#grief sucks

[aerodaltonimperial]

My grandpa died this afternoon. He was an avid singer and spent much of his free time singing in a barbershop quartet. They won the international championship a few decades ago. If you are feeling so inclined, I'm sure he would love if people listened to some barbershop tunes in his memory. 💚

#grief sucks

[jmbringitonworld]

After my long break, I'm finally back and feeling much better! Thanks to all my well-wishers, you guys are stars and I love you all! (❁´◡`❁)

The funeral was incredibly moving. My mother and I both cried like little babies. My brother (heartless bastard that he is) laughed at us. Life goes on.

It's going to take me ages to go through everything I've missed while I was afk, so there'll probably be a flood of reblogs for a while.

Now onto the most important part of this post:

JUST LOOK AT THESE BABIES!!! q(≧▽≦q) I ordered Bitty Sansy and Bitty Baby Blue pillow cases from @theskeletongames and they've finally arrived!! I LOVE THEM!!! SO MUCH!!! They look SO GOOD omg!! (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) And the other side looks incredible as well!!

Their cat onesies are so cute!! (☆▽☆) I'm losing my mind over how adorable these bittybones are!! I mean, just LOOK at Baby Blue's precious smile:

It's too pure for this world. My heart cannot handle the cuteness, I am overwhelmed by love for them! ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ And they feel as good as they look! They're made from peach skin fabric, which is really soft and smooth and velvety, it feels great against my skin. I love the fact that they have a zipper, it makes them really secure and keeps my bunny's omnipresent floof from getting to my pillow.

Poetax's art is absolutely gorgeous and I could not be happier with my two pillow covers! Poetax also sells a bunch of other stuff, like keychains and stickers, and I was sorely tempted to buy a Papyrus dakimakura, because it just looks incredible and I love Papyrus so much, but I don't have a body pillow, nor do I have the room for one /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~ If anyone is interested in some really cool Undertale fan merch, I cannot recommend Poetax's stuff enough, their art is stunning!

Now I'm going to try to get sucked back into my Undertale hyperfixation, so that I can get back into writing, because for the past month, Twisted Wonderland has sunk its claws deep into me and held me captive, while comforting and distracting me while I was in mourning. Idia, Azul and Malleus have all of my heart (I'm so sorry Papyrus!)

#JMB rambles #grief sucks #but adorable bittybones pillow cases make everything better #i love them sm #please let me go twst i have wips i need to get back to #papyrus has competition #why can't i focus on two things at once?!

[tripleyeeet]

i’ll be so honest with y’all i am most definitely not feeling very cash money right now ✌️😎

#i’ve missed 3 days of work because i can barely get out of bed #all i’ve done is sleep or dissociate or play games #i want to cry but literally can’t #so i just exist in sadness instead #grief sucks #and i know it’s been a few months but nobody told me how hard the winter would be #especially because this time of year is already so hard #i don’t think i realized until now just how much she helped me around christmas #and now she’s gone #tw dissociation

[telesilla]

I feel totally detached from Opening Day and like all my excitement is…idk preformative?

#grief sucks

[potter-solomons]

Need some Tom.

#tom hardy #facepuller #grief sucks

[kyojuuros]

if anyone has positive vibes to spare, my grandpa passed away this morning. 

#personal #i'm still trying to let it sink in #i was able to see him yesterday to say goodbye but #shit's hard man #grief sucks

[blonndiec]

The worst migraine ever manifested today, three weeks in after the funeral.

So I,ve been laying down in a dark room and sushed my family because I could even hear a pin drop and made my head pulse harder.

But I couldn’t say anything else than “duck” to them, apparently (my aura got so bad I couldn’t speak except from some words)…and I say apparently because I didn’t even remembered until now that my mother whispered that to me (and yes, another aura symptom because I couldn’t remember anything in a span of 4 to 5 hours).

Yeah, duck duck duck everyone.

#grief #grief sucks #personal

[kickdrumheart68]

#getting through grief #grief sucks #found on pinterest #personal #i miss my mom

[thebirkenstocksocialist]

HAPPY SUNDAY EVERYONE

This has been, I think, the longest week of my life for very personal reasons. I’m so glad I have had an episode of Between Us to look forward to. I’m so tired. Bring on all the WinTeam goodness!

#between us #Sundays are for religion again #between us the series #winteam #win x team #bounprem #boun x prem #it really helps to have something to look forward to #grief sucks #feel your feelings darlings #can when it’s hard

[aerodaltonimperial]

☹️

#not doing excellently #grief sucks #grief on top of pouring your heart and soul into things #that go nowhere #is somehow worse #i would kill for a win

[hardyharharcomedy]

I'm an adult orphan and everyone is afraid of me.

No really, it's true. I get so many tone deaf and insensitive comments policing my grief and it used to drive me bananas. I mean, it still does but finally a light bulb went off and I realized how much culture has not prepared anyone for dealing with loss and realized I was maybe even triggering people. It doesn't make it okay, but knowledge it power.

Wanna know more? Please read the full blog post here on my site. Thanks!

#parental loss tw #adult orphan #orphan #death and loss #grief #grief journey #grief sucks

[lewmagoo]

feeling a little melancholy because today marks three years since my uncle, my mom’s brother, passed away. he had a short battle with pancreatic cancer and died at only 48. he left such a big void in my family

#he was always the one who made everyone laugh til their sides ached #grief sucks

[potter-solomons]

I would like to see

You begging, barely breathing

Pleading on your knees

#tom hardy #facepuller #grief sucks #Tommy doesn't #my heart hurts

[sapphicpersephones]

tw death

it just keeps hitting me over and over that i’m never gonna hug my nana again. she was my best friend when i was little. and she’s just gone.

and my stupid dumb brain that can’t picture things or hear voices internally is already having trouble remembering what she looked and sounded like. and i’m not ready to play a video of her so i’m just fuckin stuck here.

#tw death #it just happened so fast #in literally 48 hours it went from ‘she fell’ to ‘she’s gone’ #and yeah she hasn’t been the same for the last like five years but she was still my nana #i just want one more hug #grief sucks #tay talks

[spikewriter]

I was reminded that the BtVS finale aired 20 years ago today.

Which means my father passed away 20 years and 4 days ago today.

Funny, it's not usually the anniversary of his death which gets me, but Father's Day. This morning, though, the notice brought all the pain and sorrow flooding back.

Doesn't help we're on home hospice for my f-i-l, who is an abusive bastard who thinks our entire lives should be focused on him since we failed to give him any grandchildren. Of course, if we did, he'd have done is best to fuck them up as well, him and my m-i-l, whom I referred to as the Amalfi-in-law, referencing a demon from Angel, Season 1.

She'll have been gone 13 years come August. I suspect the f-i-l will be joining her soon, so this is likely the last last year, I'll have to feel the bitter sting of missing my father, who believed in my writing, who believed in me, while dealing with that son-of-a-bitch who delights in making people feel small because it makes him feel bigger.

Today, though, the sting is very strong--and except for escaping out for breakfast on my own in floods of tears because of the memories, guess who I've been to deal with because he won't drink enough liquids and was heading toward dehydration.

Miss you, Dad. Miss you so much.

#relatives and other disasters #grief sucks