i think out of the classic halloween monsters i like vampires the least, they just are “eh ok” to me
this is fucking hilarious
El Mãnana by Gorillaz
It’s Raining, Sweetheart by zeebo
i am grieving. it is the ache of something deep in my heart, to know what i have lost—there is a child, dead, and it wears my face and holds my aspirations in its cold little hands.
(the child does not startle at the sound of gunshots; it believes and believes and believes endlessly in what it can see and what it cannot. it leaves the keys in the locks of its heart and thinks there is nothing but goodness in the world. the child is dead now.)
there was a dagger through the child’s heart, and i bear the scar. i am not a survivor. i am something created in the wake of the death—molded and fired in an oven that grows ever hotter, and i fear in time i will become brittle and shatter away to nothing. i cannot harden my heart for fear of it breaking.
Listening to the Kevin smith interview again gerard is like yeah I had a huge change in my life when I turned 16 I just like changed a lot i don’t know why. No reason. And then later he tells the story about having a near death experience getting held execution style at gunpoint at age 15. Like yeah gerard I wonder why
Almost became dramaturg for a show that in its first 10 pages espoused a eugenicist talking point (saying that it would be “a strain on resources” to have a child with down syndrome) and I’m not sure if it was in a critical manner so dodged a bullet. Then again the play I am currently dramaturging is about the Sandy Hook shooting and has a questionable scene where they say that the shooter just fell down the wrong path and while an actor walks out in rage over it it’s not explicitly challenged either so um…yeah
Just found out someone was seemingly randomly shot in his car multiple times directly in front of my workplace (like right in front of the front doors) and I’m having a massive anxiety attack about it right now
Apparently my anger towards Trump has become so great that’s it’s started showing up in my dreams.
Basically part of my dream last night
Trump was going to shoot someone - unsure who - but I had superpowers so I was able to get them to fire towards the ceiling and then get the gun from them
Then I shot Trump and became the new president
(was so much more to this dream but that parts going to stick with me forever)
I looked up guns dream dictionary on Google and here’s an interesting section of it
To dream that you shoot someone with a gun denotes your aggressive feeling and hidden anger toward that particular person. You may be trying to blame them for something.
Update: I just looked up president cause I was curious and got this which is accurate
If you dream that you are the president, then it represents your high level of self-confidence. You believe that you can do a better job if you were in charge of things.
A goldfish could do a better job
Can we like not have shootings at the mall? It’s covid, it’s october, now is just really a good time to like not.