#guess it's just me. on my own. again

[intheconfessiondial]

Redraw of the cape post, because that entire concept deserved better than the illustration I gave it.

#just give 12 a cape it's all I ask #yes I was watching Musketeers again #doctor who fanart #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #whouffaldi #twelveclara #guess who watched Heaven Sent + Hellbent again #I only cried half a tear but I did get Really sweaty #which is an improvement from last time #it took me about 8 years to getting round to watching those 2 episodes because Face the Raven destroyed me so hard #I'm pretty sure I couldnt eat for a whole day after FtR aired #although at that point I had been steadily absorbing Clara's personality into my own for a few years #I don't have a personality I stole it from Clara Oswald #read all of the 12clara books. listened to the audiobooks. Running out of content at a concerning rate #had to buy another comic #one day I'll have consumed all 12+Clara content. Then I'll just have to take matters into my own hands (make it myself)

[sugar-bi-scuit]

Xie Lian: Guys it’s a shooting star, let’s make a wish!

Hua Cheng: I wish for all of Gege's wishes to come true.

Mu Qing: Simp.🙄

Hua Cheng: Never mind, I wish upon the shooting star to fall down at a 30° velocity aiming for Mu Qing. .)

Xie Lian: San Lang…🥲

#guess who's back for this month🙃 #i figured I'd just make my own sort-of-not-really-but-whatever adventkalender #by just posting daily for a while again until my exams come for me🥲 #anyway #heaven official's blessing #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #incorrect quotes #incorrect tgcf quotes #hualian #xie lian #hua cheng #mu qing

[fourteenthz]

VIERAPRIL 15 - SPARK

In the end all I hope for is to be a bit of warmth for you When there's not a lot of warmth left.

#wall of post sorry. crying too much to care rn. #viera ffxiv #vierapril #vierapril 2024 #ffxiv oc #ffxiv viera #wol posting #6.0 spoilers #hydaelyn #pls click the link listen to the most venat + wol song ever. #i've been meaning to use it somewhere and i'll probably use it again but i just couldn't skip it this time #as much as it sounds like venat i hear the wol's voice in it tbh... since hydaelyn has been 'dying' for a little while #so when the one thing you believe the most gives you everything you must try search everywhere to give something back #and then i like to imagine thesa settle for this. maybe she can't do much besides do hydaelyn's will but she hopes this brings her somethin #warmth. if you will. this song is one of the most thesa songs ever bc its just someone keeping herself busy and trying to be useful #the setting fire to your your own hair part IS SOOO HER. #and when the chorus comes with 'promise me you will start were I end' is SO hydaelyn's voice coded. literally venat core. #and thesa answering with 'yeah. i will. and in the end i hope I was something more to you too. some comfort' YOU GET ME????? #they love each other so very much. that's her mother guys. #i like to translate how /i/ never doubted hydaelyn to thesa lol girl is hopeful and loyal to her core. anyway. gushing my heart out here #had more screenshots but well guess 9 is enough. and a bunch of tags for this song bc i love it a lot. ilu 4 winds albuns. #the scions seeing this and some of them seeing thesa cry for the first time....... yeah. get her (emotional) (real) (i love her) #also the lowest you will ever see her ears <3

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #it was a hard day today. #sometimes you just gotta cry for an hour about requiring significant assistance to do basic stuff that you don't actually have help with rn! #(my wife is working 6 12s at a job we had to move across the country for) #(which means 1 she is *exhausted* at *all* times and struggling to even meet her own needs) #(and 2 our other partner and all our family and friends are. multiple days away by car. so they can't come help.) #it's getting hard to even stick leftovers in the microwave for myself but no one else is able to cook for me. #it sucks. #(we're moving again in june because this was a 1-year position from the beginning) #(and the idea is for our other partner to move in with us which will help a lot) #(plus my wife should be switching to a reliably 5-day week at that time) #(but we don't know where we're going for another month and a half.) #(so we can't really do any groundwork or anything to make that happen.) #(and having zero agency other than sitting and waiting and getting worse alone Really Sucks!) #I guess this is a bit of a secret part two to yesterday's meducation lol #favorites

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

#i rise from the dead once again!! #sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting #school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :( #ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late #its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself #even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better #but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time #so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better #man. that got really depressing :/ #anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D #ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3 #i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now #sonic the hedgehog #sage robotnik #AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING #anyways #sage sonic #hatsune miku #i guess #whoof im scared to post this #or maybe im just exhausted #probably both :/

[mercisnm]

previously on @wordsbyarwen: Greek myth AU, the mages are gods and use avatars to appear to their followers, Tissaia is the lord of the Underworld and god of the dead, her Hades avatar vs the form she was born into

bonus Rita as Aphrodite

#nobody mentioned borzoi cerberus anywhere its just my own idea. tissaia and eldritch horror horse dogs are a Thing to me #sometimes i draw things #...what do i even tag this new au #greek myth au #tissaia de vries #margarita laux-antille #yes yes i just need an excuse to draw dudessaia again whats about it #honestly even when i give him muscles he's still that mix between depressed botany professor and slutty twink #troiings #gave us biscuit crumbs #like if you have a work persona. reblog if your work persona differs so much from your real person you change your goddamn gender for it #also #gent!tissaia #i guess

[mitamicah]

Sort of a sequal to this drawing (x) this time with yellow wig + daisies :3

#it started out as me taking a break from “serious” art to catch up on a reference I really wanted to draw #and suddenly I could just see this working with the flowers x'D #fun fact: I had wanted to make this a series for a while and my original idea was different coloured boleros #I guess it still can be but we could also go for “just” kä looks in different colours :3 #be it rainbow #or - here me out: the käärijägenderflag :3 #I am done babbling in the tags again x'D #almost :'D #I wasn't sure if it would be fair to submit this so close after the collab #but it seemed to already have died out a bit with the collab so here's my sketch for you x'D #maybe-maybe not you like it x'D #jere pöyhönen #käärijä #mine #my own art

[mrs-gauche]

...and also the only time that Solas of all people, is completely speechless, for once at a loss for words in response to an irrefutable argument.

Throughout the whole game (with a few exceptions in which he actually admits to having misjudged), whenever you get the chance to debate him on something you do not agree on, Solas, Mr “I’m a trillion years old, you know nothing, so listen carefully” will practically verbally jiu-jitsu you for every possible argument you might have, like, he’s an absolute master at playing Ace Attorney refuting any of your points, much like playing mind chess with Iron Bull, there is no chance to win an argument with Solas if he’s determined to have you recognize the flaw in your logic or at least understand his perspective, making you feel like this gif at the end of every debate.

But when Lavellan says “I would have had you trust me”, finally, there is no counter argument, no clever comeback, no objection... He has nothing. Because Lavellan is right and he knows. There’s just silence until he turns around and continues with the rest of the dialogue. And I think it’s interesting how this is kinda the culmination of all the little hints throughout the whole game at his ingrained distrust, leading up to this moment.

“An enemy can attack you, but only an ally can betray you. Betrayal is always worse.”

"The next time you have to mourn, you don't need to be alone." “It’s been so long since I could trust someone.”

“That’s when you should lean on your friends.” “Apologies, Inquisitor. I have learned not to do that.”

“I’ll rely on those I trust.” "You think to share your power, to avoid the temptation to misuse it. A noble sentiment... but, ultimately, a mistake." (...) "Because while one selfless man may walk away from the lure of power's corruption... no group has ever done so."

“You created a powerful organization, and now it suffers the inevitable fate of such. Betrayal and corruption.”

"I trust my friends." "I know that mistake well enough to carve the angles of her face from memory."

“She was betrayed as I was betrayed. As the world was betrayed!” - Flemeth about Mythal

You get the sense that him witnessing Mythal being betrayed and murdered by the Evanuris was probably the catalyst for his immense trust issues, so much so that it still has that big of an impact on him centuries later. And of course it has, when 1) it was this batrayal and power corruption that set everything in motion, it almost lead to the end of the entire world, which in turn lead to the creation of the Veil and finally the loss of his world and his people, 2) he has spent the last 1000 years walking the Fade, having to look at the ever present Black City in its center - their prison - as a constant reminder of what happened. (I know it’s not confirmed yet, but come on! 😂)

And then there is Lavellan (or any high approval Inquisitor for that matter) at the end of all this. Who proved him wrong with every action throughout DAI. Who has shown wisdom in their decisions and that the power they were given mustn’t corrupt them. That there is no reason for him not to trust them. And yet, he simply can’t, because the past still haunts him and centuries of history have taught him otherwise (and like a bunch of other reasons for him to not tell Lavellan the truth in that moment in Crestwood, but that’s beside the point here lol). 

And then at the end of Trespasser, Lavellan finally throws it straight to his face, and while he could pull any of the excuses listed above, he simply can’t refute them anymore. Look at his expression as he just looks at them in response, at first still frowning for a second, as if he’s still about to argue them again, but then suddenly shifting into sorrow, slightly shaking his head in defeat. “I got nothing.” Solas, who easily managed to own you in any debate prior to this, is all out of arguments. It’s the final argument and the Inquisitor won.

(Well, technically, it even happens twice in this final conversation, if we’re counting Solas’ internal debate with himself. lol)

"We aren't even people to you." "Not at first. You showed me that I was wrong."

But going back to his distrust, it surely can’t be a coincidence that this whole issue was also topic in a recent interview with DA4′s Creative Director, talking about what defines a hero.

I’ve talked about this numerous times now, like here, here or here, but what it all comes down to is basically just one more penny for the “Solas needs to learn how to trust again in order to be saved from himself” jar. lol

“We will save our friend from himself… if we can.”

Like. It’s literally his name. Pride. Saving Solas from himself does quite literally mean to strip him off his name and the belief that, to quote John Epler again, “only he has the answers, that he is the only one who can solve this” and to accept the help of others. Which is why he has to get a new name by the end of all this. I’m dying on that hill. 😂

#solas #trespasser #solavellan #that's my read on the whole thing anyway lol #I love this little moment so much #and his facial expression tells you everything #I wonder if we'll get a moment like this in DA4 #''I would treasure the chance to be wrong once again my friend'' #if we finally manage to prove him wrong once and for all #I would love the DA4 protag to be like ''Checkmate'' #and Solas to acknowledge it respectfully #having to swallow his own pride #that's kinda my dream outcome I guess 😂 #audio #language comparison #the biggest problem in all of this is just that.. Solas is quite literally the only one who's able to save his people (for now at least) #it's very much the ''Mordin Solus sentiment'' in ME3 in that he's like ''Has to be me. Someone else might get it wrong.'' #which just so happens to be also written by Patrick Weekes lmao #like Solas IS the one who created the Veil so to him it's also his responsibility now to fix it again #like he's literally the only one with the knowledge AND the power to do this so.. no wonder he's trusting no one but himself lol

[hauntedhayderide]

Found some nice pencil brushes for csp so decided to do rendering practice while watching some let’s plays. Death Mark fandom I am new here please take my humble offering 🙇‍♂️

#couldn’t pick which version I liked more so I have both on here #definitely could’ve pushed the high lights more on the colored version #but I had already spent so much time fussing with it that I decided to let it be #also I feel like I didn’t do Mashita justice but decided to include him anyways #guess that means I just gotta draw them more lol #yashiki is super fun to draw tho so I probably will draw him again at least #I gave him more facial hair for my own personal enrichment lmao #truly a wet cat of a man #currently almost done watching a LP for NG but I’m considering buying the sequel tbh it scratches a particular itch for me #illustration #death mark #kazuo yashiki #satoru mashita #hauntedartride

[leafie-draws]

it sucks how even if u have someone blocked on here you can still see their posts being reblogged by others like I keep seeing my abusive ex friend's art everywhere and it sucks! AAAAAAAAAAA

#leafie speaks #personal #like they're a pretty popular artist now so i guess it's to be expected but ugh #after knowing them on a personal level it's hard to see past the awful stuff and I can't even say who they are for my own safety like hhhhh #I just don't want to be reminded of that stuff ugh #*angry barking* #vent #AND tbh this shit happened like 10 years ago so they might be a better person now who knows idk I at least hope so #it doesn't change what they did to me and others #manipulating someone and pretending to be their friend in order to be mutuals with someone is incredibly messed up #and then copying/stealing their art and blocking them like??? #idk.. I just hope that me and the other people they've hurt can heal and learn to trust again. being an artist is hard enough.

[fantasticalleigh]

🖤🖤🖤🖤Another one for The Education of a Lady 🖤🖤🖤🖤

used this Pin as a reference

#fantasticalleigh's art #fantasticalleighs art #dramione #dramione art #dramione fanart #dark dramione #draco malfoy #hermione granger #artists on tumblr #illustrators on tumblr #shoutout to that one shithead who once left a review on this fic saying my art is terrible and that i shouldn't bother sharing it #guess what bitch: the point is to keep doing it in order to get better that's how it works #i was proud of my work at the time just like i'm proud of this one now #i sincerely hope you don't go talking to other artists that way bc not everyone is going to be able to take a comment like that well #so fuck you and sorry for my followers who see this in the tags and go wtf? #but that's actually one of the comments that have really bothered me and i do actually think about it a lot #so whoever that anon was: i've gotten better (not that i need to prove it to anyone) #and i hope you go suck a wet fart out of your own asshole before you comment some shit like that ever again

[lord-squiggletits]

Speaking of Tyrest. A lot of people forget that he treated Pharma with absolute disdain, not only using him as a test subject for a clearly painful mass murder machine, but talking to Pharma like he saw him as nothing but some henchman to order around that was nothing more than a 'diseased cripple' if Tyrest hadn't come to rescue him.

Like it really is an interesting background dynamic with some curious implications, but when you look at fandom posts from around that issue/the years after, for some reason people just saw "Pharma worked with Tyrest" and concluded Pharma is a card carrying bigot ksjfnskxkd. Like yeah Pharma didn't do anything to stop Tyrest but it seems his main beef with the Autobots was with Ratchet in particular and maybe a general disdain for his ex-comrades. As well as continuing to hate Decepticons which like, not even the "good Autobots" are immune to (even in Pharma's introduction, First Aid says in his journal something like "yeah we all hate Decepticons, but Pharma REALLY hates them"). And despite what fandom likes to construe there's really no evidence in IDW1 that Autobots and Decepticons are different "races" or "types" of Cybertronians, so Pharma hating Decepticons really isn't a bigotry/robot racism thing. And instead probably has something to do with, idk, the 4 million year long galaxy-spanning blood feud war, or maybe being blackmailed and tortured into insanity by the Biggest and Most Decepticon-y of Decepticons.

Tyrest treated Pharma like trash, the other Decepticons working for Tyrest (how come no one ever brings that up btw) also hated him, so if anything it seems that Pharma was more of a rogue element only staying with Tyrest bc he was his best option and probably had no way to even escape.

I'm glad that at least in recent years the fandom has acquired a keen reading eye and good taste to finally recognize Pharma as the (accidentally) complex character he is instead of making him some posh, racist Starscream clone SHSJDGSGDH

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #yeah i'm apologisting again i guess my mental health is somewhat okay again dkdkkxckkddkd #(my followers seeing me post about pharma) nature is healing #there's also that line where pharma says 'maybe i can help' and skids is like #'fuck off and hope we don't beat you to death after this is over' #they didnt know that pharma was a test subject of the killswitch but wow #that's prolly one of the most out of pocket moments of the story that ive never seen anyone mention #honestly that moment is why i think JRO didnt intend pharma to be That Deep #i feel like that sort of 'not even other autobots like him' treatment is something #that comes up a lot in JRO's villain writing. or like asshole behavior towards some characters #is just plot events proceeding as usual. nothing to see just villains getting their due #tho tbh pharma's character in general suffers from the problem that he's so closely related to a main/major characyer #that it wouldve made way more sense for him to be written in earlier #so all his connections w/ ratchet and the plot had to be established retroactively #also speaking of 'asshole behavior excused bc it's towards a villain' #all those times when people are like (fucking amazing piece of medical research by pharma) #'then he started murdering his patients. what a piece of shit' #like idk it could have been intentional but imo all my readings of pharma were not really intended by JRO #and i'm fully just headcanoning and constructing theories on my own #like pharma was simply not important enough or a major enough character to get fleshed ojt #so basically we get enough pieces of him to establish continuity and a general timeline of his life and thats all

[tianshiisdead]

im happy my post is garnering discussion but honestly i wasnt around for 2018-2021 fandom on tumblr and i was mainly talking about how its kind of silly to get mad at people for portraying colonizer countries as mean, or calling it demonization and stuff. like its okay not to like personally portraying ur fav characters as mean or part of the state, but getting irritated at the fact that it exists or is popular imo kind of misses the fact that this… is the state and nation personification fandom. and its hard to say its not canon when canon did once portray the characters in uniform and at times involved in their state activities… like the early strips discussing western imperialism in china is literally ‘china being bullied by the allies’ ‘france wanting to grope china’ ‘china being treated like a maid’ etc etc like they were very much. the state LOL also china and japan’s canon relationship, as much as I have my issues with it, has an entire thing about china being stabbed by japan… i do feel like hetalia started out as a history nerd’s history exploration that blended humour with ‘what i find cute’ with satire etc etc, which inevitably involves illustrating the personifications as vessels of state and culture, and although the modern strips have deviated quite a bit… well, different people will approach this series for different reasons, right? Whether its serious or comedic content showing the characters as mean or imperialist or unpleasant, it’s not something that deviates too far from canon (if we take all canon eras into consideration) nor is it surprising given how history laden the topic is.

#diary #hetalia #hater tag #also have some issues with some things being called drama… #like i know some of u think of me and some others as drama stirring little devils #honestly i dont enjoy drama that much but ill become upset when i see things that i see as racist or insensitive… #because im of the opinion that this fandom requires extra sensitivity given the subject matter. #let people have fun #but #also be careful yk? i guess for me personally im always trying to be careful #when im out of my depth i try to talk to ppl with better understanding while doing my own research #and if ive written or expressed antyhing bad (which i certainly have even on this blog many times before) #i try to change my stances with new info… and like #this is important to me and its important for me to read ppls thoughts bc. #i know what its like to be treated racistly and dismissed. or to have things and history precious to me twisted #but anyways rambling aside… i guess what i want to say is i understand it seems annoying but #if you post something insensitive… and someone gets upset… then thats just how it is. hetalia is sensitive #again ive definitely posted bad insensitive things. ive been told im acting out of line. #and it sucks. but… sometimes you have to understand ur own irritation doesnt outweigh the hurt #and listen a little #sometimes i like things that i then find are insensitive or cruel. and id rather not engage with it than dismiss peoples hurt… or something #honestly i keep most of my whining private i promise JLKFHDJGLKFH BC FOR THE MOST PART I THINK I CAN TELL THE DIFF BETWEEN #when i have a real issue and when im just nitpicking #so i keep my more petty whining or basic stuff private #but if i see something egregious then i dont want to be quiet #and if a friend of mine (esp if theyre a kid) is upset or hurt by racism I dont want to be quiet

[ryssbelle]

My cousins made their own troll Ocs and I drew them in my style.

They were very excited about it

#my art #not my art #both #trolls #dreamworks trolls #they had a lot of fun making these #i actually really love the color palette for princess i think my cpusin did a very good job on that #claw is something else #he is a unicorn troll #neon green was an interesting choice but hey claw is an interesting guy #is it obvious idk how to draw country trolls lmao #ever since i told them i also liked trolls we have had our own little club #im their person who they can talk to about it #they will also just sit and ask me to draw tiny diamond and guy diamond over and over and over and over and over again #they really like tiny diamond #but hey i love those little guys so i draw the trolls they demand of me #they also asked me to draw poppy and branch so they could color them #i still have to finish my viva coloring page for them #the younger of the two who made princess is really good at color picking and color matching #she colored poppy without a ref and its p accurate to her colors #the older one who made claw used the ref for every color but he got pretty close when he tried to guess #the older one also misunderstood me when i said id been practicing art since i was 5 and thought i was this good since i was 5 #he was very depressed for about 15 minutes #it was really funny but dw i assured him that was not the case #but like for those 15 min he did not believe me #even his sister was like 'nono you didnt hear it right' but he was already in the emo zone #he was fine later tho and continued on making his troll #and also proud teacher moment but i had taught princesses creator some art techniques off handedly #not expecting her to remember any of it but then she did and apparent shes been using it ever since #im like omg i actually taught another human bsing something its insane

[problemcore]

been real cloudy here, without any rain

#halfway thru this i realized i was drawing myself and not gumi and i had to take a moment and re-gumi-fy the drawing #cant help being a gumi kinnie i guess U_U #dnoodles #vocaloid #i guess? idk i dont think a lot of people will reblog this. i actually kinda hope not. #hello dear followers #yea wow i have um. not been drawing at all lately. #not even simple doodles. i couldnt even pick up a pen. #so i sat down. turned on my favorite music. and drew what i wanted. #not what i wanted to see as the result #but what i wanted to let out of my system. #i dont really care if this looks good or bad. i dont care how messy the lines are. i dont care about the colors or the background #i just wanted to have a good time drawing again. and have a good time i did :) #i have a big drawing ahead of me i need to do. that i Want to do. #im scared of it not turning out good. especially since its for a friend. especially since im being paid for it. #but. im gonna let myself enjoy it. sink into the feeling and let the pen move on its own. indulge in the joy of creation. #i missed art. i missed posting. #sometimes i think about how i was able to crank out so many drawings in high school. #not without extreme determent to my grades of course. but still. i was drawing So Much. and i utterly loved it. #i still wish i could go back to that. perhaps i will. perhaps i wont. #but i want to let that wish go away. and. i guess. start a new chapter. #reinvent my relationship with art. #its going to be bad. its going to be messy. its going to hurt your eyes. and its going to be fun. #WOW okay that was an essay. thank you for reading. #im gonna go eat something and. actually get back to drawing. hehe

[number1mongrel]

#dont mind me just sharing my own tweets again #gilgamesh #fate grand order #fgo #fsn #gil bby #fate meta #?? i guess??