#growing up in a cult

[bewitchedandinawe]

i’m so scared to reach out for public help to escape the cult i currently live in but like, how much longer can i survive here… how many more panick attacks and near death experiences can my heart take before it fucking stops. i think i’m gonna die at least once a day, and… it’s not sustainable. ugh.

#ex religious #cult #growing up in a cult

[howlsnteeth]

make it real 'cause anything's better than the way i feel right now

#hi i wanted to fuck around visually and did so <3 #cotl #cult of the lamb #cotl fanart #ascensionism by sleep token #blood #which i rarely tag but i mean this is a little more than usual #but yeah listen to that line being screamed in the song #purposefully made lamb's teeth fucked up because turning into a monster of a vessel #after a life of being a lamb #teeth that don't fit. horns that grow wrong. scars that either fade immediately or don't at all. bleeding from eyes. black bile #no wonder others saw narinder falling apart physically with that crown as a warning sign #anyway enjoy :>

[cemeterything]

she doesn't have a single speaking line in the podcast but i know exactly what agnes montague sounds like in my head

#🐉 #shes quiet but not soft spoken. talks very deliberately. has a slightly lower pitched but feminine voice with a huskiness to it #that betrays how rarely she actually says anything out loud. generic british accent with no identifiable regional inflection #because of the growing up in a cult thing the isolation and how often she moved around.

[mugwot]

cult of the funky little guy funny interaction from The Rehabilitation of Death by @bamsara also some lamb design thoughts

glow up of the century

#fic good go read #narinder needs to fucking chill maybe take a hot bath lay around in a sunbeam #go to therapy #scrungly little guy #lamb loosely based on a valais blacknose sheep just less fluffy in the face #also their tail is undocked because why and who would do that to a person who can clean themselves #more tail to swish around in excitement #the fact that they are still a Lamb like a century later #will they never physically grow up? big horns not allowed? #sad #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #furry art #my art

[just-null-cult]

i have come here to personally thank you for giving me more than i asked for 🙏🏻 i am utterly grateful like IDJFKDKKFODOD 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️ it made me so happy the last doodle has my heart he is so cute i will eat him

also there is a DROUGHT out there for us noritoshi fans like im living on CRUMBS its insane and omg dont even talk to me abt how it feels like to be a kashimo and ino lover (altho they are getting a bit more love now) my nori is still underrated :/ sooo hence im asking ur hand in friendship and in exchange i promise to share my hcs with you abt nori my sweet lil meow meow we're in this together 💪🏻💪🏻

also since its October, do you think he likes horror movies? i feel like he can withstand gory movies but its the jumpscares that get him and he wont tell u he's scared when u watch one with jumpscares owkfkdkd imagine him hiding his face against ur shoulder or something 😭😭😭 (i used to do that with my dad when we watched horror movies and i used to be like im not scared😤😤 when he asked if i was lmfao thats where this hc stemmed from)

N. NORITOSHI HIDING IN YOUR SHOULDER OR SUPPRESSING HIS REACTIONS TO THE JUMPSCARES....... WAS IT AN INVOLUNTARY REACTION TO USE YOU TO HIDE??????? WAS IT BUILT UP TRUST????? DID HE GROW USED TO HOLDING ONTO YOU WHEN HE GETS SURPRISED BECAUSE HE WANTS TO MAKE SURE HE HAS HIS VALUABLES SAFE????????? WAS IT A MOMENT WHERE HIS MIND JUST INSTINCTIVELY GRABBED THE FIRST THING HE WANTED TO PROTECT/BE PROTECTED BY???????? OH MY FUCK.

he's probably used to gore and gritty stuff like that since he sees it often being a jujutsu sorcerer and all. not to mention his technique is literally blood. maybe he's desensitized to gore films, the most you'll get from him is a disgusted scowl.

BUT DID YOU SEE HOW QUICK HIS EYE OPENED WHEN HANAMI SHOWED UP BEHIND HIM. YOURE SO FUCKING FR ABT JUMPSCARES. Noritoshi is that guy who wouldn't scream or yelp but gasp really loudly and jump out of his skin.

i feel like they get him most in horror because of the music building up anticipation. if its one of those fake outs where the jumpscare comes a bit after, he's fucked UP. It makes him instantly miffed, as he tries to regain his composure. He swears he's not usually like this, it got him by surprise is all..!

Noritoshi is the type that'd only watch a horror movie if the story is rich and complex. He's the type of guy to like open endings that make you think.. if it's a guilty pleasure movie where all the protags make stupid decisions, he gets annoyed right off the bat.

He's groaning and complaining about how imbecile the characters are, but would still watch it with you because you personally invited him. If he's lucky you could fall asleep on his shoulder or [insert movie cliche here] how could he pass that up? But Noritoshi wouldn't be able to focus on you if he gets twice as annoyed because its a bad movie + jumpscares. it still startles him, but the movie is so terrible, he's embarrassed it got him, especially in front of you!!!

if you get involved and you tell him to quiet down, Noritoshi would shift his focus towards you. like that awkward guy who thinks he's being smooth and lowkey about how he cuddles up next to you. He wants to be the tough guy who's shoulder you can hide in, and he is!! just not.. with jumpscares.......

#noritoshi #noritoshi x reader #kamo noritoshi #kamo noritoshi x reader #noritoshi kamo #noritoshi kamo x reader #merry october #sO SORRY THIS WAS SO LATE AGAIN WDYM OCTOBERS ALMOST OVER FUKC SO THESE OCTOBER POSTS WILL LEAK INTO NOVEMBER. AHA. #FAM I WAS SPITBALLIN SO HARD W THE WRITING BUT FUCK IT OH MY GOD I LOVED THAT #ty back for the cat noritoshi idea btw. ill love you forever #the way i fell off my chair and scrambled to read the rest of this ask was insane. friendship.? im so awkward but i'll be here for u homie #i love noritoshi headcanons.. #i eat them up like candy... #.... my cult member is moving up the unspoken ranks i made up while making this cult..... #as for ino and kashimo. i dont know much about them. #but i like the bits i do know! i like ino's energy.... he reminds me of an excitable puppy from what ive seen.. #i may draw more characters if i grow obsessed. i mean infatuated. or if they make noritoshi look good. #or if you do a damn good job at convincing me #but unfortunately. i was persuaded into a blood pact with my second in command to wait for the anime to finish then watch it with him then. #back to nori though. we are definitely together in this. i fucking understand the drought. pinterest keeps giving me geto #and yes. hes good too. BUT NOT THE MEOW MEOW I'M SCAVANGING FOR #THATS NOT MY STUCK UP BABYGIRL WHO'D SCOWL AT ME FOR PRONOUNCING WORCESTERSHIRE SAUCE WRONG.... #btw peep the orange for pumpkins or something #happy halloween my awesome cult

[murdermitties]

Smudge

#smudge #smudge wc #kittypet #warrior cats #wc #warriors designs #warrior cats designs #LISTEN LISTEN OKAY SHUT UP #theres this cat on tiktok named leela and she looks goofy as fuck i NEEDED smudge to look like that #so smudge is a velour donskoy #they start out naked and then grow weird fur #and then they loose it again at 2 years #BUT SMUDGE STAYS LIKE THIS!! #cuz this is fantasy religious cult cats and take from reality to smack onto these cats with no consequences #not sure if this breed has skin issues but again its fantasy so

[ratcandy]

nobody look at me for a minute

#this is aryl he is my yellow cat . he had exactly two braincells but leshy ate one of them so now there's only one left. #will he survive the winter with nothing happening in that head of his? only time will tell. #also yes arylide is just a shade of yellow SHUT up #i accidentally made him look like a cat i had growing up I cannot handle this. Sighs. #this is just an oc right like that's all that's happening here. this character existed for exactly one (1) official 30 second short #and we're all just collectively making ocs out of him. that's all that's happening here. #anyway. #clamart #cult of the lamb #cotl leshy #cotl yellow cat #<- like this tag is full of different guys. so many different guys. #and i think that's beautiful #leshycat

[rawliverandgoronspice]

and beyond their specific roles in the mythology, at least those they end up taking through either fate or force or resilience (or a mixture of the three), I think it's fascinating how plausible it is that the golden trio (so Link, Zelda and Ganondorf) all grew up being fed myths about themselves. I'm thinking OoT here, but even Link, who had the whole hero spiel thrown upon him fairly late in his childhood, was still being groomed into perceiving himself in relationship to a legend of his own future life. They all grew up reckoning with the exceptional fate adults around them pushed on their identity before they were old enough to construct their own.

No wonder they all have the biggest, most dramatic identity crisis about it at some point (Zelda/Sheik, Link and Majora's Mask, and Ganondorf and uhh *gestures at ganondorf*)

#thoughts #oot #link #zelda #ganondorf #being raised and encouraged to have extreme opinions of your own cosmic importance is like #don't do this to a child!!! #I once heard a second-hand account of a girl raised to believe she was a god in a seventies cult #and the end result of that woman growing up into adulthood got EXTREMELY questionable very fast

[alexkablob]

read the sisters of dorley (alyson greaves, 2021-ongoing), a story containing such highlights as:

a satire of the trans healthcare experience in the uk

a meta-commentary on how trans women engage with/reclaim an erotica genre that both helped and hurt us growing up

the full spectrum of the transfem experience (cute & happy vs. absolute horror) juxtaposed together at all times

a bunch of neurotic trans girls in denial about being a cult

the worst opsec you've ever seen saved only by the secret it's protecting being too ludicrous to think of

more codependent transbian relationships than you can shake a stick at

the weirdest sexy chaser lady you've ever met

and a bunch of novelty mugs with really terrible puns

it's an ongoing doorstopper with every content warning under the sun and it makes me feel every human emotion at once

[pagesofkenna]

I'm fascinated by the fact that the Burrow's End fam are cultists

like they walked into stoat bastion and immediately clocked the leaders as Evil and Fascist based solely on (*checks notes*) the fact that they were the authority figures. and they dedicated themselves to overthrowing the First Stoats, and murdered them, and immediately set about claiming authority over the bastion using their skills as literal cult leaders

it's haha funny but also remember how Thorn and Viola literally run a cult?? it's not a mercenary group or a small princedom it's a cult. it's called that in and out of character. Thorn is a charismatic cult leader with mystical powers. they murdered the First Stoats and Viola immediately put the pope hat on and it was haha funny but also she did it because she wants the bastion to be their new cult

it's buckwild

Tula said this episode to Bennet 'anyone who strives for power is suspicious' and her sister was RIGHT there. Tula actively assisted in Viola's desire to infiltrate Population Support to turn it into Population Control. it's haha funny but you did that in character. oh are the First Stoats keeping information secret and trying to nudge their population into war with the humans?? what was Thorn doing. what is Ava doing, actually. once you put that stoat pope hat on what are you going to do that's different from what stoat pope did??

there's a world in which Aabria leaned more into the family's own fascism, pitting the reality of their actions and mentality up against the First Stoats. it feels like she wanted to but didn't because she wanted to preserve the cooperative vibe of the season but I am absolutely on her side in this adventuring party: at the first sign of opposition the family jumps to lethal solutions and bids for power. Lila and Jaysohn are children and their instinct was to establish themselves as supreme powers within their age group. again, haha funny, kids being kids, but their favorite auntie and uncle are cult leaders. Thorn's talked about giving them places of power in his cult. I can't get over it

like I can't get over this lmao!! the players kept trying to contradict Aabria and say no no, the First Stoats are evil, clearly we had to kill them—and yes, this is how the game works, and the crew made all these complicated battlemaps so yes you did have to use them. but you didn't have to be cultists!! you didn't have to be so clearly trying to take the First Stoats' places for yourselves! like Aabria said you could have talked!! so many times!!

#burrow's end #di20 #i would be SO fascinated to know when the cult leader idea came up wrt the development of the story #did jasper suggest cult leader and the culty vibes of the first stoats grow from there? #did the cast all know culty vibes were going to be in play and decided to play into it? #and like to be clear thorn cult leader is such a COOL character direction to start with #but the stoat family is like. actively avoiding unpacking that lmao #you dont form a cult based on a group's pseudoreligious worship of your unimpeachable power #and then butt up against a pseudoreligious worship of a different unimpeachable power #and then MURDER that other power #and not spend ANY time thinking 'huh. does this say anything about me?' #(or i guess i should say that NOT unpacking that is such a fascinating bit of character reveal all on its own)

[artoutforblood]

LAMB LAMB LAMB LAMB

#cotl lamb #cotl #cotl fanart #cult of the lamb #ive been having a hard as hell time drawing anything but i managed these #idk i dont have a name for my lamb maybe ill just keep it as lambert #i dont draw a lot of anthro #im still trying to figure out if i can somehow blend hooves with hands. like allow the full dexterity whole also being hooved? #very much based on my run. cares very much for their following. #hasnt had a single death to anything besides old age and sacrifice #has some.. skewed ideas on death and sacrifice (trauma) theres a reason they're so gungho about being toww's vessel #i made their collar larger. their beheading scar is p brutal and they cant grow any wool or fur there #if it does its patchy and uneven. they just cut it off and covers it up #they do have a good camaraderie w the crown. names them camellia while crusading in darkwood because of the red and it was right there #bonesart

[chadepitanga]

It just occurred me that when Enabran Tain says he never had to ask Garak to get the implant, "never had to ask him to do anything, that's what made him special", it sounds like he's implying Garak did it without him having to ask, but. Once we learn that he's Garak's father and that he thinks locking a child up in a closet is commendable parenting, I'm not sure Garak was even informed the implant was there till it was time to put it to use. Which makes The Wire 10 times worse, emotionally speaking.

#every time I think oh hes like that because he had that guy for a father figure. it all falls into place. #like yes growing up with an insane fucking parent who gives you cult mentality from day one will fuck you up #from finding the universe to be a billion times bigger when you're no longer in touch #to the psychotic disorder and substance use problems and doctor kink #and if I sound like I know a little too much about this I'll just say I was raised by a psychoanalyst evangelical baptist #ds9 #star trek meta #elim garak

[kedicatt-cotl]

Cult of the Baabaa kids AU timeline

For myself and everyone else confused, I made a timeline of my AU.

I will be editing this post, adding new links to it and updating the timeline as the story progresses.

All the posts that don’t happen in a specified timepoint are linked in the link archive post

Narinder’s mortal childhood Aym’s scar [ask] Baabaa’s past life [ask] Lamb’s memory of the past

Leshy the Chaos [ask] Sin triangle (Kallamar character study) [video] Starting the cult [ask]

Sassy Narinder (sketch 1) Shy Narinder shitposting (1, 2)

Sassy Narinder (sketch 2) Leading the cult together

Belomor born on the 28th of April.

Vlastislava born on the 14th of March.

Buyana born on the 4th of May. Narinder has experience with children Sassy Narinder (sketch 3) Lamb finds out that he can revive the bishops [ask]

Leshy revived (part 1, part 2) Belomor has a question Leshy and the Baabaa kids

Baal and Aym join the cult  Aym’s scar (the end of the post) [ask] Narinder meets Baal and Aym after 15 years  “What the heck did we miss” Aym and Baal reunite with Forneus (part 1, part 2) [ask] New toys for the children (the kits, the kids) The kits and the kids [ask] Preparing to meet Heket

Heket revived (part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4) Dying clothes with the kids    Leshy’s eyes Incomplete and questioned guide to follower sign language Just Heket signing [ask] Heket and music [ask] Heket and the children [ask] Leshy’s and Heket’s follower friends [ask]

Kallamar revived Kallamar’s mouth [ask] Kallamar and the children [ask] Kallamar’s true personality [ask] Kallamar and the followers [ask] Family hug Relics of the bishops and the search for answers [ask] Kallamar’s married to how many people? [ask] Kallamar’s ears (1, 2, 3)

#timeline!!! #i hope this helps people figure it out #i hope it helps ME cause god im getting lost #buyana is aging too fast and i need to keep track of each month to try to make it more accurare #god i hope i didnt mess this up #they are STACKING #THE FAMILY IS GROWING WHATT #cult of the baabaa kids #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl au #cotl oc #cotl relics of the old faith #cotl narinder #cotl lamb #cotl leshy #cotl aym #cotl baal

[aingeal98]

I will say the tec side story sucked though. Like Ram V is out here clearly writing Talia as her canon in character self and here comes almost every other writer at DC still like "OK let's talk about Damian and how his mom trained him to kill and never show weakness from birth. Isn't that so sad?" Like no actually I don't feel sad I just I hate everything about it. It wasn't even what Morrison originally wrote as Damian's backstory. If you want Damian's trauma to come from being raised as an assassin then Talia cannot be a part of that from birth. She literally gave him up for adoption to let him have a normal life dc editors need to get their shit together.

#dc #dc rambles #Me reading another hack writer trying to make Damian's backstory cartoonishly sad instead of putting any effort #Into acknowledging the real trauma growing up in a cult with a family that loves you while told you are to lead it #Would do to a kid #“Wow this was done so much better in batgirl 2000” #DC once again I am begging you. Stop trying to make Talia and Ras into David Cain #Or none of the al ghuls will ever have solid writing again

[libroseitm]

Can I just... I super need to rant cus still feeling quite raw. Warning: it's gonna get really depressing really fast.

I saw my parents yesterday. My parents who are still in the cult (LDS church) that I grew up in which I left two years ago. My parents who are homophobic despite insisting that they're not, who are transphobic, who think relationships must look one way and one way only, who have damaging political views and the list goes on and fuckin on.

When they're over, they expect me to change who I am because a lot of who I am offends them. They don't stop to think that a lot of who they are offends me. They don't think that it might be appropriate to meet half way. That's pretty normal for members of their "church". Ex-memebers are the ones who must change, otherwise they risk those delicate relationships crumbling to the ground.

They would not want a relationship with me with I were my true self around them.

So it fuckin hurts when they tell me they love me. Because it's no longer me they're talking to. I've hidden so much of myself around them, right down to the way I talk (no, seriously) that they're not telling me they love me. They're telling somebody else.

I can't even listen to the music I want to listen to when I escape to the kitchen to make food without fear of some of the songs offending them. Without fear of creating a huge scene.

When trying to show my mum an approximation of the hair style I want, I was looking for a picture of Ed Teach (Our Flag Means Death). I found the one I wanted, paused, and then cropped out Stede. I had to crop him out because my mum can't look at two men in love without making some snide comment.

They have no fucking clue who I am. Because they have no desire to know.

Their love is conditional. They add caviats, and 'despite this' to their love. And it fuckin sucks.

#Ex-mormon #Exmo #It's super fucking great growing up in a cult you guys/gn #10/10 would recommend #Bring your friends and family it's great #Share the trauma #PTSD for EVERYONE! ✨

[jetsetlifemademeghost]

A sacrifice for a good cause.

#trigun #trigun maximum #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #nicholas d. wolfwood #wolfwood fanart #art #my art #me when the orphanage I grew up in is actually a farm to grow potential soldiers for this weird cult and their genocidal false god #love me this sad alcoholic beefcake #give this man a hug