#grief tag

[trans-axolotl]

found out yesterday that one of the organizers i do harm reduction outreach with just died, and i'm really crushed. today's overdose awareness day and there has already been so many people who died this year--there's been 600 fatal overdoses and about 1/3 of those have been people we knew because we provide harm reduction services to them. almost every outreach shift we learn someone has died that week. we're having an event/memorial today for overdose awareness day and it just hurts even more to know that they're gone, too. so many fucking people we're grieving + so many preventable deaths--the war on drugs fucking kills and i am so, so fucking livid about it.

#personal #grief tag #overdose tw #just. grieving today. remembering everyone we've lost. pretty much every week we learn more people who've died that week #and some days like today. so much. too fucking much #it doesn't have to be this way.

[returntothewilderness]

we’ve been witnessing mass death for a long time. it accelerated globally in 2020. even after we surpassed over a million deaths, even after mass shooting after mass shooting, even after a formula shortage, even after heavy inflation during another surge of covid in an increasingly hot climate, we’re expected to carry on the next day. we’re expected to wake up & go to school and work as if whole worlds hadn’t just been taken away. we’re expected to perform our tasks the same, if not more efficiently.

the reason we can carry on as laborers is because we are collectively experiencing a shocking state of numbness. it’s not that we don’t feel deeply for each event, it’s that our grief physically can’t keep up with everything there is to mourn. we need to stop, we need to sit down and mourn for a long, long time. this is a world built on us working through the unimaginable until we die. it’s a world built on robbing us of time to do anything, but especially mourn. it’s a deep physical and emotional need that is not being met. let yourself be mad, be despondent, be sad, be deep in grief. companies don’t like people who are outwardly grieving, and that is what we must do collectively. every time we lose someone to a mass shooting everyone who can should call in saying they cant work because they lost someone. because we all did, we lost humans to another senseless act of cruel violence. and the world should stop, just like the people who lost their family member’s worlds stopped.

i hope you take time to sit and remember the tragic things that have happened the past couple of years. that you give yourself the love and respect to acknowledge how hard it is to exist in a world that robs us of everything, including your right to being a human in grief.

there’s no peace to be found in any of this and there never should be.

#mourning #grief tag #general strike #community care #buffalo #uvalde #sandy hook #covid deaths #tw death

[scattered-winter]

i have to say i'm getting sick of hearing stuff about jesus and heaven rn

#like i guess this is what happens when literally all the friends + family except me are very piously religious #but idk. theyre grieving in their own ways and using the jesus life after death stuff to cope #and theyre trying to comfort me with that too which like i appreciate the thought behind it but. no <3 #idk idk idk. my family will say stuff like ''she's still here with us she's watching over us etc etc etc'' #and like i GET it. i do. but she is in fact NOT here with us. like that is a significant thing. #idk. i have a lot of emotions rn and so i need to complain about something small and harmless xox #winter speaks #personal #grief tag

[illumiera]

anticipatory grief is like you're staring at an approaching tidal wave or an oncoming train. yesterday you saw the first snowdrops in bloom. you don't sleep properly. soon, you will be hatching little yellow ducklings. you can't look at people the same age as your person without wanting to cry. your puppy gets so excited to see you that his entire lower body wags. you keep forgetting to reply to messages. the other day, you laughed so hard that tears were rolling down your face and your stomach hurt. the world is ending. the world is not ending.

#anticipatory grief #grief #grief tag #this disease is a thief

[gondorsfinest]

apparently I have a type lmfao

#those poems where the mom writes to her son and then he writes back and it’s just gossip and silliness #and then it’s like ‘I thought you knew I love you. in your last letter you didn’t know’ excuse me? I need to sit down #erich kästner #terry pratchett #grief tag #german stuff #gondorsfinest monologue #memes for an audience of one

[apollo16]

Ocean Vuong interview with NPR about the grief of loosing his mother and the release of his new poetry collection ‘Time is a Mother’ a book she would now, never read.

#grief tag #grief poetry #poetry #ocean vuong #words

[doorfus]

My heart was torn to shreds & I have never recovered. I am scared I never will.

No amount of words could ever accurately encapsulate how much I love them, or how much their of physical absense causes me pain.

I miss them.

#personal #grief tag

[twinxleaf]

LA County deputy faces possible charges in off-duty traffic deaths of two Marines-CHP investigators have recommended that vehicular manslaughter charges be considered against Deputy Michael John Miscione

327 days ago, my entire world changed. My parents drove to my job in Wilmington to inform me that my 20 year old brother and his friend had been killed in a car crash. We were initially told by the police force there that they had 30 days to complete the accident report. Then it became they had 3 months. And then…we found out that a member of law enforcement was the driver. James and his two friends were awaiting a tow truck after their car had become disabled after being side swept. They were waiting in their car in an HOV lane. California Police Officer Michael John Miscione, dob 1/11/1997, fell asleep while accelerating onto the highway, and crashed into the back of their disabled car, at 88 mph. Miscione crashed into them at least 33mph faster than the posted speed limit of 55mph. James and Samantha sustained many fatal injuries, but their COD is listed as blunt force trauma. After the crash, Miscione walked out of his own car and was found by the law enforcement first responding, where he was taken to the hospital. Miscione only listed injuries were “complains of pain to head, left hand, and left quadricep”. He was also not relieved of his policing duties during the 313 days we had been waiting for answers. To my understanding he has been on desk duty, and our families were unable to talk about the accident publicly as it took the department 313 days to complete their officer-involved accident report.

We know for a fact that the Orange County District Attorney Todd Spitzer has the accident report. We still need your help in encouraging them to make the right decision in prosecuting Deputy Miscione for vehicular manslaughter. Charges have been recommended, but we all know that can mean delay/delay/delay/coverup coverup/coverup when said charges are recommended against law enforcement. They need to know that the Pattons might be 2,600 miles away, but there is a zero percent chance their burying this report and transferring Miscione to a new department. They can be reached at this link - https://orangecountyda.org/contact/

I'm glad the article mentions that California Highway Patrol listed Deputy Michael John Miscione address and phone number as the one of the Century Sheriff Station - about 50 miles away from the crash site. The accident report also stated that Miscione did not have car insurance, which is its own legal issue. (However, he does have car insurance. They just wanted identifying the driver to be harder on the victim's families.) I wish the Orange County Register article had included that their vehicle got immobilized after being side-swiped against a wall by another vehicle that did not stop. I just don't want there to be any room for any speculations of victim blaming. It's clear all of this is part of a nearly year long coverup to protect Deputy Michael John Miscione from the consequences of taking two lives. Why is his future more important than the futures he ended due to his OWN gross negligence. My life has been in complete turmoil during the past year. I have been in so much emotional pain and anguish over the death of my brother, James Robert Patton. My older brother is struggling deeply with this tragedy. Samantha Berrios has three younger siblings who are also going through hell. We all saw our sibling's coffin being shut, and we've been waiting almost a year for California Highway Patrol to offer some sort of explanation. All of our futures need to be considered when deciding to prosecute Deputy Miscione for the crash on 11/05/22. How are the five of us supposed to go on believing in the legitimacy of any of our criminal justice systems if Miscione does not go to prison for taking the lives of our siblings?

#grief tag #this is my story fr #acab

[meles-merrivale]

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#it’s just that he should be here #we should be going to this concert together #he should’ve gotten to hear the new album #it was only 9 days away #it’s that we were talking about this concert the day before he died and looking forward to it #and it felt so soon then #and now it’s here and it feels like it’s been ages #like I’m not 100% sure what exactly he said to me while we were driving over the bridge the day before #and he can’t already be this gone #it’s that he should be here #and I want my dad back #grief tag

[april-december]

(tw death mention, but actually this post is full of gratitude)

By the way, if I have ever reblogged a cat picture or video from you, thank you.

My mum died recently after a very long battle with MS. But when we sat together in the evenings, if one of us was sad or quiet or tired, she would ask ‘Are there any cats?’, and I would show her all the cat videos and pictures I had reblogged since the last time she had asked. They made her smile and laugh, or go aww, and she loved to see them.

They made our evenings better.

So thank you. You made her smile.

I hope the internet is always full of cat pictures.

#mum tag #grief tag #cats #thank you

[trans-axolotl]

going to dance until i stop feeling like every second i'm going to start crying

#personal #already had ballet class this morning #have three hour practice tonight which is good #dance helps me feel + process and just sit with emotions and grief #grief tag

[pumpking64]

Hey anyone know how to put grief on hold? I really would rather not deal with it today (need to finish an exam), and I know I have to deal with it at some point, but I’ve got time tomorrow why not then??

#I’m okay but….. </3 not today please? #and I KNOW why it hits in this time period. it makes sense. but why today? #own post #sorry for the sad mood. but if you guys literally have any tips I’ll take them #I’ll deal with the grief tomorrow I promise #(yes also I know that’s not how it works) #bargaining with grief #apparently #grief tag

[scattered-winter]

literally cannot stop thinking about how my siblings and I used up the last of the pink hair dye that we first bought over a decade ago during my mom's first bout of cancer. we first dyed our hair as kids who felt like the whole world had been swept out from under us, and we did it again as adults for the last time with what's left of that old tube of pink dye. i don't even need to write a poem about this it's already there.

#it began and ended with pink dye huh. #winter speaks #personal #grief tag #<- kind of ??? its more introspective. idk i cant stop thinking about it. #heavyhanded symbolism that's SO heavyhanded i can't even write about it. it's all just right there. #ok to rb. symbolism and all that.

[theplantqueer]

#💕 #grief tag #(pls don't comment abt her if u didn't know her ty)

[gondorsfinest]

i hate this version of myself that is simultaneously muted and drained but also irritable and impatient like… pick a struggle. girl ur exhausting to pilot

#grief tag #gondorsfinest monologue #I have no appetite and none of my hobbies relax me. I wanna cry. what’s a bitch gotta do to get some dopamine around here

[beatleswings]

My second Father’s Day without my dad. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about him. A year since he passed and while I accept that he’s now at peace and is watching over me and my family, it’s still hard to accept he isn’t here anymore, physically. Anything that reminds me of him has me crying. Grief is really hard.

To anyone who still has their father who they love dearly, always remind them that you love and appreciate them . And to those who lost their fathers like I did, I share your pain. Hold those happy memories of them.

I love you and miss you everyday, dad. 

#gabs rambles #personal #grief tag #grief #father's day