#got me crying in front of my friends

[a-dream-deferred]

being the kid who other kids were compared to sucked so much actually

#thinking about how many potential friendships i lost in my childhood because teachers used me as an ..idek - a role model?? for the class #my friend literally told me she used to be so jealous of me in elementary school she actually hated me #and not just elementary school! #i remember in tenth grade we had an algebra test that many students didn't do well on #ppl were crying and complaining to the teacher that it was too difficult #she literally said '[my name] got a full mark didn't she? if she could do it then you all could've done it too. you have no excuse' #and she asked me in front of everyone if i found the exam difficult #i wanted to disappear on the spot

[lesbianralzarek]

ugh. my father insists on telling the family group chat whenever i take a lil half-step towards being a functional adult. "oh, ella is learning how to drive in the snow! also, did you know that shes taking a class to become a pharmacy technician?" dad im 25. your next youngest daughter is starting a master's program. shut the fuck up, not everyone needs to know i couldnt drive in the snow until now

#PLEASE just forget i exist #ill let you know if i ever become a homeowner and therefore 1/4th as successful as everyone else #not infrequently i look at my peers and remember that autism is actually. like. a significant disability #and that the vast majority of people diagnosed with autism are unemployed #and it. uh. doesnt make me feel better about myself #it used to be a 'hey. compared to your real peers you arent lagging behind at all!' #but now its 'you are statistically unlikely to ever pull yourself out of this rut and into a position where you feel #comfortable asking for the love you want and nearly all of your friends have had' #its at least partially the meds but i feel aggressively nauseous #immediately after posting this i entered the crying and throwing up and acting visibly hysterical in front of others #*phase. the phase of screaming crying throwing up. not screaming yet but ive got a drive coming up and i plan on #screaming in the car

[pirateknight]

god I fucking hate Riley so much

#'wahhh my girlfriend didnt cry in front of me while her mom was dying i'm gonna cheat on her and then tell her how good it felt to do it' #like bro says she didnt open up to him and its like not only does he feel entitled to her every emotion but also wants to control them #like he tells her when to cry and to hit him when she's angry and when she doesn't he breaks up with her??? #he's gone from boring tolerable to unbearable prick godddd #the fact that xander then blames buffy and the narrative supports him by having her agree?? she should have told them both to go to hell #and yknow while i'm on a btvs rant: #i havent minded xander so much but i might be reaching the point that makes everyone hate him #from how he's behaved this season he doesnt deserve anya. he lets everyone be mean to her for not understanding things #and she's with him bc she has literally no one else and he loves that about her #i really hope she gets a chance to flourish as her own person now she's got her job at the magic shop #i hope she and giles become close friends and he backs her up in dumping xander #btvs #chatter

[thecollectionsof]

can confirm: jaida actually is that stunning in real life

#she stroked my face and lifted my chin to look at me in the eyes and i hope she got a chuckle out of my dumbfounded face #my friend and i just keep going ‘oh my god that was real’ but oh my god that was real ????? #crying crying crying (crying) /pos #also got front row for premium picture location i’m proud of these pictures <3 #jaida essence hall

[hide-your-bugs-away]

Thank you to the state of Ohio and English record producer Mickie Most for giving me a wonderful eclipse day, yesterday 🙏

#maumee ohio thank you your dr pepper was good #seeing the eclipse was sOOOO COOL. SO COOL. I LOVE ASTRONOMICAL EVENTS I LOVE SPACE ROCKS. #brought the animals with me of course because i always bring them with me to ohio #I WANTED THEM TO SEE IT TOO!!!!!! #my mom and i went to an antique store as well and gOSH THE HAUL WAS GOOD!!! #got a couple of herman's hermits albums because Mickie Most Moment (thanks peter noone for talking about him in your shows) #and ANIMALS!!! OHHHH WHENEVER I FIND ANIMALS I CRY. #i didn't have the 'bury my body' ep yet or the '73 'best of the animals' album yet!!!!!!!! #love how barry doesn't play on a single one of those songs on the larger album b u t he's on the front picture 😔🙏 #and i found..... 'take it easy/i'm crying'....... ooohhhh PRICE-BURDON HELP ME #i had to snatch it... i'm going to give it to my friend in england!!! 😭🙏 since i have two copies already aaa...... #i also found a copy of 'o lucky man!' and i was sooo tempted b u t again #i own two copies already so ..... i left it so someone else can enjoy alan for the first time 😭😭😭😭💞 ALAN PRICE SAVED MY LIFE. #...going to listen to 'o lucky man!' as i finish his birthday drawing eeee...... #almost got a donovan album too b u t all of the donovan albums i've been finidng recently are soooo expensive 😭😭 maybe later... #saving up for london part 2 and magazines.... also a convention next month #anyway. THANK YOU MICKIE MOST. #the seviper card too eeeee one of my favorite pokémon #FOUND A SHINY WIMPOD IN TOLEDO HASHTAG WIN #the animals #eclipse 2024 #herman's hermits #things i said today

[blep-23]

Today was a horrible rollercoaster, I have bought $35 worth of soup and I will be drinking tonight. Vodka, I’ll be drinking vodka to help get over this day and I will have soup as a chaser or something.

#daily life of Blep #it started good #and then I got on Snapchat #for reference #I’m non-binary #and I guess I didn’t tell my grandmother and when I told her #she did not seem care or try to understand #and immediately shot me with #“well on your birth certificate’’ #and then asked how I was #I was having a good day with my friend #but now I’m about to cry in front of her after shopping for some clothes in a restaurant I wanted to show her #I left her on fuckin seen #vent post #personal vent #don’t respond #I just had to get this off my chest #I bought a lot of soup though #the vodka will be cold now #I would also like to clarify that I will be playing a drinking game to a show #and I will not be guzzling it #I shall drink responsibly #kinda??

[goldenhypen]

beloved em 🫂 i was so worried but i figured u just needed time to urself !! i hope ur doing okay, and if it doesn't feel okay just yet, that's alright too </3

hi beam !!! <3 thanks for being so understanding :( this is actually rlly nice to hear and i’ll keep this in mind cuz it’s possible i will disappear again v soon tbh 😭 but rn i’m doing ok after taking some time off for myself and it was rlly nice :’> hru doing lately? 🥹

#i actually need to still tell you the jiung story and send you some intak fancams i took 🤭 #i just haven’t fully caught up on all my notifs yet 😭 #actually ig i could tell you a quick version of the story rn :’> #basically me and my friend bought vip for the concert and got to take a group photo with p1h #and by a vvvvvv lucky chance i got to stand beside jiung 🥹🥹 #and for one of the picture HE asked me if i wanted to make a heart tgt 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #and so he held out his hand in front of us and i connected mine w his iM CRYING #and then i also got to talk to him 🥹 #just saying like ‘thank you’ #and before that also a quick ‘welcome to canada’ #omg bro jiung is actually such a sweetheart i can’t 😭 #sosososo sweet #and so tall and handsome 🥹🥹 #HES SO 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i miss that day sm and will never get over this BYE #em answers #beam! <3 #lovely moots

[todayisafridaynight]

SORRY TO TAKE SUCH A HARD LEFT BUT HOW DO YOU THINK JO FOUND OUT ARAKAWA WAS DEAD

IM GOING TO SCREAM IF I TRY TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOOOOO I GOTTA GET BACK TO YOU IN 5-7 BUSINESS DAYS WITH THAT ONE............

#snap chats #id shit and cry if aoki was the one that told him in a condescending/bitchy way yk what i mean #like as if to jab at jo like 'oh dont worry about dealing with dad- since you were too incompetent to do it i had someone else handle it' #not that word for word im SURE but yk what i mean. just GENERALLY thats the energy #the timing of this ask is soooo funny i was just talkin to my twit friend bout arasawa #and how youve been inspiring me to draw it more again as of late and this is NOT helping !!!! i am ADDING IT to my LIST #cause i want to be in pain i guess (;´༎ຶ▽༎ຶ`) I JUST SEE IT SO CLEARLY IN MY HEAD EGUUUGHH #im still gonna chew on the idea of How tho im still gonna chew on it cause i have other stuff lined up Obvi but..... OUGH PAIN... #verrrrry awkward when i post a thing in liek an hour cause that shit gon be a lil cute so then i just got this in the back of my dome ☠️☠️ #thank you........ #throwing up as i remember aoki being like 'you're acting strange lately' brb #OUUGHHGH dying. #LIKE IM JUST THINKIG OF ALL THE EMOTIONS JO WOULDVE BEEN FEELING- /ESP/ IF HE WAS IN FRONT OF AOKI #how would he even cope... i mean judging by the eye scene Not Well butu OUUGHvLKJVALKJ #ITS THE CONFLICTED FEELINGS AGAIN CAUSE LIKE he SHOUULDNT care as much as he does right... #arakawa was just his boss... but if THAT was the case why not take him out when jo was first asked too..... #aoki is his priority in life right...... arakawa wasn't supposed to be anyone important BUT THEN HE DID BECOME IMPORTANT #making myself throw up #anyway this is why jo shouldve been allowed to rip tendo to shreds. in my humble opinion. <- sobbing #NAWWW IT THE WAY I HAVE TO GO OUT WITH MY SIS RIGHT AFTER THIS WELKFJALFKJLKVJ #I CANT BE NORMALLLLL

[krispiecake]

i will never forget u two <3

#tumblr wont let me reply to anyone on my posts but i wanna say thank you to the people who replied to it #skylo (the smaller one) passed away in 2021 and putting lupus down on monday is just so hard #like these are my BABIES you know they were my first real childhood pets #skylo was 13 when she passed and lupus is 15! they got so old especially for dalmations snd they had wonderful lives #they were so sweet and so caring with all my siblings as they grew from babies to toddlers to now #ive got these pictures of my youngest sister just hanging off both of their necks and climbing them #and they were always so wonderful with them #one of my sisters played connect the dots of my lupus once and it took AGES to get all the pen off him #skylo once knocked a fence panel out with her forehead because she ran so fast for a pigeon and didnt stop in time #they were each other’s best friends #and skylo would always sprawl out and take all the space so lupus had to curl up in a little ball #i remember when this started getting bad for me and i would stay home from school #when i got the house to myself or really late at night when i couldnt sleep i would let the dogs up on the sofa #even though they were never allowed on there #and i would sit in the middle witb each on one side both their heads on my lap #or i would lay on the sofa in an s shape and one would sit behind my legs and one would sit in front of my chest #god im gonna miss them both so fucking much like i grew up with these dogs #losing skylo was so hard #im gonna cry so so much #but we’re gonna take him on a walk in the woods or in the river #and we’re gonna get him pigs ears because those are his favourite treat #and im gonna sit with him all day when i go back home on sunday #and hes gonna know he is so loved and treasured just like skylo knew

[lemuel-apologist]

reading little women when i was ten was a weird experience, because i absolutely despised alcott's writing, but jo was one of the few characters i truly saw myself in at the time

#i was just ten and didn't want to read books my mom liked‚ i think. #it took me a while to get through twilight the year before. #i also suffered my way through little men after little women. #but-- you know? you know when you see yourself in a character and you can't really let go of it? #you see the smallest bits of parts of your life and it makes the experience of reading that much more meaningful #like when i read gregor the overlander and realized #'hey. this is also a poor kid who watches of his siblings all the time and sacrifices for them. wait a second.' #or i saw a spunky (and poor) girl in kit kittredge and how her best friend was more well off than her and. you know?? #like. idk. it's weird that little women was also one of those books‚ given how much i hated reading it #i've never cared much about the idea of 'dnf.' im very big on quitting. i only finished it for AR points (and to make my mom happy) #i cried when i saw the 2019 version in theaters with my mom. i did. #it doesn't take much to make me cry but it wasn't just normal reactions to emotional beats. it was... it was jo. #it was the way i've felt my entire life up on a screen in front of me. #and nine years after the fact‚ i finally understood. i got why my mom loved that book so much. and i got why i was so attached to jo

[tittyinfinity]

27 years old and my mom still yells at me for crying.

Her own words:

"I just don't understand why you have to cry about it every time something bad happens to you"

.....that's like....how human emotions work, mom....

#death tw in tags #one of my old friends got shot. in front of her two kids. along with their dad. her infant daughter got injured. #& yannow how i shared that story about my moms friend who went to jail for threatening the doctor #who wouldnt fill his partners life saving meds? #yeah. she died. #this is in the span of 2 days. #my mom said #word for word #'my best friend died a few days ago and you dont see me crying about it' #how can someone say that and think that theyre normal #btw yes. the friend and bf that got shot died. #so we lost 3 people this week. but i guess im just over emotional or whatever

[batemanofficial]

realizing i have to learn to be comfortable expressing emotions other than anger if i don't wanna be like my mother got me like

#speak friend and enter #childhood emotional neglect got me like 😐 #when you grow up with an angry woman in your house there will always be an angry woman in your house. i know this #i went to target w her today and made an admittedly snide joke and she said 'ha you're just like your mother' #and that sent me into a spiral that im not completely sure is justified but. here we are #i love my mother but i do not want to be like her. and that means i can't be the guy who can't cry in front of other people. that's hard #gritting my teeth and chanting about becoming better out of love and not shame. ad infinitum. #til i con myself into not loathing myself quite so much. hoooooooogh

[wiiwarechronicles]

I’ve been in a depressive rut for a bit. Eugh

#I’ve barely been able to eat I can’t draw cause my hands shake too much #I’m hyping myself up to get out of bed before noon because I need to shower so bad #my brother is not helping. he found out I’m trans and is now finding every single opportunity he can to make fun of me for it it feels #just absolutely horrible #every time I get frustrated with him he lists of a bunch of pronouns and keeps doing it louder and louder till I just back down. he’s edgyas #hell. and I don’t want to deal with this anymore #evrry time he loudly calls me a woman and grins at me about it I feel like crying and I’ve got absolutely no one to turn to about this #i didn’t even mean to get outed to him. a friend used my name in front of him and things have just gone so downhill from there #maidsmess

[tinybwaby]

#i just had a meltdown in front of my friends #and now I'm really sad #I'm really overwhelmed and it made me have an outburst #i was playing dead by daylight with my cg and 2 of our friends and i got tunneled in the last game of the night #so that made me frustrated #then we tried to do a custom game and i created a lobby and my invites didn't work so my cg tried to make one but i didn't know he was #so there was some miscommunication and that made me really overwhelmed and i blew up and said i didn't want to play anymore #and i wasn't nice about at all #i stormed off and shut down the game and left the discord call #and now i feel bad for being like that in front of my friends #and i just wanna cry #I'm sorry #risu speaks

[mer-se]

Prima facie round two. 5/17 🎭🤍

#pics and videos don’t do the front row justice at all #the way that it curves to the stage is crazy I had to take wide angle pics and even then can’t really tell how close it is #it’s also the only row lit up the entire show with a spotlight #was kind of overwhelming because you’re like face to face #like! at one point she sits on the floor of the stage and we made eye contact for what felt like a whole min and bro tell me why I felt SHY #like grl 😳 #we got some smiles at the end too that invoked some gay panic #she’s even more beautiful irl it’s crazy #and talented like she puts everything into that #was so different seeing the performance so close up man was intense #like her crying hurt my damn feelings #my friend went out before us to try and find a spot for me to get an autograph cus friendship #because there's people there waiting before the show even starts it's wild #she got up front tho! and met a bunch of ppl someone had seen the play 8 times and there were other ke tattoos #I pissed off some ppl but made it up there and jodie wasn't feeling well enough to sign #I wasn't even mad I hope she's ok she does so much man I'd need a year off in bed #did get to see her drive off tho haha #maybe we'll make it down once more before it's done either to see it again or do other ny shit then try for an autograph #we’ll see #I hope she doesn’t get burnt out I even felt bad contributing to the feralness #the show is so heavy I hope she’s taking care of herself #we got sprayed a few times by her drinking water and yelling/talking so if she's sick and l'm getting jodie sick idec #I know ur not suppose to take pics aside from the bow don't come for me #that's why I took it from a horribly under the stage low angle from my ankle basically lol #l've had a headache and motion sickness grossness since the drive down p sure it's a migraine wanna just go sleeps #was so worth it tho for that incredible lady 😮‍💨 #also! got to drive a bronco to and from which was cool I love them lately #ok bye I wrote so much shit probably incoherent #mine

[mishkakagehishka]

Hate being forgetful actually

#got a good concise title for my topic and managed to procrastinate writing it down and FORGOT #you know what. first-generation immigrants' struggle with identity will do. it feels like i'm missing a modifier but it will do #as long as i have something to present it doesn't matter i don't care if i pass anymore i just don't want him to yell at me again bc i #have been such a crybaby these past few weeks i have been crying on and off for the last five hours and if he so much as raises his voice #at me tomorrow i will probably break down and that will be so fucking embarrassing #i don't wanna cry in front of others least of all in front of a prof #esp so bc i've seen people break down into tears in front of him before and he gets so grossly gentle and apologetic and does his best to #comfort them and well !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not a fan of being comforted by most people especially by those i don't feel close to #and on the spectrum of closeness people in authority are on the far end of ''you are not my friend'' you can address me with the formal you #all you want but i know what the hierarchy looks like and i won't be caught dead accepting close relations to authority figures