Happy birthday to our favorite daozhang! this image appeared in my head prompted by a conversation with @honokamoriko about a blushy/laughing xingchen and I needed to make it real <3
Apparently, it's Xue Yang's birthday today!! Congrats to my favorite crazy-clever-sometimes-soft-and-never-be-able-to-shut-the-fuck-up-when-needed-and-a-bachelor-of-the-demonic-cultivation-villain boy!
I want to kiss his pretty cheeks even knowing I'll be definitely killed afterwards. And also I want him to know the following:
Will your daozhang's soul ever be whole again, so he could at least find peace?Probably not. Would he ever forgive you, if you "threw away your demons" (a quote from Xue Yang's character song)? Also probably not. But all what happened in Yi city, during those three years that you were together, was real. His feelings for you - well, to the person you became while living with him - were real. And you still have this person inside you.
And yes, you're right, Song Lan sometimes sucks and is a huge killjoy.
#you are in fact autistic please try to get help so just trying to live won't leave you disabled for life
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Chapter 48 - As The Waters Flow of Heaven Has A Road But No One Walks It is up! :D
The rains caught up with them at last, and any hope that it might ease the sweltering heat was thoroughly dashed – the air was so thick with humidity, it was worse than the mists back in Yi City, thick and heavy and hot.
And yet, despite the discomfort of damp, clinging robes and the relentless heat... there was a comfortable familiarity, a sense of peace to simply walking.
“I have been thinking, lately, about the flow of water,” Xiao Xingchen mused out loud, unthinkingly letting a nudge from Xue Yang's elbow steer him around yet some other puddle or muddy patch. “And I've realized that by setting my heart so firmly on what we hoped to achieve in Jinlintai, making it the one goal above all others... I blinded myself to the greater truth of what it is I – we - actually hope to do.”
“Of course,” Xue Yang amiably agreed, and he really should have seen the bad joke coming, he should have, “you are blind, Daozhang.”
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Things are heating up, and it's not just the weather. 💚
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113 notes - Posted October 21, 2022
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134 notes - Posted August 23, 2022
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Can't help but oblige and ask about your hc for the origins of Song Lan's mysophobia👀
I know I outright encouraged the question, but wow. 😂
So this was a headcanon I picked up for Heaven Has A Road after actually writing the events that partially gave rise to it.
When I was on vacation a couple of months back, I found myself without hand sanitizer after visiting a store, and after the last two years of pandemic and the super-strict regulations at that particular location, being unable to sanitize my hands for those few minutes before I got back to the hotel really made my skin crawl. Like there were potential pathogens all over them, to the point I could almost feel it.
And so logically, I thought to myself "Wow, this must be how Song Lan feels at all times."
And then my next thought was "Huh, and he was the one who immediately picked up on the abandoned zombie village having been devastated by a plague..."
So, a Song Lan who knows to spot the aftermath of a plague, a Song Lan obsessed with staying clean, avoiding closeness and touch... A Song Lan raised by a temple, because he had no family of his own...
Maybe the first plague he saw was his home village. Maybe toddler Song Lan was told by terrified relatives not to approach strangers, not to touch, wash your hands, keep clean - or the sickness will get you, will get us all...
And then it did.
Maybe Song Lan was taken in by Baixue because everyone else was gone. Dead. Their bodies twisted and swollen and festering, ruined and tainted by sickness. Uncleanness. And if you touch, if you get dirty, if you don't stay clean... It will get you too. Get you, and all those you care about.
He was too young to consciously remember any of it. In his mind, there's nothing before Baixue.
But after that, he never stopped compulsively washing his hands.
And he still can't make himself touch.
230 notes - Posted February 24, 2022
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Happy birthday, Xue Yang!
There will be happy endings in your future yet! ♥♥♥
253 notes - Posted July 23, 2022
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Just your casual reminder that when faced with an enemy knocked flat on his back, Xiao Xingchen’s reaction was to go straight for the heart.
No demanding he surrender. No using the spirit-trapping rope he carries in his sleeve to restrain him. No hesitation, no quarter.
In that moment, beautiful Bright Moon Xiao Xingchen was 100% down for ice cold murder, and you can’t tell me Xue Yang didn’t fall in love then and there. ♥
@aristarchos said: They didn’t have much, the few bits of money they did have was needed to make sure they bought of enough food to last them until the next. But after the first year of being together, of living in this place, of being told A-Yang had a birthday, Xiao Xingchen wanted to do something special.
He’d been able to get A-Qing to distract him for a few days, it was always funny when he’d complain about it. How he’d much rather spend his time with the Taoist then ‘blind brat.’ But Xiao Xingchen had insisted, and it seemed to be enough for now. In that time he spent those days in preparation for the final day.
A sweet little memory of the way he makes a path with candy, leading from their little home all the way to the little makeshift circle Xiao Xingchen had spent days clearing out just for this precise location. It wasn’t much at all, a simple cloth spread out on the ground, under a lovely little apple tree. On the cloth was a little basket, filled with a delicious meal he had been able to save up for today. They had spent the evening eating and drinking, their laughter echoing far off into the night until finally the Taoist pulls out one final surprise. He wasn’t really good at gifts, not really. But he hoped this would be enough. It’s a simple wooden hair pin, a similar one he has made for A-Qing some time ago, only this had a special design carved into the smooth wood of the pin, snow flakes that decorated all its side. It had been in works for quite some time, and he laughed about how he hoped he had finished it in time.
‘ I know it isn’t much’ he says, reaching over to stick it in his hair. ‘I.. I didn’t know how else to thank you. For sticking with me, and giving me a home as well. Happy Birthday, A-Yang’ // DNDJSKS SPOILS XUE YANG ;-; HAPPY BIRTHDAAAYYY
( HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE YANG )
Tch. “ Again ? Daozhang ! What did I do to deserve this ?? “ Xue Yang whined when he was told YET AGAIN to watch over that blind brat as if she couldn’t fend for herself. Xue Yang had done plenty of things deserving of far worse punishment than merely helping A-Qing , but Xiao Xingchen didn’t know that. He huffed , shooting a glare when A-Qing began to whine. “ Fine , fine ! I’m going. “ And off sulked the street dog , rolling his eyes at whatever useless task he was being dragged along with her today.
But getting back , sharp eyes had immediately fallen to the trail of candy. Blind brat didn’t seem to notice and Xue Yang didn’t want to share this candy , so he made an excuse to ditch her as soon as they were back at the coffin home. Trap or not ( and what a silly trap it’d be ) , Xue Yang bent down to greedily collect the pieces of candy until he reached the clearing. That was when he halted , Jiangzai sliding from his sleeve cautiously. A-Yao probably wouldn’t do something like this and no one else besides Su She knew he was here. So why - ?
The answer came in the form of white Taoist robes and a cheerful cry of A-Yang ! Instantly bristled fur fell flat as Jiangzai stealthy returned to his sleeve and he gave a cheerful chirp of Daozhang! back. It wasn’t long till they were eating and drinking. He hadn’t expected the cultivator to remember his birthday ; hell , Xue Yang hadn’t even recalled sharing it. Not that he really knew if it was his birthday or not. But A-Yao had made it his birthday , and Xue Yang had kept to that as it being his birthday. Must’ve come up in one of their countless conversations in the past year.
“ Mm , I don’t mind daozhang spoiling me like this. “ Xue Yang teases cheerfully , taking another drink as he watches Xiao Xingchen. This was nice. Better than the gaudy naming ceremony he’d had to do that one year at A-Yao’s insistence. This was more fun , even if there weren’t as many sweets.
Red eyes fall to the hairpin as Xiao Xingchen pulls it out. He finds himself wondering what Xiao Xingchen thinks he looks like. Is he rugged and all sharp edges like he really is , like something dragged from the woods ? Or does Xiao Xingchen see him as something softer , like a puppy causing innocent mischief ? ( Excluding , of course , the prominent fangs. ) He suspects , perhaps , it might have been the latter if it wasn’t for all the scars on his body that the Taoist certainly had felt on several occasions.
Thank him ? Xue Yang stares intensely at the other. He was thanking him. But then he breaks into a smile and cheerful voice of A-Yang. “ Daozhang is saying silly things again. You rescued me , I’m the one that has a thousand thanks to give you. “ He says , fingertips feeling the hairpin tucked into hair. It feels strange when he’s not used to things being in his hair , but he doesn’t mind. Especially not when it is from Xiao Xingchen. “ But thank you. “
Mischief lights in his eyes and Xue Yang scoots closer to Xiao Xingchen with a smile. “ Does the birthday boy get kisses , Daozhang ~ ? “ He asks with a playful sing-song voice.
@heaxrtinparadise said: It was a rather hot day, it hardly gave for any real motivation to do anything besides lay around. Since they didn't have plans on doing much, Xiao Xingchen had decided he was going to take the initiative and do something special for A-Yang's birthday. For this reason, it is him who has A-Yang's hand in his own and leads him to a familiar spot. ' It was hot just like this, do you remember?' he asks with a gentle smile that resembled the still waters they were coming into. It was a memory he replayed often, he'd never indulged in childish whims before and it was the one time he felt he was having fun and he kept that memory with him for the last two years. ' Will you swim with me?' // okay but fun fact but i think about that one thread we had a lot and so does xxc ;A; swim with him happy birthdaaayyyy
Gross. Even in the shelter of the trees and shadows the heat was inescapable, meaning that even he was barely moving from where he’d sprawled himself in. The occasional breeze was a blessing that he savored for the few seconds that it occurred before being left to the mercy of the heat yet again. But when Xiao Xingchen had come up to him asking for his hand and to come with him, Xue Yang had complied. (Only because he was curious what the cultivator was up to of course. )
Xue Yang tilts his head as they walk a familiar path, but a smile grows on his lips when he hears Xiao Xingchen speak. So there was a reason. “ Of course I remember, daozhang! “ He chirps back cheerfully while they draw closer and closer towards the cool waters. That would be nice actually... Was this Xiao XIngchen’s way of trying to celebrate with him? It was just them after all, no blind brat in sight. He’d considered the fact she’d gone off in the early morning to the markets or something a birthday gift in of itself.
“ HMM. “ He makes a dramatic effort of being loud with his hum of thought before his lips curve up into a smile. “ Weeeell, since Daozhang asked. “ Xue Yang agrees after a dramatic pause, mischief in his voice. “ Should I jump in with Daozhang? “ A hand lifts, fingertips pressed playfully against Xiao Xingchen’s back - enough to be felt, but not enough to actually push him in
“ Hurry, hurry ~ ! “ He cheers with a grin before he steps back to pull off his boots and shed the layers now that the cool water is there so invitingly.
Happy Birthday, my most beloved murder gremlin! ♥🎉
When you showed up for the first time in episode 3, I had no idea how much you would mean to me down the line, or that I would write a 170k+ words fanfiction for you. I hope you get all the candy you want and have a fun day with your daozhangs and your little sis. 🍬🍭💖