An awesome Mother's Day, pancake cat, soil comparisons and pretty things. :-)
An awesome Mother’s Day, pancake cat, soil comparisons and pretty things. :-)
I had a rather amusing start to the morning!
While heading out to feed the outside cats, I heard a noise from an unusual direction.
I had startled Nicky the Nose on the sun room roof!
I always get a giggle out of how he pancakes himself like that when he’s startled. As if he can somehow make himself small. 😀
Our cats never go on the sun room roof, that we’ve seen. They’ll go onto the new part…
jean’s relationship with her mother is incredibly complex and while she adores her mother, there is no denying jean was raised in a less ideal environment where she is taught to be a self-sacrificial shield instead of a person. as noted in her side quest, jean is incredibly awkward around people when she isn’t in her acting grandmaster persona. she is shy, uncertain, and easily overwhelmed by the amount of people who cares about her a great deal. she honestly does not know how to behave as her own person, and it is greatly influenced by the way her mother has raised her. jean genuinely does means well, but aside from kaeya and lisa, she does have a hard time reaching out to people. even her relationship with her own sister and father has greatly deteriorated as a result of her strict upbringing, and even her friendship with diluc is seen as awkward at best. but nevertheless, jean does not blame her mother at the least. she chooses to forgive and empathize with her and understands that frederica was likely raised in a similar fashion growing up.
i feel like years ago i started walking down this path to become the person i was supposed to be. and then the path started becoming misty, and diffuse, and strange, and unrecognisable. somehow, i got lost and didn’t even notice. and now i’m looking back, and all i can see is the lost years. and i have no idea how to get through the wilds.
when i was younger, i felt wiser. and now that the world has swallowed me whole, i know i am wiser, because i am aware of all the things i don’t know. but that’s the problem with socrates, because i feel more lost now that i can see the path isn’t right.
i miss my younger self and the way she trusted her own head. i miss her ingenuity and her rootless mind. i miss being in love with the future instead of scared.
My relationship with echo's previous owner is one that I feel is good but sometimes she will nit pick me about one thing or another that she thinks I am doing wrong. Today it was the fact that I am working to ensure that he is sufficiently exposed to a urban environment. I don't know about how he will react about living in a higher density, higher traffic area because I have never been with him in an area like that. I don't know what he has or hasn't been exposed to. I don't even know where he used to live other than the city. Thats fine with me. I just want to make sure he is going to be confident as we change living situations. Sometimes I want to be mean and remind her that he isn't her dog anymore but I never will because if I had to make the decision she did, I would want to know he went to a good place.
this is jle's little brother - not by blood, but by choice. don't press play unless you're fully prepared to hear the realest song in existence. oh - and to cry. you might just cry, too. *unfortunately, not a breath of this is fictional*.