#happy to be alive

[swordfright]

it's my birthday : )

#i know a lot of people get sad on their birthdays but honestly i just...don't? #my life has gotten so much better as i've aged #five years ago i was in such an awful situation and now i can't believe how lucky i am #happy to be alive

[boyjumps]

Live a life that is 'not so bad to be alive'

Good day, Good day, Every day is a good day (zen phrasing)

This Zen saying says that 'good days' or 'bad days' have no meaning. It does not mean that "any day is a good day." Every day is a 'good day', so it is only natural that there are no 'good days' or 'bad days'. There is already no good or bad.

This Zen saying is preceded by this: 'I don't question what happened before the 15th, but what about what will happen after the 15th?'

This 'before' and 'after' can be interpreted as the first and second halves of life, and can also be taken as 'sometimes human life is worthwhile and sometimes it is not'. However, when asked this question, the old master himself replied, " Every day is a good day". For Buddhists, there is no before or after, no good or bad, just days of practice. Provably, that's what the old master was trying to say.

It does not matter if you look back on your whole life and whether it was a 'good life' or a 'bad life'. It is enough if, at the time of your death, you can say, 'Well, I've had some good times and some bad times, but I made it through anyway'.

To die such a death, you have to get down from your 'precious self' and 'open' yourself to others. It is to get away from profit and loss and to make connections with others. It is very tiresome that we, who are not much, have to live until we die. But because we are alive, we have to do that troublesome thing.

And the only way to manage to use up yourself is to spend a lot of time and effort on the path you have decided this is the way to go. But now many are wearing out of the deals and competition. They are exhausted by the belief that they have to improve themselves, compete with others to win, and be 'useful' or 'awesome'.

But people are supposed to die eventually. And there is no greater task in life than to die. When you come to that point, you will realise that the deals and competition you are struggling with now are actually just one aspect of human existence.

The only thing that determines who you are is your relationship with others. Think 'for others', not 'for yourself'. Some people are just not very good at people. For such people, pets and animals are fine. Others are not limited to humans.

It does not have to be perfect. Nor is it about 'being patient, being nice' or 'sacrificing yourself'. It is important to step back from delusions such as "my important self", "my true self" or "living my dreams" and see ourselves as existing in relation to others.

If you aim to get there, you will have a series of days where you will feel that life is not so bad and that you are happy to be alive.

#zen #mindfulness #buddhism #zen buddhism #wisdom #philosophy #nature #happy to be alive #eiheiji #art

[watchtheendthroughdyingeyes]

Fridayyyy 😜😜🤪

#friday #selfie #me #hello #happy friday #smile #happy to be alive #happy #brunette for life #brunette #tattoed girl #girl #european girl #slav

[agoodmorning]

i take it back, life is good actually and worth living even when it feels like the sun might not come back again tomorrow

#inspiration #happy to be alive #depressiv #good morning

[securemoon]

MPLS queer and trans zine fest!

#oh the wonders #doing queer shit #happy to be alive

[hopeeeeeeeekponi]

There’s something about healing that makes me happy, I remember days I’d wake up and wonder why I’m still here. Why I have to carry on but now I wake up and I just feel this energy of safety in my existence. That maybe just maybe it is not a bad life and everything would work out okay!! I mean there’s poetry and art and friends and lovers and cute animals and jollof rice and songs by hozier and movies and just beautiful things to experience. It’s truly beautiful.

#self healing #poetry #self love #hope #happy to be alive

[lovepolly23]

I made breakfast, lunch & dinner today. Just like the last 3 days. It feels great to actually take care of myself. Depression helped me I believe. Ik it sounds strange. But, I don’t think that I would have realized my potential mental health risks bc I wouldn’t have asked my family their history & so on. I plan on maintaining a healthy diet, being sure that I sleep, say what I mean, say NO, being open to new experiences and doing my best to practice positive behavior. I used to let anger take over my body bc it felt good. But now I see what I’ve done. I see the destruction I’ve left behind in my path to recovery from the addictions and depression from the drug abuse. I’ve worked through maybe 25% of my trauma from being a child. I’ve healed a lot. I still have quite a fucking bit more work to put in but, it will be worth it. It already has been worth it. I’m happy to be alive. I love you, Gabriel. @Gabe Stewart

Now I just need to quit smoking..🚬💨🔂🫠

#feeling sexy #lookinggood #still not broke #happy to be alive #not depressed #healthy eating #healthy habits #recovery #positive mental attitude #positive thoughts #narcissim #not alone after all #happy girl #28 years old #era: still here

[drachenengel]

#mental health #mental illness #recovery #recovery inspiration #love #self improvement #guardian angel #angelic #beleiveinyourself #positive mental attitude #note to self #self care #heaven sent #happy to be alive #breathe

[epichawkies2o77]

Cousin sent me this today

#happy to be alive #death to the world #random

[definitely-not-a-duck]

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-Quack

#presentation #hello! <3 #tumblr #duck #happy to be alive #bread is life #definitelyNOTaduck #positivity #livebythat #sun #fan

[pianosmasher]

Finally feel like I’m growing up a little

#happy to be alive

[emo-vadapav]

i am a touch starved person, there was a time i used to be soooo desperate for a human touch, for hugs. there was a time i used to save the tshirts from the moments/days on which a person i care for hugged me. i still have the tshirt stored in a safe space that i was wearing when SHE first hugged me along with date location and time in my memory. but recently things have change, A LOT. i have been meeting her quite regularly and everytime we meet, hug. a good tight comforting hug, the one that makes you feel complete. the one that makes you forget every bad thought on your mind. and because of that it's getting hard to store those tshirts, because i wear a different one everytime and i can't just store every single one of my tshirt like this😂.

i got no complains but i think it's time i finally don't feel desperate for another humans touch, except HER. be it HER setting my hair nicely because it's wet from the rain, to check my acne, to pinch me casually, to elbow me just because i said something stupid etc. and this, THIS is exactly what i think i deserve. this is all i have been waiting for all my life. and i am going to seize every opportunity i get to be with her no matter what cost i have to pay for that. for she is the one i need.

in HER arms, this life is flawless...♥️

#love and hugs #hugs #HER #finally being treated like i deserve #this is all i want #touch starved #happy to be alive

[tapiocats]

Decay exists as an extant form of life

#artists on tumblr #my art #gavle goat #gavlebocken #yule #yule goat #happy yule #merry yule #christmas #hi yes I’m alive #so much work but oh well #wishing you happy holidays :D #new year #2024 #2023 #happy new year #happy holidays #Gavleboken 2023 #christmas goat #burn the goat

[void-galaxy-shenanigans]

Went to adoptive ren’s¹ house. Greeted by happy lil brother (he/they) bouncing at screen door then running up for hugs. Immediately hugged by ren when inside². Happy rambles between us & lil bro. Listening to Stimmy Song™ playlist (made specifically to be stimmy).

Drove home, but followed ✨the vibe✨ & drove down old roads past bioparents’ house. Old roads that are haunted by dead memories. Made new memories. Danced in car and sang to music and laughed a lot. Made good memories.

Maybe the point of it all is bringing love and authenticity to places that used to haunt you. Maybe the point of it all is to love and be loved. Maybe it’s worth staying alive to watch joy and authenticity and hope bring light and life back to dead places. Maybe it’s all gonna be okay.

(Never made a post immediately after being at ren’s house. Wanted to catch this moment & these feelings/thoughts. Leave their house feeling competent and loved and Good. Has been new parent since Nov 19, 2022 (a year and ¼). Brain starting to accept that am loved and allowed to love. allowed to take up authentic space. we’ve always been good enough for them. never wanna forget this feeling ☺💜✨)

~Nico (he/they)

¹ ren is to parent as mom/mama is to mother and dad/papa is to father. parent is agender, they/them 💜

² ren adopted us because they’re also queer/trans and neurodivergent. understands, and loves because not despite/in spite of. also because likes us & loves us as person/people, but also because auDHD & mentally ill in lovable ways. lil bro (ren’s bio son) is also queer/trans. we’re a lil queer mentally differing family ☺💜. also, ren & lil bro ask every time before hugs. ¡consent is established & maintained! very comfy.

#this is a high point of our healing journey - it still happens in waves of highs n lows #but wanna share more of high points too. lows important but highs too. #I adore them. our ren is amazing. #and lil bro is awesome. #very happy #childhood trauma #healing #healing from trauma #neurodivergent #did system #~Nico #happy #positive #update #personal #happy to be alive #actually autistic #actually adhd #lgbt #agender parent #agender #they/them #he/they #he/him #trans #transgender #queer #trans masc #f2x #f2m

[kal-el22]

It’s been a tumultuous year, I’m just happy to be here.

Happy birthday to me 💜💜

#1010forever

#26 #its time to fly

# I love you Momma 💜

#spread love #xo #spotify #self love #fypシ゚viral #fyp2023 #love #real life #beautiful #iphone #happy bithday to me #december 20th #1997 #florida #happy to be alive #Spotify #SoundCloud

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

getting older can be so amazing? you get more familiar with yourself. learn tips & tricks for troubleshooting your own brain. trial & error helps you build routines that minimize discomfort, maximize reward. your preferences/interests don't get set in stone, but you do find out which ones are going to stay with you in the long-term, and which ones are fun but transient joys to appreciate in the moment.

you learn that the world is so much more complex than you were taught, and that that's okay, and that there's an endless supply of things you can learn or watch or experience or think about if you want to. if you're lucky, you loosen up, stop putting so much pressure on yourself. if you're lucky, you learn to recognize that negative inner voice, and whack it with a baseball bat until it hushes up. if you're lucky, you learn to treat yourself gently, not because you are fragile but because you are worthy of gentleness. (i hope you are lucky.)

and some things will change. some things will get better. some things will get good. and maybe you start to recover from the dehumanizing stress of childhood/education. maybe you learn the power of your own autonomy. maybe you learn how to walk away from bad situations (which is a superpower even if you don't realize it yet). and you get to choose your own clothes. and your own food. and which relationships to pursue! and what you do with your free time. and with your life (but don't worry you get to choose that gradually). and that's crazy! and sometimes scary. and extraordinarily, indescribably precious.

#not a shitpost #and as long as you are alive there will be another good moment waiting for you in the future #the profound joy of your favorite foods #the incalculable luxury of waking up and lounging in bed and falling back asleep #a cold glass of water after a walk in the hot sun #petting an excited dog. a cat rubbing up against your ankle. the sight of a confused chicken #glorious these beads we string together to form our own existence #getting older means time is passing. and i hope you are passing that time in ways that make you happy #i hope you have so many moments of joy that they can be as easily counted as drops of water in the ocean