#haanp.txt

[heavenaintaniceplace]

shout out to the concept of christian forgiveness, gotta be one of my favorite gaslighting tools

#/sarcasm #i Loooove told i should forgive the person who’s the reason i have cpstd and have never had a stable environment to live in #ex christian #religious trauma #exvangelical #christianity tw #haanp.txt #ex cult #ex jw

[heavenaintaniceplace]

💖 i love my trans siblings and trans survivors of religious fundamentalism💖this post is about religious trauma btw. trans apostates are the best and you’re so strong for making it this far💖

terfs/radfems go fuck yourselves lmao

#haanp.txt #ex christian #religious trauma #apostate #exvangelical #ex cult

[heavenaintaniceplace]

i don’t post fandom here but from this day forward i claim hunter the owl house for apostates and cult survivors

#he’s Our white boy now #haanp.txt #cult mention #religious trauma #the owl #house #he is just SO !!!!! #he’s gonna escape one day i really hope he does #he is literally a cult survivor change my mind you can’t

[heavenaintaniceplace]

looking back at the recipe-for-life type of evangelical booklet my uncle gave me i feel so happy that the person i became wasnt a carbon copy perfect little christian that followed everything the book said and what they told me to become. i’m so happy i became this vibrant, complex person with a life of my own

#exvangelical #ex jws #haanp.txt #ex christian

[heavenaintaniceplace]

every time i encounter a christian or online in the wild it’s like a timer is set to count down until they have a queerphobic mask off moment and start saying it’s okay that actually it’s okay that they hate gay people because bible or doctrine or something

#ex christian #exvangelical #haanp.txt

[heavenaintaniceplace]

the dichotomy evangelical christianity sets between things you enjoy or need as a human being and God™️. because enjoying things you love, having hobbies, taking time for yourself, loving other people, loving other things, play, social life, wanting things for yourself, wanting to enjoy your life. all of those things are seen as “anti-god”. everything thats not their god is seen as a threat to them and god, anything, the smallest thing could threaten you salvation and relationship with god which of course to them was the only thing that mattered. to them, your own life and wellbeing and happiness don’t matter.

when i was 8 i read in a book handed out by a jehovah’s witness that said i shouldn’t be focused on fun. you know what they thought i should be focused on? dying. service to god, preaching god to others and then eventually dying or living forever in their version of the apocalypse. because that’s the only thing that mattered to them.

#evangelicalism is fucked #haanp.txt #ex christian #religious trauma #ex jw #ex jehovah's witness #exvangelical

[heavenaintaniceplace]

good things about being ex christian now

just being able to enjoy the view. the sky. nature. the mountains. cute animals. natural phenomena. the weather. the night sky and the stars. without feeling guilty for not pushing god into, into crediting god for it, without feeling like i need to praise god because of it or without being pressured to believe god made it possible. i’m just able to fucking enjoy things at face value and it’s awesome. no god involved. just is.

#probably make this a series #haanp.txt #ex christian #exvangelical

[heavenaintaniceplace]

it’s the idea that god creates people only to destroy them for me

#the idea of hell is fucked part 1 of 1 trillion #ex christian #religious trauma #exvangelical #haanp.txt

[heavenaintaniceplace]

on religious holidays all the apostates really just migrate back to tumblr as a safe haven because everywhere else is triggering as hell

#somebody started posting religious stuff on my main and i had to log tf out #ex christian #religious trauma #haanp.txt

[heavenaintaniceplace]

absolutely loathe “god loves you/jesus loves you!!!” coming from christians for layers of reasons but one that really bothers me is that the statement always has fine print. it’s never just “god loves you!” it’s “god loves you and if you don’t obey him you’ll die and go to hell”. the statement always has conditions because christians can never give away love for free because genuinely they don’t believe anyone actually deserves it. so instead they make backhanded statements to trick people into thinking they are genuine.

#ex christian #haanp.txt #religious trauma #exvangelical

[heavenaintaniceplace]

a special shoutout to

trans men who are ex christians! ✨

trans women who are ex christians! 🌟

transmasc and transfem folks who are ex 💕christian!

nonbinary people who are ext christian! 🌌

genderqueer people who are ex christian! 🏔

xenogender people who are ex christian! 💫

and every other trans person who is ex christian 🌙

all of you are loved. the world would not be the same without you. you make this world more vibrant and beautiful, you push the limits of possibility and keep proving that life and recovery is possible for us! thank you for fighting and holding on and being a beacon of light in the midst of darkness. myself and humanity dare i say wouldn’t be the same without us. our existence is beautiful and our presence treasured. trans fucking rights, and most importantly i love you. 💖✨ ⚧️

#haanp.txt #ex christian #religious trauma #queer ex christian #trans rights #trans positivity #nonbinary positivity #xenogender positivity #transfem positivity #transmasc positivity #genderqueer positivity

[heavenaintaniceplace]

a core part of your identity being linked to the cult in a way that’s hard to reconcile or break is a feature not a bug btw. that’s how they keep people where they want them (in their cult). for example one of my previous cults actually featured deeply around personality of the members and how it linked everyone together in one common “community” and encouraged members to constantly share it with other members and authority figures so they’d eventually bond over it and not want to ever leave.

#things i realized as a apostate cult escapes twice over #haanp.txt #ex cult #cult survivor #religious trauma #ex christian #apostate

[heavenaintaniceplace]

actually complete acceptance of an eventual (and imminent) end of the world in a violent battle, extinction event or cleansing that results in mass death led by god and jesus where only the good christians survive and get to inherit the earth is actually the biggest part of why i’m not christian anymore.

first it traumatized me as a child who hasn’t even double digits old yet. it gave me anxiety and depression and made me devalue everything and constantly fear for my life. now as an adult it disgusts me so much that someone could accept absolute destruction if it meant they get a special reward or hate others so much that they want it to happen.

#haanp.txt #ex christian #exvangelical #ex jw #religious trauma

[heavenaintaniceplace]

cis ex christians be like “i question everything!” except societal transphobia

#hi i feel like talking shit about cis people again #cishet ex christians have it the easiest on average cope #other queer ex christians that aren’t trans have compassion challenge #a lot of you never deconstructed the way you said y’all did you just kept the bigotry that didn’t apply to you #and you’re shit for that #ex christian #haanp.txt #religious trauma #exvangelical #transphobia

[heavenaintaniceplace]

nothing like having to remind myself that no i am not being watched by anyone or anything when i’m alone, no one can see what i see or look over my shoulder somehow and no god is not watching me do anything

#haanp.txt #religious trauma #paranoia tw

[heavenaintaniceplace]

there is really no justice for new age cult escapees because theres no coherent information on them but there’s really no justice for cult escapees and apostates in general

#i hate it i hate it #take people’s trauma seriously or else #love being told i’m insane or lying for what happened to me #haanp.txt #ex cult #ex jws