#guys why can't I stop doing this

[extra-somethin-somethin]

If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)

#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head #ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it #like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like #kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all #and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo #and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like #now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week? #yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay #kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello #why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine #but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him #they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her) #i just think it'd be fun cos like #it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met #kurama and hiei #kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back #they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀 #it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan #yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc #and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺'' #''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing #it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next #cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe #okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept #kuwameshi #yu yu hakusho #kuwabara kazuma #yusuke urameshi #koenma

[silverware-is-interesting]

Remember that time I mentioned that I needed to draw something other than Sgt Splosion?? (plus Guardener, my sona, and my ocs)

varying quality doodles of mostly sgt splosion

#silverware's art #uty guardener #ts underswap #ts!underswap #ts underswap sgt splosion #he doesn't even have a tag (that i can find) #is this spoilers?? #idk why i see him as such a high school mean girl. he just gives those vibes. mixed with “can't let things go” #i am sincerely sorry about the mr. bombastic one. i thought of i and couldn't stop thinking about it. #idk why i like him. i thought i'd like Koffin-K the most. BUT THIS SON OF A BITCH CAME ON SCREEN WITH HIS STUPID ASS INTRO AND IT WAS OVER. #hopefully i don't become the 'sgt Splosion person' like i did with Guardener- #istg if he's as unimportant as Guardener i'mma go in-funckin'-sane(/hj) #i kinda don't remember making like. half of these- #cw kys joke #cw swearing #sometimes i forget that others can get uncomfy with swearing/kys jokes. sorry 'bout that- #'s just somethin' i do #why do i start using so many contractions sometimes? has the cowboy really messed with my brain this much?? #i have a couple headcannons about this guy. #but there are WAY too many tags on this post- #so i MIGHT share some of 'em at some point

[mari-bon]

I have no explanation for this my brain just came up with a ship out of nowhere and now i can't stop thinking about them send help

#the maribon guy brings you yet another obscure ship that probably no one else ships #when the #when #when the red characters are in love....... #crying sobbing throwing up why did i think of this ship why can't i stop thinking about it #fnafhs #finn #foxy #toddy #what do i even call this #redfox #idk #blue's doodles

[front-facing-pokemon]

#primal kyogre #is that what i should tag this as?? or should i say like… mega kyogre? i. um. i'm gonna leave it as primal for now. and just hope #that's right. anyway you know how this guy glows?? yeah it's baked into the textures on their model i guess. they just do that #all the time. and they cannot stop glowing. because they just Look Like That. for some reason. can't say it's a flattering look #especially with those teefers being barely fuckin visible. and the eyes being kinda washed out. it looks much better in game than here #but then again i played omegaruby as a kid. as opposed to alpha sapphire. so i never saw this i don't think #though i guess i think it might've happened in rtdx? for their boss fight there? not sure #i did that one waiting for my food at a steak 'n shake. that boss fight. i dunno why i remember that so specifically but that's. what i did

[dafry]

This specific scene lives rent free in my head-

#like ohmygod?? the animation? the music?? THE SPECIFIC SOUND EFFECT WHEN THEY CLASHED AND SLOWLY LIFTS THEIR WEAPON UP??? PERFECT ❤️❤️✨ #I don't understand why no one talks about this bit more it's so cool I can't stop watching it- #only layton can fight with just a pipe against someone with a sword and still looks badass while doing it #redraw #professor Layton #hershel layton #jean descole #professor layton and eternal diva #professor layton movie #sword fight except the other guy didn't get a sword #(I've learned about the majority of the lore now and you all will not be safe from the angst i will make about them-)

[thisloev]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[chemicalarospec]

it makes me sad how many aspec posts (and videos and other individual-generated content) are just being upset about this depiction or that one. we NEED more (semi-mainstream) aspec rep so bad, so that nobody has to feel hurt when 1 kind of aspec that they are not is represented and the only 1 they see :(

#wait have u guys ever seen 'the dangers of a single story' TED talk bc that's what happening to aspecs rn #except many of us also idnetify with the 'single story' so we get hurt when ppl criticize it as bad rep and unrealistic #we NEED to eliminate the single story to stop the aspec negativity chamber. except as individuals we really... can't. #that's another sad part: we can write our own indie stories but it won't really help the root problem bc it won't be popular #enough for a majority of aspecs to see. there will still only be a handful of portrayls most aspecs won't relate to and thus not like #aroace #aro #ace #apl #aspec #aromantic #asexual #aplatonic #arospec #i mean i'll be real we could do a communial magazine but proper publishedor smth but the problem is when it's all centered around 1 identit #having a story frequently becomes incidental... at least that's why i think that sort of thing doesn't really appeal to me in general #i said this #or maybe it's just me thinking of Common Bonds being uninteresting to me #maybe bc i really am apl-spec deep down despite having a very alloplt/plt-normative mindset still

[pa-pa-plasma]

everyone needs to calm down about the dpxdc tagging stuff. it's not to shit on dpxdc (i love it as much as the next guy) but you have to admit that for people who just want to see dp stuff without a batman jumpscare (or as i like to call it, "& batman is there" lol), blocking & unblocking all 100 tags you people use for dpxdc content every single time isn't the best option. you wanna know what is? simply not tag spamming!

so instead of this: #dpxdc #dp x dc #dc x dp #dcxdp #dc #dcu #batman #danny phantom #danny phantom crossover #danny phantom au

etc etc, just do this: #dpxdc #danny phantom crossover #danny phantom au

plus the names of the characters if you so choose. it is literally easier for you guys to do this. just don't tag it as all that, settle on one tag for dpxdc. it makes it both easier to search for & easier to block. it's literally for ease of access on both sides. this is normal tagging practice. please. you're killing me here.

#danny phantom #the tagging drama #we aren't tiktok here dude. this fandom is supposed to be chill #so stop being annoying about it all i guess #& stop putting it on my dash #i AM mad you guys broke the no drama streak though #why would you do that. now i can't brag about how chill we are. smfh #i've been here 10 years & this is the first time i've witnessed Phandom Drama first hand. what does that say to you

[sskk-manifesto]

(´･ᴗ･ ` )

#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show… #Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk. #Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die. #I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me. #I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time... #Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply. #Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author). #Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry. #Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging. #Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia. #The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.) #Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)– #bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them– #and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)– #stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?) #I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild). #But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking. #I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further… #But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views– #and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry) #so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt. #Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles

[thediktatortot]

It sucks how a fairly large demographic of Gen Z that makes up the online community they have are REALLY just falling into the same emotional patterns as Boomers usually do in every day life.

Asking for help isn't a childish thing. It's okay to ask for help, it's GOOD to ask for help if you need it. Not asking for help isn't an 'adult' thing to do, that's just plain ol setting yourself up for failure.

Let's do away with the Boot Strap theory and start accepting help and helping each other in our communities.

#I just saw a post where a trans man in the comments was going off about how 'he never asks for help because he isn't a child' #and he doesn't like to associate with other trans/queer people because he hates the fact that he's trans and he hates that everyone else #has a different experience than him that he can't relate too and thusly never wants to ask for help because all it will do is make him feel #bad about himself for not being the right kind of trans man #MY DUDE #THIS IS WHY YOU NEED COMMUNITY #THIS IS WHY WE ALL NEED COMMUNITY #WE ARE OSTRACIZING OURSELVES BY INFIGHTING AND MAKING QUEER HAVE CHECKMARKS WE HAVE TO HAVE BEFORE WE ARE DOING IT RIGHT #Jesus fuck #Like don't get me wrong that guy has some things he needs to work through because I feel really bad that he wont even associate with other #trans people for the fear of 'getting advice' #but this is why we need to stop telling people how to be queer #Queer just is #You are either Queer or you are not #and there is no right or wrong way to be Queer

[evermorethecrow]

EVER. EVER. LISTEN. IF I DONT ANSWER THAT ITS BECAUSE IM KEEPING IT OKAY? IM LIKE. IM. WAH. OKAY THANK YOU THA

no im like. reading it over and over its. oh.

Guys I'm using my influence as a tumblr user with 700 followers rn, wouldn't it be so crazy if anyone who sees this reposted one of spidersart posts at least 6 times, for me. I think that would be very fun and you guys should listen to me and do it ❤️

#Guys it would be so awesome #It would be so cool #Spider spider sp1der #I could go insane for longer I just wasn't on my computer #Can't type on mobile #Everytime you post chuuya I have to stop what I'm doing to see it #Scientists need to study why it is you never miss #Evermore answers #Guys do what I said rn

[midnightwind]

shout out to a guy I was friends with in high school who invited me to hang out at his place to play Halo who proceeded to do 0 things to help me, a person who openly stated they never played the game let alone shooters, find enjoyment or weapon spawns or Anything and spent like 4 hours sniping me from across the map then wondered why I never came back unless the other token girl was coming along

#I was more i to fighting games because of my initial (and mostly better) friend group #but when I introduced it to the new group I'd play a character I wasn't famoloar with and help them learn controls and combos #and then they'd be like okay can we play Halo instead #anyways I stopped talking to that guy the second I was socially allowed to which was basically 6 mo ths before he graduated #because he broke my sweet bean's heart and I had been Just Waiting for an excuse to drop his ass #also he would do something shitty or rude and if you got mad or called him out he pulled the “I'm schizophrenic and off my meds” #like that sucks dude and I'm here for you but you can't harass cosplayers at the con and film them without permission??? #long way to say this is why I just don't play games in person and sit in the corner watching #it's 4am and my antibiotics are sorta working but I am in agony so you get HS stories of my life I guess

[abelllia]

going feral over “shit that isn’t even remotely canon and will likely never be confirmed as such” again (barnabas bennett being an almost-anchor to jonah that jonah willingly threw away)

#these tags are filled with nonsense so please don't look at them i beg #like for your own good #I'M ON MY MAG 92 VS MAG 159 BULLSHIT AGAIN #I CAN'T GET OVER HOW SIMILAR THE SCENARIOS ARE #There's a Lonely guy that is in a scenario that sucks shit because he pissed of a Lukas and now his only hope is his close friend that- #-is an Avatar of the Eye #the only difference is in one scenario the Eye guy wants to embrace the Entities and keeps him the Lonely to observe #and the other the Eye guy is so UNWILLING to part with his humanity and part of that is being unwilling to part with that Lonely guy #or like. literally any other person if he can do something at it #if by do something at it means 'throwing himself at it' #Is it a hot take that Jon and Jonah are pretty similar? it feels like a cold take #Eye guys and all #but I think the main difference exactly that humanity thing and putting yourself before others vs others before yourself #like jonah whole deal is he wants immortality and to do that he wants to stop people fucking him over #to do that he fucks them over first #if he has a problem he's most likely to throw something else at it which is why it's so rare to see him do anything #like gertrude and leitner are big deals because he actually got off his ass and killed them himself #meanwhile jon. fucking JOn is like 'I'm going to throw myself at the problem and you can't stop me' #like he'll use himself as a meatshield first and that's not. a good thing #i don't want to make it sound like putting others over himself as always a good thing #because sometimes there are way to stop problems without fucking yourself OVER jon #it's so bad #anyway what was i saying again #oh yes jon and elias being similar but also opposites via the themes of love and how you value people- #-is pretty cool i think which fits their position of protagonist and antagonist #since like. imo one of the big themes of the show is love and human connection and how important it is to have them #like the show emphasizes anchors a LOT and shows human connections literally warding off the entities. like the big bads. #makes sense imo that that's the big place they differ #like literally anime power of friendship but instead of conquering all it just helps #yadda yadda love didn't save them but it made things better or something

[sneez]

since i started testosterone in february i have been reading a stanza of andrew marvell’s poem ‘the garden’ every month to track the way my voice has changed. today i finished it :-)

#my voice #does it belong in that tag given that i am speaking and not singing. ah well in it goes #andrew marvell #it is exciting to finally be able to post this! given the nature of the project i've been working on it for a while #i can't remember if i was initially intending to post it but i think it's neat so you guys can see it too :-) a questionable gift unto ye #it's one of my favourite ever poems which is why i picked it. partly because it's a cracking poem but also because the garden in #question is very likely fairfax's garden given that marvell wrote it whilst he was living at his house to tutor his daughter :-) #i love the line about melons. i love the idea that fairfax was growing melons. his melonship #also 'the luscious clusters of the vine upon my mouth do crush their wine' is such incredible imagery i think about it all the time #stopping myself now before i start explaining all my favourite parts of the poem because then i would just be reciting the whole poem #sorry the audio quality changes quite a bit by the way i kept changing where i recorded #oh also i skipped a month because my voice hadn't changed at all (between the first and second stanzas i think) which is why the #number of months doesn't quite match up to the number of stanzas #i do wish i had recorded a stanza when i was one month on T given that my voice barely changes in the last few verses. ah well #anyway i hope you enjoy it my dear friends :-) holding you all in my arms #also as usual i have a few messages and things to answer so i will do that soon! i have been enjoying being active again after so long :-) #ive got a song to post soon too. he he ho ho ho. hum hum hum