Working on my degree proposal and for all I am hard on myself for my (slightly higher than average, but still fairly average) GPA, mostly because I worry about it hurting my chances at grad school, I feel like it still says something that I actually do have straight As in my history of science classes in particular. If nothing else, I'm more than a little proud of myself for that
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they shouldn't let me stay up past midnight bc then I start identifying every single problem I've ever had. No solutions found. Net zero personal progress and 0.5 hours of sleep are achieved
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seeking advice
Hello my dear academics - and other various nerds.
I am looking for advice for my current PhD application; I am finalizing my Statement of Purpose and I have space in it to talk about my autism diagnosis and Ianto being a service dog.
However, the dilemma, would it be used against my application or not/ should I wait to hear if I get in before telling them I need accommodations like for a job or should I use it in the essay. This application does not have any sort of 'my struggle' essay to write, just a writing sample - my MA thesis - and the SOP.
I already said in it that I wrote and implemented the Egypt Centre's first autistic accessibility program.... which is literally how I found out I'm autistic. So it does fit in, and I have the space.
But it is a disorder that is discriminated against.
going to tag a few folk but I want as many opinions as you have for me so please comment/re-blog whatever. I have also decided that 1 like = 1 vote to disclose so feel free to just like if you don't feel chatty.
@13faeinapenguinsuit @saintartemis @queenanne1532 @chaotic-archaeologist @autie-j @micewithknives @bundibird @rudjedet @sisterofiris
as usual; the above is a non-exhaustive list of the people on here whose opinion I admire and trust. there are always people I have left off because remembering all y'all's handles is impossible.
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oh actually, sending an ask bc this seemed like a fun question... was looking into the nuances between は and が particles, the tofugu article i read gave me a general understanding of it, but that it's often just vibes + varies from speaker to speaker.. so i was just curious about ur personal take on it 🤔
man, imma be real... i think i stopped paying attention to them after i stopped being graded on them LMAO
first, i have some intuitive understanding of them from speaking the language for so long, and second, they both can be "disappearing particles" meaning speakers tend to omit them in colloquial speech
HOWEVER since i'm trying to be a teacher someday, i will eventually have to learn the difference concretely sdkjfhsdkj
i skimmed the tofugu article and it does a good job of explaining from what i saw! i think it's good to study up on those nuances as a beginner so that when you speak it for a long time you'll just intuitively know which one to use, but i also think you shouldn't dwell too much. i use them wrong all the time, what's important is recognizing that i used it wrong and then figuring out if my listener misunderstood me because of it, and that usually doesn't happen bc は and が have a similar meaning/purpose anyway
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ugh idk guys how do you know if a job offer is worth the six weeks of mid level emotional and physical inconvenience of moving when the boss is apparently a dick but the work is interesting and the pay decent and you’d get to live in the same city as your aging grandparents
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I could/should elaborate when I’m not falling asleep as I am rn but like. I feel like for the people who you “mourn” who have died young and/or suddenly who you knew only in passing, or only casually interacted with, or were once close to but in the years between then and their death you barely spoke, etc etc etc, you arent actually mourning them or their presence in ur life (and now palpable absence) (supposedly) but just what it means to be a human on earth who has to grapple with inevitable loss and the immense weight of what a Person is and their footprint on everyone they interact with that is fleeting even tho there are several billions of us on the floating rock but none of those billions of lifetimes are ever overlapping 100%…. sigh :/
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oh them doing the hoh right as i’m about to sit at an empty zoom meeting for two hours that’s vile
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07.07.2022 | here is to a summer of talking less BS and working more on my thesis :)
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currently writing a fic called “remediation” and my grad school friends are too traumatized by the word to even hear about the plot lol
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I'm writing a paper too. It's a scholarship essay due today so I'm ✨slightly✨ stressed.
You can do it, anon! I hope you get that money.
Mine is for an academic conference. I'm confident I'll be writing it up to the last minute when I present it this weekend.
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All of Spring 2022 papers are due in about 21 hours.
I have one 15 page thing left to cobble together and flesh out from the 7 pages of chaos I have right now.
The 20 page thing is mostly done, except for making the prof's particular lens of analysis extremely clear in every section, and doing the works cited page.
The 25 page thing is done except the godawful works cited page and a last pass of is this on topic, I think so.
I'm basically living on mineral water, granola bars, cheese sticks, and some weird pickles I found and had delivered from Target.
Go to graduate school, they said. Become a doctor, they said. You're so smart so it'll be easy for you, they said. You'll research interesting things and teach interesting classes and talk to interesting people, they said.
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Woke up
Saw someone is going to present a paper on my PhD topic almost exactly working with an organisation that ignored my emails for months
Had a panic attack
Considered dropping out/emigrating to Australia
Bought myself a silly little overpriced drink for my mental health
Called a different organisation who said they're happy to help me with my research
Aaaaaaaaaa
Why are phd's so emotionally draining???
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strike is suspended. grad students are pissed because we got thrown under the bus a bit
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1.26.23
I have to take today off work because I didn't take care of myself. I overstressed myself over things I can't control at work. I am so full of doubt and fear that I couldn't handle it. I got way too invested in so many of my cases, especially with getting rent paid.
I have to remember that I can only do what I can do.
So, I am now home and engaging in my hobbies to help re-center myself. I can't help if I spend so much time worrying about how unfair or insane the situation is.
I still have homework to do and I think not knowing how to lead the interns also had something to do with it. I want to help them, but I don't even know how to navigate this situation.
But now I can think a little clearer. Tomorrow I will set a game plan for next week.
Also, I have an A in once class and am barely pulling a C in the other. I was hoping to keep my 4.0 GPA for once. But all I can do is my best. Besides, homework can feel like something I can control if I do it right.
I'm also trying to get my eating under control because I've started binging. Yay.
On top of all of this, my boss has already kick started a project (despite us struggling with a separate project) that I am very excited about. I suggested asking my grandmother to come in and help put together a proposal to address the problem, but it devolved into me now looking into proposal writing courses. Exciting but terrifying.
Oh well, now not only am I a certified MANDT instructor, I might be able to help get the organization money. AND I'm a case manager. AND I can officially supervise interns next fall. While doing my own internship.
I want a raise.
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the other night at the Function everyone was talking about how nice it was to see people’s faces and what a relief it was not to wear masks & roommate said they actually preferred it when their face was covered & i concurred & added in our neighborhood it conferred bonus anonymity because the block is crawling with cops & we both nodded like “yes, it is Much Better not to be Perceived in the Public Sphere”; later we were both asked about our shirts & roommate went on at length about japanese noise music & i went on, of course, about the dybbuk, & it was like. right. yes. this is the only person i’ve been able to live with for a long period over my adult life because we’re both enormously ~*~neurodivergent lol
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