#have i constantly been considering

[thekidsarentalright]

so fobcore to be up for two awards they deserve to win, lose both of them, not even show up to the awards show But dress up in silly outfits for their prerecorded performance. would expect nothing less from the band of all time tbh

#can i go on a more serious ramble in the tags #lets go for a more serious ramble in the tags #fob exist in such a weird space in the scene and pop culture like they are literally one of the most popular bands on earth #yet are constantly snubbed and not considered and not included and are always the underdogs in everything #they have influenced pop culture so much and yet are never recognized for it #and i think it’s a space theyre very comfortable being in like. they are loved and recognized by people who truly get them and mostly #ignored by those who dont and those who dont are. the majority of the music scene #but idk it’s just so interesting to me how they can be so popular and beloved and influential yet such underdogs all at once #and that is who they always have been and who they always will be but idk. sometimes i wish they got recognized a lot more #bc they deserve it. they might be happy occupying the space they do but. give them some fucking awards please JFKDNF #txt #p: 100

[wyrmghost]

Recently I’ve fallen in love with Sebastian and his growth as a character and decided to make him an aged up design as well

+ I wanted to redraw some of his sprites cause I like them

#I considered getting rid of his jacket but I felt like he would have kept it for two reasons #1- because despite what his dad did it feels like he still very much cares him #As someone with a parent who constantly berated me but would drag me about to show off my “achievements” I can relate #2- because I think he’d want to become worthy of it and it would be a constant reminder to himself to do better and why his doing it #I think by the time of like aa4 he would feel much more confident in himself and his abilities #while in the beginning when edgeworth takes him under his wing he would have been constantly second guessing himself #sebastian debeste #aai #aai2 #ace attorney #ace attorney investigations #aa fanart #ace attorney fanart #Wyrm aa Designs

[thebroccolination]

THE EX-MORNING SERIES CONCEPT

By now I think many people have heard that KristSingto’s upcoming series is an original script that was written for them. What we also have confirmed is that it was written about them.

[source]

KRIST: This series was written by P'Backaof and directed by P'Lit where they created this script from the start deliberately for the two of us and they got information for the characters etc. from KristSingto directly. In the series, the name for P'Sing is Tamtawan, and my name is Phatapi. And Tamtawan Tamtawan and Phatapi are KristSingto themselves.

INTERVIEWER: Does that mean you play yourself?

KRIST: [laughing] Yes, we act as ourselves, so it's not difficult at all.

Today, Aof elaborated on his part on Twitter:

[source: @backaof]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

And Jojo added:

[source: @jojotichakorn]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

So, two gay men are the leading creative minds behind KristSingto’s comeback series. Time to study up on your KristSingto history, kids. \:D/

Long live sanctioned RPF. 🎉

#krist perawat #singto prachaya #kristsingto #the ex morning #i’ve already seen the same tired ‘guess rent was due’ about krist and #i see on twitter when people link my thread about krist to people still insisting he’s homophobic #man’s rich #he works constantly #he even said it’s something he regrets now that his grandmother who raised him passed away #he worked so much he didn’t have as much time for his family—who he helps support #he is quite literally considered bl royalty #he has more queer people in his circle than straight #waa (gay) is his mentor #aof (gay) wrote this series and jojo (gay) thought up the concept so even professionally he's supported by queer people #you don’t have to like him #and you don’t have to admit to sending death threats to a stranger who doesn’t speak your language based on rumors you didn’t verify #just y’know #admit quietly to yourself alone in your head that you were wrong and you caused harm to a person who didn’t deserve it #plenty of actors use bl as a stepping stone to bigger jobs #he’s not one of them #he wanted to do bl for years but gmmtv told him he could only work with singto #so literally the only reason kit didn’t do bl until BMF was scheduling issues because singto wanted to study abroad #and singto couldn’t get a fixed date for it and then the pandemic messed with his plans even more #i’m glad to see more and more people are understanding who krist is recently #and even in the series they made pathapi’s controversy an impulsive act of anger #krist has said he used to struggle with being hotheaded #and one of his apologies for the igs was even something like ‘i acted without thinking of how it would look out of context’ #he just wanted people to stop harassing him for his sexuality but the context isn’t in the igs #anyway my go-to when i’m too tired to talk about this is always this #if he had ever been homophobic thai people would be the ones leading the charge against him…but it’s interfans

[slcepily]

weow

#powerpuff girls #ppg #cartoon network #ppg fanart #idk what else to tag this #powerpuff girls is the first thing i ever remember drawing digitally #i’d just sit down and watch speedpaints constantly and i wanted to make them myself #anyway i’ve been going back and forth on posting this bc they’re not the most original designs ever but Shrug #full disclosure i didn’t watch the Bliss episode and have zero interest in ever doing so #i just wanted to portray her as The Grown Up and i thought her being like a successful business woman would be funny #i originally intended for the others to be adults but after i was finished they strike me as a little younger still #so in my head they’re like 17 maybe #bliss is also based off a redesign i made when that episode first came out #bliss is also based off a redesign i made of her when that episode first came out #i considered using her original appearance but i literally refuse to work with her weird ass bangs

[fluffypotatey]

Pre divorce shadowpeach didn't seem to be the type to fight a lot. In fact the shadowpeach divorce probably blew up that big due to all the unsaid frustrations they never let out.

So I'm just imagining shadowpeach never fighting in an obvious way (closest to fighting would be backhanded comments or barbed words) but that just makes things more unsettling

oh yeah 100% it didn’t help that swk was always leaving FFM out of his need to get stronger and be the best and be respected. not to mention they probably never saw their times together as the right moment to voice their concerns out loud because this was their time to wind down and they just had to wait it out, wait until everything was perfect enough to have those talks

#then everything went to shit #nothing was okay #swk was trapped under mountain all by his lonesome and def going insane #then Macky visits him (i’ve assumed that memory in s4 was Macky’s 1st and last visit) and they can’t pretend everything is ok anymore #tbh it was probably super ironic for them bc it might’ve been that swk would act like nothing was wrong & everything was under control #pre-battle with Heaven with Macky being the one with some concerns. but then Macky visits acting like everything’s chill and swk can’t #thus their fight is equally harsh and explosive (bc that’s what i find fun) and they never really say they’re done with each other #but both confirm to themselves that this is probably the end of their relationship and then oops! swk is free but won’t come home #why won’t he come home? Macky isn’t sure but he knows that swk is looking carefree with some new buddies and gets pissed #(Am I placing assumptions? Yes. Do they have any semblance to canon? They do if you consider my heart and passion) #anyway mixing jttw events that lmk hasn’t confirmed: Macky dies by SWK’s hand (whether directly or indirectly) #and the divorce is set in stone (bc how can a relationship reconcile or get back if the other is dead? as far as swk knows) #fast forward to lmk and they still can’t be civil or ignore their relationship issues like before and fight/butt heads constantly bc yeah #like yeah past shadowpeach is cute & fluffy & codependent still but they don’t have that hostility like in their divorced/still married era #lmk #shadowpeach #asks

[tibli]

im so sick of the way being a "picky eater" is treated. stop forcing kids to eat foods they can't stand- all it does is ensure that they'll likely NEVER try that food as an adult. its not being a spoiled brat, its having an aversion to certain sensations, and witholding food until they eat what you want them to is fucked up. would you want someone to force you to eat something you didn't like?

#ive always been considered a picky eater #and to my parents credit they didnt force me to eat things they didnt like #partially bc they had to deal with that and didnt want to force that onto their kids #and yknow what? i didnt end up malnourished! surprise surprise! #sure my diet isnt 100% healthy but whose is?? #its not like i didnt try certain foods because i was being deliberately bratty #i just have a strong aversion to certain smells and will not try foods if they smell weird to me #and some foods have a texture that will make me gag until i throw up! #strongarming your child will most likely result in them refusing to eat ANYTHING #and its always better to have them eat SOMETHING than force them to go hungry!! #childhood is an important developmental time and they NEED to eat #sorry im just so tired of constantly seeing stupid bullshit posts on facebook about picky eaters #tibtalks

[skitskatdacat63]

if u’re still doing these… top 5 most insane martian moments.

Sry for the late response, I really had to think on it! But these have been pretty fun to do so thank you!! <3

1. The entirety of Monaco 2010

Any Monaco celebration has a special place in my heart as you probably well know! But just Monaco 2010 as an entirety is insane to me, to name a few: the matching Porsches...their parc ferme hug...Seb trying and failing to pull Mark into the pool...them jumping into the harbor together and Seb having to pull Mark up onto the dock, MONACO REALLY GAVE US SO MUCH 🤧 but also this race being the calm before the storm, like seeing them be all cute with each other but then knowing how the season ends and how things continue to proceed after that

2. Their Singapore 2008 date

Always holds a special place on my heart. Just that we have so many pictures and even footage(!!!) of their PR mandated date in a time where this kind of thing wasn't really common yet. The caption of the YouTube vid "Mark Webber and Sebastian Vettel share an evening in Singapore" 😵‍💫 and I also think often about this comment on that vid calling Seb a "kleine Mädchen." I just think it's very cute. Giggly STR Seb and older gruff RBR Mark, not yet affected by teammate tensions

3. Japan 2007

I think its always very interesting the foreshadowing you can read into while watching older races. I love that Martian were always on an inevitable collision course. Like imagine being Mark and that rookie who crashed into the back of you then goes to win a race before you and then becomes your teammate and then becomes wdc. That they were on this collision course before they even became teammates and Seb had barely been in the sport yet. And LIKE that quote from Mark about Seb about "kids with no experience" and Seb crying in his garage, crazy.

4. Turkey 2010

I have such a fondness for "WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE DOING HERE!? WHAT A STUPID ACTION! I'M GOING HOME! FUCK YOU!"(to the point where my friends who know nothing about f1 know about that quote by proxy bcs I quote it so much") I think it's interesting how much Martian's conflicts revolve around team orders and disobeying radios. It's funny bcs in Turkey 2009, a very similar situation to both Turkey 2010 and Malaysia 2013 happens, them telling Seb to stay behind Mark bcs of whatever reasons. And in 2009, Seb is clearly 🫤 about it but obeys but then goes on to try to overtake Mark in 2010 and fails, but then succeeds in 2013, very interesting to see how that dynamic evolves and grows more toxic! But by far the best part about Turkey 2010 is them having to take that "Us in our Get-Along T-Shirt" pic 😭 it's so funny and I wish they'd do press releases like this nowadays

5. That Monaco 2021 interview where Mark interjects about knowing the meaning behind the coins in Seb's race boots

It's just very sweet to me. There's some post about it on here that explains how meaningful it is, but I don't feel like searching for it, so I'm kinda just paraphrasing that. But like imagine them having a conversation where Seb explains it to Mark and the meaning behind it, and like probably a decade later, Mark still remembers it in perfect detail, enough to remember about the specificities about which coin goes in which boot and why.

Obligatory mentions: Malaysia 2013 of course(but I wanted to mention others, but Multi-21 is a given when considering crazy Martian moments), Australia 2016 podium, Mark's various Instagram forays during Seb's retirement, that one interview where Mark grabs Seb from behind while Love Will Tear Us Apart plays, when Seb sat on Mark's shoulders, anything of them from Abu Dhabi 2022, etc etc

#okay this post is a lot longer than i thought itd be #i had to hold myself back from adding pictures to everything i just tried to put a lot of links instead! #i almost finished making this and then tumblr glitched and i thought it deleted all of it #but it just posted it so i privated it but hopefully it will still show up to people! #this was fun to make bcs i was brought back to my early days of learning their lore(not that im ever finished tbh) #also if you hadnt guessed my favorite season is 2010(cough cough heard you're a player) #but intense teammate rivalries like theirs is so interesting #youre fighting for the wdc and wcc so you're forced to constantly be fighting for yourself but still have to consider the team as a whole #and as I mentioned i love the progression of Martian #guy who crashed into you and ruined your race in 2007 then wins a race before you for your JUNIOR team #then he becomes your teammate and scores the first win for YOUR team that youve already been in for 2 seasons #and then hes your main rival in the next season and he wins the wdc at the last race before you #and then you have to watch him win the next 3 WDCs and meanwhile theres so many interteam tension #and then you retire and you become very fond for each other and have very cute interviews until his very retirement #OKAY SORRY THAT WAS SO MUCH LMAO #ive been so sebson brained lately so its fun to think about martian!!! #also dru if you see this tysm your blog was super helpful for finding stuff from specific events hehehe #martian #sebmark #formula 1 #catie.asks.

[milimeters-morales]

(NOT ATSV) my ideal miguel and miles friendship (bordering on enemies) dynamic is where Miles is sort of a Mean Girls figure where he’ll say the worst things to Miguel, who actually has no problems dishing that shit right back out, is usually too fed up or somewhere else mentally to reply. They fight a lot, more physically than verbally, usually in a slapstick comedy type of way. Miles is banned from Nueva York once a month and got a restraining order against Miguel in his own dimension. His parents fucking hate him and Miguel hates them right back. Rio has tried and failed to poison him via food and Jeff is considering hiring a hitman. Gabriel is beloved by them. Miles takes Miguel’s money at least twice a week to go spend it just because he can. Miguel has tried (and succeeded once) to get Miles sick with a future illness because he figured out the lesbian bar Miguel liked to perform at in drag. Miles has cried at least once in every room of Miguel’s apartment and Miguel has been confused on what to do each time besides an awkward hug and pat on the back. People are rightfully worried for Miles’s safety at least 80% of the time but when they aren’t they’re shaking their heads at the two’s antics. They need to be separated until they have a healthy “this is a grown ass man / this is stupid little girl i don’t like at work” relationship and it’ll take an act of god for either of them to realize their current one isn’t healthy at all and has extremely negative impacts on their mental state.

#i wanna write this so badly bc like . this type of relationship with adults as a kid when you can’t 100% trsut them and place your safety + #in their hands is sooo interesting to write esp considering Miguel’s past and what Miles is used to #which is dangerous fights from adults (his villains) but also the loving ones like his parents his neighbors ripeter and peter b etc #and this miguel (imo) wouldn’t hurt miles on purpose because he knows the pain BUT he also doesn’t realize some shit is pain-causing both+ #mentally and physically bc yknow some abused kids grow into adults who subconsciously do similar shit #and for Miles and Miguel to finally realize beating the shit out of each other almost constantly and the negative back and forth (if miguel #feels like talking that day) is just. not a good thing #it’s sort of like the way i write pavitr and miles’s relationship regarding their fighting because it’s genuinely helpful but #can seem borderline awful and physically abusive to each other #peter b is so fucking worried sometimes bc he sees Miguel in a completely different way than other people. like he’s off in lala land #like. he’ll see this 15 year old stickbug of a kid fighting his buddy Miguel who has been known to kill #he’ll say some fights tou just can’t win Miles… and Miles is setting Miguel’s apartment on fire #like they have good moments. okay. trust me. but a toxic friendship like the kind you see that people take too seriously from a show like. #idk bluey. or some kids show like that. #spiderverse fans DNI ‼️‼️‼️🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾‼️‼️‼️‼️ #not ship never ship don’t even tag is as such bc i’ll just delete the post #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #gabriel o’hara #rio morales #jefferson morales #miguel o’hara #m&m posts

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

Rereading Culling Games arc and some curious but noteworthy points:

Satoru asks that Yuuta look after the current 1st and 2nd years, especially Yuuji. Yuuta goes against this and joins forces with Yuji in ensuring Megumi's safety above all else HMMM

First name basis with Tsumiki HMMM

Clocks Megumi's distress before anyone else does while speaking with Tengen, and puts himself at risk to guarantee Tsumiki's freedom and Megumi's peace of mind HMMM

I think it's pretty clear Yuuta has a favourite. He's full on giving greater big brother vibes than Choso.

Yuuta: Maki says I play favorites with the first years but it isn’t true. I love Megumi and all the non-Megumis equally.

#see I love Yuuta’s place in the main canon because in season one he’s just this guy who’s talked about wistfully by everyone around #he’s the only one Megumi respects #todo considers him and him alone a worthy rival #he’s the one that Inumaki is soft for #and I just love the idea of finally meeting him and he’s just this eternal big brother to the prickly emo one out of them #Yuuta: *slinging an arm around Megumi’s shoulder companionably* #megumi: *accepting this casually and not tearing his head off for it* #yuuji: how is that son of a bitch doing it #I like to imagine that Yuuta in canon is constantly texting the other first years about whats going on and having a panic attack from Africa #maki: megumi finally made a friend #Yuuta: !!!!! #maki: who died in front of him on the first mission #yuuta: What #maki: wait the friend is alive again #yuuta: hes What?????? It’s been months #maki: idk they had him in a box or something #yuuta: they kept him in a box??? #maki: maybe he was somewhere else before the box I wasn’t really paying attention #maki: update the higher ups are trying to kill the friend again #yuuta: maki I will fly back there #maki: no no don’t Megumi is trying to kill the Kamo heir with an elephant over this I want to see if he can #maki: brb special grades attacking #yuuta: MAKI MAKI ANSWER YOUR PHONE #yuuta: inumaki I need updates please tell me what’s going on #inumaki: 🍙🍙!! 🍙🍙🍙!!!! 🍙🍙🍙🍙!!! #Yuuta sobbing: inumaki I know you can text normally this stopped being funny months ago what is happening #maki: okay we’re not dead. pretty sure the Kamo heir was making a pass at fushiguro the entire time. he survived the elephant. baseball now. #Yuuta: maki explain your words explain #yuuta tríes to confíscate the first years and take them to Africa with him but Miguel refuses to accept more children

[fuck-comphet]

Hey mom, if you really wanted your house to be a safe space for me, you wouldn’t invite a known homophobe over while I’m here, and then call me sensitive when I tell you that I’m uncomfortable interacting with this person

#I cannot deal with being in this house much longer #like seriously wtf #this homophobic person is not actually coming over but the only reason is that there’s been too many other friends of my parents over #so their roster was already full #and she just casually mentioned this to me like it was no big deal??? #how can you be comfortable with the idea of inviting a homophobe to your house while your gay daughter is also there?!? #how can you even be friends with that person while you have a gay daughter you say you ‘respect and accept’?!? #im just venting because Im so mad right now #watch she’s going to call ME intolerent for this #like yeah Im INTOLERENT TO HOMOPHOBIA IM LITERALLY GAY???? #cw homophobia #tw homophobia #just fucking reminds me that Im not safe here and I have to constantly be on my toes because my safety is never considered

[wildflowercryptid]

i am so glad that i checked reddit before i considered finally getting the new csp update. the newer features are really appealing, but there's no fucking way i'm dealing with constant online drm like fuck OFF.

#whatever i get it's an anti-piracy measure but that literally makes it impossible to use if your internet goes down & that's fucking stupid #i should be able to use a program i purchased without having to be connected to the internet 24/7 #celsys saw us constantly shitting on adobe for the dogshit practices and then aimed the gun straight at their own foot #this does genuinely frustrates me bc i really do love using csp but everything they've been doing has really soured my opinion on it #i'll still use the 1.0 license i have obviously but i'm not upgrading or recommending the program to others until some things change #i'm actually considering sending in a complaint ticket and i rarely do that shit i'm that annoyed rn #mj.txt

[slopdoughnut]

My bitchass cat- 80 ft up in a goddamn tree

It has been a day

#i dont want to make a long post so im ranting in the tags #this is now day 2 of her being up there #we only just found where she was in the tree thanks to binoculars #there are lots of emotions rn #ive already had a shitty few days and now this #on top of all that #this guy that came to “help” was constantly making remarks about ways to get her down that would definitely kill her #“oh I'm just not a cat person” #ok??? #and??? #shut the fuck up #i lost my cool on his ass so fucking fast #i like to consider myself a generally nice person when it comes to social interactions #but within the hour i was done with this asshole #i will not mention the ways he talked about getting her down #but i will mention that i definitely threatened him #lucky i did not tell him what i was really thinking #which was that i wanted to cave his skull in #but still #i dont give a fuck that you are here to help #the past few days have been shit and now this???? #why are you such an ass??? #fuck that guy #thanks for reading my rant #i hope your week was good #ill update on how getting her down goes #rant post #personal rant #rant

[urostakako]

it seems people are already upset that tsumiki is not nice anymore, sorry you dont know her like i do

#cmon. cmon. she has every right to be violent #idk if i trust gege to allow her to be angry (which she also has every right to be?? her life has constantly been people pushing her away #and forgetting about her and her constantly being nice) but if she was nice even now it would literally make zero sense #thats not character development. its not even giving her character. its just megumi's perspective being right that shes some kind of saint #which is sooooooo boring like why would she be nice. i think she should be tired of being nice. i think she should go apeshit. as a treat #and there was so much build up about the curse put on her. making it just some thing like oh shes a sorcerer but shes not gonna do anything #about it because shes so good IS SO BORING #and really it would be unrealistic if she didnt harbor at least some negative feelings i mean megumi was always kind of an asshole right up #until she got cursed and im assuming gojo didnt pay much attention to her as he did megumi. and her mom left her for some shitty dude #why would she not be mad?? just getting stuck being a little angel after all that just makes my skin crawl #and if megumi only really considered apologizing after she got cursed i doubt he really did a lot for her when she wasnt. #so i absolutely think she should be allowed to kill people it would be a disservice if she wasnt and was just again boiled down to the #saintly girl older sister image megumi seems to have of her. so boring #or maybe its just me being an angry sister who has to be nice. but i dont really think it is #tsumiki fushiguro #jjk 211 #jjk leaks #jjk spoilers #jjk #aricouldyounot #oh and before anyone misinterprets i know megumi had some psychology going on as a kid. doesnt mean tsumiki didnt either #or that she has to be so understanding all the time and not consider her own feelings. so boring. so shitty #it mightve sounded like a joking tone when i said she should go apeshit. but i was 100% serious #anyway yeah thats it

[welcometogrouchland]

"lol they should make Steph spoiler again she's basically not even a Batgirl" look I'm not too jazzed about the current state of Batgirl lore either rn but if I have to suffer through another decade of terrible babsgirl content PLEASE AT LEAST LET ME HAVE BATGIRL STEPH, IF ONLY IN NAME

#ramblings of a lunatic #dc comics #stephanie brown #ideally we'd have no babsgirls and Steph and Cass co-existing as two different types of batgirls both together and separate #since even beyond personality the types of heroes they were- how they fought what they fought their thinking their approach etc- #-was all very different from each other #and in calling back to their respective eras as Batgirl we'd get a steph who feels more like batgirl and less like n52 spoiler #but unfortunately dc hates me and insists on shoving babs into a role better occupied by steph and cass #leaving neither girl to really be able to flourish as batgirl #< this was inspired by me seeing ppl. not quite gloating. that's mean. but they were celebrating- #-about some steph concept art (NEW STUFF WITH STEPH WOO) being labeled ''batgirl/spoiler'' #like i don't think it's a reflection of story progression (bc it wouldn't be progression. it'd be regression. batgirl was forward for steph) #i think it's a reflection of the fact that editorial feels bullied and strong armed by fans into acknowledging steph (and cass) as batgirls #sips juice. anyway #i lowkey think it'd be cool to have steph and cass be batgirls in different cities. cass already had bludhaven let steph take a stab at it #if we're insistent on keeping babs in bludhaven then let her oracle for steph ala bg 2009 #it'd be neat! we could finally explore the tensions and parallels between dick and steph! #and you wouldn't have to remove steph from gotham either considering dicks there constantly too #you lose lich rally nothing and gain so much #but really I'm happy we get anything with steph considering she's only been getting cameos for nearly a year now #steph nation winning despite it all

[brjeauregard]

You know for all her talk about loving Laudna, Imogen seems to have forgotten that Otohan killed her (and Orym and Fearne) when she keeps trying to justify the Ruby Vanguard’s actions and freeing the god killer

#critical role #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #campaign 3 spoilers #this is probably controversial #but Imogen is really only thinking about herself #the party is constantly reminding her that these people killed Orym’s family #and a whole bunch of other people #like I get that her powers have been debilitating and scary and she wants to understand them #but she isn’t considering how the rest of the world is going to be effected #it just seems kind of selfish especially after Orym reminded her again that they killed his family #cr discourse #idk if this counts as discourse but people have been very protective of Imogen

[vulpinesaint]

mkay not to be like. a little insane or anything. but god i've been going crazy over religion (catholicism) and blood lately. did anyone else drink blood as worship every week since they were seven. was anyone else inundated with images of open wounds as holy. is anyone else consumed by the thought of holding onto a crucifix tightly enough for the edges of it to draw blood. i turned in a poem about drowning in communion wine in an empty church while bleeding from crucifix-inflicted hand wounds and trying to talk to god and my creative writing professor gave me extremely normal critiques i feel like i'm losing my mind

#is ANYONE ELSE here. #also i made my poetry insta and i was gonna backpost but i think i might just sit and stare at it until april sfkghsd #it's me and my few hundred tumblr followers on my poetry acc. and the five thousand pornbots on this one ig #life is so. like. #i CONSTANTLY think that being raised catholic didn't do that much to me but obviously it did SOMETHING #you know what. yeah. cause i didn't end up with guilt over being queer but i did end up having my whole world view torn away from me #cause when god is the fundamental building block to everything... #my parents were extremely reasonable about things all things considered #but losing trust and faith in god is like having the bottom block pulled out of your little tower #and since i was fifteen i feel like i've been trying to either get it out fully without letting it all crumble #or trying to push it back without causing more damage #and the tower's never gonna be the same no matter what. you know. #i suck at self reflection so i never actually think about this stuff but dear god does it consume me #like no i did not end up with catholic guilt really. however being asked to examine yourself as a sinner at 7 will do things to you #HATE myself why am i still awake. so fucking upset i need to be up so early tomorrow skdjfgh #screaming and crying. anyway anyone else up thinking about catholicism and blood??? #valentine notes #catholic tag