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twisted-gremlin · 17 hours

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Second years and semicolon

First years and explanation

Riddle: since tattoos didn't exist in the day of the queen of hearts, or anythibg of the like in the area, there is no law for or against them. Riddle believes that the queen would have a rule that all must have atleast one as a show of strength and fortitude or loyalty or somethjng. He just would make sure that you took care of the tattoo during the healing process. His mother probably disapproved of Riddle himself ever getting one because they could lead to an infection. So, Riddle would defonately talk to you about it, and what your means to you. I think, when the time comes. He might get a heart and rose semicolon tattoo for himself when he is old enough. He takes so much pride in it and absolutely adores it

Ruggie: he might see tattoos as a waste of money. Growing up poor, he has seen some people tossing away their money for a new tattoo. So he might antagonize you a lil more. I think Jack would actually be the one to snap at Ruggie, saying that your tattoo means alot to you and shows a big milestone. Jack dosent open up about more, so Ruggie asks you. You may either tell him to fuck off, so he does and just kinda keeps his distance. The other option is that you tell him, and he grows a bit more of an understanding for that. He is a lil more respectful and may steal some stuff for ya because you are currently broke as shit (thanks Crowley for helping)

Floyd: he fuckin thinks tattoos are the coolest thing. I think, if he ever got a tattoo, he would get a sleeve of random ass things, going to 50 differnt artists while it's being done. He bites your tattoo because look, a homing beacon of bitting. He would respect ya is you do share your story with him, and he even helps you, in his own way. He will steal you away if you get stressed, or share your guilty foods(he does this with Azul, you can't change my mind), he likes seeing his shrimp friend happy admit all the chaos they are in

Jade: he probably isn't one to get a tattoo, he might get a mushroom one as a memory of his time on the surface. But I think he would put together what your tattoo means, and so, he helps by pushing you a bit further if you don't already push yourself. If you do, then he will present himself as an obstacle so you can take a break every once in awhile. He does this with Azul and it works well with him, so why not with another friend/patron who is struggling. He will listen to your story if you wish to share it and will be there for you, and even offer to take you on hikes with his club.

Azul: I think he would not care much for tattoos, he is a business man, a tattoo would take away from the business. But when he saw yours and put together the meaning behind it, after his overblot, he accepts that, something is also wrong with him, so he asks you to his office for drinks and to talk. So he brings up your tattoo, he identifies in some way with your story, the struggling around others, the fear, the insecurity. He apologizes for his behavior recently as it put you and your livelihood in danger. He makes an offer of buying ramshake, giveing you a place on Octanavile, and a job at the Monstro Lounge. He would get a small smiple semi Colin that could be hidden in his gloves. It's a promise, to you and himself that he would never do such a thing again, he hurt his friends, scared people, and nearly killed himself. So he wants to be better than he was, being better also seems to help with his businesses aswell so why stop?

Jamil: I think he would have a bit of a stigma against tattoos, white would be for the wealthy, while black would be for criminals. Even tough it's not entirely true, he has it a bit ingrained in him that if you have ink on you, he hates you. So before his overblot, he would be cold and distant to you. After the overblot, he decides to ask about what your tattoo means to you/your culture. When you share, he apologizes for his stigma and thank you about shareing your story. I think he would ask for permission from his family and the Al-Aslims for a white and black semicolon tattoo. He helped Kalim take care of his so he knows how to do it, but Kalim this time helps him.

Kalim: bean boi already has one! So the two fo you bond over them. Tattoos are probably a mix of cultural and a sign of wealth, specifically white ones. So when you share your and the meaning to you, this man does what he can to support you, inviting you over or comeong over for meals, checking in on you every once in awhile, just trying his best to be aware of the feelings of others.

Silver: I think silver would be fascinated by it. He was allways fascinated by oddities in whatever differnt kind of fae he talked to, multiple sets of teeth, wings, horns, pointy teeth, whatever would make himself differ from the fae. He would be very respectful about it and be sure to research each Species or ask his father about it before asking the fae themself, as to not appear as to be rude. He asked Jamil about Kalims tattoos because he knows that if there was a gaurd or a retainer nearby, it's best to adress them about some things that may be rude culturally. So he knows what a tattoo is, and ends up asking you about yours. He apologizes that you have had to go trough such hardships and is glad that you are healing and are there for Malleus whenever he needs someone to be with that isn't one of them. He honestly respects you alot for it since Jamil told him that it's a bit of a painful process. He may ask some more about your world aswell because he is genuinely curious about the differences between the worlds and helps you as a fellow human who is very much lost in this new world

#twisted wonderland #twst #twst hcs #twst mc #azul ashengrotto #twst riddle #ruggie twisted wonderland #twst second years #twst floyd #twisted wonderland jade #twst jamil #twst kalim #twst silver

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falcon-writes · 15 days

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for the ask game!! :)

if you could erase any three tropes from existence, what would they be?

do you have a “guilty pleasure” (trope, character, au etc.) to read or write?

how do you shake burnout or writer’s block?

name three fic writers you personally like to read from or are inspired by.

ooooh these are so hard

Ummm i don’t hate many tropes (probably because i only read the same ones) so i don’t really have an answer… maybe anything that overly glorifies something that shouldn’t be glorified because it’s like,,, horrific? Yknow what i mean?

YES UGH FUCKING HUGGING FICS I EAT THAT SHIT UP!!! I love making specifically the doctor hug people because i think they very much need to. But it’s even more fun because i HAVE to make it in character.

urghdhfwh i don’t? But basically the best advice is to just sit down with a notebook and set a ten minute timer and write over and over and over again “i don’t know what to write" until you get so bored you end up writing somethjng. NO PUTTING DOWN THE PENCIL.

writers that inspire me below (how can i pick only 3?!)

@t-rina, @thespacenico, and @spoopdeedoop

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darlin-djarin · 8 months

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Hi I’m back (<- never left)

So did Emilian’s whole covert know Galactic Sign Language (GSL?)? Or is it a bigger population where the learning of the language would taper out the farther removed from Emilians circle? Or is it just something most already knew?

And Ahmed. Where is his planet? Is there a specific planet where Arabs From Space (other than Lothal) live? Or is it just widespread?

Also. Where were they the night mandalore went bye. How did Emilian feel.

Okay I’m done now sorryyyy bye! (Again sorry I just need 2 digest somethjng Mandalorian that isn’t touched by Favroni or Traviss. Love mandalorians. Hate the people who write them)

(u changed the “traumatise me” thing does this mean I’m not allowed to anymore)

okay so not all the covert knows galactic sign language, but most of the leaders and the armorer know. most of the covert does know tusken sign though, since the armorer teaches a lot of the foundlings as they're younger (i am a tusken armorer truther). emilian is more reserved, kept to himself, so he doesn't communicate much with anyone anyway. he uses tusken with the covert though, and galactic with anyone else who knows it.

i'mma be real, idk ahmed's planet. i'd like to think he was a foundling, but grew up away from mandalore with his buire, and on the planet where he learned his native tongue (space arabic ??? sparabic. SPARABIC???). while he never settled anywhere for long, he did teach nablus sparabic so they talk in that with each other mostly. not a lot of people know sparabic so it's more of just a him and her thing.

ahmed and nablus weren't near mandalore when it got glassed, so hearing the news was. well. idk. ahmed never had a real connection to mandalore anyway, but it was still freaky to comprehend. emilian was on concordia or one of mandalore's moons or something. he fled with the rest of the mandos, and joined the covert later. really fucking devastating for him. doesn't like talking about it.

(i changed the "traumatize me" bc tumblr's new update doesn't let me have more than 26 letters on the button </3 rip)

#dude the mandalore timeline is so confusing i sat here for like five minutes trying to figure it out #anyway #probably some inconsistencies but. yk #star wars #oil.#olly's ocs #ahmed #emilian #nablus

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kusundei · 25 days

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okay rant time but like. i like ajax so much ngl

again not romantic im okay guys but like? he gets me fr??? i like him so much it kinda bothers me bcuz like. im actually getting to this weird point where im like lowkey relying on him. i hate doing that… or like i tell people things ab myself without them having to ask or i have somethjng happen and i think. ooh i wanna tell this person this. or i get sad when i dont see them or talk to them for a day or etc etc.

its like. im like this with one person. sav. i used to be like this with jd but like obviously thats a given? with ajax irs so strange cuz i HATE that im forming a weird attachment to him and let alone i think ige discussed the thing w being insecure again before its just like. i dont want to rely on someone if this isnt reciprocated. if they dont need me to or if i dont mean as much to them or etc etc.

lkke there is genuinely no proof he doesnt care. that he hates me sometimes. that hes annoyed. but god the SMALLEST THINGS make me so scared that he does and hod thats so .. terrifying ??? this is so jd and josh and muffin core and i hate it so so so much. with sav im okay being like this because shes been with me forever and i know she cares and i know she’ll never leave and that discards the insecurity. i think im insecure again because of all the jd stuff because im like. im sososo scared of relying on anyone again its horrible. and the fact im getting so scared and convincing myself he hates me kver nothinf? the fact im affected when he doesnt go to achool or doesnt text or hes only and talking to like wack or kei and not responding to me?? like i rationalize all of it but a part of me js still . weird?

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ssreeder · 1 year

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hey its been a while since i commented/sent an ask bc i was too continuously brainblasted to put thoughts to writing but i read the last chapter of ria and i just finished processing it and *kickingnand screaming and pulling my hair and growling like a creature*/pos

as always i love the complexity u give jet. the way hes finally having to confront his moral equivalence of fire nation = bad, not fire nation = always better, because of his friendship with reho. the guilt and the turmoil and the way he knew he was using reho going in and now hes attached but he knows its going to be sort of on him if somethjng happens to his friend. (i am obsessed with jet now he is one of my favourite characters now and i am positive ur writing is 100% responsible)

omg they are separated and u are an evil genius and i am croaking like a frog and u are a good author and idk just. i want sokka to see katara and im glad he can, i am excited about a rescue mission but i am scared because with Zuko Alone (hehe) i feel in my bones something bad is just going to happen

i was going to write this in a comment but i swapped over to tumblr and i started writing and suddenly all these words were here and you cant select all and cut and paste in the stupid tumblr mobile app lmao, so the penis abrasion post-chapter rants' great return is going cross-platform i guess.

even if i go lurker again for a bit, i will be feverishly awaiting more 👍🌽(idk why but the corn was at the top of my recent emojis page so fuck it corn this shit up wooo)

PENIS ABRASION!!!!

Hello my friend, I am glad I had an opportunity to make you scream.

But you know what makes me the MOST HAPPY?!?! You’re love for Jet. He is one of my favorite characters in the series and he is so judged and criticized for reacting to his trauma. Healthy or unhealthy coping is still just a person trying to survive! I am so happy you love Jet & that my writing had even a splash of influence in that :)

Zuko Alone absolutely! (I mean Shen is there… but fuck him)

🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽

Corn for you too

#I love that you love jet #I love reading your HC about Jet #you're so creative #you have a really cool way of thinking & you bring Jet into that lol #Jet is great #I stand by that forever #it doesn’t mean I won’t kill him #but he is still great!!#glad you liked the ending #sorry it was so cruel lol #liab #ria #ask #penis abrasion #tw penis mention #haha idk just in case

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aeferkssr · 2 years

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I SHARED THIS WITH ELY BUT THEY AFE OFFLINE AND I NEED SM TO BEAR THE BURDEN WITH ME

TATTO ARTIST READERR X FLORIST AETHER

SUNSHINE PROTECTOR X SUNSHINE

Like imagine you need some flower to decorate your office cause it's too 'dead' (word of scara your asshole of a co worker) you go to that little flower shop near your office, thinking nothing of it. You had some knowledge about flowers thanks to previous client who explained meaning of their tattoo.

You enter and see this beauty of a man, long golden hair, shining suns for eyes. You feel like fainting from his beauty, sadly (or fortunately) he speaks to you. Now you never stutter but when you needed to reply to his questions you couldn't get the words out of your mouth. "Oh..well you see, i actually, well heh, im a tatto near the street i mean im a tattoo artist my office around the street corner i um wanted to buy some flowers to you know liven up my office..liven up is that even a real word— anyway. Uh yeah." Your cheeks getting hot the longer his gorgeous eyes stare at you, slowly blinking.

You fucked up.

He just goes :D and help you choose a flower, ignoring your little embarrassing episode.

His voice was so soothing to listen to you wanted nothing more than to ask him to sing you to sleep. Half way through the entire shop visit, he ask about your opinion about the flowers thus far. But he soon notice you werent paying much attention. ( 'cute..' he thinks but chase the thought away. His own ear turning red) he tries to snap you out from whatever trance you were. Without much success, you were still in a daze. At this point he was beginning to grow flustered from your gaze.

He tries again and the word you mutter leave him speechless. " How gorgeous, can i call you mine?" He melt from how in love you sounded.

Realizing your mistake, you apologise so much you ran out of breath. Without much thinking you ran out of the store. Leaving a confused lumine and a flustered aether. (And a big bro dain who note to keep an eye out on you. No way you are dating his little bro)

Coming back to your office you see scara staring weirdly at you, until he notice your blush. "Not one word." You threaten.

"pay up." You ended up losing 50 bucks that day because he cannot keep his mouth shut.

(sorry if this is bad i rushed to write this bc ideas where coming in and out :')

IZUMI/MIO/SM ELSE I LOVE YOU SM FOR THIS IM LUTERALLY IN MISERY PLUS AN AETHER BRAIN ROT

now, i absolutely love what you did here. like omg the intimidating tattoo artist!reader literalky going bonker bananas for a pretty little florist!aether just sooths my soul. LIKE DAMN WILL I EVER GET A TATTOO IN MY LIFE? PROBABLY NOT. BUT IS THIS ME IN EVERY ASPECT? ABSOLOUTELY

also the big brother dain agenda is so real. i will literally pay you to say more omg. like damn you want somethjng to eat? ill dorrdash it to you rn. youre so real mio/izumi/sm else i hope you know that

and also i thought of the roles being switched for a bit. like its a florist!reader and a tattoo artist!aether. probably because i will never be over this tiktok omg i love it when people draw emo aether but thats beyond the point

like omg how dare this cute frilly thing make him feel this way. he only came to your flower shop just to get lumine off of his back for the place being "too emo" he never expected to be leaving with a massiave crush on the person who runs the shop right across f4om him

KSKDNDNCB OMG IM GONNA SPARE MYSELD THE EMBARASSMEBT AND END THAT THERE CAUSE ID HAVE TO USE YHE KEEP RRADING FEATURE AND I DONT WANNA WRITE A FIC RN KSKSKFB

anyways izumi/mio/sm else i love you for doing this you arw so great /p

#[🫂] mio #i hope yoy have/had an amazing day #because this was a good day for me #yk #minus diluc #but STILL #i got a new brain rot #and a new asmrtist who kinda soynds like aether #if you squint #(coping)

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faithfromanewperspective · 5 months

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I can’t stop thinking about the expectation ingrained in culture that women will be the emotional supports and de facto therapists for their (male) partners. I can’t stop thinking about how I saw it in my (female) friend’s marriage and how good it is if bittersweet to see her free from that. I can’t stop thinking about how I saw it in my flock, they’re just birds, surely this isn’t a thing, but it is clear as day and the aging widowers in the flock, many of them are proof of that and I wish I did better by my girls. I can’t help think of a (male) friend who I’m usually really close with but I feel like I’m losing him, I’ve felt that before, I can’t help seeing how free his ex gf seems since they broke up and I wonder if she’s another one of the bisexual girlies I know who’ve sworn off men and this gives me such a new way to look at my queensland best friend and I hate it I want to throw up because I know he’s better than that. and there’s nothing I can do because he has to do the work himself and it’s the same isn’t it? with my other friends ex husband and my old birds and how do you even do the healing work when you’re a bird?? maybe I can do something there. but how many generations has this happened? have my great grandmothers gone to their graves believing they’re good for nothing but emotional support? have yours? good on my mum for never being that for anyone. her children did the work ourselves, didn’t we? and I can’t even grieve for us, we’re too stubborn anyway just like my dad, we were always made to make it through the world through observation and art and may we never bleed down the generations or just shut out that softness like our grandparents. may we always rebel against gender roles the way we do, may we be the queer icons that we are always, may we show the world somethjng else. when did my sisters grow up to become this?

but while I celebrate us I also look at gender roles again, I’m not usually one for them, I’m just against being told to do things that don’t work for us and aren’t natural already but I’m obsessed with finding the good in everything and I think that I can, not these kinds of gender roles, not the provider and the therapist that became two incomes but one still provides the emotional labour. I look at lines like ‘love your wife as Christ loved the church’ and ‘respect your husband’ (which btw are about mutual love and submission and anyone who twists that is trying to hold a sense of power over someone and they’re Officially Wrong) but maybe the weird and potentially sexist wording had a point?? self sacrificial love of a god who dies for a bunch of people many of whom hate him: that’s something that women through history have done naturally, people pleasing, connection seeking, fear, it’s not actually natural but something we’ve been socialised into. and isn’t the gospel about liberation, what a better way to be liberated than having a mandate that the men in our lives do the exact same thing?? so much giving, that no one can take more than their fair share when they need that love? builds the connection we all seek that can heal?? maybe that’s the reason behind it idk who am I to say?? and maybe respect is refusing to treat a man like a child who can’t meet his own emotional needs? maybe it’s saying you can do this, but this is something you have to do yourself. you have to step up. you can’t bleed out on your partner and kids and expect them to clean it up, if you respect yourself you get your shit together yourself and it doesn’t mean you’re mentally well all the time just that you take responsibility? and I respect you enough to know you can do it and I don’t have to do it for you. so many of us as women do it for the men around us and it doesn’t work. I only hope it isn’t too late for my loved ones (human) to see this. of all genders. and all take responsibility but also have access to healthily given love to let in. It’s the same thing for all genders. but the backdrop is different. for cis men and women. for trans and nonbinary folk or anyone of any gender who just refuses to go along with any of it. and so watch me randomly deconstruct (Christian) bible passages one anti-sexist privilege and culture-aware hot take at a time. may you find any good that’s in this if there is any there, regardless of what you think about these texts or religion

#punk christianity #progressive christianity #gender #feminism between the lines #lmk if this is actually feminism tho #bc it’s just a thought dump. unprocessed

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weeaboo-ig · 2 years

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I wanted to share somethjng super personal and downloaded tumblr because you can basically be anyone you want here and no one will ever know. But I’m in love with someone and I’ve been in love with them since before we broke up and it was all my fault, I was mean and vile and I pushed him away and he didn’t deserve any of it. He was so kind and understanding and did everything to try and make me happy. We’ll calll him Jeffrey for now.it’s been about a year since we broke up and im still crushed to my core. He has a new girlfriend and he got with her a couple months after broke up. I resented him at first for that because I loved him and I just didn’t want to admit it. I’ve dug myself into a pit of despair begging and wishing I could have one last chance with him and that’ll never happen because I ruined everything, I just wanted to be okay and I hurt him so much. I hate myself every day for this. I just want to hug him again..

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itsmaddienotmaddy · 4 years

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Why is VR karaoke girl singing the Alex/Maggie breakup song??

#supergirl #supergirl spoilers #and rhey didnt even do anything about it #like #if youre going to reuse meaningful music #have it mean somethjng again

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purrble-archive · 3 years

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And you know what? Just so im being fair in my criticism, I really just might read every iteration of the manga (cuz there's an older version where the characters actually look like adults but r still middles 😭) AND the anime then I'll form my 100% opinion on it

#just a little frustrated cuz every story just has to be middle schoolers qnd high schoolers i mean im a high schooler too but like #theres a billion like that im bored of it can i watch adults being funny and also incredibly stupid now #and its like #authors have to come up with dark and sad and terrible reasons for why these young people are always at school and never go anywhere else #(im high key expecting this to be the case for the blondie;since his family dropped his assmi think.like his family left him at yohng age)#but if they were in college... u wouldnt have to do that ; wpuldnt have to explain somethjng like that so soon or whatev cuz hed just be jn #college dorms and it could be explain later on #AGAIN... SAYING THIS WITHOUT KNO WI NG THE PLOT YET... JUST SPECULATION FOR WHAT IT'LL DO...#and so thats y i said I'll do that #anyway sor Ry im ranting for no reason?#i think i had other characters in mind when i talked about that but i honestly cant remember their names or which stories they were in #grr.txt

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whispers-of-gallifrey · 4 years

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Side of my brain panicking about the future vs side of my brain panicking about not living to see the future fight!

#tw death #this post brought to you by the panic attack i had this morning about everyone i love dying and it being my fault #and the panic attack i had 10 minutes ago about failing second year when i dont even start till next week #i mean ive always had panic attacks thinking about the future so thats nothing new bc theres so much uncertainty #i wish i could have a step by step breakdown of everything bc then i could actually do stuff #like all of my lectures are pre recorded and released every monday so keeping ontop of them is gonna be hell #like its hard enough to remember to do the reading for things but the lectures too??? i have to chose my own 2hr timeslots in which to watch #them????#2nd is gonna be hard and it actuallt counts so im probably gonna get a third and the amount of work i put into getting a first last year is #meaningless so why did i even bother trying and crying so much about everything i did #i wish i could get a diagnosis for something bc somethjngs not normal about me and i want to be able to focus and work normally and i cant #ive always been a high achieving student which sounds like a really stupid thing to complain about like oh no i got another a* how horrifyin #but i have such a huge fear of failure and an inability to start a task unless i know precisely what to do bc i dont want to get it wrong #and uni is so hard for that bc the only time you get feedback is when they grade your work and thats your final grade #whereas at school all your work was practice for the final exams so you could improve #but uni theyll give you your mark and a comment like oh you should have included x #and like that would be good for future reference except im not doing that topic again so whats the point #okay i guess my panic attack is still going rip #sorry for rambling i just need to speak this into the void

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matamisin · 5 years

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I say this with the most sincerity I can. But if any of you ever need someone to talk to during hard times, I will ALWAYS be open and I will do what I can to help you.

This goes for anyone- whether we've talked at all or not, I care about each person on here and if you're going through something please don't keep it bottled up. You dont have to face the problem alone.

I may not be the right person to talk to nor am I at all in a position of power to help in every way possible, but I will do what I can- I will listen, I will give you my input if you want me to- just please dont stray away from help. There are people here for you who care about you.

#im really sorry for dropping off again all of a sudden #something terrible happened and finals is here and. theres just. a lot going on #i wanted to update yesterday but it didnt feel right to just do it like i usually did #yknow like how id post somethjng that jokes about whats been gojng on to play off the seriousness #but this situation isnt that anymore #its real life #and its awful #but i mean every word. the world is awful and difficult and isnt always bright and sunny #but i will offer my help if it can help in any way #please be kind to yourselves and if the situation is serious llease seek out any help you can #people are out there for you that value you and your life so much #every one of you is worth so much more than what others may say or even what your mind may say #i dont know how things will be the next few days or if ill be able to crank out any content #ah if you cant tell its like. 4 am and i cant sleep nor have i felt well these past few days #those two along with finals and the situation are really holding me down #but ill come back as soon as i can #i love you guys ❤❤ please stay safe

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aetherarf · 3 years

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hi! i love the way you write so much ❤️ Could i request somethjng with Childe and reader (who’s also a fatui harbinger and has known him since childhood) taking care of him after he overexerts himself with his Foul legacy transformation? sorry if this is too vague its ok if you don’t feel like it but thank you in advance take care of yourself!

This is plenty descriptive! Ty for the compliment! Btw yes the request to post right after this one is super similar so,,, yeah. that's coincidental.

Also tbh sort of thinking of it as a very very slow friends-to-lovers so have a fun confession and childe's brain bluescreening

[[ WARNING: ANGST, GORE ]]

[[ Summary: A longing for battle, refusing to accept ones limitations, and a degree of general insanity, all lead to Childe nearly dying in your arms.

Word Count: 1'380 ]]

It happened all too fast.

It wasn't uncommon for those who disbelieved in the Tsaritsa to try and rebel against her and her Harbingers, and all the Fatui. Most of them ended up dying off, only well after they realized that not only did they need the Tsaritsa to not suffer a horrific, Archonless fate, but that there were far more prepared to protect her.

It didn't mean there weren't casualties.

More than a few had seen you and Childe on a mission, away from those who could assist you, and thought you to be easy prey, either simply to kill, or to use against the Tsaritsa.

But Childe lived for a fight, and you wouldn't give up, you wouldn't let him fight alone.

A living soul turned into a corpse before you, you could only stare at it fell to the ground... Sorrowful that you had to kill someone who fought for what they believed in, but you had no choice.

You spun around, and your eyes widened in horror as not only did you see Childe surrounded, but shortly after--a chaos of lightning and light, exploding the bodies surrounding him in countless directions, but they weren't dead, the monstrous form standing their, head flung back with an inhuman, horrific cackle as he held the weapon made of pure electro energy, looking at those who still lived, a massive maw opening and letting out a deafening shriek--

Those who could still flee ran in terror, and those who did not were slaughtered swiftly, not given the time to feel the fear of death or agony as their bodies were sliced open.

And he turned his gaze to you.

"Chi-Childe... Ajax, calm down," you said, knowing that you couldn't fight him like this, "You need to get out of that-that form, it's going to hurt you."

However, he didn't respond, and his one eye was completely unreadable as he walked closer, staring at you...

And you stepped back, until you tripped over a corpse, landing on your back.

He kept approaching, and fell to one knee before you, leaning closer, and nearly crawling atop you, staring at you with the eye that could only remind you of the dead gods.

"Ajax--Please!"

And with that, the eye flickered, and he collapsed atop you. You had the air forced out of your lungs with the weight, but the hard, cold, mask-like face soon turned to yielding flesh, and the straw-like hair was now just fluffy, pleasant...

As you looked down at Childe, lying atop you, it looked like he was covered in stardust, that cursed form gone...

But while his eyes were open, he was clearly not conscious-

"Childe, Tartaglia, Ajax, please-" You sat up, trying to shake him, but his head lolled like a corpse...

You couldn't cry. Crying was risking too much. You could hear him breathing, and with your fingers on his neck, you could feel his pulse, as disturbingly slow as it might be.

You couldn't cry, you hoisted him onto your back, dragging him towards anyone-anyone who could help him, heal him...

You knew that this form-it hurt him, it destroyed him, little by little. Usually, he would give himself time to recover...

But what would happen when he had used it so often, back to back? Would it end up turning his insides to mush, as he had warned you about long ago?

...

It was a long fight, against the cold winter of Snezhnaya. You were more than familiar with, but it didn't make it any less agonizing.

A long drag to get him to an, admittedly, small Fatui Soldier encampment. A few communications later, you were with him as you returned to the Zapolyarny Palace, where the best healers and doctors in Snezhnaya, dare you say all of Teyvat, would stay, to take care of the Tsaritsa's Harbingers, and herself, of course, should she ever suffer even a minor cut or bruise.

It took hours. Hours of examinations, you sitting silently, weeping as the guards, as everyone simply did not look at you, not wanting to call attention to your agony...

Ajax, you thought, You can't keep hurting me like this.

Were you selfish, for his pain hurting you this way, as well?

Finally, you were able to sit beside him as he rested, not having woken up from it.

"He's severely injured, but he'll live."

You wanted to rip him to shreds, to scold him for what he was doing, throwing himself into the fight and wrecking himself for-what, glory? Fame? Some sort of hero complex?

But as you watched him lie there, you couldn't say mad. You just hurt. You were tired, so tired.

You'd wait.

And eventually, as you were all but falling asleep in the chair...

"Mhph. I feel like shit."

You woke up from your daze, looking at him--He was lying in bed, looking at his arms that had bandages, needles pressed into his flesh and connected to tubes. He didn't pull at them, but he set his fingertips over it.

You smacked his hand away from it-"Ow," he looked over at you, smiling in a daze, "Oh. Hi, I didn't know you were here. I missed you."

"... You idiot."

"I'm your idiot~" Even as weak as he was, he gave you a hearthrobbingly charming smile.

"You can't do these things," you said, voice quivering but fighting to be stern, "And still smile like that."

"Well joke's on you, I don't remember what happened," he said--he was, painfully, genuine.

"You nearly killed yourself is what happened!" You snapped, and then recoiled as you saw his eyes widen in shock-he couldn't even flinch. "I shouldn't have yelled, but... You used your Foul Legacy. Again. You-You just blacked out on top of me."

He stared at you, then turned his head to stare at the ceiling.

"So I did," he said, as though unsure of the events, "How long have I been out?"

You hesitated.

"Fourty-seven hours."

"Fuh-" He stared at you, "Fourty-seven? Have you slept at all? You look worse than I feel, and..." He coughed weakly, "I feel horrible."

"No, because-I'm mad at you, and I was scared," you said, genuinely, tears gathering in your eyes, "I love you and you just-you just keep doing this, you keep hurting yourself, I... I can't keep watching it."

Childe stared, and weakly, he pushed himself up, staring at you.

"You love me?"

You groaned, of course that's all he cared about,

"Of course I do! I'm-I'm so tired, Childe, of hurting every night, thinking I said my last goodbye. You never think about how you might hurt other people when you-you use that stupid fucking curse," you sobbed, weakly, too exhausted to openly cry.

He flopped onto his back... and he was quiet.

Both of you were.

Eventually, he scooted over, and he held his arms open.

"Can... Can we talk about this later? I want to die-ahem, I feel like I'm... I feel like death and You haven't slept in over two days."

You sigh, "Yeah, I'll go-"

"I didn't say go," He shifted his arms, emphasizing how he was holding them open for you. "Come on. Cuddle me. You know I love cuddling, and I almost died, don't I deserve it?" He asked, smiling sweetly.

"You deserve to be left alone to think about your actions?"

"... Please?" He asked, again, giving you puppy-dog eyes... and you sighed.

Well, at least you probably wouldn't accidentally bump anything that was monitoring him. You, delicately, crawled into the small bed with him, and he wrapped his arms around you, limply, and relaxed into the bed.

"Can we do this again?" He asks, barely a whisper.

"I'll do it whenever you want," you said, nuzzling up to him.

"What if I asked for it everyday?"

"Then everyday."

"Every night? With a kiss?"

"... then every night, with a kiss."

"Can I get a kiss now?"

You huffed, "Are you sure you want our first kiss to be when you're half dead?"

"Absolutely. It's a good story."

Instead of argue any longer... you pressed a chaste but sweet kiss to his lips... and he smiled, eyes half-lidded as he looked like he was dazed, dizzy, but oh-so-pleased.

"Happy?"

"Very. I love you."

"... I love you too."

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #childe x reader #genshin childe x reader #childe #angst #angsty bark #hurt and comfort #anonymous #request #bark writes #// i. struggled.

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so ive had this idea for an amphibia fangame for a lil while now-

(LONG post)

its based around the idea that sometime after anne got sent back to earth, she decides to sneak out one night to visit sasha and marcys bedrooms and poke through their stuff. this causes a bunch of memories to come back to anne through flashbacks while she tries to process everything thats happened and her feelings abt their friendship.

i was thinking itd be mostly a visual novel type thing. maybe with a few small choices, but the story would be mostly linear. thered be around 3 main story beats: a prologue bit w/ anne sneaking out of her house, marcys bedroom, and sashas bedroom. also one of the main mechanics would be looking at one of their bedrooms and clicking on random objects of importance and triggering a flashback sequence.

it came from the idea that anne will probably try to just shove all her emotions down and try to ignore her feelings abt true colors and everything that went down then. especially with what we saw in the sneak peek, anne will probably try to hide her emotions and bottle them up, which is obviously not healthy. so eventually shes gonna have to work through her emptional baggage and try to process everything.

i havent thought through EVERYTHING just yet, just some more major plot points and maybe one or two ideas for flashbacks. nothing too solid yet. but heres a bit more detailed runthrough of the plot

summary - prologue

so it would start off with anne at home. she and her mom are talking outside annes room. her moms concerned abt how annes been handling everything that happened in amphibia but anne keeps brushing everything off. her mom tries to get her to open up, but she keeps dismissing her and eventually shuts herself in her room. after taking a bit to cool off and think anne decides that shes gonna take the night to just ride off her emotions and stop repressing them for once. she also makes an impulsive decision to sneak out and check out marcy and sashas rooms.

anne goes to gather her stuff in her room, and just as shes about to climb out the window, sprig walks in to check on her. hes still rly concerned abt his big sis but he knows he cant stop her. he tries to go with anne, but she tells him she needs to do this on her own. so, sprig lets her go and tries to cover for her while shes gone.

so at this point i’ll probably give the player the choice of whose house to visit first. it doesnt rly impact the story or whatever, but i guess it might have a small emotional impact depending on whose house u choose to go to first??

(quick note: after this bit, there arent too many specific details for the plot and stuff like that. its largely just an overall idea of how the plot is gonna go. and even then, there isnt much to it. i didnt think that far ahead yet, which is why there isnt as much refinement yet. so far i just have general ideas for how annes gonna get to the bedrooms, with a couple of vague flashback ideas. just keep that in mind; this whole thing is still being thought over and planned as im typing this out)

summary - sasha

with sasha, annes still rly conflicted abt how she feels abt her. of course shes still rly hurt by being backstabbed by her twice and swordfighting her as many times. but as much as she hates sasha she cant bring herself to fully give up on sash. she hates her guts but deep down shes still willing to give sash another chance.

there may or may not be a small sequence where anne has to sneak into sashas house, but eventually she works her way into sashas room. im not entirely sure abt the details of sashas house n her family yet. im probably gonna wait for info from s3 until i solidify anything, but for now i do know that sashas family has a big house n theyre probably rich.

so anne goes into sashas room and its been left pretty much untouched ever since annes birthday, save for the few times someone came in to dust things off. again, dont rly have all the details for sashas room, but it kind of has a vibe of controlled chaos, with organized clutter and a bit of a touch of a rebellious teen girl. one detail i do want to have is a calendar opened up to the month the trio disappeared, with annes birthday circled and highlighted so much that its impossible to miss.

the calendar itself might include a flashback. im thinking of also having a varsity jacket and some old stuffed animal be different “artifacts” that trigger their own memories. there’ll be a bunch more, but those are the only ideas i have so far fjsbndnd

summary - marcy

ok so i want to be rly mean about marcys segment: this is going off the theory that marcys parents moved away while the trio was in amphibia.

anne doesnt know this yet tho, so shes in for quite a surprise when she turns onto marcys street to find a realtor sign on the front lawn. the clues are all there: an empty driveway, sign on the lawn, an overall empty vibe coming from the house. but it doesnt completely register at first. its not til anne actually comes up close does she notice the sign.

anne tries to deny it, and decides to prove to herself that “no marcys parents wouldnt do this. theyre not that cruel. im just gonna check marcys room myself.” the front doors locked, so she just goes over to marcys window and climbs in.

but its completely empty.

ok not totally empty, but a lot of marcys furniture and stuff is gone, except for a few stray toys and other “junk.” the home guys (idk what theyre called????) are still kind of in the process of cleaning everything out, so theres still some stuff left here and there around the house. but its still way too empty. and its yet another gut punch for anne.

anne searches the rest of the house a bit more, hoping that shes just hallucinating. but no, marcys parents are really gone. she tried to deny it before, but now she has more of an idea of how shitty the wu parents are. so anne decides to just mope around in marcys old room, checking out the stuff their parents left behind.

maybe she finds an old blanket marcy liked when he was rly young. or an old rubiks cube from marcys vast collection. a cnc figurine, some cards, a pride flag, and old diary? a couple of other old toys, an old report card or two, or maybe even some stray clothes. whatever anne finds, its all thats left of marcy, at least in LA.

it really doesnt leave anne in that much of a better emotional position. she already felt conflicted enough about what happened in true colors and what she found out abt marcy. but seeing even a small glimpse of what marcy was dealing with, it just makes her more confused. marcy was such a sweet kid! theres no way they couldve done anything wrong. yet here anne was, betrayed by both of her childhood friends.

only now is anne really taking the time to process the fact that marcy essentially kidnapped her and sasha with the calamity box. he didnt mean to do it, and theres no way they couldve known the box would actually work, but it doesnt completely excuse marcy. his actions still hurt anne and sash, and while they meant the best of intentions, it didnt rly come through that way.

and now marcy was dead. stabbed in the back by the newt king.

and now annes curled up in an empty bedroom, wrapped up in one of marcys old blankets, trying to wrap her head around her feelings about marcy while reminiscing in the past.

summary - extras/epilogue??

i kind of like the idea that anne ends up drifting off in which ever bedroom ended up being the second one she visited. she slowly comes back to consciousness, with her surroundings feeling somewhat familiar, only to wake up in horror bc “OH SHIT I FORGOT TO GO BACK HOME” im not completely sold on the idea tho bc it feels a bit abrupt and like too much of a tone shift?? idk it doesnt feel exactly right

but anyways, im also playing around with the idea of a small epilogue scene with the calamity trio hanging out in annes room, a good amount of time after amphibia ended. dont know what theyre doing in there, but theyre just chilling and feeling a bit nostalgic i guess.

but uh yeah thats pretty much what ive got for the overall idea. it doesnt feel too out of reach, but somethjng like this would definitely be ambitious. i could mayyyybe handle writing out the vn and drawing the character sprites, but i have no idea how to code a vn or draw detailed backgrounds, both of which would be pretty important to this fangame fjsndj. so i might consider having help with this.

THIS ISNT ANY SORT OF PROMISE OR WHATEVER. id rly love to follow through and make this fangame a thing, but im not making any guarantees. i have no idea if i’ll actually follow through, but i would definitely love to.

who knows. maybe in like a couple years this might actually become a thing. but for now i have no idea

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