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dasmondkuss · 4 months

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You guys have no idea how strong Alois and Dominicus' relationship is. I didn't have an idea either until about 2 hours ago while eating.

Listen, Alois is very independent and self-sufficient. For the most part, he already has a solution in mind for any problem that might appear, and these aren't news. Ever since he was young, how his parent raised him made Alois genuinely confident in his skills. He'd approach every obstacle with pragmatic resilience, so he has rarely needed somebody else to look after him or take care of him. Alois isn't afraid to say 'I need help' either because he had an emotionally intelligent environment growing up.

Nevertheless, none of this prepared Alois for the events that would take place in Morocco. He came from a very sheltered background where emotional intelligence was affordable because the stress wasn't big on his family by having the means to support themselves and even indulge themselves economically, so he never had to witness people lashing out, fights over petty things, or people trying by all means to have the higher ground. When these things began to happen in his life, he was lucky enough to study abroad and avoid all that divorce drama. Of course, even if he had seen those things happening, nothing could have prepared him for the level of violence he was about to experience.

Among the group of students, Alois was the most affected by everything. Despite all the books he had read, all the languages he had learned, and all the stories he had written, Alois couldn't find words to give meaning to his feelings. Alois could not let it out, consuming him faster than anybody else.

That's when Dominicus jumped in.

Dominicus wasn't having a good time either, nothing of the sort. But being the eldest grandson of a big and loud Italian family, Dominicus was raised to endure. In his family, Dominicus had to partake in the care of his siblings and cousins and even split apart some uncles who drank too much wine at Nonna's birthday party. Some of his younger cousins would even call him dad. Dominicus had to ensure everyone was safe, sound, and happy. He was raised to endure and nurture. And he enjoyed that role.

When Dominicus saw Alois in such a level of despair, he immediately took him under his wings. Naturally, this was Dominicus' way of coping with his own horrors and terrors. Instead of focusing on the problems beating him down, he could focus on making someone else's life easier. During the war, under the psychological violence, helping Alois grounded Dominicus to turn back the engine that drove him through his life.

By supporting Alois, Dominicus couldn't feel that Morocco's war could erase his existence. He was still himself despite everything, which built such strength in his personality that he knew deep down that he would survive this and that Alois would, too, because he would guide him through and protect him.

Until they were both hand-tied, kneeling on the floor, watching Julia with a gun aimed at her head.

Dominicus has never felt so powerless in his life. However, he never let his eyes wander away from Alois. He couldn't say anything, but in his mind, he was begging Alois to close his eyes and avoid an image that would chase him for the rest of his life. Telepathy isn't a thing, and Dominicus shattered fully when they shot her. Alois' entire figure was covered with his lover's blood, and his eyes were still wide open, with uncontrollable tears streaming down his face.

Despite Dominicus' own fear of him or Alois being the next one, despite hurting from his friend's murder, and despite the pain of having failed Alois, Dominicus couldn't break. He remained by Alois' side.

Everybody else left, but Dominicus stayed while Alois held Julia and sobbed as if that could bring her back to life. He remained stoic by Alois´´ side, keeping a watch on him for about two or three hours. Alois didn't ease his grip at any moment, but Julia's body was cold and deserved a burying the military wouldn't provide. It became Dominicus' task to separate Alois from Julia's body.

Dominicus bore every insult, every scream, every punch, and every scrape that Alois did while trying to take Julia away from him. If that's what Alois needed, then he would give it to him. But Alois couldn't stay by a corpse for the rest of his life, and he had to tell him the least empathetic sentences for the sake of giving Julia a somewhat proper burial and making it through the next day.

No one could've prepared Dominicus to deal with something like this, but he did. He stayed up all night, dug the grave, bathed Alois, and let him sleep on his bed when the exhaustion made him pass out.

Alois woke up the next day, emotionally dissociated from the whole situation, and in a flat tone, he told Dominicus that he had no idea how he'd make it through but that he would as long as he stayed by his side. Dominicus had no other plan in mind; he wouldn't have done it differently.

When their practices in Morocco were over, Dominicus had to return to Italy, and Alois had to return to Germany. It was hard for both of them, especially for Alois, who was returning to divorced parents and financial struggles. However, Alois started his magazine with the main purpose of giving Dominicus a work visa. It was Alois' daily motivation. He knew that he could live without Dominicus, but not for long, that he would do even more terrible things than he had already done if Dominicus didn't return to his side.

Alois needed him and wanted him back. He worked relentlessly to comply with all the requirements for Dominicus' sponsorship. When he finally got that mail with the notice that Dominicus' visa was approved, Alois felt he had finally won against the British government and Morocco's war. It was that day that Alois stopped having daily nightmares about Julia's murder and that he felt that he could live like a normal person again.

Dominicus and Alois have bonded over various interests, not only trauma. They're inseparable, and the caregiver/dependant dynamic has evolved to be more of equals.

However! Depending on the context, Alois will tease Dominicus, calling him either Papà or Mamma.

And Dominicus will pretend he doesn't like it.

#cw: death #cw: guns #cw: blood #Alois - headcanon #DOMINICUS I LOVE YOU #They will follow each other to the grave #I swear #I knew Dominicus was a 100% Daddy ever since I created him #NOW I KNOW WHERE THE VIBES CAME FROM #They are each other´s light at the end of the tunnel #ALOIS GETS SO SAD WHEN DOMINICUS HAS TO VISIT HIS FAMILY #Wild Alois appears in Tuscany because of ´business matters´´#THERE IS NO WAY TO MAKE JOURNALISM BUSINESS IN TUSCANY #He is welcomed every time tho #NOW YOU´RE ALL GONNA SUFFER ME WITH MY DOMINCUS AND ALOIS BRAINROT #if you read this #i love you #if you have questions im loving you harder!!!!!!!!

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