universe - huang renjun
summary: the moment renjun laid his eyes on you he knew you were the one, but to him, a broken person couldn’t love
warnings: heavy angst, fluff. sucidal thoughts, small mention of cutting, depression, major character death
word count: 5k
based off of minhyun’s (nu’est) song
renjun sat outside your favourite cafe, the usual spot where the two of you would sit whenever you met up except this time you weren’t next to him or in front of him. you were across the street, smiling and laughing with another guy.
a guy who was worth your time. a guy worth so much more than himself renjun thought.
it was sad, the fact that the only way he could see you was like this. he could only admire you from afar, after all he was the one that broke your heart when he didn’t deserve to in the first place.
when we first met
your hair was sitting perfectly on your shoulders, a smile adorning your face. renjun happened to see you as he was walking by to get to his lecture but stopped in his tracks when the sun shone on your perfect face.
you were talking with a friend he assumed, laughing at whatever stupid joke they said but the only thing renjun could see was you, the only thing he could here was you. your laugh, it felt like music to his ears, the best kind of music.
it seemed as if time stopped when you finally caught him staring after your friend pointed it out. his cheeks flushed and you felt your own face heat up. everyone knew of renjun, he was the best artist in your entire grade and one of the best on campus.
he was known for being polite to everyone but mostly keeping to himself and his few friends that he held close. you always admired him even though you weren’t an artist. you hadn’t seen him in person until this very moment and low and behold you’ve never seen such an ethereal being.
his works were as beautiful as him. you would always see them every time you went to one of the art buildings or school hallways, they were always hung up to nobody’s surprise. his work always captured so many emotions, emotions you didn’t even think were possible to feel let alone from a painting.
he nervously bit his lips when you smiled at him, his ears turning the color of a perfect red apple. he blushed as he walked closer to you and you stood up when he came in front of you.
“hey, uh i was wondering if i could have your number? OH i’m renjun by the way, a third year in the arts department.” he slowly took out his phone and held it out for you to take.
you took it carefully before responding. “i’m y/n, a third year too. of course you can have my number” you say while sending yourself a text from his phone. you get a ding from yours while opening it and create a contact under his name.
“right thank you, i’ll text you soon” his hands were balled into a fist and his knuckles were turning white, you didn’t realize you made him nervous.
you were about to speak up when a familiar face came up to the two of you and slung his arm around renjun’s shoulder.
“i hate to interrupt but him and i have got class, and we are now almost 10 minutes late. you two can talk later byeee”
he dragged renjun away but as they walked to their lecture renjun kept looking back, giving you apologetic glances and almost yelled that he would text you later.
you recognized the brown haired boy to be a guy in one of your early morning lectures, he always came wearing hoodies and looked nearly dead half the time that is until the end of class. whenever the lecture ended he’d be the first to leave, much more energetic than before. that boy was haechan, you didn’t realize he was friends with renjun until now.
your friend giggled from beside you after noticing how giddy you’d become once he left.
“looks like someone fell in love at first sight” she says while wriggling her eyebrows up and down.
you huff as you get up and glare at her. “you’re annoying, let’s go”
the first date
you didn’t expect him to text you while you were in a lecture but didn’t mind since you were barely paying attention anyways.
renjun: hey, are you busy right now??
y/n: in a lecture rn
renjun: wait really shit sorry i’ll text you later then
y/n: noo it’s okay, i wasn’t paying attention anyways
renjun: right so i’m a little awkward, even on text yeah idk how BUTT i was wondering if you wanted to go on date??
renjun: WE DEFINITELY DONT HAVE TO IF YOU AREN’T COMFORTABLE but i really want to get to know you so if it’s alright with you, could we maybe hangout sometime doesn’t have to be a date
y/n: one sec the professor’s calling on me
you look away from your phone and squeal mentally, you can’t believe you got asked out by one of the most popular kids on campus, let alone the cutest guy you’ve ever seen.
while you were busy squealing, renjun was taking deep breaths unsure of what your answer might be. haechan was throughly enjoying him panicking but fortunately for him your response made his nerves calm down immensely, a big smile now gracing his face while haechan was giving loud cheers.
y/n: sorry about that but yes i would love to go on date and get to know you!!! i’m free whenever let me know when you wanna do it:D
renjun: i’m so glad, i’ll call you after class and we can talk about it then:)
you left class quickly that day, quite literally running out of the classroom while everyone looked at you weird. you rushed to your dorm, changed into your pj’s then awaited his call while making some food.
it didn’t take him much time to call, 3 minutes into cooking and your phone was ringing.
“hey y/n” you immediately smiled at the sound of his voice, glad that now maybe you would be hearing this much more often.
“hey renjun” he blushed at the sound of hearing you say his name, it sounded like a sweet melody, something he could listen to for hours on end. haechan just smiled knowingly as renjun tried shoving him away so he wouldn’t listen in on your conversation.
“right so are you free tomorrow?? i was wondering if we could get lunch, you know just a little something before we go on any proper dates” he says in one go and you have to stop yourself from yelling yes.
“that sounds perfect actually, i can’t wait to see you tomorrow” you say without thinking and renjun blushes even harder “BRO YOUR FACE IS SO RED?? HOW I DIDN’T THINK THIS WAS POSSIBLE” haechan yelled in the background and you giggled.
the next day you two met up at lunch, he was wearing a simple denim outfit and smiled as soon as he spotted you. you waved at him as he came over to you.
“glad you could make it” he said with a toothy grin.
“i wouldn’t miss it, after all i’m with the best artist at our school” you say teasingly although you mean it.
“best artist? no way, i’m good but there are others who’s work is more outstanding than mine” he says like it’s no big deal.
“well i think your work is amazing, it makes me feel things” you say while staring straight ahead. renjun turns to look at the side of your face, admiring you again.
you felt emotions from looking at his work, something about that made his heart flutter. something about you made his heart flutter.
you ate lunch happily along with renjun, he took you to one of his favourite restaurants and you two once again made plans to see each other the next day.
despite him saying he’s pretty awkward you didn’t think so, he was incredibly easy to talk to. he was also a great listener, very attentive to everything you said. just thinking about him gave you butterflies in your stomach. you couldn’t wait to see him again.
this time you showed him your favourite cafe.
“why do you look so surprised? is it weird?” you asked out of confusion and he just chuckled softly.
“no this is actually my favourite cafe too, i can’t believe it” you giggled while he led you into the cafe to order and after getting your drinks you looked outside to find a place for you two to sit. it became a regular spot every time you and renjun decided to go to this cafe. you would meet here at least twice a week if not more.
you started hanging out regularly and after 2 weeks he finally asked you out on a date, an official date.
you learned quite a bit about him within those 2 weeks and you fell very hard. he was more than what you wanted, without him you felt as if you were missing something from your life but within the short amount of time you spent together, he felt like your missing puzzle piece and he could say the same too.
you dressed up in his favourite color and when he saw you he couldn’t stop himself from cheesing hard. it was impossible for someone to be as beautiful as you. you were better than any art he’s ever seen heck you are art in itself. god’s most divine being he thought.
“you look... amazing” he said while moving the chair out for you to sit on. he had amazing manners too, incredibly respectful.
“why thank you, you look really good too i love that we’re matching” you say, your cheeks hurting from how hard you’ve been smiling this entire time.
the date went even better than the two of you imagined, afterwards he took you to the bridge located in the middle of the city’s where the view of the lights could be seen perfectly. he would take you there often after finding out how much you loved to look at lights. before the night ended renjun had one thing he wanted to do since the moment he saw you.
he walked you all the way up to your dorm room but didn’t let you go inside just yet.
“i’ve been meaning to ask... can i kiss you?” he blurted out while holding your hand.
he blushed after speaking but his eyes were full of nothing but adoration for you.
you lightly nodded but he didn’t take that as an answer.
“i need to hear you say it first" he was looking straight into your eyes and you didn’t know if you could take it much longer. the distance was killing you.
“yes you can kiss me renjun” with that you tugged him forward and kissed his lips. they were soft. he kissed you so gently, as if you’d break any second. after a few seconds it became more passionate and fast paced, like he had been waiting all his life to do this. your lips felt so perfect on his, he could get drunk off of the feeing.
you pulled away and looked at his beautiful flushed face before saying your goodbye.
“you can kiss me whenever you want, goodnight renjun”
falling in love
2 months into your relationship and renjun could confidently say he was in love.
to him, you were god’s most valuable creation, an angel in disguise, all the good in the world. aphrodite’s beauty could never compare to yours.
he loved how you weren’t just beautiful on the outside, but on the inside too.
all of his art was now related to you somehow, each painting symbolizing either you or something from your relationship with him. he hadn’t told you yet, wanting it to be a surprise on your one year anniversary as he was so sure you two would last.
as if it wasn’t obvious enough, all of his friends noticed the change too. the glow in his face, the look in his eyes.
haechan came to realize that maybe you were what renjun needed to finish healing. renjun’s past battle with depression to which he almost lost had deprived him of any happiness for a long time but he had been recovering and after he met you everyone could tell that he was much happier.
you were his saviour and that is exactly what renjun believed. god’s greatest gift to him, a true miracle.
oh boy indeed was he so in love with you, the center of his galaxy, his universe. and it made everything better knowing that you felt the same exact way he did.
6 months in, things are going great is what you’d say however renjun, can’t even think straight.
you noticed something was off about him when he wasn’t being touchy or affectionate, barely even getting up to greet you. you thought he was sick but there was no sign of a fever or pain coming from him.
you assumed he was having a bad day and stayed to comfort him but he didn’t seem to smile at all so you ended up leaving hoping tomorrow would be a better day for the both of you.
when the behaviour became consistent, you tried talking to him about it but he didn’t say much only telling you that he was just dealing with some stuff back home but you being there for him was all he needed.
haechan knew what was going on, his whole friend group knew and panic quickly filled all of them. it was as if history was repeating itself. they thought he was fine now, doing better at the very least but the very obvious marks on his arms that he concealed from you said otherwise. he had fallen into a bad habit again.
he hid them well not wanting to see worry or concern on your pretty face. things went back to normal after 2 weeks, at least that’s what you thought but renjun just didn’t want to worry you anymore. he couldn’t see you so down because of him, you don’t deserve to be crying over someone so little and insignificant as him.
he himself didn’t understand where these feelings were coming from and why. they resurfaced out of no where it was too hard to explain, he couldn’t understand a single thing but all he knew was that he didn’t want to worry you.
his friends told him to consider therapy which he took on. it was going pretty okay for the first little while but soon he quickly grew tired of it. everything was becoming overwhelming, all he could do was paint and laugh bitterly when on call with you.
his only escape was painting but he was getting sick of it. you were the only thing he wanted to paint but the thought of you became painful, he was dragging you down, he wasn’t good for you but you were all he wanted, all he needed right now.
your voice was as sweet as honey, your face brightened up his day but it was never enough. the thoughts never left his mind, he couldn’t stop it, he couldn’t stop thinking.
haechan invited you to the park one day, it was bright and beautiful. you considered calling renjun out too but he told you he was meeting his parents later that day so you didn’t want to interrupt him.
“hey hyuck what’s up?” you say, taking a seat next to him on the bench.
“it’s about renjun” he decided on being blunt. you had to know, you two had been together for almost 8 months now and even his friends were sure that he loved you more than anything. it wasn’t his place to tell but if you didn’t know then things would take a turn for the worse.
“what about him? is he alright? please tell me it’s nothing bad” your voice full of nothing but concern.
haechan smiled sadly, he could see your eyes full of concern as was your voice. you loved renjun just as much as he loved you, he didn’t think that was possible.
“what i’m about to tell you is pretty serious and renjun probably doesn’t want you to know yet. in high school he was dealing with severe depression and attempted suicide. he started therapy and took medications, it helped him but he was never truly happy. that is until he met you. his smile felt genuine for the first time in a while, his happiness felt real however it’s happening again. he’s going back into the same place and none of us including him know why. the problem is this time it seems worse, more worse than before. we don’t know what to do but y/n please stay by his side, it’s a difficult time for him but he can heal, he can recover we believe in him and i know you do too. don’t push him to talk about this though unless things get to that point.”
you took in what haechan said and pondered upon it a lot for the next few days. you felt terrible for not realizing sooner that your boyfriend was going through so much and you didn’t do anything about it.
you told yourself it wasn’t your fault, you didn’t know. you still felt guilty every now and then but all you wanted to do was focus on renjun, focus on helping him get better.
no progress was being made even after a few months. your 11 months with him was coming soon but nothing seemed to be working or going your way when it came to him. you wanted to be patient, it was the best thing you could do for him.
his true emotions only showed when haechan was around. it would get pretty bad but this time was considerably the worst haechan thought.
“therapy didn’t do shit i can’t stop these thoughts, i can’t stop thinking, it’s like a dark cloud is over my head all the fucking time, even when i’m with y/n. it eases just a bit but whenever i’m on my own it goes back to being shit it gets worse i don’t understand why i have to feel this, feel this way”
“i thought that i was getting better, i really thought that i was healing but fuck, no progress has been made i’m going backwards i can’t do shit. i paint my feelings away i can’t keep up like this”
“and y/n, y/n deserves so much better. i’m so far from perfect, i’m worthless, undeserving of anything i get, any love i get. y/n is perfect while i’m broken and these two don’t go together. i’m bringing all of you down, i’m just a waste of time.”
“y/n deserves someone who’s secure, someone who isn’t stupid like me. i’ll only make y/n cry more, ill only make you guys suffer. i shouldn’t be and i can’t see that happen either.”
“everyday feels like hell, i can’t fucking do this please i just want it to end. it hurts to breathe” renjun said in between sobs, it was getting hard for him to speak.
haechan stood there dumbfounded, no idea on what to do for renjun. after all, he would never know the pain his best friend felt. nothing was working, nothing him or any of his friends did helped renjun. one step forward was like taking three steps back.
your were the band aid on his bleeding wound. not nearly enough to heal him but gave some amount of relief. he couldn’t blame this on you though. not at all, in fact you gave him more happiness than he had ever felt in his life. you showed him so much love and affection even though he knew he didn’t deserve any of it. this was his own problem, his own feelings which he couldn’t figure out. you weren’t at fault for anything and he had to make sure you knew.
“renjun what do you mean you want to break up? it’s our 1 year anniversary why would you say this now?” you were shocked and confused. out of all things to happen between you and renjun you didn’t see this happening.
“our relationship was dying already let’s just end it here and now, it’ll be easier for us both” he said in a monotoned voice, it was as if a robot was speaking to you.
“renjun please, i know you’re going through something difficult right now but trust me a break up isn’t gonna help, we love each other. i love you so much and-” you didn’t finish as he cut you off.
“you love me right? so please do me this favour and leave me alone. this isn’t your fault, i’m not in the right state of mind to be in a relationship you have to respect that.” he said while getting up, heading towards your front door to leave.
“renjun wait please we can solve this somehow cant we please” the tears that had pooled up in your eyes were now streaming down your face. when he saw you crying his heart hurt, he felt excruciating pain just seeing you sobbing because of him.
“stop, don’t cry please stop it” he said holding your head, wiping your tears away, unable to look at your face as it would cause him even more pain.
you could see his eyes were glistening, he was about to cry too.
“you, you deserve so much better than me. i’m not alright, i’m not okay. i can’t be there for you and it’s making me feel like shit. i don’t care if you say it’s okay because it isn’t, it isn’t okay to me and i know how you’re feeling i know you are far from it being okay, you only say it is for my sake but it’s not doing me any good. you say you love me, so let go. let go because you love me, let go because you deserve better, you know your worth. you don’t need me, you want me. you can do so much better. if you care for me in any way, if you care for me at all then please do this. please let me go, i’m not ready to be with you so please do this for me. it’s not your fault it’s never been your fault. it’s me and i mean it.”
he let go of your face and walked out of the door, not allowing you to respond to what he had just said but you couldn’t even think to form words at the moment. it felt as if your whole world came crashing down. he felt as if he didn’t deserve you and that alone broke your heart.
the last day
a month and half after your break up, you were doing fine. could’ve been so much better but you weren’t doing bad. you wanted to be happy for renjun, to smile. but it didn’t feel the same, nothing did.
meanwhile renjun spent his time studying or painting, mostly by himself or in silence whenever his friends came around. things were neutral, that’s what they thought.
he finally finished his collection of 12 paintings and was ready to have them hung up. he got them on friday in the new art building which was to open the following monday but specific students and staff already had keys to it.
it was saturday when he decided to finally go out for the first time in weeks. he unknowingly went to his and yours favourite cafe and sat in your same exact spot. he looked around the street and spotted you with a group of friends whom he barely recognized but knew you hung out with occasionally.
there was a tall guy standing beside you, renjun recognized him in an instant. his name was hyunjin, he was a dance major and one of the most popular guys on campus. he looked at you with bright eyes, full of affection and you returned his sweet smile. renjun couldn’t tell whether you looked at him the same way he looked at you but he didn’t want to think about it.
in some way he was relieved, relieved that you found someone who was actually worth your time unlike him. your smile was almost the same as when he first saw you, when he first got caught staring at you.
you were still the center of his universe.
he quickly left after seeing you and your beautiful smile one last time. he had already sent out a letter to haechan who was away for the weekend visiting his family. he should get it soon.
he also sent you a letter, a key inside the envelope. you would get it by tonight.
you and hyunjin bid goodbye to the rest of your friends as hyunjin decided he wanted to show you the new art building. there were new practice rooms for the dance students.
as you two entered you passed by a wide hall full of many paintings. there was on section that caught your eye, they were set in a sequence each one had some sort of relation to the one beside it. something about them seemed so familiar but you couldn’t put your mind to it as hyunjin dragged you to the dance room.
you left after a while and returned to your dorm. outside your door was a small envelope placed on the mat. you picked it up and your heart sped up after seeing who it was from.
you went into your dorm and sat down while carefully opening the letter. there was a small note along with a key, you looked at it skeptically before looking at the note and finally reading it.
“please go to my dorm and take the gift i left for you. it took me a while to paint, i know you probably don’t want anything to do with me but please at least look at it before you throw it away otherwise the school will do it for you”
you looked at the note confused, it sounded as if he was leaving to go somewhere since it would be thrown out by the school. you got up and rushed to his dorm, the door already unlocked when you reached to open it.
you say a quiet hello upon entering to see if renjun was inside but the place was empty. it was as clean as ever, like no one had touched anything for a while. on the kitchen counter was what you assumed a portrait, wrapped up like a present with your name on top of it. you tore it open and tears filled your eyes the moment you saw what he had left for you.
his gift being a painting, but not just any painting. it was of you, laughing as the cherry blossoms came down. it was of the first moment you saw renjun, the first moment he saw you.
behind it was a letter, you tore it open only to find a small piece of paper with a note on it once again.
“the moment i first saw you, i fell in love. thank you for being my everything, you mean the world to me and always will. i can’t be here any longer but i won’t stop loving you even when i’m gone. i love you, y/n. i really do. please take care, my angel. smile and laugh like you did before, be happy and forget about me. i’ll always think of you, my universe”
you gasped realizing what may have happened. you fumbled with your phone trying to call haechan, he didn’t answer right away but when he did his own voice was filled with panic too.
“you got the letter didn’t you?” he asked, urgency in his voice.
“i did but he’s not here, he’s not in his dorm i have no idea where he is what if he’s... what if he’s already done it donghyuck what the fuck do we do” you were beginning to cry, scared something may have happened to renjun.
“calm down think rationally, think of some important place. if he’s not at the dorm he’s most likely...most likely at the place that either one of you cherished a lot, it’s almost midnight so it won’t be crowded which means we might not... no i’m not gonna think about it i’m driving on my way back i already called the others they must be looking right now y/n please go, please think i’ll get to you as soon as i can”
you hung up the call and immediately started thinking of places you two had gone together. your mind blanking really badly in that moment but as soon as you thought of the right place someone else had too.
the city’s lights were shinning so brightly. it was a saturday night so renjun expected more rush but lucky for him not a single person was around. this would be a lot easier. he stepped onto the railing, it wasn’t rounded so he could stand on it with ease. he looked behind him, then in front. the water wasn’t moving, it was still. everything felt calm, everything felt okay and it would be.
the last image he saw before he let go was of your smiling face, the face that looked upon him so dearly, eyes that held so much love just for him, more than he ever deserved, more than he would ever get.
it was of you standing, cherry blossoms falling around you, you were smiling at him. the first smile you ever gave him, the smile that was so dear to him. the first time you ever saw each other.
it was you, his shining universe.
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chapter two : them, and an old friend
pairing : mark x haechan [markhyuck]
warning : smoking, psychotic
words : 832
Groans and moans were sounded in a room with the balcony door opened wide. A boy was laying on the bed, shifting in his bed as the blanket was thrown off. "Why the hell it's so hot in here," moaned Donghyuck with a raspy voice. He forced himself to sit up with eyes barely opened—trying to get familiar to the lightings that were surrounding him.
He rolled to his bedside table and grabbed his phone. 13:00, it read.
Sighing, Donghyuck abruptly got off of his bed and walked towards the cupboard—lazily walked towards it. He grabbed a white short-sleeved shirt before he took off the shirt he was currently wearing to be replaced with the new one he picked.
Donghyuck did not even bother to take a shower or even a quick shower. He knew he had not get himself put together since their friendship ended; his heart broken. Nearing the balcony, he saw three sticks of cigarettes on the balcony floor. He scoffed but with a smirk on as he closed the balcony door after he shoved both the cigarette box and the lighter in his pocket.
"You're late today,"
"Yeah. Kind of slept in—my mum came over last night,"
The barista just nodded before he handed Donghyuck the balance for the coffee he ordered. "You can wait—" said the barista, which Donghyuck obeyed even before he finished the sentence.
You can tell that Donghyuck often visit the café that the barista already recognised him and could tell he was a bit late. The honey skinned took a sit near the counter, did not want to miss his name being called once his order was done. But his eyes snapped to the door. A familiar laughter echoed the café and not going to lie, it gives Donghyuck butterflies in his stomach. His eyes were lit up and he back was straightened, but not until his eyes wandered lower to the person's hand.
Intertwined with a girl's hand. Koeun's hand.
His fists balled up and teeth clenched. Koeun. How Donghyuck despised her—for being the reason he and Mark separated.
Donghyuck's eyes widened and quickly stood up and went to the counter without giving the barista a glance or even say thank you and paced to walk out of the café. He did walk pass the two—which he saw by the tail of his eyes that Mark was turning his body towards him. But of course, Donghyuck would not want to talk. At least not there, with Koeun in the way.
Finally, he let out a sigh and slowed down his pace after he got out of the café. But he was not happy. He was not smiling. His eyebrows furrowed. Seeing Mark in that café, especially when he was with Koeun, is something that Donghyuck wished to not happen again in the future as that café was the only café he would go around the neighbourhood.
But he did wish he would see Mark again but without her.
Donghyuck looked down at his latte, he had his other hand trying to open the cap of the cup since it was easier to drink off. But of course, with his troubled mind and while walking, he could not get the cap off easy. Which made him less focus on where he was heading or his steps.
"Watch out!" someone exclaimed, making Donghyuck stopped his track so suddenly.
He looked up to see a guy. A friend. A classmate. Someone he had not seen for a long time after graduated high school.
The said person smiled but then frowned again as worries plastered on his face. "What's with your face?"
"You seem tired. Are you alright?" asked Shotaro. Donghyuck could only sigh and nodded, "yes, I'm alright."
Shotaro chuckled and shook his head. "Your sigh and that expression of yours make me doubt it. And... hot coffee in this hot weather? You're not alright, Hyuck."
Donghyuck did not say a word but he just shrugged and took a sip as he finally opened the cap. "I don't know if you're really busy or anything. But it's been like three years? We haven't seen each other. And so do the others—I mean for them to see you. We often hanging out together but not with you ever since."
"Maybe because you guys didn't invite me or something," Donghyuck shrugged with a forced smile. He really was not in the mood to talk especially about old friends—even meeting one.
Shotaro chuckled again, but a bit forced and hesitated. "You left the groupchat on the graduation day, Hyuck. We tried to contact you back but seemed like you changed the number," Shotaro mumbled at the end of his words.
Silence engulfed the two of them for a few moments. Then, Donghyuck turned to his old friend. "I really need to go. See you next time, I guess," said Donghyuck before he stormed off without giving Shotaro a chance to bid him.
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this is for the ships xx
I love reading, learning, drawing and writing. I also love to spend a lot of time with family and friends. I'll do pretty much anything with them as long as we have fun. I'm the mom of the group and always make sure everyone has, and does, everything they need.
Idk if I should describe myself but I will a lil bit lol. I'm a normal height, a whopping 5 feet 4 inches. I dyed my hair red. My bangs and underneath are a bright red, and the rest is a dark cherry red almost black.
but yea. I would consider myself a pretty kind person, but im also pretty petty and love to tease people. I love trying new things and love when someone wants to try something new with me. I'm a pretty sentimental person, so if someone gave me a rock and said it reminded them of me, I'd keep it forever. lol
I would think more NCT 127 for you and Haechan would prob go best with you as he loves to annoy and tease you but you love to take care of him. He would also love to held by you so...
-cuddles a lot
-you guys would love to dye your hair together or you would help him
-maybe going to the zoo or aquarium would be nice
-LOTS OF INSIDE JOKES
-like y’all would giggle at everything
-partners in crime type of couples
-funny fights (like you two are just laughing while trying to be to each other)
Thank you for requesting tell me what you would change or add!
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genre: angst ; pairing: haechanxreader, markxreader ; word count: <500 ; warnings: none
Mark’s words went through one ear and out the other the moment you locked eyes with Haechan. He met you with a gentle smile, a little too gentle. You recognised it immediately— it was the lovestruck smile you’d give him whenever he wished you good morning, or whenever he’d ask you for help with his homework. That beautiful smile faded the moment his eyes dropped to your wrist, eyes darkening as he looked up at Mark. You saw him hestitate to move head, looking between both you and Mark; the older had yet not noticed the other’s presence.
God, you hated this. His skin reminded you of the picnics you’d share in a garden, sunlight falling on his cheeks making his grin shine brighter than usual. His clothes reminded you of his home, where you would spend nights after nights eating and playing games. His hair reminded you of his distracting habits while studying, but his lips held the most painful memory. The memory of the night you kissed him, and he didn’t kiss you in return.
You pursed your lips. You looked at Mark’s fingers laced with your own, and then up at his face. He looked at you with delicate eyes, ones that only he could posses, pulling you away from whatever was holding you back. “Ready to go?”
You nodded, looking one more time at Haechan, hoping to meet his eyes again. Only this time, he was looking at your lips.
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“Hyuck, are you tired?”
“I.. I’m sorry, love.”
“Hey, no... It’s alright. Please don’t cry, baby.” You kissed his forehead gently and wiped his tears away. There was a soft smile forming in his lips as he placed your hand on them. His breath was shaking while kissing your hand repeatedly. It's time. You knew it was time to let go, but you still wanted to be in his warm presence.
“Hyuck, in another lifetime?”
“In another lifetime, love. I promise."
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— nct dream and the types of kisses they'd like :: receiving
[ღ] MARK — MORNING KISSES. waking up next to you makes him feel a sense of security. what else could be better than receiving morning kisses from his one and only the first thing in the morning? be it a soft peck on the cheek, a forehead kiss, or holding his hands in yours and giving it a kiss, he'd love 'em all.
[ღ] RENJUN — CHEEK KISSES. he's just so soft for your cheek kisses. the way he finds himself instantly smiling whenever you give him a peck on the cheek. he loves the soft and warm feeling of your lips on his cheeks. he may act as if he doesn't like it and all lmao, but the truth is — he secretly loves it.
[ღ] JENO — NECK KISSES. hear. me. out. jeno just l o v e s neck kisses. his eyes crinkle up and a smile spreads across his face whenever you give him neck kisses. he just feels so warm and fuzzy every single time. neck kisses, but in the softest way possible uwu. especially the one's when y'all hug <//3
[ღ] HAECHAN — ‘I LOVE YOU, BUT PLEASE SHUT UP’ KISSES. he loves it when you kiss him to shut him up. at times, he intentionally rambles a lot to annoy you just so you could shut him up by kissing him. and you are pretty much aware of it too, but there's no way you could resist a lee haechan lmao.
[ღ] JAEMIN — FOREHEAD KISSES. see, he's the type to baby you a l o t. but he secretly loves being babied too. he lives for the goodnight/goodmorning forehead kisses. or when he may be kinda down, and you give him a reassuring kiss on the forehead, gently whispering that everything will be alright, he loves that </3
[ღ] CHENLE + JISUNG — NOSE KISSES. I found this one to be the cutest of them all. I feel like giving them a kiss on the nose is so cute, yet subtly intimate. they would find the short, soft pecks on their nose to be so endearing. it'd be like your own little thing that you guys do. cuTe
© BLUEJAEM, 2021
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𝟬𝟬:𝟬𝟬 𝗢’𝗖𝗟𝗢𝗖𝗞: 𝗔𝗨𝗚, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟭
alternatively, find me in another life.
running away from fate would never work; it never did and it never will, that’s just how it was. you were bound to a fate from the moment you were born, from the moment you opened your eyes into the cold, harsh world. you had hated it for as long as you could remember, and yet, here you were begging for fate to hold on just a little while longer.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — park jisung x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — soulmates!au, fluff, angst
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 9k-12k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — soulmates collaboration by @seularcade
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗔 𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗧𝗟𝗘 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗘𝗗 𝗨 & 𝗜: 𝗝𝗨𝗟𝗬, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟭
hopping away from the city life and into the small village of your parents for the summer break, you had expected things to happen and to a certain extent, you were right, things did happen. you just hoped that this too-sweet-to-be-true time would not pass by too quickly.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — park jisung x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — fluff, angst, strangers to lovers
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 8k-10k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — neo summer love by @chittapornswife
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗨𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗟 𝗜 𝗙𝗜𝗡𝗗 𝗬𝗢𝗨: 𝗦𝗘𝗣, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟭
don’t stop running, never ever stop clawing at the ground. never stop hoping, for that is your only option left, your only chance. life turned upside down in the worst way possible, your only hope is to run and hide.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — none, starring lee taeyong and reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — angst, yandere!au
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 4k-5k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — cliffhanger by @nakamotocore
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗗𝗥𝗜𝗣𝗣𝗜𝗡 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘: 𝗢𝗖𝗧, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟭
moving into a brand new city, you never expected your first trip to the local park to be of this kind. the sight of a beautiful man sucking the life out of an innocent bystander in the middle of the woods really was not what you were going for. being said beautiful human’s (?) next door neighbor also was not on that list.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — na jaemin x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — angst, vampire!au, fluff
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 9k-10k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — neo creatures by @raibebe
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗘𝗥: 𝗧𝗕𝗔, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟭
enter nakamoto yuta, codename ’healer’, a skilled night courier who steals items for his clients in return for money. enter you, a not so ordinary student, dead set on leading a peaceful life of painting and selling your works for an irregularly high amount of sum.
an anonymous call from a burner phone requesting healer to whisk away the most worthless looking painting — yet the priciest one at that — from a no-name student who works part time in a bakery leaves him puzzled and sets the story rolling.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — nakamoto yuta x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — healer!au, fluff, angst, action
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 10k-15k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — painted by you by @urlocalnctstan
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗚𝗛𝗢𝗦𝗧 𝗢𝗙 𝗬𝗢𝗨: 𝗙𝗘𝗕, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟮
waking up to a libido of life and death was the last thing you had expected to find yourself in and now that you thought about it, it felt like you had been hit by a truck. unable to do anything but annoy passing by dogs and cats, occasionally scaring the lights out of little kids, you finally decide to follow that little voice in your head, that annoying command that kept repeating the same thing over and over again: follow jung jaehyun, your killer.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — villain!jung jaehyun x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — supernatural, angst, thriller, action
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — hopefully 20k-25k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — the devil’s spawn by @nctream
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗜𝗡 𝗕𝗘𝗧𝗪𝗘𝗘𝗡 𝗧𝗪𝗜𝗟𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧𝗦: 𝗔𝗣𝗥, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟮
convincing yourself that a small visit to your grandfather’s mountain house over the summer wouldn’t be the worst and most boring time of your life, you end up making friends with the local handsome spirit.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — lee taeyong x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — hotarubi no mori e!au, angst, fluff, fantasy
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 10k-15k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — kokuhaku by @sweetlyjaem
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
𝗖𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗧𝗗𝗢𝗪𝗡 𝗧𝗢 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗩𝗘𝗡: 𝗗𝗘𝗖, 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟮
23 days, that was how far back he needed to go back in order to change the course of the future, the one he had been broken by. it didn’t matter how many times he had to do it, he would succeed, he had to. for your sake, lee jeno had to go back 23 days in time over and over again in order to save you.
𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 — lee jeno x reader
𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 — time travel!au, angst, fluff
𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 — 15k-20k
𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 — turn back time by @lebrookestore
𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸/𝗱𝗺 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁.
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what date nct dream would take you on
Mark — You drive around in his car for a while and converse endlessly. Stopping by at a convenience store you grab your favorite snacks and drinks for later because he takes you to a drive-in theater.
Renjun — Renjun is artistic, just like you. You meet up and paint together, give each other drawing/sketching challenges. Maybe drawing an animal that reminds you of the other?
Jeno — You go on a bike tour together. Jeno prepared food himself and brought a blanket so you could picknick at your destination. He overcomes his shyness and feeds you with a strawberry.
Haechan — He loves singing. Singing to you, dedicating songs to you. He loves impressing you and making you smile. You two go to a karaoke bar. And afterwards you get yourselves some McDonalds and sit in his car for a while and talk.
Jaemin — Jaemin and you are visiting a botanical garden. He naturally takes your hand right after paying and entering the garden. You’re flustered at first but it makes you fall for him even more.
Chenle — Hear me out. Movie and board games night + building a blanket fort. Chenle and you let out your inner child, forget about the troubles and stress of the daily life and laugh a lot together. You love his smile and laugh and so does he with yours.
Jisung — Jisung actually has everything exactly planned out. He found some odd, unusal tourist attractions he wants to take you to and later on you play some two-person games like table tennis. You find his commitment so sweet and take his hand because we all know Jisung would probably be so shy himself.
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bf!haechan tiktok series
calling a friend while my bf plays to get him off his game
pairings: bf!haechan x fem!reader
you were at the dorms for the fourth time this week, you had spent the night last night and it was now the next evening. your boyfriend was on his computer playing with renjun and chenle, you were on the bed which was situated right behind his desk.
haechan has been playing games since the afternoon, and even though you’ve been spending time with him practically all week, you were needy for his attention right now.
you picked up your phone, holding it up to your ear. “hello?”
“hey! are you here?” haechan was still focused on the screen in front of him, not paying you any mind.
“okay great, i can come down right now.” you said before shoving your phone in your pocket. your tote bag was hanging on his game chair, walking over to grab it.
“i’m leaving hyuck, bye.” you told your boyfriend, kissing his forehead before patting his head. you turned around to head to the door.
he turns his chair around to face you, his headset around his neck. “wait, where you going?” he asked, confused as he finally sees your keys in hand and your tote bag hanging on your shoulder.
“i’m hanging out with my friend, she’s already here. bye!” you turn around to open the door but yet again your boyfriend stops you.
“you’re just gonna leave?” he pouts, slouching in his chair.
you nod, “yeah, you’ve been playing games for awhile so i thought i could just leave.” you shrugged.
he takes off his headset and closes out of his game, ignoring the questions from his members through the mic before they were cut off. “don’t go, you have my attention now.” he stomps towards you, you couldn’t even react before he takes your tote bag and keys and tosses them on johnny’s bed.
he wraps his arms around your waist, hoisting you up as he plops you onto his bed, the bed dips next to you.
he throws his leg over yours and an arm around your torso. “if your friend gets impatient then she’ll leave and your all mine.” he smirks.
you scoff, “my friend isn’t even here anyways.”
he picks his head up to look at you.
“i was just joking so i could have your undivided attention and love.” you smile, you encase him with a hug and squeeze him as hard as you can.
“fair play.” he mumbles, and you go the rest of the night ordering take out and rewatching demon slayer for the sixth time.
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19. — HAECHAN
a/n: angst | enemies!au | <0.5k words
From birth you two were rivals. Always competing, always striving to be better than one another. Your parents expected a fight. So you guess that’s why you were startled when you two kissed for the first time.
It took you a few minutes to able process what just happened before you find your strength to pushed him away. You glared the man in front of you.
“Lee Donghyuck, what did you just do!? Are you crazy?”
“I’ve got to get this off my chest. I’m sorry, this is going to be weird for you, but I just can’t keep pushing it down. You might not want to speak to me again, and it might ruin everything but…I have feelings for you. I’m tired of keep pretending to hate you.”
“That was the worst lie that I ever heard from you, Lee. I don’t know what are you trying to do, but for your information, it’s not gonna work on me.”
“You just don’t get it, do you?” He ran a hand through his hair, utterly frustrated where you only looked calmly back at him. “I didn’t send you ten insults and one love confession for you to leave me without an answer.”
“You call that love confession? No wonder your past relationship never last than a month.”
“Hey, don’t drag my past to this!”
“Then tell me, tell me why you did all those horrible things to me even when you have feelings to me? Why, instead of making me like you, you make me hate you more and more!?”
“I just...” Donghyuck didn’t dare to look you in the eyes. Nothing came out from his mouth.
“That’s what I thought.” You sighed before bumped his shoulder on purpose as you walked away. “Thanks for wasting my time.”
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NCT 127 Masterlist
If you would like to request send me an ask of which member, genre (angst, fluff, etc) and a description of what you want and I’ll do it as fast as I can :)
Touch Me (Smut, Fluff)
Argument (Angst, Fluff)
I Got You (Angst, tint Fluff) SELF HARM!
Right There (Fluff)
Making You Blush (fluff)
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renjun reaction to his daughter telling him she had a bf in pre-k or kinder pls -🦋
a/n :: hi 🦋 anon, i hope you don’t mind i added the other members as well. enjoy!
nct dream reaction to their daughter having a boyfriend in kindergarten
[ㅁ] mark —
his face of pure SHOCK
his baby??? dating?? someone? and so young????
he reaches out to ruffle her hair and cup her little face in his hands
“baby i don’t think you’re allowed to date when you’re literally six,” he giggles
to which she responds, “we’re meant to be” with the cutest smile
he’d laugh about it at first but still against the idea of his little girl dating, like mnhhhgg just no
[ㄹ] renjun —
his heart literally dropped to the floor
and he asked her to repeat several times, not believing his ears
nervous smile check
“i don’t want to be that parent, but please don’t let anyone near you. i don’t want you to grow up just yet yet,” he sniffed jokingly
she beamed at him and said, “i won’t daddy”
and he just MELTED ugh
kisses her little forehead to seal the deal
[ㅈ] jeno —
he protecc >:c his little girl >:c at all costs >:c
that means no boys, no bullies, no one to take her from him
so when she told him about her kinder bf
he kinda went 🥺
“are you forgetting about me already?”
but bro she’s like 6, what does she know ffs
[ㅎ] haechan —
HE’D BE THE SOFTEST WITH HER OMG
“are you absolutely sure you have a boyfriend my love? i didn’t think you had it in you. well, you are your father’s girl i guess,” he mumbles, tucking her hair behind her ear
she tilts her head in confusion and he laughs, picking her up and putting her in his lap
“i’m kidding. no boys until you’re.....wait, no boys at all! ever!”
he’s the selfish type to want his baby girl all to himself :’)
[ㅈ] jaemin —
ANOTHER. SOFT. FATHER.
“no, no you’re still a baby, why are you dating in kinder??”
he picks her up and cuddles her close until she squirms to be let down
tries convincing her that he’s the only male she needs in her life lmao
he’d probably murder anyone that came within 10 feet of his baby, even if they’re only 6 years old
that was a joke but he’s protective
[ㅊ] chenle —
he thinks she’s joking at first
because he doesn’t really want think about the fact that his little girl is aware of BOYS now 😫
“aren’t you too young to be dating baby?” he asked, smiling softly at her innocent eyes and smoothing her messy hair
she shakes her head and claims that she’s a big girl
he laughs because she’s literally in kindergarten,,,like woah there buddy
doesn’t think much of it
[ㅈ] jisung —
doesn’t really know how to react
he almost laughed if she wasn’t looking at him so seriously
he thinks she’s super cute, telling him about her boyfriend in her little pigtails and adorable overalls
on one hand he wants to be protective and convince her that dating isn’t a good idea
on the other hand, he knows she’s still small and it’s probably harmless
he decided to sweep her up in his arms and pepper kisses all over her tiny face
“forget about that boyfriend of yours, let’s watch finding nemo or something”
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WHEN THEY CALL YOU CLINGY - DREAM
[requested by anon!]
You had tagged along with him to the studio to give him moral support. You were glad you were there because he kept getting frustrated with himself over not being able to rap one line correctly.
You told the producer to stop the music so you could enter the recording booth. “Hey, you’re being too hard on yourself.” You pouted at him, your arms open ready to give him a warm hug of reassurance. But no. Mark just looked you up and down as if to say that you’re in his space.
“Can you leave? You’re being too clingy and you’re distracting me from doing my job,” Mark ran a hand through his hair with a huff, the spread sheet of lyrics becoming a blur for him. “Why are you still here? I told you that you’re being too clingy, just leave. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
You stared at him in shock. Never has he been rude to you when things don’t go to plan, but if this was the way he was going to behave then fine. Suit him.
“Don’t expect to see me for a few days. My sincerest apologies if I’m too cling, Mr. Perfect.” You rolled your eyes and left the studio, heading back to your own apartment to sit by yourself and binge on Netflix.
“What’s wrong with you today?” You stepped back and looked down at your boyfriend after he had just shaken you off him for the fourth time that day. “You keep shoving me off, is something the matter? Did I do something wrong?”
“Just stop touching me for once. You’re too fucking clingy today,” Renjun suddenly snapped at you.
You weren’t expecting him to say that and the expression on your face said so. “Alright then. Be a little bitch.” You walked away from him, plopping yourself down on the sofa to leave him in the kitchen.
Renjun loved having you around and loved the attention you always gave him; so he also found it strange as to why he had called you clingy and snapped at you.
You waited for him to cool down before you spoke to him again, “You still being a little bitch or can I touch you now?” The tone of your voice irked something inside him, but he couldn’t blame you, he was at fault here.
You loved sitting on Jeno’s lap whenever you had the chance to, and he loved having his arms wrapped around your smaller frame whenever he had the chance to. So when both were combined, the two of you were in a small state of comfort heaven.
“No, I’m not distracted,” Jeno spoke into his headset, his eyes rolling at the accusation coming from his friends. “I just have Y/N on my lap right now, she’s being very clingy today.”
He knew straight away that he didn’t mean it and that he shouldn’t have said it, but for some odd reason it automatically came out of his mouth.
You hummed to yourself, getting off his lap and moving to his bed. “Where are you going, baby?” Jeno’s voice sounded a little hurt, but you were the one who was allowed to be hurt right now.
“I’m just moving to sit on your bed since you think I’m being clingy today, nothing too extreme.” Your lips were pursed in a straight line, your body pressed against the wall as far as you could go.
Jeno frowned, “I didn’t mean it...”
“Just play your game.”
You knew from the moment you entered this relationship that he was a lover of skinship and being in contact all the time. But what you didn’t know was how he would react further down the line when you try and reciprocate his feelings and actions.
You were just getting everybody some drinks when you overheard Haechan whispering about you in the living room, “I love her... but I can’t stand how she wants to hug me all the time. Like I’m all for hugging once in awhile, but all the damn time? Like no, I need my space, stop clinging to me.”
You stopped making the drinks and headed into the living room, “You want space, hm? I’ll give you space if that’s what you really want.”
Haechan looked at you puzzled, but then he realised you had overheard him speaking about you to his members. “Y/N, baby, wait. It wasn’t what it sounded like.”
You stopped before you opened the front door, “Then what did it sound like then? Because to me, it sounded pretty straight forward. Just message me when you’re done with your supposed space needing.”
You thought the world of each other and nothing was ever going to change that... well, that is until he calls you clingy to your face.
“I’m the clingy one?” You scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest. Your boyfriend was notoriously known for being by your side 24/7 and having a hand on you at all times. If he found himself not in arms reach of you, he would make a fuss until he has you right by him.
Jaemin tilted his head to the side, “And what are you meaning by that? Don’t try and pin this around on me! You’re clingy and you know it.”
“You know what, Jaemin? Maybe I am clingy, but at least I don’t have to have the reassurance of my partner every single second of every single day. Just once in your life can you not keep your hands to yourself? I’m sitting right next to you, I don’t want you breathing down my neck.” You didn’t intend for this argument to go this far, but it did.
“Okay, fine! I won’t put my hands on you ever again. That also means you can’t touch me either, we done here?” Jaemin stepped back, getting ready to walk away from you and to somewhere secluded in the dorm.
“We’re very much done here.” You stormed off in a different direction to him. Both of you feeling weird by not being near each other, but you were too stubborn to do anything and so was he.
He had invited you over to his house, his Mother was still there but that didn’t bother you as you liked speaking with her. You found her wise and very approachable for when you need advice about a problem in your life.
“He told you what?” Your hands clasped in your lap, you squeezed your fingers together to keep yourself calm. “He told you that I was too clingy for his liking? Why would he say that? He’s the one who invites me everywhere and wants me to be around him all the time, I’m confused.”
“What did you tell her?” Chenle walked back into the room, his eyes darting from his Mother to you.
“I just told her what you told me, dear. She needs to be told what you think of her, I won’t be keeping your feelings private when it comes to the one you’re with. It isn’t fair on them.”
You looked at Chenle, your eyes were trying so desperately not the look away, “If you found me clingy, why didn’t you just tell me? Why did you have to go and tell your Mum?”
“I don’t know... I guess I felt too bad if I told you to stop being so clingy. I’m sorry, princess, I really am.” Chenle sat down next to you, taking your hands in his, “Please forgive me?”
He’s new to being in a relationship and doesn’t exactly know what occurs when in one. But that still doesn’t give him the right to speak about what goes on in both of your lives to his friends.
Yes, he can seek out advice, but it’s a big fat no if he’s blatantly saying hurtful things, even if he doesn’t realise he’s saying it.
You had just come out of the bathroom, about to walk back into his room where you had heard him speak through his gaming headset. “I don’t know what to think about it. I mean, I haven’t had a relationship before, but a part of me knows that being this clingy isn’t normal. Am I overreacting?”
You frowned upon hearing that - but what could you do? You couldn’t exactly tell him not to voice out how he feels.
You had your hand on the door handle, your fingers gripping it tightly before you pushed it open. Jisung snapped his head towards you upon hearing his door open, his mouth hung open as he took in your solemn state. “Y/N...”
You shook your head, “It’s fine. I understand, I’ll try not to cling to you as much. I didn’t know it bothered you.” You moved to sit on his bed, your back facing him as you mindlessly scrolled through your phone, not wanting to continue speaking to him.
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i <3 u lee donghyuck.
haechan angst for you!! this is based on boy pablo’s song: i <3 u!! i suggest you play the song while reading!
you watch him from afar, playing with his friends as you found yourself smiling unconsciously at the man. haechan was your closest friend, being able to talk to him almost every night with the weirdest topics always made your heart flutter.
you liked him for a while now, considering that you’ve met him in the most cliche way as possible. meeting him under the rain while tears were flowing down your cheeks was a blessing and a curse. the first time you heard his voice made you feel warm, as if the sun was near you even though your clothes were dripping from the rain. he hugged you tight, telling you the most comforting words that made you sob even more. donghyuck is a very warm person, hence why he got the name ‘haechan’ which meant fullsun. the man did remind you of the sun.
after that incident, donghyuck made sure to check up on you once in a while, hence, this was the reason why you got closer. He would tell you his problems when he needed someone to vent, which goes the same to you, it would reach to the point where he cries on your shoulder for no reason. But you understood.
the time you realized that you love the latter was when love songs reminded you of him. Picking a song from your laptop, you watched donghyuck sing a familiar song while he works on his computer, your cheeks getting red and your heart beat racing faster. he continued to type on the project he was working on while you watch his features in fascination. that night made you play more love songs, thinking of him while your lips curl up.
going back to the present, you and donghyuck didnt talk much anymore, it was sad, but you have to face reality anyway. the friendship that you both had made you realize that he was more than just “the funny guy” or “the moodmaker” but he was very talented and sweet. Donghyuck is a genuine person, and you were glad that you met him in this life.
“lets hope that the stars align for the both of us next time.” you mumble, walking as you watch the sunset.
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nct dream reaction to you displaying affection infront of the other members
finally back with another reaction! i tried my best to suit each scenario with the member,, i hope you enjoy reading it!
i don’t think he would mind
but he’d just be surprised
so when you hug him and pepper him with kisses (after not having seen him in weeks) infront of the dreamies
(you didn’t know they were all watching)
mark’s face washed completely pink
“why are you being weird? kiss me back” you whine, still not realising the others were there
until haechan let out a mischievous chuckle
“oh shit” both you and mark muttered
you quickly pulled away from mark, trying your best to ignore what had just occurred
but that wasn’t easy,, haechan was a menace
the rest of the night was filled with light teasing
“markie! come kiss me” haechan would exaggerate pouted lips
you and mark tried to ignore it, simply opting for mark’s arm to be slung around you as you sat next to him
once you were both able to get some alone time
mark was all over you,, literally,, would not get off you
“i’m sorry about before, here is your kiss now!” he would giggle as he lightly pecked your lips
it was nice to have him in your arms again
doesn’t seem like the one to initiate affection in general, unless you are both alone
the dreamies invited you over for lunch, in which you kindly accepted
you sat next to renjun at the table, munching on the delicious food they had set out
everything was going great, the atmosphere was up and everyone was having a great time
you noticed that renjun had some sauce (HOT SAUCE) on the side of his mouth
you quickly pulled his face to meet yours, ignoring the looks of the other boys
“ah let me clean you up” you mumbled to yourself, wiping off the sauce with your napkin before leaning in to peck his lips out of habit
it was a normal thing to do between you and renjun
he would have done the same to you
but definitely NOT infront of the members
you immediately widened your eyes after the kiss, wanting nothing more than to crawl under the table and stay there for the rest of the day
“i want to make a joke but i don’t want renjun to kill me” jeno chimed in
renjun glared at all of them, he knew how flustered you were
so he tried to change the subject, calming you down by gently resting his hand on your thigh
he gave it a small squeeze before leaning over to whisper to you “thankyou for keeping our little ritual, babe. i will make it up to you when we’re alone”
it wouldn’t be unusual for the members to see jeno pecking your cheeks or having his arm around your waist
but it was unusual when they saw you quite literally attack jeno with cuddles and kisses when you thought no one else was at the dorms
before jeno could even give you a heads up, you engulfed him in a warm hug, kissing his forehead repeatedly
“i love youuuu” *kiss* “more than anything!” *kiss*
jeno was enjoying it way too much to even notice the other members standing to the side
renjun let out a loud cough, signalling the group’s presence
you literally froze in your place, hiding your face in your boyfriend’s chest
“oh hey guys, care to join us?” jeno snickered, knowing it was only making you more embarrassed
renjun and haechan both pretended to vomit
jaemin took a step towards you guys, mark having to stop him
“please just keep the pda to a level 1 when we’re here, we don’t need to know what happens during lovey dovey time” mark sighed as the rest of the boys joined you on the couch
you still had your head hidden in jeno’s chest, not wanting to face them
jeno only chuckled softly, pulling you to his side, stroking your hair as the boys changed the subject completely, now setting up for a competitive game of mario kart
“you’re so cute, i love you” jeno whispered so the other’s couldn’t hear
“i love you too” you muttered, ears heating up
he messaged you that he had just returned from schedules, asking you to keep him company for the night as he wound down from his long day
you didn’t think much of it, rushing to his room once you had arrived
you practically jumped into his bed, giving him smooches left, right and centre
he was basking in all the glory of having you with him
but when chenle and jisung walk into the room, ready to ask haechan to play some games with them
they didn’t expect to see you on top of him
you loudly screeched once you heard them knock on the door
hitting your head on haechan’s headboard
the two boys scurried off, probably already telling jaemin and jeno what they had just witnessed
“oh god i can never show my face here again! those two twats are gonna make it seem like we were...gonna do it!” you cry dramatically
“wait so we aren’t gonna do it?” your boyfriend tried his best to light up the mood
earning a loud slap from you to his shoulder
you weren’t the type to initiate affection in general, so haechan couldn’t help but enjoy how flustered you were
eventually you both forgot about it, cuddling as you caught up on eachother’s days
there was another series of knocks at the door, this time jaemin and jeno entering
“uh y/n, we know you miss haechan a lot these days, but can you please lock the door if you’re gonna have se-“
“WE WEREN’T DOING ANYTHING!” you groan in frustration, hiding your face with a pillow
haechan just sat and giggled, way too entertained with the entire situation
he couldn’t have felt more proud
so this is what you get for showing affection...
adores you so much, even more when you initiate affection
but never pressures you to kiss / hug him or anything, he just lets you do it when you please
you were hanging out with the 00 line, deciding to go on a walk to the pier and have ice cream
all was going well, jaemin held your hand tightly as always
the others trailing behind you both, making comments like:
“we get ittttt, you two are the cutest couple ever, dont need to rub it in!”
“atleast they haven’t kissed yet!”
you smirked to yourself, knowing they were only teasing
jaemin pulled you closer to him, telling you to ignore them
you shook your head, an idea coming to mind
you show your boyfriend a mischievous smile, pulling his face closer to yours as you both stop in the middle of the walkway
“let’s give them a show” you didn’t give jaemin enough time to react before you pressed your lips against his
jaemin’s hands immediately attached to your waist, pulling you into him as he smirked into the kiss
he was just as shocked as the rest but who was he to deny a kiss from you?
he didn’t want to admit it but he was enjoying this way too much
haechan was ready to leave right then and there
renjun just shook his head, wanting nothing more than for you two to stop making out in public
jeno couldn’t help but chuckle at the sight
you finally pull away from jaemin, sending the boys a shy smile before taking jaemin’s hand and skipping off with him
jaemin couldn’t help but lick his lips after, wanting to kiss you once more
“they are gross, but somehow it’s endearing” jeno shrugged, leading the two grossed out boys to the ice cream parlour
i feel like he enjoys affection, but isn’t usually the one to initiate it himself
you’d both be sitting with the other members, playing board games or something
you would lean closer to him, rubbing your shoulders together
or gently pushing loose strands of hair from his face
he enjoyed small touches like that, but when you decide that you want a kiss from him, he freezes
“please, just one?” you whispered, completely ignoring the game at this point
he felt his ears heat up, feeling the eyes of his members on him now
he was having an internal debate
of course he wanted to kiss you, but he was always the one who would tease his members if they did anything like this
karma was going to get him real good
“r-right now?” you nod eagerly
he nodded back, leaning closer to you as you finally pressed your lips on his
a choir of moans and groans from the other members erupted
chenle immediately pulled away, feeling slightly embarrassed but also enjoying the feeling of kissing you
he started getting cocky when the other members began expressing their disgust
“you guys are just jealous that i’m getting kissed and you’re not” he huffs
“you wish! you two are disgustingly adorable” jisung rolls his eyes, earning laughter from everyone at the table
the board game resumed, jisung still having a distasteful look on his face
“i hope i didn’t embarrass you too much” you mumble to your boyfriend
“i don’t get embarrassed, love” he cheekily grinned, wrapping an arm around your shoulder as you rolled the die for your turn
my shy baby boy
pls he would combust the first time you ever held hands
you knew he felt uncomfortable at times with pda so you refrained from doing too much infront of others
but one day, you were just feeling extra cuddly and loving
and it happened to be the day of the weekly movie night with the members
you sat to jisung, playing with his hands gently as you tuned into the movie
you started to feel yourself drift off to sleep, slowly leaning your head into his shoulder
jisung would immediately freeze up, hoping the others wouldn’t notice
but they did
you subconsciously brought your arm to wrap around his torso, snuggling into his side
jisung’s face was as red as a tomato at this point, he didn’t want to push you off but he also felt the stares of the six other boys on him
“psstt, y/n” jisung whispered to you, gently stroking your hair as you felt your eyes flutter open
you quickly pulled away from jisung, after making eye contact with the rest of the group
“jisung, why did you wake them up? they looked so peaceful!” chenle teased, making jisung even more flustered than he already was
“i’m sorry, sung. it won’t happen again” you felt bad (kind of) since you knew how he didn’t want to be teased
jisung just shook his head, deciding to pull your head back to rest of his shoulder, and your arm to wrap around him once again
it took you by surprise to say the least
“don’t stress, it’s about time we cuddle like this” he placed a soft kiss to your forehead, smiling softly while ignoring the looks from his members
truth was, they all found it endearing how soft jisung got with you
their little baby was finally growing up!
jisung would feel proud of himself (and you) for finally displaying affection openly
it solidified that your relationship was the real deal!
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[9:30AM] “I cant believe you still had a baby tooth” Donghyuck laughed waltzing out of the dentist doors with his arm around your shoulder. “you’re all gummy now”
“I’m not gummy. It was only two teeth and they’re back ones so you can’t even see it” you argued, speech slightly muffled due to the numbing.
“your tooth was huge- like an octopus man...it could have killed the dentist”
“donghyuck shut up and drive”
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high school sweethearts; l.dh
Pairing: Lee Donghyuck x reader
Themes: highschool! au, highschool love, dark undertones
Warnings: slightly deranged reader, very subtle angst, mentions of a bad previous relationship, mentions of a bad home situation, mentions of cheating, underage drinking, its just messed up man
Taglist: (requested by @sunryu) @danishmiilk @channoticedmeuwu @chicksung @1-800-seo @blueprint-han @jenosslut @cupidluvstarrz @kkakkdugi @sweetlyjaem @leetaeyonglover @kunrengui @unknown5tar @kisshim @intokook @mrkcore @coco-riki @kiri-ah @koishua
Authors Note: IDK WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS I used the whole cry baby storyline as inspiration for this fic! Based off Melanie Martinez’s high school sweetheart, its a bit of a darker fic!! I had fun writing this, even though im not quite sure what it ended up as ;-; I hope you like it ana!
Listen to: High School Sweethearts by Melanie Martinez!
You hated wasting time.
You crossed one leg over the other, propping your chin up on the palm of your hand, watching him carefully. Donghyuck licked his lips nervously, refusing to meet your eyes. His uneasiness somewhat comforted you.
His honey hair fell across his forehead gently, framing his face. He played with the ends on his sleeves, fidgeting. His lips were red from all the biting he had done in his flustered state. You knew he had something to say, yet he was holding in it.
Wasting your time.
“What is it, Hyuck?” You sighed, leaning across the table. At the sound of your voice his eyes snapped up to yours.
He had shown up at your door at eight in the morning, claiming that the two of you had to talk. You didn’t want to talk, but you let him in, and the two of you were sitting at your dining table, while you waiting for him to get on with it.
Maybe you were being a little harsh on him, refusing to acknowledge the obvious elephant in the room. Did you know what he wanted to talk about? Of course you did, but you were selfish. You preferred to save yourself before anyone else.
You had been hurt before.
He winced slightly, shifting in his seat. “I-uh- are we going to talk about it?”
“What is there to talk about?”
You feigned innocence, blinking confusedly. He sighed frustratedly. It was always so hard with you, you never gave even an inch. And he tried so hard with you.
He made a mistake of loving you.
“What do you think?”
You raised an eyebrow at him. You hadn’t expected to be challenged, the power play had shifted ever so slightly with that question. Glancing down at your fingers, you intertwined them together and sighed.
Hyuck smiled sweetly, “You kissed me.”
And you had, and what a kiss, it was bitter and sweet and thrilling all at the same time. It was a gamble, you knew he loved you, and you loved him back but you were fragile. You hated the prospect of dragging him into your world. He didn’t deserve that.
You had dated before, and it had never been like what you expected, or what you had wanted. None of them ever met the criteria you had laid out, they didn;t accept you for who you were.
Your heart was like glass, it had been cracked and broken before. Maybe it was absurd to expect to find love in high school, but it was what you expected. You deserved it after what you’ve been through.
But you were scared, because you had seen your mother go through your fathers madness, the nights he’d ‘go for a drive’ and not come back for weeks, the ‘business trips’. He had wasted her time.
You didn’t want to go through that.
“I did kiss you,” you said, “A mistake, I was drunk. I’m sorry.”
“It wasn’t a mistake, you wanted to.” He said smoothly, getting up from the table and getting closer to you. You averted your eyes, your turn to be nervous. He stayed silent, fingers brushing over your own as he took your hand in his. He was right, you had wanted to kiss him. He was right and you didn’t like it.
What if he broke your heart? You’d go mad, because you liked him a little too much. He knew this as well, he was waiting for you to tell him. By staying silent, you were wasting his time. He was wasting yours.
Would he still want you when he realized you weren’t perfect? If he knew you were finicky, all over the place. What if he couldn’t handle your heart?
He cupped your face, forcing you to look up at him. You felt your breathing get heavy as you peered into his honey eyes. This was a waste of time, he was a waste of time. You had no time for a sweetheart, you had to get through the hell that was your family.
You liked this waste of time, though.
“I-” He cut you off, pressing his lips to yours. Those warnings screamed in your head again, what if broke your heart? What if he hurt you? What it-
His hands squeezed yours, as if you reassure you that he loved you. Your mind was in a frenzy. You wanted him, you wanted him so bad. It felt so good, being in his arms. You liked the thought of being with him, him being there for you.
You loved Lee Donghyuck even when you knew you shouldn’t.
He pulled away, cocking hiss head to the side like a puppy. “Give me a chance?” He whispered hopefully, thumb brushing over your cheekbone. You sighed closing your eyes and trying to think.
Would he be able to handle you?
You swallowed the lump in your throat, nodding softly. You’d tell him later, intertwining your fingers and looking at him. “Don’t waste my time Lee Donghyuck.”
He smiled, “I wouldn’t dream of it.”
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"I will behave" - Chenle.
Note : okay this has been in my head for like forever and I was gonna write a whole fic about it but here have this instead 😁
Also here's a pic of Haechan and Daegal 😂
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"Can we get a pet pig 🥺" - Donghyuck.
Note: I'm bored so decided to make this. Might delete it later 😃
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