#had to edit a tag on a prior post like that lmao like nobody’s gonna read it and be able to interpret how you meant it

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just had a thought also along the lines of like, what do you feel being autistic is conducive towards / makes easier for you, adding the baja galaxy brain blast i had here like "oh right, the linguistics thing" lmao....b/c that's always been something i like Immediately latch on to and have had some intent Interest in forever, i've been enthused about Language Learning (despite only knowing one language lol), translation, interpretation, transcription, and transliteration are all Really interesting and/or engaging 2 me, i'm big on etymology and always get struck like where tf does this word come from, or like, Figurative Language equivalent of etymology lol like where's this phrase come from actually, or i'll be like "oh i only really know the definition of this word via Context Clues, i wanna look up the definition directly / figure out what differentiates it from close synonyms," i think reading a dictionary is fairly fun, i'll like, find some very particular / strange Word and try to memorize it like, on principle lol, i'm big on Puns and Wordplay lmao i find puns genuinely funny i do not understand the experience of disliking them in the least, and it occurs to me how yknow, i think being autistic you're used to needing to try to figure out how to translate what you're saying / what you Mean for other people, and to translate what they mean for yourself, where, you know, nt people might recognize like "oh the classic Irl Experience and Fictional Theme of Misunderstandings / Miscommunication / Incorrect Assumptions / etc" but are out here not realizing they're Misinterpreting you in the first place, so you say something and they don't get it and don't realize they don't get it and instead dismiss whatever you said entirely, probably also You by extension. like when it comes to Talking, it feels like the rarest thing of all is for someone to like, realize they maybe don't understand what you meant / aren't interpreting something in a way that makes sense to them here and will like, let you know so you can try to clarify / Translate what you're thinking in a different way......and like, always preemptively defensive about things, With Obvious Reason, like i'm really interested in breaking things down re: language and stuff but it's like Ah, autistic people Would be interested in the nitty gritty mechanics and Rules and miss the transcendent forest for the cold, reductive trees, like well you know what i also am super interested in how the Limits and Ambiguities of Translation are navigated, where there might be different approaches in trying to minimize interpretation and maintain fidelity, or that also there might not be some "correct" or "objective" translation of an idea or element and you do have to Interpret it and its context and end up with a less literal translation or, you know, that there isn't that available Literal translation and you have to convey the equivalent idea within the context of whatever target language and/or culture you're translating for......when there's some figure of speech being translated, i definitely want to know How and Why it's translated like it is, but i also want to know the literal translation lol. well the point is i'm big on Translating and it's like well yep i guess in a way i have to consider it all the time lmao, i do not expect people to always Get what i mean and god knows i don't always get what their secret implications or contexts are, and i'm having to try to break it down and reverse engineer it, and you know. i also think about my particular like, personal vocabulary tendencies or whatever, i sure absorb things lmao like well that phrase or quote is kind of in my lexicon now, for some reason i do like to drop like, specific french words or phrases or when i just choose something to spell as if in french syllables lol, i do not know french at all.....i will make up my own custom figures of speech lmao......i've got my "words of the week" like aha i just used some particular word / remembered how good it is and i can tell i'm gonna be using it a bunch now, or words i

just always especially use like "conducive," i suppose even language things like when i start an alphabet list but almost every time this was only to separate two ideas / parts so it's just a) b) the end

#sorry for the block of text it's Been 6am i cranked it out #still took a minute but editing would take even longer. as though i edit anything i ever say #but again it's 6am so whatever's going on here.....extra chaos #just was thrilled to look up ''why both catsup and ketchup'' and learn it's b/c it's a transliteration #i forget things i'm v interested in like ohh yeahhh i guess my whole life i've been big on linguistics or whatever #i also feel my Math Passion fire up....bit into physics as well. alternate timeline particle physicist me or smthing #quant.......um #but then i also like animals. jot that down #wow wasnt even thinking about it like ‘’nice; the The End works two ways’’ like the Wordplay again lol #why im saying this yet am ‘’im completely incoherent ive never articulated a single thing in my life’’ Well lmao #part of it is im trying to Transcribe my thoughts in ways where it’s like #oops i forgot that maybe this wouldnt read back v comprehensibly lol #was trying to evoke whatever particular maybe vibe or cadence or something but forgot that when im writing down like #‘’okay so i shift from one line of thought midsentence to another with No indication of this’’ lmao like hmm. maybe a comma or semicolon or #Something here bc otherwise of course someone’s not gonna know to read it some certain weird way #had to edit a tag on a prior post like that lmao like nobody’s gonna read it and be able to interpret how you meant it #while sometimes I gotta decode my own writing too lol. rip