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mattodore · 2 months

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a little update on what i've been doing in the sims lately! don't mind the huge walls of text for once i'm saying things in the post instead of the tags lmao

matthias's scars are very slowly coming along! i really love his left leg scar but can't really show all of it because i'd have to get him naked for that and it also wraps around his leg. um, but it starts at the side of his hip and carves down at an angle before abruptly following a steep line to the back of his calf. it looks gnarly which is exactly what i'm trying to achieve with matthias's scars! i'm also pretty pleased with the scars on his wrists and side, but the scar he has on the back of his right leg is... a little too crunchy? i don't know, it just looks weird. it's kind of hard to get the scars i'm making to look good on matthias's body. especially scars that're smaller or delicate... like the instant loss of quality makes me want to chew on exposed wires. but that's where i've left off on them! his arms and back are where he has the most damage but my god... it's SO difficult trying to get scars to look nice over his biceps and back muscles. also the hair ties i made for him look nice on his wrist <3

theo's apartment is also finally in the works. i've got the base layout finished and a general idea of what all the rooms are for. building and decorating isn't actually that daunting to me, surprisingly—instead, what's actually causing me a lot of grief is the realization that this is too big for theo to really be comfortable in. so, i was thinking, okay, that's fine, just get rid of three of the rooms and scale down the living area. only to pause and take into account the fact that theo's parents pay for this. they're controlling and also very big on appearance so i'm not sure they'd be fine with their son living in a shoebox—i mean, what would people say if word got to them that he doesn't even have a walk-in closet? like... that's the kind of people they are. but i wanted theo to feel comfortable in his apartment so now i'm feeling conflicted on how i want it to look. i'm definitely going to scale down the bedrooms and the living area... but it'll still feel too big to theo. there are just too many corners for him to ever fully let his guard down... which, hm... well, maybe that fits the story more anyway.

this is his general aesthetic for the interior btw... i want it to be brown, cream, and green all throughout the apartment with splashes of orange (this mix between his old dorm and his childhood home but with something new blending it together). i really wanted him to have stained glass windows in his kitchen and bathroom but couldn't find any </3 so sadly that's not happening. and i need to find a nice curio cabinet for his collection of bells... along with bells too lmao. but that's where i'm at so far! i'm seriously going to just sit here in build mode for hours just... trying to figure out how to make this place more comfortable for theo. like it's supposed to be where he feels safe but it's just too much rn.

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #also if anyone has any tips on getting scars or other skin details to look good let me know please...#i'd love to try projection painting again but my laptop is too slow and i can't get opengl to function on my desktop </3 #like i get an error every time i try to open matthias's .obj and even reddit is failing me on a fix for it <///3 #and okayyy theo's apartment!! i'm so torn up abt it now #but does his bed not look super fucking comfortable...#i might have to change his bed to that queen bed in the guest room just because the one in theo's room is... interestingly colored.#i'm going to recolor it to just plain white/cream sheets... and maybe mess with the mesh a bit. really i should test the bed in game #bc i'm not sure it'll work very well...#i wanted theo to have a wooden headboard but all of the ones i had like that just didn't look like he could nestle into them #he's just. a little guy. if i can't picture theo curling up in the center of the bed then it just won't work #but yeah. that’s my update ☝️#........i'm super excited to start on the home matthias buys shortly after he starts falling in love with theo btw #the floor plan in my head is so beautiful and it's all very open... bc <3 matthias was thinking abt putting theo in his home from the jump #long post

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corvid-feathers · 3 months

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Me looking into the Hazbin Hotel fandom is like the "Why do I hear boss music?" Meme. Like I like Hazbin Hotel, but some of the people here seem obsessed with saying it has no flaws.

I like the show, it IS flawed and that's fine. I don't care if it's well written or not, I just wanna watch silly cartoon demons man. I have a stupid sense of humor and the constant swearing is really entertaining for me, but I can see how not many people actually talk like that

But damn looking into the fandom was kinda ehhhhhh. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of good people in the fandom. This post is just talking about the stuff that kinda concerned me.

Like I've seen people get harassed for redesigning the characters and uhhh....there's nothing wrong with that? Let them live???

Also please stop shipping Alastor with everyone, he is canonically aroace, it's been mentioned by the creator's multiple times

and you know it's ok to not like a show, just please guys. Don't flood someone's inbox if they don't like the show, it's their opinion. It is ok to have a different opinion.

My rant is over, shoutout to the fans who don't do any of the stuff I just rambled about

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the-gene-mile · 7 months

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rewatched the premier definitely super legally and just look at them

#these tags get. very rambly. so expand at ur own risk i'm just kinda yelling here #bob's burgers #ur insane if u think i'm tagging every character #i HAVE to draw gene in this outfit proper u don't get it i just love when they let him go full music man #this premier made me clinically insane i don't think u understand they're consuming my thoughts like brain eating amoeba #catastrophic autism levels rn #god rest the poor souls at uni that'll ask how my weekend was #genuinely surprised they managed to get jjr. zeke. rudy. marshmallow. AND fischoeder in the premier #like they got ALL our fav little guys in here huh #no courtney or alex tho i'm fine. no it's fine that's fine #love how gene just started lying down at some point #lil bro did NOT care abt the chores he was invested in the narrative #there were some rly great bits in this ep too #gene just being dramatic. 'hey guys look at pepperoni the pony'. every time fischoeder was on screen #v strong premier i am clearly very normal abt it #ngl i just made this post to archive all these screenshots for myself bc i love the costumes here

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homeless202 · 6 months

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I’m new here and I absolutely love your type of blogs with analysis and meta and long texts~~

I was wondering—is Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship the kind that could be interpreted as romantic?

first of all, welcome and ty! and sorry it took me so long to reply, i hope u're still around anon. now to answer ur question

i'll take this opportunity to share all my thoughts on the topic bc i have Many.

TLDR: it is possible to read it as romantic if you really want to, but it's not meant to (at least not as of right now in the story aka ch.224)

deep dive under the cut as to why

-> can Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship be interpreted as romantic?

i like how you phrased that bc, the thing is, interpretation is very subjective. you're welcome and allowed to interpret things however you want, but in EY&HJ's case, i feel like you'd have to work a lil extra hard to get to that point.

-> is Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship meant to be interpreted as romantic?

this one's easy bc no. objectively Not. the genre of No Home is drama and slice of life (and once upon a time, horror). even if they were to ever end up in a romantic relationship, that's not what the story is about.

when i ask myself what the author's intention is with this story, i'd say it's to (realistically) portray how a young person with trauma would navigate another young person's trauma. and showing how easy it is to unintentionally fuck it up for various reasons: lacking context as to what exactly said trauma is, generally not knowing how to navigate it, their own trauma getting in the way, lacking the necessary resources. take your pick.

think of it like "how should i carry someone else's baggage when i have my own to deal with?" while also keeping in mind they're kids; they often don't have enough experience to know how to help, and even when they know what the right thing to do is, they're not old enough to take (legal) action.

and especially, the most heart-breaking yet realistic thing, when you're just getting to know someone, you can't know everything about them. it's so easy to accidentally do or say sth that cuts or offends when it wasn't meant to. but when they've got their own issues, it's hard not to take it personally (eg. EY talking about HJ's parents without knowing his mom died not long ago in the beginning of the story).

-> what even is Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship??

this one's so funny bc i have no idea how to answer and i'm convinced not even EY and HJ themselves would know how to answer. they're not really friends; they got off on the wrong foot and kept walking with two left feet way too much to call themselves friends. the things that pushed them together the most were the dorms (not anymore) and the same friend group (more or less since EY has multiple).

what fits them best i'd say is "the universe forced us together against our will and now we're stuck with one another altho we hate each other" (<- at least in the beginning) extended with the "misery loves company" sentiment. finding comfort in someone who gets it, even tho they only kinda get it but not really but it works out anyway except it doesn't <- THERE'S NO NAME FOR THAT *cry* they invented a new type of character dynamic smh (i've never read a pairing with so much (romantic) potential only to see them completely fuck up their chance so royally by the end of their interaction EVERY SINGLE TIME. like yeah, enemies to lovers whatever BUT NOT TO THAT LEVEL HOLY SHIT)

they've changed each other, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. they're compatible in the way they understand each other on a deeper level and incompatible in the way they don't.

...however...

this is how HJ thinks of EY: (and also what No Home is truly abt)

and this is how EY feels about HJ after EY found out HJ used to steal as well (aka that HJ isn't perfect like the stuck up bitch EY thought he was at first):

so...

<- -> EY's first impression of HJ was that he was looking down on him and sth like "does this guy have ulterior motives? or is he just that naive being so trusting?" until EY found out HJ wasn't that different from him. after that, EY started admiring HJ for still managing to achieve things in life despite the hardships he had to go through. the type of admiration that can easily (and sometimes does) slip into envy.

since the beginning, EY has helped HJ (or at least tried to) without him knowing. sometimes it worked out, sometimes not. most times EY tried doing sth nice for HJ was (from EY's perspective) in return to HJ trying to help him or doing nice things for him (which, again, sometimes worked out, sometimes not). EY was just paying back a debt to "this stubborn naive guy who keeps getting into trouble and butting into his business. gotta look out for this idiot or he might get scammed." (<- eg. when EY offered to get HJ's money back from his uncle)

he doesn't do it for credit or friendship or out of obligation, he's just doing what he thinks is the right thing bc he doesn't want to owe anyone anything. he can't accept people just genuinely being kind, genuinely caring and genuinely wanting to help. but he's been learning and slowly coming to terms with it.

<- -> HJ first wanted to try befriending EY despite not liking him bc, well, the guy did steal his wallet and stab him in their first interaction. after trying and failing at it multiple times, thanksgiving happened, and HJ started thinking of EY as his underclassman bc he realized EY's just a kid with issues and he should keep an eye on him (discretely bc EY hates pity).

with time HJ has come to understand EY better by going after him whenever he ran off and slowly realized that EY does mean well and has his reasons (as fucked up as they might be sometimes). but his mentality abt EY is still "i gotta push him in the right direction cuz he's my underclassman and i unintentionally got attached to him (somehow??)" (also bc he knows EY already gave up on himself so he needs a lil help to find his way again. also also bc he knows EY is lowkey suicidal and he's scared it'll be his fault if sth happens) <- his care for EY comes from a protective/nurturing (/possibly maybe guilty) place which started when he realized EY was just a kid^^. in other words, HJ still bothers with EY out of a subconscious sense of responsibility/obligation in a way (a good way tho. or at least a way that gets better)

see, sth i struggle with is if HJ thinks he has to or wants to or thinks he should or can't just not help/care for EY. i can't exactly pinpoint where the sentiment is coming from. his face is too blank for me to read sometimes T_T

to summarize: HJ is EY's goal, what EY wishes he could've been. and EY is HJ's 'responsibility' so to speak (bc 'burden' doesn't quite fit since HJ is there for EY willingly) -> EY has a positive opinion of HJ while HJ has a neutral opinion of EY (which is also gradually getting better)

note1: i think HJ's intention (maybe subconsciously) was to be to EY what HJ's upperclassman was to him. aka someone who's there when you need it and can help guide you. it would explain why HJ kept chasing after EY despite not really having a reason to and EY repeatedly rejecting HJ's care/help.

note2: i also believe the 'upper-under-classman' relationship dynamic fits them the best atm bc it also matches the way the story often singles EY out as he's the only second year (aka younger) of the 6 MCs.

-> Romance in No Home?

another thing i should mention is that No Home rarely leaves things open for interpretation. the deepest arguments EY&HJ had were always spelled out for us, to make us understand exactly what the problem was, and how there isn't a good guy and a bad guy. it's just two people with issuesTM.

from what we've seen in the story up to this point, i couldn't pick out a moment where i'd go "here! that's romantic! that's the moment they realized SomeThing!" yk

when it comes to romance specifically, i feel like a handful of opportunities were missed. there are scenes which could've easily been written trough a rosy lens but simply weren't.

exhibit A:

HJ was speechless bc "wow this mf really is actively picking a fight with an authority figure. i gotta make sure things don't escalate" not bc "hoLY sHiT hE's PreTTy. all his fangirls are on to something". however, this only becomes more clear when you keep reading the next few chapters, so i understand how you could interpret it as the latter.

exhibit B:

here they got so close and the moment was so deep bc "woaa he said he believes me. no one's said to me that before!". unfortunately, EY was panicking too much for it to mean something bc of the guilt he felt for HJ trusting someone so undeserving of trust like EY.

exhibit C:

this is maybe the closest we got to romantic between these two. i think this might be the only (or at least first) ever deep interaction between them that didn't end in a fight or misunderstanding. is it meant to be romantic tho? -> ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-> what do i think?

first, full transparency: i went into reading this story fully expecting it to be a BL and for EY&HJ to end up together. but the more i kept on reading, the more i got the ick thinking about them being in a (romantic) relationship bc, at least from what we've seen so far in the story, their relationship would be so ToxicTM (which i personally don't enjoy reading).

as they are right now, i wouldn't want them to be together like that. like, honestly, you still can't really consider these two even friends; they just tolerate each other if the stars align correctly (altho, i'll admit, their relationship is gradually getting better!!). every big argument they had i thought "god, there's no coming back from that. i'd cut ties so quickly if was them wtf". i still don't know how they managed to keep on interacting, props to them ig.

there's a lot of unresolved issues between them. and a lot of resentment which would not bode well in a romantic relationship. the smallest argument would turn explosive and they'd be, at best, in an on&off type of relationship. they both have the power to break the other and neither would be afraid to use it. they have a lot of history together, which is not always pleasant, so if they ever were to go the romantic route, it would have to be a long way to go.

technically, i could see them in a romantic relationship if they both went to therapy first and talked out all the baggage they're carrying (both individual and shared). realistically tho, what i think will happen at the end of No Home is that either they never cross paths again after high school ends (which would absolutely break my heart Wanan pls don't), or they somehow (unintentionally) end up living together bc they both desperately needed a roommate to pay rent (which would be a hilarious fucking gag LMAO). just, HJ going to uni/work and EY doing his own thing (prolly an actor) while still cohabiting together; hanging out to watch a movie before bed <- (whether platonic or romantic being left up for interpretation)

<- -> in conclusion, from what we've seen up to this point, their relationship is mainly upper-under-classman; reluctant (maybe) friends who tolerate each other but also care (too) deeply. they've changed each other, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. in some ways they're compatible and in others they're not.

all this being said, their relationship is improving and romance between EY&HJ is not impossible, just rather unlikely imo. but, again, interpretation is subjective and u're welcome to read their relationship however you want.

#ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU ARE DELULU ENOUGH!! THAT'S HOW SHIPPING WORKS IN GENERAL. IN EVERY FANDOM.#anon. this shit fried my head. it 3.30am and my brain is not braining anymore. i love analyzing these two but goddamn is it HARD.#THERE'S SO MUCH NUANCE TO EVERY INTERACTION THEY HAVE *cry*#life's been hectic and this question demanded i sit down in 7 different sittings to get everything written down. hence why it took me a bit #i tried to write down all my thoughts and i don't think i managed. but i hope what i have here makes sense.#and i also hope i actually answered ur question. i feel like i got side-tracked and possibly missed the target.#no home #no home manhwa #eunyung baek #haejoon goh #ey hj parallels #meta #집이 없어 #webtoon #god u guys have no idea how many times while reading i was like 'omg they're gonna kiss omg pls do'#only to keep reading and going like 'hoLY FUCK PLS DO *NOT*!! get away from him omfg!!'#the whiplash was fucking unreal. i remember honest to god SOBBING at 4am every time they fought <- that first time read was rough #also! if you agree/disagree/want to correct me or just talk about the topic i'm open to discussion/criticism. (just pls be nice abt it ><)#my ask box is open <3

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softquietsteadylove · 2 months

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there can't be enough thenamesh reunion fics!

may i ask for more?

Gilgamesh yanked the Warrior back by the shoulder. She tried to regain her balance but he slammed his fist against her head, creating a gust strong enough to rattle the ship windows. She went down softly.

"Oi!" The Mind Reader was quick to respond to his fallen comrade. They all had a sense of togetherness that Gilgamesh admitted he found absent within his own team (himself, the Soaring Eternal and their Prime).

Ikaris took advantage of the team's sense of protectiveness. He grasped the Speedster's armour collar with his hand, using her as a shield against the puppeteer. He fired his eyes into the dark haired one's armour, sending him through the wall. Then, the Speedster was nothing but a burden.

Gilgamesh winced as she was thrown headfirst to the ground. Ikaris wasn't stronger than him - he knew that for a fact - but he certainly acted more brutally.

"Come on," he muttered in his accent, dragging the body of the Speedster behind him as he floated over to retrieve the Mind Reader as well.

Gilgamesh stared down at the Warrior Eternal. Her body was also limp, but he could feel the Cosmic Energy thrumming within her veins. He could practically feel the rhythm of her heart, if he let himself imagine it. He didn't know what made them so different, according to Arishem.

"You want a hand with 'er or what?" Ikaris snarled at him, piling both of his catches under his arms to bring back to Ajak at the helm of the ship. He was probably just going to sling her over his shoulder, or worse, drag her.

"Go ahead," Gilgamesh grumbled, kneeling down to her. She was his defeat, and his responsibility. Ikaris floated ahead, even banging the Mind Reader's head against the door frame in his lack of care.

Her face looked so peaceful.

Gilgamesh caught himself trying to move her hair away from her face before sighing. He slipped one hand under her arm and shoulders, and the other under her knees. She folded into his grasp so easily he wasn't sure if she weighed anything at all.

"Gil."

He stared down at her, ready for another fight if she was waking again. But as he drew his arms in, all she did was relax against him--him, the enemy. He couldn't imagine why.

But her head rolled to the side, and her tiara even met the cold, hard shell of his chest plate. And yet she had a little smile on her face, as if there were no place she would rather be. He adjusted her a little before making the trip to the head of the ship as well. He did have the courtesy not to smack her head against the door, at least.

She kept calling him Gil.

No one called him that. He didn't even think of himself like that. His name was Gilgamesh, and he was the Strongest Eternal, sent by Arishem to retrieve rogue Eternals who had been tainted by the Deviants of Earth. He had never met this woman before.

But his heart ached in his chest as he carried her.

He felt conflicted fighting her. He had felt awful knocking her out. And he had felt so protective at the thought of Ikaris laying a single hand on her.

"There he is."

Gilgamesh walked in with the Warrior Eternal in his arms. He held her gently, just briefly looking at the other two piled on the floor like litter.

"Well done," Ajak said, observing the difference in technique between him and Ikaris. She waved her glowing hands.

Gilgamesh stepped back slightly as the woman in his arms floated up out of his embrace and upright. The lines of her energy signature formed around her, creating a golden cage in a sense around her.

"These will hold them until we arrive at the World Forge," Ajak clarified as the three bodies floated to their places around the statue of Arishem.

Ikaris joined Ajak again at the front window, discussing their strategy. Those two seemed close but also at odds, in a weird way. Gilgamesh turned away from them, back to the blonde.

She was beautiful.

He wasn't a traitor just for thinking so. He walked closer, looking up at her floating just off the ground. The signature of her Cosmic Energy was weaker, but he could swear he still felt it calling out to him. It was like they were cut from the same cloth.

He reached up, tucking some hair behind her ear and out of his way. It felt familiar, in a terrifying way. Her eyes didn't even flutter. Not that he wanted her to wake up.

Gilgamesh looked back at his teammates, but they were whispering among themselves. They weren't any more concerned with him than he was about them. And that was just fine. They were a team, not some cobbled together family unit.

He looked up at her again. Thena. That name had been pulsing in his head since he saw her. He wasn't sure how; she was the Warrior Eternal, deadly and traitorous. That was all he knew about her. Except her name. And that she had a sweet sounding laugh. It echoed through memories he didn't have.

He hadn't even realised he was reaching up until his fingertips met her cheek. He didn't know what he was doing. He had no explanation for it to himself, much less to his team, let alone the woman herself. Her skin was soft.

It seemed impossible, but he could have sworn to all the stars in the sky that she leaned into his touch, however much she could. He didn't press his palm to her skin. That felt...wrong--like he had no right. Just looking at her felt like a betrayal of some kind. "Thena."

The Warrior's sandy coloured eyelashes fluttered. Maybe she was stronger than Ajak had assumed. She couldn't open her eyes, but he knew they were green (somehow). "Gil."

That name again. It made his whole body burn, like his chest was on fire. He stood back from the Warrior calling for him--someone. He didn't know who she was calling out to, but it wasn't really him.

"Gilgamesh."

He turned towards his Prime, and his fellow Eternal at the window. It seemed so cold over there. He nodded, walking over silently. Only when he was further away did he realise he had been holding the Warrior Eternal's hand.

"Are you prepared to hand them over?" Ajak asked.

He frowned, "why wouldn't I be?"

Ajak was silent, but Ikaris freely scoffed at him, "y'seem awfully soft on the traitor. There's no need for the gentleman routine with faulty scum."

Gilgamesh clenched his fists at his side, but he forced himself to remember his place. "I'm curious, but I'm not confused about the mission."

"Good," Ajak concluded, ending the conversation for both of them.

Ikaris let out one last laugh at him before floating off again. Did he have to fly everywhere just for the sake of it? He could walk just fine.

Gilgamesh tried not to seem like he was watching keenly as Ikaris walked by the prisoners again. Ikaris also looked up at the Warrior Eternal, and Gilgamesh tried not to yell at his teammate to keep his distance from her.

But Ikaris kept moving, and Gilgamesh wasn't eager to admit that his chest loosened. His eyes left the figure of Thena floating limply. He blinked, finding Ajak staring at him. "What?"

She looked back at the Warrior Eternal and then back to him. "You know her."

He shook his head. "We were briefed on all of them. She was a better fighter than I could have imagined. I think that deserves some respect."

Yes, he had respect for his fellow Fighter. She seemed very much his equal, all agility where he was sturdiness. He wanted her to be treated with respect and honour, just like any good warrior.

He wanted her to be handled so delicately a flower would weep with envy.

"I agree," Ajak sufficed to say. She gave him one last look before leaning closer, "keep your mission in mind, Gilgamesh. Whatever the traitors try to whisper in your ear...remember their deception."

"I will," he assured his team leader before she too departed. He stayed at the window, looking into the vast nothingness where eventually the World Forge would come into view. He looked over his shoulder.

It wouldn't be long until he could ask her why she called him Gil.

#Thenamesh AU #thank you so much love!!!#I hope you don't mind #this is a little bit different from some other reunion fics #but I do think this is what it might be like #if we ever get Eternals content ever again please god please anyone I beg of you #Gilgamesh has no idea why he sees this woman #the enemy #and he loves her #he can feel it in his chest every time he throws a punch #he imagines Ikaris grabbing her and throwing her over his shoulder and it makes him want to scream #he says don't fucking touch her!#I mean I'll carry her you go ahead #Gil carries her so gently #when Ajak lets them out of their bindings #Gil catches her before she can hit the floor #Ikaris is like what the fuck is up with this guy #grabs Druig and Makkari again #also I'm so sorry but he would not be gentle with them #Gilgamesh is like I'll carry her #and Sersi will see this and be like Gil #that's our way out of this mess #if we can talk some sense into any of them it's him #Kingo: not your literal ex-husband?#Sersi: no

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bejeweledmp3 · 1 month

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"if anyone asks i could post a sneak peak" me! I'm asking! please do post if you want to, just know that im looking forward very much to the rest of the story, and thinking of it, i just don't want to send you asks about it too often and bother you too much

anon i love you. please come bother me about totp as much as your heart desires. I did struggle with finding something to post because this chapter is a lot more tied together than the last one, in terms of what happens (which i learned by looking through the doc for something that could be understood without giving Too Much away, lmao). anyways, i hope you enjoy this bit!!! i love you muah muah!!!

Ever since that late-night conversation about the paperweight, Tim and her had been making a mutual effort to not ignore the Hawkins-Fuller-shaped shadow that followed them everywhere. It wasn’t a big deal (or more appropriately, they were both trying really hard, in some unspoken agreement, to not treat it like a big deal). She found that the key was treating it less like it was a very important topic for the both of them (which it was) and more like it was a part of their histories that they just so happened to share (which, she supposed, it also was).

Kim would come home and rant about something that had happened to her, and instead of changing topics when she realized that to understand whatever she wanted to say Tim would need context from when she was a child, she would give him said context as best as she could. If that meant talking about Mom’s pointed silences, or Jackson’s eternal mix of camaraderie and cruelty, or, most importantly, her dad’s love that never seemed to come out right, then so be it.

She had to admit, somewhere deep down, that she liked the way Tim would hang onto her every word, as if what she had to say actually meant something to him. When she stood in his kitchen during the late afternoon, talking and pretending she was helping out with dinner, she couldn’t stop the feeling of being a little girl, talking her dad’s ear off after some other kid’s birthday; only that this time what she was saying was being very carefully remembered, a snapshot of a life she couldn’t shake the feeling that Tim had always wanted to know more of. He never asked for her to do it, never demanded more than she was willing to give, but she was sure she wasn’t imagining the way he would light up at her stories, even the less than pleasant ones. Some part of her believed that Tim deserved to know it all, and so she kept telling him things as best as she knew how to.

#totp tag;#i truly do love doing this i can't wait for this chapter to go out #the bit about the bar that i was talking about the other day. u guys it's gonna be Great #i am once again excited about the fic so!!!!!!!!!!!!! can't wait i really can't!!!!!!!!#and i truly do work with validation so. do not be shy about talking to me about totp i mean it when i say that every single piece of #feedback means the world to me #also i am slowly but surely making my way through the ao3 comments i love them all i promise i'm just shy 😭😭😭😭😭#fellow travelers #talking tag;

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orzaika · 2 years

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My friend got me hooked on @exilethegame and I’ve played it so many times just to keep playing my Phoenix commander Emil Ryder :) he is so fucked up and broken and my whole experience has been “how can i make it evident that this poor man has been emptied out and broken beyond repair” and then the author ENABLES ME it’s the best thing i’ve ever encountered

#exile the game #the painted phoenix #my art #artists on tumblr #oc #i love my fucking guy so much #also being able to make him trans? i owe the author my life #he's just so fucked up <3 #and that one line about the commander's mother wondering how long it is until they're completely lost #shoveling this into my mouth #biting and screaming in a good way #he has more scars under his shirt btw i just didn't really include them #also lemme infodump about him a bit okay so he used to be full of life and joked around #but i'm playing him as presently being empty and just wanting to throw himself on a sword #like being able to tell Syfyn that he's tired and to just end it? THANKING HER??#i'm insane. i'm biting him. i'm crying over him #the only thing he's living for at this point is the Main Group and his sister #and that's only until his mission is over (CURRENTLY!!!)#because by god i am going to make this about how life is hard and suffering exists at every corner but you have to keep going anyway #because life- and love- is worth it i'm #biting

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rad-roche · 19 days

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i think the scripting part of comics will come easily to me because Noir Pastiching gets you into the habit of excising absolutely every 'unnecessary' word quote unquote. note i don't say a good habit, but a habit. wow, i'm proud of how this sentence came out. unfortunately, i have to shear off most of it with a surgically applied brick.

#text post #there's a fun story about james ellroy with that #(about the only fun story with him in it)#he had to cut 100 pages from la confidential so instead of removing any subplots #he went through and removed every single word that didn't compromise the actual structure of the sentence #you can love it or hate it but i'll say this: you for sure know when you're reading something that guy wrote #i'm making these posts like i have a big thing planned but it'll all be me playing around for a while #maybe i'll do bits of the fic! why write something. i already writed it

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fourteenthz · 2 months

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I forgot to mention this but I started yakuza 0 and hear me out.

him. and them.

#kelly plays ykz #I can actually be so normal about man.#alright opinions no one asked: i care nishiki. so damn much. this man THIS MAN #I just giggle everytime they are together btw which isn't as often as I was hoping but also I'm just in chapter 3 so I can wait for my mans #Idk shit abt the yakuza games btw. nothing. I've seen older nishiki bc WELL...... I'M NORMAL ABT HIM but that is as far as my knowledge goe #I know a lot abt like a dragon tho like from seeing ppl play but just the first one. anything else is blank #so like if anyone see this pls refrain from spoilers lol I might silence this one too just in case bc I'm aware yakuza can be like.#plot twist heavy. so far I'm just vibing ig but bc of that I find it hard trusting ppl LMAO like alright kamaza seems alright ish so far bu #like I don't trust tachibana (?) and him all that much. I like the guy tho he's edgy and cool so I get that.#I adore kiryu. everytime. he is just so nice. such nice man. I love nice badass protagonists so dearly. every cutscene I go “that's my boy”#and then I get random him and nishiki lore and i'm bitting the walls. I like their relationship a normal amount.#I like brothers relationships an average amount actually. so normal.#I met majima like yesterday and I think I still care kiryu more but he is just like. also. so cool. I'm used to ichiban so like when I saw #him acting like THAT for the sawara (?) man I was like. giggles.#It's funny like sometimes I go “I don't think I'm the target audience for this one...” and other times I'm like #“this scene/character is made for me specifically.”#I'm talking abt nishiki no don't look at me I just like every word that comes out of his mouth I'm always like CHEERING when kiryu #even mentions him. embarassing. idk shit abt him but everything I know is ENOUGH I'll fight for that man and their brotherly relationship.#OVERALL I just. really enjoy the game. I wanted something to play casually and I think I choose well ?? instead of committing too hard #I know i'll surfer a lot down the line bc I'm as emotional as they get but I'm really liking so far. I love beating man on the street.#feeling the effects of masculinity rn and all that. also batamikai ROCKS and if they were brave enough to have a female lead her song shoul #be something like mayonaka no door bc idk why but they have the same energy. yes this comes from me after having one of the most stressed #weeks ever and finally having 1 night of playing yakuza 0 after a month or so of not playing anything. life isn't so bad turns out.#kelly says

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godofsmallthings · 7 months

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ik everything about taylor's place in pop culture is kind of inflated and unprecedented rn but as someone who was too young and then too much of a gaylor to really pay much attention to the like general chatter surrounding her love life when she was single/dating...wow this is so insane like no wonder this girl has a complex

#i'm gonna be deadass not one cell of me cares about whatever is/isn't happening with travis #like if she ever starts seriously dating someone i will start caring bc i like knowing what's going on with her!#but the amount of just constant omg let's hyperanalyze what this guy said on a podcast! let's make hyperbolic assumptions based on every gu #this woman is near! let's circle back to these past flings! let's take these 5 frames of boy language out of context! let's all take the #time to rehash all of kaylor for everyone! let's get in online fights about this celebrity's love life!!#ohhhhhhhh my god like i feel insane #anyway idk how it happened but i have been freed from caring about celebrity relationship gossip a little bit i think #thank fucking god let's hope this lasts #maybe if she had better taste in men i would care more but alas #in my heart she's still dating este haim #vi is typing...

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gxlden-angels · 3 months

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Hey, I just saw your most recent post and am curious about the irrelevant part - what do you mean by the ''religions abstaining from pork because it was unsafe to eat at the time'' thing? I've never heard that before and I am genuinely intrigued to know about it.

Hi !! There's a lot of religious rituals and rules that people continue today out of tradition and respect that were started (or thought to have been started) for safety/health reasons, with one big one being how meat can be handled and what meat is safe to consume! Pork is the main one that I know of since I have some friends that keep kosher or only eat halal meats

Essentially, pigs are honestly pretty gross animals if you let them be. They're opportunistic omnivores, so they'll essentially eat whatever they can get their teeth on. That includes rotting/spoiled food, fecal matter, and even people if they sit still long enough. Pigs can also carry some gnarly diseases that can easily be passed on to people. It's why you'll often hear people refer to them as "unclean" in both a religious and hygienic sense, despite their cleanliness on the outside. You might not know what Trichinella parasites are, but if your cousin shits himself to death after eating porkchops, you're gonna assume that's a sign from someone above not to eat anymore pigs

We now have modern medicine, biologists, food scientists, meat storage/serving regulations, etc. etc. that have made the risk of catching anything from pork less than minimal as long as you store and cook it properly and there hasn't been a new outbreak of something. A lot of people keep the tradition out of respect for their ancestors/culture. A lot of people also keep it because they know that pigs are still kinda gross, even with modern interventions. I've met people that no longer follow pig-based rules at all, while others adjust it so they're only eating pork if they know where it came from and what that pig ate from birth to bacon

Basically, eating a pig before the creation of antibiotics and vaccines was the peak form of fucking around and finding out. Whether you found out because of salmonella or the wrath of every deity out there (or both!) is up to you

#There's some rules that are region specific (gotta have native pigs to have pork)#While others are more widespread (Don't piss off the gods or they'll fuck up your village with lightning)#Things like traditional religious clothes are based on the climate of the region #Meditation and prayer are good for your mental health as a general concept #Of course not every single religious tradition has a purely material purpose #Some are just fun or respectful or reflective #Some give people a higher purpose or goal #But pigs WILL eat you if you let them and well I wouldn't question it either if my local spiritual guide said the Heavens #told them that pigs are unclean unholy and not to be trusted or eaten #I love a good bacon cheeseburger as much as the next guy but you will not know peace after seeing a pig eat Slop #I genuinely love pigs they're very smart and well-behaved lil guys. They just also eat Everything. I cannot emphasize that enough #Like they're extremely clean animals on the outside. They groom themselves fairly often. The main thing is just what they eat #They will eat you. shit you out. then eat the shit you that they just shat #I only eat pork because I know we limit their people and shit-consumption now #I'm exaggerating a bit but just barely #neonsnailcity

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troublcmakcrs · 5 months

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//we're getting places "you're not getting anywh-" WE'RE GETTING PLACES!!!!!!

#vis :: ( craig )#ver :: college ( craig )#mun art #//i've been struggling with him for so long #//and it's bc i wrote myself into a corner on one thread. to say that craig basically hasn't changed hairstyles in like 10 years #//and then eli was like ehhh give him some hair gel #//which i was terrified if doing bc... again... my former hc that said craig did NOTHING with his hair #//BUT I'M SO GLAD I DID IT... IT WAS ONLY ONE THREAD... IT CAN AND SHOULD BE RETCONNED #//the first one was heavily referenced off a picture of jonathan togo #//he's not a perfect 1-to-1 for craig but i like his head shape and slightly droopy eyes #//he's a lil dweeby lookin but still cute 💕#//and the other two were my attempts at loosening him up a bit #//trying to push him towards my cartoonier style so he better matches with tweek #//it is so easy to go BALLS TO THE WALLS with exaggerating tweek's features #//one of my favorite tweek drawings is the final girl comic where their eyes take up like 75% of their face lmfao #//craig is DECEPTIVELY hard to draw bc he is by all accounts Just Some Fucking Guy #//i'm so annoyed bc i cannot draw his hair at the angle that best accentuates his scars #//but whatever we'll suffer thru it every time; labor of love 💖#//accepting that i'm gonna have to suck at drawing craig until i start being really good at drawing craig JDKAJSKAJ #//craig with half his face torn up: no dude i'm good; i've never suffered anything in my life #//i gotta draw him and tweek together; that would help with getting them stylistically consistent #//i also have got to draw craig looking more pissed off wtf is he so happy for? >:(

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kiralejandra · 1 year

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Since one of the careers that Bernard studies is physics these are my headcanons.

-When the finals are approaching, he starts saying the important formulas or concepts out of nowhere. Like he'll be in his apartment, he'll be hugging with Tim on the couch and start reciting the Euler-Lagrange equation, or he's cooking dinner and start reciting the thermodynamics laws.

-Sometimes he will start throwing away scientific facts that he learned in class and found interesting. Like the multiverse or time travel. Tim, even though he has experienced them from first hand and had to know about them to fix some robin situations, he will listen to Bernard with all the love in the world and ask him for more details regardless of whether he already knows them.

-During the exam season Bernard hardly sleeps and his caffeine consuming increases to the point that even Tim is worried but once the last exam is over he will fall asleep a whole day and then come back to normal.

-Sometimes when he leaves class and a concept is very abstract or he doesn't understand how it works, he gets frustrated and will complain to Tim about his decision to study this, but as soon as he understands it, forgets this frustration.

-His main dream of him is to be a chef but it does not mean that he likes what he studies even if it is not what he wants to do for the rest of his life. Also, it gives him a different perspective to make his own recipes

-Lab reports are an ordeal, calculating uncertainty and dispersions is what he hates the most but in the end of the day. Laboratory practices are what he loves most about studying science

-Since he is doing a double major with biology, he likes evolution biology. He was considering doing his thesis describing with complex networks what could be the passage between microscopic and macroscopic life. Or maybe something about medical physics. (Let's not let health science Bernard die since he's no longer an EMT).

#bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #timber #Yes #I know he wants to be a chef and open his restaurant #but #I think we don't talk enough about him studying basic sciences #More than that #he is studying 2 at the same time and think that most of the subjects don't coincide in the two careers #This guy is my idol #I am dying with just one #ok maybe i'm projecting a bit on bernard But as a physics student this facts just can make me love the character more #About the thesis I know is a proposal from someone in my University #And on the other hand I don't really know much about medical physics but I really liked EMT! Bernard then medphysics is the closest thing #then medphysics is the closest thing and it fits perfectly with his two careers #Calculating uncertainty is the ordeal of every science student and I have not met the first student who thinks otherwise #if someone tell you that they like it's a liar or an alien

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