#hatred consumes me

[uncanny-tranny]

Whenever people who are entrenched in diet culture talk about how terrible chemicals are, I just want to whip out this:

#diet culture #diet culture tw #described images #image description in alt #'it's got CHEMICALS in it' and so do you! and me too! IT'S ALL CHEMICALS ALL THE WAY DOWN #instead of running from this world we must learn to embrace it #i'm not particularly angry at people who say this because it makes me think that they're incredibly invested in diet culture... #...i just don't want the whole 'food = bad' or 'bodies = bad' to go unchallenged... #...part of the reason why diet culture seems just as prevalent now (if not moreso) is partially because it isn't really... #...challenged or questioned without provocation. it's just assumed to be correct because it makes you 'feel in control' #when chemicals are bad you can control what chemicals you consume. it's individualistic and places the blame onto you for 'being good' #it places responsibility onto the person in such a way that it becomes impossible to fulfill #it isn't that i'm upset that people want to treat their bodies in a way they think is responsible... #...moreso that the *way* they go about it ensures that they're stuck in a cycle of self-blame and even self-hatred #because the METHOD is ineffective. not the desire to treat your body well #also the state of ohio looks stupid and i do Not respect it #it looks like a ball that is simultaneously deflated and over-inflated #also their state flag looks silly to me #it looks like the person who was making it fell asleep making it #i'm just clowning on ohio at this point. have never been to ohio but. are you guys okay

[fayesdiary]

Came to the realization that Robin is everything Grima wishes they were and I'm gonna spend an indefinite amount of time obsessing over it

#fire emblem #fire emblem awakening #fe13 #robin #grima #my rambles #i know this sounds insane but hear me out #grima has a line in their main heroes form where they ponder how their life would have been if they were human #and while its a reference to robin wishing they were fully human and able to live with the shepherds from future past 3 it still fits great #robin spends their new life in a friendly environment with people who care deeply about them and trust them with their life #while grima was viewed solely has as a threat to be destroyed or a weapon to made use of ever since they were born #robin gets to forge so many bonds with so many people while grima spent aeons trapped alone in a labyrinth after their creator #tried to kill them #and even after robin proves to be a genuine potential threat to the world the shepherds still stick by them and believe in them #while grima has always been viewed as a menace simply for existing #robin gets to be caring snarky silly and have genuine interest in things and most of all hope #while grima by the time of awakening has been so consumed by hatred and cynicism they wish everything including themselves to end #i know some of this stuff is hc but that won't stop me from obsessing over these two #should i have put this ramble on the actual post and not on tags? probably

[dai-nana-han-agenda]

What's your response to people saying Sasuke viewing Team 7 as his family is “unrealistic” because they only knew each other for a few months?

Ouuu I’m sorry this is such a late response, I was drafting it out and I totally forgot to finish it!

Figuring out the timeline of Naruto is HELL, but from what I gather, Sasuke was a part of Team 7 for about a year. For plot purposes, we don’t really see how Team 7 bonds, but we know they basically meet up / train / go on missions every day. During the Wave arc, Kakashi gives the whole “abandoning your teammates makes you worse than scum” speech to a group of impressionable 12 year olds. Not only that, he’s been drilling the idea of teamwork since the very first meeting. On top of all that, it’s established at the academy that it’s essential for teams to gel if they want to survive on the field (the team becomes your second family, wink wink.)

Considering all of that, no I don’t think it’s unrealistic to believe that Sasuke begins to cherish Team 7 (something that is CANONICALLY proven, and I’ll prove it after this.) His time with his team provides structure, routine, and an escape from his relentless thoughts abt revenge (and if there’s one thing I know, kids need routine and structure, even if regrettably, that comes from being a fucking child soldier.) Team 7 becomes Sasuke’s support system. I’m not pulling this out of my ass btw - after seeing Itachi again, Sasuke himself acknowledges that because he spent so much time being with his team, he forgot abt his revenge (for clarification cos I’m too lazy to find the manga page, this is when Kisame and Itachi come after Naruto while he’s training w Jiraiya.)

During the invasion arc / Naruto’s fight against Gaara, Sasuke calls Naruto and Sakura his “precious comrades.” (Even without the words, if you read the manga, it’s clear from Sasuke’s body language that he cares about/is very protective over his team.) When Kakashi is trying to convince Sasuke to forget about his revenge, Naruto and Sakura are the people he thinks about.

Somewhere between the formation of Team 7 and Sasuke’s defection, Naruto and Sakura have become important people to Sasuke, so much so that the thought of leaving them behind almost convinces him to stay (but of course, in the end, his hatred for Itachi and need for revenge wins over.)

I’ve seen the criticisms and I’ll admit that the execution of Team 7 as a family is not as strong as it could’ve been. But I do think that if you read the manga, you can see Kishimoto’s efforts. And canonically, Sasuke cares deeply about Naruto and Sakura, and anyone who tries to argue against that is wrong 🤷🏻‍♀️

#i always see people say shit like omg nrt and skra don’t rly care abt ssk cos they never actually supported him #like let’s get something straight #nrt and skra supported ssk killing itachi even if they didn’t understand it #what they didn’t support was ssk going off w orochimaru’s psycho ass and being consumed by his hatred #i’m gonna touch on skra and ssk’s relationship specifically bc i feel like nrt & ssk’s is strong on its own #but as much as the fandom shits on skra’s crush on ssk there’s something v innocent/protective abt skra’s love for him #lemme explain: after ssk gets the curse mark skra threatens to tell kakashi abt it. ssk lashes out at her #skra continues to express her concern abt ssk and the way his hatred/desire for revenge is consuming him #when she confronts him before he leaves the village she tells him that getting revenge won’t lead to happiness #this is basically the same discussion kakashi had with sasuke earlier that day #all skra rly wants for ssk is for him to be happy #is that naive? yes probably. but i don’t think her crush on him was as superficial as people make it out to be #let me remind y’all that skra was one of the first people that saw firsthand what the curse mark did to ssk #all she wanted was for him not to fall deeper into that darkness #team 7 has always been compassionate to ssk. they just didn’t want to see him destroyed by his hatred. #which is essentially what almost happens to him in shippuden #I can keep going but for the sake of readability i won’t #team 7 #pro team 7 #dai nana han #ask #thanks for the ask!

[lifeismarvelous]

imagine a world where I wasn’t an artist and these were made by someone else

if you were to tell me these were all made by the same person I wouldn’t believe you

#I really don’t give myself enough credit for what I’m capable of doing lmao #sometimes the negativity and self hatred consume me too much to the point where I don’t see value in what I can create #I don’t acknowledge my talent enough #self love is a bit hard

[itlovesinthewoods]

Pre-BB!Gaius whenever a vampire does some shit: Listen, I put you in this world, and I can take you out of it

#lester: you can say he birthed me #gaius: you would not say that #also gaius: *gives the mom glare whenever he sees one of his progeny acting out* #he isn't the step dad he's the dad who stepped. down (he never claimes to be a good dad) #but also he's the only one who can manipulate and murder and abuse his progeny. no one else #and despite having gone to extreme lengths he does truly care about vampires so fucking much and wants a better world for them #playchoices #pixelberry #choices #bloodbound #gaius augustine #he's so interesting becauss we see that once he just wanted vampires to live freely and happily #but slowly came to the (not right but also not wrong) realization that humans would always hurt vampires and would nver let them live freely #and began hia slow descent into darkness. more willing to use others as pawns and to sacrifice #hatred for humans also consumed him and he wished to completely eradicate them except for feeding purposes

[toujouhidetora]

gojyo making small dick jokes about himself somehow feels…..very in-character

#my hatred for him continues to consume me #yes i had to edit the second ‘s’ in #saiyuki

[insinirate]

im learning that im not as big into 💙❤ as id like to be but i do support their shippers so much simply bc they know how to party

#the contempt. the rage. the barely disguised hatred thru banter. the sheer toxicity #its incredible #i guess i celebrate them socially but never rly go out of my way to make or consume stuff w them #i absolutely fw ❤💙 tho bc they really know how to put tom through hell #especially future tom. i think it unlocked something in me #anonymous

[trentskis]

if i were a premier league football club i would simply win against man city

#when city and chelsea play on the same day its so energy consuming for me to hold all this hatred in my heart

[ruined-razor]

and what if i do whore myself out again? what’ll happen? i’ll feel shit afterwards but at least someone’s gonna be calling me pretty. i need to let people use my body otherwise i’m not pretty at all

#vent #hypersexual vent #hypersexual tw #trauma #traumacore #bpd #quiet bpd #not feeling very quiet bpd though #very very loud. it’s so loud #self hatred #guilt consumes me

[itsaboutnothing]

I Hate men. sooooooo much

#ugh not like all but maybe a solid 5 I feel an all consuming hatred for whenever I come in contact w em #butits just like that guy from class that one ta my roomates dad and so on #me #oh my GOD that one TA I could kill him if I was forced to talk w him longer than 15 mins

[ozlices]

watched the kdrama celebrity over the last few days. was hooked from the first few seconds bc the EDITING in the show, & just the cinematography in general is on a whole nother fuckin level, man.

also, just. a really great show in general. v good at building suspense & throwing loops & very nice themes/takeaways. also just a rly interesting way to convey those themes/takeaways.

i think the only issue we had w it was the romance, but. eh. it wasn't so bad that it took away from the ample amount of good shit in the show.

def recommend it!! especially to anyone who really enjoyed the glory bc it has v similar themes.

#mine #celebrity #celebrity kdrama #i think it's definitely a v interesting & SUPER fucking relevant for modern times exploration of jealousy in the modern age #it definitely felt v cathartic in a lot of ways for someone who has so much trauma surrounding jealousy being aimed towards me #& it resonated too as someone pursuing content creation #idk how the instagram grind is at ALL. ive literally never used instagram properly & rly have zero cares to. #but. all of the shit portrayed still resonates in any field of content creation #& i think its overall message of the dangers of modern jealousy in the digital age & esp the hatred in can create were done rly well. #i wish i could make it universally required viewing honestly. esp bc it's like. the message of not just the average person #but specifically ppl even in ur own circles can turn on u at the drop of a hat for such superficial shit these days. #ive heard a LOT of content creators sharing v similar experiences to ones portrayed in the show. esp the holier than thou attitude. #it def comes across as the creator did research or even has experience w these things themself bc damn. it's accurate. #and once again. THE EDITING IS SO FUCKING GOOD MAN #THAT OPENING SCENE I COULD WATCH FOREVER IT'S SO DAMN GOOD. AND SMOOTH. AND THE OP?!?!?!? BANGER!!! #id recommend it for the editing alone honestly #it's just a nice bonus that it's also just a genuinely rly great show that i think is important to watch #esp if u consume a lot of content creators online or are one urself. #much to think abt and analyze. reflect on. def opened our eyes a lot.

[lorawant2sleep]

someday i'll stop wanting to smash my head in with a hammer after every word i say or every letter i type

someday

#just girly things #all-consuming self-hatred eats me up from the inside:] #just being dramatic

[kittydoggie]

Guys. I don't think I like hamburgers.

I have recently developed an issue where even thinking the word "dairy" sends me into a foggy heap of misery and I'm eating a burger and... Guys, I don't think I ever liked burgers. I think I just liked the cheese.

This is great news for my arteries, but horrible news for my tastebuds.

So many American foods are predicated on the presence of cheese. I'm going to either die or learn how to properly cook.

#personal #whey protein #dairy #dairy has a personal hatred for me and I do not know why #I have literally mourned the fact that I can no longer consume tiddy juice

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

I totally get what ur saying about the vibes of modern Cats prods being different, and its right. But also like I'm glad Cats is still going 4 decades on and its not like one of the forgotten ALW shows that barely tours and hasnt seen modern day successes. Idk there's good and bad to Cats being on this long and being everchanging but I see it as a positive thing.

And that's totally within your right to see it as a positive thing, anon. I'm not going to sit here and pretend that I'm not glad that CATS has continued to have the legacy it's had for this long, nor am I going to say that modern day productions are inherently bad things or look down my nose at them, because that isn't what I mean. They're not bad things. I love this musical - it has been a core part of my personality for decades and will continue to be for however long I'm around. I like the fact that it is (somewhat) accessible to me still if I wish to see it live here and now.

What I mean is CATS has become so same-same and "safe" in the past, maybe, ten years or so, where every production (non-replicas notwithstanding) now looks like a copy of itself (like...an entire chunk of its visual palette for over 33 years was scrubbed clean from existence), or a watered down version of a concept, or an evolution of something in a way that producers feel is a "necessary" change to push modernization (that often ends up being *un*necessary), because money (and yes it's always been about money, I'm aware). It's not really everchanging anymore - it's ever on the quest to become one standardized, polished across the board product that can be mass produced. And it's disheartening to think on from time to time because one of the best things about CATS, in my opinion, was always that you were going to get something visually different wherever you went, and the show was free to be more or less polished and more or less disturbing and weird and different and raw and audiences could consume it in several different ways and that was fun!

I'm not saying CATS shouldn't still be running - I'm saying that it's lost a touch of its sparkle in its recent modernity. Jacob Brent was already saying something to this effect way back in 2012/2013 - it's not really a new thing. It's further become the very thing that Gus the Theatre Cat laments about in regards to theatre back in *his* day just having a feeling and atmosphere about it that is missing nowadays - which was in turn written by a man in the 30s who was critiquing the theatre of *even earlier*. That line delivered in his poem/song where he glances around the theatre and breaks the fourth wall saying: "these modern productions are all very well/but they're nothing to equal from what I here tell" was already the musical taking an indirect tongue in cheek dig at itself back in the day when CATS was considered a "mega musical" and not real theatre. Now it almost feels like a *direct* stab at itself.

Tl;dr - I am not unhappy with CATS still being a large part of the theatrical industry or it still running - but I miss old CATS. Productions nowadays don't have the same feeling they used to. These points can and should be able to co-exist. And this is not inherently a bad or good thing - it's just something that needs to be accepted.

#i don't argue with the fact that things need to change and update over the years #like for example i have never once been against the removal of racism the 11 minute operetta #cats itself is a dated show - it is a product of the 80s and it has never hidden that fact #and it was dragged kicking and screaming into the 2010s #i just miss when it used to have that vibe about it that theatre nowadays just doesn't capture anymore #but idk i'm just an old man you may lead me to the nursing home if you wish #jellicles ask because jellicles dare #anonymous #please don't equate my critique with a hatred - it does not come from a place of anger #it comes from a place of nostalgia #I am not going to disparage you the enjoyment of modern CATS #all the more power to you - i also like aspects of modern cats as well #but i can still miss it #also for the record i'm never going to be that person who side eyes people for the versions of cats they prefer #i believe you should consume whatever makes you happiest and for that i am happy with you

[khlur]

distance is good bcs it means u don't feel like slaughtering ur father every waking moment of ur life

#insane how the hatred and anguish consumed me as long as i was under their roof #i don't miss them!! #sure i recall a lot of things they taught me #but missing them feels so strange #i know exactly why but that's for me to know and for u to psychoanalyse based on a couple of posts

[shapeshiftershenaniganary]

relistening to the archives and NOTHING is ever going to get the same, quiet "...oh." from me like when Elias started talking about Melanie's dad.

It was far from the worst thing in the series, absolutely. But the fact that they got that quiet understanding across, not just to Melanie, but to the listener? Phenomenal writing. I will never be the same again.

#I have sooooo many thoughts on it too #bc Elias couldn't take anything from Melanie #and he fully admitted that #her dad is already gone #and she doesn't really care about anyone or anything all that much #but underneath all that rage and hatred and mildly-consuming bloodlust she still hurts #and theres that moment #entirely audible #that you can hear her realize she can still hurt #and Elias can still hurt her #on a more personal note Taken Ill was one of the more memorable episodes for me personally bc it had a rly deep sense of loss #and hearing it called back to at the time just gave that extra little “oh.” moment #nothing had to be explained #not really #and that is horrible and magical and incredibly personal #chattering #tma spoilers