#guess im in love with a dead roman

[creative-caramel-coffee]

Fever and Fainting

Pairings: Wandanat x R

Word count: 1.6K

Summary: being sick sucked a little less with your girlfriends.

TW: vomiting, fainting (i guess?), like one swear word

A/N this is my first fic so it might kinda suck sorry

You had spent the last five days looking after your old neighbours kid who was sick, so it was no surprise to you when you woke up feeling like your head was packed with sand. The headache you could deal with but the pit of nausea that seemed to only get worse had you throwing back the sheets and sprinting to the ensuite in a heartbeat. As your dinner from the night before made a reappearance you thanked whatever gods were out there Nat and Wanda had training early this morning and weren’t there to watch. As much as you loved them you had never once been sick whilst together. Sure Wanda had the flu a couple months back and Nat had been great but this was different. This wasn’t the flu, and frankly you didn’t know what it was yet. You flushed the toilet and wiped your mouth, wanting nothing more than to climb back into bed. Fixing your hair in the mirror you saw how pale you looked. Ghostly. Changing into Nat’s fluffy long pants and Wandas sweatshirt, and throwing on some makeup you walked down to the kitchen. Pulling your hands into the sleeves as a chill ran up your spine. Clint was sat in the kitchen as Wanda made breakfast Nat hovering nearby and stealing bacon.

The sound of your girls laughing made it an easy decision. You weren’t going to tell them. They looked so happy and they had just come back from a week long mission in Moscow and needed some time to relax. You’d taken a swig of anti-nausea meds that had tasted like dirt so you thought everything would be fine. Clearing your throat, the girls looked up. It had been a bad idea. Now along with the headache your throat hurt too. Smiling you gave them a hug dodging their kisses to your cheek, you missed they looks of surprise. You never avoided kisses. Once you sat down at the table your body seemed to suddenly gain mass. Your limbs now felt like dead weights and it was somehow getting colder. Suppressing a shiver, Wanda came over with a plate of bacon and toast, knowing your dislike for eggs. But after only a couple bites you went back into the kitchen to “get more”, but really you simply put back what you didn’t eat and left.

Wanda frowned at the slightly larger pile of food in the kitchen, her and Nat knew you were acting odd, but lying to them and not eating wasn’t something you did.

Your legs screamed at you as you walked back to the lift. When your eyes landed on your bed your legs seemed to not take no for an answer. Eyes rolling back in your head you didn’t hear the door open.

Walking into their shared room to find you halfway to the floor wasn’t something Nat had ever planned on. “Y/N!” She yelled, reaching you a second too late and having to watch you head connect with the floor. Nat rushed over pulling your unconscious body into her arms.

“Friday, alert Wanda that i need her now.”

“Right away Ms. Roman-off”

A second later Wanda appeared in the doorway.

“Nat you needed m- OMG what happened.” Wanda raced to Nat’s side who now had you clutched tightly to her.

“Im not sure she just passed out, I only got here in time to see her hit her head when she fell” Wanda tapped you cheek lightly in an attempt to brig you around.

“Y/n/n. Wake up sweetheart. Come on”

A muffled sound pulled you out of wherever you were. But as it came clearer so did the pain in your head which had increased ten fold. Groaning you made out the voice to be Wandas.

“Baby, are you ok” Wanda laid a hand on your cheek, only to sharply pull it back a moment later.

“Shit Nat she’s burning up.”

A moment later another hand placed on your cheek. Leaning into the cold touch you moaned slightly at the feeling. Too tired and sick to be embarrassed. Suddenly your eye flew open and you frantically tried to extract yourself from the assassins arms. Wandas eye went wide at your loud thoughts, quickly passing you a bin as what little breakfast you had tumbled into it. Nat’s hands drew back your hair as Wanda shushed you and traced patterns on your back. Tears slipped down you cheeks, you hated being sick. When you were done your head lolled, the girls quick to pull you back before you ended up in your own sick.

“Sweetheart can you hear me?” Wanda asked, you groaned in response, both girls too concerned to laugh, they exchanged looks of worry.

“I’ll take that as a yes” Nat smiled softly.

“Can you stand up baby we need to get your fever down.”

“Based off the pink medicine in the bin I’d say you knew you were sick already, didn’t you” Nat poked.

Wanda glared at her for a moment mouthing “not now” to her. You turned your face into Nat’s shoulder as she picked you up. Wanda already in the next room drawing a tepid bath. You were too tired to process what was happening and too sick to care, as they peeled off your clothes. Damp with your sweat. You half stood half leaned on the counter shaking violently as the girls watched the bath water fill up the tub. When Nat lowered you into the water, which felt freezing against you skin, you almost cried. Clinging to her they shushed you. Together they washed your skin free of the sweat, before wrapping you in a soft fluffy towel and dressing you in Nat and Wanda’s spare Pjs.

Nat carried you back to the bed as Wanda went off in search of a bucket.

“M’ s’rry” you mumbled, feeling slightly more lucid after the bath.

“Oh sweetheart” Wanda said walking back in. “You don’t need to be sorry.”

“You cant help being sick” Nat agreed. The two girls joining you on the bed. Nat ran her hands through your hair whilst Wanda traced shapes on your leg. Slowly you drifted off to sleep.

Only to be awoken a couple hours later in violent need of the bucket Wanda had set down by the bed. Crawling over the top of your girls legs, you hung off the edge of the bed as you threw up again into the bucket. Waking both girls up in the process. You found your hair being pulled back again. Nothing came up but bile, your stomach having rejected all food earlier. More tears fell as you finished, strong hands pulling you back up onto the bed. You sniffled snuggling into their embrace as they whispered sweet nothings in you ear.

“Oh sweet girl. Do you feel better now?” Wanda asked, sighing in relief at you little nod.

“Not going to go again?” Nat asked, sweeping you hair back from your eyes. You shook you head slightly as more tears fell. With the pad of her thumb Wanda brushed them away, as Nat peppered your cheek with kisses.

As you fell asleep again, the two girls shared a look. Normally you were never so quiet and needy, but then again they had never seen you sick before. Pulling you closer to them they spoke in hushed tones. Agreeing if you didn’t get better soon, especially after giving you meds they would take you to Bruce. It seemed you fever had broke but the vomiting hadn’t stopped. Each time they fed you food, soup or other light things it simply came back up around a half hour later. After almost two days Nat and Wanda carried you to Bruce’s lab. Your half asleep form clutched to Wanda’s chest, as you watched through half lidded eyes.

After running some tests Bruce confirmed a bad case of the stomach flu. Giving the girls some stronger meds and a sick bag for the trip back to your room. He gave you some meds and small nibble of food. As the meds were ones you couldn’t take on an empty stomach. You made it all the way to the lift before your eyes snapped open and you threw up on Wanda and yourself. Bursting into tears, Nat and Wanda shared a surprised look before reassuring you and telling you it was alright.

“Its ok sweet girl i know you didn’t mean to.” Wanda cooed brushed back your hair.

“Come on we’ll go back and you can both shower.” Nat smiled pulling Wanda and you down the hall.

After a shower the three of you were back in bed. The two girls verbally wrestling with you and begging you to have more to eat.

“Come on baby we’ll even let you choose the movie.” Wandas hands held the awful syrup you’d come to despise. Sighing deeply you opened your mouth allowing them to give you the medicine. After twenty minutes, the girls watched you sleep ready to give you a sick bag, not wanting a repeat of the lift situation. Chicago PD playing on the tv in the background. When a half hour passed and so did an hour they relaxed some. Keeping the sick bag by the bed if you needed it later. Snuggling up to you they held you close as you all fell asleep. That night you only woke up twice to be sick, both times your girls held you and comforted you until you were asleep again.

Over the next few days you slowly came good again. Back to your usual self, life in the compound returned to normal. Or as normal as it can be for a witch, an assassin and their girlfriend.

Master list

#wandanat #marvel #sicfic #fanficton #sickness #fever whump #the avengers #wanda maximoff #natasha romanov #natasha romaoff #wandanat x reader #sick reader #self insert #whump fic #fluff

[ocean-not-found]

I dont have enough space in my room for a single altar to Santa Muerte.

So what I decided to do? Put my side cabinet (which has been Her altar for the better part of 3 years) next to my big altar.

I'm a english-Folk Magic practitioner (i do the "magic" of the "cunning folk". I practice the old ways i guess? I don't see it as "magic", i just see it as a fact of life?) i grew up Catholic, taught Buddhism, got into Norse Paganism, Greek Paganism (Hellenism)/Greco-Roman. Got into (P)IE gods.

Im a mix. A whole mix. Like someone picked up a "religion" book n i absorbed every religion!

But Santa Muerte and Mary are just... different. They just are.

They're like sisters to me, which is why i have my altar part to The Goddess (/Mary) next to Holy Death's altar.

She is life- She is Death.

She is the be all and end all, She is everything.

And my Lady Holy Death, my Rose, deserves a whole massive altar just to Her but i cant give Her it!

So for the time being im heavily decorating Her altar (it's separate and not actually conjoined with my big altar)

I love Santa Muerte, my Rose ❤️. Im very devoted to Her. I love Her, i respect Her....She is Death.

She's not like Hades, who rules over the dead- no She Is Death.

This is how I view Her, but yes She has Her own altar, just next to my usual one.i even have skull lights to act as a "Barrier".

I dont honestly think She has a problem with sharing a space/altar- but its my own personal thing. Her... vibe? Energy? Is so strong, i dont like it mixing in with my usual prayers to Our Lady Mary.

I have autism + adhd so i jump a lot in terms of what i pray to on a specific day. But My Rose has always comforted me, regardless of if im praying to Her that day! :)

#i have many different ideas on Gods and how they exist #but Our Lady and Our Lady Holy Death have saved me MANY times. ❤️❤️ #saint death #lady death #santa muerte #la santa muerte #our lady #english folk magic #english folk #english folklore #hellenic paganism #religions #ecelectic witch

[demonsteapot]

What type of music do you like / have you been jamming to recently? Any recommendations?

(my internet died halfway through this so i nearly had to rewrite it)

you caught me at a bad time i was schmooving to a sewerslvt playlist yesterday ;-;

okay to be serious for a moment. uh. i don't think i have super good or interesting (or normal) tastes in music? i can point you to some of the things i think are cool and good, and i can also point you to things that i listen to for mood.

ive also probably mentioned some of these before (probably all of them?) so sorry if there's repeats

(okay this ended up being longer than expected so cut vv)

good (mostly not depressing stuff?):

Bill Wurtz – weirdly dreamlike jazzy stuff (?) i recommend 'At the Corner Store' and then i recommend you listen to all his other stuff

Ujico*/Snail's House: ive probably ranted about this guy before; 'Cosmo Funk' is probably your entry level snails house song. sweet adorable future bass, my go to for free serotonin

Heaven Pierce Her – Ultrakill: Violence, the game's newest EP. generally melancholic but really sick especially in context. 'War Without Reason' is probably my new favourite track in the whole game? (you can tell i like amen breaks lol)

also ofc i have to mention john / TOOBOE!! shout out to @donutinsideofashark for introducing me to this guy. some recs: 'Tablet', 'Roman', and 'Appare kanpai' – stuff goes hard and makes me wish i knew jp so i could actually remember lyrics

mood (depressing and/or weirder stuff):

vivivivivi's Dead but Dreaming: concept album about a dead god, mostly chiptune instrumental stuff until the second-last track – personally I LOVE this album, but as someone said, it probably sucks unless you have autism (disclaimer: i'm not diagnosed autistic, this is a reference to the pinned comment). this particular album influences a lot of my works to be honest

two more vivivivivi beepbox albums, ones that are a little more lively: Sisyphus and Silly Little Songs from my Silly Little Head. probably not to the tastes of sane and normal people but i like the beeps and boops :)

sewerslvt: breakbeat stuff from a dark place. people seem to not like sewerslvt fans which is why i'm reluctant to talk about this one but whatever. idk what you'd call their genre (i've heard it described as ambient jungle, trance, something or other dnb, but most importantly NOT breakcore. call sewerslvt breakcore and you are signing up for a hell of a flamewar) listen if you like amen breaks and hate yourself (i hope not…) idk what to even recommend here… i stumbled across her first with Drowning In The Sewer years ago. i've been getting back into their stuff recently, which is probably not a good sign for my mental health… currently listening to 'was it weird that i listened to im god by clams casino's when i lost my virginity' which is a hell of a title

Heaven Pierce Her again – The Enigma of Heaven and Other Daily Delusions: weird album about religion and the internet. since this is hakita again there are amen breaks. good if ur fuckin WEIRD. i recommend most of HPH's work

i've also been listening to an ultrakill fan artist called Marzuku, who does – guess what – more amen break stuff. i don't know man, but 'At Ends' is pretty good

shit fuck of course the jvne section ends up being a whole paragraph just to say don't listen to their stuff.

THAT'S IT IT'S TIME TO WRAP THIS UP THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK. damn this got long. this is what happens when you ask me about my interests LMFAO

#not art #bernadette rambles #ask #:333 #also sorry for the ping donut

[theromaboo]

Hi! What are your thoughts on the show domina?

Hello!

I apologize for being a little late to write this but I've recently been dubbing Peppa Pig in Latin so I've been a little busy.

How engaging it is: 9/10

Personally, my attention span is like 0. I really struggle to finish shows or books, so it's honestly extremely impressive that I managed to finish this show. I did get kind of bored at the last episode, but it's a miracle I only got bored at the last episode.

Character's appearances: 7/10

I absolutely love Domina's choice of actors. Everyone looks exactly like they look in my head. Apart from one person. Augustus! He doesn't look that bad in the later episodes; the only major thing I don't like is hair color. But in the first two episodes, I could not get over his hair. what is that haircut im gonna cry

I'm sorry, that is not Octavian.

I just don't know what happened. Like, they could've gotten any random blond twink off the streets to be Octavian and I would be happy. But they really had to make Octavian look like that, huh.

But I do have two things I like about the young Octavian. Number one, his actor is actually the right age for once. The actor is in his twenties, so he's actually around Octavian's age at the time. Which is an actual miracle. Movies always use much older actors for people like Octavian and Britannicus. Number two, he's much smaller than Agrippa! Eeeeeee! I give that detail the 100% historically accurate stamp!

Which leads me to Agrippa. HJKFDKJHFSKS I love the actors they got for Agrippa. Both young Agrippa and old Agrippa, they look perfect! Words can not describe how much I love Agrippa's physical appearance in Domina.

Meanwhile, for older Augustus, I can look at him and go "Huh, I understand that this is Augustus" but I don't like his appearance.

I like how everyone else looks. Tiberius is a little too hot to be Tiberius, ngl.

Dialogue: 8/10

A lot of people complain that all the characters use the f word all the time which is anachronistic because the word "fuck" was invented after ancient Rome or some other dumb reason like that. But the fact they are speaking in English is anachronistic! I'm sure if the ancient romans had that word they would've used it all the time. Anyway, my only problem with the entire thing is that they literally don't use any other swear word. Come on, if the ancient Romans had English, I'm sure they would be more diverse in their choice of swears.

Overall, not counting their overuse of fucks, I quite like the dialogue. I'm still thinking of this part:

[Context: Augustus is really sick and was "speaking" with the dead]

Augustus: I just saw my mother.

Livia: Your mother? How is she?

Augustus: Oh, you know. Dead.

Augustus and Agrippa: 4/10

They hug a few times, I guess. And they're cute together sometimes. And occasionally they just have a moment that reminds me that they're besties. But it's not enough for me. I know I'm sounding picky or critical but you'd understand if you watch it. I'd actually like to show you some statistics.

(by the way, i was an ABOSLUTELY AWFUL data collector. there is no guarantee that this is going to be 100% correct, but it's close enough)

In the Domina fandom of AO3, there are around 3 fics where Agrippa is shipped with Octavian and around 8 fics where he is shipped with someone else.

Meanwhile, in every fic with Agrippa, excluding ones in the Domina fandom, there are around 22 fics where Agrippa is shipped with Octavian and around 5 where he is shipped with someone else.

Something is clearly wrong here.

(I'll probably make another post about these statistics and in that post I will count better so I'll know for sure what the numbers are. But for now, these are the numbers I counted but you shouldn't put too much faith in them)

Historical Accuracy: ???? I forgot but I think it wasn't bad.

Well, of course, Domina is very Livia-centric, so I shouldn't expect many good Augustus and Agrippa moments. But that's pretty much what I signed up for. I would like some more Augustus and Agrippa. I'm not even close to finishing Masters of Rome, but I quite like how they were written in it (apart from the MILLION times Colleen just had to remind the audience that augustus and agrippa were Totally Not Gay. listen, i heard you the first time) So maybe the writers of Domina should've taken inspiration from there.

But I'm not really mad though. This is just a little personal thing that I would've liked to see. But Domina can do whatever it likes. And there *are* cute Augustus and Agrippa scenes in Domina. Just not many. It's fine.

I didn't watch for the historical accuracy, so I honestly forgot if there were any big issues or not. But, it's a drama, not a documentary, so I'm a lot more lax. I'm totally fine with them adding new characters and changing up events as long as they don't make a historical mistake that makes me cry (if the characters of domina went to the colosseum, i would honestly cry) It's a drama. As long as it isn't pretending to be factual, I'm fine with them taking artistic license. But if you were watching for the SHEER accuracy of EVERY event, you might not like it.

Family friendliness: 2/10.

It's not a bad thing that it got such a low number, but I'm just saying that you shouldn't watch Domina with your mom or your kids or something. I'm pretty sure only actual porn has more sex than Domina does. If you watched HBO Rome, you'd understand. And like, there's no warning. One scene is totally normal and the next scene is gay sex.

I think I should do math about this. How many sex scenes are in each episode of Domina? (and hbo rome if i got the time) And what's the average amount of sex scenes per episode? I'm guessing 7. Reblog with which number you're guessing! (guys if you actually reblog with which number you're guessing I will actually be forced to calculate it so make sure you do)

General prettiness: 10/10

The entire show is so beautiful. I could take any screenshot and make it my phone background or something.

Overall: 8/10

I managed to finish it, and I quite enjoyed it. I love how Agrippa looks. I love how beautiful every scene looks. Storytelling-wise, I'd say it was good. My main problem is Octavian's appearance. But it isn't really a big groundbreaking problem (okay actually young octavian is an earthshattering sin. the ghost of julius caesar himself will haunt you forever if you can look at him and go "this is fine") And I'd also like more Augustus and Agrippa scenes. But overall, I'd recommend this show.

#domina sky #ancient rome #livia #emperor augustus #emperor tiberius #tiberius #gaius octavius

[ofallplaceswhythis]

tcoptp thoughts pt.10

im skipping im skipping im skipping im skipping im-

Chasity..... i am trying so hard and i may be biased but.....

....omg, thats why - its all connecting. holyyyyy fuckk

So nice that tomny and tonya decided to send him his very own guitar for his birthday!! theyre such good friends [delusion :( ]

Sirius and Remus' friendship is so overlooked in this fandom its so sweet there is a reason they are friends to lovers guys

james's hatred towards antlers and remus's face covered in chocolate need to be drawn where is the fanart

SHIT THE SEX TAPE?????? WTHHH

LILY TOLD JAMES SHE LOVED HIM?!?!?! gosh the gossip - and they're fictional

Y'know what snape, you are just a coward who hides behind words in order to get his way, and you have no real friends because, guess what, YOU'RE A DISGUSTING PERSON. And literally nobody cares about you and you will die alone with my knife in your stomach regretting every single action in your entire pitiful existence as I watch the life leave your eyes and constantly remind you that the only reason you had survived this long was because you were such a disgusting person that nobody could get near you without projectile vomiting on your head, which may be the reason why your hair is so greasy. You are meaningless like a mosquito and you will perish not only physically but from memory as well because as soon as you are dead literally no one will care about you. You are that boy that rips apart insect limbs from their bodies and you will meet your demise. No matter what your backstory is that does not justify the abuse you caused and thus you will suffer the consequences. You will die by a poison coated blade and be it whoever it is there will always be the sound of laughter and fireworks that will soon follow after your corpse is disposed of. The only way you will be able to survive is if we bury you alive with worms eating your body and your screams reverberating of the cold, concrete walls, knowing that you will never be found again. The world will become a better place as soon as you are gone from it.

aww they're all so cute <3333 ily lily

REMUS HAS A CRUSH ON SIRIUS PINING'S COMING FUCK

And with that, the first half of the fanfic comes to a close. [👏👏] [ literally had to pace for a few minutes]

ily wolfstar but i just feel so bad for marlene. Im sorry girl :(

And immediatly starting with angst. fucking amazing [WHY TOM]

'where we're going? it aint home' and why dont i just FALL ON MY SPEAR LIKE A ROMAN WHOSE OBSESSED WITH SACRIFICING THEMSELF. UGH. WHYYYYYYYYY

Them not picking up the phone when Tonya leaves but picking up the phone after Remus does is just - holy fuck

ughh remus why do you have to say stuff like that

Remus's queer panic is honestly a mood

no wait whats happening. ...did they just break up...?

why get into a car accident when you can just read Tonya's letter?

tell me a story is really starting to sound like tell me a secret and i am not ready to handle that kind of mentality at this time

sirius are you hearing urself 'ill never leave you' typa shit

ok the mutual pining is about to commence and i am not ready

#the cadence of part time poets #remus lupin #my thoughts #sirius black #marlene mckinnon

[twisted-bee]

im going to bite you

OK WELL HERES THE LYRICS TO BLACKBOX WARRIOR - OKULTRA BY WILL WOOD FROM THE NORMAL ALBUM

Well he collapsed with Stevens-Johnson Syndrome on the E.R. floor Panic attacked, anaphylactic and ataxic The way he spun his butterfly risked all six his phalanges Roman candles at both ends in his synapses And the method with which he recycled his humors Trojan Horse'd his Blood-Brain Barrier and raised the LD-50, yes, yes And through flight-or-fight revelation shame the Black Box Warrior He skipped this town and headed straight down history Shields himself from reason in a Kevlar baby-blue Tuxedo Quilted from the finest fibers, flesh, and fiberglass, and flowers His ego a mosquito, evil incarnate good incognito Pops placebos for libido, screaming, "Bless the torpedoes"

For what? For what? For what it's worth If it was going to kill you boy, it would have by now For what? For what? For what it's worth There's no more looking back, it's looking up or looking down

Well, he was wearing stolen rubber shoes and wrapped a poison ivy noose Around his Lotus jugular when they came Well, they found him with a map to every victim of his love And a tattoo of a blue jay on his face And they waited for his vital signs to lie and let a flatline cry A hymn out in Hungarian Harmonic

But he cocked his noggin, through his stoma sang, "For auld lang syne" "Happy birthday to the succulents, I'll die your hydroponics" His rib cage was a hornet's nest, palpitations set the beat

His vagus nerve a turk's head knot, an axel hitch, a carrick bend He wondered if Christ Consciousness would charge a cancellation fee Auf wiedersehn, au revoir, he gripped his wits right by their ends

For what? For what? For what it's worth If it was going to kill you boy, it would have by now For what? For what? For what it's worth There's no more looking back, it's looking up or looking down

Hello, welcome, why don't you take a seat? Get comfortable, relax, take a second if you need to Now what's bothering you? Well, why don't we start at the beginning Growing up, how was your relationship with the fundamentals of conscious existence? Did you have xenon orchid sinews spilling down the outer center of your Blooming Escher/Mandelbrot head? And how about claustrophilic tendrils clapping caskets closed on seven-knuckle thumbs Did you get along well with the Gideon Bugler pineal glands? Your projector eyes casting sci-fi's on your STR'd strands?

Tell me about your nerve to steal nerves of steel from under Bacchus' bloody nose Did Namibian Himbas tie-dye you, your ears pierced with a Phineas Gage flagpole Did you die before your day? Thursday traction, Tuesday titration My hope is to assess through my objective report of Your subjective conjecture Whether this proprietary bled of expertise and seasoning works as well as this Transorbital ice pick

Holistic ballistics, you got a better idea? It's about the best we could come up with, what, you think ideas spread because they're good? No, they spread because people like them So now here we are once again, holding As it were, a mirror up to your mirror I guess it's just something people do

A bloody knife to split your infrastructure, wine to rev your motor function Coital machinations of the dead Well, you mainline your animus, karate chop your abacus And learn to be an animal instead But I never did think you better than this, your modus operandi causes Nazi/Skoptzyism and suicide Why to thine own self be true when it is you who are the problem Not the things you do but something sick inside

Lithium and Dialectics, boy you really is defective CBT don't seem effective for that Cluster B, accept it Offer up your innocence, please ignore the side effects You've lost your mind and almost lost your life before So you'll be fine

For what? For what? For what it's worth If it was going to kill you boy, it would have by now For what? For what? For what it's worth There's no more looking back, and why would you want to look back? I mean, it's no good looking back, so try to look forward now For what? For what? For what it's worth If they were going to get you boy, they would have by now For what? For what? For what it's worth There's no more looking back, it's looking up or looking down...

#this is jokes i promise

[corellonsblessing]

A BLACK OUT/SLAM POEM based on the teletubbies (tv) tag on ao3

TRIGGER WARNING_MILK.

stray dogs literature clubs, the school for good and evil. ink sans angel—stranger things

horror sans guy—don’t hug me i’m scared. don’t hug me i’m scared, (don’t hug me i’m scared.)

free form plot twists. tragedy/comedy. alternate universe—high school. alternate universe—music.

the chaos unfolds each day, pristine, centuries ago, fight the many.

post divorce, living together, implied drug use, alcoholism. snippets from the end of the show, renunion, although it takes place a couple years before. we were the stars (but space was a void) by ponfarrpussyqueen.

corporate clash, bug, duck, the guardian pest, the prince, macarena, kissing, crack, as a joke, boys kissing, regret everything

underage julius caesar, emo napoleon, mating bond, tentacle dick, magic healing cock, holy water, holy roman empire, kissing in the rain, the battle of waterloo, a true story.

crossover, insanehappymealgiver, original character, original, simulator, mentioned, i’m at my limit, intentionally bad, wearing the other character’s skin, start praying because this sure ain’t holy, my dad went to get the milk because of this, sent to the void, put me in a coffin, rancid hope’s peak

we greet you with good luck and prosperity.

we love gay anal and lesbian smut and we hope you do too.

diminishing flame, not for kids, you’ll cry so hard you won’t have eyes, not sorry, commit a clarity, vaporized, freeform, sewer rat

2020 presidential election, spit as lube.

chaos bear, crack, crack, crack, has religious trauma, gay, gay, lesbian, lesbian sex, orgy, moist naked bodies rainbow is jesus, sex during tornado, this is NOT. finished.

there she was, in a new world. guess she’ll play the cards she’s dealt.

jesus confessed, sin shock, tears streaming down her face. “i fucked your sister.” crack. treated seriously, why did i write this. gay best friend—i can see that (i’m safe here.)

why did i write this!

crack. treated seriously.

slowly losing our sanity, we die.

crack, treated seriously. the moon of hope and the sun of despair LET IT GOOOOO LET IT GOOO.

crack, treated seriously, blue balls, orphan account

his little purse. what was once an inside joke is now taken seriously. crack. crack. fluff and crack. angst and crack. i am a man of my word, and i speak for the people.

a million other projects to complete

crack, crack, i dont know what’s going on, we’re idiots so we made this

it starts out all nice then it all goes downhill

satan, crack, this is a joke, please help me, please don’t hate me, i’m so sorry, i cannot think of anything else, please don’t read this. but. do, the author regrets nothing, the author regrets everything, why do i still exist? (discontinued, at least until further notice.) by even moderner prometheus

forbidden love, dead dove:do not eat.

so small in the midst of it all. rolling with the weird and unusual, traumatized teens to comfort, and an important decision to make

i came up with this, i will go down with this

i can’t believe i write this, why did i write this, i wrote this while listening to mother mother, sleep deprived, wrote this instead of sleeping, the guardian witnessed sex and is now scarred, touching, addiction, slut shaming

insufferable with apologies to all my followers, hell (literal), sewage

i got problems, so fucking random, pulled out of my ass, hard to explain, hard to word, each chapter will be posted, find me on wattpad,

near death experiences, major illness, declarations of love, love confessions, eating, marking, delay/denial, knotting, marking, mating bites, overstimulation, based on taylor swift songs, missing spleen

help me pleease, im scared, why did i write this?, just this really chill person who wants to take over the world, humanized teletubbies, my friend and i wrote this over the summer

you better not forgive me for this, im serious, vaginal fingering, a hushed voice, the contact making her shiver.

may your heart stay strong. torture, vomiting, blood and gore, self-indulgent, touch starved guardian, all characters are adults, electricity, suicidal thoughts, medical inaccuracies,

and yet… you lie again. i like noo-noo i hope he explodes, don’t show up

crack. i am so sorry. not in detail but it could’ve been so count your blessings

gods this can’t end well, good parent, to two children, bad parent, to the other one

IM SO SRRY BUT THIS WAS FOR THE GREATER GOOD, HAHA SUFFER,

attempt at humor, death, gore, i don’t even know, i’m so sorry, you have been warned, i posted this for my brother’s birthday

plague, companionship, through the fields we ran

it quickly turns into anti-demon propaganda

a play in one act, post-war, no sex, no killing

the prize of reading this is to meet god

help my poor soul this is a disgrace but it was my first fic so i refuse to orphan it, and the teletubbies followed

help, i was forced to write this and i’m sorry, i don’t even know what to call this monster, the southern pansy, aziphrale, the prince of hell, and the archangel gabriel

angst, satire, this is not serious, it’s meant to be funny

DO NOT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, IT WAS WRITTEN BY THREE HIGH THIRTEEN YEAR OLDS.

this is what you’ve been waiting for and hoping would never come

hearing voices, broken bones, emotional manipulation,

live, work, play, a simple life, protected, until a stranger comes.

i can’t give you a summary of the plot. that would ruin the story.

the eternal rioting continues as it always will (part one)

the eternal rioting continues as it always will (part seventeen.)

let me know if i forgot to tag anything!!

blame the painkillers. i blame the painkillers.

#so when i was a kid i once made fun of this person i met irl bc he would post like. all the gay tags n i thoufht it wasnt cool #like gay twink n like all of those things #just an endless paragraph of labels #i couldnt imagine posting that or wanting to be seen like that #i couldnt imagine wanting to be seen at all #i didnt say it to his face i just called it cringe to a friend and they rightfully called me out on it #why is that so funny to you? that he wants to be known? that he wants to reach out to his community? #i woke up one morning and saw that he had imed me in the middle of the night #i imed him back n didnt get a response n thought nothing of it #i wish i had been up that night #i wouldnt have been able to do anything #but every time we post something every time we tag something #we are looking fir connection #this is not the void #you are not screaming i to the void #people we see you #and i hope they hear you #bc what you have to say can be beautiful. even when its a joke #this is a joke. but it is also real to me #every one of these tags and titles is real #and a real person wrote them #they sat down and did that #n they wanted u to see them #everyone wants to be seen #and smiled at. n liked #and i hope someone likes you. i hope someone likes you enough to be awake at 3am #n i hope you like yourself enough to keep posting and tagging and trying so hard to be noticed #bc there is beauty in everything #even and especially you #where are those high thirteen year olds now

[hermitcraft-8]

I made . Gay dnd superheroes slash supervillains . They're still wips and I'm gonna make my friends play the oneshot I'm planning w them . But basically the players are investigating a villain named Achilles, who used to be a hero named Mars and i rlly like them a lot they're my favorite little guy . Their name is Sidney Lindburg and they tried to expose their boss when they were a hero for like, murder and fraud and embezzlement, but the boss was some hotshot head of operations hero so no one believed them so they were like "ok uhhh . Shit guess this makes me a villain" and then they leaned too far into the role and now they don't know what they're fighting for anymore, other than just to fight . Fingers crossed they get better . They could totally get worse tho so like . Depends on what the players do .

And their hero name was Mars like the roman god bc they were known for being the heavy hitting "war-like tactics" guy on the team . And they chose the name Achilles as a villain bc the murder they're trying to expose their boss for was of their partner, and their partner was like super hyperfixated on mythos and the myth of Achilles and Patroclus was her favorite and Sidney was like "does this make me Achilles now" and . It super doesn't because Sid doesn't know a lot abt myths and definitely isn't following it but they are ginger and their lover is dead so . It makes a lot of history and myth nerds in the city super mad 👍

OH IM OBSESSED HOLY COW I LOVE THAT SO MUCH

[its-inevitable-lupe]

Looking at old pictures and things. You really have been trash to me these three years. I have always spoken good of you in the relationship because yes I know. Flaws we all have so I won’t point yours in it. But when death and drugs and the treatment you have horribly done to me these three years. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself. Sometimes I think yeah I deserve it. Sometimes I’m lost and feel like why me…. Why does this girl treat me this way when I’m not the same person. I can’t speak bad of her old self but her present self now I can. It’s absolutely disappointing… so I guess your friend might influence more. You were amazing to me and my heart will miss that version of you and i morn her always and forever. I will never forgive you because texts and running away like a coward is where I draw the line. My mistake was thinking maybe she would change but nah. She’s just a woman acting like a child. I hope you grow up and figure yourself out. Sometimes I get confuse with love even more but then with time I notice what love really is not suppose to be. I been blinded by the word love that’s why I never say it and that’s why I don’t do. Because people in the name of love have countless times abuse it and all have turn it against me like I’m the person that is a monster. I have always felt misunderstood and have been told many things. I felt pushed aside. Belittle and trash my persona. I have been told people like this side of me.. like this dark and ugh side that I can’t explain or my sadness or whatever they fantasize of me. And I’m sick of it and how I feel like an object. I have done and changed my ways not only for many people but myself. I been ARGUING LESS !!!!!!! I don’t find it trilling as I use to. I don’t feel anything. I don’t get off on sadness. I’m not sadistic. I try to control my alcohol problem this month. I stop smoking. I stop doing drugs. And I did in 2021 cause dude I was losing my mind on that one night free I had. My face my whole energy was so dead… and now i feel ALIVE. I go to the gym to help ME. I eat better! I gain 15-20 maybe pounds since 2020.. like that’s a lot but I was so underweight. My depression is less. My anxiety is a lot less. I control my Nerves SO MUCH. I did that! I don’t do things that trigger me. I dont Cut myself. And I know I did sometime in the three years but that was once and never again. I’m not passive. I try to speak up. I try to communicate to people. I grown up. I Had to. I would hate if I was still this way and people were let down because of me. I don’t tolerate things at all. Im solid with myself. I overcame so much and still am and that’s what makes me strong and me. I don’t let my past define me. I don’t just say words but I mean them and I do them and I act in it all. Im not fake. Im real and honest and i will always be genuine and authentic. I did my things, I messed around, I been trash and hurt a lot a lot a lot of people. just as people have done to me. But I learn and I try to change the future and if things are good they are good. I try to fix whoever has a thing with me and hope for the best and if not, I let that go. I don’t hold onto things that are presently bad. I do me. I like me. And I will love me soon. But I am loving who I am becoming. Im happy this change these three years really marked me. It snapped my whole being and that old v.. I use to know was my push & without her I wouldn’t have been here. That one left a scar on me and on my skin. But the present one please never come close to me when you have sick intentions and so cruel. I hope karma and life wakes you up. I’m sorry life was never easy for you. I hope your heart and mind find peace. But like me.. there is always change and I’m sure you will do it. But other than that. I’m doing good for me. I hope I love to the places I desires I hope everything goes smoothly.I hope I really reach my goals. I should make that book I always spoken about because 22 marked me for life. The 5 “v”Roman journey really hit hard. I look back and Im proud of how much I grown. I’m happy I finally PICK MYSELF

#my thoughts #2023

[in-amorem-cadete]

reading historians talk about catullus’ poetry literally gives me shivers

#guess im in love with a dead roman #sigh #catullus ily babe #personal #classics #sorry i made everythinng about latin #catullus

[r-truth]

#roman reigns #seth rollins #wweedit #wwe #* #*reigns #*rollins #i do NOT know how to read seth's face #most people would say 'what a snake he does not want a shield reunion why would he' #and i mean it's valid i guess. #but i just. love him so much and i'm gonna go into deep #and i think he wants it #but he's like. feeling like he's losing dean and he Does Not Know #im p sure he wants to tell roman 'you know i do want it but- dean-' and it hurts and i know it hurts #he feels like he's lost dean and boy i wanna punch him in the face for giving up so soon but also what can i tell him???? he's. entitled to #to his own feelings too #he wants to be protected and i respect that #god i love the shield people #i cannot stop screaming about them and i won't until im dead

[sockodraws]

[SPOLIERS] deeper exploration on the flowers placed by c!ranboo

ok so i want to take a closer look at this screenshot, credit to @astropocket​ for the image

this hurts, like, ouch. But yknow what’s even more painful? the flower symbolism of them if you look even closer

now, im pretty sure none of this is intentional, but a little speculation like this never really hurt anyone

aside from the obvious red and white theme for tommy we have going on, we have the flowers themselves

-first we have the tulips. white tulips indicate peace and forgiveness, while red tulips indicate a sign of love (platonic in this case, don’t be weird you guys).

- extra note here: if you look closely one of the tulips looks pink (probably is), and hey guess what, pink tulips symbolize happiness and confidence

-daisies show a sign of innocent and purity. and while c!tommy is uh,,,not really innocent or pure in a sense, daisies also symbolize rebirth.

-speaking of rebirth and purity, let me get into the lily of the valley, quoted from google while highlighting the bits i want to show

The lily of the valley is a flower that is most often viewed as a symbol of rebirth and humility...….Lily of the valley flowers are thought to bring luck in love but can also symbolize a return of happiness.

-now onto the final flower, poppies, also quoted from google

Poppies have long been used as a symbol of sleep, peace, and death: Sleep because the opium extracted from them is a sedative, and death because of the common blood-red color of the red poppy in particular. In Greek and Roman myths, poppies were used as offerings to the dead. <- hey dream smp artists who r into greek n roman myth shit get onto this

In a way, c!ranboo is quietly stating that c!tommy was and is loved dearly, by himself and many others, and that now that he is dead, tommy will hopefully reborn somewhere new and find that peace and happiness again, and that tommy can finally rest.

so in the words of astropocket: catch me fucking sobbing

#dream smp #dream smp spoilers #tommyinnit #ranboo #mcyt #sock said something #sorry about the ramble im still high off of finding flowers for symbolism for oc's lol

[catilinas]

can you recommend something to read when i want to learn more about cato (jr)? he seems so weird i love that

YOU GET IT HE;S SO WEIRD AND TERRIBLE I LOVE HIM

plutarch's life of cato the younger is the ancient source that gives a continuous narrative of his life and also it's my personal favourite plutarchan life :') like (as w all ancient sources!) plutarch v much has an agenda and while he Is sympathetic to cato he is also like. well he would have been cooler if he was a neoplatonist instead of a stoic :) so watch out for That. at the same time it is such a fun character portrait of a guy having the absolute worst time ever. a family can be you, the ghosts of all your dead relatives, your dead brother's ashes that you carry around with you in a jar, the philosophers you kidnap on your grief-roadtrip, and the ominous presence of cato the elder's political legacy. oh and servilia too.

for modern stuff to read drogula's biography of cato from 2019 is good! i have not finished it yet but it exists and i have been reading it very slowly and so far yes! im so glad there Is a recent scholarly biography now bcs before drogula's book it was like. ok the reception of cato the younger during the american revolutionary war is cool i guess but i want to know about The Actual Guy. show me how fucked up he was by sulla please :)

also if you're asking about cato you probably know this but massive content warning for suicide from section 64ish onwards of the plutarch. roman history is often Like That but cato's death is A Lot so like. heads up

#cato the guy of all time my true problematic fave #feel free to come and scream about cato whenever because. him. he is soooooo haunted by the ghost of sulla #AND ALSO MARCUS LIVIUS DRUSUS COS 112. everyone talks abt the influence of cato the Elder #but his maternal grandfather (m. livius drusus cos 112) was a GUY. thinking abt like how his whole Thing #as the Tribune Opposed To Gaius Gracchus was doing GG's [popularis-ish] legislation before GG could do it #and then not really. doing anything w it once he'd Passed The Laws First to spite GG #and how cato the younger. known optimas. was responsible for rome's first grain dole ever!!!!!! #not bcs he thought it was a good idea or anything. but because he did it So A Popularis Couldn't Do It First #[popularis-ish] is like that bcs it's kinda anachronistic for gaius gracchus times but im lazyyyyyy #ALSO HAVE FUN IF YOU READ plutarch's life of cato. genuinely one of my fave ancient texts of all time ever. i have it in my #bookmarks bar. i used to know the references for like every sentence. real 2017 hours. #if you are a classicist who reads plutarch's life of cato the younger like 10 times before reading The Iliad or The Odyssey you are VALID #suicide mention — #porky #beeps

[blueskiesandstarrynights]

Oh my god that was so cool! Such an interesting story, I'm still reeling a bit, so thoughts aren't super coherent but let's try.

1. I loved seeing the different ways linda and zoey went to try and beat the other, they were pretty creative and so malicious

2. Gerald is an absolute simp for his wife and fell for her bc of her being a horrible person im still not over this

3. Gerald hiring homeless ted to pretend to be a talent seracher tho adsl;fjasd

seeing all these minor characters and trying to decipher which one will be significant later on like-

3. Ahhh I'm sorry I can't think of anything but the end rn so we're skipping to that, the lore dump is my fave part anyways.

4. So after linda wins roman takes her to the witchwoods which I found to never be a good sign. he takes her to a clearing full of robed figures with silver masks, another group of cultists, that he leads??? Not a good sign.

5. Anyways linda won honey queen not bc of her song, but bc of her hunger to do whatever it takes to get what she wants. That kind of hunger nibbly likes. She's sacrificed to nibbly, and as she is, an alter of deformed pig faces morphs into a pink furry creature with a mouth for a face, he says some ominous things, and the ep ends. So I guess pigs are to nibbly as goats are to tinky. I'll come up with more theories later, but I am brain dead and reeling, I'm sure I'll come up with more as the week progresses.

#blue rambles #nmt2 spoilers #hatchetfield #honey queen

[rwby-sk]

Roman Holiday

My review below the cut. Spoilers obviously 

Dragosar1 if you’re reading this, stop now

Okay first of all  100/10 I loved the book. Everything. All of it. I have a few questions but fuck it that was good! 

Okay the main review  The story’s theme is a coming of age story for Neo. She’s trying to figure out who she really is and where her home is. She keeps getting thrown into different places to stay under different identities and it hurts her. But Lady Beat gives us the story’s whole theme 

Balance. Everything is made of three parts (In contrast to Roman and Pyrrha claiming the world is only made of two: Light and Dark)

Neo has her three parts by the end of the story:  Vanilla: Vanille, her life at her mansion with her parents  - Her old life. Her old self. Her love of tea, her quick learning ability, her attitude  Chocolate: Lady Browning’s Preparatory Academy for Girls - Her style. Her first taste at freedom by not breaking rules like before, but bending them. Avoiding them. Learning how to be self sufficient, proper, poised, and balanced  Strawberry: Loosely, just pink. Roman’s apartment/life - Roman encourages her to be her own person. To let Neopolitan out. He compliments her pink hair. Buys her Hush in her color scheme, points out all the times pink is missing in her family’s house. He offers true friendship and a home

I love her dynamic with Roman. They’re not just buddies, but they’re not dating. They’re all each other have in the world and that’s enough. They care about each other more than anything. And occasionally flirt enough to keep the audience guessing if Neo is serious. (That age gap though, eh? If Roman is old enough to have seen the Malachite twins go to dance recitals, and Neo is their age..... eh)

Neo and killing: Yeah. It happens. But it’s done so well.  Tossing a mob boss’s assistant out the back of a bullhead as she’s racing to save Roman? Not caring if she had a parachute or not? That’s Neo’s style. She didn’t revel in the death like some might think she would. She just didn’t care. It wasn’t as important as saving Roman  As for her parents....  Well, when they treat you like crap your whole life, then reveal they were playing each other for power, and leaving you as a hostage sleeping on a bomb every night...  Good for Neo 

The fact that Neo made Roman’s outfit. Bought him that hat. Made that scarf. It hurts all the more that she wears them after his death 

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Neo’s whole personality is just a drive for two things: Freedom and Love She just wants someone to care about her and to be free to do what she wants  Fuck everything else. Money isn’t real, what does she care? It’s not really even about the destruction or the mayhem. It’s just being free to do what she wants, unsheltered. And if Roman wants to steal coffee, then by the Brothers she will steal some coffee

Roman is this sassy dick and I love him so much. He’s a witty asshole and his sense of humor is SPOT ON in every scene. A quote from the book sums him up pretty well: “He didn’t mind cheating, as long as he did it fair and square.” Roman isn’t a bad guy. Sure he enjoys beating up people from time to time. But he really is just after the power. He just wants to be able to say he is somebody. That in the end, he mattered

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So Neo cannot speak, but she can laugh, hiccup, giggle, ect.  She never uses sign language. Maybe the boarding school and her parents never wanted to teach her in order to limit her? But she and Roman text and he figures out her gestures with little effort 

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IM SO GLAD THEY SAID IT. POINT BLANK. Roman never asks why Neo doesn’t speak. And she appreciates it. THANK YOU

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There were all kinds of little things I loved learning. Neo loves tea, hates coffee. Roman does in fact do forgeries (Jaune transcripts HC still possible). Roman has aura but not a semblance. Neo’s semblance is slightly solid, depending on her concentration. Roman started out as a semi-caring individual but had it thrown in his face enough that he stopped caring

The line, “In my experience, some things are harder to mend than others, and the healing process can be long and painful” really hit me in the fucking face. Thanks CRWBY. Thank you so much 

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We know just before Roman’s Dust heists at the end of the book, Neo is 18. It can’t be long until Cinder makes contact and Vol.1 starts. So for Vol.1, I’d say Neo is around the same age as the protagonists, maybe a year or two older max

The FUCKING audacity Neo has in Volume 6 to show up in Lil’ Miss Malachite’s parlor to look for Cinder. The FUCKING audacity. To show up from the dead, after everything she put her through, ruining her plans for her take over of Vale? The unparalleled AUDACITY. Lil’ Miss probably would have threatened to shoot her if she wasn’t SO impressed by her 

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Overall, I think it was really faithful to the characters I really loved it  I need to retcon my fics or start from scratch because I love this so much better 

Lastly 

Roman Torchwick x Lisa Lavender fics WHEN????