get it real quick.”
You have never seen a man run faster as Yoongi does at this moment. You couldn’t even really take a deep breath to calm yourself down and he was already on the couch with you again, bundled up in his blanket and with the photo album on his lap.
“Here”, he hands it to you.
“Thanks”, you accept it, opening it on the first page.
Your wedding picture. You in a white dress and Yoongi in a black suit. His hair matches with the suit colour and his cheeks aren’t as round as they are these days. Your cheeks seem rounder, perhaps it was also the way you had your hair back then. You and him were posing for the picture, looking so incredibly happy.
“That’s us, damn.”
“Mhm-hm yes.”
Yoongi lets you look at the picture in silence, studying your features with bated breath. You seem so interested. Especially in the one picture of you and him kissing after saying your vows.
“Damn that’s so weird. We had a whole wedding and I can’t remember it.”
“It was a really nice day.”
“Yeah?”
“Mhm. The sun was shining, but it wasn’t too hot. It was a spring wedding because you always loved spring.”
“At least that didn’t change. Spring is the best season. Especially with all the trees blossoming.”
Yoongi smiles, eyes softening.
“You told me that on our second date.”
“I did?” you gasp and look at the next picture, one of you and Yoongi dancing your first dance together, “I did…” you whisper, dragging your thumb over your smiling face in the photograph, “I was really happy, wasn’t I?”
“Yes, you were so beautiful.”
You chuckle, “that’s not what I asked.”
“Yes, you were happy too.”
You sneak a glance at him, feeling yourself burn up under his fond gaze. You flip the page, letting your eyes run over the many pictures of your wedding celebration.
“Anyone you recognize?” he asks.
“No, not really.”
“Do you want to know?”
“Are they the same people who never visited me in the hospital?”
“Most of them.”
You look at their unknown faces.
“Then no, I don’t want to know”, you say and flip the page.
A new location. You and Yoongi in the grubbiest of your clothes and with moving boxes surrounding you. One picture shows Yoongi trying to build a rocking chair. Another picture shows you bend over the bathtub as you look into the camera with your shirt soaked in water.
“That’s from our moving day. When we finally moved in together. The faucet in the bathtub broke and you tried to fix it.”
“And you took a picture instead of helping me?”
“Yeah”, Yoongi says and laughs boyishly.
“Wow, so mean”, you murmur, giggling afterwards.
You flip the page. More pictures of your moving day. Yoongi fixing the fridge. You installing a wall lamp. The both of you posing for the self timer with tools in your hands as you both pull a silly face.
You flip the page with a smile.
“Aww that’s cute.”
One single picture next to some text. The picture is of you and Yoongi kissing on the sofa, you are sitting on Yoongi’s lap and he has his arms around you. The text lets you know how your moving day went and that Yoongi was a complete meanie as he didn’t help with the faucet but then he fixed the fridge and he was your favourite person again.
“Did I write that?”
“You did. You loved writing a few words between pictures. I did the doodles.”
“They’re so cute. I like the little hammer you drew.”
“Thank you”, he says with his heart melting in his chest.
You flip the page again. You and Yoongi doing all sorts of domestic stuff with each other. Cooking, cleaning, doing the laundry, painting.
“Oh? We painted together?”
“In the beginning we did, yeah”, he says and sighs, “I’m sorry I didn’t find time for it anymore later.”
“Hey, no worries. I can’t remember it anyways”, you joke, sending him a reassuring smile before flipping the pages.
More pictures of you and Yoongi doing domestic stuff together. Going grocery shopping together, painting some more, doing face masks together.
“You look like the tinman of Oz”, you laugh.
“You literally said the same thing when we did those masks.”
“I did?” you gasp, “gosh, I’m repeating myself so it seems.”
Yoongi hums and smiles, resting his head on the backrest of the couch as he hugs a bundle of his blanket to his chest. He thinks you are so cute right now.
You flip the pages again.
“Aaaaaw oh my god, look at how small Holly was”, you exclaim in a high-pitched voice.
Yoongi’s head snaps up. You have reached his favourite page.
“Right?” Yoongi scoots closer to you, “we got him as a puppy. Look”, he points at a picture, “that was on the day we got him. He was so small that he could fit into my palm. Isn’t he so cute?”
“Yeah he’s so adorable. Gosh, look how small he looks in your hand, aaawww.”
You flip the pages. More pictures of you and him with Holly. One picture of him sleeping on Yoongi’s stomach and the words “asleep on dad’s stomach” scribbled next to it. One picture of him sleeping on your chest with the words “asleep on mom’s chest” scribbled next to it. Then one of Yoongi cooing at him as they both are sitting on grass. And another of you lifting him up in the air and smiling at him.
“No wonder he greeted me the way he did. He must have missed me so much", you say.
Yoongi looks at your side profile.
“He did. In the first few months of not having you with us anymore he could only fall asleep on one of your shirts.”
You pout.
“Nooo that’s so sad. Poor Holly.”
“But he has you back now and he seems happier.”
“He does?”
You turn, just your head, and come face to face with his soft gaze. He can’t stop his eyes from flitting to your lips. You didn’t miss it, feeling lighter in your chest at the sight.
“Yeah he’s happier”, Yoongi whispers and looks away as if he had realised what he was doing.
“I’m glad he is”, you breathe, averting your gaze back to the book.
You flip the pages to even more Holly pictures. It makes you giggle.
“I have another photo album and it is filled with even more Holly pictures. You can skip the next ten pages if you want.”
“Hell no, I want to look at all of them.”
And so you look at every single picture on the next ten pages, asking Yoongi every now and then for a few behind the scenes facts. He happily tells you every story and trivia he can remember. For example, that you and Holly always had this silly race in the park, which ended up with both of you too exhausted to walk back home, which ended in Yoongi having to carry Holly and supporting you with a strong arm around your waist. Or that Yoongi was way too overprotective in the beginning and that you had to basically drag him away from Holly because he always wanted to stay by his side. Also that he regularly claimed the entire bed while you and Yoongi had to sleep in one tiny corner.
Then the pages change. Holly was still in some pictures, but not all of them.
“We went camping?”
“We did. You loved it. I would have preferred an actual bed, but you insisted that we sleep in a tent and watch the stars.”
“Ah god that sounds like me”, you cringe and chuckle as you point at a picture of Yoongi with his hair in a complete mess. He had auburn hair back then, it suits him.
“That was when you woke me up with coffee and then surprised me by taking a picture. I hate that photo.”
“No, it's cute. I especially love the drool on your cheek.”
“Hey”, he whines and nudges your arm.
You turn your head and laugh. Yoongi seems flabbergasted, keeping his hand rested on your elbow as he once again gazes at your lips. His fingers are moving just the slightest bit, as if he wanted to caress you secretly. You laugh softly and smile, nudging him with your arm.
“Uhm”, Yoongi clears his throat, “sorry”, he says and pulls his hand away.
“It’s alright”, you assure him and flip the pages. More camping pictures. Oh you look so happy.
You sigh and knit your brows.
“We were really happy, weren’t we?”
“At that time we still were, yes.”
“Did we go on many camping trips?”
“Yes, even in our last year together. But I spent most of it on my phone.”
“I see”, you whisper, running your thumb over your smiling faces on the photographs, “I’m sad that I can’t remember those days. They seem like great memories to have.”
“They are”, Yoongi says softly and points at a picture of you next to a bonfire, “I cut that wood and you told me that you find it very hot when I use an axe.”
You laugh, “that sounds like something I would say. Axes are kind of hot.”
“And here? That was seconds before I burned my tongue on a marshmallow.”
“Aww noo that sucks.”
“It did, but you kissed it better.”
“I kissed your tongue? Eww weird.”
“Yeah it was weird, but that’s what I love about you.”
You look at each other again and this time around you feel your own eyes flitting to his lips. His tongue darts out, wetting them and making you aware that you had been staring. So you clear your throat and turn back to the album to flip the pages.
“No way! We went canoeing together?” you gasp and pout, “that’s so mean, I want to remember that.”
“You really don’t. I hurt my shoulder pretty badly that day and spent the rest of our trip in pain.”
“Oh no, I’m sorry. I hope that I put pain medicine on it.”
“You did. Lots of it, with many kisses too.”
You giggle, “gosh, I’m so cheesy.”
“Yeah”, he whispers, dancing his pointer finger up and down your leg just once. You know that he did it on purpose, leaving you to shiver.
You turn your head, “hey, I’m a little cold.”
“Do you want to share?” he offers just like you had hoped he would.
“Yes please.”
Yoongi scoots closer and opens his blanket to drape it over your shoulder. Like this your legs and arms are touching.
“Is that alright?” he makes sure.
“Yes, it’s alright. Thank you, it’s so snugly”, you say and flip the page again.
“Recognize that pillow?”
“Yeah, what the hell? I have that in my sunroom!”
Yoongi chuckles deeply, “it was always your favourite pillow. You took it with you once you left, but this picture was taken minutes before you decided to have your five minutes and start a pillow fight.”
You snort, “gosh, sorry.”
“It’s alright. I won.”
“Mhm sure you did”, you tease, “you’re probably just saying this.”
“Guess we’ll never know.”
You giggle and flip the pages.
“Oh dear”, you gasp.
“Yeah uhm, crap”, Yoongi gasps and covers the pages with his hands, “I completely forgot that those are in there too. Uhm yeah, we tried erotic photography a few times?” he says and chuckles awkwardly.
“I can see that”, you say and push his fingers away to sneak a glance at one of the pictures.
You on white sheets, they are covering your lower parts and the sun paints swirls of gold over your naked breasts, “oh so artistic.”
“Mhm”, Yoongi presses out with his eyes closed.
You chuckle, “why do you have your eyes closed?”
“Because it’s rude to look.”
You giggle, pushing his hand away to flip the pages. More pictures of you and him in every sort of sexy poses and positions. You try not to look too much either because you both are wearing very little clothing in all the pictures. So you quickly flip the pages again.
“Okay it’s safe to look”, you say and exhale in relief.
Yoongi peels his eyes open, “oh that!” he exclaims and begins smiling.
You look at the pictures. You are in your pyjamas in all of them, matching each and every time. They are different sets each time, which means those were all taken on different nights. They all had one thing in common, you were in some sort of pillow fort in all of them.
“Those are pictures from our countless movie dates. You insisted that I would build a pillow fort in the living room every time.”
“I see”, you murmur and grin.
“You see those mugs?” he asks and points at them.
“Mhm-hm.”
“Warm milk with honey and cinnamon. You always called it your special sleepy time recipe.”
“Holy moly”, you gasp, touching your chest, “when I made you that drink I…I remembered that somehow?”
“I was really moved that night, you know? I thought for only a second that maybe you finally remembered me, but it seems that only your subconsciousness did.”
You turn to face him, feeling your breath hitch now that you and him are so close. You can even smell his body wash in this position and the warmth of his body and you realised that this was a scent familiar to your nose. You know now why it was so familiar and it leaves you leaning closer, until you could watch his eyes widen.
“Thank you for doing this with me. It’s nice to know that I was happy before the accident. It’s just kind of sad too because I would love to be able to remember all those times.”
“It’s…” Yoongi looks at your lips, “…nice for me too.”
“Yeah?”
“Mhm. I haven’t looked at those photos in years.”
“And yet you kept them.”
“I couldn’t throw them away.”
“Even when you started a new life.”
“Ha”, he lets out and lowers his eyes, “it’s kind of creepy isn’t it?”
“I don’t think so.”
Your gazes meet. Yoongi’s breath hitches. You are literally mesmerised by his lips. Maybe he could do it if he leaned closer. You don’t move away, as a matter of fact, you lean closer too.
Yoongi closes his eyes and tilts his head to the side, holding his breath.
Then you kiss and Yoongi feels like flying, sighing your name as an array of emotions makes his heart race uncontrollably.
It is nothing major, just lips on lips and a shy sound from you, but it leaves him breathless. You pull back with a giggle, nudging his nose with your own.
“I did it again”, you whisper.
“What?”
“I kissed you.”
“Yeah”, he breathes, dragging the tip of his nose up and down the slope of your nose, “I want to do it again.”
“But what about the pictures?”
Yoongi laughs breathlessly, tilting his head to the side so he could drag his nose over your cheek and leave a feather light kiss on the corner of your mouth.
“Do you want to know more stories?” he asks you in a voice you have never heard from him before. It comforts you like nothing else.
You open your eyes, feeling your heart flutter at the view. He has his eyes closed, his dark lashes carry unshed tears and cheeks are flushed a deep pink.
“Later”, you breathe, letting your eyes fall closed again to chase his lips.
You both sigh once you find each other. The kiss lasts longer this time around, Yoongi even goes so far as to place his hand on your cheek. It feels big on your face, warm and soft.
You touch his chest, fingertips resting on his collarbone. His heart is racing even faster than yours does. This moment must be so special to him.
You break the kiss. Yoongi lets out a breathy whimper, closing his finger around a bundle of your hair.
“Come back please”, he begs quietly, nudging your face with the tip of his nose.
You let out a breathy chuckle, twisting his hair at the nape of his neck to pull him back into a kiss. You pull your legs up on the couch, sitting down on your heels and facing him in the process.
Yoongi squeezes his eyes shut until wrinkles appear on his face. He dreamt of this moment so many times. He dreamt of talking to you and apologizing to you and maybe he also dreamt of feeling your kiss one more time. He never thought that those dreams could become reality one day. That one day you would really be back. But now you are, you are back with him again and you are even better than you were in his memories. Nothing else will ever come close to the pure happiness he is feeling right now.
He sighs softly, running his palm along the curves of your shoulder and arm. He stops at your wrist, dragging the pad of his thumb over the sensitive inside. It makes you sigh against his lips.
Your fingers land on the zipper of his onesie, playing with it mindlessly. The kiss becomes slower, just soft sucking and biting and the addicting taste of his lips. Yoongi is touching your back, refreshing his memories of how your spine felt under his fingertips. He thinks it still feels just as addicting as it did five years ago. His touch drives you on top of his lap, you just want to be closer to him.
"Mhm ___", he mumbles against your lips, letting out a lazy chuckle as you take his hands and tug them around your waist. He follows gladly, holding your waist safely while your weight is resting on top of him comfortably.
It feels exciting to be on his lap and to have him hold you like that while his lips dance with yours. It leaves you with an array of butterflies in your belly and tingles on the parts of your body he touches.
You want to touch him too. His shoulders, strong and muscular from all the working he has been doing. His neck, skin oh so incredibly soft under your fingertips and for some reason he seems to let out a trembling gasp as you let your fingertips dance over it.
The kiss breaks just enough that you can feel his breath tickle your lips. Foreheads resting together and eyes half-lidded, you touch his neck again, eliciting the softest of sounds from him.
You giggle, he does too.
"What?" his voice is raspy.
"Just, you", you answer him, pulling him back into the kiss.
Yoongi makes a sound again, abandoning your waist to run his hands up your back instead. First your lower back, palms outline the paths of it until you are kissing him oh so deeply. Then up to your shoulders, the touch is placed with such intention and care, inch by inch he seems to feel you up.
Your tongue darts out, shyly and hesitantly. He lets you lick over his lips once, smiling fondly before parting his lips and meeting you with his tongue. The change makes you gasp and for just a second you want to pull back, but he doesn’t let you. With his strong hands on your lower back again, he pushes you into him. Closer, tighter. No distance between your bodies as he tongue kisses you deeper and deeper, forcing you to whimper at the intensity of it.
So that’s how that feels. That’s how it feels to be so into a kiss that one's hands only purpose becomes the task of pulling the other closer. That’s how it feels to get so lost in the other that having to entangle each other’s tongues is the only bearable solution. It’s addicting.
With an almost needy roll of your hips you seek more of him. He doesn’t even have to press you closer now, you do it all on your own. Closer and closer. Chest against chest. Stomach against stomach. Soft hair between your fingers and lips sensitive from kissing oh so deeply. It is Yoongi who whimpers this time around, having to tilt his head back in order to reach you and your magical kiss.
You answer him, feeling up his shoulders and chest eagerly. You love how it vibrates under the sounds he makes, how his deep voice is tickling your fingertips.
Another tickle. You slow down your touch, chasing the tickle again. His zipper. Oh, how you want to tug it down.
You try it, hesitating a second later because the gesture made him gasp into your mouth. You break the kiss, looking into his hazy eyes. His lips are so swollen from kissing, looking so pink and pretty.
"Sorry", you let go, "that was creepy."
Yoongi however grips your hand and pulls it back to the zipper.
"Do it", he rasps, holding the zipper with you together. He tugs it down a few inches, letting out a breathy whimper while his eyes seem to practically make love to you.
Your heart is going haywire in your chest, your head is dizzy. He is so hot right now. Oh dear, his gaze is making you squirm.
With a gulp, you take over for him, tugging down the zipper while he rests his hands on your waist to caress it softly as you undress him.
Your heart is racing. You haven’t really imagined how Yoongi looks like naked before. As a matter of fact, you haven’t even really imagined how it would feel like to be sexual with him. You just loved to spend time with him and that was perfect for you. However, you can’t deny the feeling of utter excitement at the aspect of seeing him naked – or at least shirtless – now.
The zipper opens all the way down to his crotch. You place your hands on his hips and run them up his torso. Yoongi's breath quickens at the sensation, back arching so he could chase your touch. You run your palms along his shoulders until you reach his collarbones, continuing your way to the slightly opened middle of the onesie.
You take one cautious look up at his face, stomach tingling at what you see. Yoongi has his head rested against the backrest of the couch, eyes closed and features relaxed in bliss. As if he wanted to concentrate on nothing other than your touch.
You tug on the onesie softly.
“Oh?” you gasp, breaking into laughter a second later.
“What?” Yoongi asks in a chuckle, peeling his eyes open to gaze at your smiling face.
You giggle, hiding your nose behind your tiny fist.
“Gosh Yoongi, I expected you to be naked underneath.”
Yoongi looks at his torso and the thick flannel pyjamas he is wearing.
"I was cold", he pouts cutely.
“So you are wearing two layers?” you ask in a cute giggle.
He laughs, feeling his cheeks heat up in giddiness.
“I like warmth”, he murmurs.
“You’re like a cat.”
“You…”, he lowers his eyes shyly. The blush spreads over his nose, “...sometimes called me kitten because of it”, he confesses in a whisper.
“I did?” you gasp, “gosh”, you say, hiding your face behind your hands and plopping against Yoongi’s chest.
He chuckles fondly, placing his big hand on the back of your head to pet you softly.
“Sometimes you also called me grandpa because of the way I run”, he says.
“That’s so mean”, you whine, nuzzling your face against his chest, “I’m sorry Yoongi.”
“I don’t think it’s mean, it’s funny”, he assures you.
You lift your head. He seems so fond. It’s literally driving you insane.
“But most of the time you called me dumpling baby or snuggles, sometimes darling too”, he says and shows his teeth in a fond smile.
“Dumpling baby?” you snort.
“Because of my cheeks.”
You groan, hiding your face behind your hands.
“I’m so embarrassing, oh my god.”
Yoongi pulls your hands away from your face, placing them on his chest instead. He tilts his head up, placing a tender kiss on your lips. It makes your heart flutter.
“I called you beautiful and darling”, he says, studying your features with sparkling eyes, “or my love”, he breathes, brushing his thumb over your cheekbone slowly.
You are basically melting. He is so sweet. He is so goddamn sweet.
Yoongi looks at your lips, tilting his head up again. You meet him in the middle, kissing him back. He sighs, allowing you to lead the kiss with his eyes squeezed shut and his heart fluttering in his chest. He guides your hands so your fingertips would hook in the opened zipper. It is a silent question for you to undress him and you understand, pulling the onesie over his shoulders and down his arms until it pools on the sofa by his hips.
The kiss breaks, you broke it to catch your breath.
“Lie down, I’ll take the onesie off”, he tells you, nudging your hips softly.
You follow in an instant, crawling off his lap and resting back on the soft pillows. He works quickly, standing up to step out of his onesie. He finds his home on top of you after a second, resting between your legs and cupping your face in his big hands. His thumbs run along your cheekbones, lips curling into a fond smile.
You giggle, “so you're keeping the pjs on?”
“Yeah”, he pouts, “it’s so warm and cozy.”
You chuckle, sighing a second later when Yoongi pecks your lips. You blink quickly, feeling your cheeks heat up.
“Can I kiss your neck?” he asks in a soft voice, caressing your temple as he speaks.
“Yes”, you breathe, waiting for the sensation with your eyes squeezed shut and your head rolled to the side.
You always wondered how that must feel like. This is so exciting.
The first kiss is placed softly upon your skin, leaving you to gasp for air. The second kiss is placed just next to it, Yoongi gives you the softest of sucks to end it with. The third kiss is placed just under your ear, right where your jawline melts into your neck. You shiver so much, feeling so good and lightheaded.
Yoongi sighs your name softly, placing the fourth kiss on your jawline. He allows his teeth to drag over your skin gently, eliciting goosebumps on your arms in reaction. And while his lips worship your neck, his right hand runs along your body, starting at your thighs and ending at your shoulders. It leaves tingles behind, making you so sensitive to his touch. So sensitive and so, so nervous because as Yoongi makes the first indicator of touching you under your breast you tense up.
“Yoongi wait.”
“What is it?” he lifts his head from your neck, hair ruffled from the pillows.
“I, I have to confess something to you.”
He nods his head and relaxes, “tell me.”
“I didn’t have sex with anyone in four years”, you blurt out and hide your face behind your hands, “urgh god I just said that out loud.”
Fingers rest themselves on your hand, tugging it away from your face. If comfort had a face it would be Yoongi in this moment, because as you open your eyes in nervousness and meet his fond gaze you don’t feel fear or embarrassment, you feel comfort.
“It’s alright”, he whispers.
“And I’m not on birth control, so you have to use a condom.”
“Of course, that’s alright.”
“And I also have no idea how to do sex because I have no memory of how to do it”, you say.
He cups your cheek, caressing it with his thumb.
“That’s alright too.”
“A-and also I have scars”, you say and lower your eyes, “many, they are sorta big.”
“Doesn’t matter, you are so beautiful with or without the scars.”
You feel so freaking comforted. God damn you are repeating yourself, but Yoongi just....radiates judgement free and honest comfort.
“Okay, okay”, you let out a deep breath, locking eyes with him, “sorry, I just needed to get all of this off my chest.”
He smiles softly, “it’s alright. You know that we can take it slow? We can do whatever you are comfortable with.”
“Really?”
“Yes really. We’ll take it at your pace, alright?”
“Yes, alright.”
Yoongi smiles, kissing your forehead softly. It makes your eyelids flutter shut and your heart skip a beat in your chest.
“So what should we do? Should I show you more pictures?”
You shake your head.
“Then more stories? I could tell you about our honeymoon, it was a blast. That was the time we ate watermelon for breakfast and also realised that we are both good surfers.”
You smile, cupping his face in your hands. Yoongi parts his lips and gazes down at you with widened eyes.
“I want to try.”
“What? Surfing?”
“No”, you laugh, “gosh no, not surfing. I kind of want to try...sex?”
His eyes soften, yet deep down arousal glistens in them.
“Right now?”
“Yes, right now.”
“With m-me?”
“No Yoongi, with the old Misses Jang from up the road”, you say sarcastically.
Yoongi blushes furiously, hiding his face in your shoulder with an embarrassed groan. You laugh and giggle, giving his head a soft pat.
“Don’t laugh at me. I’m nervous too”, he whines.
“Don’t be nervous, it’s just me.”
“Yeah exactly”, he lifts his head, somehow his bangs are even messier than before, “I want to make a good first impression.”
“What should I say? At least you know what I like, I have no idea.”
Yoongi chuckles and lowers his eyes, “I guess you’re right”, he murmurs, “but still, maybe something changed and I just, I like you so much, I don’t wanna mess up and disappoint”, he says and pouts.
“Well then let’s figure out our bodies together”, you touch his chest, eliciting a breathy gasp from him. You run your hand to his side and place your nails against it. You dance them down softly then you go up again. Yoongi’s eyes threaten to close, hips rolling against yours on instinct. The sensation feels really good. He is hard in his pants, grinding the hardness up and down your core. It feels so nice and also hot.
“God ___ that’s so good”, he whispers shakily.
“Are your sides sensitive?”
He nods his head, melting closer. He begins kissing your neck again, stroking your cheek with his thumb. You let your eyes fall closed and bask in the sensation as your hands explore his torso.
His tummy is soft, it tenses when you run your fingers over it. Relaxing in a trembling breath a second later. You can feel it tickle your skin, it is warm if not hot even.
"___", he whispers, biting down on your earlobe softly.
"Oh? Oh okay", you laugh softly, "that’s good."
Yoongi purrs, dragging his lips over the shell of your ear.
"Your touch is so nice. Can’t get enough of it”, he whispers in that honey voice of his’.
He bites your earlobe gently, tugging on it just slightly. Like a chain reaction of sensations your shivers run all the way from your ear down to the tips of your toes.
"Yoongi I want to be shirtless", you confess in a breathless moan.
Yoongi’s head shoots up.
"Are you sure?"
You nod your head, reaching down to tug your sweater and shirt up. Yoongi watches it happen, breath hitching in his throat at the sight. You grunt quietly, fighting with the last few inches until finally they slip off your hair and arms. You open your eyes, meeting adoration in his gaze.
"You're so beautiful", he whispers, "fuck ___, I never want to stop looking at you."
You giggle, covering your chest with your hands.
"Okay now my bravery is kinda running out, help I acted way too quickly."
Yoongi chuckles. He sits up for a moment to take off his shirt, revealing yet another shirt to your eyes. A white t-shirt, loose fitted and slightly wrinkled.
"Yoongi", you wheeze, “you’re not serious. How many layers are you wearing?”
"I was cold", he whines with a pout and soon his face disappears under the shirt as he takes it off.
He slips out of it with a grunt, blinking quickly with his hair standing up in the front. You giggle. He is so cute.
“Sad, I expected another shirt”, you joke.
Yoongi fixes his hair and shivers. Goosebumps cover his fair skin in an instant.
"So cold", he whines, reaching for the blanket to pull it over his shoulders. Then he cuddles back into you, sharing his warmth with you.
"God Yoongi", you chuckle, "you're so dramatic, it's not even that cold."
"Yes it is. It’s freezing", he murmurs, nuzzling his cheek against your chest.
"Alright, alright it's cold", you give in with a fond roll of your eyes.
"Mhm", he lets out, turning his head so he could begin kissing your chest all over.
"Oh wow", you groan, head rolling to the side and veins tingling in electricity.
Yoongi was right. The blanket was a good idea. Oh you are so warm all snuggled into it and somehow it makes the sensations of his mouth even more intense. He kisses you, he kisses even the long scar under your breast where the doctors needed to go inside to fix your ribs. And he kisses it without mentioning it in any kind of way, as if it was just another part of your body which he wanted to worship. You don’t tell him, but you appreciate his silence so much.
Perhaps a reason for you not sleeping with anyone in the past four years – ignoring the fact that you weren’t actively seeking it in the first place – was the fact that some part of your brain was still too ashamed of your scars. You feared that if you bared yourself to someone and they would see your scars, you would have to explain yourself. And you really didn’t want to do that.
But Yoongi stays silent, placing featherlight kisses all over your scar before he moves on to another part of your chest like it was the most normal thing to do. You feel so appreciated. And so, so nice.
Yoongi sucks on the swell of your breast before lifting his head for the sole purpose of giving you a sweet gummy smile. You retort it, feeling your heart flutter in your chest. Then he lowers himself again, kissing a path up to your nipple. He hesitates, brushing his lips over it in an attempt to see your reaction.
You tense up in anticipation, arching into him.
That is all he needed to know. He parts his lips and wraps them around your nipple, caressing your other side with his big hand.
You let out a breathy laugh, ending it with a surprised moan and an arch of your back.
“Okay that’s - ha - that’s really nice.”
“Yeah?” his warm breath swirls over your skin, making you shiver. He hums and abandons your nipple for the sake of kissing the other. Not that he truly abandons it, the moment his lips take on their sweet journey to your other side his hand begins touching you skillfully.
“Mhhhm”, you purr contently, letting your head roll to the side. He makes you feel so warm between your legs. Oh, it’s so embarrassing because you can feel it stick to your pyjama pants as well. Hopefully it doesn’t soak his couch, gosh that would be devastating. Oh! Forget every worry you ever had, Yoongi using his teeth to bite down on your nipple gently is the only thing important. Or maybe it’s his right hand slowly but surely dancing down your stomach to the hem of your pants. You giggle nervously, making Yoongi raise his head.
“No?” he asks, pulling his hand away.
“I’m nervous.”
He nods in understanding, caressing your side for now.
“What do you want to do?”
You gnaw on your lower lip.
“Just tell me beautiful and I’ll do it”, he encourages you in a soft spoken voice, the kind which fills you with so much comfort that it’s almost unbearable.
“God Yoongi you-", you pause to cup his cheeks and squish them, “-stop being so sweet”, you say, squishing his cheeks more aggressively.
His pink lips stick out in a squished pout, his eyes become little slits as you squeeze his cheeks together. He chuckles deeply.
“Can I have my face back?” he asks fondly.
“Yeah, uhm”, you pull your hands back, “sorry, I just – I don’t know – I wanna keep touching it because I like it so much.”
He lowers his eyes shyly and blushes.
“Stop”, he murmurs.
“Why?”
He shrugs his shoulders, “just so.”
“Mhm, that’s not a reason”, you giggle, reaching out to stroke your palm over his cheek again and again, “I want to try it.”
“Tell me”, he says, nodding his head.
“Your hand”, you reach for it, “I want you to touch me down there”, you say and guide it down your stomach. Yoongi keeps his fingers relaxed so they would leave the softest of tickles behind.
He smiles and nods his head in understanding, caressing your lower stomach.
“Scoot over a little.”
You do as you are told, watching him with curiosity as he wiggles into the spot between you and the backrest of the couch. He sneaks one of his arms under your head, engulfing you in the safety of his chest. This is so close and intimate with both of you being shirtless that you feel your cheeks heat up. Skin against skin, not knowing which warmth belongs to you and which belongs to Yoongi. You truly never imagined how such sensations must feel like with him and yet they leave you so tingly and happy that it feels as if a wish was fullfilled.
“Are you comfortable?” he makes sure.
“Yeah very”, you whisper in awe, “the blanket was a good idea, it’s so snuggly.”
“Right? I told you it’s a good idea, but you wanted to nag”, he murmurs, nuzzling his nose into your hair to kiss your ear softly.
You giggle, hiding your face in his chest. The bickering is cute, like a married couple and that is what you were. You were married and perhaps that is why you felt so comfortable with him. Because deep down you already knew that he was your other half.
You begin placing little kisses all over his skin at the aspect, feeling his blissful purr.
“Keep doing that beautiful”, he encourages you in a sigh, travelling his hand up and down your stomach and sides.
And so you continue, littering his chest with kisses and touching whatever parts of his sides you can reach. Yoongi sneaks his hand inside your pants, running his fingers down to your middle slowly. You part your legs for him, waiting for the sensation with bated breath.
He touches your entrance first, rolling slow circles on it to pick up your arousal.
“Oh? Okay”, you gasp, lifting your head to look into Yoongi’s eyes.
He gazes down at you and smiles, dancing his fingers up your core. One touch to your clit and you are squirming.
“Oh? Okay yeah okay”, you press out, widening your eyes.
“Is it nice?”
You nod your head vigorously, watching how it makes his pupils dilate.
“Good, relax beautiful, I’ll take care of you”, he rasps, closing his eyes and kissing your forehead.
You relax in his arms, basking in the sensations and feeling your head become dizzy at his scent. Now, you did touch yourself in the comfort of your own bedroom. You touched yourself many times actually and you like to claim that you are very good at it. But god diddly damn, it’s so different if someone else does it. The touch is laced with the exciting surprise of you not knowing where he will place it next. It leaves you shivering in the best ways possible.
“That feels really good”, you sigh and moan softly.
“Mhm, it feels good for me too. You’re so wet and soft”, he whispers, drawing figures of eight with his fingers.
“Yoongi can I touch you too?”
He groans quietly. Your words affected him, you know that they did because his fingers speed up on your clit.
“Y-yes”, he presses out, panting heavily in anticipation.
“Okay, here I come. Just tell me what to do”, you say, dancing your hand down his stomach until it disappears inside his pyjama pants.
He is so excited that he basically twitches into your hand, mewling softly when you wrap your fingers around him.
“Fuck ___”, he chokes out, bucking his hips up, “you’re so good.”
“But I haven’t even started.”
“Doesn’t matter.”
You giggle and moan. Yoongi is toying with your entrance, the aspect of having his long fingers inside of you almost drives you insane.
“Can I finger you?” he asks in a rasp.
“Please”, you whisper, moving your hand up and down his length slowly.
Yoongi whimpers and slips two of his fingers inside of you. You keen and roll your hips into his touch, squeezing his cock on accident because the breach surprised you so much. It wasn’t painful or uncomfortable, it was just surprising because it felt so good. Fingering yourself is definitely not the same as getting fingered, because holy moly damn that feels amazing. Especially with the length of his fingers and the perfect girth of them. Yoongi also seems to have the perfect technique of rubbing his palm over your clit as he moves his fingers.
“Yoongi it’s so good”, you moan, resorting to squeaking softly afterwards.
“Yeah? Keep going too beautiful, your touch is perfect”, he encourages you, voice raspy and strained.
He is probably overhyping your touches. He is distracting you so much with his own touches that sometimes you forget to move your hand. Yoongi makes up for the loss of friction by rolling his hips into your hand slowly until you finally remember again that you needed to move as well and you begin jerking him off with a certain vigour in your touches. Yoongi moans deeply each time this happens, rewarding you with a mindnumbing curl of his fingers against your sensitive spot inside.
“Yoongi….”
“Mhm?”
You tilt your head up, chasing his lips. He understands wordlessly, leaning down to kiss you deeply. Oh his touch becomes so much better now that you are kissing him, making your toes curl and your limbs feel as if they were on fire. You hope that you feel better for him too, making sure to pay special attention to his tip.
Yoongi lets you know that you feel a thousand times better by moaning against your lips and darting his tongue out to chase your own. His fingers curl inside of you, your fingers squeeze around his hot tip and your tongues dance with each other sloppily. It quite frankly steals your sanity from you.
The blanket is becoming very hot on top of you, so hot that sweat pearls on your chest and tickles your skin as it runs down your sides. Yoongi seems to be hot as well, his skin is just that little bit damper as it presses against your own and his once ruffled bangs are matted. They are still messy though, he looks so good like that. It almost knocks the air out of you when you pull back for a quick breather and your eyes land on his handsome face. His dark eyes are even darker than usual, almost as if his pupils are so dilated that they are swallowing everything else. His nose is glowing prettily, carrying a rosy sheen to it. As do his cheeks and his swollen lips.
“You’re so pretty”, you whisper.
“Thanks”, he murmurs shyly, blushing even more.
You giggle and squeeze his tip, watching how it makes his brows knit in pleasure.
“Fuck baby you’re gonna make me cum”, he groans.
That does something inside of you. Your stomach tingles uncontrollably, your walls clench around his digits. You want this to happen. You want to see him lose himself. He would probably look so hot.
“Do it”, you rasp.
“Mhm, not yet”, he murmurs, claiming your lips in a passionate kiss. The kind that steals your breath away.
He keeps his fingers curled, moving them the slightest bit back and forth. You squeak, fighting for your air. It seems that Yoongi wants to see you lose yourself before he does. He is doing an amazing job at that, your stomach is tensing so much.
He breaks the kiss, panting against your lips.
“Are you close?” he asks.
“Yeah”, you squeak, legs shaking uncontrollably. There is too much pressure on your clit, his palm is too soft and warm. His fingers are too good, too long and skilled. He is actually going to make you cum.
“Whenever you are ready, beautiful”, he encourages you.
You gasp for air repeatedly, squeezing around his cock for the sole purpose of holding something. Not sexy if it wasn’t for Yoongi rutting into you desperately. He watches your eyelids flutter, feeling your walls clench around his digits.
“Come kiss me, let me taste your moans”, he rasps, making your legs shake with the way his fingers curl.
“Yoongi”, you choke out and stumble into the kiss.
It is sloppy, Yoongi gets more of your licks than actual kisses. He accepts them happily, swallowing your every moan as he curls his fingers against your magical spot once again. You squeak and shutter, everything gets too much for you.
“Yoongi.”
“Let go", he encourages you.
You break around his digits, hiding your face in his chest as your body spasms in fiery electricity.
“Oh god, what the hell”, you groan, shocked by how hard you are climaxing. It sits so deep, feels so hot, makes your stomach tense so much. This is the best. The literal best.
“That’s it, shit you’re so sexy”, he encourages you, helping you ride out your high with skilful movements of his hand.
You whimper, twitching one last time before finally opening your eyes again. Yoongi looks fucked, with his eyes blown out and his cheeks heated. Also his breathing is ragged, heart pounding against his ribcage.
“How was that?” he asks you, pulling his fingers free to caress your thigh.
You giggle, stomach bursting in feel good hormones. Yoongi smiles, placing a soft kiss on your ear.
“Good?”
“Yes, so good”, you whisper and place a kiss on his chest. It makes it rumble in one of his deep moans.
So you lift your head and look at him. He is breathing even heavier than he did before, squirming softly.
“What?” he asks you because the sudden smirk you are sporting confuses him.
You sit up and try to roll you and him over, doing so a lot more clumsily than you had wished for. He collides with the couch in a deep grunt. His head tangles over the edge, messy hair almost touching the floor.
“Oh shoot, sorry”, you gasp, “I wanted to be sexy.”
“Fuck”, Yoongi laughs raspily, “mission accomplished, fuck.”
You tingle in pride. He seems very into it, judging by the red spots covering his chest and his neck carrying a sheer layer of sweat. He rests his hands on his stomach, long fingers still glistening in your juices.
“You’re really hot”, you tell him.
“You too”, he rasps, swallowing heavily. His fingers run over his own stomach mindlessly. The view taunts you. Especially because it leads to the very prominent dent in his pants. You don’t really have the desire to see dicks, because they aren’t really exciting to you, but it feels different with him. You really want to see him. So much so that you are almost going crazy at not being able to see him.
You hook your fingers in the hem of his pants and pull it down far enough to make his cock spring free.
“Huh?” his head shoots up, lips parting in shock.
It is just as pretty as the rest of him, his tip is glistening with his arousal. Also it matches with his hands, oh so many veins. Very sexy. You think that his dick is very exciting to look at.
You give him a playful smirk, wrapping your fingers around his length to jerk it off quickly.
“Fuck”, he moans, dropping his head back and fucking his hips into your hand, “holy f-fuck.”
Maybe it is muscle memory but somehow your fingers know exactly where to touch him. You also think that he has such a nice cock. A very nice cock. Very reactive and so pink, just like his lips. Said lips are currently parted widely, letting the most sinful of noises free. Deep grunts, breathy gasps, high-pitched whimpers. For someone who has such a deep voice he has an impressive range if only you touch the right spots.
You roll your thumb over his frenulum, twisting your wrist afterwards.
“How's that?” you ask him, repeating your movements.
“Good”, he lulls, bucking his hips up. He wraps his long fingers around your wrist and squeezes softly.
His body trembles, his cock throbs. You dance your fingers up to his tip again and massage it quickly.
Yoongi twitches with his entire body before a guttural moans rolls off his tongue aggressively. Your eyes flit to his face, fingers working on their own. You find it peculiar just how sexy he can actually be. How your cute and sweet neighbour looks like sex personified now that you have him shaking under your touch. His lids are opened halfway, giving view to his rolled back eyes. His lips are parted and swollen, glistening in his saliva. And his neck is shimmering in a sheer layer of sweat, muscles flexed in the position.
One roll of your thumb over his slit and he is twitching again.
“I’m cumming”, he chokes out, letting go of your wrist to grasp the edge of the sofa instead.
“Do it”, you encourage him, welcoming his high with quick jerks of your hand.
Yoongi groans and spasms, covering his tensed stomach in his seed. It runs down his length, collecting all between your fingers as well. This is so hot, this is so hot. Oh you want to continue. This is so hot.
“Wait, wait”, Yoongi laughs panicky, trembling fingers reaching for your hand, “slow.”
You don’t listen, jerking him off with madness in your eyes. He mewls and squirms, trying his hardest to pull your hand away.
“Please ___", he begs, gasping for air.
Faster. His cock is so hard and twitches so much. There must be more for you. He must have more to offer.
Yoongi laughs panicky, twisting the sofa pillow.
“Please slow”, he begs squeakily, “mercy please”, he is laughing by now, tugging on your wrist again, "fuck ___ please", he presses out, writhing desperately. He is twitching with his entire body, forcing cut off laughs and gasps out of him.
His other hand reaches for you, gripping you with such strength it surprises you.
"Slow", he drags the word out, squeezing you with trembling fingers.
It is enough to clear your mind from the hungry madness you are feeling. You slow down your movements, blinking quickly. He guides your movements, smooth rolls up and down his cock.
“That’s better, it’s too sensitive otherwise”, he says and sighs, “god beautiful, you just made me cum so hard”, he says and laughs, covering his eyes with his arm, “fuck.”
You touch his tip and squeeze gently. He hisses, twitching away.
“___”, he complains in a laugh, lifting himself with the help of his abs, “I’m sensitive.”
You pull your hand away, “sorry, it’s just so much fun to touch you.”
“Mhm”, he hums, drawing closer to cup your cheek and kiss your lips softly, “you’re still as cruel as you were in the past.”
“Yeah? Did I do that often?” you ask him, wrapping your fingers around his cock again to give him quick jerks.
Yoongi whimpers, twisting your hair at the nape of your neck, “please no more.”
You twist your hand on his overly sensitive tip, forcing a moaned laugh out of him.
“___ baby", he chokes out, taking a hold of your torturing hand to squeeze it.
You giggle, burying your nose in the crook of his neck. You push him back on the sofa, pulling the blanket over your bodies and snuggling into him tightly. Yoongi just let’s it happen, melting like ice cream in the sun.
“That was lots of fun", you say and giggle, touching his inner thighs for now.
“Agreed, I love being with you. I really missed it.”
You smile, trailing kisses up and down his neck.
Yoongi shudders and pulls you closer, inhaling your scent.
“Fuck ___ I actually missed you so fucking much. Those last few months without you were horrible”, he murmurs into the crook of your neck, hugging you to his body and rolling over on the sofa with you so he could cuddle you tightly.
“Agreed. I was so lonely on most days.”
"Same, especially on Tuesday."
"Yes", you agree, nodding your head vigorously, "you have to come by again from now on. I'll make you so much tea and you can eat your egg sandwich and we have tangerine tarts on our menu these days. You have to come eat them."
"I will. Tangerine tart sounds amazing, I can’t wait to try it."
"Yes, me too."
You kiss his hair and close your eyes. It is so warm and cuddly now that your blanket is wrapped around you so snugly and Yoongi holds you so tightly.
Yoongi exhales his breath shakily and squeezes you softly. He is in heaven. This is paradise.
“Yoongi?”
“Mhm?”
"I'm glad I had you as a husband. If you were as sweet as you are ever since I met you then I was a very lucky woman. It’s so nice to know that I had you in my past."
Yoongi squeezes your middle and squeaks.
“Don’t say that”, he murmurs, clearly fighting with his tears.
“It’s the truth, you’re such a sweet man and you bring so much comfort into my life. Falling in love with you was so easy and felt so comfortable.”
“Stop that.”
You laugh, squeezing him.
“You’re so cute.”
Yoongi lifts his head to gaze at you. His beautiful eyes are filled with unshed tears and yet they are sparkling in unconditional love for you.
“Thank you for giving me a second chance”, he whispers.
You smile.
“I’d do it again."
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